tu me manques
Labels: Jelly
hopeless thoughts.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
it's been a while now, but you're still creeping into my thoughts.
tu me manques
xoxo. || 10:26 PM
tu me manques
You made me happy.
Thursday, September 13, 2012
I just need to jot this down.
I had my best three months. Cause i was finally.. happy. No, it wasnt an ordinary happiness from any girl friends would give. Anyway, It was almost perfect but we were nothing, you were just special.. Just someone very dear to me - and that was how you made me feel too. (but were we on the same page? I wonder) Anyhow, where did it go wrong? I wish you'd tell me Jel. But no, you're not talking to me. Why the cold shoulders? I took up the job, no whatsapp (I didn't have a choice, I still have text), I was somewhat busy. But I still texted you, and for some reason - you drifted. (someone else came I assume) I wish I know why. And then it became a big wooha cos you completely cut me out. And obviously I could not get use to. Time and time again I ask why. Jel, I wish you'd tell me more, tell me what was on your mind. Yes, you were unreadable and complicated. I barely know you jel, I wish I've known more as a friend.
However, now that my bubble is popped. I know why you were 'overwhelmed'. It was me, pestering too much. But that was because you were not talking. Darn.
Its really childish - Whatever you're doing now and probably forever. I cant help but to wonder why dont you want to talk things out though. Anyhow, I still feel the pain in my chest for how you've been towards me.
I miss everything we had. But it seems like I've lost you - my beloved friend.
PS. I can't help but to feel fifty shades of grey has a similar story to this (excluding the sexual part).
xx
xoxo. || 11:21 PM
I had my best three months. Cause i was finally.. happy. No, it wasnt an ordinary happiness from any girl friends would give. Anyway, It was almost perfect but we were nothing, you were just special.. Just someone very dear to me - and that was how you made me feel too. (but were we on the same page? I wonder) Anyhow, where did it go wrong? I wish you'd tell me Jel. But no, you're not talking to me. Why the cold shoulders? I took up the job, no whatsapp (I didn't have a choice, I still have text), I was somewhat busy. But I still texted you, and for some reason - you drifted. (someone else came I assume) I wish I know why. And then it became a big wooha cos you completely cut me out. And obviously I could not get use to. Time and time again I ask why. Jel, I wish you'd tell me more, tell me what was on your mind. Yes, you were unreadable and complicated. I barely know you jel, I wish I've known more as a friend.
However, now that my bubble is popped. I know why you were 'overwhelmed'. It was me, pestering too much. But that was because you were not talking. Darn.
Its really childish - Whatever you're doing now and probably forever. I cant help but to wonder why dont you want to talk things out though. Anyhow, I still feel the pain in my chest for how you've been towards me.
I miss everything we had. But it seems like I've lost you - my beloved friend.
PS. I can't help but to feel fifty shades of grey has a similar story to this (excluding the sexual part).
xx
Labels: Jelly
So I could only think of the "used to"
Saturday, May 19, 2012
I miss you
I miss you more than you know,
I miss those days we were talking,
I miss the way you looked at me,
I miss how caring you were then,
I miss you.
xoxo. || 10:27 PM
I miss you more than you know,
I miss those days we were talking,
I miss the way you looked at me,
I miss how caring you were then,
I miss you.
Labels: D, misses, reminisce, solitude
After a long hiatus.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Dear Journal,
I'm back with a little update on life.
It's amazing of how much I've grown up these years. I'm already 22 this year. How time flies. Anyhow, I'm graduating with a diploma certificate and that is a great achievement thus far. Inevitably, it was a great journey through the thick and thins, the different people who entered/changed my life. Nevertheless, it's an end to that and a new beginning now.
However, I've been unemployed since the last day of school. Freelance indeed aren't easy. On a brighter note, I'm on board in the upcoming feature film from July to September! It's great, God is good. He provides. (;
Above all, there are many things I miss. People, I meant.
Can't help but to feel a little alone sometimes.
Labels: solitude