floral arrangement.. ehhe first time!

This is my first time doing floral arrangement for church! its so cool! hahaa.. i love it mans. show you guys the pictures ok?

this is my first attempt in the making...


my first attempt! first product! i'm proud of it! ehee..


This is my 2nd attempt. for all of us.. first attempt bears the similar steps. but second attempt is free expression! so look at all the different expression!


This is Joanne's free expression!


This is Yuming's!


oh ok. this is my 3rd attempt. cos aunt trudy say got alot of white flowers left over. so we just try to put it together. i hope its not bad..


Last but not least.. this is the boy i drew for youthphoria last week.. decided to show everyone! ehee


yup! tt's all for now!

youthphoria

hey! i'm home.. really dead tired now. i'm so tired lah!

i went out this morning with my sis at 8.30am! den we went with aunt trudy to buy flowers at the wholesaler at thomson road. you know if next time i have to buy flowers for service have to go so far. den the flowers so bulky! wah. i think i need a car! and i need to learn driving. or i need a driver.. oh mans.

later i show you the pictures la. now just blog first. den i was supposed to go the the band performance at GCTC! den is like.. in the end no time cos need to do the flower arrangements. den it ended like.. 1pm lah.

had lunch at dover.. den went for worship prac. felt quite dead. my feet were giving way lah. its aches! den like after that was youthphoria. haha... den like still stay back for lantern fest. den spend time with eve for dinner.. wa. i feel like i'm going to die liao lo.

when i was going home.. my feet hurts like anything la. i dragged myself home. gosh. now i need to rest them le lo. hais..

today at youthphoria.. wha kit came for a visit! cool. hahaa.. everyone like so shocked to see him. haha. but it was fun!
den.. wendy challenged all of us to bring back the missing sheep.. and asked us to pray... this is a part of my prayer..

" .. be able to pray uncomfortable prayers. that we will be uncomfortable enough to bring this people back. uncomfortable about the emptiness.. uncomfortable about the lost souls.."

i'm sure God will move. let's look at God. and learn to say "whatever come may, i will go.." cool rite. pastor benny ho said this in his sermon. and i heard it in aunt trudy's car. ahaa.

wells.. i believe that everyday of our lives should have thots about God. hee.. so let's work hard towards loving him. and remembering him everyday! hee..

let me end this post with " youthphoria aspires to be a vibrant community drawing youths to a life-transforming relationship with Jesus Christ, encouraging them to live daily as disciples who serve others in love and nurturing them to become Spirit Filled young adults."

amen to that! yup.

overwhelmed!

overwhelmed!
i'm really overwhelmed with emotions today. i'm feeling really emo now!
oh wells.. you know wad.. i think i'm attached to the kids la. really like darius say i am getting more attached to the kids le. mans. i duno why..

today i got the chance to tok to crystal and the gurls lo. ehe. i think they are really sweet. all of them are happy today. its children day! wells.. like duno how long nv celebrate children day liao lo..

today a little girl came to me and asked which secondary level i'm in la.. ahhaa i told her i long ago grad le. den she called leonard - senior. so i told her.. i'm older than leonard. haaa. and i told her i'm also from red cross like her. and she told me.. she hopes to see me at red cross. and she made me promise her to go.. oh mans. i'm so soft hearted la. i agreed lo. but i think i can't go leh. wun be around for 2 weeks. den by the time i come back.. they will be having exams i think? oh dear. i duno how!!

then.. i went to holland get flowers.. its so beautiful. I enjoyed the fact that i can surprise people with flowers. wonder when i'll also receive it just now. den i decided that i shld not expect. ahaa. no point! haa.. den wells.. its really nice. i am turning more gurl nowadays. really mans. duno why also.

oh den.. i came home.. and my room was packed with 6 gurls. ahaha.. my sis brought her friends home. oh den i just disturb them and crack them up as usual. it was good.

corinne showed me this! http://girltalk.blogs.com/girltalk/courtship/index.html/
read it! oh mans. its like so true lah. Girls shouldn't chase after guys. cos Guys will not cherished the gurl if he din like pursue her himself. and its also not biblical. and its also best to have the guy to take the lead in a relationship!

i'm encouraged by the fact that there are people whom cares enough to blog this down to reached and encourage young christian girls. i mean like.. really. gurls do struggle with all these. i believe it a great way of helping the growth the young gurls.

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tokking about gurls..

looking at my introduction about myself.. its true that every gurl seeks to be a princess. seek to be loved! just now sailendran said that i look pretty in my new hairstyle.. ahah i was happy lah. i just know that is a gurl instinct to be happy.

Cos the fall of man in genesis already pointed out 2 main weakness of human kind. For guys is passivity. and for gurls is insecurity. so... yup. we are only secured in Christ. i believe that!

so yups. tt's why gurls look for security in relationship too. cos relationship is close to the heart. if they are not secured.. the relationship will sour. I remember eve send me a poem that talks about waiting. about waiting til you are ready to be attached. Its so true because in the process.. God is moulding all of us. you n me!

Just wan to encourage the singles. IT IS ALRITE to be single. quoting from i kissed dating goodbye..: Singlehood is God's gift for us to prepare for greater works. hee.. so i'm sure God is moulding all of us to do more of his work. even preparing each and everyone of us for our future partners.. even into marriage!

yuppies. love this feeling of being able to share my thots and feelings. heee..
I guess that's why i need to sit down and prepare for his plans. that's why i need to re-write my criterias. cos God has the best criterias. and I wan to choose the right ones by hearing it from him. and placing my trust in his hands.

Slow down. Be patient. Wait. these are the hardest things to do. yet so IMPORTANT!

Thank you Father for designing us this way. I appreciate your pain-staking efforts and LOVE! Love you, Abba Father!

i did it!

yesh! i did it.
haha.. tabi i choose human communication le. aha.. yesh. so i can communicate with human and not animals. ahhaa....

oh wells.. den i hope its a slack module. so can score easier and focus on the important ones. haha.. cool.

oh ok. today i caught up with tabi! so happy, and we went to cut hair together. erm... i dun wan to show you my picture. so paisae. now i look like small gurl. my dearest eve n corinne commented!

oh ok. wells when you see me.. den i show you lo
aahhaa.. paisae lo. hehee.. yuppies.

signing off.. joyce!

IS enrollment..

oh alrite. this sounds dumb. but i'm actually blogging when i'm supposed to do my enrollment.. got like a few more mins before i can choose.. oh mans..
i'm feeling the stress! sigh. i was still ok at lunch. hahaa.. bad bad bad..

okok.. its coming! hee.. 2 more mins.. i can't wait lo. sians. so scary. everyone must be waiting like me lahz... okok. 1 more min... friends will say.. start entering? hahaa.. shrucks i see stallone online. hahaa..

okok. i go in le.. oh wells... loading..

*****

haha.. i din get any lah. is all taken up. either they are too fast or i'm too slow. its 2.03pm. there is not a course left. ahaha.. too bad mans. is ok lah. maybe dun need take IS. ahaha.. i'll try again at 10pm. pray for a good course mans. i hope more people will choose like 1-5 timing. so i can get morning. sigh..

tata..

Galatians 6:2-10

I woke up early this morning.. and i couldn't get back to sleep. tho i am really tired. guess i'm sleepy. but my brain is awake! oh wells.. i decided to do quiet time instead. haven't start this week lah. so i din know where to begin.. haa. went to ourdailybread and i saw this.. (the verses in bold)

its pretty apt. i know God wants me to get prepared for camp. i heard him told me tt yesterday. but i brushed it away as if its not impt to prepare for camp. okk. i will prepare now. maybe tt's why i can't sleep.

without disturbance.. and with much peace. haa.. this is Galatians 6:2-10!

2Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. 3If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself. 4Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, 5for each one should carry his own load.

6Anyone who receives instruction in the word must share all good things with his instructor.

7Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. 8The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature[a]will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. 9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. 10Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.

oh i read tabi's blog.. den i realised that she sounded ready for camp le. haha. now my turn lah.

I guess God is just telling me that i'm part of the body. i need to carry burdens for others. gotta be more encouraging towards the camp committee and stuff. it feels like a wake up call for myself. argh! alrite! i sense my heart and head telling me that.. its time to reap a harvest for God. i will i will.

yes God i know wad you wan to tell me le. i'm sorry. i did wrong stuff again. sorry for being rebellious.. and lazy. and unwilling. yup. i'll be more prepared for camp. I remember my role. i know my place in you. yuppies. thanks for reminding me.

i'll pen a prayer here la. tho i'll have one my prayer diary later.

Dear God, I just wan to come and pray for the camp. its always good when we commit things into your hands. its always serve as an encouragement to those whom have placed their hands into putting all this together. God, i'm willing to be obedient. i'll turn up for camp with the right attitude and stuff. I pray that Lord, you will bring the right people for us to meet. you will sanctify us. so that we can reach the lost souls. I pray that being trained is for the greater works. And such is only.. reaching people for you and leaving the results to you! Thanks for being merciful on me. I appreciate it Father. Please go ahead and prepare the way for us. I pray that none of Satan's evil plan will work. I pray that you will encourage the hearts of your labourers. In jesus' name i pray, amen!

what a way to start my day!.. haaa..
cya people!

yeah.. nice.

yeah nice.. today i went for UE.. only got like.. 5-6 students den got like.. 5 helpers.. quite cool lo.
today i went earlier cos i had lunch with joanne and annabel. yup. den we chatted and crapped. until about 1 plus. so i went down to UE. yup.

I bought like 3 lollipops today lah. cos i thot i promised arthur tt i'll give me a lollipop when i see him today. haa.. he arh.. cry so hard on friday. and he still remember my lollipop la! ahaa..

den.. i can't remember her name. its xin sth.. den darius say is kristal.. den fine la. i only remember her as the "ah lian" ahhaa.. first day come UE.. she whacked my butt la! wah.. i was like.. huh!!! how come so ah lian de!.. ahaa but i gave her a sweet too. she remembers me super well la. haa..

den.. i was happy today. UE kids are now quite familiar with me la. the usual ones. just that i still can't take attendance. and i think.. they ask me to tell them story la. i dun dare. i always think that i tell story all will sleep la!! ahaa.. so erm.. die! i hope i dun have to. ahaha.. I still remember my Noah's ark story. ahaa.. i din feel beri successful after telling it. ahaa..

oh wells.. ok. erm.. ya lo. but anyway i enjoyed my day lah. the kids are so cute! haa.. den i managed to watch high school musical finally! mans. wished fulfilled. its nice.. and i get to eat curry too.. but it kinda gave me a good appetite when i reached home. ahaha.. i ate quite alot for dinner. yeah. thankful mans.

anw.. thanks for everything. i really appreciate my day. aha.. now not so tired le. so i just come and blog lo. hee.. happy and satisfied. yay!

good nite people.

just blogging some thots

hello.. i'm here again.. hee. i'm thinking about why so many people are falling sick lah! bad weather.. unhealthy diet.. insufficient sleep.. overstretched? oh dear. Gotta pray that all these will go away! i hate it when people are sick. haa.. makes me feel sick too. =(

oh ya. i wanted to blog this thing for quite a while le. din know when is the best time to blog it. but since i'm here.. with some time let me begin with sth...

Issue on sending gurls home..

so where do we draw a line when it comes to sending a gurl home?
do you guys struggle with that?
I just thot about it cos i struggle with guys sending me home at times. Like when i need it.. when i shld say no to it.. does it mean that every time they offer i have to accept it? is it just an issue of safety? shld guys always send gurls home?

what do you think?

To me this is quite a hard to tackle issue.
In my humble opinion.. it really lies on what is the purpose of the guy sending you home? Is he expecting something more when he does that? If he is just being genuinely concerned for your safety.. it is therefore a good thing that he send you home.

It also gives the guys a chance to bulid up their personal development. Giving them a chance to display their gentleman side.

However, if he has been showing signs that he has a purpose more than just the issue of safety.. and you do not want him to do habour any hopes... wad do you do? reject him flatly? give excuses? or wad? hahaa..

personally.. i'll definitely handle it according to situation la. but yet if he insists.. please be clear in your stand and explain why.. den maybe go home with another friend or assure that you will inform him that when you are home bah.

don't be shy in when you are uncomfortable about guys sending you home. I believe that safety is important. yet giving the right signals is equally important. yup.

*****

thots before sleeping

just needed an avenue to like let things out.
its been a heavy day. tiring and stuff. gosh.

went to get stuff in the morning.. it was good lah. but i walk n walk! it reminded me that when i walk to IMM also super far lah!
haha. den ya lo. when to church tired and panting lah! aha.. old liao.

den i drew that ming-ge.. hhaa wendy say look like junming.. i nv even think of junming when i drew it lo. hahaa.. i just followed her picture. anyway.. haa.. its still funny. i like the boy lah. hee.. my new boyfriend leh! ming ge. hahaa..

den went for meeting with sheow en, daniel and joel.. had alot of stuff to think about and prepare le. was bearing with hunger all day lo. yup.

den.. youthphoria.. ahaa.. good la. i enjoyed worshipping without distractions. for once. i think i too tired to think. i nv even think of anything lah. cool. good time with God. please keep it this way.

hmm.. after that was evelyn's party.. i was feeling tired already on the taxi.. i tried my best to up keep my mood. yup. den really thankful! thanks for sponsoring the ride la.. thanks sheow en. yup.

we had lotsa fun there.. and i had some chat with lay kwan. haha.. as usual.. everytime talk to her sure got stuff to tok about.. like God and stuff. haa.. she is quite motivating. yup. her questions got my thinking abit. but i decided that i'm quite set on wad i need.

den.. yup. was quite surprised by someone. nv tell me anything the past 2 weeks. today i stumbled on the truth myself arh! ahhaaaa. i'm smart lah! hee..

den i couldn't upkeep my mood already lo.. tired.. so so tired. wanted time to like scream and chill lo. but cannot la. too many people.
i din get to take picture with evelyn today. tho i took some with lay kwan.. debbie.. yup. i nv take with the main person.

i probrably wun like have a 21st party lo. can you imagine the amount of work required. oh mans. i'm gonna be so tired. if its for myself.. to make myself happy.. i think a small n cosy party with my love ones and close friends.. i'll be so contented le. hahaa... oh ok. can picture it with me ... mmmmm?

but if i have a big and massive one.. i can take time to like thank every single person that touched my life lah. then maybe i will do that la. consider???

*****

today i felt like i've wasted alot of my time of my life away doing stupid things. lousy things. unimportant things. while everyone else is doing productive and good things. haha.

nvm lah. i believe i will have a low in life. like low profile.. being behind the scenes. finding the right things to do. finding the someone that has the same path as me. i believe in the best timing.. the best person.. the best for me! yups. so my high will come. some day.. some time.. some how... ahhaaa.. ok. need to like rest my brainpower le. ahaa..

i'm tired.. tata.

yupyup. evelyn's birthday

i just had a chat with evelyn.. its pretty nice ya. before i start penning my proper thots about myself. let me wish eve:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVELYN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

my prayer for you my dear, (post it here so that others can agree with me in prayer)

Dear God, thank you for evelyn. She is really a great blessing in my life and also in the lives of many others. You have made her unique and special in many ways. Thanks so much for giving her a heart for people and service for others. You have called her to do your work in every ways of her life. I really enjoy this friendship that I have with her and I pray that Lord you will watch over her and provide the best for her in every areas of her life. I believe that only you O lord can give the best to your children. May your love and grace over flow in her life that she will be such a living testimony to those who knows her. In jesus name i pray, Amen.

(and all God's children agree and say..... AMEN!)


oh okok. yup. now about some other stuff.
paisae wor. I've been quite moody on my blog.. esp those that read my blog will realised like.. i'm swaying left, right sometimes happy.. sometimes grouchy. ahhaa.. thanks for still reading and bearing with me.

so my present state:
wells i'm good. really good. thought thru things already. processed.
can like divide into spiritually.. emotionally.. physically ok?

Spiritually: I'm rather slack lah. i'm not really like that consistent with my quiet time with God. Tho i really got make a promise with him. and i really tried to like have a time for him. Just praying and stuff. I think I'm looking for greater intimacy kinda thing. cos i'm just not satisfied with my walk with God. and esp.. i kept allowing satan to come in to tell me lies. so its quite bad i supposed. yup. so yup. i need to pick up my armour and be on alert mode mans. duno the army terms for it. but yup. I think is just be on guard. Pray for me if you can. I really appreciate prayers. Thanks people.

Emotionally: I'm strong. I'm still strong. haa.. I think i'm on a healthy scale for this. No like big things happening in my life rite now. Just abit of friendships problem here and there. Abit of guessing what my friend wants. and where to continue from here. ya.. I hope to establish good friendships with people that will last lo. so yup. That's where satan kept attacking me at la. i know it but i just not on guard. ahaa.

Physically: Actually.. I duno why i keep having eating problems. most probrably is my sleeping hours plus my emotional state of mind. I can eat but not much. Dun really wan to eat also. eating abit abit lo.. den most of the times just eat one meal a day. maybe i shld just might as well conduct fasting la. ahahaa.. (kidding la) oh yup. so ya lo i will still try to eat. hopefully my body will recover soon. yuppies.

last but no least! haaha.. my school..
wells.. timetable is out le. everyday i'll end school at 5pm leh.. only day tt end slightly earlier is monday at 4pm. i dun like it leh. I still considering morning or afternoon IS better? cos there is crusade la. so the natural thot is that.. take afternoon lo. but yet i prefer morning so can spend time with God and doing other things like visit the UE kids in the afternoon mah. haa.. oh wells... i haven't really decide... hope will be good.

oh ya. den i better end here bah. Good nite people. cya!

post-post for 21st..

oh wells.. i think everyone will be looking at the pretty pictures... and just skip my post lah! but i just wanna post sth here! hee.. need to describe wad happened mah.

oh ok. firstly.. walter planned this whole thing ok! den.. ahaa. me and debbie inform people.. and we helped abit with the admin! haaa.. den walter book the place. we had kenny rogers. yay! nicee. but expensive! hahaa...

wells.. i felt unwell just now leh. i think my sickness is not beri easy to recover from lo. i couldn't eat just now.. den hor.. i still keep having headache. i wonder is it radiation! oh no. hais. den i only eat like one piece of chicken.

wells.. i'm really feeling unwell. i kept wanting to vomit everything out in the toilet mans. hahaa.. i hope i'm not aneroxic? ahaha. i doubt i am la. i can eat properly sometimes. ahaa.. but this is bad! appetite comes and go.. as it wishes lo. tho i try to force myself to eat. sigh.

pray for me if you read this ok? thanks peeps. anyway.. yup. i shall log off for now! cya!

Wendy's Birthday

Today is wendy's birthday! hee.. look at the pretty pictures. hee.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR! ehe..

ME and Joanne! hee.. sisters in action! who else yuliang nv go! are you regretting my dear? ahaa..


This is the beautiful cake tt rudy buy! hehe nice rite?


wendy n her cake..


Cos yuliang.. nv go! Wendy took with this bearbear.. dat he got for her! ehe.. Mr Huang.. you are remembered ok?! haha..


God please allow this post! Amen!

enough

enough..

stop it.

its enough.

this is enough.

its too mentally n emotionally tiring. enough.

a woman without love.. is incomplete

a woman without love is incomplete.
such a catchy line huh?

just came up with this line quite a while ago. Some thots of feelings have been running thru me. and draining me out.. sad to say..
this line is so true. whats makes a woman go into depression? what makes a woman cry? what makes a woman protects and fight on?

relationships are just such important part of our lives. I duno about you.. but for myself.. I really love my relationships with people. any unhappiness or misunderstanding can make me depressed for days.. how can a lively gurl become lifeless? the lack of love.

love come in so many forms. friendships, kinships, boy/girl relationships, working relationships.. so on and so forth.. my heart goes out to all sort of relationships. being me, i'm formed in the image of God.. closely knitted with Him. I really am filled with feelings head to toe. If you were to ask me which part of God image that i inherit the most.. i would that it's the heart beating for people.

quite alot of thots ran thru my mind lately..
about how love and hope transform a gurl!?
how love and hope nourishes a gurl?
how the head and the heart contradicts each other?

i think i've been watching go*ng (palace) over these 2 days. its nice really. but i'm only watching it cos i'm too free i supposed.
too much time on hand is bad. but yet.. i'm feeling tired and tensed up.
how can i truely relax before school starts? and wells.. er gu say the beijing trip will be tiring. mans. tt means.. it totally opposite of wad i'm hoping for.

mans. i duno wad i want also lah. i sign up for passiTon camp too. anyway.. i realised i dun really like to blog cos i dun like certain people to read. but wells.. i duno is it.. i got nobody to tell.. so in the end... i'm here again.

here i go.. bye!

just one more post.

just one more post..
i'm so sad. i spent so much time uploading all my pics yesterday. everything was loaded up lo. really! i vouched. den they can't be published. So untrustworthy. and even so.. i went to all the different blog websites to find a new place to blog.. but all look so complicated. i just wan something simple like blogger.. i can't even find tt!

but anyway i'm not tt upset le lah. gave up. its so sick lah!

last night.. i went to don's party. its so nice. got candles, pop-er, balloons, bbq, songs.. everything nice! ahaa..
have fun there tho! yuppies. Thanks for everything! I appreciate the fun!

i am quite worn out yesterday. Quite happy today morning.. now i'm reflective!

yesterday during worship.. i told God.. this is the time of refreshing. this is the time of recharging.. i know there is work ahead of me. i know god will use me for more of his works in front of me. i pray that.. God will use me at the right place.. at the right time.. to produce his best wishes. yup!

oh wells.. yet i am complaining to God is my last post..
isn't human confusing? i think i'm one confused gurl.

even tho i'm supposed to know what i want. i'm not the wishy washy kind of gurl k.

now i duno lah. its quite sians.

Help me O God. I'm so lost.. without you.

not used to it..

God,
I'm really not used to it!
I can't stand doing nothing.
I hate to be a nuisance to others.
why is my time not evenly spread out!! i can't stand it!
I used to be so happy on weekend cos its my rest day. (and its like only a few hours to rest kind)
I used to be so thankful for rest.

I used to be the one that says i'm busy...
I used to be the one that is working hard...
I used to be filled with activities 24 hours a day..

i'm not grumbling tt i have rest.
i'm not grumbling tt i have got time.
but i'm just so not used to it.

why why why!

i used to ponder over questions like.. if i'm stripped off everything i have. school..
ministries..
duties..
roles..
blah blah...

what am i reduced to? just me! me and me only. oh wells.. i used to be too busy to eat. to even sit down to listen to God. DEN why now i got so much time i also dun listen to God? Tho i used to say.. God if i just have another hour.. if i just got more time.. i can sit down and do nth but listen to him.

BLUFF!

I cheated God. mans.

feeling sore? got use meh? move on lah.

actually if you reflect.. ur holidays are good wad. you got what you wished for so so so so so so so long! which is ample rest. ample time.. oh ok.

Fine. i duno what i want now.

confused me. sigh.

i stand in wonder

lord your grace is just so overwhelming for me. i really am so touched by you dear.
you know what i was just so envious of people who can blog such long thots about you and about your work in their lives. but i can't. like blogger is not working well. like i duno how to find the right words to express myself..

i'm not those A1 students that do so well in their english language.. or even in liturature. I'm not a scholar in this field. but yet i love to express myself thru words. i duno why. but all these are expressions of love i supposed. words expressed life and love to people.

its just such a scary thot.. when i feel that hearts have changed. its such a scary thing. even in myself. I realised i cannot treat people the way i used to once i have a change of heart. i was in wonder when i wondered if my friends are lidat to me too. its such a awesome thing that God.. you are the love and motivation of our lives. i could totally rely on you even if all my friends are like gone! going thru this period of ups and downs in my life.

and what i went thru in YMLC.. how i can't seem to blog tt post.. and my birthday too. i dun understand lah. just quite wierd lo.

i just wan to summarise my thots into one sentence.. i'm overwhelmed by God's love. You have done crazy things in my life just in this past week. I love you Daddy!

an eventful day!

woo.. today is so eventful leh...
first i got my results.
then i walk in the rain. haha trying to send umbrellas to people! hee.. tabi and kevin. i'm so drenched. i'm was trying to play the good guy. heee..
then we spent time at my house.

den i lost my handphone.. I tell you arh.. I was super calm when i lose my phone! mans. i'm so like cool abt it. Ask tabitha! she is my best witness and kevin also. i just call and terminate the stuff. haaa.. i think my good results have positive impact on me! yeah!

then we went to shopshop for presents. super busy lah. we spent 2 hours shopping. and i brought myself slippers. hee.. so proud of myself. ehe.. i got good buys today. alot of great discounts. hee.. love it.

then i had dinner at dover. ehee.. everything is good n in the Lord's hand.

Thank you god! love you

Exam Results

haha.. today exam results are out!
wells.. my sms came at 8.07am la.
I was still sleeping when i came.
I set my alarm at 9.30am lah. so it rang!
den i switched it off. den i saw i got 1 message received.
I din know its my results sms la!
Or i wouldn't have pressed it! oh mans.
Den the results was right in front of me...
Face to face - the first thing in the morning.
Got no chance to bulid up the feel lah. hahaa..

But God is good! All the time! hahaa..
i got my prayer answered! ahaa.. 3 As. 1 B+ and 1 C+
hahaa.. i'm happy lah. i have to be contented. yup.
tho the C+ was unexpected. abit sad la. but the 3 As are also quite cool.
hahaa.. yup.

back from prayer meeting

just came back from prayer meeting..
tired mans.
recently i can feel the workaholic me complain say.. i'm too slack!
den the lazy me say its just nice... haa..
actually i think good to rest lah. but after this i must really work hard le. i am going to jiayou for my last sem lo. hee.. now that i've got a better direction. more motivation to run. oh wells.. actually i'm supposed to type out my 8 or 9 sermons. haha.. i'm like so lazy...

i haven't been productive at all. cos i've not been actively creating things for myself to do. ahhaa. why am i lidat.. is this part of post ymlc syndrome.. my life like so sian sian de. yup. i need to be motivated.

someone give me some form of motivation. i'm rotting.. slowly...

duno why

dunno why i try to like blog my birthday umpteen times but dun work lah!! and then i try other stuff it works. so diao. maybe someone dun wan me to blog about my birthday. fine is ok. i shall not lah.

then.. wells.. i've been feeling quite low recently. friendship problems. haha but is ok. dun worry about me.. i've got it altogether le. yup. joyce will not let problems nan dao wo de! i am a problem conqueror! yay! heee...

wells.. now i just so thankful. cos after ymlc... i actually got a better idea of wad i wanna do after i graduate leh.. hee.. will share more next time. nowadays i dun trust blogger. they happy happy post my post. not happy then dun let me post. me so sad lah. okok. gotta go le. hee..

i'm so proud of myself. i did good deeds yesterday leh. then later i going prayer meeting. yay. i'm guai. okok.

enough le. later you all buay tahan me! aha.. tata

today's outing

oh i went out with er gu today.. hee she is quite cute la. we went delifrance together. we had fun talking. we will look forward to china trip ok? hope that i can go there n learn more lessons. if got chance.. i hope to share more about God with her.

went out with steffi today. I enjoyed her presence. she is so nice la. as usual. I missed the days when i see her every week for disciple.. hee.. i missed the times where we could tok beri often. i missed her. so today is good. love ya stef!

Got people ask me whether i am looking forward to sunday..

My answer: Nope. Only 30%. 10% cos it is the day la. 10% cos i know i will not be alone when 12 struck. 10% cos I know i have friends tt remember.

tt's quite high le. the higher your expectations.. the more disappointed you will be. so i intend to keep it tt way. last year i received 30 smses from my friends to wish me well.. i'm already beri happy le. I wanna keep myself at the easily content rate. cos if i try to push it higher.. i might not even enjoy myself at batam or sth! hahaa...

yup. hee.. i'm blogging not cos i wanna hint anything. just like cos i wanna vent it out. today i'm at peace. with my bed and my home. so nice! hee.. =) i'm still thankful to God. I know being in God presence is gonna be my best gift this year. hee! huggies. just love it so much. God is always good.

its leaked out le..

yesh. its leaked. someone told people about my blog. i'm sian diao liao. i duno who reading liao. thanks lo! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I dun like. Read my blog behind my back!

why people read blog dun say de!! irritates me. cos my level of openness changes to match the type of readers. if you try to intrude my life without telling me. then i tell you.. i'll also give you rubbish.

**** sighs ****

ok la. its my blog. follow my policy. you read.. you tell me. tag or msn or wadever.

**** enough of rumblings ****

tml is YMLC le! yeah! I'm finally looking forward to YMLC la. tho frm the start i was abit sians. but now i'm ok le. and i'm looking forward to a break from people. tho i know still will see people i know. but i heard tt in every group there is beri low chance of meeting someone of the same church. so i think quite good. nobody knows me.. i noe nobody. get to know new friends. see what kind of personality i wanna show tt group. haha.

also.. i wan to be motivated by the camp tho. i hope it will really serves the purpose of motivating.. connecting and learning. i'm looking forward to be fed. so at least i am just going to like be a learner. be humble and be still.

oh ok. my packing list...

3 shirts
1 berms
1 shorts
1 denim skirt
Face Towel
Toothbrush n tooth paste
Comb
Toiletries (shower stuff)
Tissues
Swimsuit
Plastic Bags
Bible
Writing Materials
Sweets
Specs n contact lens
Slippers (wear out)
Handphone charger
Camera


wah.. wad else arh.. PASSPORT!!
like got alot of things to bring lidat.. haha.. if got more i'll add on.. hehe.. til laters.. i publish first bah. here i go...

i'm back

i'm back.. after a little break. i'm so upset with my blogger lah. so i din come and blog. cos i still cannot see my pictures. but nvm la.


i've been quite busy. and then like i dun even remember wad i did lah. must like sit down and think thru.


monday i caught up with gwendolen! woo.. her name sounds like lord of the ring character rite? haha.. everyone say so. mans i missed her la. when i saw her i was like so happy. heee.. it din matter what time and where. ahaa. tho like always the same place. ahaha. we exchanged gifts. Happy Birthday Gwen! i love you! hee..


tuesday i met up with sherny. ya tt's like something i wanna do for a long time le.. hehe.. i was glad tt i did! guess its always nice to spend time together. i enjoyed myself. and i hope she did too. =) lurvve you too sherny! hee...


wednesday which is today.. i went for a retreat with evelyn. wells.. i went to jurong park. so nice got waters, trees, playground, shelter, insects, breeze.. haha just nice for a retreat.. haha. i wanted to take some pictures de. but like my cam no batteries. heee. and i think i lost confidence in blogger le lah. lousy! haiz. see how bah....


oh then we studied together with walte! hee.. sorry walte i pangsei you.. i nv go prayer meeting. cos i'm just too tired. i only had 2.5 hours of sleep. yesh i know.. everyone will start nagging at me and say go SLEEP! haha.. i'm trying to.. soon la. okok. but i'm glad walter came to study with me and eve today. we met audrey, beverly and clarence too. hee.. nice aldersgate gathering. hee.. I miss our study corner! hee...


okok.. i better go le. take care peeps!

just some things i wanted to blog for very long

hey.. this is wad i've been trying to blog but dun have chance!
this is corinne's postcard for me. hehee.. i'm so happy! flown from salburg! hee..







then.. this is what we took on rayson birthday but its abit blur lah. not sure whether you can see properly.

friendship project

Hello! i'm blogging all my pics up. anyway.. i'm glad that i went for the outing today. I realised that i can actually enjoy myself when i'm not stressed up. sounds dumb? I think i've lost my play sense.. over my busy-ness. i duno lah. quite funny hor.


but got people who duno how to cry.. sure got people who duno how to play mah. I lost my play sense along the way. i think i dun even know how. may be its cos the people i mixed with.. may be the weight tt i carry.. wells.. i really duno. hee. but i'm glad tt i enjoyed myself. ehe.. enjoy the pics la.


i look super white hor? now i noe why the students ask me.. teacher why you so white? are you from china? ahhahaaa... okok. sure. i try to speak like them lah! haaa. put the er- sound? haa.. guess i learnt tt from my aunt properly before. but.. some how i lost it le. ahaa.. maybe can try to learn again.


** oh oh.. i left out the details of wad we did there***


oh ok.. we play running games.. lao ying zhua xiao ji! ahaa.. its crazy. den also like some bursting of plastic bags game.. and we had a hard time trying to retrieve the rocket.. its ps bernard's ahaa.. we need to write confession le. dat we lost it. and cannot retrieve back anymore. so sorry.


then we play with the sand lo. i just chit chat with people. they celebrated sept babies. haa. actually.. most people duno who having birthday la. tho i can memorise all by hard le. but i tell you all lo.. in case forget.. they are.. henry, donovan, evelyn, corinne, lijia, tiffy tan, yuliang, tcher wendy, ben ooi, for church la. =)

sweet.

aww.. its just so so so so so so so so so so so sweet! oh mans. i shldn't be watching this at this hour leh!! jin san shun! oh mans.. like how sweet la!


mans.. its super funny when she asked the guy.. why here.. why here.. why is the guy toilet? haha. cos he kissed her in the guy toilet and can you like imagine tt he confessed his love in the guy toilet!! dat's like how crazy lah. faints. please la. which gurl wants it in the toilet?!!! ahaaaa.a..


but anyway its too sweet lah. cannot stop watching mans. i probrably need to ban myself from all the romance-comedy la. i love them but.. hais. cannot la. watch already.. become crazy! ahhaa.. aww...


but its super sad la. i feel super bad for xizhen la (in the show). Tabi say de so zhun! haiz. but then its like.. no choice. somehow i could identify with choosing one only kinda thing.. mans. tt's why i'm not ready mans. cos i learnt one thing from past experience.. i can't commit to one person! haa.. too hard!


but i din break up due to third party la. ahahaa.. dun think too much. its just hard to commit to one person lo. i admire couples that last thru the storm and thru the long years of marriages. its almost crazy lah. how could someone sane manage to do that. oh mans.. tt's why love is crazy la. its not like sane act. woo.. tt sounded chim! ahaa..


what a timing.. wrong song playing la. all or nothing at all.. remember o town? haa.. you know hor.. sitti and me shared this common instinct.. whenever i listen to this song.. i remember her. and i remember the guys during sec school years. ahaa. aiya. nobody is able to identify with me now. sob!


sitti where are you? i miss you. You know no matter how many friends i have and how you have changed.. nobody.. no one can take your place in my heart.. sisters. best friends. growing partner! mans i love you. i know you wun be reading la. but i just wan to say it out. bottled up too long not good. yup.


okok la. today its an emotional day. I had abit of rollercoaster ride with my emotions. esp.. its just OUCH.