Baby Darius is ONE Month Old!

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I still remember the same time exactly one month ago...i was pushing hard to deliver darius into tiz world...and tinking back abt the labor pain i went thru...it was nothing compared to the pain i felt after birth when epi wears off...n the tiredness i felt during the first week...it made me missed preggy days...when i could sleep as long as i want...n at anytime i want...

But the past month...my life was totally in control by Darius...my little prince...i oli get to sleep when he sleeps...n if he wakes i have to wake too...if he's hungry i need to feed him first despite my stomach growling in hunger protest...

Family n frens will describe me as a "dead sleeper"...no matter hw many alarm clocks i have, i still cant hear a single one when it rings...bt yet nw i wake at the slightest sound made by Darius...I used to eat very slowly coz i like to enjoy my food n live to eat ...bt for the moment nw i need to eat to live becoz i'm the source of Darius' food...n hope to achieve my goal of nursing him for at least 6 mths...

The strongest feeling of motherhood is breastfeeding coz it makes me feel unique n special to Darius...as oli I can feed him the best...n the time n moments we share n bond...its a gift from GOD to mothers only...u never know how special it feels until u experience it...

Motherhood is still a long way for me n there is so much to learn everyday...but i'm enjoying every moment of it...

Darius' milestones so far:

* Has grown to 61 cm long...(growth of 8 cm from birth!)
* Weighs about 4.7 Kgs...
* Able to hold his head while sitting up...
* Able to hold his head up for 3 secs during tummy time...
* Starting to self-soothe himself to sleep...on good mood days only...
* Kicks strongly and likes to grasps on to mummy's shirt during nursing...

Mummy loves Darius...

Darius loves sitting up...

Mummy's first shopping trip with Darius

Jus Darius and Me...

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Yesterday my Mum left for Vancouver for holiday...and for the first time...its jus left me and Darius alone @ home...i felt a sudden sadness and helplessness...

Sad dat my mum is not with me...becoz i really enjoyed her company when she was here...Helpless without any help from my mum...

Coz usually in the morning when mum wakes up she will attend to crying Darius while i can have another precious hour of sleep...she will help to comfort him and soothe him to sleep after i nurse him...she will help to bathe him...she will help to change his diapers...she will also prepare meals for me... Now suddenly i have to do all these by myself...i feel so lost n alone...

But of coz i know dat she wont b here with me forever too...and the road to caring for Darius is a LONG LONG one...so its a matter of time i become independent...

Anyway i'm happy for her dat she get the chance to have fun in vancouver...coz she might not have chance in future to get such a long leave away from work...

I wonder how Emily is coping with Jayden...i kinda envy her dat she can get back to work soon in another month or so...but on the other hand i also cherished the chance to watch Darius grow in his first year of life...which is also the most important year...

Haiz...so contradicting...

Everytime we visit the doctor, the nurses will strip Darius down to weigh him...n he always scream n cry in protest...but seems like tiz time...he is in a good mood...he can even make faces @ the camera...

N listens attentively to Grandma speaking to him...

Thank You Mummy...!

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Time flies...by the end of tiz week Baby Darius will b 1 Month old! It's really a joy to watch him grow everyday...seeing that his milk intake in increasing...i know he is definitely growing well...

Sometimes even after nursing him for an hour...he can still take 100 ml of supplement formula...

Really thankful for my mum being here for me during tiz difficult time of my life...Becoz of her, i'm able to rest n remain cheerful after birth...i cant imagine how it will be if she never insisted on coming to help me...

Ever since Darius is born, it has been snowing almost everyday...n while i was in the hospital, mum take bus in minus zero °C to bring food for me at the hospital everyday...i'm so thankful that i dun need to eat the horrible hospital food...really thank GOD for her...

Now that i'm a mother myself...i know how hard it has been for my mother...esp when her husband dun give her the care n support she needs...

I'm thankful dat my husband is very supportive n patient with me during tiz period...

Mummy, i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU!

Grandma, Baby Darius will miss u when u return SIN!

Baby Darius...My bundle of JOY...

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Picking up from ware i stop in the previous post...

As common as it is with all babies, Baby Darius was admitted into PLC for jaundice on Day 3 of his life...he underwent 24 hours of phototheraphy...n the nurse came to prick his little foot for blood test every 12 hours to check on his jaundice level...poor little guy...my heart aches so much to see him cry helplessly...

By Day 4 Darius' jaundice level went down n he was off the phototheraphy...but the blood test results showed he has G6PD condition...n the doc said tiz is very common among Asian males...n its genetic...but he assures us dat it will not affect his development as he grows up...but there are some food n med dat he must avoid his whole life...n as a baby we should make sure he does not get any infection as tiz might trigger his red blood cells to break...n in severe cases he will need blood transfusion...but doc says tiz is very very rare...

So i went to find out more abt G6PD...actually some pple might have tiz condition they are not aware of until some food or med they take n caused a trigger...but in normal cases the red blood cells are able to build up on their own...so as adults its not really an issue of concern...

And because it is most common in Asian males, like out of 20 males, 5 have tiz condition, therefore the doctors here will always test for G6PD deficiency on Asian baby boys...

Darius @ birth...

Darius @ 19 Hours old...

Darius finally home @ 6 days old...snug in his own bed...

Darius @ 1 Week old...having his weight taken by the public health nurse...he has regained his birth weight! yeah!

Darius enjoying his swing...it always works when he is fussing...

Darius after a satisfied feed...making faces...

Darius jus loves the camera...

Darius having his afternoon nap with grandma...

Darius sitting @ the sofa watching TV...

Darius enjoying his bathe by grandma...

It's been a while

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I know many faithful readers of my blog are anxiously waiting for my next post since the birth of my precious boy...finally today i have the time and thanks to hubby , i could afford a good sleep last nite...

My Birth Story

In the wee hours of 16th Nov...

2.45 AM - Woke up to pee

3.00 AM - Heard 2 "POP" sounds...den felt fluid gushing out...OMG! My waterbag broke !Quickly jump out of bed (as i did not want to wet the mattress) and rush to the toilet bowl...den felt more gushing out...contractions starts to come in...but was still bearable...took a quick shower...woke hubby and mum up...den called Whampoa to inform my waterbag broke! Ate toast with jam and drank cereal...

4.15 AM - Grab hospital bag and headed for Peter Lougheed Centre... By then contractions were coming every 5 mins and last almost 2 - 3 mins...but i can still feel baby's active movements...Felt better in the car so ask hubby to drive slower so i can enjoy the ride...

5.00 AM - Arrive at PLC Emergency and was wheeled to Birth Centre on the 3rd level...By then contractions were more intense and painful...While hubby went to register my admission, i was being monitored at the Triage Room...Had 2 monitors attached to my tummy for baby's heartbeat and my contractions...

6.30 AM - Nurse came in to check me and i was 2 cm dilated only...was advised to get up and walk around to "open" the pelvic...Contractions getting more painful and closer dat i lost count...

9.15 AM - Returned to the Triage room and was told to move to Labor and Delivery Room as doctor confirms real labor is here...(of coz lah...waterbag broke leh...send me hm and wait for 4cm dilation meh...?!?!) Nurse gave me an option for Morphine to relieve the pain but baby will b drowsy after birth...so i rejected...

10.00 AM - Settled down in the Labor and Delivery Room...Hubby gave me massage and count me thru every contractions...they were really getting more painful and closer...hubby suggested i sit in the warm shower and it did help me feel better...

12.30PM - Thank GOD! The anaesthetic doctor finally came for my epidural...finally i could have a good sleep...

2.30 PM - Nurse came in to check and i was almost 5 cm dilated already...

4.00 PM - Though i had epidural, i realised i could feel the pain from contractions getting more intense...i "beg" the doctor to up my dosage...

5.30 PM - Contractions were only 30 secs apart and getting more intense...i was losing my senses already...Nurse heard me screaming for help...She checked me and said i was ready to push! But my sickening hubby and mummy were out having dinner...! Nurse called them to rush back!

6.00 PM - Started to push actively at every contraction...

8.00 PM - Baby still not out...Doc tried to use vacuum twice but failed as baby has too much
hair... :) so the grip was not strong...Doc did episiotomy on me as she said baby is too big...

8.29PM - Baby Darius is born!

Doctor Baxter placed him on my tummy immediately but i was too exhausted to cuddle him...so he was carried away for the Pediatrics to check him...but his little hand clung tightly onto one of the monitor dat was strapped to my tummy...seems like he does not want to be away from mummy... hehe...

Vital Statistics

Weight: 3.81 Kgs / 8lbs 6.5 ozs
Length: 53 cm / 21.5 IN
Head Circumference: 36 Cm

Right after birth...Darius only wail once den he was so alert n cheerful while the doctors check him...sooo lovable...





Stay tuned for more posts n pics...

Baby is due today...but...

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I'm not sure how accurate is the EDD provided by gynae...bt it seems like Darius really enjoys the cramp space in mummy's tummy...he has been actively moving and causing mummy pain in the pelvic area...y isn't labor starting yet? y is bracton hicks so pain? i tink i could b in the early phase of labor as i remembered early labor contractions could last for days...i dun need anymore practice contractions...can the real one jus come n get me over with birth?! its a torture man...

how long do i have to wait n suffer the suspense of cuddling my little boy...even my grandma is getting anxious...i really hope to deliver the good news to her soon...
i'm sure GOD knows when is the best time for baby to arrive...so i'll just have to patiently wait for His sign...

Actually as long as Darius is born healthy...all the waiting n pain is definitely worth it...! Even hubby will suddenly jerk up from his sleep and ask me...any signs? any pain? r u ok? Seems like he is also nt getting good sleep like me...every stretching movement of Darius inside me can wake me up from my sleep...n the frequent toilet trips is driving me nuts...

One more day left to Darius' arrival...

Ever since Sunday 11th Nov...which is also Remembrance Day here...i have been experiencing contractions and pelvic pains...like as if baby is trying to push his way down nearer to the world...contractions felt like 10 times more painful than menses cramps...everytime it comes...i just wanna swear out loud...argh~~~

Tmr is baby's actual EDD according to the gynae in SIN...14th Nov...SIN time of coz...but it seems like he is still enjoying his stay inside mummy...he has been moving alot today when i was out having dim sum with my mum n frens...mayb he knows he will be out soon...so he is doing house keeping today...haha...!
i'm sure i will miss feeling his movements inside me...but i look forward more to cuddling him in my arms...he is such a wonderful blessing to me...i'm getting impatient and more anxious to see how he looks like...

Having mum with me...really makes me feel less lonely and more confident...have been enjoying the bird nests she made for me...yummy! Poor mum...still trying to adjust herself to the time zone...everyday tell me she cant sleep well...i feel so heart pain...

Grandma is finally here...!

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Time flies...the long awaited trip finally took off! My mummy will arrive today in Calgary...and will spend the next 2 mths here with me...! How i wish my beloved sista can b here too...really miss her...Anyway im contented and grateful towards my mum...its not easy for her to travel such a long distance here and commit 2 mths jus for me...I'm really glad she can be here with me during the most important moment of my life...having a baby is really the biggest event of our lives...he is a new member to our family...and we are all curious hw he looks like...wat he will grow up to be...I hope baby will take after his daddy's good traits...and none abit like his grandfather...

Other than being excited to see my mum after so long...i'm also excited to see wat she has packed for me...keke...excess baggage of 20 over kgs...wow! dats really alot of stuff she's bringing for me...

I'm thinking...after the long trip...can she still recognize me with my bulging tummy...? hehe...i hope we can all get along well...mum n her fren with hubby n me...

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@ 39 Weeks ! ! !

Yesterday went to see the gynae...seems like baby is not growing much...so doc arrange for me to go for ultrasound tmr morning...kinda worried...n his heartbeat was only 130 beats / min...which is lower than his normal 150 beats / min...bt after checking the internet i am more assured that this is normal...

The normal rate is generally considered to be between 120 and 160 beats per minute.

• The rates are typically higher (140-160) in early pregnancy, and lower (120-140) toward the end of pregnancy.
• Past term, some normal fetal heart rates fall to 110 BPM.
• There is no correlation between heart rate and the gender of the fetus.

Doc checked my cervix and said baby is quite low...and in a posterior position...i hope he will turn and cooperate when labor is here...
Ever since 32 weeks...i can finally see my baby again on the ultrasound screen...hope baby is doing fine...very soon...we'll meet...hang in there darius...mummy is here with u...

White Sunday Morning...

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It snowed heavily again on Sat nite...I woke up to a beautifully white Sunday morning...the snow on the ground was almost 2 inches thick! Changed to long pants and put on my coat...went outside to satisfy my "sua ku - ness"...hehe...

Saw hubby shoving snow away from the pavement coz he's afraid i will slip n fall...awww...so sweet...bt i step onto the grass to "play" and made foot prints on the snow...only to get scolding from him...hee...



The car was covered in snow...like icing on a piece of blackforest cake...yummy...! So hubby have to brush the snow off the car too...looks fun! so i also tried but instead, i shove the snow flakes towards him! haha...so fun...! end up we were making snow balls and throwing at each other...chasing ard the car...so fun! dat was my first time playing with real snow...!







How i wish my beloved sista can b here with me...i remember when i was 16, mum brought us to korea for holiday...bt the snow at the ski resort was partially man made snow...but still we both had fun throwing snow at each other... :P

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Playing the Waiting Game...

After experiencing an hour of painful contractions last Wed...i managed to have a few peaceful days until yesterday when i was out shopping for TV with hubby...contractions came! Made me no mood for browsing...in the end we did not buy anything...

After braving the cold wind and getting into the car...nice and warm...it subsided and i felt better...upon reaching home contractions attack me again...lie in bed for awhile and it subsided...
Baby...hang in there okie...? Grandma will be here soon...

As i'm blogging now...i ald experience contractions twice...! Knowing the fact dat i only need to play another week of waiting game...im really nervous and excited...at the same time worried...
He has been part of me for the past 39 weeks...can i handle him as an individual? will he dislike me? can we bond? how does he look like? so much to think about...

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Never enough...

Everyday looking at baby's crib...playing with his mobile...it always occurred to me dat am i missing some things? should i get more hats? more blankets? more clothes? more diapers? more toys? mayb coz i feel bad dat some stuffs are hand-me-downs...though many people say babies grow very fast...dun need to buy so many new clothes...they outgrow b4 they wear each piece for 10 times...but its natural dat every parents want the best for their child...

Since i'm not working now...i cant afford the best toys or clothes for him now...but i'm sure i will make it up to him in future...i believe providing him a loving family to grow up is more important than materials...i rather save up for his education and bring him for holidays than buying him new baby clothes which he dun even know if they are new or old...as long as they keep him warm n comfy...

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Sorry hubby...i love u...

Last night...i caused hubby to drop his pc and now he has to reformat everything...all his data were gone! i feel so bad...y did i threw temper at him? he did nothing wrong! y cant i learn self control? y must i flare up at such a petty issue? y m i so rash? y m i still so childish!? i hate myself! I have such bad character...yet GOD blessed me with such a good husband...do i deserve him? i duno...but i'm sure he dun deserve such a wilful wife like me...i must change! but how...? i know if this go on for years...he will surely lose his patience with me...mayb i should sign up for anger management class...

I hope tiz is due to hormonal imbalance in me like my sista said since i'm preggy...after my body resumes to normal operation...hope everyting will improve...
But still...i really appreciate his patience with me...

When i'm hungry...he cooks for me...
When i'm tired...he lends me a shoulder to lay on...
When i throw tantrums...he patiently calms me down...
When i'm cold...he warms me with his love...
When i'm depressed...he cheers me up...

Hubby...i loVe u...ur the one dat i need for all times...

On Halloween Nite...

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Last nite while i was having dinner...i experienced a few terrible contractions...they were about 10 mins apart and lasted almost 3 mins...when it subsided, hubby ask me faster finish my dinner...in case shd i really go into labor, i will feel hungry...at dat moment...duno want to laugh or cry eh...

Took a few mouth of rice...contractions peaked...walk around for awhile...it subsided...return to the dinner table...eat abit more...contractions peaked again...went to bed n lie for a while...it subsided...quickly finish up my dinner...wanted to wash dishes...contractions peaked again...kaoz...! i also did realise the contractions become stronger n stronger...i was really worried dat i will go into labor...n yet hubby happily talking to himself...yeah tmr no need work...sickening...!

I kept telling baby...hang in there for jus one more week pls pls pls...at least when grandma is here...else mummy will b at a lost...another reason was also i dun wish to miss the birthing class tonite...hehe...

I was gald i could sleep thru'out the nite without any contractions...but woke up tiz morning with a sharp pain near my bladder...luckily i felt better after emptying it...
I'm happy that my day so far is smooth sailing...hope it will continue tiz way over the weekend as i need to make final arrangements for my mum's arrival next week...wonder how's her packing now...

Halloween in SIN is jus about partying, clubbing, drinking and not everyone dress up...
But its an interesting practice here...kids will dress up in halloween suits and walk around the neighborhood with an empty bag...asking for candies and sweets...and if ur household has nothing to offier...remember to turn off ur porch lights...tiz way they will not knock on ur door...some people will hold halloween parties in their home and dress up their garden...hang 'ghosts' n skeletons on their trees and light up pumpkins along the door way...
As i drive thru the neighborhood...can really feel the atmosphere...
Also heard from hubby dat some of his colleagues even dress up in halloween costumes with bloody makeup and went to work...so fun!

Xiao Ding! Hang in there!

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jus passed the week 37 mark...! yeah...baby is full term now...finally i can stop worrying about pre term birth...bt i still wish baby will hang in till 11th Nov...or at least after grandma arrives on the 8th...dat way...daddy dun have to take too much leave...

For the past 1 week...i have been feeling those practice contractions...pain is bearable but alot of discomfort...though hubby wanted to practice wat he learnt at the birthing class and tried to massage me...i somehow pushed him away n asked to be left alone...curled in bed under the sheets for a few minutes...n was relieved they were gone...

I then monitored and realised i will experience such practise contractions once every 2 - 3 days...fortunately they will subside when i change position or walk ard...doc says my body is getting itself ready for labor...bt my brain is not ready yet! i'm not mentally prepared! Though i have been looking forward to the arrival of tiz baby thru'out the past 37 weeks...bt now dat i'm finally in the 'waiting period', i jus wished for a few more months to get prepared...i tink i'm still not ready to b a mom...n sickening hubby says when baby arrives...he will b busy taking care of 2 kids...chey!~~~

Over the weekend...daddy jus fixed baby's crib n car seat...den i also mounted the Fisher Price mobile onto the crib...its a gift from my 1st fren in calgary...other than having music n turns...it also have stars n moon dat shines onto the ceiling...beautiful ! Even hubby enjoy playing with it b4 he goes to sleep...haha...have to scold him to switch off n nt waste battery...haiz!

Finally after 3 attempts...hubby passed his road test and gotten his Class 5 Advance driving license...yeah! But still he needs more practise on the road...to improve on his judgement...
At least its one thing down from our long to-do list...

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Summer has passed...Autumn is almost gone...Winter is coming...

2 Weeks ago...the tree at my doorstep still has the beautiful red / orange leaves on them...now...its completely botak!

For the first time in my LIFE, i saw falling snow on 24th Oct...at nite...though under the street lamps they look like heavy rain...bt the ground is all white...n it was not very cold actually...quite comfortable jus wearing my MNG sweater...

But then...the next morning...it was bitterly cold...n the backyard was covered in snow...so nice! as i was snapping pics of the scene, i made sure the neighbors were not looking at my silly actions...hehe...

After 2 days...the snow melted completely...n weather now is great...very comfortable...

Except in the morning when the sun is still not out yet...earth is still not warmed up...

As we approach winter...days are shorter n longer nights...like tiz morning...8 am sun looks like 6 am in sin...n since we live in the west...we dun have much sun on our side bt rather...i can still see the moon from the bedroom window...kinda wierd...hehe...By the time hubby knocks off from work...at ard 6 pm...the skies are dark like 8 pm in sin... makes me feel so sleepy ald...

After such a long blog...i tink i need a nap now...ZZzzzzzZZZzzz

Anytime soon...~~~

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Congrats to Emy...on the arrival of baby Jayden! He is sooo cute! But poor emy...suffering from the pain n tiredness after labor...Not easy to b mummy...

After reading her birth story...makes me kinda freaky about looking forward to my own labor experience...wonder how long i will take...wonder how i handle the pain...or rather...i dun tink i will even handle it...jus raise the white flag for Epi...But i kinda envy her...labor hours were not really long...12 hours and baby's out...!

Emy is my 1st n oli preggy fren...intro by my aqua...thru out the preggy days...she has teached me alot and guide me on wat to eat...wat to do...wat to prepare...its really nice to have someone share the experience with u...makes me feel more assured n confident...though we have not met...but i can feel she is really a nice person...

Time flies really fast...now dat her baby's out...its gonna be my turn anytime soon...i jus wish my mum will be here first b4 baby arrives...coz i tink i will be at a lost when baby's home...esp when hubby n me both have no experience...i can only pray that GOD will give me the guidance i need to care for baby...n HE knows when is the best time for baby to arrive...so meantime...i try (very hard) to relax then...

3 Weeks & 5 Days...

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Jus went for my 3rd birthing class last nite...n had a wonderful surprise...the couple dat did not show up for last week's class actually had their baby last thursday...! She is sooooo cuuute.... And poor girl...become a display for everyone as the instructor showed us how her belly button looks like...(of coz with permission from the proud parents)...She was supposed to be due on 14th Nov...but born premature @ 35 Weeks...n become a Oct baby...

Becoz she is premature...she look abit jaundice and her cries weren't dat loud...like a kitten...hehe...bt she looks strong and mommy looks fresh and "free" without the tummy...Mayb coz she is Ang Moh...so they tend to be stronger than asians...Seeing mommy cuddling the baby...they look so blessed and makes me look forward to my own labor...

Wonder hw is emy now...is she cuddling jayden already...? how nice...

Yesterday was also my Week 36 checkup at gynae...i'm 63 KGS !!! OMG! Dats a 15 Kgs gain thruout my preggy days...Doc did a Group B test swab on me...hope to have negative results next week....so that i dun need to be on antibiotics during labor...

In exactly 3 Weeks...my mum will be here...wonder will baby wait for grandma to b here first...bt i look forward more to baby's arrival than mum...hehe...still...i wish he will b born on 11th Nov...coz its a nice date...

Till now...we still have not really decided on baby's name yet...haiz...y so hard to decide...

Ever since my last blog...

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Autumn is here...the tree at my doorstep jus turned from green to yellow to red...really beautiful...i might sound silly here...bt all my life in SIN i have oli seen GREEN trees...

It's been a loooong time since i have a post on my blog...wat have i been doing for the past 3 weeks...? i also duno...other than the number of days to the arrival of my baby changes everyday...every thing else seems the same...

Well...y do i suddenly have the urge to blog today? coz my lovely aqua created a new blogskin for me...which i luuuuvvv it! and it manage to kickstart my brains n fingers to start working on the keyboard...

Its really a wonderful "ding" to see my tummy doing the kallang roar every now n then...frm left to right...ole ole ole ole...ole...ole...haha...muz b my hubby crazily tinking abt playing soccer with bb liao...he already bought those rubber balls...n start playing by himself...sometimes i will join him...haha...imagine the silly sight...both of us chasing after the small rubber ball...

Okie...let me flip thru my organizer n see wat i have been up to the past 3 weeks...

Week starting 24th Sept...
Finally received the cheque from insurance company for the payout of our damaged Odyssey...
and decided to buy the black 2001 Mazda MPV which we both like...though there were a few problems here n there...we managed to fix them...afterall its a second hand car...hw good u expect it to be...jus need to change the tires for winter use...
Received the MPV on Friday...n life is finally back to normal...coz the past week without car has been hell...so handicapped and limited...

As usual at my week 33 checkup...doc says the same ting...blood pressure normal...baby is doing fine...normal fetal heartbeat...blah blah blah...

Week starting 1st Oct...
Felt some problems with the car's steering wheel...which kept pulling to the right...went back to dealer...and they ask me to send the car to their mechanic...who diagnosed dat the car needed wheel alignment...so i drop the car there on wed morning and had to take bus n train hm...wat a long way man...took me an hour to reach hm...coz there is no straight bus...i had to take bus to train station den train to downtown...den bus hm...waiting for bus in dat darn cold weather is hell...it made me miss the time i waited for MRT at Tampines Station...holding a piece of tissue wiping my sweat n swearing at the train for taking so long to arrive...Though it oli takes mins for the train to arrive...its enuf for me to melt there...
But still...I really appreciate n realise that the public transport in SIN is really really fantastic & efficient !!!

I'm glad we managed to collect the car in time to attend the first lesson of Birth and Babies 2007 @ Alberta Children's Hospital...its a prenatal lesson which i paid CAD 185...so i definitely cant afford to miss one lesson...
The class consist of 9 couples...all EDD sometime in Nov...though i do not have the last EDD in Nov...i have the smallest tummy there...anyway first lesson was quite informational...we learnt how to differentiate Braxton Hicks n real labor contractions...n wat to bring to hospital...when to go...n warning signs...n the instructor showed us a visual effect of hw the baby will progress thru the pelvic bones to the birth canal n out in tiz world...seems like a long way though...
From wat she says...my baby is in a good position for natural birth...hope he does not play too much with the umblical cord dat tangles ard him so much dat natural birth is out of question...

Weekend went to bottle depot to deposit all the plastic bottles for recycling...finally clear the kitchen area...since it was still early...we went to Sears to shop for sales stuff...n bought a quilt set and mattress pad for mum...

Week starting 8th Oct...
Its Thanksgiving Day! We did not have much of a celebration...since jus the two of us...but i'm glad hubby can be home with me...so we spent the day watching movies and enjoying each other's company...

Tues went for a Budgeting for Baby seminar...learnt abt the practice here on registering baby's birth...getting health insurance and social insurance number (SIN)...and how to apply for govt perks...etc...

Wed went for my Week 35 checkup...as usual...everyting was good...all is normal...but doc sent me for urine test next week...

Thurs as usual...attend Birth and Babies class...watch a birth video which was quite traumatising for me...bt i felt a surge of joy n relieve when i saw the baby was finally out...i wonder wat my birth experience will be...hope i can b like my mum...have a short labor...though doc says there is no scientific proof dat it will be related...

Weekend as always...we went for grocery shopping...
n hubby made me a delicious dish...which was really good considering his first time doing them...Chicken with Sesame n Ginger wine...i love it! He is so talented...even with a recipe i dun tink i can make it...he saw me enjoying it so much...he oli took a bit or two...n let me finish it all...i'm so touched...he say good food leave for baby n me...he will finish the overnite dish...

i always knew he puts us before himself...in everything he does...i know i mentioned too many times liao...bt i have to remind myself how blessed i am...though we have our share of quarrels and arguements...bt i'm confident he is true to me...
sometimes i find him childish also...n nt thoughtful enuf...bt den again...who is perfect...? he never expect so much of me...wat makes me expect more from him when he has given me so much?

Week Starting 15th Oct...(This week !)

As of today...it will be 4 weeks & 1 day to the arrival of God's next greatest creation...my boy...i will also be starting my weekly checkups till labor...
Baby...hang in there alrite...? Week 37 is jus around the corner...Dun b too anxious to see mummy...though mummy is anxious too...so u mus b patient...okie...i know its getting really cramp in there...bt jus endure...mummy is with u...

Wonder hw emy is doing...never see her online over the weekend...is she in labor yet? or baby jayden is born liao?! Emy....jia you! jia you! u can do it!

My life...like a Ferris Wheel...

Weather: Rain -1°C

Like a ferris wheel...turn and turn and turn...jus like my life nw...every week is the same same same pattern...boring is the oli word to describe my days...
Everyday the only thing my brain needs to process is to tell hubby wat to cook for dinner...it sounds simple...bt its actually a very stressful and troublesome question...there are days that i really dunno wat to eat...bt i cant dun eat...my baby needs nutrients...so i also cant satisfy my hunger with a few biscuits and fruits...which i used to do...

Lately the oli thing that amuse me is the wave on my tummy and pain in my ribs created by my precious boy...as the days draw nearer...hubby and i look forward to seeing him...we are so curious who he will look more like...daddy or mummy....well...i'm sure he will be a good looking kid...coz his parents both are beautiful pple...dun laugh...every parents think tiz way...

After the ultrasound last thursday, i know baby's position in my tummy...so sometimes i will soothe his butt which is on my left side...den he seems to enjoy dat...he will stop his vigorous kicks on my right ribs ware his legs are facing...i feel we can already start bonding nw...which is really amazing...! i hope he will recognize my voice when he is born...coz i always talk to him...n stupid hubby will laugh at me...wat does he know man...nvm...i know he is jus jealous...

I jus finished reading my aqua's blog...glad she enjoyed her weekend after a worst hit...but i also know she is jus drowning her sorrows in drinks though she always appear happy to others...i really wish there is stg i can do to help...bt since it concerns matters of the heart, i can oli give her emotional support n listening ear...she is working so hard and dunno how to take care her own health...she is still living in the past and duwan to walk out of the dark...i oli have ONE wish for her...love urself abit more can?! u deserve more than wat ur getting nw...ur a rare gem...

As i'm ending tiz post...hubby jus ask me the deadly qn...dear, wat u want for dinner tonite?

56 Days to Go ! ! !

Weather: Cloudy, 8°C

Today jus went for my 32nd week ultrasound scan...so happy to see my baby again after sooo long...since week 18 in singapore...sob ~~~

Baby's head is down already and weighs ard 4 lbs (2.29 Kgs)...he is facing my right side, which explains y the right side of my rib cage hurts when he kicks...doc says he is running out of space inside me...so when he moves...i will see a huge wave along my tummy...so fun...!
sometimes hubby n i will guess its his little hands or elbow or knees or feet creating the wave...
When doc show me his face...i could see his little nose n lips...soooo cute! i tink he will look like daddy coz he has quite deep eye sockets...mummy face is too flat!
I could also see his little heart pumping fast at a fetal's normal rate of 150 beats per min...den also saw his lungs already developing and practise breathing...

Thank GOD that baby is developing and growing well...i will patiently wait 56 days for his arrival...

It was drizzling when i came home...the air is cold n dry...makes my nose painful when i breathe...found some blood trail when i cleared my nose...damn!
Now is almost 5 pm and i need to go out and pick hubby home from work...so happy to see the clouds have cleared and the sun is out...and baby is moving actively...seems like he also knows we are going to fetch daddy hm....

Snow! Ware?!

Weather: Cloudy, 2°C

Hubby jus called me...say it was snowing lightly at his office area...i got so excited dat i nearly trip myself while climbing the stairs to get outside the house...since i have never seen snow in my entire life...! to my disappointment...its not snowing here...bt its freezing cold out there man...

well...i shall wait den...since weather is turning cold ald...i guess when winter comes...it will get so cold dat i hate snow... haha!

long time no blog...busy with settling the car and insurance stuffs...so tiring man...hope can settle everything within this week...den my life will get back to normal...
now i cant tahan travelling in the car for too long...will get kinda restless and sleepy...but i wanna accompany hubby while he is driving...so i cant sleep! den i jus eat n eat lor...

last nite hubby told me his boss will send him to Airdrie for a 6 week project...damn! is there a better time for dat?! i'm so worried when baby comes...hubby cant be with me...so sad... :(
next year if hubby have a chance to take up the Toronto project...i want to go also!!!

Moments of my ROM on 3rd March 2007

Feel so so so miserable...

Lately i can never find a comfy position...be it sitting on the sofa...or lying on the bed...my back is always aching...and even bathing is a chore for me...though hubby is so sweet and offered to shower me...but...i feel so unattractive nw...

Esp last nite...felt a sharp pain all over my lower abs...as if baby is pushing my muscles outwards with all his strength...at first i tot it was a crampy feeling...really scared the shit outta me...
Baby cant be ready to be born nw...! im jus tinking too much...

Always have dreams that baby is born already...n caring for baby dun seems as difficult as i tot it would be...well...im dreaming...i know...bt still i'm looking forward to the transition period of me from a lazy, childish and sloppy person to a dilligent and responsible mother...
At the same time...i hope i can still play the role of a wife to my dearest man...bt well...he'll understand...afterall...baby is the fruit of our love....(silly smile~~~)

Early Morning Blog...

Yawnz...~~~ :o
Slept @ 3 AM last nite...tiz morning kena woken up by a call from my auto insurance agent @ 7.30 AM...sickening...now cant get back to sleep liao coz my tummy growling though i AM sleepy...

Anyway i'm in a good mood...so i can do away with some sleep...
Jus read an email from my Mummy...sent an hr ago...she has confirmed that she will be coming to visit me during my confinement month...with another fren too...Thank GOD for them! I oli ask for help...He gives me helpx2 ! With 2 extra pair of helping hands, i'm sure i can pull through the first few weeks with baby around and restore my own health...
This is the power of prayer...with FAITH...GOD ALWAYS exceeds our expectations...yet we ALWAYS fail to meet HIS...but HE still LOVES us...so we should NEVER STOP trusting...

Though my mum and i were not always on the close end of the relationship...though we do not communicate as often and as well as i hope we can...but after all...she is my mum...who also went thru wat im going thru nw to have me...so i guess ONLY she is willing to put down everything on her hands now and travel so far jus to be with me during the most important time of my life...its really touching to feel her great motherly love for me...which i always tink its never there...but jus becoz she dun show it...does not mean she dun feel dat way for me...
I think i'm jus being shelfish...coz i also do not show my love for her too...and yet have expectations of her...now that i'm going to be a mother too, i finally understand my own mother...n how it has not been easy for her ALL these years...afterall when she had me, it was her first time as a mother...how well u tink she can perform?!

Now i also have to juggle the roles of a daughter...a wife...a mother...a daughter-in-law...a granddaughter...a niece...an older sister...its really not easy to perform all roles well...So i continuously seek GOD's guidance and wisdom...hoping i can perform better than my own mum...

I can proudly and confidently say i have a better husband than my mum...n I'm really glad and contented that i have such a good husband...he takes care of me and always put me before himself...always leave the good food to me and cant bear to eat them himself...how many man out there are willing to cook everyday for their wife who is not working and staying hm? He also never force me to learn unlike my past ex bfs...or rather when i want him to teach me the roles, he jus shush me away say " u learn for wat?! wait u scald and cut urself...i'm more busy eh..."
well...it actually sounds romantic to me though...coz i know he has my interests at heart...he knows i hate handling raw foods and standing in front of the fire...

I wish there is a way to tell him how much i appreciate him...how much i love him...
how lucky i feel...though there are times we quarrel, bt those were constructive...it jus made us understand each other better...

Cold and Boring Day... ~~~

Woke up tiz morning...seeing no sun and dark skies...makes me feel so gloomy...
Worst still...had a bad back ache thru out the nite...cant sleep well...sickening hubby...sleep like PIG! cant even wake him up to massage for me...luckily i have granny's ointment...the cooling effect manage to soothe my poor back...

So handicap without the car...gotta stay home tiz weeked liao...sianz...
Luckily there is a supermarket nearby...but have to walk there in the cold weather...sianzx2...

Last nite called my beloved LJ...wishing her happy birthday...i'm so happy to hear her voice...its been a long time we chatted on skype...well...understand she's very bz with work...poor gal...gotta work on her birthday...n away from home in Muar...bt still...at least she have a few nice colleagues to celebrate with her...anyway, im sure i made her day with my call...hehe...!
Kinda envy her oso...having a progressive career...n a nice boss...wonder when i can be back to the workforce after having baby...miss working...bt well...its nice to be hm too...
At least dun have to see other pple's "face color"...

Everyday...i can feel my tummy getting harder and harder...baby's kicks seems stronger n stronger...sometimes it hurts as he pushes against my stomach muscles...
But still, its a wonderful feeling that is a priviledge to all mothers...really amazing to have a life within me...

No matter how much informatinon i read...i still fear the labor process...its seems easy yet complicated...i can already visualize myself with the baby crying at the top of his lungs...
and i'm flipping reference books looking for a solution...i cant let dat happen rite?!?!
Poor boy...

10 more weeks ! 70 more days !

Every week i will receive an email from Baby Center counting down to my due date...
Oli left with 10 weeks to cuddle baby ding...! :P And i haven decided on his name yet! OMG!
Everyday seems to pass on so fast...there seems to be more and more to do...and i feel lost!?!?!

As motherhood draws closer to me...i cant help but feel the pressure...i'm still a child...how do i be a mother? It dawn on me that it has not been easy for my OWN mother all these years too...
Since i'm not an academic kid since young...always getting into trouble...do tings without proper planning...lazy and vain...always tink about the shortcuts in life...which has resulted me in going thru so much unnecessary paths...which my mum DID warn me about...but still, i grew from these experiences...

Now is my turn...can i do a better job? or will i do a worse job? no one knows for sure now...
Time will tell...i jus pray for guidance and wisdom from GOD...

No matter how, i still look forward to the arrival of my baby...coz he is the only thing i OWN in this world...n i do cherish him...as much as the other love of my life...Mr Ding...

Outing with Rita...

Sometime in June...met up with hubby's fren Rita from Edmonton...She came to Calgary with some frens over the long weekend for leisure...
Haiz...when can i also go to Edmonton...which is only 3 hrs drive away...

Since then...it has been 2 months that i really enjoyed myself here...everytime we go out...its always to the supermarkets for replenishment of groceries and home supplies...
Well...there were a few times hubby bring me to shopping malls...bt still...different...
missed the entertainment back in SIN...movies wih frens, chats at cafe, KTV, nightspots, beach...argh....~~~

Back to reality...i still had fun anyway...we had dinner at a Korean restaurant...followed by walk by the Bow River...den went to downtown for drinks at a Jazz Pub...quite good though....
Different lifestyle here...not bad to have a change for awhile too...


Below is pic of The Bow River, 623 kilometres in length, flows through Banff National Park, one of the most famous and most visited nature reserves in the world. It forms the heart of the city of Calgary, home to one million people and the commercial and cultural centre of southern Alberta. Its currents are rocky and fast flowing...

Rita, hubby and me!

At the Jazz Pub

Map of Downtown Calgary

Stephen Ave @ Downtown