Church cell grp dinner after church service was nice. Rarely had the chance to interact with my fellow cg members.
God really loves to plays games with me. Its real lame when all your friends know each other when you met them seperately in diff parts of your life. Eg. Your 1st primary sch friends and your 2nd pri sch friends noe each other, your church fri since p3 and your 2nd pri sch aquaintance know each other, your sec sch friend and your 1st pri sch friend noes each other, and even your mum's friend's son(which is your friend) noes your 2nd pri sch friend. Its all so gay. It was sort of a confusing stunner at first, but got used to such lame stuff. Its like you communicate with the ppl on your left and right, but you dun communicate with both at the same time, such that it forms the shape of a triangle, but doesnt fill the area inside it. Its bcos you noe both ppl at different periods in time, hence cant relate well.
And communicated with my P6 form teacher for the 1st time in months. She quited at the end of our graduating year. Now she is researching other stuff, also working for govt. Bet that she voted for PAP in elections, since civil servants usually do (this is a persistently non-political comment). Btw i found out she was a Prime Minister's Book Prize 1996 "O" Levels Recepient.
Now one of my FTs, Mr Paul Lim, is also quitting. The corny thing is, this is the 2nd year running a FT of mine is quitting.
Move on to my goals i have written down for myself:
1. Be a excellent Judoka
2. GPA 3.65-3.7
3. Master the classical guitar
There are more wishes and goals of mine, but they are personal. Now a pesistently troubling thing for me is, i dunno what i want to be when i grow up. I dun want to make the wrong choice.
I dun really hav any specific interests in certain areas. I just know i want to excel in my studies. The time will come when i know what decision to make. God will help me in that. So for the time being, i decided although its ok to think abt it now, its a bit too early to make a decision since i havent establish a specific interest, hence i dun need to worry. But im thinking maybe law's not bad. Medicine & Science are also not bad, although not a GP, which is not for me. Engineering, although also taken by scholars, gives me an image of construction site, so not thinking abt it until i know it more clearly.

I've been feeling very down for this week. I feel very alone.
My judo isnt good enough. I must work harder. I must get over with grading, then concentrate on shiai. I must try to train myself such that judo is my 2nd natural instinct, even outside training, so that i can defend myself. I must strengthen my body. Weixiang is my role model. Seeing how he can fight even yan jun, i hope to be able like him. And another thing is, i observed that i am training and interacting less with my batchmates. Is it out of fear or out of despise? I dunno.
I realised that there is rare such thing as a best friend. More and more ppl are out to get me, to ruin my life, and take away everything i have, even my pride. I must FIGHT to keep them.
Im planing to do lots of mugging and training during the free time that is coming. I must fight to keep my rafflesian dream alive, to do well in studies and to make an achievement. Now its not a dream, its a fight, a rat race.
I may be faltering, i may be tired, but i noe God will be there for me in all that i do, and he will lead me on.

Just met a freakish guy on my blog just now. his name was Ascendant Justice aka Jarret. He sux. When he was appealing to transfer to judo, i sensed he isnt a gd guy. Seems im mostly right. He's a very suspicious guy. Aniwae RI Judo Sec 1s already built a strong bond, and even when adif left, we still remembered him. He left for waterpolo cos he had some back problem. Aniwae i dun really like the idea of jarret join. He seems as if he's gate-crashing into our close-knitted group of judokas. Siao kia.
Aniwae training today was tough, but worth it. Conditioning our body to become stronger. Then learned kumi shio gatame, and kuzure kumi shio gatame.
And then, i had DURIANS after dinner. Cheap and good. The seeds quite big though, means less flesh.

Sigh. This isnt a good week. I just screwed up my HCL CCT today. Didnt have enuff time and concentration to study well for the test. My parents wont be hapy when they see the results. I've been producing shit results for the last few weeks. Im determined to study hard, and make up for the poor results. I will have more time for studying after all the projects and RE are cleared.
RI lost to ACSI today in the Rugby C Div finals, 10-15. ACSI is naturally strong. But just screw them ac-assholes aniwae.
Yellow belt grading getting nearer and nearer. Learned 2 throws today, but a bit weird. 1 of them was a cocked-up morote seoi nage.
My guitar has laid for years rarely used. My interest has only been recently revived. Im determine to master at least a few songs, once there is free time in week 10 and sept hols.
My jap is lagging behind. I must work hard to revive my interest, and to understand the stuff.
Sigh. This week's f**ked up so far. Still got RE presentation on Fri.
Sigh.

Ah. My citrus taggie is coming under the attack of the female smartass facists! No lah, just joking, and no offence to the rg judo spamming trio (i only noe what baobs out of the 3 looks like. she looks at tanned as shek. dunno why tt happens even when judo is indoor). Aniwae pls just stop spamming the blog. And yimin, even if i posted on your blog, only ONE PATHETIC POST RIGHT? AND IT WASNT EVEN INSULTING RG JUDO OR ANYTHING. IT JUST MEANT RI JUDO ROX.
Aniwae i want to end this post fast and quick cos i want to watch news.
I hav thot up of a list of materialistic things i want, and will work towards getting it:
Crumpler bag
Branded, rugged watch (my current one seems not manly enuff. haha.)
Levi's jeans
Cool half frame specs
Oakley shades (?)

I will work towards my yellow belt and 3.7 GPA. がんばってください！！！
I must mug and run and train and throw like siao!!!!!!!!!
I will hold and press and struggle like siao, in both studies and judo!!!!!!!!!!
And last of all, I MUST BE A SUCCESS, NOT FAILURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I must uphold my angmoh name and my chinese name, be a brav chinese, and defeat the giants like david againt goliath.(my adopted christian name is david and my chinese name is 威汉 btw.)

(wow the spamming trio must be tinking of me as a siao guy. but, WHY SHUD I CARE? haha my new philosophy in life.)
Aniwae i aim to get my 1st dan by jc1, then retire from schools judo but still train privately under mr tan (if he still stays on by then, hopefully).
Aniwae no matter what tiff i have with the rg judo spammers, i still think the mighty Bala rox, cos of her size. its so damn funny seeing her just throw the hopeless girl on the floor at the National Schools (Team). I think its more of trip and squish.
I gtg. bye to everyone.and pls dun spam the taggie. i just dun want to argue animore. I rather pretend that i dun noe the rg judo spammers and that this spamming party dosnt even happen at all.Its damn tiring, and i dun like debates. especially the thbt thingy.

Fine to appease everyone, i shall make a very vague statement.
r-a-f-f-l-e-s, Raffles yea, Judo yea, the champs yea!!!
Raffles Judo rox.

(Happy now? pls stop spamming. spare my citrus taggie. its innocent.)
[P.S.S.S.S.S.S.S This is my longest post ever. WOW. ]

We got to know abt the new syllabus for the yellow belt grading. Mr Tan our coach says, that s0me of the throws, even the sec 2 dun noe yet. And the stupid thing is, we even have to be graded for our WHITE BELT! If we fail our yellow but past our white, we get to have a yellow tip on our white belt. Here's wat i remember abt it.
Nagewaza:
Ippon seoi nage
Ogoshi
Osoto gari
Sasae tsurikomi goshi
Deashi barai
Hiza guruma
Morote seoi nage
Uki goshi
Tsurikomi goshi

Newaza:
Hon kesa gatame
Kata gatame
Kuzure gatame
Jigi gatame (an armlock)
[thats all i remember so far abt the newaza]

This shows that we, ri sec 1s rok. We get to learn more throws than the rg sec 1s. We will own them for sure, in strength and skill.

Nothing much to blog abt this week. We had interhouse crosscountry on wednesday, at macritchie reservoir. Was damn tired after the run. There were so many slopes up and down. Guan Lin won as usual.
National Day next week. 3 days of fun and slack. Get to go back to tao nan, to visit the teachers and to play with ex-schoolmates. Hopefully i wont have to use 10th of aug to do RE. RE's damn gay.
Somehow, i think that i've been foolish for these few months. I feel i have made rash decisions that make me look stupid. If only i could turn back time...