Tuesday, November 28, 2006

for those who didn't know, this blog is long dead. i have a new one being set-up though, and if you're interested the address is below:

http://indifferentiated.blogspot.com

Thursday, December 02, 2004

*sigh* i guess prom nites ain't really for the faint-hearted afterall. been spendin' money like there's no tomorrow these few days, heading off to town almost on a daily basis just to get the clothes and the accessories. even mom's not too happy about it, keep givin' that cold stare that i'm indeed spending way too much. gee had i known preparing for prom is gonna be so time-wasting and energy-consuming, i'd rather save all the money up and head off to some posh restaurant for dinner instead.

dkny, g2000, adidas, ck.. woo these few brands are just drivin' me nuts man. *sigh* it's sad that i've so much to comment 'bout my prom shopping spree but i'm just too lazy to type 'em out here.

well, let's just hope that tomorrow won't be as dead and weird as i expected it to be. *sigh* i don't even know what's wrong with me man. ah, i think it's the pps - pre-prom syndrome. alright. not funny :x

Sunday, October 24, 2004

it's such an agonising experience to witness the kind of football real madrid have been playing these days. while most jc2 peeps are either deep in slumberland or ploughing through their notes, my eyes were on the television screen at around 3-odd am this morning - there was a live telecast of real madrid versus valencia on channel then. well real came out the victors by a 1-0 scoreline over the defending champions at the bernabeu, but i guess i wasn't too impressed at what i was seeing at all.

with the kind of players' lineup that not many team can boast of in the likes of the various so-called galacticos, real should be doing lots better seriously speaking. yes roberto carlos is still tearing down the left wing with his lung-bursting runs and zidane can still do those crowd-pleasing plays that really made me wonder if there's any player in this world right now who can do those seemingly-impossible tricks other than da good ol' zizzou. owen had his second start for real and suceeded in putting the ball home just after 7minutes, but other than that he wasn't really much of a threat to valencia's defence. raul was disappointing as usual, and i really wonder what has gotten into him. whenever i watch him play live, it seems as though he just isn't able to connect with any crosses into the penalty box. plus i can sense that he's panicking whenever he's in front of the goalmouth, as he would either appear frozen for a split second only to watch the ball miss him by a mere inch or go into a sudden state of frenzy by swinging his boots wildly upwards and kicking only the air molecules. but thank goodness he still manages to pass the ball forward with pinpoint accuracy - in fact he provided the assist for owen's goal today. i feel sad for him sometimes, cause he's definitely not anywhere near his form at this moment in time; yet you could still see two or three defenders chargining towards him and attempt to dispossess the golden boy of spanish soccer. *sigh* i just hope he could regain his scoring touch once again, though i ain't confident of this happening anytime soon. i think walter samuel is just a flop purchase by the club. he lack composure and i doubt his positioning ability honestly speaking - think sol campbell or even rio ferdinand (much as i hate to admit) could achieve things better at the back than samuel. let's just hope woodgate could be the one to add stability to the relatively volatile defence of real, otherwise the white team could just kiss the la liga title away goodbye to barcelona.

the main reason why real won was not because they played fluid football, but rather it's because of a shockingly weak performance from valencia. if you include the scoreline of this match, it would have been valencia's third consecutive defeat in six days - that gives us a clear indication of the current form of the team. in fact, they were badly thrashed 1-5 at home by inter milan in the champion's league two days ago. baraja and angulo didn't impress me at all, especially with the diving thearetics of the latter when he just tumble easily inside real's penalty box. there wasn't really any marked attempt to attack real at all, until after the second half when playmaker aimar begins to turn on the style. well think he's just unlucky that he couldn't make it to the scoresheet if not for the reflex save by casillas. canizares deserved some praise for some outstanding shots he managed to stop, but other than both canizares and aimar i think none of the valencia players really put in any effort at all to capitalise on real's fragility in defence. the game plan against real is a pretty straightforward one: attack 'em to guarantee that they'll crumble under da pressure; sitting back and hoping that you can at least steal a point is a cardinal sin of la liga football.

alright 'nuff of my ranting about spanish soccer. man u would be hosting arsenal later tonight, and i'm pretty sure it would be a tight contest at old trafford later on. my take on the match? i seriously don't know, but if i were to pick an eventual winner i guess i will back arsenal. what could be more satisfying than achieving the record of being unbeatable for 50 premiership games right in the home of your bitter rivals, right? :)

Friday, October 22, 2004

sheesh. i didn't know that there are still people out there in the cyberspace who have not long forgotten about the very existence of my blog, still browsing through my ranting and ravings of my daily life lol. well i gather that from the comments i received from my flooble tagboard, there's someone from the saints hockey team who gave his input about what i've written about the team in one of my previous entries (guess it's the one on 11th october if i'm not mistaken). i might be wrong, but heck who really cares yeah?

well i did realise that i've been saying things which are not so good about the saints hockey team, and i'm pretty sure that it's not gonna be any ear-pleasing especially to those who are part of it. of course i wouldn't be so hypocritical to quickly agree to whatever that is being pointed out within the tagboard, saying 'yes i think i've overlooked that' and zip my mouth straightaway, hoping that the case would be close as soon as possible. neither am i going to quote paragraph by paragraph about what's being raised and rebutt agressively with my own counterarguments. i see no point in attacking whatever that's being said cause let's face it: there's no issue in this world that's definite and there's bound to be different perspectives from which something can be observed from, hence debating over it would just end up as a vicious cycle of defending and attacking for the stand one takes. anyway i'm glad that at least people are, you know, reading the message you're trying to convey and i gotta be thankful that they at least bothered to even give some comments of their own. afterall if i didn't want any form of comments for your entries, why the hell would i waste my time and take the trouble to set up the flooble tagboard beside the words. setting up of that darn thing was quite a frustrating experience i'd come to realise, but that's outta the point.

i understand that not everyone's happy with whatever i said, and i think it's fair enough - because when someone speaks bad about the group which you belong to, it's just perfectly natural to have some sort of reaction to it yeah? everyone's entitled to their own opinion, and i do know why you asked me to "get my facts right" first before attempting any sort of slander against the saints hockey team. well perhaps let's just put it this way yeah, that the facts which i consider it as correct would deem to be incorrect to you. it's a matter of covering the whole matter from a different viewpoint you see, cause you're not in my shoes and i'm not in yours. no i'm not trying to do any form of justification for the views i presented, but rather i'm just trying to clarify things up a lil' bit. perhaps from my writing tone i might sound like someone who's so anti-saints hockey, but in truth i'm not. in fact i really hoped that the team could whip the other teams in the group up (especially acjc hehe) and progress on to the next round, though i can't be part of the team. anyway it would be a doubly satisfying for me should st andrew's could triumph over the national jc hockey team honestly speaking. yeah i might sound like it, but rest assured that my heart's with team sajc and it's not my intention to slander it for whatever purposes, really.

okay i think i'm defending myself a bit here, but somehow i think i just gotta let this outta my chest so bear with me for awhile. well it's perfectly true that i chose outta my own accord that i didn't wanna hang out with the dudes who incidentally became the core of the final selected team, and i think such things are really outta control. it's not the fault of you people cause you all didn't say 'hey you dork, stay away from us' nor is it my fault cause i happen to find out that i's more comfortable for me to stay around those people who are within the clique which i belong to. i just find it a pity that there has to be an existence of cliques within the team *sigh*, otherwise i'm sure it would be a better situation for everybody i hope? and to clear up the point about my bad attendances, i could truthfully tell you that i didn't miss any single training session at all during my j1 days. it's only during the j2 year when my attendance start to be on a decline - not that i don't wanna go for it, but somehow for some only-god-knows reason no one in my clique happen to know about the training schedules at all. i suspect that all information about training and stuffs my clique has is from someone who's part of the other clique. plus at that moment of time i guess i'm tired of not knowing when is the team gonna be selected, so please pardon me for my inadequacy when it comes to attitude.

ok 'nuff of the crap above - i seriously don't wanna wage any war of words online cause i think flaming on the net is one of the most stupidest thing one could ever do. but anyway i guess all those who was/is part of the saints hockey team did have something in common: and it's that all of us have that passion for the game. yup you can't deny the fact that all of us loved the game fundamentally. it's those miscellaneous things like team selection, cliques, bla-bla which causes us to be disillusioned and start detracting away from our initial aim: and that is to play the hockey and hopefully get some honours for team sajc. well the bottomline is still that the reason why we got into the cca in the first place is that we love the game and all of us do have our own moments of sheer joy and delight in which we indulge in during those training sessions we attended. so let's just not be overly concerned about those unimportant stuff and start shooting ourselves in the foot shall we?

and hockey do rocks, yeah? (and i'm sure you would agree with me on this =>)

Thursday, October 14, 2004

mrs lee's such a friggin' cunt. oh well from what i heard from joel during tuition just now, she apparently chased chenxin outta the lecture hall in which she was holding her mass tutorial session. thank god i didn't try to act smart and crash her tutorial, else i would've suffered the same fate as poor chenxin. mrs lee gave a lame excuse for driving chenxin out, saying that she's afraid that whatever she may teach may clash with edna choo's idea. well i guess only a complete fool would buy that kind of a shitty excuse, and that's a very lame one indeed. and on top of that, she sarcastically asked chenxin if she's in the wrong the venue. what a fucking idiot man. and who was the 'kind and encouraging' civics tutor who kept on wanting us to work hard and get distinctions to make her proud during the exams yeah? now we have some who even bothered to wake up early and attend her lesson, and all she is capable of doing is to be a wet blanket and simply refuse entry. i'm so disappointed in her, really. when people don't show interest in econs mrs lee would keep complaining about we couldn't be bothered with our studies, and whatever she's doing now is so contradictory. *sigh* actually i more or less saw it coming when iskandar sms-ed lee about whether if those not from her tutorial group can attend the lesson, and as what kaiyun and i projected mrs lee simply ignored the sms. a total letdown as a teacher, i would say - and though we've some good examples of some teachers who would go all the way to clarify doubts with those who they've not taught before, what s92 has is a civics tutor who would rather those students in edna's choo tutorial group to die on their own. teachers in st andrew's always there for us whenever we need them? i think this statement needs a teeny bit of rethinking.

joel puts it down as teacher politics, while i'd rather relate this issue to the idea of jealousy. well though mrs lee told us before that she's on very good terms with mrs choo, but i somehow don't see them as close colleagues or what. in fact, i've never seen them talking to each other before outside class. perhaps mrs lee is just plain jealous of the popularity that mrs choo manages to gain amongst her own students; and s92 is one perfect example of this - you don't see anyone in her tutorial class talking bad about how. the fact is that we've nothing but praises for edna man, unlike mrs lee who's pissing practically everyone off with her constant complains about how she misses her lunch cause she's typing the lesson transparency and what not. *yawns* edna's teaching style is dynamic and students can gain from the throwing of ideas freely around, while lee couldn't stand any private discussion at all and would not hesitate to blast one off should he or she fail to give the standard correct answer which she expects. it's lucky that i've edna as my economics tutor for the last 2 terms, else my interest in economics would've long killed by that stupid mrs lee a long time ago.

i'm not an ungrateful brat i know, and i do recognise the fact that mrs lee has a wider depth and understanding of econs as compared to edna. it's just that her attitude and her inability to communicate her ideas well with us which really makes me kinda frustrated. i hate to associate teachers with wickedness, really - but sometimes for some tutors i just couldn't find any other better word to use.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

oh well the farewell assembly is finally here - and that inevitably completes my last official day as a sajc student. *sigh* i more or less started the day with a heavy heart, cause i could just feel myself being emotionally attached to the school though i only spent a short time of relatively two years here only. it's all those little things which make you reflect upon and suddenly those memories will start flowing in like some kinda river - about how we turned from someone who had absolutely no idea where the sa toilet is, into a full-blooded saint who just could perform miracles for the college if we decide to rally together (as said by roland lee in his farewell speech on behalf of the entire science faculty)

yeah though there's quite alot of negative things attached to sajc in the eyes of outsiders such as my teachers back in rv and some of my friends, that st andrew's is a place for lazy slackers and nothing great will be coming out of such cannotmakeit-ers, but only we saints know how wonderful the feeling of being a saint can truly be. yes it's true that as compared to the other colleges academically sa is falling a little bit short, and it's not because of our stupidity. in fact, it's due to sheer laziness that most of us would agree upon. come on man there's lots of smartasses lying around in sajc if you didn't realise, just that some of 'em taken the wrong approach attitude-wise which eventually reflects in their results of faling here there everywhere. *sigh* but when it comes to school spirit, i dare say that the saint family is one of a kind yeah. like what roland lee said (again), there's no other college in singapore that travels around the island just to support team sajc even in those so-called unimportant matches within the preliminary rounds. and the kinda turnout we get is indeed very overwhelmingly that we could just plan a total takeover of the competition venue if we want lol. plus, the sheer passion and patriotism to the college which everyone displays while cheering is ever so evident when we attend those team sajc games really. it's as if we're gonna shatter the confidence of the opposing players, and of course drown the medicore cheering of the opposition's supporters with our saintanic cries haha. and miracles do happen too, as witnessed in the soccer semifinals this year. how often do you see a team snatching victory right in the nose when we're like down 0-2 at halftime when mjc are no pushovers yeah? i can vouch for those supporting the team at that period of time then that we're like shouting as if we've just been released from hell, with such great intensity and it's gonna blow our eardrums really. in the end, the soccer dudes managed a 3-2 victory. memories of such a great match: priceless for eternity.

well, and suddenly those images are coming back to me once again; about how me and joe had to evade from all those physics tutors in the canteen when we decided to skip physics lecture for the n-th time (i was still taking phyics then lol), about how i always followed joe blindly to the library to surf da net though i could always do such net-surfing within the comfort of my own room, about how the three local guys (iskandar, joe and me) would always go to the toilet together, about how the teachers would forbid the three of us so sit together and how mrs lee would always accuse us of disrupting the lesson (something which the trio feels wronged until this very day), how i would sit in the canteen for up to hours doing nothing and watching all those babes walk by (thank god i was able to control my instinctive drooling everytime lol), how i used to think initially that i'll never click with layne jennie cyn zx and company (believe it or not, i didn't really talk to them until this year yeah).. argh and all these are just but a small portion of the numerous great memories i have of st andrew's. and not forgetting those saddening ones too. again, time for those later.

yeah so managed to catch the teachers' concert after the farewell assembly, and it was indeed both hilarious and lame. i loved the crappy slides done by the pe department the most - it's just so lame that i really went -.-" didn't knew the teachers have so much hidden talent, though their singing wasn't the kind which you would expect from a potential singapore idol - but as yuzhe says, we're here not to watch them sing well but instead we're here just to watch them sing in fronta us and that's enough. lee ting jien was the funny dude as always with all the overdramatic acting, mrs yeo tried to let the whole school vomit blood when she tries to 'seductively' swing her dress around and mrs lee just tried her best to act though it's still er.. not very good hehe. jillian lee especially shone i guess, with the drumming and the dancing *woots* i think i'm falling in love with her. nah just kiddin' lol! :)

Monday, October 11, 2004

whoa how time flies - come tomorrow, and i'll be part of the farewell assembly for the outgoing jc2s' cohort. seriously speaking i've always had this idea that the farewell assembly meant for me is still a looong time away, and god it's really goin' to happen real soon. in fact, i'm just approximately 10 hours away from it. reflecting back on my days as a saint, it has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride really.

after being provisionally admitted to njc for the first three months, i kinda knew where i was going to head too. yup it's a fact that most of my secondary school friends are going to stay and more are heading towards national after the release of the 'o' results, but i told myself that i was going to get outta that place. it's not that i really harboured infinitely lots of negative feelings about that school, but somehow i know that such an environment akin to a pressure cooker is definitely not the right place for a hardcore slacker like me. in fact i really enjoyed playing hockey during my nj days and i thought that hey, since st andrew's too have a hockey team of its own i might as well join 'em as i was really totally in love with it at that moment of time. coupled with feedbacks from seniors and friends that st andrew's pace is not that fast as compared to the premier jcs and that everybody in the saints family is fun-loving and are friendly, i decided that sajc was the right place for me. and one more thing, sa also did offer the weirdo subject combination of my choice too, which is physics math economics and geography. ber and mom was like asking me to reconsider my decision of putting sajc as my first choice instead of national, but being myself i would like to make a choice which is indeed my own and i swore that i'll never regret.

things were indeeed looking good upon knowing that i was successful in my application, and the initial interaction with some of the peeps in sajc really made me feel that yeah this is indeed the right place for me. at least, they're way cooler than those hardcore muggers found almost everywhere within the boundaries of the njc complex in my opinion. unknowingly, i finally discovered for myself what's really the true meaning of a junior college chiobu after i came into sajc. yeah, there are aplently of hot chicks found within sajc (that's what they say in the open house video too) - right in my school. oh how cool can that be lol. plus, i felt that the pace of da econs lecture within sajc isn't that fast and i was able to grasp the concepts of the various elasticities pretty well. oh boy how proud was i at that period of time; perhaps st andrew's is really the right choice for me yeah.

but good things weren't meant to last as they say, and the true situation wasn't as rosy as i expected it to be sadly. i have to admit that i was slacking even more during my sa days, and suddenly i was unable to catch up with math anymore. not that i've been a math wizad during my nj days, but at least i wasn't getting grades like 10+% - and a math test result of even 30% would be considered a miracle within my eyes. yes that's how bad i am at that subject. and when i thought that math tutorials wasn't slow enough in national, i was in for a very nasty shock as the pace of math inside my sa class was lightning-like. yeah my math tutor was skipping questions and it was as good as not attending any math lesson at at all, really. ok i admit that i didn't really play my part as an earnest student well as i didn't manage to complete even a single tutorial ever since i stepped into sa grounds, but the sheer pace of my math tutor didn't turn out to be of any help at all. it was very demoralising indeed, as i keep thinking to myself that i would never be able to catch up even if i stay awake 24/7 to complete all my past tutorials. and what i really hate about miss tan (my math tutor) is that she keeps pointing out the fact that i can't be that lousy upon achieving a b3 grade in my secondary school's additional math. come on man, i've been repeating myself for the n-th time that the b3 was some kinda fluke and my foundations in math wasn't stable at all. in fact, i've got a 'b' for math printed in my psle certificate believe it or not. yeah, and math was defintely one of the major factor which led me to feel totally depressed about life for maybe the first time in my life. school hasn't really sucked that much before - until along came jc. *sigh*

cca-wise was yet another disappointing pile of shit for me. apparently the hockey team is being splitted into several factions, and if a team could be divided then there's really no point in continuing really. it's was kinda obvious that since team selection is purely done by the team captain and the assistant captain (the former being some who posses absolutely zero leadership quality, and the latter being just one of the biggest bastards i've ever witnessed in my life insofar) there's really no point staying in hockey. and so i was part of the mass-quiting movement which occured earlier this year. plus my results are failing and i need to spend less time on going for those meaningless hockey training with those people. yup basically there was absolutely no way i'm going to boot-lick my way to a team in the place or trying to fit into their clique. well seriously the coach should've selected the team during our first year there instead of letting all 30-odd members staying inside hockey and rot away. and when the final team list came out there wasn't much of a surprise there - all except one of the final 16 belongs to the clique of the captain. some of the players there just couldn't even dribble a ball straight for nuts, and they still managed to get in with virtue of their skill at boot-licking. bah. but luckily, there was computer club to tide me over else i would've remained cca-less. well it's not the kinda club that i was really looking forward to join given the inflexible nature of the so-called leaders who just couldn't stand me cause i was forever questioning their authority, but let's just not be too demanding yeah given the fact that i've managed to get some vital pearls points from it. yeah and besides being in the hssrp programme, i was also part of the st andrew's ntu-jc challenge team which notched a top position in the innovations category. how cool's that for someone not taking any physics and ended up inside some engineering competition.

bah my eyes are hurting after typing all these crap, and there's just so much that i wanna say: the class, the tutors, the environment and team sajc. but let's leave all these for some other time yet, i'm really sick of typing sucha long entry and it's time for me eyes to take a break. oh yeah, i guess i'd better go learn how to sing the college anthem correctly for the first time. surprising yeah, that i still don't know the full college anthem during my one-half year's stay in the college. :)

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

whoa just reached home after tuition at joel's place. haha i admit it's kinda mad to have such a late tuition during weekdays , but it's not really as if i got much of a choice here - looking at things objectively, i don't really have much time to buck up in my math. not only do i have to perform a miracle of even passing that goddamned subject, i have to do it fast too. *sigh* think i would be much more happier if i took up any other subject except for math, but hell it's just waaay too late to regret anything now. man, how do life suck for me.

oh yeah i went for my dinner at kap cause mom ain't home yet, and boy i as i alighted at the bus stop outside kap i think i saw one real hot babe reading something. man that lady was soooo hot with da kinda clothes she wear and i swear i could've melted straightaway at that moment in time lol. and the strange thing is that she look kinda like vanessa, with the same build, height and things like that - though i wasn't really that sure as i didn't go and take a closer look. well i did messaged van asking if she's outside the kap bus stop, but guess there was no reply from her. oh well.

i don't know the reason why, but somehow i just simply loved being at kap during weekdays' evenings. especially more so if it's during a normal school week or what. yeah perhaps there isn't that many people out there cause most people would be at home slogging it out with their notes and stuff, or there's just the existence of some invisible attractive force that would really make me wanna come back the very next evening. haha as usual there's quite a handful of mgs babes sitting around and mugging, working adults busily typing things into their notebooks, loving couples sitting next to each other whispering sweet-nothings gently and maybe some odd jc students studying too. lol basically everyone's doing something there, while i'm content enough to munch my big mac meal and watch the world evolving around kap go by lol. and one surprising thing i noticed tonight was that there's quite a few rvians there too. oh man, i was so shocked that i stopped momentarily while i was walking to my seat so as to take a closer peek at them. haha guess the rvians today are rather diff as compared to the rvians during my generation (sheesh, i'm making myself sound old): to think that i only started to have some actual contact with kap durin' my nj days. mountain tortise i am, or just another typical rv boy who would just go home straight after school to take an afternoon nap or what. sheesh i think the rvians from my time only lives within their own world, which consists simply of just home, the bus, school and back home again heh. oh well, why am i thinking so much about rv.

sent her a birthday message at 12am after chatting with ber and cs about birthdays at msn. surprising that i never knew when her birthday was until yesterday - and i had to resort to reading her online journal to find out this time round. gee what a loser i am man. *sigh* and this is the first time i'm sending sucha message out to her after like, 6 years? *sighs again*

life just sucks, i admit.

Saturday, October 02, 2004

whoa actually i wanted to write something here yesterday night, but guess my body was so freakin' shagged that i decided to be lazy for one night lol. yeah 03s92's class bbq was cancelled for the n-th time, upon learning that only around 10 people was able to make it - hold it, i think it's more accurate to say that only 10 people was willing to make it. the rest of the class, notably most of the scholars and the rvians' gang just decided not to go as expected. seriously i don't know what's their friggin' problem - yes i know exams are pretty much round the corner and we slackers should try to understand them over their mugginess, but then again what's wrong with just losing a few hours of studying to just attend a bbq session which has been postphoned time and again for their sake. fuckin' hell these people just never fail to piss me off, really. and isk was sms-ing me about how he hoped that they would be buried by their books, and i'm totally agreeable with him. yeah yeah muggers, why don't you all go and attach all those notes to ya body and make 'em part of ya all, since they're so crucially important to you. duh.

'nuff of the ranting bit - but some peeps of the class still managed to hang out after school though the bbq was cancelled. thank god not everybody decided to went home straight away man. yeah watched white chicks with isk, yz, jen, layne, zx, lm and cynthia at jurong point and it's really been sucha long time since i last watched a show that's really funny. i simply loved the part when the black hunky male went outta the norm to do a girlish rendition of vanessa carlton's a thousand miles lol! dodgeball's more towards the lame side, while hi dharma 2 just can't tickle my funny bone long enough.

yeah me, yz and jen headed for layne's house after the show for squash, and boy i didn't know how fun squash can be until the moment when i tried it. yeah it even beats the tennis we had during our informal pe session yesterday's afternoon. i thought squash would be a daunting and excruciatingly difficult sport to pick up, but to my surprise it's not that hard really. or maybe jen's not a bad coach afterall haha. at least i was able to do some backhand (my backhand durin' badminton sucked totally - trust me on this) and was able to hit most of the easy straight balls lol. but my serving still needs to be sharpened alot and i could've done a hell lot better when receiving jen's ball-to-the-wall-and-back-type of serve. as expected the rgs gold medallist totally kicked my ass and in the foreseeable future i couldn't image myself outplaying her - all of her shots seem to carry a greater force than both me and yz. guess 4 years of training do play a very important part haha. think the day when i can win jen at squash would be the day when i won both yz and ky at table tennis and badminton respectively (and i'm afraid this day wouldn't come at all heh) oh well, but squash is fun nonetheless! :)

Saturday, September 25, 2004

gee. i suddenly remembered 'bout how ky was telling me and joel prolly a few months ago about how guys should have a sense of humour, but not till the extent of being derogatory. and i was thinking about how nasty i've been to the peeps around me while i was at the showers just now. guess i wasn't really that nice to 'em afterall heh. yeah instead of calling them by their names or using a generic term like 'people' or 'peeps', i opted to use words like 'bitches and bastards'. heh it's definitely not the best platform to show off my vocab skills i know, but somehow i just couldn't control myself. alright though personally i felt that there's no big deal about this matter, what i have overlooked is the very fact that other people might feel uncomfortable, or even offended when i call them using such terms. okay as far as i know most guys couldn't give a shit over whether you're calling them a horny bastard or a motherfucker, but the fairer sex might have a very different perspective for all i know. i mean, which girl would want to be labelled as a bitch yeah? perhaps to them it's as good as calling them whorish sluts or what. lol well oh well, it seems that i do really have quite a extensive knowledge of what some would called alternative vocabulary.

and it's not just names calling or what that i ought to be ashamed off. i think ky is probably the worst receipient of the kinda 'jokes' that me and joel have been cracking since the start of school this year. yeah it's like we keep saying about how fat she is constantly and the likes of it. hmm think both us really have to be grateful towards the very fact that she wasn't really much bothered by our nasty comments and blow up in front of us. yeah it's only when she's in a bad mood would she just see red and ask us to shut up - most of the time she would just shrug our comments off with the ever-useful 'oh whatever'. but come to think of it, i don't think i really meant what i said. it's more of a brainless comment which just didn't happen to go through my brain that i would make when i'm just bored. there isn't any hidden meaning to it or what most of the time. well i'm not that mean a person afterall haha.

so in conclusion, i guess it's time to clean up the friggin' negative remarks that i've been so fond of making subconsciously and begin to treat people the way that they deserve? :)

Friday, August 27, 2004

fuckin' hell. i think my computer's infected with some sorta trojan downloader virus, and yeah i absolutely hate it when things like that comes along and screw everything up. alright i have no idea what that friggin' shit is, and luckily avg (my antivirus scanner) detected it in time. apparently my comp downloaded that virus crap while i was using ie, and somehow the trojan just bypass any activex authentication process and stick itself to notepad.exe - yeah the notepad program that everyone uses to edit text files. i don't buy it when people say that a computer can get virus infection just by visiting an infected website, but now i truly do after being fortunate enough to chance upon such a site. it ain't a porn site by the way, so those porn barons can carry on surfing through their favourite galleries without any fear - but then again, how many peeps would actually do that when movies offer a much more complete experience than spastic static pictures. oh well i'm diverting away from the topic.

anyway avg removed the virus for me, and i thought for a moment how wonderful this virus scanner is until i realised that it actually removed notepad along with the virus together. fuckin' shit now i gotta load up the crappy ms word just to read those miniature text files. what can i expect anyway, since i think that my notepad.exe is so screwed up that it's beyond any form of redemption. man though avg claimed that my comp is now free of any virus shit, i still have this nagging feeling that not everything is being cleared away. trojan horses are famous for camouflaging itself in stealth mode and redownloading itself whenever an internet connection is possible. *sigh* i just hope that my comp ain't targetted by any keylogger program or else there goes all my accounts - but anyway i don't have any important accounts and the hackers would find it more time-efficient to go on spoofing the computers of those rich businessmen with those internet banking accounts. heh think i'm thinking too much i hope.

windows xp professional without notepad.. wtf.

Monday, August 23, 2004

*sigh* singapore was that close to achieving a olympic medal once again. well we managed to claim the fourth spot in the women's table tennis singles at sydney four years back thanks to jun junhong, and li jiawei continued this trend at athens this year. of course i'd rather her to go on and achieve at least a bronze for the medal-starved singapore, but some things are just not meant to be yeah. come think of it, it's really such a painful wait for this small nation to get its hands on a olympic medal after our one and only silver medal was won at rome 44 years' back in weightlifting. it's indeed such an irony that weightlifting is not being treated as one of the core sports now.

yes our sportsmen may have lost badly at events such as swimming or archery, but no douby the hopes of the nation were lifted up when susilo managed to crash into the quarters of the mens' badminton singles after defeating the first seed lin dan. everyone rallied behind him and some even touted him to come back to singapore with a gold medal, but alas things were just not meant to be as the thai youngster poonsak emerged victorious within the quarters. nevermind, we thought to ourselves, as both zhang xueling and li jiawei both advanced to the women's table tennis singles quarters too. zhang may have lost to the north korean kym, but li jiawei went ahead to defeat the second seed wang nan to be in the thick of the action in the semis after some magnificent display of flair. perhaps this could just be singapore's year afterall, and all that separate li from a guaranteed silver medal is just that one match against kym, who's ranked 40-odd in the world. but then again, things were just not meant to be as li lost by a meagre 2 points in the deciding 7th set. it's alright, we tried to console ourselves, as there's still a bronze medal up for grabs although we may have lost our shot at the gold and silver. plus, li has won the korean in the us open earlier this year so history should be on our side. but sadly things are just not meant to be as li lost 4-1 sets. perhaps the burden of the nation was too much to shoulder, or maybe it's because the semis' defeat was just too great for her to bear. well she did try her best, and hey things ain't that bad yeah? we managed to mantain our fourth position in the end.

but deep down inside within everyone's heart, we know that something is just missing from the whole picture. well some things are just not meant to be..

Friday, August 20, 2004

well it surely wasn't the best situation that i would actually consider getting myself into - things were looking very grim indeed while i was sparring with jen over badminton. hmm on the surface it may seem that it's just a harmless singles' match between two classmates pitting their skills against each other, but it's definitely much more that what's apparent. it's my painful struggle to establish my identity as a guy. yeah and i'm playing against a gal, and what's more embarrassing then succumbing to defeat over the fairer sex yeah? but sadly things didn't turned out as what i hoped for, and the worst case scenario of being badly thrashed by jen did turn into reality after the 5th set. yeah we're playing for the best outta 7 sets, and unfortunately i only managed to win one while surrending the other 4 to her. gee and i must have looked like a idiotic faggot running about the court, just to have a go at tryin' to return her smacks. for one, i began to doubt my stamina once again for i was beginning to feel fatigue overtaking my whole body and i was losin' concentration easily. two, jen's strokes are strong and forceful - often travelling at a velocity so fast that i could hardly react to it straightaway. three, my positioning is often questionable as i keep finding myself trapped in one side of the court, only to realise that she had whacked the shuttle over to the far end of the other half. four, i couldn't really attempt to be on the offensive cause i couldn't do a proper smacking for some fuckin' unknown reason and i'm just like a sheep awaiting to be slaughtered under her racket. fifth and finally, my badminton just suck to the bloody core and i was making all sorts of frigging unforced errors. so much for my ambition to thrash jen hehe. anyway i guess playing squash does help to a certain extent, cause your shots generally tend to be much more powerful? hell it's such a bitter experience to know how bad i am at racket games, but i shall be back one fine day for a proper rematch and show jen that whatever she achieved today was a total fluke haha =)

actually today was kinda fun, cause i didn't know that badminton could be so exciting ever since i last touched my racket at primary four. was playing both singles' and doubles' with those slackers of s92, and of course we had our fair share of amusement and embarrassment too. well i found out that the best way to triumph over layne is to aim at her head, cause she'll freak out and panic outta nowhere heh. it's always not a good idea to play short shuttles against jen, or else she'll jolly well whack the bloody shuttle onto my head. haha yep and the combined forces of both me and joel couldn't overcome the mighty kaiyun at all. final result: 5-0 in ky's favour. damn i think both of us will really need to cough up some good excuses for the poor showing this morning.

and the crappiest thing today has gotta be edna chio i guess. as both of us don't have any physics lessons after our econs tutorial, me and ky was walking together towards the bus-stop. suddenly edna popped out suddenly and shouted to us from the back, saying that both of us are patuo-ing. wth man, and edna went on to say that both of us was walking so slowly cause we wanna enjoy the beautiful sunshine. and for goodness sake it was around 1pm then, and the sun was so frickin' hot that no one in the right frame of mind would've wanna enjoy it lol. guess it's always fun to have such a crappy teacher like edna chio. i seriously can't imagine how mr stanley ong or even mr koh's gonna come out with such crappy statements, really. and when ky asked her if she's taking a cab or car home, edna just gave us a reply that none of us expected: walking home. she said it so casually that it was so amusing and both of us couldn't help laughing our ass out haha. hmm there wouldn't be anymore econs lesson for the next few weeks, and imma gonna miss edna chio a lot. *sigh* why must all good things come to an end.

Monday, August 09, 2004

it's national day today!! and yep, singapore's officially 39th years ago now. this year's celebrations has an added significance to it also - as this is the last time prime minister goh would attend the ndp with the status of prime minister. actually my understanding of pm goh only increased these few years, for i admittedly i was kinda apathetic to singapore politics lol. i guess he's not just any other person you can find in singapore - afterall how unextraordinary a person doing double majors during his uni days be right? he's gone through lots of ups and down with the country over his 14 years at the helm, and singapore has indeed seen a stark improvement in terms of development under him. he's made singapore economically sound, politically stable and also socially safe for every citizen within the country, so i guess it's high time for him to step back to relax abit and enjoy this coming well-deserved break. yeah and i think that the baton of leading singapore would be passed on to the current dpm lee hisen loong within one or two days. oh well, i didn't know i was gonna write sucha long paragraph on ndp '04 haha. =x

anyway i managed to catch the first episode of singapore idol on channel 5 after the live telecast of the ndp parade; and boy i gotta admit that i'm pretty much amused by how ridiculous some idol-wannabes can get. it's a hilarious show really, and one must either be a complete idiot or a 101% mugger to miss it yeah. seriously speaking, who needs william hung nowadays when you've got a stripper who's main aim of coming for the auditions is just to 'entertain' the judges, a china dude specially coming from shanghai who's better suited at singing for beijing opera with his classically-trained vocals, a nerd who sings so softly that none of us could make out what he's mumbling about (in fact, i almost thought that he was just opening and closing his mouth throughout the whole audition session heh) and last but not least someone who's trying to be overcourteous and kinda pissed off the judges by asking for permission every now and then. ah, and the gal who started cryin' nonstop throughout the whole thingy suddenly came to my mind. these people are real jokers man, and darn suffian from sajc wasn't caught on tv lol. i think that the next episode's gonna feature a 'banana man' - some idiot who thinks he could protect his real identity by wearing a banana outfit, complete with a banana mask over his face of course haha. bah the show's funnily retarded, and my whole family are practically rolling over the floor laughing as we witness how plain absymal singaporeans can get. and i thought that someone wrote in an article sometime ago taht singaporeans tend to be camera-shy. but then no matter how much of a flop those contestants turned out to be, all of them deserve a pat on their back for having that initial courage to even sign up for the auditioning process. :) bah somehow i feel that the show is missing some important element - perhaps it would be a good idea should they show more footages whereby the contestants get nasty and disses the panel of judges yeah?

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