The whole of next week is CCTs, tests, quizes, performance tasks.
Wtf.
But well thank god that when teachers get to rest, we also get a break!
Labour Day!

All is well.
Well, apparently not yet. There's still lots to be done.
At least all is well in my family.

Man U lost to Chelsea. Noooo!
But really, Man U was askin for it. Well hope Fergie & Co can bring back 2 trophies, instead of none.

After next week, i hope to go and do some shopping. Yes, its a girl's pasttime, but who says guys cannot enjoy shopping too?

Hmm i'll get a billabong wallet (genuine leather one, cos its more durable i suppose). Hope to get some clothes also. And sportswear.

I took a look at the Adidas All-Blacks jersey when i went to queensway last friday after school. And it was pretty cool, just that it seems thick, too thick for our weather. Well its a rugby jersey after all. Hope i can get it, and Man U jersey too (fat hope, u poor dude).

Sometimes, i just hope that i could restart my life from certain points, even restart my whole life, so that i will avoid making the big mistakes i've made.

But i know, its not possible. I just got to live with what i have, and build it up from there.

I really, really, REALLY hope to start afresh next week. For academics and judo.
But first i got to plan out the path ahead.

P.S. Sorry for the few short posts recently. Not really in the mood for blogging.

I feel so frustrated, so tired, so confused. My hands and feet are bounded, leaving me with nothing i can do.

I really want to break free.

I need to start building up that winning mentality.

I had thot of askin mr tan to remove me from the b div boys shortlist, but i guess that i shud instead see it as incentive to train harder, instead of a pressurizing weight. It'll build up more urgency in me this way.

Today, i realised how lousy and unconfident i am in judo.
But that will change.
That MUST change.

Sigh.
Eric koh cleared up things today, so that removed a big burden off my mind. Now i understand why he was so angry, but his degree of anger is sumwhat uncalled for, and im still pretty pissed at his attitude.
Our class jersey has been finalised. I just need to check on some last few matters, and we just have to wait for the jerseys to be done.
Sian my ankle got injured. And i was dumb enuff to forget to ice it once i got home. But it isnt very serious. I got excused from PE for next two weeks (which means i skip NAPFA), but i definitely want to play in age groups competition. So i got to go and buy an ankle guard.
I hope i do well for age groups.

I'm in need of miracles.

I feel really upset today. I feel really wronged and disrespected by someone i've long respected and treated with high regards, and today i got a rude shock, when i've done nothing wrong. I was even threatened. Will you expect a teacher to do that? That's what happened.
I even cried thrice. Something you might not expect from me.
It's probably a big miscommunication, but his attitude towards me is just not justifiable. What's wrong with training and preparing for competition? We're representing the school as well.
I'm considering resigning as monitor, thou i'll take time to think it through. My classmates du lan me enough, and i just take it in my stride. Now my form teacher also du lan me as well. I'm really, really, really pissed.
But even if i resign, i'll make sure that i'll settle what i have to finish. That includes class jersey.

Well on a brighter mood, RI B'Div squash won ACSI! Jun wei, the sec 3 imba squash player, totally owned his opponent. And i've gained a better understanding of squash.
Well since kallang squash centre is next to kallang tennis centre, it was not surprising that my classmates saw I____. And apparently, yizuo, my classmate and assistant monitor, shouted my name so loudly and caught her attention. Lol.
I thought she might have forgotten me. Probably the reverse.

SS test tmr. I've yet to mug, so i go and mug immediately after i finish blogging. And i'm close to getting sample for the kappa jerseys, so 3Pers please be patient.
I hope all 3Pers out there will continue to have faith in me. I want to make sure that i can do a much better job for the class than eric koh the slacker, and own his ass upside down with a uchimata (of course not lah, might as well use sankaku choke. joking :P).

The fact that his waga samples have yet to appeared serves to strengthen my point. :P

My life seems to be spiraling downwards. But i will get up, get better, get STRONGER!!!

Sigh. Today isnt a good day. PE teacher got pissed. Raffles Rugby B Div lost to ACSI. Judo training was sucky for me. At least i didnt flunk my chem cct, which turned out to be pretty easy.
It's really frustrating when i dun seem to get anything right during today's training, and there wsnt enough time. I guess i just need to focus more, and put more dedication into training.
Squash B Div finals this wednesday. My class has been scheduled to go down and support, but i and lingfei might skip it to train.
I need to train more. But time isnt on my side.

Well ORA was fun and boring at the same time.
I was having a really nice sleep in the morning, when i got a rude awakening. Well i didnt have enuff sleep, and the same for my parents, who drove me to sch.
Walk-a-jogathon was, well, a walk and jog for me. I walked about the length plus breadth of raja block before deciding to jog. Well 1.6km didnt seem very far.
After that went to the canteen, where i was stunned into stoning, until i shared a $2 bubble tea with zi jian. Then later we sumhow separated and what happened after do not remember clearly. Well i do remember, that i wasted time stoning around stairs with wei chuan, rixing and daniel. Also, i and my fellow judokas walked circles around the hall. Chinjie irritated some people tday, and got ____ in the ____ by a female junior judoka. Chinjie was apparently wasting money on flowers and canned drinks to play pranks on others, one of the targets being me. Yes, his ideas are bananas (hint). Well nvm abt tt. So thru the female judoka incident, i made a new friend today, that female judoka herself.
So today i stuffed myself full with junk food and bubble tea. And i was pretty lucky, cos i found $4 of coupons on the floor, got $5 of coupons and a set of rechargable batteries with charger from bishan gay, who turned out to being quite a nice and generous guy but only towards boys, and i had free bubble tea at the end of the whole fair, cos rgs tennis (watever!) had a lot of leftover bubble tea.
Thinking about it, if i had combined the $4 i found with the $5 i got from bishan gay and the $1 i got as drinks coupon for participating in the walkajogathon, and saves $3.20 by not buying the raffles wristband, and toping up $0.80, i could have gotten latest model Nike water bottle. But if i had done so, i would have missed out on the food and fun. And Rubbermaid rocks more that Nike, cos it can store more water, and u can dump water on someone with it, instead of sprayin them using the Nike waterbottle.
Talking bout Nike, there were a group of sec 3 boys(yea i know some of them, especially syafik poh), who went about on a trolley, advertising Nike sports bras. Yea, amusing and embarassing. Oh and it was nice to bully Shek with flour and colouring-filled water bombs. There was also a dunking station, which was the most amusing games station. Teachers and prefects were all dunked, and some of the rg prefects even gave high-pitched shrieks that are rare nowadays for a boys' school student like me.
Well i had fun today. And yea the presence of girls is somewhat comforting, in a sense that it prevents us ri guys from turning into ri gays, just like bishan gay, who is apparently a ORA member.
But today's fair has somewhat tempted me to stray slightly from my main mission, which is to focus on school and judo, nothing else (yes, not even girls, contrary to popular belief). But temptation had always, and will always exist, and fighting it is a constant struggle, but with strong willpower and help from God, i can succeed.
But i must admit, i did see quite a few hot and chio members of the opposite gender. But i must also admit, i saw even more nerdish members of the opposite gender.
And after today, i can assume that hugging among girls is standard in rgs.
Loking forward to next year's ORA, which i hope will be even better than this year's, cos this year's wasnt really very good, especially the games. St Nick's Fiesta was on an even larger scale, but yea their stuff was ripoff, ripoff, RIPOFF!!!!!!

Screw the kappa jersey supplier. Reply my email, cos i want to get the f**king damned class jersey done with as soon as possible! And waga sucks (no offence to mr koh, but i think many people in class agree with me), so dun even think abt it.
And i think i have saved nearly enough for a genuine leather billabong wallet. But i want to take a look at the designs of other brands first.

Wow nearly a week gone. Finally can get some rest and start to mug for ccts.
And ORA Walk-a-jogathon is TOMORROW! YAY! And im going back to CHC on SUNDAY!
Well some people say the ORA tshirt sucks, some say its nice. Well i belong to the later, but i understand why the former feels that way.

Wednesday training was among the worst, suckiest trainings i've ever experienced, but ironically, the next trng, which was today, was among the best. Wed's was killer, while today's could be considered beneficial.
I hate monotarge (watever way u spell it). For those who dun understand judo jargon, it is basically a selected group of people (usually abt 5-7) line up and spread across the length of the dojo, and then play 5-10 straight bouts against different people, and its more competitive than normal randori (sparring). Monotage sucks, especially when all the seniors come for me cos im the only sec 3 among the sec 4s, and we have to do pushups after every bout, which render us weak and unable to throw.
Today trained with zhongren and wei chuan, and learnt a lot. Dun want to be long winded, so shall not elaborate.
Aniwae ORA tmr, hope i'll have lots of fun. I'll probably meet a lot of people i havent met for a long time. And i want to dunk teachers! And hopefully everything at ORA funfair will be cheap and good (i've nvr been to ORA funfair before), unlike st nicks fiesta, which was such a RIPOFF!!!
Now lingfei is being slightly lame but amusing over msn. lawl.

Haha this is for fun, to lighten the mood caused by my sad post just now. Taken from my account on Nuffnang. The website shows the referrer (which website the visitors had came from) and the number shows the hits from the referrer. Its for this week btw.

Referrer
Hits
http://thecoldbloodedmassacre.blogspot.com/
16
http://furry-bear.blogspot.com/
13
http://www.amiraclehappened.blogspot.com/
10
http://-genesis.blogspot.com/
8
http://frozen-sweetness.blogspot.com/
8
http://www.whenthetimecalls.blogspot.com/
8
http://whenthetimecalls.blogspot.com/
6
http://x-ro.blogspot.com/
3
http://justsittingherestoning.blogspot.com/
3
http://waterpoloforlife.blogspot.com/
2
http://4ever-lost.blogspot.com/
2
http://judobuddi.blogspot.com/
2
http://www.frozen-sweetness.blogspot.com/
2
http://funlikehorfun.blogspot.com/
2

Interesting. Hmm...

A sumwhat tiring week has gone by. And more trying times are about to come.
Weights programme has been replaced by PT. And sumwhat the red belt failed to make its appearance.
Learning journey was screwed up sumwhat. At least i discovered how to sleep in the library.
Was happy that the class lent its support for interclass soccer. But we need more practice, and i need to bulk up in order to be an effective defender and rough up the opposition strikers.
Viriya flag day was mixed. Saw a lot of generous people, a lot of not-so-generous people, and a lot of black-faces (aka the qian bian people). And got tanned myself.
Manage to make an advancement in the progress of the class jersey. Waga turned out to be not as cheap as thot. FBT looks like the best option, but Kappa is a worthy opponent. Adidas is high in standards, high in price, high in design. Nike and Umbro has yet to make its appearance. Haha sounds like sum deathmatch.
ORA next saturday! But 7.30am reportin time, isnt that like assembly time? So means i have to wake up early?! Well hope the t-shirt and drink turns out to be a good consolation.

After so long, the good and the bad memories of them still persist. But i'm taking steps to remove the reminants, thou i know the scars will always be there. Thinking back, i thot my behaviour was disgracing and embarassing, childish in many ways. I guess my logic was turned upside down. Thank God i've managed to pick myself up.
I still do read their blogs, just to see how their lives have been, pray for them. But tonight will be the last time i'll ever read their blogs, cos i noe that as long as i hold on to the past, i'll never progress.
I'm tryin my best in what i am good at, being more sensible, focusing on the right stuff, trying to avoid a repeat of everything. And i'm glad to report that i've made a big progress. =D

Aniwae i gtg. Sleeping early every nite is one of my new goals, and i hope to succeed in it. God bless you. :)

I'm too tired to post. Shall post during the weekends.

I'm officially among the 8 for the b div, and the only sec 3.
I gotta and gonna prove that im worth the selection.