happy birthday to my little gor gor

i am really tired NOW............
my mind is stop functioning................
and a lot of stuff need to complete in a short period......
i want to scream....i want to bite people....i want to.................arh.........&@(*@*
hope my body still can affort....praying for not getting sick again and again....
please....T.T



today is my brother birthday........
gor gor.....thanks for being my brother.....
and i am very proud to be ur little sister.....sincrely....
u give me a lot of things in my life....uncountable.....
and u take good care on me....i appreciate it very much...
every single thing and every single advise from u....
gor gor....happy birthday and may all your dreams will come true soon.....
take a break when u are really stress...
love u.....

新年快乐

一个星期的假期。。。终于。。回到了自己的岗位上。。。
忙碌的日子还在前面。。。很想逃避这一切。。。
但是。。我不能。。。。。。。加油吧。。。



昨天。。。去了KLIA。。。送琳离开到Australia。。。。
有点不舍。。希望她一切顺利。。。
当她离开后。。我对她男朋友说了一句“加油。。”
他的回答是一句很肯定的“sure”。。。
突然自己有所感触。。。。为什么。。我没有他有的那种坚定。。。
为什么身边的朋友。。。都选择相信。。选择等待。。选择守护。。
而我。。。选择了放弃。。。。。
在他们身上看到的坚定。。。仿佛是对我自己的讽刺。。。
很想对你说。。。。对不起。。。我对自己没把握。。。。。。
对不起。。。。。。。我连等待的勇气都没有。。。。。
对不起。。。。。。。。。。我没办法像他们那样。。。
很坚定的说。。。我会等。。。。
因为我知道当我说不的时候。。我等于抹杀了一切。。。。。
包括我们的关系。。。。。。。
偶尔想起你。。。。还是会难过。。。但是我知道。。。
我已经痊愈了。。。。
日子还是疯疯癫癫的在过。。。。
我的笑。。。依然无所不在。。。。
在没有你的天空。。。我依然是我。。。日子也一样在过。。。
我会让自己更好的。。。。。。=）


好啦。。。还在过新年呢。。。。
祝福怎能少了呢？？

大家在新的一年里要更更更快乐哦。。。。
我会更爱更爱更爱你们的。。。。。muakzss。。。。哈哈。。

release.......

yesterday night...i was attended the reunion night which organised by Buddist society....
it was great......it give me a sense of being home.....
very warm...very comfortable....very relax.....
with those games, cute dancing, joke.........
b4 that....i am just like a bettery without energy.....
feeling of stress...feeling of lost....feeling of worry...
all come together.......just because of the unfinish assignment, FYP, internship.....
after joining the activity...i feel that i am released.....
released all the stress .....released all the unhappy feeling.....
i am fully charge......
thanks BS society for the fun night....
and i am proud to be the member of this society....


i am really tired now....wanna sleep liao....
later will go for a movie....^@^

LIFE................

2day.....in the counselling method 2 tutorial class...
tutor asked us to draw out our life line.....
all the events ,people which are really bring an impact to us......
i closed my eyes and think.......
then i started to draw.......
thare is a lot of events and people in my life are really influence me....
no matter my personality, thinking, belief system or my emotion....
a lots........

i still remember the 1st day i went to kindergarten....it was a happy memory...
i still remember when i am having my 1st surgery.....i am crying and how the doctor tried to comfort me.....
i still remember the feeling of losing someone that is very important in my life.....it is a feeling of helpless......
i still remember how i cooperate with my peers to complete something that is impossible....that is the feeling of success......
i still remember my 1st step to University....the 1st person that i met.....that is the feeling of strange......
i still remember my 1st relationship with the guy........eventhough i hope that i can forget....
i still remember who is standing beside me when i am really down........and how i am hurting him....
i still remember..............................


life is uncertainty..........which i can control and out of my control....
life is uncertainty..........which going up and going down.....
life is uncertainty..........which we don't know what is going on in the next second.....
life is uncertainty..........which someone will stay and someone will gone....
LIFE................this is LIFE........
i am trying to accept the reality of LIFE...........
i am still trying.........


i put a big question mark to my future.....
i am not sure with what i am doing now.....
i am not sure what i am going 2 decide.....
i am not sure..............
i miss those time when i have a clearer picture about my future....
i miss those time when i am still know how to dream....
now all gone....and i am lost.....lost the way to future........
hope i will find my direction.......tell me which road should i take......


ALL THE BEST TO ME......AND YOU......

wOrry...............

worry....
worry about 2mr....
i lost my foundation result which is very important to create my resume for my internship....
i am waiting for a answer from my friend about the internship....
i am thinking about my FYP........because my supervisor said now is too early to start.....
i am thinking of little thong thong.....she is getting a very serious emotional change after her mummy gave born to her little brother.......
worry.....worry and worry..........
hopefully i can get the new printed foundation result from FGO and it may not take a long peroid to process it....
hopefully i can get the answer that i want from my friend about the internship....
hopefully my supervisor won't ignore us and get to start to supervise us in our FYP.....
hopefully thong thong will understand what is happen and become the one who i miss the most....
i wish....i wish........may god bless me.....
all the best for 2mr............go go fighting.....


busy life is starting......are u ready????