.. my day l

went shopping with mum today..
was at centrepoint.. wells.. was pretty upset with service attitudes nowadays. the more you know.. the more you demand. learning about service management over the 1 year made me more sensitive and aware of such. I couldn't stand tt sales girl couldn't care less attitude. so much for telling me she can't speak chinese and she is not answering mum.. when mum tried to communicate with her.

i hate such people. stop looking down on people. not like i couldn't communicate in english. but i was controling myself. if i had spoken.. you wld expect a whole load of scolding frm me! super irritating lah.

den when we entered the hush puppies.. its sucks too. those two sales personnel thot they are like vases standing at the counter wad for. only entertaining the 2 male customers in the shop. if they are here to looking for guys.. please get out man.

i respect service providers. I believe that it takes a great deal to become one. taking in the rubbish frm customers and own colleagues.. and being able to provide good services is admirable. but it just disgusting to think that as service personnel.. you are just there to tend the shop.

oh wadever..

... my day ll

going on the next topic.. i thot and thot.. i kinda know that i shld get a job.. but some things just bothers me.. like youth alpha.. like tuitioning.. like spending time with people.. like kevin being away.. ya. cos somehow i feel like i need to find a job. yet these committments requires alot of flexible timing. they dun come together and i can't drop them.

oh my opportunity comes only when its end of april.. is it hard to find a job then?

thinking abt the 1.8 social worker pay.. is really tough. 3-4yrs of studies.. opportunity cost is 3-4yrs of working life. its about the pay, the pay and the pay. am i really that mercenary? or i really do need tt money? somehow.. where's tt faith i used to have in GoD?

this is tearing the practical me and the trying-to-be-faithful me apart? sickening mans.
alrites. got off some load here. bleahs. anw.. DUN give me COUNSELLING session on my tag. ciaos!

Slam Dunk!

Oh mans... when i heard slam dunk din get to produce part 3... cos they lack of production fees! i was like so sad! like.. Argh. piracy!

How i wish got some slam dunk movie... like death note.. or like.. cont' the series.. oh wells..so sad!

Slam Dunk was a manga that my family and I love! i used to watch it in Sec ONE! i think la... i not sure leh. anyway the idea is that is like beri long ago.. recently.. i took it out cos i'm too free..

but slam dunk is really nice. i mean.. tho i watch everything before already. and know all the next winnings.. i still enjoy it alot alot! oh mans. hah.. hurhur!

more about today..

wells.. besides emo.. i went on job search to find a job today.. wells.. i duno what made me hesitate to sign up right away for an administrative job online? it seems like what i need and want... yet i couldn't make up my mind?

is it because i'm lazy? is it because i wan to find the best match? or is it not the right time? God, i think i also forgot to rely on you. trying to do things without you is just so MY STYLE.. i gotta learn YOURS.

these few days.. due to my utmost free time.. i've been watching hana kimi and slam dunk over again. part of me wanted to spend more time doing such things and spend time with some people.. and it kinda propelled against the job current! oh wells. thanks for complicating things joyce.

alright.. so much more relieved after vomiting out my share.. hurray for blogspot.. ha gave me a chance to air myself..in times like these.. tt's the use of a blog ya!

what rights have I?

just flipping thru my old stuff made me nostalgic! really have no better words to describe me than nostalgic... somehow it made me think of the old times.

somehow.. i duno how come i managed to keep some gibberish letter for years.. looking at it.. i thot i would be laughing.. but instead.. i felt embarrassed and unable to accept it at all. it felt like moments of anguish-ness in me..

unable to calm the raging emotions in me.. i look into another momento..
when i first received it.. i was upset, anguished, confused and even soaked with irritatness... but yet looking at it now.. remind me of the sweetness of the person who gave it to me...

does that shows that i have a soft spot for the giver? haven't i got over everything? or is it just a sign to tell me that i've totally forgive the person n myself? what say you?

overwhelmed by all these raging emotions.. i felt like i need to talk to someone..
looking around i found none apt to share. maybe i'm really just in need of time.. to tide over these emotions and get myself thinking on the right track again...

What rights have I anyway... :/

hello people..!

so you read your daily bread and tell yourself.. nah.. today's topic is not applicable to me? do you have thots of i wan to be different... what God give me must be different la. purposely dun do the same thing as others. ahhaa..do you think it is right to do so?

anyway.. i'm on a long vacation! woo.. people all ask me to rest more. dun start looking for a job now. wells.. for one thing.. i'm not doing anything to get a job la. so i shld quit grumbling and get into action tho.

days without having to go to school seems as fulfilling tho. cos i have been busy every day with different activities. my parents and my siblings are all at home with me. wells.. and somemore i'm like quite bochup with much things... as if i dun need to work.

oh come on.. i need to start looking? can anyone find me a meaningful job..? with flexible timing and rather good pay? hahaa.. this sounds tough huh?

if i dun get into U.. i also duno wad i will end up doing leh..

oh ya.. for everyone's information, these few weeks i have been catching quite alot of movies leh. maybe is to make up for loss time mans. protege, rocky balboa, just follow law, epic movie, casino royale.. actually i duno how many shows i've caught la. lost track somewhere le. maybe i shld get my life back into perspective and control..

for now.. i'm like just flowing along everyone's timetable la. wad useless life.. tho i'm so free.. but i'm not going back to help ue.. aiya. i duno lah.

enough of whining le. haaa.. i'll think of sth to do bah! thanks people. i'll try to make my update more interesting n regular lah. hee..

nitey!