I can't seem to focus. My thoughts are drifting everywhere else except to the right place. I'm already thinking of my Bali trip but that's not happening till a week later! 

Just being a little random here. I can't help but to wonder why people get married without thinking it through. Is marriage suppose to be taken so lightly or is it that most no longer see this word with long term commitment attached to it but merely just a word.

I see people going ahead with wedding preparations even though the female party obviously don't love the male. Getting married is just because Female knows that the Male is someone that she can rely on. How is such marriage going to work? We all have our own limits to accept nonsense that our other half throws. Someday, the male will lose it and eventually end the relationship. My question is, why then carry on? Unless the female decides to put a stop to her nonsensical behavior and the male firm enough to let female know that her cheating behavior is not acceptable. There's no point trying to salvage a relationship based on lies. For the record, cheating is not acceptable. Be it the female or the male, physical or emotional.

The other kind of marriage that I see is really common in my generation. Honestly, I'm not against marrying early. Many years back when I was 15, I thought of marrying between 21-23. I'm just disturbed by the fact that there's an increasing number of people getting married because they are pregnant. Let's be really honest here, getting knocked up by a guy you barely know and then to preparing for wedding to paying for the baby expenses. Where does all these money come from when both parties are at the age between 15-24 and not working? The relationship is not stable and most of these couples marry for the sake of responsibilities but not love. In the end, after a period of time, they realized that they do not love each other as much so they file for a divorce. May I ask, who suffer the most at this point? Marrying and divorcing seems as easy as ABC to some. I don't get it, why do people use their parent's money for their wedding? So who is the one getting married and who is the one marrying your wife or your husband? Is it your parents or you? Similarly, neither can I understand people who can't afford to pay for their own baby delivery bills and baby's check up. You can't even provide for your own, how do you provide for the baby? 

In conclusion, if you don't have the finances and the relationship is not stable then don't get knocked up and don't be the one who knocked people up. For the good of both parties' family and the unborn child. 

I'm not saying that every young couple are like that. I still have friends who are parents at my age and they are still happily married and loving each other still. That's a stable and planned life where no party has to suffer. I respect every individuals' choice of path in life. I just do not like that innocent parties has to suffer because of two person's irresponsible act. Be responsible of your own marriage, baby & housing expenses. What you spend time building together is stronger and more beautiful than taking from others and claiming it yours. The process of building a family starts with two person working hard together to achieve the perfect wedding, the desired home and sense of satisfaction of bringing up a child with both's ability as couple. It's only when you overcome hurdles together then the relationship grows. 

I completely agree with the statement of "Love is a choice, not just a feeling." Yes, when you first get together, it is purely on the feelings and attraction but, to sustain the relationship, it is base on a choice. Choice to continuously fall in love with your partner when the sparks is gone. If anyone is just basing love on feelings then I guess it's best for you to stay single because the sad but hard truth is, FEELINGS FADE! You will lose that sparks that you first had for your partner and if either one don't make the decision to fall in love with your partner all over again, that's when affairs creeps in. Everyone can fall in love with the same person as long as they want to. I don't deny that it is harder for couples who have been together since forever but hard doesn't mean impossible. It's whether you want to or not. 

To sum up, all of the above is just purely my own point of view. If anyone can't digest it, I do not mind that you treat this as junk and throw it at the back of your head. 

It's almost two months into 2012, so far, so good! Nice people at work. Really appreciate such environment. I'm here to set my new year's resolution. Been thinking about it for a while since some of last year's resolution was not fulfilled. This shows that I need to be more focus and discipline! Moving on from last year, my new year's resolution will be:

1. Continue to lose 5-7 kg more.

2. Find time to dance.

3. Find time to cook & bake.

4. Save up.

5. Travel to Europe.

6. Spend more time with Grandparents

That's all I want to do for 2012.

Moving on from my resolutions, I just want to touch on an issue that's close to my heart. The fear of losing someone dear to me never really cross my mind until recently. When I look at my granny as old age catch up with her and with the signs of memory failing. It strikes me that she would really leave me one day and probably with the memory failing slowly, she might not even remember me in time to come. Some how, when such thoughts cross my mind, I got so upset. I honestly have not thought about such stuff much less prepare myself for it. I just completely blocked out "death" from my dictionary like as if it will not come for people that I love.

I don't know when will it come but I know it will eventually come. From now till it comes for the people I love, I will spend more time with them so I don't live with regrets of " I should have done this, why didn't I do that and the I could have.." I do not want these phrases and feelings to haunt me

 Note to all, dare to go for what you want, no matter the outcome, at least, you've tried.

Due to the strict diet that I'm on, I'm craving for lots of different food! I want, KFC, Ice creams, Bubble tea, Dim sum, Cze cha, Instant noodles, Potato chips, Fish & chips, Cakes, Waffles, Xiao long bao, Durians, Curry rice. Chicken wings, Prata, Hokkien mee, Pizza, Fried carrot cake, O jian and Bak kut teh!!


Okay, I hope I'll feel better after typing out all my cravings! I've never worked so hard to achieve the weight that I aimed for. This time, I want to reach my goal on CNY itself. I'm saving myself for my 2 days indulge on Christmas eve & Christmas! JB JB JB!! :)


Alright, all said and done, I'm going to start looking for a job. Enough of semi tai tai life. I'm ready to go back and face the crazy world out there! :)

During the mid week, I went to watch "那些年我们一起追过的女孩", this movie blast my mind and made me think. Yes, it's just a movie but I picked up something from it and that is "courage." I started thinking back on that faithful night when I received a text message from Ding. A message that requires courage to send out. I'm really glad that Ding gathered his courage to take a step forward. I really don't know how will things be like if he haven't done so. It made me realized that courage is a very important factor in life. Without it, we might miss out great things in life.

If he haven't did what he did, we would have missed out each other and we won't be where we are now. We were good friends and with the situation that I was in then, it is not easy for him to have taken that step. I'm glad that he did! :) He showed me how much a guy can do for someone he loves. Yes, we have arguments and it could be over the most minor things but we always resolve it. Yes, there are times we feel like strangling each other but such times are one of those precious moments because we end up laughing at it. Yes, there are times that we hurt each other and make each other cry but this made us realized how much we love the other. I thank God for giving me someone like him.

After a long 6 months, I'm back here to leave my footprints. In my previous post, I mentioned about the plans on Taiwan trip and I fulfilled it. Trip was really awesome! I love Taiwan's culture and the unlimited good food available. I'm kind of addicted to traveling. After my Taiwan trip, I'm heading to Bali on 21st April 2012. It's our anniversary trip! :) I'm a happy girl :) I just want to fly around and I know I will achieve what I want!

A little update on other aspects of life, I left my previous company for personal reasons but I really learnt a lot from the people there.  

On a lighter note, I've gotten a BTO at Bukit Panjang! :) Yup, that's where Ding and I will be staying! :) I am excited for the future and definitely looking forward to it. My heart is filled with excitement of the new flat. It'll only be ready in 2014 but I'm already starting to count down! Honestly, all the discussions & preparation for our future is slightly stressful but really fun! 

Moving on, I was at my cousin's wedding dinner last night. I guess the most important and fulfilling part is the catching up and gossiping. Hahaha! I have the most interesting cousins in the world! Hopefully, our CNY trip is going to be still on! Family is such an important part of my life. 

Alright, time to sign off! Looking forward to Christmas and CNY :)

Haven't been blogging for so long! Well, I'm back! Past few months had been rather exciting and fun. A lot of activities going on. I don't want to back trek, so let's just start with the more recent events. Last weekend, I went to Pula Ubin for the first time in my life. I actually like cycling there. Well, some paths are tough but it feels awesome to accomplish it on my own with the company of Ding! :) Spent about half the day there and went home feeling good! 

We've finally settled down for a hotel for the upcoming Taiwan trip in October. A choice between 2 rooms or 1 room and my smart boyfriend who booked a $291+ room for 3 accidentally. At that moment, I feel like killing him! I was thinking, if we were to get 2 rooms, we could have gotten it at a cheaper price. Thankfully, the whole thing could be cancelled. I'm looking forward to my Taiwan trip! Main factor being the shopping and the lifestyle there. I want to experience what the Taiwanese do in their daily life. Well, even for 8 days, I'm happy! :) 

Work has been great and I like the culture in my office. I already feel like an adult. Spending my own money, paying my own bills, giving mum allowance and saving up for future. It's not very overwhelming for me, probably because I prepared myself long ago. In fact, 4 months ago when I started as a temp, I've already started to provide for myself. Good training I must say else, I'll be so not used to it. 

I started my south beach diet on 10/05/11. Been very discipline in eating what I can and cannot eat. Going to follow through the diet and see myself losing more weight! :) It can be tough sometimes when everyone else around you eats the stuff that you like but to look good, there are sacrifices to be made! I'm willing and Ding has been semi supportive! Hahaha! He occasionally eats what I eat but most times, he eats the food that I like but can't eat. I have an AWESOME boyfriend!

Ding and I are doing great! :) Yup, little fights here and there. Occasional fights are good because it draws people closer and helps us understand each other more. One year has passed for us. How time flies! I'm loved, happy and content :)

Things at home are good! Everyone's healthy and I'm happy that it is that way! :) I can't wait for Chinese New Year to come! Family is planning on a cruise trip during that period! :) 

Good day folks! :)

I'm really thankful for everything that life had threw at me. It made me stronger and it made me learn. I guess, what makes a person is the ability to learn from their mistakes and become wiser. Life, is a choice, love is a choice and what you become is a choice. Everything is a choice and that makes making a right choice so important.

Sadly, in life, humans just tend to make wrong choices most of the time. This is how imperfect life is and I personally think it should stay imperfect. If everything is perfect, nobody will strive to be better so thumbs up to imperfection! :)

When a wrong choice is made, stop running and starting thinking. Don't waste your time going through life but grow through life.

Haven't been blogging for the longest time! I'm back! I've been very very busy with many areas of my life. Family, work and very small part of school. Past two months was tiring but great. Chinese New Year period was rushing and eating.

I'm looking forward to my Taiwan trip! I'm saving up for that! :) Excited! Okay, time to go!

Finally, 2010 is over. Well, 2010 isn't so bad. I'm very near to finishing my course in MDIS. What's left is my FYP and I'm DONE! Looking forward to Feb 2011. Throughout 2010, life didn't give me hell. There were ups and downs but they didn't break me. Made great friends and got together with a great guy. 


I made the effort to end off 2010 well. I'm quite satisfied with how 2010 ended. Spent my Christmas and New year with friends and family. Honestly, this year Christmas is a little different. It's the first Christmas eve and Christmas day at home. It felt good. I realized how much I've missed out in the past. 


In 2010, one of the greatest accomplishment will be that I studied my ass off. Never felt like I've ever studied so hard in my life. Not for my PSLE nor my O levels. Probably the proudest thing for the year! Haha! 


I was thinking through what to achieve for 2011. Here's a short list.


1. Getting my driving license.
2. Start baking.
3. Save up. ( Degree, traveling, and the future.)
4. Start going to places that I really want to go. (Taiwan, Korea, Venice, Perth and Hong kong)
5. Losing weight. (This is very standard. It's never enough losing that bit of weight.)
6. Get a job within the field I want to be in.
7. To be more patience. 


I'm believing that 2011 will be a great year. I've changed. My perspective in many things had changed. There's one thing that still remain and it's my belief. I'm thinking deeper, more complicated and become smarter. Personally, to me, I've changed for the better. The better to not portray what I don't feel in the past. 

HELLO HELLO HELLO! I was out with the usual group after PR paper to de-stress and it really felt good. PS has changed and I didn't know! See, that shows that I haven't been in town for the longest time!! Had dinner, bought quite a couple of stuff and head back to Seng kang.

I KO-ED last night. Haven't been sleeping well due to exams. Wednesday night was the worse. Slept at 3 plus in the morning and woke up at 7am to study. Ding did something that really touched me! So sweet of him! :) Anyways, after I reached home, I accompanied Ding for a while and then I fell asleep. I was so tired. PR did kill me during revision but not during exams! :)

Having paper on Monday but I have decided to let myself  be slacking more than studying today! TGIF! I don't have to be in school for anything and I just love life as it is. Count your blessings one by one and I'm counting them still. :)

Have a great day people! :)  

Please snap out of your crazy childish emo mode and live like a young adult! Saw news feed on facebook and I seriously think some of these people just got to stop being so secondary school like. Aren't we suppose to be way past that stage? It doesn't seem like it when I see certain ex school mates with ah beng's emo posts. My goodness! Grow up people, grow up. How many god-brothers and sisters do you need to have? Honestly, it is so childish to be still doing this. Will you really love these so called god-brothers and sisters like your own? I seriously doubt so. There is always a thin line between selfless and selfish. Sometimes, it may even appear to be grey area. There's a reason why I don't just address anyone as "kor" my goodness! Please! Unless, this person is really like a brother who can share everything with me. Time, attention, concern, love, money, and placing me as important as his real family. That is a god brother. Not someone who is in very good terms with you and he is your god brother. Very shallow. Think further. 

Other than that, I realized ah bengs love to amplify their love life. Especially when they just got together or just broke up. Really, for two months, how deep can the love goes? I'm not saying that you can't be sad and miss the person if the relationship lasted for only two months. I mean that, you don't have to go around and tell the world about how hurt you are, how much you miss the person, begging for second chance and letting the whole world know how much you did for that girl without complaining. If you really don't expect any return, you won't even be mentioning about what happened in the relationship. What kind of love is this? I really don't know. The more a guy does this, the more it pushes me away. It shows nothing but immaturity. 

Okay, I'm off to bed. Thank God Ding is super awesomely amazing and wonderful! :)