I have daughtry tickets but i cannot go. So i have no choice but to sell. =(

"Raffles JC may offer IB diploma by 2010"
This is good news. I might consider taking up IB diploma, though it's harder, but i'll see. I might just stick to A levels, since Raffles JC IB will only be offered to 20%, which means about 200 students, out of nearly 1000.

Now its already pass 3am.

I feel like im far lagging behind everyone.

I feels really lonely.

I really dun noe what to do.

I just noe i need to hurry up, before i miss the last train to lead me out.

I wonder if i was a born troublemaker.
Well to make it sound nice, i wonder if i was a born changemaker. =P

And after 21 posts, i suddenly rmb tt i was supposed to post pic 21 posts ago.

Today i met ken ruixin.

She was the girl i met on the flight back from beijing, after a school immersion trip. And meeting her was a big regret i had.

I guess she probably didn't recognise me, or was hesitant to conclude who i was.
(But she's gotten hotter. Srsly.)

Then i met ruijin, a good friend from my first primary school. His oldest bro used to be an asshole. I guess he still is. And i still bear hatred against him.

I just dunno why i cant let go of the painful past. I really want to let go, to remove all the burden of the past, to remove all the hatred built up inside me. But i dunno who to turn to. There's no one close that can open up my heart and wash it clean for me. Probably God, but im too fearful to turn to him. The only thing i can do now is to suffer in silent. Someone pls help me.

What a long way the MRT of Singapore has gone. At the moment it is this.

In the future, it might be this.

Or this.

Well the last 2 have some differences (if u are able to spot them). But it's impressive all the same. This is the Singapore of the future. Cool.

I've lived with this burden for so long.
I'm so tired. I just want to let it go.

Lord, i know i've been a sinner again and again.
Please make me a better person.

Seeing two of my batchmates being able to fight in the judo finals, i feel happy for them, since they've really worked hard.

Talking about judo, i've thought about my future. My target next year is individuals and team gold. I know i can do it, i know we can do it. In fact, we must do it, or else it does us no justice. I hope we can sweep all the b div gold medals next year, c div as well, cos this year's sec 1s have potential, but just needs more nudging and guidance.

Thinking back, i guess i was indeed quite slack. I only started weights training this year, while many of my peers started earlier. I used to miss quite a number of trainings due to injury (or homework), so yea tts my bad.

I've only got 1 1/2 years left in RI. And perhaps in raffles judo.
I hope to train hard, sweep the golds, and leave RI and Judo on a high. Next year's probably my last year in national schools judo. Thats why i want to work harder.

I guess i'm near saturation point in my love affair with judo. Hence it's better to leave judo on a high than on a low, i think. But i might continue recreational judo, cos i love judo as a art form, as a skill, a complex beauty, tough yet graceful.

That's all i have to say at the moment. Good luck to A and B Div Boys and A and C Div Girls! Jiayou!

At minds cafe

Amos Ho: "I am the boss! FU*K YOU!"-Swings arm and knocks down glass of peach tea-

Hmm i feel tempted to buy havaianas thru online spree, but i noe my parents will kill me if i do, cos they see it as unnecessary spending in a time of high inflation and rising cost of living.

Maybe year-end instead, when i can work part time and earn sum cash. Then i'll probably use the cash i earn to learn muay thai.

Going to minds cafe today was great. Initially had low expectations, then later xp chose sum fun games they were familiar with, and it ended great. Will want to go back there again when i have the chance to.

Today was pretty much a stressful day for me, not that being an announcer was hard (it sort of boosted my confidence), but watching ri b div play was heart & mind-stressing. But well today i got to gauge the standard of b div judo, and i guess i still have much to improve. I just have to work hard on my speed and explosiveness. But i have to admit that i was pretty impressed with the rg girl who played in lightweight for the c div girls semis. She probably needs to train on her drive, and if she trains her entry to be sharper she'll definitely be quite pro.
C div boys tomorrow. Sumwhat worried for them, but i believe they'll do their best.

Gymmed afterwards. Havent gymmed for a long time. Was nice to see sum regulars, and chat with them. Some of them asked me questions on pretty old issues, eg how's u and i_____, when i havent been in contact with her for quite sum time. Hope my new weights training programme works for me.

Then later went to watch Get Smart. Loved it. Didnt noe that pairing a old-fashioned male spy with a hot female spy would result in such a great movie. Dwayne Johnson, aka my wwe idol The Rock (do u smell... what The Rock is cooking), made a pretty limited appearance in the movie, even though he's the double agent.

Okay enuff of regurgitating today's happenings.

Sumhow recently, i've been constantly feeling this emptiness within me. I dunno what's the exact cause, and i dunno how to fill it. Im surrounded by friendly, kind, understanding friends, in a good school, with decent grades and a pro cca, and great parents, what more can i ask for. Maybe it's part of teen mood swings, or it could be for real, i dunno. Maybe sum soul searching will help. But i know i want to live a meaningful life.

And i've thot abt expanding my social circle, especially knowing more female friends. Being a despo does no good, but being a hermit isnt any better.

I'm not in the team. 4 months of hard work, turns up nothing, just a illusion. All i get are injuries. I guess im not gonna go back to judo for at least 1 month. Sick of judo already.

Anyway i'll be resuming blogging asap. I dun wan my blog to die a premature death.