I was slow, but i got there
I've been a tad bit confused lately, off my game as what most people would describe. It feels as if a myriad of thoughts are exploding in my head and I just can't put a finger as to what really is going on. And worst, these thoughts have been floating around in my conscious mind in the hours and days, circulating through my brain like oxygen-deprived blood. Call it mid mid-life crisis or whatever, but I do hope life sort itself out soon.
Looking back, there are a thousand things I miss doing when I was younger. Being retarded and getting away with it easily and for some reason now that you're older, you are expected to be mature about everything and anything whilst under the watchful eyes of your fellow 'mature' comrads.
Recently I'm caught up with many events and many people have asked me to take a notch down but the thing is that in the business, i tend to forget about the misery and pains of life. I mean i'm no drama queen going through depression or whatsoever but everyone has their secrets right? And like everyone, i have mine. I'm human, with flaws, dreams, heartaches, love and sadness.
Something has been weighing on my heart lately and as much as this blog is a wasted space, i shall hold back on spilling everything out just to avoid any hoo-has. Or in other words, it's a secret for me to keep. And to tell you the truth, most secrets are much less interesting than the person guarding the information suspects.
I've come to realised that life is not so much about how you feel as irregardless of your emotions, life still goes on. But more of rather, life is about the choices you make.
Have lots of plans after I ORD and i'm really excited to see it come to past. And I really think furthering my studies is pretty unnecessary for now. Well nothing is ascertain so we will just have to see how it goes.
