(((: hehh. sorry for invading but i just need ta tell u something. that i miss you loads loads loads too! (((: take care alrite! and keep that pretty smile of yours on always. ((((: `MANYMANYLOVES!
ps. i love the wayy we settle things. HAHA. ((:
RODE;
had no mood for lessons.was darn tired.cldn't help to keep myself awake.sighhs.those sitting around me were asking whether something was bothering me,it was either angry or something else to them.do i realli look that dead serious when i dun smile? even mr leow told me i look tired and restless during his period.din realli do much during art.leow was crapping with some of them laa.did my geog revision then,felt quite surprised doing it....din noe wad was gng on jus felt like?haah.actualli it was some sort of hmk for the stupid sunday class..pfft. think ms chew is realli irritated by beatrice's calling.haah. beatrice:control wad u say at times yea girl?haha.
now tt the main character knows it i am so dead.[jus dismiss this if u dun get it]
had the ms congeniality semi-finals aftr sch.our class entered the FINALS!!!=)) keep up the good work joyce!and not forgetting the effort the class put in to dress her up!shall pray and hope 3d1 wInS!!
took grace car home..jeslyn is realli mean!haha.she taught belle bad stuff*shake head* was sabo-ed by both of them!and being such a dickhead in facing small kids,i jus sat and and froze.i cldn't think of anything at tt point of time!heh.but still had some sort of fun on the way home.hee.thx grace for the ride home=)
-I MISS GANNIES!!=)))-
RODE;
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
realise part of the class is so holy!haha.we were like having singspiration in class.3d1 chapel in class whenvr aftr a period is gone. today's chapel was like one of the best out of the rest.and the speaker sang so well.jus wish i had those voice..*dreaming*. went to gardens mac with siva.grace.pam.mel and xuebs. jus cldn't stop laughing when we there.esp siva!she was like laughing so hard till she cried and her face was realli red.and i can't deny something,she laughs like a seal! haha.if u think deeper,its actualli something positive.why does no one think tt way?hmmm...jus wondering. went to the pet shop to see dogs.mel was like so engrossed in this small dog she saw.forgot the breed alreadi but it was kinda cute.I am still in love with the golden retriever!!so darn cute.however if i ever miss it,danzyl is still the one!! love him to bits.haha. spent quite some time at the pet shop.went home aftr tt with grace.
-was jus wondering if i stop will it mean tt everything wld be lost? sometimes i jus wondered whether its more to a job for me than a thought.
RODE;
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
there goes the first day of sch of the new term..time realli do fly!heh.change of timetable and seating arrangements..think in the meantime,the day i favour wld be tues!it jus seem to pass fast enough for me to realise sch is over.haah. and now mondays there are 3 straight periods of chem!!ahh!but this may be gng on for the first3weeks.so shall see. hmm...but actualli on second thought,it isn't tt bad.jus realise i am damn fickle minded.*bangs head against the wall* ms koh change my seat!!tried bargaining with her abt changing my place and worse come to worse its jus one table alone.meaning i am seating without a partner!!*cries*.tried telling her abt creating symptoms and signs for depression abt sitting alone blah blah and all the crap i cld think at tt point of time.but i guess it failed in the end. todae almost the whole class was late for assembly.we were all changing for p.e super last min.by the time we went down everyone was there waiting. math had 2 periods and it seem to past fast?for the first time i felt it past jus like tt.guess becos i knew hw to do the sums?FIRST TIME.s-e-r-i-o-u-s!its been a while i have been complimented by the teacher.sounds like nth but i suppose its a great achievement for me. chem was fun!mrs chew is realli cute.she was askin someone to be some timer for the class b4 greeting her.and becos i timed for the previous lessons everyone pointed me out!haha.and mrs chew had the same thinking too!she str8 awae named me out.guess i shld be honoured!!=)) and cos our class was real noisy,she told me to time3 mins on my watch cos for tt 3mins no one cld talk except her.otherwise we need to restart it.and we restarted it for dunno hw many times laa!haha.so she began teaching wad she suppose to teach and at the end of her speech,it wasn't time yet so she started out saying she wan to thank her mum and dad blah blah until it was up.haha.she jus rock.
i seriously feel WEIRD.
RODE;
Friday, June 24, 2005
i wan to dragg this holiday longer!!din get to enjoy any bit of this whole holiday.sighhs. these few i don't understand why am i getting so angry and moody.having a huge instinct whether issit the problems arising in my life affecting every part of my mind.literally clouding and pouring.come to think of it,its getting scarier day by day.pfft.
had obs bbq on friday.went aftr LMSC.so was rather late.actualli not tt.heh. dad drove me there=)) saw my ''brother''!!actually erm..think i wld consider him as my sister.he is damn gay.haha.but his gay-ness is out of innocence!meaning his gifted for it?haaH.love his stussy shirt=)) keith jus rock laa,whoever hears wad he did wld find hard to believe.but maybe for only those who are upright?haha.he went to take the bottle opener frm cheers and use to open the bottles he bought then place bac in the packaging and then bac to the cheers shelf!wad a thing to do!ROCKS. some went off earlier cos they went to play arcade. then they played truth or dare.i din playy!!lucky!!was playing soccer with joanne,edward and i think yang cheng.cldn't realli rem cos was tackling edward almost the whole time!!while joanne was blocking yang cheng. haha. she was laughing all the way laa..funneh. been quite a while ever since i last played.and edward said i was GOOD!!shall remain humble and not continue with that.heh. ended abt 10.waited for dad to come pick me up.fetched grace and gannies home. next day had to wake up early for the last of of LMSC.was damn tired and slpy..luckily its half day.everyone was telling me i looked real slpy.was pushed to be the i/c for sqd3.as in physically pushed!!cldn't do anything cos i was rather tired and felt kinda sick then. as usual was falling aslp during lecture.wens was chanting me to slp at the other corner.always. manage pass the test!!24/30.i cld have gotten 26!! if i hadn't cancell my first ans!!oh wells. went to cut my hair next.was struggling with my chi when communicating with the hair-cutter.gave her a hard time trying to figure wad i wanted to say.
had sec4 farewell todae.jus predicted it wld be screwed up.it did.our sqd did fashion show and being the ''grand-daughter'',was made to tie my hair at the top!looks as if i was some insect haveing feelers at the top. everyone was commenting laa.shall not be ego there.
RODE;
Sunday, June 19, 2005
was damn tired ystd..had quite a hard time trying to pay attention during class.kept rubbing my eyes*rubb eyes* din noe why did i went insane this morning.jus went on complaining to jac on my bed abt dreading to go for class.at tt point of time,i was super duper tired. then she went on to say abt my hair in the morning.she hoped to have that??cos it was all standing up.haha. dad went to drop bro and jac first for svc at aunt's church.then brought me to have breakfast at macs.he told when i was happily eating my snicker barr!!wasted it la..but still being such a snicker freak,preserved it till aftr class!which is like in the evening. felt the day was real slow esp during lesson time.cos it was relief teaching!!we were all missing our trainer,she is so much active and enthu laa.was almost falling aslp.shi hui kept complaining too.heh. however got kinda trigged by certain games.was suppose to act as wad we were told to.and frm there we gain pts for our grps.all went crazy. our dress code was ruined by eugene and clement!!argh!!we almost made our mark in making the whole class wear black but these 2 fools din!!damn.wasted.
realise this week will be real hectic.leadership course for the next 3 full days[dreading to go],obs bbq,prayer walk and more... jus pray i wld be able to handle it.
RODE;
Saturday, June 18, 2005
dearestt. ((: i miss you. i wanna see you again! ((: haha. take loads of care! `LOTSALOVE! ME! ((:
i would TRY to stop thinking, having tat mindset. but i seriously cant help it. i guess u understand how i feel? i hope so. i dont want this to end either. i believed, at least im trying to. and yes, im trying trying, still trying. i want to believe you and trust you with everything i have. i want to. and i believe i will. ((: love you loads.((:
RODE;
Friday, June 17, 2005
woke up at 630 early this morning to sent mum off at the airport.she was leaving for vancouver!!to compete in her dragonboat competition.i wan to go too!!she said cld go but not enough to afford for the whole family.i suppose i have to accept that part of wad my family is in need of.heh. was asked to be the videographer for the team going.din hesitate.duHh!!love filming,so nvr wld i object a job which requires me to film!serious!video-ed till the departure point then had to return to mum to let her film the rest over at her destination!! once we were bac home,all of us went to SLEEP!!was realli tired.was woken halfwae by my neighbour.cos they went over to our hse to gave us some sushi!!=)) jac and caroline coming over to stayy..think becos they are gng to aunt's church tmr for svc.i can't go!!=((cos i got class the whole day!argh.
-hope you would stop thinking so hard and have the mindset that i would get influenced.seriously i don't wish this to end.i really love you.i am trying hard to find ways to make you believe i cherish this alot.i can go on telling you how much i need you but most importantly,can you accept what i am trying to tell you here or either regardless through anywhere.as long as the words gets in your head and you are appeased i am happy-
RODE;
backk now frm bintan trip.finally sort of clear my camps.hee.but there is still one morEee..sighs.though its npt an overnite thing but still its a full 3 day!!arghh.dying in silence.pfft. was feeling real awful on the way there during the ferry ride.had seasick throughout the journey.even slping cldn't realli do the job. first day was staying at the campsite.its jus next to the resort we were staying the following night! b4 we cld even start our activities,all of us we collecting bites.thanks to the mosquitoes there.but i realise the mosquitoes there are much slower compared to obs ones!!but they suck more blood. started off trekking at a jungle called waka tobi.needed to find our way thru laa.almost lost our way so we needed to back track a little.at last aftr 3hrs we were finally out!legs were giving away real soon. kayaking next,actualli its right aftr!kayak abt 3km.did single then switch with weiwen cos she wanted.heard some of them saw dolphins along the way!heh.meals were cooked for us.saying of meals,my first meal there almost made me DIED.din realise there was chilli and ginger in there.throat was literally burning until i cried.even water cldn't help.was tearing all the way till i had flu.an incident i cldn't forget in my life i suppose. nightwalk at nite.only 3 of us did single.me.weiwen.jarelyn.cld really sense GOD's existence there so there wasn't any point where we got real scared.even if we did,i was kind of taken away by the stars in the sky.jus wish i get to see those bac here.the sky is jus filled with stars!! second day was mainly trekking at the mountain of Gunung Bintan.was told it was 3times harder than wad we did on the first day. but i find it less tiring though its more challenging climbing vertically up.clinging onto nature.going on all force.love it. last dayy!had international buffet.nicee.then had some beach activities aftr tt.had sandcastle competition!din win though.but enjoyed.=) board the ferry bac here.tiffany was hoping so much for me to get seasick cos she nvr seen one getting.heh.but i end up not getting!lucky.saw ppl sailing when we were reaching the ferry terminal.missing sailing alot nw.sighhs.
RODE;
Monday, June 13, 2005
DEARESTTT. HEYY! (((: fsater come backkk!!! 1 and a half more days. im missing youu. *LOVES.
RODE;
Friday, June 10, 2005
back from obs!i grew darker!!yay!!but i am still not satisfied with the colour i got.like the fairest among everyone.dAmN. went on mobile.meant we needed to shift frm campsites to campsites.cut short on wad we did.
day1: went kayaking.around camp1 practise all our rescue and all.was named chief rescuer!!i am honoured.haah.next pitch tent.by the time it was dinner.we cooked rice!dinner was nice. day2: did high elements.then packed to go to the next campsite.packing was taking lots of TIME.needed to trek with our backpack all the way to the next.heavy!needed to find our way there.and so we almost lost our way. stayed over nite at camp2 which was the obs residential.place is nice!food there was all provided=)). day3: did high elements agn.FUN.it was high but i did it all the way up!aftr ropes,it was time to move to another unknown campsite.we were suppose to find our way there.needed to find 4 checkpoints first.DIFFICULT!!had a hard time navigating and finding the number. we reach the campsite aftr abt 6hours.bag was real heavy.was carrying the tent too.this was the night many stuff happen between the 3 schs esp GM i suppose.din slp for the whole nite till the next morning.the sky had so many stars for the first time. day4: packed for sea expedition.we kayaked for abt 20km in abt8 hrs.gng bac was tiring cos we were gng against the current.almost fell alsp. was one of the sea-ex leaders.so me and ying zhou was in charge to keep the right side ppl frm gng too far out.had lunch in the kayak.again,so much stuff happen.[as in wad i observe and heard] day5[last day!!]: was real tired and slpy.everyone was askin me whether am i alrite.to be honest,i was realli tired but at the same time i was kind of bothered with a million and one things.sighhs.
and we said BYE to the instuctors aftr we left.starting to miss obs nw.heh.
[i am not sure whats going through your mind.And what have you decided.Most importantly,i hope for a specific decision.Worse come to worse,i am always prepared.i respect whatever you would hoped.because i don't want you to suffer.]
RODE;
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
not allowed to enter here.but still i broke it!cos my dad is out.shhh.. *i feel evil..heh* aniwae..jus a short write-up i suppose. the camp is finally over and i am missing it BADLY.having camp-sick.haah. 3d1 instructors u rOCk!!!totaLLy.too much to say abt them.haha. we even had nicknames for them. we are the TEH ones!! and no one can ever beat us in that!!its copyrighted mind you!!haah. and i guess i have one speciality,which is to lead the tepok cheer!!=))
by the time i reached home,shoes were realli stinky.smell totally like cowdung.yucckk.. but i 've earned myself my one star cert for kayaking!!aniwae,guess the cert is nth amazing since everyone is like gng chey..haah.
-really sorry that i somehow affected you.i don't mind tolerating what problems you are having.as long as it doesn't involve the other side,i ever doubt i would explode.although i still feel scared,but i suppose i have to learn to trust you more and start forgetting about the negative thoughts i have been thinking and wondering.once again,i am trying to let go-
RODE;
Define ME.
[SEETOH']
[22aug']
[PLMGSS]
BLESSINGS
GOD ALL MIGHTY
Thursday, June 30, 2005
(((: hehh. sorry for invading but i just need ta tell u something. that i miss you loads loads loads too! (((: take care alrite! and keep that pretty smile of yours on always. ((((: `MANYMANYLOVES!
ps. i love the wayy we settle things. HAHA. ((:
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had no mood for lessons.was darn tired.cldn't help to keep myself awake.sighhs.those sitting around me were asking whether something was bothering me,it was either angry or something else to them.do i realli look that dead serious when i dun smile? even mr leow told me i look tired and restless during his period.din realli do much during art.leow was crapping with some of them laa.did my geog revision then,felt quite surprised doing it....din noe wad was gng on jus felt like?haah.actualli it was some sort of hmk for the stupid sunday class..pfft. think ms chew is realli irritated by beatrice's calling.haah. beatrice:control wad u say at times yea girl?haha.
now tt the main character knows it i am so dead.[jus dismiss this if u dun get it]
had the ms congeniality semi-finals aftr sch.our class entered the FINALS!!!=)) keep up the good work joyce!and not forgetting the effort the class put in to dress her up!shall pray and hope 3d1 wInS!!
took grace car home..jeslyn is realli mean!haha.she taught belle bad stuff*shake head* was sabo-ed by both of them!and being such a dickhead in facing small kids,i jus sat and and froze.i cldn't think of anything at tt point of time!heh.but still had some sort of fun on the way home.hee.thx grace for the ride home=)
-I MISS GANNIES!!=)))-
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Wednesday, June 29, 2005
realise part of the class is so holy!haha.we were like having singspiration in class.3d1 chapel in class whenvr aftr a period is gone. today's chapel was like one of the best out of the rest.and the speaker sang so well.jus wish i had those voice..*dreaming*. went to gardens mac with siva.grace.pam.mel and xuebs. jus cldn't stop laughing when we there.esp siva!she was like laughing so hard till she cried and her face was realli red.and i can't deny something,she laughs like a seal! haha.if u think deeper,its actualli something positive.why does no one think tt way?hmmm...jus wondering. went to the pet shop to see dogs.mel was like so engrossed in this small dog she saw.forgot the breed alreadi but it was kinda cute.I am still in love with the golden retriever!!so darn cute.however if i ever miss it,danzyl is still the one!! love him to bits.haha. spent quite some time at the pet shop.went home aftr tt with grace.
-was jus wondering if i stop will it mean tt everything wld be lost? sometimes i jus wondered whether its more to a job for me than a thought.
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
there goes the first day of sch of the new term..time realli do fly!heh.change of timetable and seating arrangements..think in the meantime,the day i favour wld be tues!it jus seem to pass fast enough for me to realise sch is over.haah. and now mondays there are 3 straight periods of chem!!ahh!but this may be gng on for the first3weeks.so shall see. hmm...but actualli on second thought,it isn't tt bad.jus realise i am damn fickle minded.*bangs head against the wall* ms koh change my seat!!tried bargaining with her abt changing my place and worse come to worse its jus one table alone.meaning i am seating without a partner!!*cries*.tried telling her abt creating symptoms and signs for depression abt sitting alone blah blah and all the crap i cld think at tt point of time.but i guess it failed in the end. todae almost the whole class was late for assembly.we were all changing for p.e super last min.by the time we went down everyone was there waiting. math had 2 periods and it seem to past fast?for the first time i felt it past jus like tt.guess becos i knew hw to do the sums?FIRST TIME.s-e-r-i-o-u-s!its been a while i have been complimented by the teacher.sounds like nth but i suppose its a great achievement for me. chem was fun!mrs chew is realli cute.she was askin someone to be some timer for the class b4 greeting her.and becos i timed for the previous lessons everyone pointed me out!haha.and mrs chew had the same thinking too!she str8 awae named me out.guess i shld be honoured!!=)) and cos our class was real noisy,she told me to time3 mins on my watch cos for tt 3mins no one cld talk except her.otherwise we need to restart it.and we restarted it for dunno hw many times laa!haha.so she began teaching wad she suppose to teach and at the end of her speech,it wasn't time yet so she started out saying she wan to thank her mum and dad blah blah until it was up.haha.she jus rock.
i seriously feel WEIRD.
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Friday, June 24, 2005
i wan to dragg this holiday longer!!din get to enjoy any bit of this whole holiday.sighhs. these few i don't understand why am i getting so angry and moody.having a huge instinct whether issit the problems arising in my life affecting every part of my mind.literally clouding and pouring.come to think of it,its getting scarier day by day.pfft.
had obs bbq on friday.went aftr LMSC.so was rather late.actualli not tt.heh. dad drove me there=)) saw my ''brother''!!actually erm..think i wld consider him as my sister.he is damn gay.haha.but his gay-ness is out of innocence!meaning his gifted for it?haaH.love his stussy shirt=)) keith jus rock laa,whoever hears wad he did wld find hard to believe.but maybe for only those who are upright?haha.he went to take the bottle opener frm cheers and use to open the bottles he bought then place bac in the packaging and then bac to the cheers shelf!wad a thing to do!ROCKS. some went off earlier cos they went to play arcade. then they played truth or dare.i din playy!!lucky!!was playing soccer with joanne,edward and i think yang cheng.cldn't realli rem cos was tackling edward almost the whole time!!while joanne was blocking yang cheng. haha. she was laughing all the way laa..funneh. been quite a while ever since i last played.and edward said i was GOOD!!shall remain humble and not continue with that.heh. ended abt 10.waited for dad to come pick me up.fetched grace and gannies home. next day had to wake up early for the last of of LMSC.was damn tired and slpy..luckily its half day.everyone was telling me i looked real slpy.was pushed to be the i/c for sqd3.as in physically pushed!!cldn't do anything cos i was rather tired and felt kinda sick then. as usual was falling aslp during lecture.wens was chanting me to slp at the other corner.always. manage pass the test!!24/30.i cld have gotten 26!! if i hadn't cancell my first ans!!oh wells. went to cut my hair next.was struggling with my chi when communicating with the hair-cutter.gave her a hard time trying to figure wad i wanted to say.
had sec4 farewell todae.jus predicted it wld be screwed up.it did.our sqd did fashion show and being the ''grand-daughter'',was made to tie my hair at the top!looks as if i was some insect haveing feelers at the top. everyone was commenting laa.shall not be ego there.
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
was damn tired ystd..had quite a hard time trying to pay attention during class.kept rubbing my eyes*rubb eyes* din noe why did i went insane this morning.jus went on complaining to jac on my bed abt dreading to go for class.at tt point of time,i was super duper tired. then she went on to say abt my hair in the morning.she hoped to have that??cos it was all standing up.haha. dad went to drop bro and jac first for svc at aunt's church.then brought me to have breakfast at macs.he told when i was happily eating my snicker barr!!wasted it la..but still being such a snicker freak,preserved it till aftr class!which is like in the evening. felt the day was real slow esp during lesson time.cos it was relief teaching!!we were all missing our trainer,she is so much active and enthu laa.was almost falling aslp.shi hui kept complaining too.heh. however got kinda trigged by certain games.was suppose to act as wad we were told to.and frm there we gain pts for our grps.all went crazy. our dress code was ruined by eugene and clement!!argh!!we almost made our mark in making the whole class wear black but these 2 fools din!!damn.wasted.
realise this week will be real hectic.leadership course for the next 3 full days[dreading to go],obs bbq,prayer walk and more... jus pray i wld be able to handle it.
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
dearestt. ((: i miss you. i wanna see you again! ((: haha. take loads of care! `LOTSALOVE! ME! ((:
i would TRY to stop thinking, having tat mindset. but i seriously cant help it. i guess u understand how i feel? i hope so. i dont want this to end either. i believed, at least im trying to. and yes, im trying trying, still trying. i want to believe you and trust you with everything i have. i want to. and i believe i will. ((: love you loads.((:
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Friday, June 17, 2005
woke up at 630 early this morning to sent mum off at the airport.she was leaving for vancouver!!to compete in her dragonboat competition.i wan to go too!!she said cld go but not enough to afford for the whole family.i suppose i have to accept that part of wad my family is in need of.heh. was asked to be the videographer for the team going.din hesitate.duHh!!love filming,so nvr wld i object a job which requires me to film!serious!video-ed till the departure point then had to return to mum to let her film the rest over at her destination!! once we were bac home,all of us went to SLEEP!!was realli tired.was woken halfwae by my neighbour.cos they went over to our hse to gave us some sushi!!=)) jac and caroline coming over to stayy..think becos they are gng to aunt's church tmr for svc.i can't go!!=((cos i got class the whole day!argh.
-hope you would stop thinking so hard and have the mindset that i would get influenced.seriously i don't wish this to end.i really love you.i am trying hard to find ways to make you believe i cherish this alot.i can go on telling you how much i need you but most importantly,can you accept what i am trying to tell you here or either regardless through anywhere.as long as the words gets in your head and you are appeased i am happy-
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backk now frm bintan trip.finally sort of clear my camps.hee.but there is still one morEee..sighs.though its npt an overnite thing but still its a full 3 day!!arghh.dying in silence.pfft. was feeling real awful on the way there during the ferry ride.had seasick throughout the journey.even slping cldn't realli do the job. first day was staying at the campsite.its jus next to the resort we were staying the following night! b4 we cld even start our activities,all of us we collecting bites.thanks to the mosquitoes there.but i realise the mosquitoes there are much slower compared to obs ones!!but they suck more blood. started off trekking at a jungle called waka tobi.needed to find our way thru laa.almost lost our way so we needed to back track a little.at last aftr 3hrs we were finally out!legs were giving away real soon. kayaking next,actualli its right aftr!kayak abt 3km.did single then switch with weiwen cos she wanted.heard some of them saw dolphins along the way!heh.meals were cooked for us.saying of meals,my first meal there almost made me DIED.din realise there was chilli and ginger in there.throat was literally burning until i cried.even water cldn't help.was tearing all the way till i had flu.an incident i cldn't forget in my life i suppose. nightwalk at nite.only 3 of us did single.me.weiwen.jarelyn.cld really sense GOD's existence there so there wasn't any point where we got real scared.even if we did,i was kind of taken away by the stars in the sky.jus wish i get to see those bac here.the sky is jus filled with stars!! second day was mainly trekking at the mountain of Gunung Bintan.was told it was 3times harder than wad we did on the first day. but i find it less tiring though its more challenging climbing vertically up.clinging onto nature.going on all force.love it. last dayy!had international buffet.nicee.then had some beach activities aftr tt.had sandcastle competition!din win though.but enjoyed.=) board the ferry bac here.tiffany was hoping so much for me to get seasick cos she nvr seen one getting.heh.but i end up not getting!lucky.saw ppl sailing when we were reaching the ferry terminal.missing sailing alot nw.sighhs.
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Monday, June 13, 2005
DEARESTTT. HEYY! (((: fsater come backkk!!! 1 and a half more days. im missing youu. *LOVES.
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Friday, June 10, 2005
back from obs!i grew darker!!yay!!but i am still not satisfied with the colour i got.like the fairest among everyone.dAmN. went on mobile.meant we needed to shift frm campsites to campsites.cut short on wad we did.
day1: went kayaking.around camp1 practise all our rescue and all.was named chief rescuer!!i am honoured.haah.next pitch tent.by the time it was dinner.we cooked rice!dinner was nice. day2: did high elements.then packed to go to the next campsite.packing was taking lots of TIME.needed to trek with our backpack all the way to the next.heavy!needed to find our way there.and so we almost lost our way. stayed over nite at camp2 which was the obs residential.place is nice!food there was all provided=)). day3: did high elements agn.FUN.it was high but i did it all the way up!aftr ropes,it was time to move to another unknown campsite.we were suppose to find our way there.needed to find 4 checkpoints first.DIFFICULT!!had a hard time navigating and finding the number. we reach the campsite aftr abt 6hours.bag was real heavy.was carrying the tent too.this was the night many stuff happen between the 3 schs esp GM i suppose.din slp for the whole nite till the next morning.the sky had so many stars for the first time. day4: packed for sea expedition.we kayaked for abt 20km in abt8 hrs.gng bac was tiring cos we were gng against the current.almost fell alsp. was one of the sea-ex leaders.so me and ying zhou was in charge to keep the right side ppl frm gng too far out.had lunch in the kayak.again,so much stuff happen.[as in wad i observe and heard] day5[last day!!]: was real tired and slpy.everyone was askin me whether am i alrite.to be honest,i was realli tired but at the same time i was kind of bothered with a million and one things.sighhs.
and we said BYE to the instuctors aftr we left.starting to miss obs nw.heh.
[i am not sure whats going through your mind.And what have you decided.Most importantly,i hope for a specific decision.Worse come to worse,i am always prepared.i respect whatever you would hoped.because i don't want you to suffer.]
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
not allowed to enter here.but still i broke it!cos my dad is out.shhh.. *i feel evil..heh* aniwae..jus a short write-up i suppose. the camp is finally over and i am missing it BADLY.having camp-sick.haah. 3d1 instructors u rOCk!!!totaLLy.too much to say abt them.haha. we even had nicknames for them. we are the TEH ones!! and no one can ever beat us in that!!its copyrighted mind you!!haah. and i guess i have one speciality,which is to lead the tepok cheer!!=))
by the time i reached home,shoes were realli stinky.smell totally like cowdung.yucckk.. but i 've earned myself my one star cert for kayaking!!aniwae,guess the cert is nth amazing since everyone is like gng chey..haah.
-really sorry that i somehow affected you.i don't mind tolerating what problems you are having.as long as it doesn't involve the other side,i ever doubt i would explode.although i still feel scared,but i suppose i have to learn to trust you more and start forgetting about the negative thoughts i have been thinking and wondering.once again,i am trying to let go-
