Well the dreaded day of going back to work has come and gone! That means I survived! Woot!
I went back to work the night of Easter. I work nights as a Registered Nurse in the ICU. So our Easter wasn't as enjoyable as it could have been because I was full of nerves, anxiety and sadness. I made sure everything was ready and laid out for work, for Nick who takes care of him at night, and for his Mom who watches him during the day. I had lots of people praying for me during this time! Thank you all!
I am not going to lie...there were tears! Lots of them! The most I had been away from my little guy was 3 hours! I couldnt imagine 12+ hours! I made sure Nick texted me updates and pictures. It doesnt help my first two nights back were very busy and overwhelming! It made the time go by fast, but it took a couple nights to get back into my grove. My co-workers were great and helped ease my anxiety etc. I also have a great boss that understands how hard it was for me to be away from Nico, the need to pump, and any schedule changes I might need.
Typical night/day for me.
6pm: Leave for work
7pm: Start shift
10pm-12am: Find time for first pumping session
4am-6am: Find time for second pumping session
730am: Shift ends
800am: Home, pump again
830-1030am:Nap
11ish: Pick up Nico (Love how happy he is too see me)!
If I have to work 2 nights in a row (which I'm trying not to do, unless I have to, because it's too long to be away from Nico. Also, hard to have everything prepared and ready for basically 2 full days/nights), I would sleep 830-300pm and pick him up around 330pm and then get a couple hours with him before I leave again.
The pumping at work has worked out. At first I did 3 sessions, but with being a nurse it can be very busy and unpredictable that I made sure to do at least 2 sessions. I think 2 will be enough because I pumped the same amount in 2, that I did for 3.
I am so thankful for my mother-in-law who watches Nico during the day! She also watches our nephew Andrew who just turned one. She has her hands full and loves those little guys so much! I know she loves to watch them and we are so grateful!
Nick has also been great! He has Nico all night, including his night time feeds. Nick is doing great and has really become hands on. I know he loves the special times he gets with Nico by himself.
We had one scare a week ago. It was Sunday night and I had only been at work for a half hour and I had a missed call from Nick. Stomach drop. He NEVER calls me at work, and wouldn't unless it was very important. Well I guess he was giving Nico his bath and halfway through he started screaming! It was his feeding time, so he got the bottle ready and started to feed him. He took about one ounce and then screamed again and started throwing up! Throwing up like he had never seen before and he would not stop screaming. He didn't know what to do with him because he has never done that before. So he called me. I didnt answer so he called his mom. Thankfully she lives 2 miles away and was able to help Nick and come over. I was able to call Nick back and hear everything that happened and told him to check his fever....none. Then I told him to give him some gas drops. He probably had a really bad stomach ache, gas or little bug. The gas drops helped and Nonna rocked him to sleep and he was fine! Phew! I felt so helpless and just wanted to hold my lil guy. He was in good hands at least. Ugh. I can't imagine when he is really sick. :( Dont want to think about it.
Well thats it for now. I love being able to take on working and being a mom! Working hard and then coming home to Nico makes it so much sweeter. I love having something to look forward to when work is done. God has surely blessed us with our careers and families. We are so grateful!