Wednesday, August 31, 2005
no lessons todae=) began sch with aces day.was the ndp dance agn.bleah.kept repeating the steps over and over agn.then it slowly went out of point.esp the last part where the song its like totally super out of place.heh.
then went on to teacher's day celebration.think it was more dead than last year?but was suffering in there esp sitting with chiok.never a safe soul to be with.HAHAHA.
aftr sch,played bball for awhile then left for heartland to eat and play netball with angeline.teresa.eunice.mel.cheryl.pauline.clarissa and me.then halfway played with melvin and some of his sch frens.saw xiao wei[cedar]!! she is damn cute esp the way she smiles and all.heh.then saw rafia[think it spelled this way] along the way too.jus trying to find ways to pump me but can't!haha.
went home aftr netball+a long long discussion at the hawker centre.
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Monday, August 29, 2005
intended to blog ystd.actualli i did but my dad came in so had to cross every single stuff.rahh.
shall write it ALL over agn.
went to changi clubhse to help out in their open hse.had the privilege to have every ride for free!haah.uncle tan's catamaran is damn cool la.went in to tour ard the boat.its air-conditioned inside,the first thing u see when u enter is where u eat,chat..then at the right is where he does his work.2 bedrooms at each corner and a toilet. the left side,more rooms!and a toilet with sauna.goodness. at the front of his boat,was the trampoline.went there to jump and down.haha.but din dare to jump harder otherwise i will go right down into the water!HAHA.i seriously dun mind living there for the rest of my life.thats IF i was rich enough.heh.
another one was called ''rising tide''.its bigger but and has a proper kitchen.can relax and slp while ur food is on the table at the centre of the boat.suppose that is the kinda life everyone yearns?haa.
went on the powerboat,and i drove it!FUN! drove it out to sea and weekee drove it on the way bac.wanted to go for a second time but did not in the end.sat the banana boat.they wanted to make us capsize but we manage to keep ourselves upright.haah.
valencia and sergin then joined us for the second round.while waiting,one by one fell into the sea.and i think i am evil,cos i pushed valencia and hazel down the water.and poor valencia got cut real badly on her leg by the barnicles while getting up.realli sorrie.i realli dun mind paying medical fees for you.heh.
i was pushed too!! by JEREMY..rahh.actualli he tried for the first time but failed instead weekee went in then he tried the second time and then fell in. looking at hw it started,tracy started it off!haha.
ended up not gng for the second round.=((
aftr it all ended,went to grandma's place.stood in the train throughout right from the end of east to the end of west.
both my grandpa's dun recognize mee!!*sob* frm what i observe is mainly my hair.and they both said the same thing!but one said i look bigger when he last saw me.oh wells.i still feel insulted!rahh.
todae went bac to sch for the cyberwk thing.had to find mrs chew cos of some test paper.and i needed to retake it!!din even prepare it laa. failed it.she marked it on the spot.7/25.i rem taking it laa.and i cld have passed it,studied hard on tt topic and nw i felt i wasted my effort in thinking all those crap.sighh.went home aftr doing up the cyberwk stuff.
feeling so darn not in the mood in sch.i don't know why.angry with the whole world.pfft.
now i see it,i just knew it wld come somehw.for all i have done,i realised its all one word''used''.i have suspected it for quite sometime,and i think there isn't much to trust about.its been years i am going through this and i thought it would be better when i grew older.but it seems there isn't much to compare from the past to the present.i seriously am doubting the word friendship existing.
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Friday, August 26, 2005
stayed home cos its day1 for cyberweek.good that i needn't wake up early.but doesn't mean i have escaped,there is still work.i felt this year's is better than the 2 other years?think its less stress.but still i've gotta say its tedious.
woke up feeling scared.nope its not a nightmare.i am not sure of myself too.all i knew that i wasn't prepared to face the exams and the results aftr.this was leading to many stuff.jus cldn't figure out wad my life was turning to.sighhs.
mum called suddenly,said she was at ps.hmm..was jus wondering what was she doing there. she asked me abt the dock thing!=)) she almost bought the wrong one! in the end was told to go down there to get it with my cousin since cousin is getting me the jacket ltr.can't wait.
i was hoping but since its fixed.i am ok with it.
i've tried,u've tried,we've tried.still nothing will change u being in my life.
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
i seriously thinking that i am not used to s'pore's day and night. cos i fall aslp in the day and feel awake in the night.was tired agn at the start of sch.esp the first 2 periods which was eng.was practically slping behind.hiding behind miaoting's back cos the view was good enough to fall aslp.haha.failed my cloze passage by a mark.actualli it passed me but realise a mistake.was honest enough!! haha.okok BE HUMBLE seetoh suying.[sounds familiar]
ms chew was the next one who then told me ''seetoh, u got a very high chance of retaining this year''.sighhs.
i really regretted so much.seeing myself wasting 8 mths doing nth.gosh,time is really precious.
think abt the half the class saw the vain side of me! haha.even lao shi saw,but she din realli care.was like right in front of her.was like borrowing mirror frm elsie then evan's wax to do my hair.suppose the class was like okok,nice alreadi la.but i refuse to stop!haha.till chapel time.took a whole of 35 mins to become satisfied with my hair.HAHA.
went for mass prayer cell aftr sch then went home by grace's car. thanks grace=).
-every action u do unknowingly tells another your overall character.just watch how you behave before executing what you intend.
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
sat and sun was almost the whole time out at sea.well,not really but was jus occupied with sailing.yepp.stormy weather for both days.oh wells.
2 weeks ago was whacked by the boom so darn hard that i cldn't think well the next for math test.it was jus one word'PAIN'. was having headache the whole day in sch.rahh.
realised i had a bump at that particular corner of my head.nice.
last week was jus storm and rain.recovery was difficult,wind was so strong.cld jus see the sea with capsized boats,one by one.
and i seem not to get the right trolley for my laser.switch like 3 times la.
mon,my b'dae!!=)) the day seem to past sooo fast.recess had no idea they had a cake for me.was damn touched,but the ending was MEAN!!haha. they submerged the candle into the cake and was suppose to use my mouth to take it out. when taking, face got pushed into the cake!!arhh!! fun though.next in class had another surprise,the durian cake was DELICIOUS. thanks to those who bought it=)) aftr sch the sec1 sqd gave the meanest surprise.they filled my face with cake and whipped cream!!sec1s wasn't spared,cos of my revenge!!haha.not only them,jelly and cheryl wasn't spared too!!!!haha.enjoyed myself though.
reached home at ard7.
I REALLY WANT TO THANK ALL THOSE WHO WISHED and MADE MY DAY!!=))
-school friends!!!![ esp my class!!!thank u all for the surprise u have given to me!!=))))) not forgetting those i knew frm other class,u are not forgotten!heh.
-sec1 sqd'05!![nvr forget the meanest plan u all plotted.haha.keep up with the creativity u all have put in!!=)]
-out frm the sch zone too! kennard,chelsy,eunice,joel,lipeng,hazel,valentia,weekee,serjin,wen...
those who weren't named,it doesn't mean i have left u outt.u will be always remembered!!haha.
today,was realli tired.was dozing off esp during bio.even when ms koh was saying something which meant to be interesting?heh.i din noe hw i ended slping.i jus rem huiyu turned to me cos she wanted to tell me something and at tt point of time ,i kept going lower,lower and lower and bang!onto the table slping.cldn't take it anymore,went to ask ms koh to go to the toilet,b4 she allowed she was telling me it was an insult to her cos what she was saying abt meant to interesting but i end up slping.oh wells.
pe,i din noe why i din have energy to play,mrs teo then ask me whether am i tired.was wanting to get an 'A'!! saying of it,i failed my math test,again. i am really sick and tired of failing.when will i wake up?seriously.
aftr sch,went lunch with pauline at gardens.then both of us was actualli intending to jus say hi to gannies but ended up sitting outside the door crapping.went home next.got fetched to the bus stop,thx uncle.took the bus,met my neighbour,he rem me!heh.
alighted,was picked up by grace mum's car..thx auntie and of cos jeslyn otherwise i wld be continuing walking all the way home.haha.
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Thursday, August 18, 2005
had 3 tests todae..was jus wondering how in the world am i gonna survive thru.but still i made it! however the worse/best i yet to come?results it is!heh.first was s.s,a sure fail basis?din realli read the papers and there was some ques tested based on the recent news.
next,geog....was trying to recite the processes in my head during recess.fairli was again trying to make me horny!! haha.forgetten the harvesting process!!rahh.
saying of recess,celebrated mel's b'dae!though the cake din taste as good but we still had a good time.we were unique in a sense,cos we were one whom celebrated without lighted candles!haha.
aftr sch,went to yck stadium to watch rugby match. ACSI won. wanted SA to win!!oh wells. still i am happy for acs! score was 16-12.
one thing i was jealous of, is...they cld get muddy!! haha.but mainly is i wanted to learn the game.jus love the way they barge thru sending a few fly offs.haah.
went home next,was expecting my dad to say something.as predicted,he asked why was i late,told him the truth.was suprised tt he din realli mind?oh wells.
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
firstly i wld like to wish a few people a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
-ADELENE
-XIUWEN
-NICOLE ANNE CHEE
-MELINDA
-JINHUA and PAMY[which falls on 29th]
for those i somehw i forgot,not to fret,u are not forgotten!happy birthday to u all too=))
was feeling rather tired in sch todae*yawns*.had 2 free period of math cos ms gan wasn't there.2-3 tests tmr,well good luck to me.
went to heartland with wan chung,grace,xue er,pamy and fangs.i think i am addicted to BK's fries+chilli+ice milo.but still i prefer long john's fries!!haha.went home in a cab and poor grace,got hit by the taxi door at the ear when entering.hope u are feeling okay!=))
reach home,saw something that made me and grace feel weird abt.
GRACE- i am feeling weird about it too!! HAHA.
PAMY-don't get so easily agitated yeah.RELAX=))
don't feel sorry about it anymore,cos there isn't much to apologize.it wasn't a mistake or anything after all.you have all the right to do anything you want.really.not to worry and don't ever blame yourself anymore.cheer up=)).
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Friday, August 12, 2005
ystd was awoken by the lightning as in not the sound but the light.even hiding under the blanket cldn't realli help.
went to sch agn rite at the dot 720.heh.told to remain in class for assembly.sch started frm there.mus thank gannut for helping me polish my boots!! haha.thanks a lot!i mus say u did realli well polishing it.heh.though at the end of the day i still ask u to polish agn,but of cos u were wise enough to say no.hee.
had np aftr sch,was the pc and i jus practically screw up every single stuff.esp the pledge!sighhs.jus can't forget that moment.damn.
had lecture and test for crime prevention thing but i can't get the badge yet!!!cos i din go for service day!so need to do some assignment to replace it.rahh.
had rifle drills next cos next week is promo test!hopefully they cld pass me esp under my sch conduct.sighhs.
went home next.my mum is finally home!!!=)) haven seen her for abt 3 weeks!bought my favourite chocolate!!and it only can be found in germany. besides snicker cruncher being my favourite.heh.
gonna slack throughout the whole day.next week is gonna be busy.tests aftr tests.hopefully i dun fail every single one of it.
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005
had ndp drumming the whole day. was having it under the sun.by the end of the day,all of us were all looking real burnt.including me!haha.its been a while i have been like this.
some went super high,think they will be on papers for this year's ndp.haa. was damn pissed at the end of the day.was lining up to return the instrument,some ppl were so happily jumping queue. and this particular guy was so freaking irritating.firstly was almost confronted by him till i had to apologize to him.like wads his damn prob asking the whole world to apologize. and next,he has so much to comment on every person.jus felt like stuffing grass or soil frm the grd into his stinky mouth.
oh yaa,not forgetting todae i was getting bullied so much frm fairli!was like trying all means to touch my ear,to the extent of biting it.goodness.but of cos i was defensive!HAHA.
tired.
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Sunday, August 07, 2005
went for FOP ystd. was suppose to meet meishi and jelly but i was late!and being late always have a bad ending at the back.cos my dad help me made a detour to macs to get food for me.aftr tt reach there,there were 2 entrances,super crowded.was trying hard to find them in the queue.wasn't allowed to jump queue.but in the first place din have ani idea which entrance were they at.ended up lining up alone.rahh.at the same time ate my fries.
waited for more than hour.then aftr tt they announced to us they left less than 100 seats inside.waited and waited....then they said last 15 can go in.and wish us luck.push my way thru...was the last few lucky ones.phew.this small boy in front of me got dragged in by his parents laa..as in literally dragging!poor boy. though he was kinda sweaty.haa.
those who din get to get in were issued an insert of a 'cross' cd.
wina actualli had a seat inside for me but the security was damn tight inside.tried persauding them but they kept saying no.arghh. they had spotchecks too of food and drinks.confiscated my drink.was expecting them to confiscate my food but they jus pass me!haha.
was brought to this ''room'' with temporary chairs,frm there we see thru the screen.so actualli i was out frm the live stage!=( still i have to thank god for me being able to get in.
it was great i can say.still prefer sonicfest though.still both are GREAT!=)
dad came to pick me up.as well as meishi, jelly and wina.
was munching my half-eaten burger bought b4 the start of fop.everything is like soggy alreadi la but still it makes no diff to me.haha.
ahh!! i starting to miss obs once agn.this sudden thought of it. i dun noe why but i realli feel like gng backk there agn.
there are jus 2 events i wan to go bac badly:
1: OBS![esp the 3rd day onwards]
2:NPDP![the drill sequence and not forgetting the break time!!]
slacking my way thru at home nw.not able to do this by next week onwards animore!tried studying for lit but i dun seem to understand the book.rahh.
i have learnt something,which is there are somethings i tried telling you which at that point seem real crucial to me but you did not get to hear well.but then soon i realised you will find all means to find what did i say.because of that,i admired you.i could tell you were really sorry about it,i have forgiven you.i really did.still i can't figure out the choice given to me.how important is it,i wouldn't know till you tell me.jus remember,stop saying sorry because i have taken it in and u are really really forgiven.
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Saturday, August 06, 2005
thank godness my come is backk agn.dad said cos some screw attached to the on button went loose and dropped inside.oh wells.
think i can realli chop+gurantee say gdbye to my class this year.i am retaining. [no need to owe me anything,its not worth it]
sighhs.i am yearning for a miracle nw.
aniwaes had full dress rehearsal ystd for sch's ndp aftr sch.guess someone's angry cos i timed despite my throat being real sore.sorry.i know its all for the concern for meeee rite?hahaaha.damn,i am feeling ego.
i am fustrated with one thing!!!4 frm gb got invited to become the flag bearers for serangoon gradens sec for some event. np was also invited BUT!we din reply!!!arghh!!!part of my dream has jus gone dwn the drain!!damn.
so much for being so fustrated with all these.pfft.
got woken up in the middle of the nite by a bad pull at my left calf.not the first time though.realised it happens whenvr i either do drills,bball or swim.
told tt i was gonna go bac sailing on 14 aug.and its on a sunday!gonna be dead tired on the following mon. and the best thing is on some weeks is gonna be both sat and sun.depending on the regettas coming up.pray it wun affect my studies though.my weekend is gone jus like this.
worse,i have forgotten hw to wrig the boat up.best of luck to me being malu-ed there then.
gng for FOP ltr=)
i don't understand why are you asking me give a choice.in the first place,i don't remember making any choices for anything.is there? if there is,spell it out. as far as i tried, i think i have told you many times that i have given you the authority to make choices of my personal life in terms of friendship or as you said maybe more than that.you the one who refuse to take it up from there.will tell you here again, i am giving you the green light to make those choices. now its really up to you.
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