Ok today is really quiet. But any i decided to go online for a shopping spree. I got myself 2 item and i'm pretty sure i really want them.

Here it goes

Ed hardy panther hustle top from ebay S$95
and yes pst kong have the yellow version, and i really like it the first time i see it.
Brand new is US$99 on most online store

This is Ed hardy new york city design. I chose this because i didn't have a jeans of this colour depth. It's on sales and i got it for US$93 (S$130+) But it's sweet, muahah.

I can't believe it. This has been something i've been craving for super long la.

Few days back when i go shop around for wayne's present i chance upon this watch! I really like it, just to let u guy know, this a seiko limited ed Issey Miyake watch. It's simple yet classy, and it freaking nice. It cost $590. I guess i really want to save up for a nice watch in 2009.

Ok that's me in my bandaged leg. But my dad really cheer me up today. I was just xboxing and he left for work. 5 min later he knocked on my window and suprise with this giant scope ice cream. then i found out it's from the wheel cart vendor, but heck the day is really hot man. Haha, it's really just cracks me up. cuz my dad is like 63 this year alr.

And thanks Seow and Yun reei for the visit. Else ill be bored to death. 2 more days and i'll be back to camp. Hopefully time fly faster, it's freaking boring at home!!

it's boxing day, i had company cohesion at the CAGE kallang. So basically i played soccer and sprained my ankle real bad. I thought that just like ordinary sprain, it'll recover a while. That was around 10.30am. I head home after match on my bike, riding super slowly cuz i got much difficulty changing gears and took a shower and some rest. The swelling got up, next thing i know, i can't stand on both feet any longer, my ankle is busted. It was painful, and i had to wait for very long, before the medic from medical centre fetch me to NUH for diagnostic. Doc said that i suffer from 3rd grade sprain with damaged tissue which resulted in the immobilisation of my left ankle. It real pain, and i'm walking around in clutches now. I'm bloody moody now really! was given 5 days mc, and have to make arrangement for physio. Why does this has to happen to me!!!! seriously now i will really appreciate if anybody could just come and xbox with me at my place.

I got a call on the 11th and found this out. Ghee kiong broke the news to me.

we were in the same project group and tutorial mate in my 3rd year in poly.

Never did i expect such thing to happen to my friend. And just a month back he was just smsing me about where to buy insurance and stuff. Rest in peace brother!

And i haven't been feeling well the past 2 days. Kena food poisoning and vomitted quite badly yesterday, and have been sleeping all day. The feeling is really terrible, and i really hate it when i fall sick. It's either i'm healthy for one good year, and the next moment, BAM! one time good one..

I know bike riding is dangerous, so maybe the coming ending of my nike's COE, i'm considering quitting bike for good.

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to POWPOW, happy birthday to me!!!

HAHA

i had a really awesome time just now with tim and thad. What a coincidence, our birthday are like within 3 days apart. Had alot of non stop yakking, laughing over stupid things that happen over the years and food is absolutely awesome! Timbre famous 4 cheese thin crust pizza.

I gotta say that i'm really blessed this year. Esp in the area of building strong friendship with the right people. And these are people who really helped me, develop and cause my thinking to mature overtime.

Special thanks to my 3 best buddie, Timo, ed and rach. You guys are like my pillars and i thank God for u 3.

Of course there are many people that i want to appreciate as well, ppl like wayne, rhonda, pam, jian hao, justine and church mate, nigel, yy and army gang, sam, lijia and fairfield gang.

Not forgetting my mummy and daddy, my kor and jiar. They are awesome family members who always support and believe in me.

WITHOUT all of YOU, there will NOT be the present pow wee, and it makes me feel like i'm truely blessed all these while.

and to lin. I'm really happy that you didn't forget my birthday even tho you're in a faraway land. The sms really wrap up my already awesome and fulfilling birthday.

Congrats PW, u made it through 21 years of your life and still there many more awesome years to come!!

I went to collect my race pack on thurs with nigel and his church friends. The queue is like super long! think i waited for around 4 hours, and just when i thought that there are many things in the goodie bag, i was deeply disappointed.

I found 1 adidas blue running top, route brochure, deep heat sample, berocca sample, brochure and more brochure!!

so ok this is my bib no.

yea this year pack is CMI

anyway, i'm aiming for around 5 hours plus this time round. Haven't got much time to train, and this week i've only clock 15km. haha, good luck to me. Rhonda is gonna hear me yak all the way this time round again :p.

guess what.. first thing when i log onto the net, i saw this article.

Singaporeans mourn tragic death of Lo Hwei Yen
By Cheryl Lim, Channel NewsAsia | Posted: 29 November 2008 1926 hrs

SINGAPORE: The tragic and untimely death in Mumbai of Singaporean hostage Lo Hwei Yen has shocked the country, with locals saying her death will not go unnoticed.

They may be strangers from all walks of life, but the death of the 28-year-old Singaporean lawyer has brought the nation together in a common outpouring of sympathy.

I was just thinking, gosh she's so young! and ok her pic caught my eyes, so i went to click to read further. She's blissfully married. Trained a lawyer who works in a foreign law firm based here. Very unlucky right? She was suppose to be in mumbai for a day only! and this kind of thing happen. Darn those terrorist. ARhgggggg!!!

Something that really tingle me when i check out her facebook, this women is really glowing in her wedding pics, and she's so in love with her husband. I'm so envious of her, ok one day i'll definitely find my mrs right!

YAY!! buddie is back from australia, and i'm really happy. Feel like everything is falling back in place again just like old times :)

Many things happen over the weeks. Asia conference 2008 which was a blast! I had a outpouring conversation with someone.(and it sure feels good to just spilling everything that you've been hiding in ur mind all these while). just that i did it over email. I'm just prayin very hard that i didn't destroy the friendship. I asked myself many times, what exactly is being in love. I guess i've lost touch totally, really. It like 4 years ago since breakup . And i've been single ever since. Turning 21 alr, think it's a good idea to find a partner. Tough tho, i've been hitting multiples roadblock. I need to know what's wrong with me man. I feel wierd, awkward, can't express myself, often i end up saying wrongs things at wrong time. let me know that i'm not the only guy feeling this alright!

I've been just thinking, what should i do for my 21st. My mum insisted that got minimum invite all the relatives over for food. It mean normally it suppose to be big and i have many friends who is making a big bang at their 21st. Sad to say, i'm not really interested in celebrate my birthday at all. But yea i know it can be good time catch up with old mate, but it too a tiring process of gathering the rsvp list and so manything to prep. either way, i'm staying in on 11th dec anyway. So i'll just keep it real low profile.

over the week, i manage to catch up with few old friend over the game of guitar heroes with my sec friends. check this out



This is even better than karaoke!!

Xmas came in early this year!!! WOO HOO guitar hero rocks!!

Thanks brother for such a fantastic present. This is unbelievable!! OMG

My damages for the past 1 month.

I bought an xbox before i left. And a 26" Samsung lcd which i wanted for a very long time.

I got my off the past 2 days, but i totally have no mood to meet anyone else. Don't why..but i got this outcast feeling all of a sudden. I missed many thing the past 2 weeks, really. But... i prefer to stay home now.

Hi guys!! I'm back from taiwan!! it is really awesome. I love the scenery esp. Let some pic do the talking.

Absolutely beautiful scenery. It was super shag for me, but sights of all these pull me thru!

Well Leofoo theme park most exciting ride. I think i freefall like few times. blueghh

Giant sausages! at shilin. Power la

You won't believe this whole stretch does fortune telling. Even celebs like jackie wu and jolin tsai are their customers.

And let me tell you, asics onisuka over there are cheap!! really man. I bought myself not 1, but 2!! pairs for only NT$1100(S$50). That's it for now! :)

I went for platoon outing last wed at safra yishun. We played bowling!!
Guess wat i got the best score ever, really. Both frames over 100+ haha.



This is Surv 5.1

I really like this picture :) Cheers to team LN 1st Anniversary

well i'm finally back to unit once again. Feels really good to be back at 6SIR, esp the bunks. More importantly as a 3sgt. Haha, now we can go mess at our own discretion. Wed was the worst day. I thought it's just merely a day for my graduation. Last minute got bombarded by our new PC to go outfield!! this is really crap tho. We walked from upp thomson road to asrama for some infiltration movement. Well tho, i'm not there for the excercise but to become like a middleman, safety spec to supervise a section. The walk was long, and i mean quite long, around 15km. Haha thank God i'm recce train. Anyway along the trail, we all felt sleepy as everyone follow through in single file. Then we had to cross this water obstacles. My torch fell in! while i'm searching for a path for my guys. Worst i fell in, around hip deep. Hiaz my phone got soak, gone case. Overall i'm trying to say that our presence there was totally unnecessary. No one is expecting us, and we last minute kena this crap up exercise. What a wonderful first day as a sergeant that made it so memorable for me.

Anyway i got a IPOD video 30GB for only 140!! thru a forum, and the cond is fantastic. Haha now i don't have to suffer with my 2GB stone which kept jamming.

hey hey!!! i'm so so glad that finally RCC phase 1 is over. 5 days outfield, RTI training and conclude with a urban recce. Ok it was shag, i requires alot of determination and i'm glad i've pulled it through by the grace of God. What's better is the feeling of wearing the jungle hat, woo hoo!! yay i'm pretty much done with RCC. I'm just really really happy.

And congrats my dear bunkmate NIGEL KEITH,, happy 20!!. Glad to have u in bunk, altho you always piss me off, making fun of me, but i guess that's what that made us bond as brothers. We've gone thru shit in RCC and we're now a pride wearer of the jungle hat. You showed me real strength despite your weaknesses. Last bbq was really fun, haha. Of course your nice food you've bought for 5.1 POWER la.

WL replied my mail! haha...i really hope that i can cont to faithfully write to her every fortnightly. I've seen few of her sketches, power la! no wonder she's arty farty. really missed her.

Just last week, pastor talk about sonship. This week, i had it slipped off my mind. I was off focus, i left cg for the bbq and didn't inform wayne. The thing is, i missed the connect leader meeting. I wasn't told, but i could have taken the intiative to be accountable to my leader abt my wherebout. Ok this didn't happen just this once, but few times before alr. I guess this is my character flaws. I'm trying to change, nobody is perfect. To me, i see accountability of utmost importance, but at the same time i'm having a tough time doing it myself. Sure it's really tough. Many may know me as loud, smiling all the times, but my close friend would have seen my serious side. Turning 21 alr this year, time for me to step up and be really discipled. I know i need it. But it's one tough road up.

Today jamming at alvron, brought back many nostalgic feeling. Still remember back in 03, when i was with revo, still starting out, we have no complains on the equipment. NOw, haha it's really bad. But still i thought the session was really fruitful. We covered much ground despite it being impromtu. Everyone was on the ball to flow with one another, i see much potential here.

Adeline granny got in hopst, i think is quite serious, and she's close to her one. CG's been praying hard that she'll pull thru this round. AND Justine told me today her grandpa also got into hopst, also about to go alr. I don't know what to say, but hate this kind of feeling. Like friend around you, this kind of bad news happening, what to do? how do i go about consoling them when really something happen. I feel i'm a lousy friend when i fail to cheer them up. And often that's so true rite. Life is fragile, take time to appreciate your love one when they're alive, u nv know what's gonna happen next.

Sorry for the long post and incoherent no link topics. Guess that's just my style of blogging, no link.

just did my combat survival training this week. Errr highlight includes 40 hr fasting, follow by a quail killing session when we're at hungriest point of time! grrrrr it's pretty straight forward. I tell u, nothing else tast better at that point in time, because you're really so tired!! Ok this week pass really fast, in fact these 2 weeks all very fast, cuz all outfield!! Pls pray for me, i'm be away again, this time in tekong for 5 days mission. Expect very little sleep, and i'm dying alr, RTI is up, this time on me, imagine no water for 12 hours, grrr!!! don't know what stupid things the interrogator will do to me. Guess i can only look forward to the jungle hat presentation!! woo hoo..

I love what pastor preach about sonship, the way we should carry our church DNA, esp follow in the vision, sacrificing all so that you can be the one who will support the church vision all the way. Doing the will of God. Arise and build 08, i guess it's gonna be a hell of a ride once again. I'm looking forward to it :)

I'm finally back for this weekend! This is ultimate shag to the max. Ex. Longwalk was a killer. 60+km in 39 hours in 30kg fieldpack. I'm done for mentally the moment i reach end point. Yet the sense of pride grew so strongly inside of me, the moment I think i've achieve this crazy feat. Praise God for leading me through, i didn't screw up in my navigation. Now i'm a step closer to my jungle hat! yoohoo. For now i just was to slack in my bed, next week another shag session, 4 days outfield.

I think i'm starting to get emo alr. Cuz wl is gonna leave for UK on the 15th! Time really fly. So many regrets, so many thing i tried to forget. everytime i think about it, my mood sunk.

money no enough 2 event today was awesome. I'm glad i brought my mum. I glad she enjoyed it. And I've learn to cherish her more after the show. I think Jack's movie has really gone up the next level, bringing in not just a comedy,(laugh and forget kind of movie) but rather something with substance or specific theme. It has a strong theme of filial piety which the current Asian culture is losing because of western influence. I particularly love the hokkien song, mother just a name. Even though the melody i don't quite catch it, the emotion was strong when the singer sang it live. It was a good chance for me to express my love for my mum today as well. You don't have to wait till mother's day to tell your mum that you love her, start today!

I hurt my back over the week. Particularly in my spinal area. I guess i should have taken more precaution in carrying the heavy load. It was a tough week and even more to come. I hate the fact that everywhere i go, i've to lug the alispack with me, and it's not light. I it so heavy that i need to lie down strap myself onto the fieldpack and slowly get up. Fast march was a killer. My brain just shut down the moment i reach end point. I know could only live to look forward to a brand new day, after each daily siong training. I could have just give up, but i choose not to. Because i am strong. For God works within me. I could have carry a sian mood, but i choose to keep my spirit up. I am strong. Thanks for the nice hearty meal at NYDC on friday. It really serves as a reminder for me that i can continue to forward to booking out each week. Thank you Lord.

I'm watching the table tennis olympics finals now, it sure is very excited. But i guess we all know the eventual outcome, though kudos to the women team that made it to the final yea! One thing i've to say.. China's Zhang Yining is really a monster of her own, period, haha.

Some updates,
I'll be heading on course, RCC tomorrow. I'm mentally prepared. Probably will be one of the toughest period in my army life. I caught a glimpse of hell fast march on the crazy load. I could almost died. The alispack does not help much either. I dread goin in, but it's a giant i've to face, because i know i'll become stronger. This week have been fruitful. Prayer meetings in the morning is awesome. and i'm loving it. I really wish i could have attend this week as well! PLC is super near church la. Ok i just want to sleep now. Haven't been sleeping well.

PS: I got a really good friend who got attached! and she nv tell me :( i know U r reading this!!

one important area of every human life is LOVE. Everyone needs love, everyone is looking for love, and everyone is finding somebody to love. It is also a area that i feel we have to guard ourselves carefully as well. Do not love someone for your own selfish desire, love the person for who he/she really is. It's a happy thing, and one should really enjoy it to God's original intent. Just like Christ love for us all. I met this person recently, we hit off quite well, but i've just got to guard my heart for now. Recee course coming, cell groups multiplying, gonna be quite busy from next week. Still I really thank God for his grace this week, for the many days of off i've been given. This is really power. Morning prayer meeting at jurong west even more power. Gosh i'm addicted to this morning prayer, i just feel so fresh after that. :)

I went over to visit the MO today. Basically i got into a minor accident on the road last saturday that hurt my feet. I shan't disclose the details but basically i am reffered over to CMPB medical centre department for x-ray. I think it's not that serious, since i'm still able to walk.

A brief highlight over the past 2 days.

Sunday was sentosa splash, and it was a blast! really..altho i didn't really perticipate much because of my injury, still it's enjoyable enjoyable enough for all. Most importantly many new friends enjoys the hypness of the whole event. My team voila won 3rd! haha. yea i got badly tan..now have singlet tan line which is disgusting! Sadly i lost one of my favourite jacket that i left in the toilet. Can't believe I was that careless to have left it in the shower. I tried flying back to the island from vivo, but to no avail. Ahrgg!!

Monday - i went over to Lor Asrama to chop trees, for A frames building session. Let me tell you somethings, fruits in the wild are extremely delicious! I found rambutans, durian and jackfruits. Ha only the rambutan is in edible state, but well it sure was fun trying to find all these fruits, doing stupid things to shake the rambutans down.

Well nothing much to reports, except that i'm enjoying my rest at home today because of a half day off.

I think it's time for me to move on in live as well. What's mean to be, it's mean to be. nonetheless, i still feel the tangling feeling in my heart. I miss talking to her.

I've decided to enroll myself to class 2a bike course. Basically my current bike coe coming to a end and i'm not intending to continue riding it. So probably i'm sharing a bigger cc bike with my brother. yup... But this will be quite financial straining for me. And now that i've got start putting money back to my sister cpf account for my poly education. Dang... felt really strained financially. Let's pray for a financial breakthrough!

So i've finally decided to pull the plug for now. It's a hard decision but one that i have to make for the good of everyone. I'm not sad just disappointed that i've to resort to this...

everytime i get home, i still remember to put either $1 or $0.50 into the green elephant. It just makes me happy.

What Yap Pow Wee Means

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I had a very disheartening week. 3 of my bunk mates were injured 2 of which is when we're doing our enemy POI deployment. Crazy alpha and Bravo company, Support company was actually kind enough to deploy our precious manpower to help them to simulate some real time action. Shannon had a exoskeletal sprains on his arm. one of the bravo guy had JUDO him down. Ben has minor tissue tear on his right knees, apparently while running away from alpha guys, they gave chase, he fell and they pin him down real hard. Mark suffered from appendicitis yesterday morning and he has a really hard time because NUH has no C ward for him and his family had to shift him to Mt alvernia, which he did the ops there. So not possibly for him and shannon, they'll most prob be down for reccee commander course. Arhgg...

I felt that i'm losing grips of many things in life right now. And i'm just lost on how am ever gonna makes things right for myself. So often there i've really thought of just giving up, then i'll no longer have financial, emotional, mental strains at least. And i'm not talking about girls here, truth is i've been feeling dry lately. I last time always wonder how was it like for my friend to gone through the process of backsliding and the constant struggle to fight to come back, often they just choose to leave. Now i'm catching a glimpse of it alr. I doubt that i make a good connect group leader, cause seriously judging from my fruits i'm a far league away from ppl like peng,yl or even cheesy. I mean these are the most hardworking bunch of youth i've seen, working so hard tirelessly for christ sakes. I respect them, but i doubt i've that capacity. Too many doubts, too little fruits, and hectic shedules coming up in unit. How?..

have you felt totally useless when u fail to make the you love most happy. And there's totally really nothing you can do.

Ok just that for me..it's not the one i love..but rather a friend that i'm dying to have, to know her..well she's special to me, don't know why i suddenly felt quite weird when i met her to pass her some chocolate and cookies. Indeed we're living in stressful times, all i want is for her to be happy. looks like i failed badly even as friend. Ha who am i kidding...it seems like i've crossed the path of no return. How am i ever going to bring down this thick layer of wall that plague this relationship.

Anyway i was badly drench while sending my friend to changi to run some errand, think i'm catching a cold soon. bleugh...i really hate falling sick. I'm glad to have book out but tomrrow is another day of sleepless night because of POI enemy deployment.

And i so love my new HTC touch that i bought last week. Hail to PDA phone, they made my life so much more interesting

DO you believe in fate?

What i've plan for 2 weeks end up in total nothing.

I've no idea why i bother to recee the ground, wash my helmet, it's just suppose to be a simple farewell dinner for her.

Somehow.. something just crop up

I think no point in marking the calendar, 29th is a day i'll remember.

Just not fated..

well today is battalion anniversay off day at safra Yishun. It means off for half a day la! haha.. early in the morning at 7am i've to report in, i drag myself up cause i was still super sleepy. Had a good time of bowling with my bunkmates, esp those crazy changing of names while bowling like CHEEKOK, TYCO KIA, CHARLIE BRAVO KILO, KOH SOON LI, LOGAN, NIGELLA, AH PUI SEOW, TAN KOK SAI, man! all these bring back funny memories things that happen in army. anw i did say i was sleepy so you see, the previous night i had supper with wayne, cheesy and sen min near bugis there.

But last night was Arty farty night for me. Went to this place to watch local short films where wayne found through his fass friends, and i tot wow. I really love this place, and it might possibly well be my next secret hide-out. Ok i can't reveal this place, cuz i made pact with wayne not to divulge the location. Ok why this place is so special, because firstly it's really quiet, so esp when you want to have some peace of mind away from stressful work environment, it's really helpful. 2nd, you can do few things, like just go there for a stroll to admire the retro architecture, interesting signboards, nice lunch out or catch short films! And i rly mean that the staff over there are really friendly.

i've felt quite disappointed lately, because of the way i feel my friends taking me for granted. Example, in the area of time. Because i think that now when in army, time has become something of great importance to me and i made the decision to be a good steward of time, by being on time. anw i ended waiting for a group of friends for around an hour! after meeting time..and what i really can't stand is the fact that they didn't respect my value of time. Esp because of all the sacrifices i made to push my schedules aside just to be on time. Be a faithful steward of time, because you never know when your next big business opportunity comes, and imagine you being just a minute late, it's over. Ok there are also another instance when someone comes into my mind, and i decide to spend my nights maybe to meet up to chill, build up relationship, and there are those whom i really feel they just don't give a damn kind of attitude. No replies, no call back despite sometimes repeated messages or call. Ok i'm not desperate, at least respect friendship that has been forge in the past. Even if you don't even feel like meeting up, i mean it's a good manner to even reply, not leave somebody hanging down there in the air. I'm not here to pinpoint anyones, but just sharing some of thoughts that ran through my minds the past few days. Irritating...

Alright another person i want to thank also is Edmund. Thank God for him, who come to save me like almost immediately when i text him when i told him my bike died out somewhere near my house. Stupid me forget to pump petrol and left frantic and lost for a spur moment.

I'm glad i still went over to his place to him up after that for LOUD nightout, eventhough he almost last minute pang seh me. Everything's really rah rah last night, all where like woooo so hype up. Of course it really nice to see so many new faces. But more to that, it's the passion for the Lord that's bringing e406 to greater heights!

Ok last week i miss out on a important entry so here it goes..




This is my dad, and we had a wonderful ba kut teh session together on fathers day together with my family which include, my elder brother paul and sis-in-law vivi, my elder sister sharon and my bro-in-law jeffrey, my mum and baby niece joelle! Anyway i just want to reserve this small space to thank my earthly father. Truely I feel that God has bless me with this wonderful dad, who despite facing many problems, fought through daily to provide for the family, he's our pillar of strength, he may not say it but i know that love my mum and all his children. I appreciate all the things he's done to make me happy when i was younger, which was satisfied through material pessession and now that i've grown up, i thank him for trusting me with freedoms some youth may not have at my age. I've become who I am today, because he has taught me my moral value well, and i'm very thankful for that. 1001 things running through my head, but here's to my dad, I love you pa. Amazing to have this person as my dad, really!




And this is my niece joelle. Gosh chilli padi! but she never fails to make me smile most of the time.

Alright i gotta book in real soon for NDP rehersal, and tonight is gonna be another lengendary night with TEAM LN! muahahah

ps: TIM, come on la bro! you know that i'll miss you real bad if you go ns. who else am i gonna call out for frequent supper man! gosh. And i'm pretty sure you'll miss me just as bad.

Words can't describe how I exactly felt the moment I found out that i'm involved in this year NDP'08. OK I'm NOT the please, and I'm sure many of my bunk mate share with me the same sentiments. All my fridays and saturdays are burn man! I'm gonna like miss cell group and service for 2 months. I think somehow my connection with my cg will definitely take some draw back.

And Weilin is leaving really soon, i think like 2 months more, everything happen so quickly, gosh. Hmmm what can i do to treasure a person more before they leave. No matter what, I know that i won't have the chance after 2 months so might as well treasure I have at hand.

Ok thank God for speedy recovery in camp. I managed to just sleep in bunk the whole day on thurs to recoop. I was having a bad flu, sore throat and feeling groggy. Well i woke up in the mid day to play enemy in Alpha POI deployment in camp. It's like so fun wrecking their grounds, creating havok, and man! you guy should check out their reaction when we went over the the bench and steal their riffle and took stuffs metal detector and field chairs. They must have felt !!@%$&^%.

Alright time for my DRC (defensive riding course) so that i could ride in-camp legally, haha. I have a new nick, my bunk mates all call me chee-kok altho i totally have no why? LOL

Thanks gabriel for this pic. I tot it is priceless, cause i look so happy in it la!! it's at the end point btw

When you're in love, you tends to do stupid things! which I totally agree, surely i look like a dumbass! today... Don't feel like talking to much about it.

Just know that eating fruits are very important! many friends around me are falling sick one by one! gosh

I think I'm too used to hanging out with friends every weekend. Just one day at home! and i couldn't sit still...ARhgggg. I find it very hard to encourage and push my connect group. I sow in a lot of sweat into bringing Ed back to Christ, building relationship with him, suffered countless time of disappointments but i'm still pressing. So often, it's so easy to side track, you might end up forcing them unknowingly, but the key is still based on relationship. How man! Truth is, i really hate to arrange meetings, cause often people always want to know whose going etc and I've to like wrap up everything. It's tough and I really someone to talk to, I'm not even asking to be in a big scale party or wat, it's just drinking coffee at kopitiam, I'm THAT simple. Just this week, I've lost a friend, who decided to take a break from church for a while, he's a nice guy really, mighty man of God, people just take him for granted. I'm praying for him. Y does things have to turn out for him this way..

Anyway congrats Rhonda! we did it... I think you did a really awesome job pressing into the finishing line despite all the pain on ur knee and toes. And also to those who ran this race, like Chen huat, Tim, Jacky, Nigel, John, good job guys!!

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in his wonderful face
And the things of this world will grow strangely dim
In the light of his glory and face

I think this is what that kept me going on in my Christian life. Without Christ, I am nothing.
I'll just have to fix my eye upon Jesus and nothing else matter, really..

It's gonna be fun. Looking forward to see daylight.

you know what!? i pass my driving test yesterday! haha amazingly, thank God and my cg members who kept me in prayers, luv u guys loads! So well i got a super low 6 demerit points, was quite surprised, but I'm all calm during the test. Some tips for those of you taking TP soon, just keep your testers feeling safe, and do all your checks, confirm sure pass, provided you must know how to react to adverse road conditions as well la.

So i did my island wide today, i got the opportunity to try the auto jeep, which feels like a convertible when you drive it cause it's open air, haha but I've to wear my SAF helmet for safety reason. The part that dread me most was the fact that we've to stick to our speed limits totally at 50km/h IMO is retarded. imagine you're traveling on expressway, it's torturous! and i have to clock 300km, that's crazy man. So far i only did 100km and it's very tiring because of the slow speed. Seow is a nice buddie you could have in a car, we just kept laughing chatting about random stuff.

I watch made of honor and i quite love it for the fact that i somehow can relate to some similar situation, of me taking my close female friends for granted at times. But it's really hilarious, all the gay scottish culture, following as MOH to see her change into hot lingerie, thunder beads! (that one is ultimate) i just kept laughing non stop, and sm and justine can come ask me what is it use for, gosh.. then we left for a short chill out at TCC douby for some really sucky drinks. That conclude my ACGLM(abandoned connect group leader meeting)

I've just collect my race pack today, my bib no. is 7004! ok buy this golden 4D number.the top is not as nice as i expected, but i feels comfy tho. Ok this is so so exciting, 7 more days to go to my first MARATHON!

And back in jeep course, driving everyday for me is bread and butter, getting so bored of it, LOL it's so fast right, tomrrow is my highway situation problem (play toy car), then my parking test follow by my driving test, all in one week. Ok i still need prayers for this, cause HSP passing rate is super low. But i don't want to fail. I can't afford to let my sat burn.

Tio ultimate pang seh la when i reach justine place, yl wl and derrick all left to their respectively desintination. Justine ah! must really plan proper, got nice movie also no use without good company rite. But the Raider of Lost Ark is good man, i would better than crystal skull, lol. I'm glad that edmund came to join me despite his piling assignments. else i would have to leave her place like the moment the rest leave. I bought donut factory, and it's still super nice IMO, esp double chocolate. That one really really UP on level one, but i look at myself, i may run often, but i'm like not getting any leaner either, gotta control my diet!! I'm so sorry JH for 'tricking' you to watch indiana jones. I wasn't expecting to watch that either, but since everybody flow that direction, lol.

Last thing to wrap this entry up, i quite enjoy CG this week, cause i'm glad new people are taking praise, worship and i'll love to comment once again that shimin, you did just great! i doubt i can lead this kind of praise the first time, haha. As for wl i think she stills lack confident, but her singing wise much better than sm, however she can afford to flow more in the spirit, it was a nice first attempt. I'm glad to be part of helping them in their first, awesome girls!

First up, thank you Edmund for lending me a phone, my phone is crap i know, but i really love it tho.

Finally i've completed my building fund and i'm happy about it, really i've made much sacrifice for a good cause, to build God a great house.

Anyway after svc yesterday, i went to my childhood friend christy teo swee cheng 21st. Felt kindda wierd cause i was there alone, but i'm glad a met a few fairsian like chanho, trisee, kai qing, had a good laugh reminiscing the past in secondary schools days.

Meet Ciao at DBl O with willie. Haha his girlfriend quite pretty sia, it was a good chill out session, not forgeting safra card members get in free before 10. moreover i get to chance to talk to some quite hot chics. quite suprise there was this girl who approach me randomly to strike a conversation. met some of my close polymate there as well, haha they're all now finishing OCS alr. Ciao has some nice friends too, as in they're nice to chat with.

Had a wonderful afternoon today with ed, cuz svc was really awesome. I felt that pst preach the msg better plus, the presence was much better. Oh did i say that i'll be back to JAMS soon! i think nothing much changes after 7 months. My kids remember me and gave a me a warmth hug, haha. Then i went to meet yulin, weilin and justine for lunch. we just kept yakking, i got great craving for donuts, had a good laugh over some random scenario. I wish could have a video cam to capture weilin's expression. I thought it was really funny, sometimes i feel that it is so much of a blessing to be able to express yourself, you laugh like as if there's no tomorrow. I'm glad that we talk. happy, yup really happy.

Then as usual i came home and did a 6km run. I really love my new pair of new balance 902, they're so light, and provide such stability in every stride, awesome! yea..

I'm so excited about tomorrow! cause I'm starting my jeep driving course. Feels like the first day i tried my class 2B, so anyway i spent the entire day at home devoted to the highway code book. i mean man! i forget lots of things man. I was given 350 questions to slowly do and revise, haha those who took basic theory will know it's not easy.

I ran 10km around my house area, i cover quite abit from my house to hillview and to jurong kechil and back by upp bukit timah road exiting cashew. Took around 53min, and suprisingly i'm not panting that badly! running at night is such a relaxing experience, i would recommend u guys to try it.

I'm in sort of a financial crisis now, as in my bank account is area close to hitting zero, tho I'm glad I've chosen to place God first, I'm done with my building fund, talking about a faithful steward. Anyway last sun was horrifying. I arrived at queenstown cc to play badminton with my cell mem and to find out that my chain suddenly got stuck at the sprocket, and my bike simply refuses to move. I've to shout for help and one nice guy came over to drag my bike to the side. I thank God that it didn't break down at the expressway man. So went around begging for tools, and upon closer inspection, the guy (so happen to be a mechanic) said that my gear has dropped, meaning to say putting the chain back would not have fix the problem. My heart sank, i called my brother for some help, and when i told him that I've ran out of cash, he scolded me like mad. Can you imagine if he found out that I gave that money away! Thank you Edmund for the temporary transfer $150 to me in such short notice, else i wouldn't have able to settle the bill. Gosh i'm turning 21 already and seriously i just simply refuse to ask my parents for money, cause i mean they're aging already, and i want to be filial to them, the last from my mind was to ever ask money from them. God i pray hard for a financial breakthrough in my life, I chose to believe that when one sow in tears, he'll reap in joy in due season, amen.

Now i just want a really good rest so that i won't dose off for tomorrow theory lesson SAF driving centre.

guess wat! i'm having my nights out! my friend were like all laughing at me when i said i want to head home straight, and they went to town to chill instead. Kind of lame rite, i mean u book out at 6 plus and have to be back at camp at 2230. Originally i was thinking of riding out, but there are darn too many officers hanging at the company line. I mean if they found out that i ride in secretly, manz hell break lose, confirm either extra or confinement. Just a background info, it's illegal to ride into camp without a valid vehicle pass which u have to go thru S1 branch to apply and you need to have a defensive riding licence, all of which i don't possess. Bleuhh..i'm just lazy la, haha.

SOC was really bad! i has so much difficulty carrying my SBO load running in the new route, my timing was a disgusting 9.58 like just pass. I used to hit like 8.58 back in SISPEC.

Now i'm training hard for SUNDOWN marathon, and i got ms Rhonda Tan running with me, yay! she's training rly hard as well, hopefully i'm able to make it through safely. I did my 10km on monday, time was around 55min. Quite siong, i wasn't panting, but my physical body is telling my leg not to run, now after 2 days, it's aching all over. Gosh, nonetheless i feels good to run distance, when you find that you're at ur brink of ur running, keep running and rely on the holyspirit, i prayed and it sure felt good that day. I mean, i just can't emphasize how important it is that everyone need God, cause if we walk by out own strength, we're bound to fail somehow. Ok time for dinner at home, looking forward to cell group this week!

I thought that this week svc with mrs cho is really good. Given the fact that she's like 70+ and she still sings and preach like in her 30s. Plus she's a professional musician, with a PHD in music, gosh..that's something to wow about. Anyway this week outing was good.

Fri with the fairsians, supper at almeen then go watch midnight shows till 4 am

Sat pre svc was good as well, had a good time teaching shu en, she's really improving fast and a good fellowship with wayne at bedok.

Sun my make up cell, which turns out to be a pm, which was good, then chill out a short while with yulin, derrick and wl, then night jamming with andri and edmund!

I'm really glad that alvin came to svc with ed this week, indeed through prayers and good follow up, people will eventually see light.

wayne said : "while people do not see a need to seek God, our purpose is to show the way to let them know that we all can't live without Him." i totally agree.

now gotta rush to book in!!

gosh..another week past in maju camp, and it's getting really bored in there. Well the only high key is Ippt, which suprisingly i didn't train at all and i still pass!!, haha. ok said thing is still the chin up, only managed 7! darn! is like all my other requirement all gold already except this, and my 2.4km run broke new best at 9.23. *clap clap* i guess every morning when we've nothing to do, we just do alot of pt to keep fit which i feel its great! moreover i just done a 8km run in 35min!! i'm quite amazed. which brings me to whether i should join a marathon. definitely i've to train. while other think that 'siao, why pay money to torture yourself' i think otherwise. I really felt a deep sense of satisfaction in running lately.

putting that aside, daily in camp for me is all PSP and sleep and eat and sleep. This kind of unproductive life is annoying me seriously.

last night, i went over to Ed house late night with Andri to jam, check out this band Bamboo in youtube, they have this a song hallelujah, very nice rock tunes serious, very alternative. what's more they're phillippino. Now i know that they are all really tallented musician over there, and the vocalist accent is amazing, i almost thought they're some hit band in US.

So to curb with the bordem issue in camp, i went over to John little EXPO sales to buy some food to eat. haha i just went in for 20 min, i spent $47, gosh! but largely goes to the FCUK top and perfume set. You guys should really check out the big box of chocolate by solen, they are freaking addictive. i bought whole box of bueno copy for like only $7+ which is really worth it, and i found out that they make snickers copies as well. Do not be fooled by the price, i believe they're made in turkey!

ok i really miss talking to her, don't know whether if i'm advoiding her or she's advoiding me. gotta start communicating somehow

This week in camp is kindda static... apart from playing psp, we attended a POI(protection of installation) crash course, which includes, scanning vehicle, personnel search, arrest using handcuff, stuff like that. gotta admit that i'm not really talented in using handcuff, i kept messing up, when it comes to preparation of the position of the cuff to cuff on the hand, not easy k. And you have to pin down your buddie after pushing them down on the floor locking them with your knees. Ouch!

I like jack johnson! his music is like so simple, plain and carries a very positive vibe in them, example UPSIDE DOWN and BETTER TOGETHER, they're really nice. I think i might play them for people's party this coming SUN at VIVOCITY evening time at a cafe downstairs GV. Cause basically there will be live unplugged performance, by eehemm yours truely and few other zai vocalist as well, so stay tune.

Easter is really awesome so far, esp the drama performance, i would say they've reach a new height. Imagine infusing modern day settings with old jeruselem settings, i thought the depicting of the death of Christ has been rather accurate, esp in the emotions, anxiety involved in the play. No wonder thousands of people flock down to expo the past 2 days to catch it, even i myself i've watched it twice. The only regret, i nv bring any friend! basically they pang seh me last min. But i seriously thought they will be tremendously blessed by the drama.

looking forward to the ATP shoot tomrrow, must get my markmanship badge and the $200 dangling carrot. yum yum.

SOT! now everyone seems to be going in, and i'm still not!! why why!!?? So wished i didn't have to serve ns.. now those who ORDed like ming jie, zen min, those who just finish a's like yulin, weilin, those studyin like peng, i'm so envious of them!! It'll really cool if bible school still have 5 months course in future. But anyway...i've just rot my time away with tim,wah keong, cass and vincent at esplanade playing my guitar. really nice to go there once in a while to chill out..take some time to enjoy, the sea breeze, playing some worship songs, pop music and chit chat. Felt wayy much better. self doubt gotten to me earlier, thinking i'm a poor communicator esp in remedying a cracked relationship.

on the other hand, i'm glad that i've been given the opportunity to lead a team of musician for upcoming event 30th march at vivo. I guess the most difficult for me right now is the selection of songs suitable for the vocalist. headache...

oh and i've to book in later like at 9pm! so early right, i think life is sispec maybe better.

sorry tim..should have told ya i'm sleepy, and ya i know it's super dangerous

Oh well it's been quite a while, haha so much for all the cobwebs accumulated here in cyber space, i've just complete a hectic training in BSLC!! so yea..i'm a corporal now, got posted to 6 SIR recee platoon. I would say it is a blessing in disguise, when i first recieved my posting, i was like shit..recee course is next toughest to guards, perhaps just a tough. exercise long walk 50+km topo on recee fbo, POW training, jungle survivals, and many interesting stuff the senior sgt shared with me. End of the day, what you get is a nice jungle hat! say goodbye to helmet, another plus point i'll for jeep driving lesson soon, so yay class 3 license and it's a 1 month stay out course! plus maju is like super near my place, haha. i'm glad, praise God!

Happy birthday PENG! i know ur like 24 this year already, hurry find a girl man, haha

well about the grave i've made, i've landed myself once again in sliding sands. ok doing what you've done before expecting same result, is madness. i know the theories, just that once it comes to practical, i stumble. Perhaps i was too rush? infatuated? i still have feeling for her tho.. lets just sticks as friends alright, gosh it just so tough. seriously is it wrong to be nice to a girl? although u may already know the outcome that she seriously doesn't like u at all, how dumb are u baoie. From my view, at least i know that i'm genuine, but i like you man, but on the other hand it also become tough to not irritate them, cuz obviously they'll just ignore you. End of the day, i'll hurt myself emotionally. i've seen my best friend Tim getting hurt so bad, i feel for him seriously, and i swear i won't land myself into that state. I still pray alot for him tho, for a open path; dude! wake up alright, i don't want to see u like this so wasted state.. ultimately in God i trust, one nice girl will surely come along the way.

my stand is this, it's never the girls fault.. blame it that guy aren't perfect enough for them