I remembered why I stopped blogging.

Because

I wouldn't want to recount on

bitter things.

But it never been worst.

Than this.

I don't know where we stand.

But I know I'm falling.

For you.

Since we should not,

Then I would not.

It seems like forever I'm saying that I did nothing wrong.

But it's forever I'm doing something wrong.

I don't deserve.

I'm not gonna stay.

'cause it'll only hurt you.

What a way to end this year.

If it was twitter,

Mom threw my lion hat away because it got dirty

and bought me kitty hat.

I threw it away :)

*stuff finger in my nose*

MOMMY, BUT I DIDN'T PICK MY NOSE ):

I think I'm two-timing!

Someone arrest me please.

'Cause I love

Stephanie today more than

Stephanie Yesterday.

*Open fridge*

I think I can open a 100plus shop.

*Grin at those cans*

"Which animal's good at selling bags?"

Mom asked,

and answered herself,

"Sheeps. 'Cause they go BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAG~ BAAAAAAAG~"

Mom laughed at her own joke.

I can smell awesome.

I think its coming from woodlands :)

I BELONG TO YOU :)

Well,

She thought my Muse review post was about her.

HAHA

Can't blame her :)

I belong.

Colour Me Dinosaur

DESIGN PRESENTATION & METHODS

I love the module.

Especially the rendering :D

But of course, this dinosaur isnt even close to what we had to learn.

I belong!

by Muse

from their new album called

"The Resistance".

*Usually Azrn would review the whole album, why is it

this time, it's just one song and its not even the first single*

Well,

'I Belong To You (Mon Coeur S'ouvre A Toi)'

is remixed for the soundtrack of

the successful Twilight series' sequel,

New Moon.

oooooh.

Why is there a remix then?

Well, that's was just what I was wondering until I crank myself to

Youtube to have a peek

of the remix.

First of all,

The original 'Resistance' version

has that New Orleans-Blues-Urban funky bass riff,

which I totally favor.

Its a fresh whiff from Muse.

And I was so excited that New Moon is gonna use it for its main theme song.

But however, New Moon has its remix version in their soundtrack.

So out of curiosity, I went to check it out whats there to remix

such a powerful new feel from

Muse.

The remix, coincedentally gives me mixed feelings.

The mix made the song sounded Electropop-esque

But it suits the whole New Moon category with all the dark gloomy secret

the movie's harboring.

Personally, I prefer the Original version :)

And here's the New Moon remix,

"You look like you need a holiday"

Its Design Presentation and Method

from 9am to 12pm.

on the first day that is.

Its been a week now.

I could say I enjoy it.

With all the familiar Photoshop stuff.

Today we did rendering on Photoshop!

OMG I've been itching to know this skill :D

I kinda cant wait for it to get started on

Illustrator.

not as much as I'm not in the class I was in last semester.

I kept getting that

"What the fuck is this guy doing here?"

well actually, they didnt say that althought from their faces

I know they meant it that way.

They were more diplomatic,

"Uhm, I think you're in the wrong class?

oh, no? you're not?

So you switch class?"

Yes I'm switched around classes.

either in

1Po1, 1Po2 or 1Po3.

And oh yea,

Did you know?!

The stall

ZESTY TOMATO,

dont have Tomatoes in their salad anymore.

Why call it Zesty Tomato?!

Call it Bitter Lettuce instead.

Well ironic, isnt it?

we were told to do star jumps

for

JETSTAR.

And catchline says

"You look like you need a holiday"

When the school semester just resumed.

And I have a feeling its gonna be good semester :)

Do you?

What a whiff of Michael Jackson.

Singapore Idol was sorta crap?

Except for Sezairi's, Sylvia's and Malaque's performance.

Sezairi is gonna win.

PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE.

PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE.

PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE.

PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE.

PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE.

PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE.

PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE.

Oh

And can someone get Charles out of the show?

He's pulling view numbers down.

I swear.

GEEEEEEEEET HIM OUUUUUUUUUUUUT!

Sezairi is so original.

Faizal disappointed me. He should've done what David Cook had done.

Billie Jean how Chris Cornell sang it.

That'll be awesome.

Anyways, thats not the point,

HIGHLIGHT OF SINGAPORE IDOL

The part I loved most is!

The 7-11 advertisement!

Where they show that F1 Driver dance like an idiot to Ken Lim

together with the camera crew at the side.

HAHAHAHAHAHA

omg I swear each time that advertisement appear,

I'll be waiting to laugh 'cause that idiot with the helmet

turns out to be

Taufik Batisah

HAHA

Gosh

Now, do you really want to be a Singapore Idol?

You might be next dancing with the helmet :D

I think you people thought I was gonna highlight the part

when they asked Sylvia, Sezairi and Mae to sit at the seats.

Thats soooo shocking:O

When your stomach wants

why must the bluebird look like its from

Tweeter?

Once again, I'm in limbo whether to try Tweeter.

Just like how I wanted to go on Facebook.

Turns out I spend half my life on Facebook and

dare to say I'm so not addicted.

I still dare say so 'cause they are more of those who play the games in Facebook,

Do every quizzes there are,

So I'm not half that addictive :)

Anyways, thats not my point.

I WANT SARSAPARILLA FLAVORED ROCKET-SHAPED POPSICLE!

Oh! the joy I had when I used to live in Clementi.

I want to revisit my childhood neighbourhood :/

Hong Tat Minimart, The old bakery shop that have those icecreams

that can never be found anywhere else.

Some shops are already extinct ):

The candy shop that sells those nostalgic candies,

Like that Bobdog white candy sticks that I used to use it as pretentious cigarettes.

And chew it up when it gets all soggy on the lips.

Recent cravings also kills.

I want Lerk Thai fishballs ):

That's SO not my name

*whispers whispers*

"Eh Farhan Shah! Farhan Shah!"

You would not believe your ears.

Okay, my head just rang.

OMG I just use the same line from

Fireflies by Owl City!

You would not believe your eyes~

If ten million fireflies~

Lit up the world as I fell asleep~

Okay enough.

Anyways, I just got mistaken when I was at

causeway with Steph.

This, this scattering bunch of girls were saying I'm Farhan Shah!

And they were like almost awed, like they saw some Superstar or something.

For God's sake, its just Farhan Shah!

And its not even him,

It was me!

I hate Farhan Shah.

Azrn > Farhan Shah.

I swear.

Ugly > Uglier.

Cuter > Cute(==!)

And while browsing the (lame) Singapore Idol,

I just got to know Farhan Shah just got voted out!

Sweet~

Oh, did I also catch a glance that

Mae Sta Maria got out too?

Somehow,

I'm still happy :D

'Cause Mae's out could only mean one less powerhouse to compete for.

I'm rooting for Faizal or Sezairi to win!

Oh! I was at causeway for Sorority Row.

Please, save your money, and avoid watching that lousy crap I swear.

It's like those

Monday Mega Movie chick thriller

where teens die one by one.

But at least I got to spend time with Steph :D

Morning sunshine :D

Aight, i hope this'll be the first thing you see in the morning :D

then i'll own the first smile of the day! Whuuuuuuuut! :D

I LOVE YOU!! :)

I'm Potsand Pan, Peter Pan's brother

IF I WALK, WOULD YOU RUN

IF I STOP, WOULD YOU COME

IF I SAY YOU'RE THE ONE,

WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME?

oh yes, Azrn is the bunny.

*Monochromic flashing in circles behind me

casting some grayscaled rising sun*

HUG?

*goes BIG eyed and plead for forgiveness*

So a book were to start,

and as you read further,

you wished for and ending you'd love to read.

Knowing you know it won't.

Chapters began to flow like streams,

gasping as each paper unfold.

"How would such thing happen to them?!"

Then that chapter comes.

where it solves everything.

I'm happy to say Im reading my life and I'm at that chapter.

*que for Andre's trademark "SWEEEET~"*

NPSU TBC camp's in hours.

When the hell did we say yes for Abbreviations to rule our world?

People say soon we'd talk by alphabets.

H W P U T B O A B W W B T L T I T G T I T C

How would people understand this bunch of alphabets because we would be talking like this in the generation that is to come.

I totally forgot what I was trying to type :O

Okay you readers guess okay?

Then comment by clicking on

'0 vandalism(s)'

at the foot of my post(s).

Or just simply tag.

The other cat says "Thank you for forgiving me *sob*"

Dont stay like that forever.

Accept my hand,

for we'll float together,

into Neverland.

STEEEEEEEVE!

He is. the most dumbest cutest monkey evaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar.

"Hello Adzreen's providing you

the latest updates on the weather today.

*point to the green background where the map supposed to be*

Right here..

*circling a point where I think where it should be*

as you could see, would be

Cloudy.

with a chance of Meatballs."

A very cute movie.

It could be abit lame but I really really

enjoy the movie.

The characters are amusing.

A family sort of movie.

But it can also be a 'have fun' movie too :)

Famous NY with a dash of tulips

This.

GIRLS.

is Asher Book

who played Fame.

how did someone so good looking, so talented only get to

surface in Fame?

I like the soundtrack.

I like the idea of the story.

But,

the plot goes too fast, in my opinion of course.

and since the movie doesn't focus on characters much.

I don't remember the actor's persona name.

and somehow, the problems the character faced

seem to be solved very easily.

My personal thought,

this is a movie which has the aim of making the actors in it, surface and

get recognised by society.

Since there's Veteran actors as well as

alot of new kids :)

New York, I LOVE YOU.

'cause sometimes you can judge a movie from the stars acting in it.

Lets?

I love

when you smile.

I love

when run and hug me :D

I love

you :)

Nerdy Bum

I'm back! k-k-k-k-kiddddddddddos!

miss me? huh? huh? huh? :D :D

According to val, September is a common break-up month.

SEPTEMBER'S ALMOST OVER!!! :D :D

We had a few close shaves. haha xD

SORRY GIRLS!!! THIS NERD IS STILL MINE!!

Wait for the next September :P

Wahaha

Hey Nerd, I love you :)

When everything is really pushing you to just die

I just read your new post.

I just tried to clear doubts through websms

since I cant text you.

But I have yet t get a reply ):

I'm suffering.

Yes I do deserve this.

Option 1: Youre jamming and you're busy.

Option 2: You dont want anything to do with me.

Option 2 is overwhelming.

I DIDNT I DIDNT I DIDNT INTENTIONALLY WANT TO HURT YOU D:

AND I'M SORRY.

its fine if you dont forgive me.

Can. We. Meet and talk this out.

rather than misunderstandings everywhere.

'cause I'm really, really serious in just killing myself now.

When you're on the verge of killing yourself

It has always seem to me to be a stupid thing to do.

Stopping your life.

If I ever did.

Ambassadorial issues

REDcamp committee misjudgement

Trying to fix things with you

Your mom

And even detailed issues.

These could be the reason why.

But I am trying!

When your mind cries

Its was so tired.

The last day was just 'til lunchtime but it felt like a whole day.

Cheering Cheering Cheering.

Committee Here Committee There.

And right here my mind says,

I have my phone in my pocket.

I take it out.

People would know I must be

replying or texting to you.

But what made day3 the longest and

tiring to go through,

Not only I'm going through it without you physically

for the three days,

I cant have you mentally on the last day ):

And right here,

my mind cursed a million curses.

I took my phone out on day3, but

truth is,

I cant text or call 'cause my prepaid disallow me.

My battery was totally, totally flat.

Why didnt I ughhhh, charge it!?

No I didnt forget.

I fell asleep holding my phone tight last night.

Holding it after I reply you with the lasts of my prepaid

on 4:44am.

And you know how pissed I am waking up to see your text came in 4:49am

but I was already asleep.

How lousy am I,

to not get to reply that text,

since its just 5minutes.

So I noticed I can still send a couple more.

"I purposely be insensitive ):"

This doesnt refer to what I said and told about whoever.

I meant by how you were shooting me emotionally, sarcastically,

about how stupid I was.

I didnt want a breakdown in camp.

So I tried so hard to apologise, BEG without having a breakdown

but it seems

whatever I say comes out wrong.

Whatever I say.

Backfired.

WHATEVER I SAID );

Journey home still without any contact to anyone,

obviously not to you too.

I never lived without a handphone and this happened on the day

I really needed it.

All throughout the busride, my mind's thinking about you.

It's your part to believe me but I swear its the hardest thing to go through.

where are you,

how are you,

shit she's pissed,

she must be texting me like crazy about how frustrated she is at me.

I must have said something so wrong again.

but.

maybe.

she'd understand why there's no replies from me to her.

I already told her my prepaid's dead.

I didnt tell her my phone's dead.

So partly its still my fault.

But I never. never share faults.

So all this. is my fault.

Have always been.

since the friggin' start of it all.

Finally I'm home, so eager. so eager to charge my phone

'cause I have no idea why I know,

But I know there'll be texts from you.

So excited even if its only incoming texts and I cant reply.

Rushed to the lift.

Down the stairs.

Ran home

Yet again, whether rushed or not,

no one witnessed it.

so no one would believe me.

But I know I rushed.

Flush of texts from you.

Its

ouch

ouch

ouch.

omg I said something wrong again.

see I just knew it.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

Screw myself okay for my stupid words.

I didnt have the intention.

I DIDNT.

PLEASE.

I SWEAR.

I didnt):

I didnt, didnt have the intention to hurt you.

IT WAS ALL A MISTAKE.

I didnt meant to hurt you.

I didnt notice it until you mention it.

And I was like, OH

omg! shit.

But

part of me says,

Its really really nothing.

I'm just bored and I want you t know

whats going on so you wont be worried.

another part says,

Its really really nothing.

But ITS MY FAULT I'm so sorry I'm so careless enough.

you wouldnt even want to know whats going on yet about

the repetitive mentioning of a girl.

I didnt meant to hurt you, but I did hurt you ):

So now you friggin' hate me.

This is just what I feel.

And all the excitement of maybe meeting you somewhere is all gone.

'cause since what I felt was that you hate me now and seeing me would just makes things worse.

But there's another one too.

since what I felt was that you hate me now and not seeing me would just makes things worse.

you went jamming in SP if Im not wrong.

Thought of meeting you then after that revert back to

what I have to do today.

Or.

You dont hate me.

And now.

I just knew I said something wrong again on this post.

I just knew it.

All my hope is

that you'd be back happy to see me :/

I wish so.

'cause your texts are killing me inside out.

And I think I told you my confidence is pulled down to the end.

I think it went down even further.

'cause no matter what I try, no matter I say.

It just seem to screw up,

It just seem to something I shouldn't have said.

My eye sockets are a friggin' water tap.

A tearful cry is painful.

But when the mind cries.

I did mention my life as a novel.

Have I reach the end?

Or is there another volume.

I cant stop the feeling I'm having.

trying to think what you're thinking.

She's seventeen.

wonder what to blog

got so much stuff to blog

While I'm telling her I'm not blogging now,

I'm posting this up (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING! :D

11:59pm

I take the first wish of the day.

Now's the last (:

I Love You.

Solace in the Library

To all Muslim People,

Its only four more days!

Then the festive of forgiving and endurance and whatever

it is.

Hari Raya is here!

okay not exactly here.

20th Sept.

Okay 20th Sept,

I'll post

HARI RAYA IS HERE!!!!!

HARI RAYA IS HERE!!!!!

HARI RAYA IS HERE!!!!!

HARI RAYA IS HERE!!!!!

haha.

Now I was thinking of putting a Hari Raya Theme to the song

playing on my blog.

but.

I dont want just any another Hari Raya song.

Heard of Bond?

No not James Bond,

But closest you can get to

having 4 beautiful Bond girls,

strings quartet

have a song that quite remind of Hari Raya.

Its entitled Shine and its in their album of the same name.

It brings the spirit up with all the malay|indian beats.

I mean, Deepavali's close too right?

Now Bond should have a song that's influenced on

Steph's birthday.

Then it'll be complete(:

In fact, waiting for her right now.

I'm in the library tapping into someone else's Itunes

to listen to their playlist

Currently on

'lollerblades.'

He/She got quite a nice taste.

Quite.

Not that enough.

Too many Korean,

Boybands? soo 90s.

And anime-related songs.

There's a whole album on Beatles so its a consolation (:

Good job.

hahah Why am I reviewing someone else's playlist.

Although, something I dont really like

was the amount of Blue's songs.

45 songs on just one Boyband.

That's 3 full albums + more singles.

Blue?!

I dont even like them when they were a hit :O

But I'm liking the Shine album by Bond.

I lost all my Bond albums in my Desktop since it crashed.

I missed it ):

So this is quite a treat.

Like fixing the old desktop but not really fixing it.

Somehow you could understand that right?

Oh you dont?

Its okay.

Skip haha.

I(steph)you

Only you yea? Only you(:

spot that (red) nano!

It's the 5th Generation!

Yea! It takes video :D

a lil' chunk beats the funk

She says :p

Exactly, :p

What's a Barrage with Harry's Hotdogs,

Peanut Butter cookies,

Ben&Jerry's,

Performances by Jack&Rai and more,

and Steph?

It's Ben&Jerry's Chunkfest 2009!

The smell of grass,

The cool sea breeze,

The amazing view of the Sun drowning

into the skycrapers of the

Central Business District.

The Chunkfest,

brings Singapore

12 exclusive flavours

only served

during Chunkfest.

Personally tasted:

Mango Mango Sorbet

Triple Caramel Crunch

Peanut Butter Chocolate Swirl

Yea,

total of $13.50 for the Icecream.

Jack & Rai were unexpectedly great too.

Didnt expect them to sound great live.

Was only there in chunkfest

for icecream

and

a day out with

Steph :D

Valerie said

Harry's beer's good.

I've never tasted beer

so

wouldnt know whether its good

hahaha.

Oh and Marcus works at Ben&Jerry's.

So we got extra scoops

YAAAAAY!

That's Berry Berry Extraordinary.

Another one of their exclusive flavours.

Tissue frolicking out from pocket while eating Icecream.

Priceless habit.

I put it there haha.

Marcus; promoting NEW flavours.

Yea of course we're smiling (:

ITS ICECREAM.

hahaha

we'd still be smiling even if there's no icecream.

Ben & Jerry's Chunkfest 2009.

12 09 09

* * *

Day out with my sister.

To get new shoes,

new lenses,

and new shades.

This is.

when busrides get boring.

This photo.

shows we're siblings.

we just can't figure which feature makes us similar.

OLAY.

'cause we're bored :)

New shades,

didn't take any photos of it.

New lenses,

took it off before a thought of taking any photos.

New shoes.

sanuk :>

S$88.

You're my Next Top Model

Shh

wait

( I'm watching America's Next Top Model )

* * *

Yea so the show ended long ago.

like around 12am

And I'm liking the this cycle.

Very pretty.

But there's this black girl.

Sandra.

beeeeeeeeeeetchy.

usually the bitch role is taken by a white girl

while there'll be a black girl who would be very ghetto gangster-like.

Anyways, this cycle.

Cycle 12

Three girls to look out for.

and that's why th names are out in th main photo above.

London

[she looks like Silver in the new 90210!]

Look at her eyes!

but she's a street preacher.

I like the way she dress though.

very unique.

No, I dont think she's naked in this photo.

But her eyes! :D

And she has an uncanny resemblance to Silver!

So pretty!

Allison

[She got Goth Doll eyes!]

She got the best eyes!

better than London!

really, seriously.

She should dye her hair black.

Suits her

GORGEOUS eyes.

But later on, she got a long blonde hair

for a makeover.

(yea, I looked through the net)

And she's abit of a sadist hahaha.

Allison:

I like the sight of blood.

But I've never had nose bleed.

Tyra:

I've bled many times.

Allison:

Jealous~

Soooo cool haha

Fo(Felicia)

She's a Blaxican haha.

Black-Mexican blood.

And she looks chinese.

very cute.

Freckles complements too.

But I cant get a good picture of her

that shows her whole face profile.

So yea I'm watching

American's Next Top Model

Cycle 12

and due to being nosy,

I found out who won when I checked the net :/

Its okay, I wont be nosy when its project runway.

I want to feel every emotion and tension without knowing who gets through :D

Oh yes,

Project Runway's 10pm

Every Thursday.

While America's Next Top Model

[Title's a mouthful]

airs at 11pm.

Come Home To 5

Darling.

Cheer up.

please.

There's always these things

that wants to pull your

confidence down.

Show them wrong.