Finally after all the craze of FYP, PP, and other stuffs, it's almost coming to an end now. Seriously wondered how I had survived, for this i must really thank God for the strength. In those days, I really felt very tired, all alone, weary, but I know for sure, He's with me all along and this is how I survived this period.

Ohh mannn.. I'm really missing that Korean dude, Andrew Ko GG Suie Sama. It's such a sudden news that he's leaving for good, i mean for good! Am really not prepared to send him off actually, I almost cried but I held back! I'm happy that he can pursue his dreams, but felt really sad to part our ways. I always believed in him, looking at how he had changed, especially in his faith in God and thanks to JJ, his appearance- glory to glory man.

I do not know if he'll see this, but I wanna say this here. Even though I nv told anyone or express it out, this is the dude that really made me look forward to church each week, when I'm feeling distressed or stressed out or even when I'm feeling really upset. I really enjoy being around with him, disturbing, making fun of him, poking, and playing around with him, that really makes my days filled with laughers and joy. No matter how tired i was, how unhappy i was, the moment I meet andrew and we start all the "playing", it had never failed to make me laugh off all the worries, tiredness and unhappiness. Now i truly understand why laughers are the best medicine in the world. I really thank God that I had known this dude, and truly wishes him all the best in everything he's going to do, and may God bless him and fulfil his dream of studying in US, and that one day, I believe he'll become a scholar, and be a salt and light for Jesus.

Dude, we miss you greatly, and please visit us as soon as you can. If it's possible, we would fly over to visit you one day! Stay in contach and in touch with us yea?

As I had symptoms of H1N1 that time, i was worried abt it. But thank God, it's also a false alarm! haha. I'm totally recovered alrdy. So don't worry, it's safe to go out with me yeah? So continue to ask me out if you guys want to. thanks!

Okay, some interesting stuffs happened last week, which kept me thinking alot. Well, I love my CG people, I really really do. God just spoke to me about the definition of a type of love, the Agape love-God's unconditional love. Well, to me. No matter how disappointed or angry with the CG at times I still love them, I love them in-spite of everything they had done. Just like how Jesus loved us, that how we should love one another. Let's not become legalistic friends, and set rules and regulations that stiffened our lives, and make us lose the joy of loving one another, in freedom and with enjoyment. Love don't fake itself, it's either there or it's not.

Guys, let's rise up, and make a change. We can be a better CG, much much better than what we are having now. Not that we aren't a good CG now. But i believe we can be better right? Wouldn't be great that the Cg is becoming better each day and week? I hope that you guys would not treat this CG as a team or even a group. We are a family. A family with love, care and concern. Not of self-centeredness, and pride. Love is a choice, a decision. Let's make a decision today to love one another, so that we can build trust and confidence in one another. I Love you guys, I really do. But I love you guys too much that I can't bare to see you guys staying unchanged. I hope that in future, we can focus on building lasting relationships with one another. And to reach a point where we can lay down our lives for one another, which is the ultimate love a frd, a bro or sis can have. We ain't a perfect group of people, but we together are a strong and mighty CG. Let's move on, and make a difference to our lives, and to others too.

I'm in this with you, moving and fighting along side by side. Hope that when 2o10 comes, we can turn back and thank God for the changes that He had done in the CG. Let's do it.... TOGETHER. =)

These few days, i think i found the answer. I had lost the joy in me, the enjoyment of life, I'm really not happy on the inside, frustrated, confused, emotional all the time. What's really happening to me, to be frank i have no idea. Everytime i tot i had snapped out of it alrdy, BAMMM I'm back there once again.

When i really put in serious thoughts into this, i can only point out these:

1) I had lost my passion in life.

2) I had lost myself in pursue of smth that is not meant for me.

3) I had lost my vision and dream, and i lost total courage to pursue them too.

4) I'm no longer disciplined to do what i got to do

5) I no longer have the will to live.

I got to just figure things out, and make some major decisions for my life. I got to get back on my feet. I want to continue the fight of faith i had began years back. I'm not going to give up, and i'll never give up.

"Satan, watch out. I'm coming back and destroy you competely!"

Ohhh.. The Bible study on friday was really really good.. I'm really glad I made it there, it really felt like Pst was talking to me all night. Man, i felt bad and great at the same time. haha. Yeah, currently in the winter season mode, it's not really a place i want to stay in. Well, God has His time and purpose for everything, I shall become stronger and closer with my walk with God. Faltering Love--> Mature Love. Let me start falling in Love again! =)

Youth camp coming, not really very excited for it though. But no matter what, shall go in and see what God's going to do. well, the camp is abt encounter with God, i hope I can meet God and be transformed in the camp. Anyway, hope to have fun with the people. This year is good, i don't need to serve, but to just be a camper and enjoy the camp. It's good in a way though! haaha..

Well, thousand and millions of things had been happening and though mostly ain't very good. But, we really need to overcome and conquer the circumstances of our lives. Nothing is to hard for us to solve! If there's a will, there's a way. Whenever we go thru a tunnel of darkness, we will see the light at the end of it. When we meet a dead end, we will find a new beginning.

What we think is what we get. Nothing is ever impossible!!!

I have thousand and one thing to do, but I'm feel so tired out of sudden, i really don't feel like doing anything.. I really feel so lonely, i feel so weak, i'm losing that confidence. Oh God, please help me.. 

I think i need a break, which seems a impossibility now. oh, what shld i do to come out this?