i'm going ballistic. You?


And just a random note, something that i have observed when studying. People who studies and at the same time hearing loud rock-ish music. Its weird yet cool. Maybe these guys are musical genius that they can covert the keypoints to the lyrics, and during the exam, sing the song with the keypoints lyrics.

But personally, i cant.

Anyways, exams are a killer. Duh. I'll blog after the exams and the only thing im looking forward to is the end of the week shopping therapy (:

PLUS, im working from next week onwards.

And thanks dawn for the message. Appreciate it loads. (: You just sometimes need to know that people are praying for you. It helps (:

And aikey, this friday we will look good. save save save.


till then.

I promise shoutouts the next time i blog. which is after the exams and if i'm still alive (:

If you ever feel that life sucks
and that everything is somehow against you.
Or you are just so depressed over a certain issue
Or maybe, when you feel like giving up cause its simply too difficult and tough,

this video is for you.

This is from a documentary shown on Channel 4 in the UK called 'Young@Heart'; the name of the New England octogenarian chorus line. The performer here is Fred Knittle, who suffers from congestive heart failure. This song was intended to be a duet between Fred and another chorus member, Bob Salvini. Sadly, Bob died of a heart attack and it was left to Fred to carry the song on his own.The people you see crying at 01:13 are Bob's family. The lady you occasionally see mouthing the lyrics in the audience is Fred's wife.

The young at heart singing "fix you".

Tears streams down your face,
When you lose something you cannot replace.
Tears streams down your face,
I promise you i will learn from my mistakes.

And all i ever wanted was for you to know.

Know what?



Period.


I'll spare you my life as its not really in a blog-able state. The only highlight of this week - Shenna's house. Do your research and you know how boring my life has been, especially in school. Not saying i hate school or whatnot, its just that ...

I love school. Pardon my schizophrenia.

Its study break this week and i dont want to spoil the week (:

So it was shenna's crib after eating at five star. I so wanted to play majhong, BUT because the game is a silent game, we couldnt play it. So we went on a secret blog hunt spree. Found a few (: Ate ice cream and drink and drink and drink till we were high.

Green tea was great.

Stayed till 1230.


looking back.
It is really all this social activities that preserve my sanity. Thank god for friends.

And on the topic of friends, once again, i bring to you SHOUTOUTS.

This is the part where you stop skimming through and start reading.



Sean Lee: I'm such a nice friend right, keeping to what i say. Okay anyways, its great knowing that you join the worship team. Remember to keep practising cause we wouldnt want halfway during worship we suddenly hear a shout from the stage, "EHH WAIT AR. HOLD THAT CHORD. NEED TO DE-CRAMP MY FINGERS FIRST. PAISEH AR!" (: i love your fingers. Sign them up for Guiness world record. You might win the category of impressive fingers.

Shenna: Thanks for the good hospitality (: Remember all the little secrets i told you and make sure you dont tell anyone (: If you keep them, i'll tell you more. And this might even be who the chinese/malay dude is. And we keep assuming he's a he. But sometimes, it could be a she (: a chinese malay woMAN. All the best for your Os. Though i already know negative 6 points (in a good way) is coming your way. You can straight away proceed to UNI. And sorry to tell you, my bob is nicer than yours already (: but still, you look hawwwt with your long pink hair.

Char: *Looks to the ground as even i type this* I know what to get for you for your birthday. SHADES (: the really dark ones.

Isaac: We are both smart people, we dont ask. I hope it really continues this way. Oh, and SIP is ending soon. Few more weeks! I'll countdown with you (:

Maddy: Dont you just love my eye-liner? This is what happens when you dont help me.

Vaness: EEEEEEeeeeee! Sounds familiar? But if im meeting the other one, you will be EEEEEEEeeeee, why never call me along! (: i'm sure you get what i mean. (: Study hard k. I'll be praying for you.

Sher: You like cute dogs. I dont. But i like cute kittys. (:

Dawn: O sleepy face. Stop sleeping la. WAKE UP! Anyways, congrats in making to the main six. Well done indeed. Continue to whack those balls and get more bruises. But just make sure you dont show it to me. Oh, and badminton soon. Like i said, if i cant beat you in dota, i will at least beat you in badminton. (:

Pris: I miss you so so so so much. Date me soon okay?

Cass: I have your bloated big humongous face in my phone. This is what gets me up every morning.

Aikey: Notice that i have strategically placed you the last. The last shall always be the first (: "Bubu is so overrated" Hope you enjoy my surprise (: And my titty has migrated. You can never find them. MUHAHAHA (evil laughs)

And.to.all.those.who.is.reading.this.but.i.never.include.you: leave your name, i'll shoutout to you specifically in the next entry just like i did for sean. LOVE YOU GUYS/GIRLS/PETS/PESTS!




I would sadly say this is the end and its goodnight, but i'd be lying.



NOTHING HERE. NO POINT HIGHLIGHTING. GOODBYE (:

It is been said, time heal all wounds.
I do not agree. The wounds remain.
In time the mind protecting the sanity covers them with scar tissues,
and the pain lessens.
But it is never gone.

-Rose Kennedy.

I believe many of you people are certainly relieved in seeing the new blog skin picture. No more fat face taunting you as even you read my post. Looks like kids arent able to sleep at night after visiting my blog. I apologise if the previous picture have caused a trauma and i definitely WILL NOT take responsibility. Simply put, run along if my face scares you (:

so i guess its a farewell to my face then. Its indeed a sad loss. It was fat yet at the same time scary. What a drama valediction to my look-a-like "a child called it".
I'm just playing. I need to laugh even as i write.

Anyways, this week has been rather cool, not that the week has even passed the mid equator yet. Guess its pretty much the first few days of the week that sets the pace, atmosphere and the degree of emoness.

That is,
if it continues to be like that.

I'm intending to spend my week fruitfully with joy. Assignments have ceased, school has finally come to the last week and pressures from the different worlds have toned down. Praise God (: He's definitely faithful.

Oh, today is someone's birthday. Okay, stop guessing, its Grace (:

Hello my cool lil' friend. Its been a long long journey ever since we have embarked on the missions by our fathers and even our mothers. Great knowing you overseas and even here, in Singapore. Looks like we have witness both our beings evolve and even go through the different stages of puberty. Puberty has definitely been gracious to me and I'm sure, to you as well. So as even on this special occasion, you are remembered by your childhood friend and from the bottom of my potbelly, i wish you a sexy-licious birthday (:

stay hawwwwt (:


oh and yes its been great playing with you in the worship team for one year? yea. around there. You are definitely a talented so much potential for God kind of a sexy human.

so once again, Happy birthday. *sings the song monotonously*

(:

Aikey: The conversations every night steals everything that i can think of, picture and even dream of. So apologies for the lack of words here in this shoutout. I can't possibly think of a new thing to say to you. Just one word maybe - sevol. PLUS, you have a great talent, singing aside, which is to pinch my tits till it turns blue. Great talent you have. I respect you with fear.

Vaness: I am convinced that somehow, i succeeded in frightening you in that monster house movie. And cramps indeed are painful, but with ben around, your needles and pins just magically vanishes right? wheeee (: And i see you are getting closer and closer and closer to ...
Don't be holy here, its not god, though i believe and sincerely hope that everyday you are closer to him but spirituality aside. Stop thinking so much.

Dawn: Thanks for the rides. I'll pump the petrol next time (: I'll challenge you to badminton soon. You thrashed me in dota, now its my turn to win back some pride for myself.

Coral: Issues, we all have. Past no one do not have. Oh, you cannot say so much to me remember, im sensitive. (: i'm a good cry-er.

Maddy: cheer up medic! you can do it. Don't give up. I'd be praying for you :D

Isaac: I caught you on film running like mad. Too bad you deleted it. Argh.

Jarrold: We walked the whole TP. Tiring isnt it? And hope you enjoyed yourself in my lecture. Wait, you were not paying attention but were busy watching videos.

cass: 16'07'90, 09'07'61, cassie. Does this three stuff look familiar to you? Anyways, great to have you more than just a inmate but also a friend.

clara: You too (as above). Just promise me one day you will come to school without make up. This is what i would call, natural beauty. Make up causes skin cancer. *im lying*

shenna: You have done the chinese race proud! A1. My gosh. Straight As for your O level results and i shall give you a full pictorial visual on the chinese-malay dude. Oh, and stop taking naps or rather hibernation, you are wasting your day! you can instead spend the afternoon taking pictures of yourself and even breakdancing! my my my. all you can do when you dont sleep in afternoons.

rayvin: hello muscular mass. i appreciate all the calls (: And rest your eyes well. Dont get them infected too often. Jesus give you big eyes for a reason.

all-those-i-have-missed-out-as-now-its-2:10am-and-i'm-so-tired: BEN LOVES YOU. If you really feel that i should be specific, leave your name in the tag and i'll do a specific shoutout to you (:

'sevol' si detarrevo.

Don't be victimised by the misconception of it.

Temporary.Temporary.Temporary.
Know that.

A photograph is a secret about a secret.
The more it tells you, the less you know.

Finally, the many assignments that is due tomorrow is all completed. Feel the joy (: I can even see the angels up in heaven doing a mass dance, stomping to the RnB tempo. So yes, i have completed everything - Medsoc presentation, poster, magazine advertorial, and news writing all in this week. Aren't you proud of me? I bet. And of course with much credits and gratitude to everyone that helped and sustaining my mental health. Without you'll, life would be the pits. Murphy from last week havnt spared me much. And i'm still clinging on, to whatever hope that is left. School sucks, i know. And obviously the drama in it isn't really helping.

Overrated shit.

once again, due to the extremely boring week, i have nothing to talk about. So, i shall do shoutouts. Dont you just love that?

here it goes.

aikey: Two words. dneirfaru. sevol. *words are of greek origins, 1400 BC.

vaness: you lil' fellow better get something for me!

isaac: thanks for all the help and the messages of encouragement. It really helped in getting me through the shit given by the bottom feeders.

pris: i miss you. Let's meet up soon. Date me whenever you're free. (:

jacklyn: don't think you are dead you can escape from the responsibility of sending me emoness part 3 uncensored. (: nice knowing you. You got rather a cool carcass.

cass: Move on. As much as it is difficult, its never impossible unless you tell yourself otherwise. Stop thinking too much. You still got friends like me and rara.

clara: Greetings white, freaking white, bimbo. I'm glad you have stepped out of your comfort zone and have made it a point to engage in more social activities. *you know what i mean.

shenna: still looking for your chinese-malay dude? i still think its from God.

gracekey: say hi to mister cockroach for me. :D

gaius: happy 17 birthday. Hope you like the blog and my post in it plus the surprise we gave at parkway. If only you da pao the carrot cake and popiah. sighs. stay hawwwwt and of course, close to him yea (: the ymers need you.

to-all-the-others-whom-i-have-missed-out: i love you guys (:

i wanna be a papadum, a really tasty one.

(:

You wouldn't want to know how last week was for me. As in seriously. Rantings wouldnt help. Its over and i thank god it is. Just when you happily stepped up the spiritual gear to 5, murphy steps up to 50. That sucks right?

This week apparently, doesn't look good either. Looks like good things come in pairs. But i guess i'll hold on to the psalms and the other promising verses with whatever i got and just rampage throughout the week. So i apologise for any schizophrenic behaviour or "overly-friendly" attitude i have, or will in time to come, show you. I'm kidding. Of course i wouldnt intentionally snap, explode, bao zha or halfway perform a chokeslam on you. But you get my point. (:

Adding on to this disastrous catastrophe, mother education is not doing any good, in fact being a whore. Slamming me hard with all these what-the-hell assignments such as telling people about aljunied, is seriously NOT helping. I believe 99% my fellow course mates feel the same way, and the other 1% is just lying that they are not.

So anyways, screw all these emotions and thoughts, I just wanna be a papadum living in simpang


Time now is 2 in the morning. School is at 9. How many of you guys say that i'll be early for tomorrow?

I say i will.

Till then, when i'm sane. Literally.