I finally had the mood to blog about my birthday! (:
Isn't it weird that I only have the mood to blog when I'm really down?
Tell you more about it later.

Well, my class celebrated my birthday 2 days before the actual day.
I was rushing for law project meeting during my 1 hour break that day so I didn't really pay much attention to what was going on around me.
Chongning kept asking me to go to the canteen to have my lunch first before meeting the rest so I agreed.
Then, I saw brenda and the rest there.
Brenda was holding a box from sugarloaf so I asked her who was it for and went on to complain that it wasn't fair that her friend got a birthday cake but I didn't.
Until this point in time, I still couldn't figure out that they were planning a surprise for me!
Gosh!
Then, I finally go to meet up with my law project mates.
Halfway through the meeting, they started singing happy birthday song with the cake from sugarloaf.
Well, thanks to all!
It meant alot to me I was totally not in the birthday mood at that time. In fact, I was feeling a little down due to projects and all. But, the celebration really made me feel that all of you cared and it made me feel much better.
Let the pics do the talking!
(Thanks Sarah for the pictures!)























































































































































I spent the first minute of my birthday at HAN's with my family.
They wanteed to surprise me with a cake but the waiter blew it off for them. HAHA
Well, being the nice and lovely girl, I pretended to be surprised so that it wouldn't disappoint them.
The next day, we went to Sheraton Hotel for lunch. Following that, we went shopping at Taka.
My mum got me earrings and a necklace. And, the message she left fo me was: May you always be well-protected!
The birthday celebration was a big hoo-ha! but it was spent with people who are very dear to me. To me, that's good enough.

At night, had steamboat at Norman's place.
Argued quite abit with dear. Just felt that his tolerance level for me is dropping rapidly.
I mean it. It wasn't the best birthday celebration we had together (not that we had that many) but it was good enough to have him with me. I guess.

This leads me to why I'm unhappy today.
I argued with him again today.
(imagine the nubmer of times we have argued in this one month)
I do admit that most of the times I'm just being plain irritating and throwing uneccesary temper.
But the rest of the times, I just feel that he isn't as tolerant of me as before and I can sense the unhappiness in him.
I keep having to tell myself that he is just busy with work and has no time to entertain my nonsense.
But, is that really a valid excuse?
I just feel like I'm slowly losing him. Not to work, but to time.
As time goes by, friction between us starts building up and problems start surfacing.
No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to get into the door in his heart.
I'm left feeling very insecure, unappreciated and cheap in that sense.
I haven't experinced such a feeling before.
I hate it and I'm trying very hard to beat it off.
But it seems that I just can't fight it.
It probably just wasn't meant to be.

I love you. But, is it time to give up?