Strap yourselves up people, it's gonna be one HECK of a long post.

Preparations for prom were FUN. Haha. I went shopping for my dress, found in at some side store at Century Square. Kinda funky. It was a combination of my favourite colours, so I had to get it. Plus, it was retro! Haha. Something I didn't expect to appear in on Prom Night. Anyhows, it was WELL within my budget, and I bought it with my math tutor. Cool eyy? Haha. Plus, I had no intention to go shopping that day. Kuasa Tuhan. Haha.

The 2 to 3 days before prom, my mum, dad, and I went shopping. Got my tights and clutch from VivoCity, Zara and Tangs respectively. (I'm remembering from the back of my head, so bear with me) Got my shoes from Taka. Glitter from Heeren. That's all I guess. I tried on so many dresses with my parents. But the one from Zara scarred my memory. Gorgeous kimono-like dress. Ah well, I still loved the one from CS. I just had to pray no one came in the same outfit. Shoes also another problem. I tried on so many, but either it was too high, or too horrible to wear to prom. Me and my mum searched until closing time at Tangs. Haha. Oh and btw, I REFUSED to come in polka dots. It's so common, no offence. Haha. People keep telling me to come in polka dots and I was like NO. Haha. I'm happy with my outfit.

30th November my family celebrated my Dad's birthday. Our surprise wasn't what I expected. Not enough time man. Haha. It was so fun, me and my brothers. And the mee opeh my parents brought home. Delish.

The day of prom, 1st December 2006 came. I woke up and saw Natasha at my door. Haha. Giving out invitations la. So I followed her around for a bit. Got home around the same time when my dad got home from Solat Jumaat. Me and my mum went to Suntec City to do my hair. Cool huh? Her 15 year hairdresser. Haha. They wash, cut, blow and they CURLED my hair. Haha. Cool hair. The finishing touch was a spray of glitter. Cool. Haha. It was a frantic rush home, mainly cause I was late. Showered, got dressed. There was a whole platoon of people at home. Farahyn was there, Haliim brought his younger sister. Haha. Kecoh. Then came my least favourite part. Make-up. OMG. My mum played around, she said I look like a doll. Haha. Farahyn spilt glitter on my bedroom floor. Klutz man that girl. God. Haha. Zaim and Sidek had arrived, and my mum was still applying make-up. I still don't understand how people can tahan make-up man. It takes ages to apply, then when you come home, you wipe it off. And when it gets hot and everything and you perspire, your make-up trickles down as well. OK FINE. I'll stop. Sheesh.

When I was FINALLY ready, it was after 7. The guys were patiently waiting in the living room. I told Farahyn to grab my ticket and I rushed for the door. I prayed we weren't late, cause if we were, it would be my fault! Thankfully we weren't. We arrived, settled in at a table with Syamim and Rabitah and her friends. Prom had begun!

The food was DELISH. Especially SALAD. OMG. The salad table was huge, and so, mouth-watering. After eating, yada yada, anouncements and song competition. Then dancing! Part 1. Haha. Kecoh. Danced to so many songs, then time out.



More announcements, Lucky draw. I won a keyboard! Haha. Nomination of Prom King and Queen. Haha. It was a clear cut winner who the Prom king was gonna be, Sheikh Omar. He came in an afro wig. Haha! And a matching purple top and pants. Peace blings too. Haha. Gayy man. Haha. Prom Queen wasn't as easy. Faz was nominated! Haha, sadly, she lost to Mahirah. So slow dance came for the prom queen and king. People were invited to join them, and Zaim asked me to dance with him. Haha. So we were the first 'couple' to join. People awed and clapped and I was smiling like some gundu. Faiz and BX joined soon after Syamim and Rabitah. Dancing Part 2. Fun ah, then a fast number came, and everyone joined. I got stitches man dancing. Haha. Syam danced with his muker steam. Haha. Danced and danced with so many people, even prom king! Haha. The dance floor was like a mosh pit man. Zainal got to body surf. Haha. People were pushing and shoving, God. Kecoh2. The another time-out.





More lucky draw winners. Phirkhan got 3rd prize man. Haha. Atikah won 1st. Lucky mann. Haha. I got 36h. Ahh, good enough I bring smth home. Haha. Alumni stuff, yada yada. We all wanted to dance man. Haha, Mr Poh kindly allowed us to do so, and we did! The last dance of the night. People tore down decor,threw the tablecloth in the air. KECOH.

After that was mass photo-taking. I didn't bring my digicam. Stupid gadget had to go for servicing the day before the most memoriable day of my life. Ah well. Asked for favours from anyone who had a digicam. So I'm still EXPECTING photos from a certain few. Cheh. Haha. Good enough people help me take photo of using their cam. Haha. Photos Photos.







Zaim 'ditched' me and went of with the guys. No laaa. He was gonna decide where to go after prom. Haha. My mum picked me up around midnight.

Prom was one heck of an enjoyable night. More photos yet to come.

"Mummy, It's Over!!!" Quoted the Just For Laughs mascot. You know, the little green flump of nothing-ness.

Well. O'levels are OVER@%&*)#^#$

Hurrah!!

Time to celebrate, let loose and freaking chill like there's no tomorrow. People to catch up with, especially the neglected few. The few who mattered but because of the stupid meritocracy mindset in sunny Singapore, we have no choice but to leave them, temporarily.

Well, I have a PACKED week to look forward to before I disappear overseas on the 11th. Weddings, dates, (cheh. haha) and tons of LEPAK to look forward to in this 3 months of pure bliss. Oooh La La. Haha, if you think I have neglected you, feel free to contact me thru my mobile phone at.. Haha. Like that is ever gonna happen. *grins*

Well, I havent decided whether to work or not. I'm taking courses ah I guess. Drums!! Yeah mann. Haha. Guitar? See first la ehh. Colloquial Arabic? Hell yeah.

I'm eligible for first 3-months in MI. Dunno if i wanna go. Like malas a bit. See first ah. Applications ends this Friday. Natasha's asking me to go. See first la k? Don't wanna make a mistake of another 3 months of torture. *shudders*

*dances around like some mad lunatic* O LEVELS ARE OVER.I was screaming out of the hall. You know what? Sometimes I wonder if my school still has guys. Haha. Serious, usually who carries the heavy furniture after a paper? Guys right? End up me and 3 other Sec 5 girls clean up. Aper saje tau. No offense eyy guys? *grins*

I'm supposed to go to the all new VivoCity today with my brother and gang. End up watching Casino Royale with Haliim. I was too bored at home and Fadhil was sick. Ah well. I haven't gone tau, so don't laugh at me ok? People were like, "You are SOO ketinggalan zaman." Yeah I know, so now what are you gonna do about it? Haha. Btw, don't watch the movie if you can't play poker. I learnt the hard way. The parkour part was cool. But other then that, nothing much. $7, half a box of popcorn, a finished big coke and 2 and a half hours later, I sort of regretted not watching Just Friends or smth. Haha.

I'm meeting my tutor for coffee at lunchtime tmr, finally after so long. Haha. I got delicious eclairs. Anyone? Haha.

It's a long post, gonna end it off. And btw, I just made myspace. Smth Phirkhan's been forcing me to do for ages. Haha. Haven't really got my way around, but somehow, someday, I WILL. Heh. Take care people. 3 months holiday? Bring it on!!

toodles~

2 papers have been taken care of; namely Malay Paper 1 and 2. Not gonna talk about it, so don't bother.

Graduation was here and passed 3 weeks ago. Gonna upload photos another day.

One week to O's. 7 days, 168 hours, 10080 minutes.

Amazingly, no thoughts of wasting life, slashing to see a flow of blood, or temptations to swallow uncountable number of pills. No wait, I take it back. Unsurprisingly, no thoughts of self-destruction. You've heard senarios where people jump from buildings, slash their wrists, eat ten thousand sleeping pills, (tad bit exaggerated) or jump from an MRT platform to their doom. Why? The topic of suicide has been breached by many, yet somehow many still don't understand the consequences. "Stress" they claim, or even "depression" due to the heartbreak of a loved one. I'm gonna quote Mdm.Mariamah on this one, "Don't let anyone mess up the inside of you" and hell do I agree with her. Don't tell me you were brought into this world to kill yourself? Goons man some people. Oh and here's a tip. Try commiting suicide without disrupting others. Why should we be affected when your life is being taken and not ours?

I'm still considering VI course. Not that it really matters to me, with Halim around, the unit is still going to be as corrupted as ever. I've passed on. Still, fun 3 years with that lame CCA. Hah.

I can't wait til end of O's. The 3 months of pure heaven. Fuh, so worth studying my ass off right now.

Oh, Selamat Hari Raya. Minal Aidin wal Fa'izin. Forgive my past mistakes and acts of stupidity. My course mouth and frequent blurts of harsh words to causing pain to some. Though I'm sure I haven't done anything worth traumatising for the rest of a person's life. Forgive me yeah?

I still love geylang. My inai is fading already. Eh, my cousin came up with a way to cheat during O's. For girls la this one. Write formulas or notes in the form of inai on the palm. But don't be stupid enough to show the examiner. Style eh? But I'm not gonna waste my time doing it. Later my current inai will look horribly disgusting.

Stupid banglas driving me up the wall. The seats under my block are getting a revamp, hence the loud sounds of drills VERY early in the morning to late evening. If I had a drill in my hands now I will drill holes in some heads and throw them into a fire, not that much will change anyway.

Heck, I'm not racist, sexist, agist, wadever -ist. Though the jews can erm, irritate a lil bit. But its how they're treating my fellow brothers and sisters back at home. Ahh, to hell with it.

To all my peeps taking O's with me: All the best man. The time you've been waiting for, or dreading, is finally here. Show the examiners what you are really made of. Do yourself proud and work for your dreams. We are soooo partying after O's. Either at prom, or somewhere else. Hah. Good Luck peeps.

Take care. toodles~

Yay. Finally a new template that doesn't require you to keep scrolling to look at photos. Took me so long to settle everything. Stupid skin. Anyhows. PPP(Post Prelim Programme),as Mariamah says it, is doing good so far, but leaving me with sleep deprevition. My eye-bags are gonna look like black-eyes soon. Dang.

I can't be bothered to update about my prelim results. So don't bother asking.

Ramadhan was here more than 10 days ago. Gonna use this holy month and make use of it while I can. InsyaAllah.

I'm graduating from school next week. So fast, 4 years have gone by. Seems like it was just yesterday I first stepped into Pasir Ris Sec. So much has happened in 4 years, I probably won't be the person I am today without the school. Tons of memories, be it good or bad. I hope I have somehow left an impression in the school. Cheh. *grins*

But hey, if it wasn't for the countless camps, courses and classes I attended, I won't be standing here, typing memoirs of a school I used to despise with every fibre of my body. Its true, I mean come on, don't tell me you loved every single second in school. From my innocent and decent face in Sec 1 to a minah look-alike in Sec 2 to class chairman in Sec 3 and finally a laid-back me with metal pieces stuck in my mouth in Sec 4. I've some a long way, and the icing on the cake is good grades for O's which are less than 20 days away.

I have be jumping around school doing this and that, this and that, my CCA (even though still stereotyped as lame (EVEN THOUGH WE ARE SOUGHT FIRST IN AN EMERGENCY)brought me somewhere other CCAs wouldn't. In what sense? I won't say, some might find it intimidating, some may find it lame. So yeah.

Not forgetting the countless number of people I met here. So many people from so many different backgrounds exposed me to so many things I should be grateful for. And thanks for that =) There will be some friendships I will bring forward to my new life after secondary school. Some, are just best left unsaid.

Teachers have done so much to mould me as I am today. Mdm Lim with the most impact. Haha. God. Mr.Said has done a lot to pull my maths up from a fail to a distinction. Mrs.Sum taught me that temper is your worst tool at solving situations. Ms Wong is so ever supportive, even though some may think she isn't a good teacher, she is a really nice person nevertheless. Miss Jiang and her powerpoint slides made me copy notes faster. Ms.Chia keeps her promises, and that I really respect. Mdm.Mariamah and her talks on life, got me thinking real good about something that has bothered me for ages. Cikgu Sharmila, she can be really fun at times, I have to give her that. And she is so patient with some of us in malay.

I am thankful for where the school has brought me. I don't think I would be where I am if it wasn't the way the school brought me up. Like people say, "the school is your second home" and where else to learn lessons on life at such at a place that you spend half your life in?

I have a feeling the graduation ceremony next friday will be heart-wrenching. Not just for me but everyone. Then again, who doesn't cry during graduation?

Take care people. This may be my last post til after O's which is on November 20th. Please pray for me. InsyaAllah I make it to my instituition of choice. toodles~

PRELIMS ARE OVER. No more sleepless nights trying to remember that electric current is equal to charge over time. Woooh. No more late-night prepping. Or rather home-made hot chocolate. On second thought it doesn't sound so bad. Haha. Erm, a lot of things have happened lately, since I sort of last updated (glances at Fie). So yeah, be prepared for a long post people.

August 31st. Teacher's Day Celebration. GOD THIS IS SO ZAMAN MANER. I'll just put pics up. It'll do the talking for me.







Holidays came. Time to clear my mind before prelims. But heck, it was packed like nuts.

4th Sept. Went so SP with Naqiah. Bumped into super-hot Duncan. Haha. The "tour" if that is what you wanna call that, wasn't much of an eye openner. Sad. The course I was interested in; Media and Communication or Tourism And Resort, didn't help much. The lecturer of the former kinda freaked me out. There was nothing for latter. Sad. Ah well. There's always JC.

Sept 5th. Khyrul's Birthday. Had DnT lesson at 9am. Came to school, Hazmi hasn't even arrived. Basket. Haha. Afterwards I rushed to Downtown East to watch my girls compete in the Pesta Sukan 2006. Style the tempat. D'Marquee? Dunno la. But it was huge, air-conditioned with a cool disco ball. Haha.

PS. My girls championed the Under-19 Category. So proud of them, haha.

6th Sept. Farahyn's Birthday. My twin sis turned 16 today. Hah. Had my madrasah workshop today. It was planned in 2 weeks, and turned out so super cool. I loved the performances. My cousin from the dead-Parking Lot Pimp came with his elec-acoustic and played a couple of songs. So style seh. Hah. I was so completely moved. Left with a thing plastered at the back of my head.

7th Sept. BATAM!! Yet again, I leave photos to do the talking.




Girls in the bathroom at Harbourfront.



It is SO what you think it is. I saw it first ok. Hah.
(Dick-shaped bottle openers, in case some of you are having difficulty there)



The complete mess at my table. We had to fight for our food ok. If you ask to pass, all you see is an empty plate. Hah. But it was super good ah the food. Haha


I had loads of fun at Batam. Cam-whoring and such. I had to rush home coz Nisfu Sya'ban.

After that, nothing much memoriable during my holidays.

School openned on the 11th of Sept. The papers were full of pages reminizing the event 5 years ago. So fast dah 5 years. Time flies man. Seems just like yesterday I was watching WTC collapse live on TV. And Osama. Don't get me started.

12th Sept til today, I had my dreaded prelims. So some most papers were do-able. Alhamdullilah. So now all I'm praying for is good results and a possible DSA.

Ohoh. 20th Sept. Zahh's Birthday. I watched The Host with Ray, Mima, Jan Rick and Solyh at Princess after the paper. That was yesterday. We had the whole cinema to ourselves and you know what's the best part? We were screaming like lunatics, at a thriller. Hahahaha. Damn stupid seh. So kecoh, but super fun. Ray spoilt the tension by telling me what happened to the father. Haha. But still. Despite the Hollywood-ish beginning (Dumping chemicals into the sea and some suicide person turning to some huge man-eating monster??) and the climax (some chemical cloud can make the creature writhe in agony and all the human man had to do was walk in to retrieve the child, Like hello?), I got shocked a couple of times ah. Kudos to that. Haha.

Today I went to Mac at TM with Ray and Jan Rick. Finally got my sausage mcmuffin with egg. I made it before puasa! Haha. Went to the library after that. Met twin sis soon after, turns out she and Jan Rick were primary school friends. Haha. What a small world. Twin came over for a bit afterwards.

Oh. And you guys know what? I'm wearing a yellow polo shirt someone gave me as a present a few years back. What does that have to do with anything? Read my tagboard. I'm lazy to refurbish details here.

I've kept my cool. I'll keep my neutral look. Don't like it, done. You wanna settle, settle. I'm ok with anything.

I'm done. The tide has receded, the tsunami is on it's way.
toodles~

Prelims have started.

Mass POP was a nightmare. So many cock-ups sia. And I ter-pekik Sir instead of Ma'am. I wasn't gonna salute properly to Melinda coz I hate her for not including floorball in my CCA testimonial. She looked horrible anyway. Hahahaha. Anyhows, NCC Boys went nuts. Not gonna say much. I got wet coz I hugged some people. Haha. Blah blah.

That night. Went to watch Khabi Alvida Naa Kehna. It is like so the very cantik. Haha. It got me laughing all the way. But a classic hindustan movie isn't complete without.. without.. fine. I cried ok? Haha. A sober lonely tear. THE FATHER DIED LAAA. Forgive me. It's not Farah you people know. It's my alter ego. *grins* But still. The songs were addictive. The storyline was believable. It rocked ok? 4.5 stars. Hahaa. AND. AND. AND. ARJUN RAMPAL IS SO SUPER DROP DEAD GORGEOUS. *pssst. spread the word k?* hahaha. No. I'm serious. Handsome rabak bleh mati dari kepanasan type of hot. *grins*

Saturday stayed at home. Studied ah. At night went to my madrasah meeting. I'm gonna do a duet with my twin sis. Woohoo. In a tudung. Ah kauu. Hahahahaha. And The both of us are in charge of the souviniers. however you spell that. haha.

Going to the club. Yet another day burnt doing nothing. I have to improve my pool skills. I still suck. Haha. toodles~

I'm bored. My brother and cousins are playing WORMS next to me, I cant be bothered to study coz I did my part yesterday and I'm gonna do this thing that Syam did. Kinda funny ah. Hah.

- 10 Favorites
Favorite Color: Black, Red, White.
Favorite Food: Spaghetti in Pesto Sauce.
Favorite Song: Ntah. Too many.
Favorite Movie: Star Wars!!
Favorite Sport: Floorball.
Favorite Season: Autumn.
Favourite Day Of the Week: Saturday.
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Sticky Chewy Chocolate.

- 9 Current
Current Mood: Bored
Current Taste: Nasi Tomato my granmum just cooked that's stuck on my braces
Current Clothes: Jeans and T-shirt
Current Desktop: Fernando Torres *grins*
Current Toenail Color: It's not painted.
Current Time: 3.21pm
Current Surroundings: Air. My brothers and cousins.
Current Annoyance(s): Constant screams from my brothers and cousins.
Current Thought: Contemplating whether to bite their heads off? Prelims, O's and where to go after.

- 8 Firsts
First Best Friend: Hazim I think
First Performance: Nursery. I was a cloud. Haha.
First Movie: Can't remember.
First Piercing: Sec 1. Both ears
First Lie: Can't remember. But the consequences? Hell yeah.
First Music: Nursery rhymes and those Nasyid2 my mum used to play last time
First Car: uhhhh. Lada? hahaha

- 7 Lasts
Last Drink: Plain Water
Last Car Ride: Just now otw to my grandparent's
Last Embarassing moment: Dancing like a techno geek to some stupid music in the middle of town. Haha
Last Movie Seen: My Super Ex-Girlfriend.
Last Phone Call: talking now.
Last CD Played: U2 - Vertigo while I was helping out in the kitchen. hah

- 6 Have You Evers
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: Nope.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: Jaywalking and littering.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: Nope.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope.
Have You Ever Been on TV: Klik! They interviewed on floorball. Ok. They told me wad to say. I was 10 la.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: Erm. at weddings. haha. the old ladies. *shudders*

- 5 things you're wearing.
1. Jeans
2. T- Shirt
3. some sepit on my head
4. nth else..
5.

- 4 things you've done today.
1. Read the papers.
2. cooked. haha
3. mandi
4. makan


- 3 things you can hear right now.
1. my stupid brother telling me to hurry up
2. my cousins screaming in pain
3. my voice telling them to shuddup.

- 2 things you can't live without.
1. music. haha
2. food. i live to eat. *grins*

1 thing you do when you're bored.
1. erm. i dunno. blog?

the 5 ppl ehh.
yu ye. hasfi. nisa. the rest pandai2 eh.

So yeah. haha. Merepek ahhh. I have a dentist appointment tmr. I'm gonna kick someones puny butt soon. Argh. Stupid siblings-cousin gatherings. If they're hot, its ok tau. THESE IDIOTS ARE HALF MY AGE. God.

National Day Celebrations in sch on 8th Aug.

Flag-bearer was fine. I missed the maju part. Dang. Hope no one noticed. Other than that, it was quite smooth. No upside-down flag. No forgotten lines by the PC. I loved the salute part. All 3 UG reps in 1 squad saluting the national flag. Honourable moments.

Before the performance. Instead of stage-fright, we were all cam-whoring. Hah. Dance studio have full length mirrors, make use of it la. More photos la, but dun wanna put. Too many.


























All the others were after the performance. A few said it was good. Thanks a LOT!! The applause was music to my ears. *grins widely* I still can't get over the stupid wig I wore, more famous as the 'sheep-on-my-head'. The Racial Riot part was fun. Me and Lyh fighting. The others were faking. Me ang Lyh weren't. Hah. I'm proud of that ok? Allow me some space to gloat. Anyhows, the finale, all the other performances came up and we dance on stage as one. After the curtain closed we went crazy back stage. Throwing our costumes, wrestling each other, kekek laa.


















After the performace, I went in search of, erm. I dunno. I was wondering la. So we came across all sorts of ppl. The 4e4 ppl took photo with Mr.Ow. Hah. All 15 of us. Then, with Mr.Lau. Ms.Cheng too. Cam-whore, cam-whore. Took photo with 4e5 peeps. Guys like Solyh, Dek and Khy looking gay as usual. Fun laaa.

Take care people. toodles~

Everyone's blog is dead. PRELIMS ARE IN LESS THAN A MONTH!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm so not ready. I'm afraid I'll flunk!! Ah.ah.ah.ah.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I'm freaking out.

WHERE'S MY HOT CHOCOLATE?

Excuse me while I calm myself down.



Did my maths common test in sch just now. Excerpts from the June paper. Quite manageable ahh. CARELESS MISTAKES APLENTY. damn my stupid cursed brain. I didn't get the cosine part for one of the questions. PANTAT LAAA. Half an hour to complete like 10 questions?! ahhhhhhhhh. Even a teenage prodigy couldn't do that. Ok. That's exaggerated. But still, you folks get the point.

I need to improve my rhythm for my O'level English Orals next week. NOW YOU SEE WHY I'M PANICKING?! Sheesh. So fast sia. ARGH

I'm going. Going. *poof*

oh. and amira walked around school today like a pregnant woman. hahaha. cute lah u babes. toodles~

Photos from last Friday's gathering. Click to enlarge.
Enjoy~














PRSS 4E4 '06






Me and Ray snapping photos all the way. Heeeeee.

<3 4E4'06


Ohoh. Hasfi turns 16 today. Happy Birthday!!
toodles~

Stupid laa. Freaking internet. Dah update pas tu mati sak. PANTAT

Class CIP cum gathering. Me and Ray came late, sumer dah disperse. We didnt have a trash bag ah so we sibuk2 campak kat beg orang. Then we lepak kat bawah pokok talking about life. Haha, pasrah beb. Then at 4.30 we went back to base, and got our class t-shirt. Green. Lime green. Quite nice ah. Could have gotten cheaper but, ah well. We switched base and went to the open field near the carpark.

Start ah. Main bola sumer. I assisted in one of the goals ok. Ah kau. Hahaha. Chinese, malay, guys and girls alike. Kecoh nak mampos. I tripped Anisah twice. Hahah. Monkey pun kiter main. I kener bully sak. "PELI!!!" siak tol. Rugby pun ader. Mr.Said main tergolek2 sak. Rabak aku ketawerkan. Hah. Ms.Chia was sporting seh that day. Fuh. Fun la my class. I ate the satay mcm cannibal. Stupid stupid braces. Arghh. Terpatah2 the stick. We stayed til about 6 . Then me and a few others gi mandi laut. Singing old OLD songs from backstreet boys to Pearl Jam. Fun laa. We managed to pull Hasfi in. Haha. Basah kuyop ah aper lagi. And he didn't bring change. Hahahaha. After that we went to mandi. Dek wanted to go to mac. Hah. Penat gilurr sak. I got my mum to pick me up at 8.30. Slamat aku. Hah.

Seriously ah. I always loved the class. We never really showed that we are united in school, but hell do we know how to have fun. Seriously ah. Now I know I'm gonna miss the class like shit sia when I graduate. *sighs* We should have fun while we're still together I guess. I really want another class gathering ah. Damn gerek like nuts. We'll do more and more stupid things.

Photos are up. Msg me of you want them. toodles people~

Before I begin, I wanna apologize.

Apologies for not updating. I've been busy with banding everyday. Plus DnT is taking is toll on me. At least now I don't have that much to do. Insyallah by saturday I can finish.

Been going thru a rough patch lately. I don't really want to talk about it. Friends, family, guys, the only thing that can make it worse is death I suppose. Don't worry. Thoughts of suicide don't enter my mind. I'm depressed yes, but not suicidal.

Natinal Day Musical is due in 2 weeks. I hope we get everything settled asap. I don't want the work to be slipshot, embarrass the graduating classes. I'm gonna wear a skirt , blouse and high-heels on stage. Beat that. I am after all a British personnel or so you say. AND gonna have to dance in heels. I just hope I don't sprain my ankle or fall or smth.

I'm off now. Take care people.
toodles~

Inducement: Compelling and oppressive influence.
In other words, Pressure.

Hell no, Im not talking about peer pressure. Maybe a lil bit. But seriously. How many of you give in to irritating friends pestering you to tell them a secret? And trust me, it's smth you don't want the whole school to know. So how would you feel? Well, I lost my cool. After much bag-tagging, nudging, and hair-pulling. There is so much I can take, but when you cross the line, sorry man. I didn't exactly lose my temper, I just got completely touchy. I mean, you don't want to tell and yet people try weedling it out of you hoping in vain to learn smth you don't want them to know. I mean seriously, where's the respect la? Such a thing as dropping and continuing another topic right? Some people ah. I feel completely pissed. And to top it all off, that person called me a petty slut. What happened to the times where people actually spoke politely? I did not curse, nor diss. Only when I got touchy did they come flowing out. I can't help it. If I don't intend to tell someone something, no matter what you do, I won't tell. I'm like that okayy. Conservative it may be, I like my privacy being respected. Not overruled as if it's nothing. If it offends you then I'm really sorry. If people can live without needing to know smth about me, I don't see why you can't either.

I'm not publisizing for sympathy votes. This is after all a blog. Mine, in which I may emphasize. So by telling me to get a life, how does that solve the problem? I WAS content til you came and turn things around. Oh and please, accept the blame if you must. No point twisting and turning and making it sound as if I am the one to blame. I didn't want to tell you, so be it. Accept it and get on with life ok. It doesn't kill you if you don't know what it is right? If you want a lil gossip here and there, I've told so much. But private matters are reserved to a certain few whom I trust. Not to any person who can backstab me the second I tell him/her. I mean come on la, fighting over this is so immature. From smth so small, it balloons into smth so big. Now if I go to school tmr and I get stares, I'll know who to look for.

You people must take a breather, and understand the state I am in.

You know how much I hate the French right? Well, I'm happy with the fact that they lost to Italy in the Finals, leaving the land of pasta to lift the solid gold prize. Yeah, I am so overjoyed. But the thing is, halfway thru while I was watching, the head-butt Zidane gave Materazzi really shocked me. You know right, all the more I should hate the French. But for a 34 year old man to head-butt a person on the chest during the GRAND FINALS, wow, he must be really asking for it la. Materazzi must have said smth reeeeeeeeeeally bad to cause Zidane to 'attack' him. Freaky. So Zidane got red card-ed and sent off to the dressing room. Penalty, I was sure Italy was gonna win. Such a shame Henry got so groggy. With Zidane and Henry out, what hope is left for France? I thought to myself. So true enough, Italy won. But somehow, I wasn't jumping up and down like when Materazzi scored the equaliser. I was slumped on the sofa, aghast and taken-aback. I mean, hello. I'm supposed to hate France and hence be happy they lost? And the fact that this is Zidance last match makes things worse. Wad a farewell man. I mean, yeah, he left a mark, but wad kind of mark seh, Red Card during the finals? I'm not dissing Zidane nor Materazzi. It's just so confusing you know. I hate France, yet somehow I am so kesian when I look at them, especially Zidane. At least now he has the Golden Ball award to bring home. Ah well. Such things football does to you.

And I cabut school today. Wheeee. Not my idea. Haha. According to some people, a lot of absentees today. Ah well. I missed the voting. Thank God. I don't think I'll even vote la. Shazlin, Danial and some other person. Sorry mann. Saves me from voting for someone I don't even know. Syam said Mdm Cheng did rounds to check if there were a lot of absentees. According to him, many came, according to others, many cabut. So yeah. Wadever. If anyone asks, I've got the fever and flu k? Thank youuu.

Oh, and one more thing. Phillip Lahm is HOT. So is Andrea Pirlo. And Cesc Fabregas. Not forgetting Fernando Torres. David Villa muker nakal sikit. Steven Gerrard quite okayy also la. But hey, God blessed them with good looks and good legs. And DON'T you DARE say I don't know the offside rule. Sheesh. Dah la. Later mcm Faris and Khy's blog. I'm just stating what I'm thinking. If you don't like it, my apologies then.

Well, Congrats to Italy then. France, better luck next time. The World Cup 2006 Germany has come to an end. So that's one thing off my mind. Now National Day Celebrations Committee. I really can't wait for O's to end, seriously.

toodles~

2nd week of school is over. Wad fun.

Now, I havent updated in so long. BUT DON'T BLAME ME. Blame the freaking school. Blame them for having banding sessions EVERYDAY after school except on Friday. Blame them for me coming home at 6 everyday. Blame them. Not me. Sheesh.

So drama sia. Hahahaha.

Nothing much to talk about. Oh. Remember the canteen vendor mak cik? Our class alone raised $561. I was so touched sia. Awwwww. I really really love my class. And to think that we'll go our seperate ways after O' Levels in about 4 months. Life's like that.

I've been thinking a lot lately about the future. After O' Levels, 5 years from now, marraiges (hah!) and whatnot. It's kinda freaking me out ah. *sighs* I wonder if people will still keep in touch and probably have a reunion or smth.

Khabir's birthday flew by recently. Hah.

Been going home a.s.a.p lately. Must study ah. If I don't, I feel guilty. No, serious. I'm not sucking-up or anything. It's irritating at times. Ah well. Sometimes the trip home can be used as alone time. Hah. I'm talking crap.

I don't know what else to type about. I'm going to the NDP combined rehersal tmr with Natasha. Thank you Naqeah for the tix! *grins* My dad warns me of the low level fireworks. "Don't pin your hair up too high, later terbakar." No goodie bags. Better for me. I can't stand the designs of the funpacks or whatever name you call that goodie bag. It's not really erm how do you say it, nice? I mean, you wear it once, then it collects dust in the cupboard. Would you even think of carrying that bag to town or smth? No right? See. But hey, recieving things is always fun. *grins*

I'm reading malay story books. *gasp* I know. And it's those primary school books you know with the big prints and everything. If it wasn't cerite seram, I don't even think I'll touch it. I'm desprate to AT LEAST get a B for malay. The things people do. *sighs*

I need perking up. As in, smth to get me going. Blah, I don't even know wad I'm talking about. Kan Farah sewel. *glares at dheel*

Wadeveeeeeeeeeeer. Take care people. Study tau for exam. Later you regret. Maner tahu 10 years from now you'll be thinking "Why didn't I suffer then and enjoy now??" Think about it. toodles~

I hate France. End of Story. Don't pester me about Henry. Don't talk to me about the balding Zizou. Ok? Fullstop.

Photo-taking tmr. And to think I had so much time to look at the mirror and plan how to pose last time. Sheesh.

Ahhhh. My dad's coming home from LA tmr. Miss him soooooo much.

toodles people~
take care.

What's the definition of a back-stabber?

To attack (someone) unfairly, especially in an underhand, deceitful manner

Whatever lah eh. I can't be bothered anymore. Picking fights? Pleeeeeeeeeeeease. So primary school. Ah well. toodles~

School's open. Wad fun. I reeeeeeeeeally hope at least you can somehow sense the irony in it. Ok. Shuddup. I'm talking to Khabir about NC-16 movies. About how many we dapat lepas and everything. So I got thru Da Vinci Code. Big deal. May I note it's the only one I've been thru. I hear sniggers. Shuddup la. It's a big thing for me ok. Just cause my birthday is like the LAST day of the year. Sheesh.

Somehow these days I have had so many things to swallow. One incident is one of the canteen vendors. She got hit by a stroke during the holidays while we were all enjoying ourselves. She resulted in 100% memory loss, 100% lost of eyesight and the right side of the body is paralyzed. Cause of her job, she doesn't have CPF, which means no medisave. And to top it all off, she's 50, single, only child of a 70-year-old wheelchair-bound mother, and the sole breadwinner of the family. I mean, it couldn't get any worse than this ah. This was quite hard for me to handle at first. Since sec 1, this makcik always smile and tanyer khabar and stuff. SEDIH MANN. Sch asking for donations to help the makcik. I still dunno how much to give. Our class is so sympathetic. I saw a couple of red notes in Mira's hands. Awww. Hai. If anyone wants to visit her, she's at CGH ward 29 bed 27. Til when? I don't know.

Other than that, detention on the 1st day for skipping the motivational talk during the study camp. Stupid sia. Pantat cramp. Then discuss here and there. Damn freaking hot day.

Spain got kicked out laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Fuck man. Bye bye Torres. Hah. Now eyes are on Brazil again. Sheesh.

Dah lah. I wanna tido. Long weekend to look forward to. Who wants to watch repeat telecast of World Cup Grand Finals in sch? I'm thinking of asking Ms.cheng if we can cabot class a while and watch. School bonding wadd. Hah. Or, come to school slightly later. How? anything just hit me lah k?

toodles people~

The School Band's Vi Vala Musica IV was good I have to admit. Met the bunch at Tampines Int and all of us went to Victoria's Concert Hall by MRT. We were quite early so we hung around outside before going in. Heidi should change her wardrobe man. Isn't that the same skirt she wore on Speech Day? I can't remember where but I'm sure I've seen that skirt on her somewhere. During intermission I met Farah Kosnan's Mum, the Malay Dancers and some band people. We were contemplating whether to cabot the concert and go makan. But if we cabot, we waste our money so we stayed. Funny lah the concert. Faris hilang suare and everything. The green clarinet? Hah. The concert ennded around 9.20pm. We went merayap after that along with Fad. Lepak kat esplanade taking so many photos. Here's one.





I got into a whole lot of shit with my mum. Heck lah. We left esplanade around 11, on the way to the MRT take somemore photos. Cam-whore lah we all. Mcm2 style kiter amek. So yeah. The guys wanted to lepak more. Can't decide where. End up all go home. Hah. Syam took North-South Line coz he stays in Woodlands. Wan got off at Bedok. Adilin at Simei. The bulk, including Fad, Zaim, Sidek, Khabir, Hasfi got off at Tampines. The remaining few including me, Syamim, Nikmat and Faris alighting at Pasir Ris. The gundu me thought we alighted at the wrong stop. Bodo sia. I almost ran back inside the train. Wadever lah. Hah. Nikmat eh, orang sumer dah split up maseh nak lepak sia. Terok lah. Hah. I reached home almost midnight.

I expected trashing or wadever, instead my mum rushed to open the door and threw the key at me asking me to lock it and sprinted back to the TV room watching Saudi Arabia lose against Spain. Happy ah abeh. Play along, all I got was a warning. Hahaha. Slept around 1.30 msging Im. People kept asking me to e-mail the photos. Hah.

Woke up the next morning at 11. Went on the com to e-mail the pics to everyone. I had to resize everything coz the original was too big a file for friendster to accept. Yada3 photos settled. Spent the rest of the afternoon finishing holiday homework.

At night my fam went to the airport for dinner. Jakon tau we makan at Fish & Co. Sotong sedap tau. The Prawn and Chilli Cream Fetuccini was delish. The ambience all best ahh. Then as usual my fam buat klaka. My youngest bro getting stares coz of his disgusting burps and me as usual as a klutz. Funny lahh. And to make things sweeter, we went to Swensen's for dessert. Kenyang gilurr sehh. Fuyooo. Sticky Chewy Chocolate my fave. Heh. Reach home around midnight slept at 2.

OMG. As I was eating dinner, I saw this woman wearing a skin tight t-shirt over jeans. The t-shirt was just long enough to cover her tummy if her hands are down. Her babat peeked out from beneath her baju siaaa. Burok gilurr. *shudders* Naseb baik dah bes makan. Kalau tak lost appitite sak.

I'm going to my grandparent's place soon. Dek and Im ajak buat hw. I finished all of mine ready yesterday. Haha.

School starts tmr!! Got to buck up. Damn timings man! Tonight is England vs Ecuador at 11. Stupid lahh. Blah. wadever.

Holidays are over. Had fun while it lasted, I guess. toodles~

Ahh. Finally.

Went to lepak at town after the english seminar on Thursday morning. Met Zahh. After sooooo long. Makan at Far East Plaza. Searched for my bag. And guess WHAT. NO MORE STOCK!! ARGHHHHHHHHH. Stupid bloody shop freaking grrrrr.... Tons of Neoprints. Haha. Jakon lah we. Then go Starbucks chill. Some guy gave us an upsize free. Hahah. Naseb kiter lah ehh. Some nyonya was taking up like 8 seats ALONE. Bloody ass. Me and Zahh kener squeeze at a table for 4. Such irony. Split up after that, and I went to meet my parents. Go merayap at some ulu place. Go home, watch bola. Tido

Had training Friday night. Well, not for me lah, but I sibuk2 datang. And the best part was, I found out it was Div 2 BOYS training halfway thru. So me and my friend came, only to find out we were the only 2 girls there. I felt so left out siaa. Hahahaha.

Lamer tak post psl floorball. Haha. And people used to complain I talk too much about floorball. Alah. Diam ah. My blog. Plus, this is like the 1st post about floorball in months. Ok. Shuddup.

Match, I scored a goal. *grins* Cantik plak tu. From the right wing masok top left hand corner. See. I haven't lost my touch. But hell did my stamina suffer. Penat sia. Ah well. I don't think I'll participate in Pesta Sukan. If the league tak boleh, lagi2 pesta sukan. Blahhh.

Reached home in time to watch the 2nd half of Argentina vs Serbia and Montenegro. Shok sendiri sia alone at home. Hahaha. Biggest goal difference so far in the finals. A gasping 6-0. Ok.

Saturday blaja ah. Boring sia. At night some of my parents friends came over, makan Steak kauuu. Best. Haha. Then watch Portugal vs Iran. Christiano Ronaldo is SO over-rated. I mean okayy lah. His tricks and all were quite good, but he's definately NOT HOT. Sheesh. He looks like an ostrich lah with his long neck. His penalty was nice though I have to admit.

Todayy. Hmm. My mum left for Nanjing in China. Maybe, MAYBE will see the peeps there otw home. Hey, you'd never know.

I realised how slothful people can be. Ah well. Holiday homework tinggal sikit!! Woooh...

Take care people. Brazil is gonna win the World Cup again. But Fernando Torres is still the hottest lah. Here, some eye-candy too oogle at. But take heed. He's MINE.

Blog: Online Diary,

Diary: A place to pen personal thoughts, feelings. A place to vent too.

Ah. But this blog has nothing personal to it.
I'm a self-contradicting whore.

STUPID HEADACHE!!

I'm back people. Well, I got back on Monday ah to be precise. at 1am. Stupid jam. Got stuck for 3 hours sia. Freakish system. Come, listen to my tale.

Monday
Left home for Kuantan. Reached there quite late ah actually. Nothing much happened there, Slept mostly. Hah.

Tuesday
Left for Club Med, Cherating. Arrived around 5.30. The place is freaking gorgeous ah sia. A desolate blue ocean, white sandy beaches. Fuyoo. I tried the trapeze. Cool right? Macam circus sak tempat tu. I managed to hang on my knees. Haha. By then, it was dinner. Ah. Ok. You know how big our school hall is right? The buffet area is that big. And the cuisines include Chinese, Japanese, Indian, Italian, Korean, Local, Western, endless ah serious. Kenyang gilurr sak makan. Watched an impersonation on Janet Jackson after that. One of them had a bulging tummy and she wore a baby tee. EWWW.

Wednesday
Had breakfast, same huge buffet. Went to join this teens club thing with my brother. Anyhows, we did golf,archery, bola *grins*, rockwall, bungee. Then we went to the beach and played beach volleyball til our arms turned red. Went sailing too. And kayakking. Damn gerek like hell. SO MANY FREAKING HOT BODS OVER THERE!!! ALL THE ANGMOHS AND SIX-PACKS AND MUSCLES AND EEEEEHH. Went back to our rooms to change after that, and met up again. Played uno by the beach around sunset. Damn cantik sia. Went for dinner, all 10 of us. Came up with a concoction of soft drinks, kicap, rambutan and chocolate ice-cream. Everyone had to drink it. Hah. Then suddenly, this official sat at our table, and complained that we were wasting food. Haha. All of us cabut, except one slenger guy. Hah. There was a tennis comedy that night, damn funny. One skit had one guy using ladles as a racket. Funny sia. Hah.


Thursday
Many people were leaving. Sad goodbyes here and there. Didn't do much. Played table tennis, heart attack. Went for lunch at another restaurant. The amazing thing was the monkeys. One monkey peed on someone while shee was eating. Hahaha. So kecoh sia.

They had some form of Asian theme night. I met a guy who is 6'7". That's equivalent to 2.01m!! Just to prove you guys.



Hot right? Hahahaha.

I got my name written in Japanese, an arm massage, did the blow pipe thing, and saw a lion dance troupe. Ok. So I've seen them everywhere, but this one was nerve wrecking. Hah. Out of the whole jumping up and down on metal rods thing, only one person fell. Hah. Met a French guy. Hah. His accent was so sexy. Hah. It was damn fun ah that night. Played truth or dare. Hah. Fun sia that one. Slept.

Friday
Breakfast with my bros. Played tennis, and me and another girl went sun-tanning. Damn hot sia. Hah. Went back to my room, packed. Said my goodbyes, and good bye Club Med, Cherating. Headed for KL. Stayed the night at Saujana. Slept.

Saturday
Went for breakfast. Then my fam had a wedding. After the wedding, we went to my parents old friends house for a BBQ. They roasted a whole lamb sia. My youngest brother said it looked like a frog. Ah well. Slept around 1.

Sunday
Happy Birthday Fadhil!! Hahaha. Went to 1 Utama. Shopping uh aper lagi. Left KL for home around 5+. Got stuck in a jam at causeway. Reached home at 1. Tido.

So yeah.
Last 2 days been going to school non-stop for DnT. Penat sia. My knee gave way last night. Togo lost against Korea! Sedih siaa. Haha.

I have English seminar tmr. Then it's towning all the way.

Ok. Wanna do my hw now. toodles people~

To the bitches out there.
This song is dedicated to you.

Eagles- Get Over It



I turn on the tube and what do I see
A whole lotta people cryin' 'Don't blame me'
They point their crooked little fingers at everybody else
Spend all their time feelin' sorry for themselves
Victim of this, victim of that
Your momma's too thin; your daddy's too fat

Get over it
Get over it
All this whinin' and cryin' and pitchin' a fit
Get over it, get over it

You say you haven't been the same since you had your little crash
But you might feel better if I gave you some cash
The more I think about it, Old Billy was right
Let's kill all the lawyers, kill 'em tonight
You don't want to work, you want to live like a king
But the big, bad world doesn't owe you a thing

Get over it
Get over it
If you don't want to play, then you might as well split
Get over it, Get over it

It's like going to confession every time I hear you speak
You're makin' the most of your losin' streak
Some call it sick, but I call it weak

You drag it around like a ball and chain
You wallow in the guilt; you wallow in the pain
You wave it like a flag, you wear it like a crown
Got your mind in the gutter, bringin' everybody down
Complain about the present and blame it on the past
I'd like to find your inner child and kick its little ass

Get over it
Get over it
All this bitchin' and moanin' and pitchin' a fit
Get over it, get over it

Get over it
Get over it
It's gotta stop sometime, so why don't you quit
Get over it, get over it

Haaaa. So oldies. My dad was clearing up the CDs, then we popped this one in and started screaming and dancing around. Haha. Ah well. Brings back old memories singing this song in the car years ago. Haha. I love thier guitar solos mann. Gonna upload some songs soon. If I have the time that is. Hahaha.

Got a new amplifier today. For the TV lahh. Hah. Now the speakers are a bit of a problem. It's kinda old ah so yeah. But other than that, it freaking rocks like nuts. Hah. I tell youu. Bukak lagu rock, gelek, pape ah. fuyooooooo, best . Haha. Seriouslyy. Then me and my dad play ah. Ok fine, blasted. Eagles, Sean Paul, *cough* Shakira, Micheal Buble. All these my dad eh. Hah. I think he played Pussycat Dolls too. Hah. Cute lahh. Then we lazed around watching the Eagles video til my mum came home. I love my fam. Haha.

1 week of the hols have passed. Fast right? The stupid study camp was bloody pathetic. Waste my time in school. Teachers couldn't care much, let alone us. The attention span of a squirrel. Hahaa, lame lahh. The only thing that entered my brain was maths, english, chem and phy. The "motivational talk". Dun get me started. Seriouslyy. Cabot the second one. Cannot tahan. Sheesh.

Finished 4 books in 5 days. Haha.

Ripped CDs. Found Def Leppard, Deep Purple, Alter Bridge and Nickleback. All fake. Duh. Hah. From Beijing. Good enough for me. Hah.

Other than that, nothing much. Going overseas soon, on Monday to be precise. Khy! I need my iPod back.

To those going to China. I won't be sure if I'll be here to see you guys off. But if I can't, I'm wishing you the safest trip ever. Have fun there seeing all the apeks *grins* and the nyonyas. Kirim salam the great wall for me too. Miss me ok? Haha. We'll meet up and lepak soon.

toodles people~

I just realised something.

It's been

1 year 9 months 11 days since I've been single.
4 months 20 days since I've had my braces.
2 months 12 days since we went swimming.
3 days since I last cut my hair.
2 days since I last watched a movie.


It will be

5 months 5 days to English 'O' Level paper.
5 months 17 days to finishing of 'O' Levels.


Surprising how fast time flies eh?

It's been 8 months since, as of tmr.

Happy Holidays people.

I got bored ok. Whoever wants this gambar, you can have it.

So.
Wooooooh. What fun today.

Ignored Mariamah during History lecture. Lepak at the back with Solyh, Ray, Yas, Fie and the lot. Kekek sia. Haha. Had Physics after that. Lepak again at the canteen. Peh mendak. Maths was enjoyable come to think of it. Finally my brain put to work. Ah well.

Cabut the Motivational Lecture. Broing sia the talk. Yesterday while the guy was talking about his past expiriences, I was peroccupying myself reading a book. Hah. So far, finished one book in one day. Kinda losing my momentum but hey, not gonna lose it man. 2 books down, 2 more to go.

Was at home the whole day. Read mostly. Hah. Met Natasha for a while, lepak at Loyang Point. My mum baked scones today for tea. Wooooooh. Best. Haha. Planning to do my homework. No mood ahh. Still haven't recovered from Mid Years. Hah.

The ULP situation I give up ah. Up to Yu Ye now. Did what I can, up to her to decide. Chairman pe. Hah.

Woooh. Someone is turing 16 tmr. *grins*.

I'm gonna go to the gym soon.
toodles people~

I was dead bored ah. Malay O's are in 2 days. Shit man. People keep saying good luck and stuff. Awwwww. Thanks. Haha.

Nothing much happened today. It rained for a while in the afternoon. But one surprsing thing was the fact that I woke up at 8am this morning. Kinda weird coz I usually take advantage of sleeping in on weekends. Yeah. But hey, and early start today mean I can relax more. Hah.

Don't wanna talk about my results. Later people keep comparing and shit. But I can say I did improve. Ok. That's it. Hah.

My June hols sound drastic. For a person who's graduating in 5 months, it's considerably packed. And the thought of working even crossed my mind. $ sake I guess. Hah.

The sec 4E/5N were supposed to have malay revision on friday after school. Waited, ad waited, and waited. Turns out ALL cikgus were busy with PTC. Blardy ass. Didn't even bother to tell us that class was cancelled. Ah well. What to do?

Conflicts: Fight, struggle, dispute.

EVERY single being on this earth must have gone thru such incidents yes? But now I can't be bothered anymore. I was just telling Malia that day, "kalau org tak cari pasal ngan aku, aku tak cari pasal ngan drg." Life will be easy won't it? How I'd wish some people think think this way instead of just accusations all the way. Sheesh.

I'm seriously dead bored ah. Can't wait til Malay O's and study camp is over. Relax for a bit before the full blast arrives. One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life. - Chinese Proverb.

Think about it.
toodles~

I was dead bored ah. Malay O's are in 2 days. Shit man. People keep saying good luck and stuff. Awwwww. Thanks. Haha.

Nothing much happened today. It rained for a while in the afternoon. But one surprsing thing was the fact that I woke up at 8am this morning. Kinda weird coz I usually take advantage of sleeping in on weekends. Yeah. But hey, and early start today mean I can relax more. Hah.

Don't wanna talk about my results. Later people keep comparing and shit. But I can say I did improve. Ok. That's it. Hah.

My June hols sound drastic. For a person who's graduating in 5 months, it's considerably packed. And the thought of working even crossed my mind. $ sake I guess. Hah.

The sec 4E/5N were supposed to have malay revision on friday after school. Waited, ad waited, and waited. Turns out ALL cikgus were busy with PTC. Blardy ass. Didn't even bother to tell us that class was cancelled. Ah well. What to do?

Conflicts: Fight, struggle, dispute.

EVERY single being on this earth must have gone thru such incidents yes? But now I can't be bothered anymore. I was just telling Malia that day, "kalau org tak cari pasal ngan aku, aku tak cari pasal ngan drg." Life will be easy won't it? How I'd wish some people think think this way instead of just accusations all the way. Sheesh.

I'm seriously dead bored ah. Can't wait til Malay O's and study camp is over. Relax for a bit before the full blast arrives. One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life. - Chinese Proverb.

Think about it.
toodles~

OMG. My school had another lunchtime concert this afternoon. I was only looking forward to Hafi and Syam's performance ah seriously speaking, and GOD were they GOOD. Peh sedapp. I mcm nak mintak encore mann. Fuyoo. But one thing that made me laugh was the fact that Hasfi's mic kept dropping. Hahaha. Had to bend down just so that his voice could be projected. Cute sehh. And Sofy's band did some lame song ah. I stayed for a while and left for my interview. Ah well.

Mr.Said met my mum today. They spoke for 1 hour 45 mins. Each slot is supposed to be for freaking 15 mins ok. I was like wow. Boy, do Mr Said and my mum talk a lot. Hah. Menceceh lah they all. My mum talk about going to VJ and stuff. OMG. Mr Said can speak a third language! Amazing sia. I wonder which language.. Ah well.
Went to eat Inspirasi Mee Soto with my mum after that. Best man, my skirt was getting tighter by the mouthful. Hah.

MALAY O LEVELS ARE IN 3 DAYS!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Dammit lahh. I'm so not prepared. The intensive revision was really crap ah. I can barely hear what Cikgu is saying due to some people who can't seem to shuddup ah. Darn. And the class size was too big. 2 Cikgus to 100 odd students. Haiyaa. I need to improve my malay siaa. Any tips?

I can't seem to keep my eyes open nowadays. Damn tired sia. By 10 to 11, I'm sleepy, compared to past midnight and around 1am a couple of weeks ago. Haiyaa. Sleep is getting more and more important. Sheesh.

Last day of school tmr. Not for the Sec 4E/5Ns that is. Study camp to look forward to. Dang. I hope it's worth wasting my holiday for ah. Haiyaa.

Mrs.Ranjit is leaving us on June 14th. Kinda sad ah. Knew her since sec 1 and stuff. Trust me fully mann. Such a waste to see her go. One of the few teachers that smile at me everyime they see me. Dang. First Mr.Poh, now Mrs.Ranjit. Is Ms.Cheng gonna teach the whole school herself by the end of the year? Gasak ah. Sheesh.

I'm gonna tido now. Kinda pointless for me to go to sch tmr again for 2 hours. Blah.
toodles~

I shall update about yesterday. Met Faris at the bustop at 10.30. Took 81 to Tamp Int to meet Syam and Zai. As Syam said in his blog, I joined the Xbox Cup only for the goodie bags. *grins*

So, took MRT to City Hall and walked to Funan. Registered, yada yada. My first opponent was Zai. *poof* haha. Unsurprisingly he beat me 2-0. But for a first-timer, not bad right?? haha. I stayed to watch the others play. Met so many people there from school. Hah. Some sec 5 people were there, and last year's batch. Dang funny sia. Faris 1st match was against Phirkhan. Lost by penalty 5-4. Hah. Muker concentrate gilurr. Hahaha. Then Zai's 2nd match against Shahril. Lost 3-1. Syam's 1st match against one sec 5 guy. Won 1-0. Lost to Phirkhan 3-1 I think. Hah. So yeah. Went to collect the goodie bags. *HUGE grins*

Got a towel, waterbottle, lanyard, bag, poster and a magazine. Not bad kan? BUT I WANT THE BOLA!!! So damn cantik siaa. No fair! Argh. K. Takpe.

Makan at LJS later. Freaked out by some ganas woman behind the counter. Freaky sia. Zai ordered 2 sets of 2 fish and fries, she shouted "How many sets?!" Sheesh. Sabar beb. Haha. And my food took so long to come. Dang. Ah well. Split with Syam at the MRT, and I alighted at Tanah Merah to go to my grandparent's house cause no one was home and I didn't have the key. Dang.

Oh, and I set myself a new record. Finished a book in 1hour 45min. Hah. And not it's not some P1 storybook mind you.

Went home, studied for Malay O's. It's like 8 days away lah. Stupid lahh.

I need to find a way to bust boredom. Seriously. I'm SICK of studying my ass off. Darn it.

I'm gonna watch Da Vinci Code. *grins* It's free man. Who doesn't wanna go? Haha.

Argh. I'm hungry. toodles people~

I bloody hell blew so much cash just now, I amazed myself.

EXAMS ARE OVER!!! I don't count LC as an exam, but an utter waste of time to get your ass in school for 30 mins, listen to some freak reading out something and go home. If it's so short, might as well have it on the same day and save us time right? Sheesh.

Haiyaa. Malay O'levels draw nearer. I'm shit scared man. Not that my malay is THAT good. If I flunk, no one will be surprised. Dang.

I'm so HOT. God. The weather is scalding. Sheesh.

Oh.. 4E5 had a VERY sad ending for their exams this year. Mr Poh is leaving them. Sad right? Well, people said he unites the class and stuff. He's like the most sporting teacher in the whole school lah. Donning a platinum wig and leather pants singing to Bon Jovi's It's My Life at last year's Teacher's Day celebration absolutely WOW-ed me. Now how many teacher's do that? The people were so red-eyed when they came down. So sad sia I looked at them. In a matter of 6 months, he has made such an impact on them. Even the guys were crying. Ok, not all, but still. Guys crying is really.. I dunno. You don't see guys crying when someone leaves them right? Haiyaa.

X Box Cup this Sat. Hope I really don't embarrass myself. Oh, for those who don't know, I'm gonna lose a game, get the adidas stuff and watch others pitifully attempt to win the Grand Prize of an all-expense paid trip to Berlin to watch the World Cup. (No offense Phirkhan *grins*)

I AM SO BLOODY HOT. Dang.

I'm so in love with Four Words To Choke Upon - Bullet For My Valentine. Random facts.

Are guys more vain than girls? Aha. Tag me peeps. toodles~

*Ok took this from somewhere... was so cute
[*the ones in bold r the true ones*]

01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart (in my own werld)
21. I've never broken someone's bone
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now!
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have [can I emphasize on this more??]
48. I think that I'm popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal
58. I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have/adopt children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work or school to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
89. I would die for my best friend
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I have cut my self before
100. I am happy at this moment

Have you ever had the feeling that something isn't right in your life? Your siblings take advantage of you, people don't co-operate with you, and all those kinda shit? Well. Think of it from a different perspective. Is there something wrong with these people, or is it actually you?

Think about it.


Psst: Starbucks here I come!

Wish me luck for exams people!

Oh, and I have really itchy fingers. My pimple bled! Darn it.

Heya. Exams are here. Be prepared to face the same post for the next week or so.

Bola on Weds. God this is so zaman maner. Whee. Almost scored against the guys. Hahahaha. Beware. Cheh. Hahaha. Erm, that PE was like damn gerek ah. Finally sweat after so long. Netball? Please. Hah. Amira mentioned class unity in her blog. I'm not arguing her case. In fact, I agree 100%. But you can't blame the people that much. Different people have different interests right? Some prefer this to that and that to this. Sure I can join the Chinese guys in basketball. But I'm more interested in bola than basketball. Influence from my brothers maybe, I dunno. If I didn't have a choice, ok, nothing wrong. Play ah, have fun, embarrass yourself here and there. Part and parcel of life man. But, there are things you can do to bring a class together. What? I leave it to you guys to decide. Imagine how hard it was for me as class chairman last year. Yeah, but I'm not complaining. It was fun at times. *grins*

World Red Cross Day is around the corner. Yeah~ Not a big deal but I'm chosen to be flag-raiser. Wheee. Yeah. Whatever. Hah. Dunno if my rank ready or not by then. *pray for Farah's rank* Awww. So sweeeet. Hahaha.

Ah well. My knee is sching, dunno why. Gonna catch Wildboyz. Chao people.
Toodles~

Embarrassment. Dreaded moment where humiliation is involved. I've had my share.

Well, To be honest, once I went swimming with the guys. I planned to overturn the people on the boyah. K. So I planned ready, then I saw this boyah up ahead and saw 2 people on it, thinking it's one of the guys. I swam under and in 2 seconds, the boyah was overturned. I was laughing like nuts and guess what? I overturned a couple whom I didn't know while they werememotek-ing. Talk about embarrassment. Hah. Luckily nothing happened. Fad & Hida were laughing non-stop sia. Hah. But hey, it's over man. It's not like I see this person everyday or something. Hah.

Lesson learnt: Check who you're about to overturn when you go swimming!

Toodles~

I know I should be grateful. I know I should respect her, but can she just let things go? I've apologized ready and you're still completely ignoring me. Ya Allah please help me. I seriously feel so left out at home. It's been 3 days since you last spoke to properly. Eversince that night when you were having so much fun, I end up getting scolded. And it's all my friends fault. SHEESH. I don't wanna blame people. I just want things back the way they were. If giving me the cold shoulder is your idea of a punishment, hell it's working. And I try to mend things, it's left unappreciated. I apologize, you ignore it. What more can I do? Beg for forgiveness? You said people always make mistakes, they apologize and learn from it. So why now you can't forgive me? It's not like what I did was that bad. Hai.

Seriously, my efforts are futile. I wanna drop everything, exams, friends, life, but I know I can't. Allah is giving me a test. And this is how I handle it? By running away? Will it help? It won't. Yet somehow, I don't know what to do. My right hand, my Mum, is against me. My friends can't do much, so who else can I turn to? Suicide? Yeah right!
I am so gonna survive this ordeal. And when I do, as I look back, I'm gonna say "Hey, I went thru this, and I survived!"

I burnt time by lazing on the couch. Sheesh. My brain jammed so it was kinda pointless to stare at a book without anything going to my head. Anyhows, revised POA just now, and finished the maths paper, except for the vectors part. God, I hate vectors. Like how will help me in life? Sheesh. Now doing research for history. Still have no idea which question my group is doing. Ah well, we're useless anyway.

Stress. We all go thru it and stuff, but don't you think that if we balance things, life won't be as bad as it sounds? Ok, so I dropped floorball this year, that cancels a thing to look forward to. I depend heavily on my Nano. Thank God. Without it, I think by now I would have died some horrible death. Probably the only thing driving me to go to school is the need to get O' levels done and over with. And the relaxing holiday after it maybe. Oh, and I look forward to PE, as always. I find somehow chasing people around the basketball court enjoyable. And this includes smacking butts too. *grins* The result? Getting chased by a whole bunch of girls aiming for my ass. Ah well, berani buat, berani tanggung as they all say. Hah. Other than that, not much to look forward to. I'm stepping down soon from my post as NCO. Kinda sad, can't wait for POP though. No more activities for Sec 4 i suppose. "O'levels are coming! You better go home and study!" Oh c'mon, like my friend said, "You study 24 hours?" Sheesh. Even they can't do it. Social life slowly sipping away. Kept under tight control at home. Hate it man. Now my sleeping time is more precious than ever. Eye-bags getting worse, but hey, I dun think about beauty anymore. Not that I exactly did, but who cares? After O's I can sleep for 24 hours and no one will care, but they'll start to panic, thinking I'm in some kind of coma of something.

Prioritizing. Be it time, posts, events whatever. There was one time, I prioritised my friends over family. Just cause they were going somewhere I haven't been before. My other family members were going on a holiday, just to KL, not much. I didn't get to say goodbye to them. That got me thinking. For the next 5 days, I wasn't gonna see their faces, and this is how I bid goodbye? It was bad enough I wasn't at home. Lesson learnt: Family has always been there for you. They are always, I repeat, ALWAYS there for you. Prioritizing your time doesn't exactly mean planning. Once, my whole weekend was burnt. Here's how it went. Friday morning I had school. Afternoon was training. At night I had floorball training until 10. The next day, in the morning, I had a floorball match. In the afternoon I had a meeting in town. (Cheh. Hahaha) After that I attnded a birthday party. Saturday night was the only time so far to complete my homework. Sunday morning. Had to report at 6.30AM at Harbourfront MRT for the Real Run. God. That was like the ultimate. 6 FREAKING THIRTY. I was too lazy to go early, so I got my dad to send me there. Finished at about 2pm, then lazed around Harbourfront Mall or whatever it's called. Went home and collapsed. Did my homework at night. So yeah. Now this one I planned. What to bring and shit like that. Thank God nothing went wrong. Oh, and just to let you know, that weekend I scored a goal. So it kinda paid off? Hah.

This is one long post. And I still have no idea what question my group is doing.

Argh. Seems like the whole day went down the drain.

Had English Paper 1 & 2 today. Not gonna say much about it, except that I may flunk it. Maybe wrote out of point. Summary, I was damn semangat. Picked out 19 points! Haha. Finished around 149 words. Amazing eh? Haha. If I don't get at least a 10 for content, I promise to kiss someone's ass. Whoa. Sounds a bit too much eh? Haha.

One thing that pissed me off was this: selfishness and self-centered-ism, if there is such a word. It's one thing to hold something that doen't belong to you specifically. To abuse the power is something else. Let's say this thing is erm, a key for example, after all, there is so much you can do without a key. Anyway, a friend of mine left me in a room. She went to grab some stuff to eat, and I obliged as I wasn't hungry. Usually what I do is to pass the key to the person in the room, so that if i wanna go to the toilet, or leave the room for some reason, the room is always secure. She left me in the room. Automatically I asked for the key, and her reply was, "why?". I explained myself using the reasons above but she replied, "we won't be gone for long, you won't need to go anywhere." That pissed me off. What happens if there is a stampede in the canteen and there is a casualty? (There really was a stampede in the canteen. Seems like all the levels finished the paper at the same time.) Use your brain lah. I mean, you twist and turn the situation, if you wanna hold the key, just say so. Sheesh. Enough about her. I don't think wasting my blog space is worth her pissing me off.

Nothing much happened today. Went home with Fad, then lepak with Firdaus. Couldn't stay long, exam fever began to hit me. Ah well.

I have training to look forward to tomorrow. PT! Yay! Finally. My joints yearn for a run. Yeahh~

I have DnT to complete. Dynamics ah. I have a rough idea on what to do, I think. Seems like tonight's gonna be a long night. What do you guys think?

I have one thing to say. Life is short. Embrace what you have, cause God can take it from you anytime, anywhere.

Why the solemn start? Well, last night at 10.15pm, me and my mum went to visit a gurl who is my age. I have no idea who she is, nor how she is related to me. Why so late? This girl is on her deathbed, death is facing her. She is suffering from liver cancer, a rare kind of liver cancer. By the time I reached the flat, she was practically wheezing for breath. The house was quiet. People were quiet. As I entered, and I gazed upon her, a combination of pity, fear and uncomforatability (if there is such a word) engulfed me. She iswas my age. Her eyes were half open and she was gasping for breath that seemed so hard to enter her lungs. Family members sat around her, older relatives reading surahs and doas for her safety and well-being. I have never been insuch a situation before, and really, the silence of the night could stop anything in it's path.

My mum and I entered the house, me following behind. I kept a safe distance, for I did not know any of these people. Whoever my mum recognized, i salam-ed. Then my mum approached this lady sitting near the girl and hugged her as tight as possible. I noticed streams of tears flowing down both women's faces, and my guess was that this women, was the girl's mother. My mother comforted her and started talking about her progress and the possibility. After a while, my mum asked for a tudung so that she could baca Surah Yaasin.

Time flew by, and it was almost 11.30pm. There seemed no change in the girl's activities, and my mum decided to leave. I shrugged, not knowing what to do. We left the flat in a couple of minutes. The drive home to me was painful. Thoughts about life and death crept up towards me. What have I accomplished in life? Is it for the better or for the worse? My mum noticed my silence, and explained to me this particular girl's condition.

She was diagnosed with liver cancer in February this year. She has been going for chemotherapy sessions for a few months and has been doing well enough to be sent home. The day she was sent home, she felt sick and couldn't walk, restricting her to bed. A gentle reminder that I have no idea who this girl is.

The main reason why I followed was because, I need to go thru these kinda things to learn from it. I begged my mum to let me follow visit her. I just feel that somehow, we both share something. What? I don't know.

This particular girl is my age, taking her O'levels this year. Just like me. It just so happened that, God wanted her back first, and decided now was the right time. My mum told me that everyone in the house was ready, the furniture had been moved and some ayat Qur'an was being played in the background. I slept with a heavy heart that night, despite reaching home at 12.30am the next morning.

As I woke up to prepare for school this morning, my mum told me this girl has passed away. I asked her at what time, and my mum replied, "2.30am". To me, it was an honour following my mum visit her. The fact that she passed on mere hours after I left, was unbelievable. I didn't know what to say, so the day carried on.

At school I was quiet, people asking if I was OK. I didn't realize until now that the main reason why I was so moody in school today was because of this issue. Now that it has struck me, I'll be waiting, when will my mum bring me over to this girl's house one more time to bid my final goodbye.

In loving memory of Nadiah

Yup. That's my delicious Oreo Cheesecake. My sweat, my tears and a hole in my pocket. Why does cream cheese have to be soo expensive?


The haflah was damn fun lah. Eye-candy. Hehe. But so much better. Well-planned, not many mishaps. Congrats to Darul Furqan! You have made me wanna join Madrasah again. Haha.

I'm gonna upload more photos of the haflah another time. Umi is breathing down my neck.

Night people~

Changed my template.

Well, the cheesecake is settled, for me at least. Dunno about Ray, but I'm bringing about half on Monday. If I'm not in the mood, then just one slice. Hahaha.

Hmm. Syamim ajak lepak today. It was raining though so I thought it would be cancelled. Turns out it was, according to Zaim. Then Natasha ajak BBQ. Hai; my mum didn't allow.

I can't wait for 9.15 today. Its the time when my cheesecake is ready. My 1st ever cheesecake. Hope it tastes good. haha.

Nothing much happened today. Went to Khy's and Amira's blog.

Argh!! Things just got more complicated! Darn it.

Exams are so sooooooon. Shit man. And the best part is, I'm not doing anything. ARGH!Why? WHY?! Damn it. I'm slacking too much. My mind is preoccupied with something else. I can't prioritize. It's just so irritating. I want to study, but somehow, I can't bring myself to open a book and engross myself in it.

Getting stuff for Oreo Cheesecake tmr. Me and Ray competing, who makes the best Oreo Cheesecake. Hahaha. Maybe we might share with the class. Maybe not. Haha. Tengok mood ah. Hai.

Gonna drown myself in POA n Physics. WIsh me luck for Mid-year people.

I don't know what you're gonna say but this is from my perspective.

My 'best friend' of 10 years is angry at me. Why? Cause I didn't follow her home after going to town. What kind of a reason is that you may wonder. We walked all the way from Somerset to Far East to bask in the Saturday afternoon feeling of town. So we walked and walked. It was tiring yes, and on the way back, I was craving for a drink and somewhere to settle my legs. So me and my other friend who was with us decided on going to Starbucks. Both of us don't have to leave that early, unlike my 'best friend'. That person didn't tell her parents she was going to town and didn't pick up the phone when her mum called. Anyway, we were practically dying of thirst, and the 'best friend' insisted we follow her home. I was thinking in my head, we have all the right to stay here, we told our parents, our curfew wasn't for another couple of hours. I'm not going all the way home without a drink and a 'friend' who had to go home for her curfew when I wanted to stay for a while longer. Think about it. It's not often I have the time to go to town to lepak. No way.

So for the rest of the way my 'friend' walked ahead of us, plugged onto her mp3 player, oblivious to us(refering to me and my other friend). As she was about to go down the escalator at Orchard MRT, I called her back, and explained the situation. She gave me the I-don't-give-a-damn-to-hell-with-you-I-don't-need-you kinda look and went down. Did she really expect me to go all the way down and ask for forgiveness on my knees? I brushed it off, for I didn't want it to spoil my mood. The rest of the trip was fun, me and my friend acting like gundus. hah. I tried the Oreo Cheesecake as it was claimed delicious by Khyrul. And hell was he right! It was superb. I was typically at a lost for words. *grins*

My 'friend' didn't call to apologize or anything. Monday came, I treated her like normal, but she was ignoring me. After school, I kept trying to talk to her, and she gave me the cold shoulder. She was IGNORING me. It was as if I didn't exist or something. That pissed me off. We end up talking the same bus and not talking to each other, with me on my iPod on maximum. When it was time for me to get down, I have cooled down and even thought of waving at them as the bus passed. To my horror, as the bus passed, they were pretending to be asleep! How immature could they get? So now, half of me wants to brush it off, the other to just wait for her to apologize. I was talking to my primary school friend, why should I treat you like a friend when you treat me like shit?

Think about it. Now I don't mind forgetting this. It's just up to you to think maturely and your age, which you always say you are older and more matured. Now, in your face, I'm gonna say, I'm more matured than you.

Went to the star wars exhibition today. Not as good as I expected though. Maybe cause of the standard that Lord Of The Rings have put up, it just wasn't on par. Yes they had costumes and models and stuff like that, but it was just plain boring. Nothing that really grabs your attention you know? My dearest, hottest darling was there. *keeks* ahaha. He was soooooo hot. In case you are lost, I'm refering to none other then Anakin Skywalker, aka Hayden Christensen. So adorably cute!! Other than that, I did see the drawing and GOD were they gorgeous. The intimate details of the drafts were so accurate, it was as if it was the final draft. I was telling to myself, if only I could draw like that, DnT would be a breeze..

My mum cooked daging masak merah today. Fuyooooooo. Best...! But, couldn't eat so much right. Hai. Save some for tmr. And guess what, my mum insists on calling me 'arab dugul' mainly cause I'll die if I don't eat daging for 1 meal. Cute eh? Ladadida.

I'm planning to splurge at Coffee Bean this week. Gonna try out it's hot chocolate and compare with Starbucks. Aqmar has come up with a new coffee chain. Starbean and Coffeebucks enterprise. Or it's short form, coffin fuck. Haha. Excuse the obscence language.

Blah, POA n Malay awaits..

Get out of here~

Sometimes I wonder if I was born dyslexic.

Dyslexia: condition causing difficulty in reading and spelling

Mainly cause I'm not doing well in school. My parents blame my laziness and my supificiality. I blame myself.

Then the oncoming lectures each teenager goes through. My record? 3 hours straight until 2 am the next morning. I personally feel that some people are born gifted, some have other talents. As for me, I don't have the brain of a genius, nor the talent of a sportsperson or artist. It's not that I'm complaining, just wondering which one is the one for me. I don't seem to perform in school nor can I draw to save my life. Maybe the sports thing, cause I like to challenge myself. But still, there are other people better than me. Leadership-wise, maybe. I hold the post of an NCO, Student Leader, once a class chairman. I guess I do take on leadership roles, but there aret imes when I do cock-up.

Since I'm on this topic, I want you to know, the role of a chairman in upper sec is not easy. It's stressful, it requires endurance, perseverence, sacrifice of time, play and effort. To some, it's easy, you command people. Hold it. Now that Syam and Malia has taken over me n Sidek, they realize, hey, this is hard. It's not as easy as it looks.

I'm done. I'm bored about talking about myself. I think I'm boring.

The Day Has Yet To Come

The world is fed-up
Time is running out
The question marks that lie on their face
People cant keep up with the pace

Technology is blooming
Too fast yet too slow
Look up at the sky
Appreciate what is left before you die

The sky gets darker day to day
Why do you want an increase in pay?
Do you have more children perhaps?
Or maybe even a drunken relapse?

The word love has lost its meaning
Hatred boils in all but the believers
In God we entrust ourselves
Wasnt He the one who gave us our cells?

The Day of Judgment draws nearer and nearer
Why do you say there is nought to fear?

To conclude this once and for all
Let me say one thing before you call
Remember those whom you treasure
Not those that give you closure

Love one, love all
In a world of bleakness we fall.

*grins*