Skipped.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Woke up at 11:30am this morning. Supposed to reach school at 8:30am for I&E and 10am for SOM practical but i didnt hear my alarm ring.
Reached school at 1pm today. Intend to go for EUCD lesson but due to I&E, i skipped the whole lesson. There's just so much to do for I&E and it seems like, out of 5 people, there's only about 2 to 3 people doing the job. The other two just dont know how to take initiative. I'm doing a job that i'm not in-charged of. They made us all so stressed-up. I just dont know what to do. Haiz, so ya, i skipped the whole day's lesson today. Not good.
Dinner at market just now. Long time never go market eat le. Everyday KAP until sian. Then bus-ed home and ivy was going crazy. She not enough sleep i guess. And we got paranoid over an ant just now. Cos from nowhere, came this ant crawling on her hair. Then after that become on my hand. Scary can. Till now still will think, is the ant with me? o.o
Hmm. Needa hand in all of EUCD's exercise by tomorrow 5pm, if not i'll get zero and perhaps, i'll fail this module. So gonna rush.
Tomorrow there's no CDD lesson so it's a free day for me. But i gotta go school at 9am for I&E and needa do CDD project with ivy. CDD presentation's next week. Common test's coming soon too. And by the way, help support my I&E project? Go this website and see the things we're selling!
personalattitude.blogspot.com . Help to pass around this link too can? =D THANKIE!
So ya, gonna stop for now. Hope i can finish everything and
wont fall asleep. Guess i'm falling sick soon. Cough-ed.
[mood: feeling tired. keep smiling.]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/30/2007 12:34:00 AM)
Piling.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Over stressed these few days. Due to school work and cca i guess.
I&E event's coming. Have to prepare everything and everything seems so last minute. Couldnt take it. Sometimes i just feel like throwing it aside, but i just cant. It's stressing me till i'm unable to leave it.
SCC Concert Audition's today. Drumed for Chien Wen's 《才知道我》 and Hui Ting's 《牛奶雄》. Somehow, it's either too fast, or too slow. I'm not very sure too. Anyway, i'll post the photos if i have the time.
Homework's piling up cos mid semester's coming. It seems like there's so much to do. CDD project, EUCD project and exercises (which i have owe for quite sometime), AM tutorial and computer based questions and revision, SOM revision, I&E booth, SCC concert, so on and so forth. It seems like it's never ending and i think it's killing me.
Hope i finish everything fast and await the coming holidays. Though half of the holiday will be in school for SCC concert, i dont mind. =)
But for now, somebody please save me? I'm suffocating and it seems like i'm not doing any job for now cos i need a rest.
[mood: usual. take care.]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/29/2007 01:27:00 AM)
爱。
Sunday, November 25, 2007
“倘若有一天我死了,你会再娶其它女人么?”我记得问这话是在我与君的结婚一周年纪念日上。那时,他正忙着与锅里的鲜鱼对战,根本无暇理睬我。
“啊?哦,也许会吧!这得等你真死了才能说。”“什么?”我佯怒,从他身后抱住他:“你就这么讨厌我啊?”
君笑,关上火转身抱我:“傻丫头,我答应过你不骗你。如果我说不娶可我后来娶了,不就骗了你么?”
我也笑,躲在他怀里,快乐得像只小鸟“好吧,准你娶她。不过,不许她碰我那些漂亮娃娃。”“为什么?”
“因为,那是你送我的爱的信物,死后啊,我要在那儿看着你!”“哇!好恐怖啊!”君大笑地抱紧我“傻孩子,你的命啊,长着呢!”
现在,我就活在这堆娃娃里,我想象不到短短十天,我便真的与君阴阳相隔。
我是死于车祸的。一切来的那么突然。那时,我正盘算着周末我们要去哪儿旅行,那车就飞速冲来了。其实,没什么很大的痛楚,清醒时,我看到人们七手八脚的把我抬上救护车,只觉得好笑,因为我知道那是多余的。意识到自己的死亡,我一点也不难过。我一向没什么朋友,只有君。现在仍可以陪着君,看着君就行了。管他是什么样的形态呢。想到这儿,我便大步走回家。
家门前,我犹豫了。我记得以前听说魂是可以越墙而入的。我试了试,居然成功了!这令我兴奋不已,又来回再试了几次。嘿,做魂也没什么不好的。起码钥匙省了!
进到屋内,我逛了一圈,君还没有回来。突然想起,这是上班时间。于是又在屋内不停的溜弯儿。欣赏我们的房子是我生前最爱做的事儿。当然,死后也不例外。虽然,这间屋子,我已再熟悉不过。因为,在这儿,我渡过了我一生中最幸福最快乐的375日。至今,我还记得结婚那天,君在家门前望着我的表情。他说:“丫头,以后这就是我们的家了!我们的!”是啊,我和君的。从那天起,我便不停装扮它,直至今天,我再也无法为它效力为止。
我看到屋内的粉红色窗帘,卡通的大地毯和那堆了大半个卧室的娃娃。突然想起君每每抚摸我头发轻声说:“你真是个孩子。”时,那无奈又怜爱的样子。是啊,能把家弄像个玩具店,我不是孩子又是什么呢?只可惜再也看不到君在说这话时的表情了。
我叹了口气,回到娃娃堆坐下。不知不觉中竟睡着了。醒来时,已是天黑。我感到了一丝寒气。使抱怨起君竟然忘了把我抱回暖烘烘的被窝。这才猛然想起,我已从君的生命中消失了,而且是很彻底的。我起身,开始绕着屋子找他,最后是在卫生间里找到我心爱的君的。
他趴在浴缸上,旁边摆着许多空酒瓶,地上被吐得乱七八糟,一股刺鼻的味儿飘散在空气中。我不悦地捏着鼻子,蹲下来看他。竟发现他脸上挂着泪痕。天!我的君会哭?!那个坚强无比的他竟然哭了!多不可思议啊!我试图拉起他,可手却穿越了他的身体!我试了一次又一次,在筋疲力尽后,我决定放弃。头一次,我知道自己是这么无能的。在我的君如此痉时,我连拉他一把的能力都没有。这样的妻子要来何用呢?
我轻轻吻了吻他的嘴唇,在他的身边坐下。除了这样陪他,我想不到还有什么其它的办法。
“丫头,不要走,不要……”我听见君在叫我。我知道他是说醉话了。我笑:“傻瓜,我这么爱你,怎会舍得离你而去呢?”
一个月后,日子渐渐恢复正常。我的君仍旧准时准点的上下班,只是不再爱笑;而我,也依旧是那个快乐的小主妇,乖乖的呆在家陪我的娃娃们,只是君不曾发觉;我们还是那样过着属于我们两个人的日子,屋内的一切都没有改变过。直到有一天,玲的出现。
玲按门铃时,君正在书房里加班做他的计划书,我则在一旁傻呵呵的陪他。我想不出在夜里这个时候会有什么人来访?走到客厅,便看到性感的玲和呆呆的君。
这是我第一次见玲。她留着长长的卷发,穿着黑色的性感套装,化了很浓的妆。四周全是她身上散发出的香水味儿。我不禁低头看了看自己身上的娃娃裙和兔兔拖鞋。和她比,我是名符其实的孩子。
“我搬来了。”听到玲这样说,我才注意到她身边的行李袋。搬来?住哪儿?我和君的家么?我奇怪的望着她。
“别胡闹,你给我回去声”君似乎在发火。我头一次看到君发火的样子,很凶。我害怕。
“凭什么?你老婆都死了,难道我们现在不应该正大光明了吗?”
玲笑得很灿烂,可我觉得很冷 “瞧!你老婆死得多好啊。多会挑时间啊。连离婚都省得你和她说了……”“啪!”我看见君打了玲一巴掌。我惊呆了!君怎么会打人呢?他平时连骂一声都不曾有过的。如此温柔的君竟然会打人?他还有多少是我不曾知道的??
“哼!现在打我?!以前在我床上对我甜言蜜语的日子,你忘记了是吧!你可别忘了,你是答应过我和你老婆离婚娶我的!……”离婚?!君想和我离婚么?他不爱凶?他竟要娶玲?我怎么一点也不曾发觉?玲再说的话,我已一个字都听不进去。我跌跌撞撞的走回我的娃娃堆。抱着它们。我觉得鼻子酸酸的,一股热浪从眼里涌了出来。
原来,魂也会流泪啊!玲就这样搬进了我和君的家,像个女主人一样睡在我和君的床上,不同的只是君搬去了客厅。她换掉我的卡通地毯和粉红窗帘。拿走我衣橱里的娃娃裙和鞋架上的兔兔鞋。她把它们通通扔到垃圾箱里。
君什么也不说,只默默地把它们捡回来,洗干净,再放进我深爱的娃娃堆里。然后连续不断的对我说:“丫头,对不起,我对不起你啊!”我望着君,心疼的掉泪。可我不愿原谅他!我无法接受我和君的生活中,出现一个莫明其妙的玲。她像个女皇一样在我和君的屋子里指手划脚,把我一点点挤出去;把我曾精心装扮的小屋变成她的家。尤其让我无法忍受的是,君的欺骗。他为了玲欺骗我!他说过不会骗我的,连我死后的事儿都不愿意欺骗的君,为什么会在我还在人世时,就和玲在一块儿呢?一瞬间,我与君有过的幸福日子显得那么苍白无力。
“这堆垃圾给我扔了!”玲指着我的鼻尖对君说。我看了看四周,明白了,她指的是我的宝贝娃娃。这些都是君送我的。是我们每一次快乐的纪念。第一次约会,第一次做饭,第一次接吻……我们都异常珍惜。还说以后要留给孩子看,告诉他们爸爸妈妈有多么幸福,可如今……天!我看到了什么?君在收拾它们!他要扔掉它们么?他忘了我说过我活在娃娃堆里么?他真的不要我了?一点也再想念他的丫头?我拼命的摇头,却阻止不了他的动作。
君把娃娃收做一堆时,玲很满意地笑了:“快点,扔了它们,我们得忘了过去,开始新的生活了。”君看了看玲,并不理睬她。只很温柔的在每个娃娃的脸上都亲上一口,像以前亲吻我那样。“玲,你走吧!我求你了!离开我和丫头的家!我不会扔了它们,也不能扔了它们!我的丫头活在里面,她在看着我啊!”玲愤怒的望着君:“你说过,你爱我,你是我的!”“不是,不是!对不起,我骗了你,骗了丫头,更骗了我自己!”君失声痛哭“我只爱丫头,只爱她一个啊!任何人都代替不了她,可是,我明白的太晚了……”我奔上前,像以前一样抱住他的后背。泪水横飞,我不能不原谅他啊!不久,玲搬走了。像来时那样匆忙。连声再见都没和君说。我想她是伤心的,我看着她忧郁的背影想为她做些什么,可有心无力。我不恨她,只希望她以后一切都可以很好。就像我不恨君一样,我知道爱一旦深入骨髓,就不懂怎么会恨了。
玲走后,又恢复以前宁静而冷清的日子。君把我们的屋子恢复原样。没事儿时便捧着我的照片发呆。要不就一夜接一夜的不停工作。他把自己封闭起来。看着他日渐清瘦的脸庞,我心里说不出是什么滋味儿。欣便是在那时候闯入了君的生活。欣与君的相识平淡无奇。那日,欣刚搬到隔壁的空屋,可保险丝断了,便来向君借。我知道君看到欣时愣住了,因为我也愣住了。欣与我长得出奇的像。只是眉宇间多了份成熟。我看到君抱紧欣叫她丫头时,欣莫名又尴尬的表情。忍不住大笑。我的君竟然也有此等愚笨的时候!从此,欣和君便开始了似有似无的交往。
欣是个很温柔的女人。与创造性幼稚的我是完全不同的。她常在我和君的小屋出入,为君收拾房子,做出可口的饭菜,但从不过夜。我就那么每天坐在娃娃堆里,看着她擦拭我的照片,打扫娃娃身上的灰尘,看她不厌其烦的听君讲我和他的故事……
我打了个很大的哈欠,我想我呆乏了,或许应该换个地方。
君和欣的婚礼是那么自然。我甚至没有一丝嫉妒。婚后的欣像以前一样,她没改变房中任何一点小摆设,包括我那堆曾被玲称为垃圾的娃娃们。望着她每日奔波忙碌的样子,我觉得像是一幅温馨而美丽的画。突然间发现我已是那么多余了。可是,我不愿离开君。
欣怀孕了。这令君兴奋不已。初为人父的喜悦是无法言语的。他像当初娇惯我一般宠着欣,甚至有过之而无不及。
我想欣是幸福的。可我又该如何呢?这个的问题一直困惑着我,直到那日。
那天,君外出了。我看到欣站在娃娃堆前摸着肚子自言自语“宝宝,你会很幸福的,因为你有两个妈妈疼。”然后,她摸了摸娃娃的脸蛋:“丫头,你也很疼我们的宝宝的。对么?”我明白了,欣不是自言自语,而是在对我说。
我释然了。站起来,伸了个大懒腰。窗外明媚的阳光透过玻璃照在我的身上,暖洋洋的。我知道,宝宝只会有一个妈妈疼。便起身离开我心爱的娃娃们,我相信,很快会再见的。数月后,君与欣生下一漂亮的女儿,取名叫丫头。
如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?
PS: if you cant see cos the words are too small, use the zoom in tool on the bottom right-hand side of your status bar.
[mood: =(]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/25/2007 03:48:00 AM)
Drumming. =D
Thursday, SOM practical starts at 10am. Wasnt late for that cos dad drove me to school. EUCD after that. Hadnt finish my homework due to other school work and cca. So unable to keep to my promise made to lecturer. Promised to hand it up on monday. SCC meeting at 6:30pm till around 8pm. Saw results of MP. Gotten 5th for overall out of around 10 songs. Arrangement 2nd. Good start i guess. =D Waited to use the keyboard and drums till 9 plus when everyone in the clubhouse is leaving for dinner. Me and Ivy stayed to rehearse MP song. Changing the arrangement of the previous one for this coming MP on wednesday. Took bus at 12:15am at school's bus stop. Lucky there's still 154. Walked home cos there were no more 243. But i did asked kor and mum to come fetch me at one of the bus stop. Home safely.
Friday, went to practice with Ivy in school at 11am. Was late for lesson cos we over-practice, haha. Then after lesson went to look for Crystal and Purple at bugis. Then Calista came along after that. Did some window shopping cos wasnt in the mood for buying things. Headed home quite late. Slept from 11pm to 2am then started doing EUCD till 5:30am.
Woke up at around 1pm today. Bathe, had lunch, prepare, then headed school to meet Chien Wen for her song. I'm drumming for her song for this coming MP on wednesday. =) Hope i dont spoil anyone's song. Then homed, dinner, fell asleep. Woke up at 12am plus then tv. Missed almost half of my show. I'm watching the repeat tomorrow! As for now, homework time. ^^ And stupid aircon is not cold.
[mood: i'm sorry if i've done anything to make you feel guilty, wrong, sorry or angry. really sorry..]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/25/2007 02:38:00 AM)
My First Monthly Performance!
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Haa, two days!
Tuesday morning, went acer with Calista to repair her laptop. Wonder how is it now.. Then i headed school to practice for Hui Ting's song, hee. Then to People's Park Centre to look out for beads. Bought some things for myself, haa. I NOW OWN ANGEL WINGS! xD
At night, reached home, wanted to do AM presentation. But then, halfway around midnight, internet no connection, and so i fell asleep. Slept from 2am plus all the way till 10am! Supposed to practice Hui Ting's song this morning at 10am. But then... =x
This morning CDD lesson postponed, so lessons starts at 12pm. Had AM presentation. Lecturer gave us a score of 80%. Quite a good score for last minute work actually. =x
After that went clubhouse to practice Hui Ting's song again. Manage to get back the feel of the song after a day. Practiced, then played for MP (monthly performance).
Overall, a fast and funny performance. Why? COS I PLAYED TOO FAST! And what's the miracle over here? IVY AND HUI TING
CAN CATCH UP! And what else's so funny? OUR SONG IS ONLY
2 MINUTES WHEN IT CONSIST OF
4 VERSE, 3 CHORUS AND 1 BRIDGE! LOL. It's like, so OMG! Straight after finish playing, we had a BIG laugh and people asked us, "why your song so short one?" and "how come you play so fast?" LOL! Then now, people asked me "who's my shifu?", "how come you can play so fast?" and "can help me play my song?" Haa. consider a good start ma? Hope i can fair better next time. As in, DONT PLAY SO FAST and better fill-ins! Oh, i didnt mention, i forget to fill-in A PART! And and! My shifu says "GOOD JOB TODAY!" Wahaha. Lucky never throw his face. ;D And hmm. I didnt use my new drumsticks cos i dont wanna spoil it AND i scare im not used to the weight of the sticks.
Okie, now, need to head back to homework! Not sleeping tonight! Gotta rush!
[mood: IM HIGH TODAY! xDDD~~ THANKS ANGEL!]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/22/2007 12:49:00 AM)
Homework.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
What a day. Last night i slept at 4am plus cos i was doing some EUCD homework. And i woke up at 10:50am this morning when lesson starts at 9am. This
always happens on mondays and i've already missed
two SOM lectures. Then i found out, some kind of friends i have. They dont deserve anything.
Reached school at 1pm for EUCD lesson. Havent hand in tonnes of work for this module. Promised lecturer i'll hand it in this thursday. Hope i can finish everything especially the summaries that are killing me. Then after that was SOM tutorial. Manage to understand how to do the questions. Should start to buck up already. Common tests are coming.
Went mending SCC booth today. We are starting to collect pre-orders of SCC tickets. None on the list today. People please come and support? =D Then after that went clubhouse and saw dear! Wahaha. Missed dear. We had some chat and then i headed home for dinner after that.
Meet up with Calista and Purple for a chat just now. It's great that there are people staying around you. ^^ And so sorry Calista..
I SPOILT YOUR LAPTOP. *guilty..*
Okay, i need to head back to doing EUCD.
Wish me luck cos im starting to feel tired and perhaps i'll just lie on my bed and sleep. =x
[mood: wahahaha. TIRED.]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/20/2007 01:01:00 AM)
True Friend Test: Observe... And you will know!
Sunday, November 18, 2007

Create your own Friend Test here[mood: dododo! =x]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/18/2007 06:19:00 PM)
Save my summary!
Havent been posting for two days. Too lazy cos of homework, haa.
I didnt mention that on thursday, i saw a car accident. The car was on
fire and the fire engine is NOWHERE to be seen! Well, hope the person's alright.
Friday, i had song practice with Hui Ting and Ivy. Hui Ting wanted me to play drums for her song. Not very sure about the fill-ins yet but i'll try. Hope we do well during MP this coming wednesday.
I went to trim my hair with my mummy yesterday. Usual place. Then we went People's Park Centre cos i wanted to check out something for I&E. After that, we headed to Vivo City for Marks and Spencer. I bought some cookies and chocolates there! Wahaha. Actually, we headed down JUST because of them. =x Then, we took bus 30 home all the way to Boon Lay Interchange.
Was supposed to do my homework overnight yesterday. But then lazy me went to lie on the bed and fell asleep. Plus, i woke up at 1pm plus! Half a day gone. How am i suppose to finish my work? And im currently slacking.. Im so dead!
Know what? Just now starhub cable had PROBLEM! I couldnt use my internet cos there was no connection and i
couldnt watch a single channel! This is the first time i experienced this. Wonder what is wrong with starhub!
Oh oh. By the way, HAPPY
belated BIRTHDAY JUAN! =x
Okay. Need to head back to doing work. Can someone help me in my summary? I
die when English is involve.
[mood: o.o homework!]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/18/2007 04:54:00 PM)
Drumsticks!
Friday, November 16, 2007
AHHH!!! I NOW OWNS A PAIR OF DRUMSTICKS! XD XD XD. It's from Zhiwei. He said this IS my actual birthday present! OMG! I LOVE DRUMSTICKS. HAA. THANKS ZHIWEI!
Hee. Alright, back to today. Woke up at 9:30am this morning when class starts at 10am. Reason being, i was waking up, sleeping and waking up over the night because of homework. I could actually wake up early but i was just
too lazy. In the end, reached class at 11am. Omg.. So late. So my goal after this incident, never to be late again! I
must try my best to do it. Wish me luck. ^^
As mentioned yesterday, today's Weiting's birthday. Me and Mun Teng got the whole class to write wishes for her and the two of us gave her an angel handphone accessory as a gift. She loved it. Glad. =D
Today's as usual as every Thursday. Meeting, dinner at KAP, then home.
SCC's concert is coming! Tickets anyone? xD
And once again, THANKS ZHIWEI FOR THE STICKS! xD~~~
[mood: ah-chooing. why?]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/16/2007 12:35:00 AM)
Surprise. :)
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Wow. Woke up at 5:40am today. Was raining heavily but lucky, no lightning or thunder, or rather not as frequent as monday. Did get caught in the rain a little. But no worries, i'm still FINE, at least for now. =x
Today, im
not late for lesson! But then.. Our lecturer started our lesson an hour late due to the rain. Well, everything's fine and usual for today. The only thing different today is, we went to Takashimaya's Seoul Garden for dinner cos tomorrow's Weiting's BIRTHDAY! Happy Birthday Girl! =D
She didnt know she's heading to Seoul Garden and didnt know she's meeting us for dinner. Everything was planned secretly, haha. Hope she enjoys today. =)
Headed back to SCC after that. Was late for it due to the celebration and Seoul Garden's food. =x
Well, that's all for today! Time for homework...
[mood: tired. but what to do? T.T]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/15/2007 12:08:00 AM)
I&E project.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
I&E project, too rush.
Undecisive.
Self-centered.
Costing my time and sleep.
Angry.
Lucky our lecturer says our presentation is good.
If not...
[mood: mixture.]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/13/2007 11:59:00 PM)
Skipped school.
Monday, November 12, 2007
I skipped school today.
Woke up at 9:30am this morning when lesson's supposed to start at 9am. Was waken up by the loud thunder as it was raining cats and dogs outside. Real heavy and the lightning and thunders were real scary. So i decided not to go school since it's raining so heavily and the lightning's so scary that i think if i head out, i'll get strike immediately. And so, i went back to bed. =x
Break's at 12pm and the next lesson starts at 1pm. By the time i really woke up, it's already 2pm. I kept going back to sleep actually, haha. Then after that is 4pm lesson. But then.. I was thinking, if i head back for lesson, classmates confirm will ask, "you come back for last lesson for what?" lol. So i didnt go for ANY lessons today! =x
Went to meet Purple at 3pm plus to get something from her. Then shopped for things i need and headed to school for drums lesson! =D
[mood: guilty~ =x next time cannot do this AGAIN! Therefore.. I need MORE alarm clocks! ^^]
VL, signing off
where autumn loves...*
(11/12/2007 11:49:00 PM)