The last day of 2008 has just started. It feels.. quaint.

I don't know I've been wasting time recently and my health condition isn't really at its best.. For 4 days I slept at 5am in the morning and that sucks. But hanging out with bro's NUS friends does seem to be better than a life that only consists of staring at the computer the whole day I guess? Haha.

I'm looking forward to choir gathering.

Carolling has ended, I have to say that I really enjoyed it though it was really tiring..

I really don't have the mood to update, I don't know why I just suddenly felt stupid after don't know what also. Mood swing time! -.-

This is what Firefox + Cooliris plugin does. (browsing zhongwei's flickr)

Click on the image for full-res version, that totally didn't do justice. It's like super high resolution.

And today we had 2 carol sessions 7.30/8.30pm. I'm really glad to see the J1s come, I hope they enjoyed our music :) Miss Lim conducted us for the first session! And she was complaining that the sound was disturbing to her thanks to our bad standing positions, haha. But luckily it got corrected in the second session, and I believe that we sound much better.

I'm really looking forward to tomorrow's carolling! But I'm scared I cannot wake up haha.

Today's the first carolling day! Reached fullerton hotel at around 5.10pm, and only Jason Jean and another alumni member was there.. And then I and Jason talked crap and bit, get changed, and we started practicing at 6. I didn't realise the carolling group was so large; lots of alumni members who did not turn up for any practice actually came. Haha.

And at 7.30pm when we went to the staircase to sing I was surprised that there are quite some people watching us (I expected like only a few) haha. And we sang; I know the listeners enjoy it, because they clapped really loudly after each song that we sing. I'm happy because I know that we have brought music to them :) And Miss Lim was there! After our performance she came to debrief us, turns out that we were quite 'safe' but we can be more daring to bring out more of our sound. But I really enjoyed carolling! And the christmas carols are really nice.

Went to McDonalds' to have dinner with the rest of the alumni and talked crap a bit.. Now I'm back in hostel. I really look forward to tomorrow's and christmas day's carolling because I know I'll enjoy it, together with the alumni choir and the people who will be listening. People who are free come and watch!

No I don't need anything. I'm not being emotional or anything. I'm just fine. My life is quite blank, everyday just consists of things that I do all the time, maybe that's not very blank, certainly there's lots of colour in my life, I have the alumni choir, friends, bro's friends in NUS, and the guitar to accompany me. Haha.

So.. I guess I shouldn't complain so much? Hmm.. But probably this certain part is missing, and I hope that I can fill it, but I don't know what it is, I should probably just leave it empty to provide me with direction in life? I don't know. I'll just let things flow itself I guess? Maybe I'll be directed by myself through my dreams of something..

I wished that I was Isaac Mendez, and I can paint my future. Haha. I really wanna know what will happen.

Hahaha I just watched Wedding Daze it's really retarded x.x But who cares, it's kinda nice actually.

If I really do get a chance to date someone that I've just met or something..?

"Love is a game for two to play, love is a game both can win"

Wah very long never publish here already..

Anyway, some updates.. The sickness continues to haunt me into a grand total of 2 weeks, and I finally went to see some doctor at Clementi. He happens to be a cheat because I got charged 65 dollars. And out of this 65 dollars 30 dollars went to 'consultation fee', which involves a few lines of conversation with him. Wah, if doctor can earn that much maybe I can consider being a doctor. lol!

The rest of the days are just plain crappy and dotaing with bro's friends.. And yay I won most matches. Haha random.

Today's choir prac, Felyna finally cannot take our lousy sound (lol) and 'invited' Miss Lim to come and help. Seems like the J2s' sound are not as mature and thus we are gonna be singing differently, just giving a warm sound instead of focusing more on the dynamics. I guess that might be right since we didn't have much time to learn the scores. And we gotta memorize everything because if not Miss Lim will chase us out on Saturday. Scary!

I have been having fun with Ubuntu! This is my desktop..

Haha it's a lil' bit like mac, and it's kinda clean I guess. I like brighter themes. Ubuntu totally rocks man, the level of customization is imba. And I finally managed to run Warcraft III through Crossover in Ubuntu!! XD Haha Ubuntu really has infinite potential man. Might just fully switch if Crossover is working with the rest of the applications that I need.

Have been listening to JJ songs lately and 'now that she's gone' is a really nice song. Check it out on youtube!

Heh yesterday was too tired to update especially since I was dotaing at night -.- Anyway, here goes..

Was at the bus stop waiting to go to Clementi when there was this erm, mad woman speaking vulgarities very loudly at the bus stop to herself, and she was pointing here and there. And when I was on the bus some random woman asked the bus driver at a bus stop something and then say that he's crazy. Haha. This is random.

And then reached Khatib MRT.. Met up with Di Jie, Siew Ying, Xin Yi, Hewlett, Xuan Wei, Jianyi, Junyao, Shaun, Melissa and Shilbe to get to DJ's house. And I got a wallet from 'em! Haha I know my previous one was really kind of =.= We played Wii at DJ's house, played Rayman Raving Rabbits, Wario and Mario Party.. All the minigames were kinda retarded! Haha.. But I really had so much fun and thanks for the surprise 'cake' too :)

At night was choir practice. Haha I guess my throat is still sore and I can't sing well man. Shall wait for it to recover..

Thanks everyone for company yesterday! I really had a great day :] And thanks to all who sms-ed me (Jonathan, Shilbe, Qiuyu, Nicholas, Jiamin, Renyang) and all the facebook people for wishing me happy birthday!

现在的我 不缺什么
认真的生活 偶而会难过

我们勾勾手

The lack of updates is due to my stupid sickness. Fever + sore throat + Running nose makes me dead man. I can't even speak now.. -.-

Ok so friday before prom we went to practice acapella @ dj's house.. It was rather fun we played lots of wii (lol) and then I realised that I didn't bring the prom tickets so I went back to take.. After that we went to style hair together at this hairdresser that shaun recommended us. No pictures here as I DIDN'T BRING MY CAMERA!! -.-

After that was prom! We were 1 hour late for mike test haha but who cares. And as I DIDN'T BRING MY CAMERA, I wasn't able to take any photos. Sigh. Shall wait for people to upload onto facebook haha (see that's another feature of facebook that saves people's lives) But it was really fun! Not many people listened to our performance though, everyone was busy taking photos, but who cares. Haha.

And saturday was a madness of packing things I got so mad at the sheer amount of my clothes that I was jumping up and down in my room and talking to myself -.- I hope I can finish packing today since I'm checking out of the boarding school. 6 years.. And now I'm leaving..

I would really like to thank kunwon for helping us out in the acapella practices.

I guess 我们的故事 is more or less done just some more details.. Superman's the problem here we gotta pull out the chords nicely. Now I understand how slack vocal percussionist is ~_~ I didn't need to learn most of the things, haha.

And I finally lost to the sickness demon, I'm totally sneezing like every single minute and I can't stand it. Gosh I hope I'll get better on friday before prom.

Speaking about prom my costume is totally gg.

And went to celebrate yichan's birthday today, ate at Marshe. After that we were singing nice songs at the grass there. Bought junyao's guitar haha for 30 bucks though it's 6 years old. I guess it's okay for a little strumming and playing for fun..

Tomorrow's a free day. Hmm.. I should rest my voice..

Choir potluck yesterday with seniors, we went to jean's condo. The condo is really quite cool! I like the 'setting' and its like their lift door is connected to the house! That is really cool man. So tenors went to buy drinks and then we went to slack there.. After that lots of people arrived and food is niceee we have rice noodles pasta and hewlett's self-made pizza! But the function room is really small la.

After that we were talking, playing taboo (HAHAHA to jon kee), and guitaring with junyao's guitar.. Haha I was singing 珊瑚海 outside and then we got shouted by the residents there for being too noisy -.- Apparently I heard that there were angmoh people partying and they didn't get shouted o.0 But who cares. It's actually our fault la. But I had fun haha.

And today was acapella prac, finished 我们的故事 but I guess it's still quite bad especially at the up key part, I think it was really messy. And we still need more practice to clear up the details.. And we haven't decide on the 2nd song!! Gosh. I hope we'll be able to decide and learn tomorrow. Tentatively it's apologize..

Ok I shall upload pictures to make this post not so boring.

Ok this is really really random

Saturday was choir.. Hmm we just pia-ed carol songs (didn't manage to even do jingle bells -.-) and then we went to listen to the choir it was great! Orpheus was nice. And Kalinda michael was struggling at the high ting ting ting notes kudos to him. And zhihui apparently pangseh-ed him because the choir was sharp and zhihui couldn't reach haha!

And then me jianyi xinyi xianzhe and Ms Ho went to kbox! :D Yay first time hearing xianzhe and Ms Ho's voices through the microphone. I think xianzhe's a really good singer with the nice sad and emo voice haha and Ms Ho can sing 我要快乐 so well! (it's down key but who cares) Hahah gotta go out with a lot of other people to kbox soon.

I need to pack but there's freaking no time I gotta go for potluck in the afternoon. And I'm just plain lazy.. And I haven't found my pants to suit my jacket. Gahh!

I'm so tired now, if I lie on the bed I think I'll fall asleep instantly. That's why I'm forcing myself not to because I have carolling songs to learn -.-

So yesterday was choir chalet! Went through the excruciating one hour plus of bus + MRT ride from hwachong to newton all the way to pasir ris MRT station. And then I decided to be lame and I went up to play ddr on the max2 machine which was kinda spoiled I missed a lot of steps because the faulty pads. Anyway, met up with the J2s and we had lunch, then we went to Siew Ying's house to learn acappella. Now I see some hope in ourselves, though 我们的故事 is kinda overdone but well we have no time and it actually sounded quite nice. We only learned until the end of the first chorus for the time being though.

Played games at chalet! We played random games like jigsaw puzzle (which actually consists of 2 pages of pamugun scores), split the M&Ms (lol) and passing water through cups that you're supposed to hold using your mouth. And kudos to Hewlett and Xianzhe for sacrificing their shirts for collecting water! Haha it was really fun.

Barbecue was nice we had nice food can't recall all of 'em but anyway they're nice. (Showcase of my lack of grammar, lol) And Ashton was really so indulged in barbecueing until he was like dancing around the table haha.

And at night juniors had to sleep so the bunch of seniors went out to talk and find food! I managed to survive until 4.30am before I fored myself to turn in and woke up 'the next morning' at 9.30am, now I'm still feeling the lack of sleep my muscles are aching like crap. (not like I have muscles anyway, but you get what I mean.)

Woah this is long. I shall go and try the jacket..

转眼间就星期四了！

Yeah time flies huh. Came back to Singapore on Monday, and as usual slacked through the whole tuesday playing games, using the internet, and learning carolling songs.

And wed was choir, it was the first time so many J2s came back for carol prac :) But it's kinda hard for me as I haven't carolled before and we have to learn 5 songs in the 3 hours -.- Luckily we sang 1 of 'em before and we have nwc for the other 2. But it was fun! And it's the most wonderful time of the year has 200 bars -.- And J1s did really well today I heard (according to miss lim too) so kudos to them and jiayou. I'm expecting a good performance on sat! :)

Acapella started a lil' bit of planning (no singing yet lol) but we're gonna sing later! I hope we can get Our Story right.

And today's the choir chalet. Haven't even start packing -.-

现在的感觉还不错，但是我还是好像在浪费这个假期。现在真得好忙啊。

I'm gonna learn a bunch of chinese songs and then own in kbox.

亲爱的我只求拥抱你一秒
让心跳解释没有了你不能跳
再一次因为你把自己燃烧
哪怕这世界毁灭
我也只要你 爱我

唐禹哲 - 爱我。 This is a cool song.

Going back to singapore tomorrow.. Miss home quite a bit, but well I guess I can't stay here for long have stuff to do in Singapore too. But I'll miss all the great stuff at home, roti prata, asam fish, and mum's cooking! :D

Nothing much these few days.. I haven't been doing anything productive, I guess that's just me. Learned a lil' bit of guitar from dad (!!), now Happy Birthday sounds so much nicer with G7 and C7 chords XD

And I visited 校友会 people they were practicing the Michael Jackson dance omg it's like super hard. Tried a bit and decided to slack and not learn. Haha. I couldn't go back in December or else I'll join them in dancing. That would be fun..

And acappella! We haven't decide on anything yet.. -.- There's like 1 week more.

First impressions towards this group is obviously, bad. But seems like 'first impression' doesn't work here. They're actually quite.. good.

EDIT:
omg i can't believe it they were one of the contestants in 普威之夜 (跳跃音符) in 2000. And they were 2nd place (my group was first lol) omg omg omg this is driving me insane.

Home sweet home.

Anyway, went to listen to the choir yesterday morning and I really like kalinda it's like the super nice fast song with nice parts everywhere (tenors!) hahaha. And the sop part at the end is also really nice.

This is the state I'm in:

Hahaha I am extremely slack. And unglam.

There's no sense of direction right now!! Gosh. And the guitar at home is quite frustrating to play as the fretting quite high.

END OF A LEVELS.

Haha luckily the last paper was easy. Physics mcq.. Didn't scare me as much as chem did.

After that the class went to marina square to eat mcdonalds, I ordered the MEGA McMuffin and they gave me a MEGA McGriddles wtf and charged me extra. But in the end I changed burger with sarah haha. The 'mega' is not really mega just an extra piece of sausage only.. But the Mega Mac was really impressive with 4 pieces of beef!

I didn't order that though. Must try it next time especially for big eaters like me. Hah!

After that we stoned around and we watched Quantum of Solace.

This is the first time I watched a bond movie that I really felt the 'darker' side of James Bond haha. I didn't watch casino royale though so I didn't know what was happening most of the time -.- But I know that James Bond has become 'bloodier' I don't really know how to explain. But I liked the movie.

And then.. We went to Settlers to play board games.. Played some random Ugly game where you're supposed to snatch cards and say 'ugly ugly ugly' lol it's kinda stupid. And then we had Saboteur yay it's really fun! Though we were not really having mind games on each other but it became like an 'open' game! Haha.. And lastly we played Guesstures it's like you're supposed to act out the meaning of the word on the cards before they get eaten by the machine, lots of hilarious stuff haha. I got some weird cards how the hell are you supposed to act out Dolphin?!?!?!

But the stomach ache killed the day..

Installed Call of Duty - World at War and played co-op mode with Liang Yi. It's really fun!

I think it's way better than Call of Duty 4, in terms of the graphics (!!) and the 'time', as Call of Duty 4 is more of modern warfare while this version has its story set during World War II. Thus there's more 'ancient' feel to it and it feels more 'war-ish' to me. And co-op mode is fun :D Though my FPS skills are not even close to Liang Yi's.

Going back to Malaysia tomorrow! And will return on next monday.

Yesterday night the malaysian scholars went out for dinner haha it was quite fun. We made mark and huijun do left jerk right jerk at the restaurant door lol. And we played Saboteur, all the mind games with each other haha.

I'm still recovering from the stupid chem paper so I went to sim lim square and I bought some freaking expensive mouse.

Sexy right! It's the Microsoft™ Arc Mouse. I'm gonna have to save up all my outside meals from tomorrow onwards to compensate for the money.

Went to eat at Waffletown with malaysian scholars omg the black pepper chicken chop is super nice. And the waffle's not bad too, though I feel like I'm eating butter and honey haha.

Boring.. Why do I get bored of everything? I'm even starting to get bored of guitar.. I guess I can't do the same thing for too long.

The past papers (including today) were all sucky. Econs was really hard, I have totally no confidence in getting an A.. It just plain sucked. Fullstop.

What I'm really depressed (or unhappy, whatever) about is today's Chemistry MCQ. It was hard, well, but I really didn't expect myself to be so bad and get more than 10 errors. It's just bad. Bad. Bad. Gosh.

And that totally killed my mood today. No more dancing after a paper.

Lol I found this in my pictures folder, I think it's the photoshoot during J1.

WHY DO I STILL HAVE EXAMS? I'M GETTING BORED OF THEM ALL.

ZZ

It's been so long since I last updated..

Anyway, Chem paper was okay, I had some careless mistakes but who cares. It's manageable..

And math paper 2 was yay I finally got back all the marks lost from paper 1 -.- I only did 1 careless mistake, so all is well and my paper 1 mistakes are repented. Wahaha.

And so.. Life's been uneventful as usual, have been mugging and mugging and mugging and .... Boring life, huh, but I can't help it it's A levels. Of course I have usual dota games with friends but haha dota is no life. Probably it's a socialising tool I guess. I really need to get out of the boarding school once A's are over. And I'll kbox to my heart's desire. Haha.

And now I'm stuck at mugging econs unproductively :( ZZZ

Got my hands on 杨丞琳's new album (through.. whatever means).. I haven't listened to her other songs but judging from her 主打歌 it's kinda.. Hopeless? Ouch. Not trying to criticize or anything, but her singing is definitely not suited for the 'rock' pop style.

Damn, there are so many new songs that I got but haven't listened to. Ashley Tisdale, Carrie Underwood, 卓文萱 (loves hahaha), 神木与瞳, McFly's newest album, David Archuleta (releasing!), and on and on and on. Wonder if I'll ever have the time to listen to them all, especially considering that I still need to learn songs on the guitar and playyy zzzzzzzz

This blog post is very disorganized. I can see that. Sigh.

exams!

GP was kinda lame. Essay was doable, with that friggin' air travel question being placed nicely there for you to choose it. The only bad thing probably is that everyone's doing it. Haha. And compre was a disaster. Seriously, wtf is history! Totally got owned by the questions..

Physics Paper 3 was okay, I had a few careless mistakes here and there and I'm not complaining as I was able to do most of the questions. MATH is the stupid paper I want to complain about there were so many careless mistakes I can't believe that so many mistakes came out. 180 degrees = pi/2!! Woohoo. Damn it man. I hope I'm still within the A range..

I have some time to slack today and tomorrow it's time to study chem.. But knowing me I won't study so much haha so well let's slack for now.

Hmm.. I shall attempt to record hsm songs tomorrow lol thats a random idea

Haha

Woohoo.

转瞬间，就到A水准考试的前一天了。我自己也不知道我真的准备了多少，只希望我能全力以赴，不要让大家失望。

我讨厌考试。除了需要花时间温习功课之外，考试是没有同情心的。如果你一不小心在考试当天不舒服，就完蛋了。而且在考场上就像在舞台上一样，没有第二次机会。

Life sucks.

Sent my laptop for repair again! Stupid speaker spoiled. Really really really can't live without it man. I feel disconnected from the whole world like that. Hahaha..

And I need to rely on Shaun's iPod and my guitar for music and entertainment.. -.-

These few days have been.. Unproductive I guess? I started econs revision but didn't progress much, I'm finishing up on reading the syllabus but I haven't start on reading the answer schemes yet (and that's the integral part of the whole revision).

I can't really remember what happened these few days, I know I downloaded some songs to listen, and tried to learn some songs, and I like recording myself singing I'm Yours with the guitar and hearing it HAHA I know I'm quite 自恋 haha.

Today's Seok Hui's birthday and we celebrated it at my class bench. After that we couldn't find a classroom so we were mugging at SRC benches, and Siew Ying was breaking out with sweat haha I guess it's really stuffy there. But then again we really couldn't find an air-conditioned place to study.

Went to choir afterwards. I guess Miss Lim's really disappointed at the performance of the choir over the past week until now.. I can't really comment but I guess they should be stricter in their sectionals, because from what I've seen it's not exactly very effective. I hope the choir gets better though I really want to hear them sing the songs. Kaliban!

Now I'm doing GP AQ. Aggression!!! Grrr... Haha this is random -.-

David Archuleta released Angels as a new single. He did a lot of improvisations but I think he did it too much until some parts of the songs are kinda weird. But it's still nice haha.

Il Divo - Encore (DVD)

I had one of the best 23 minutes of my life.

edit: Watched the 1 hour footage on how Il Divo was found, and I really must praise Simon Cowell for his idea of presenting pop songs with such incredible opera voices!


My rating: 5/5

Identified - Vanessa Hudgens

Seems that Vanessa Hudgens' songs have 'evolved' in the sense that they're becoming more mature I guess? The album features more hip tracks, with her singing presenting more styles in the different genres of singing, as opposed to more standard songs in her previous album 'V'. I personally enjoyed 'Identified', a techno track that actually resembles this certain chinese song which I can't remember what it is haha (probably that's why I enjoy it!). 'Don't Ask Why', one of her few 'emo' songs in the album, is nice too. 'Paper Cut' was compared to Leona Lewis' 'Bleeding Love' in various reviews and they didn't like the song, But I feel that it's okay. There's nothing Vanessa Hudgens can do at the comment I guess, since her voice tend to be softer and with less depth. I don't really prefer 'Gone With The Wind' though reviews praised it.

Oh and one thing I noticed, none of her songs exceeded 4 minutes (even in the previous album!) I don't know why this happens but some songs could afford to be longer I guess?

My rating: 3.5/5

high school musical 3

High Schol Musical 3 is AWESOME! Watched it this morning, we're one of the first people to watch the movie haha. When I first heard the songs it didn't sound nice but it's just as I thought, I need the whole feel of the movie to enjoy it. They're fantastic! I got a lot more than what I've expected in this movie, especially since HSM2 was not as good. I really really recommend everyone to watch it. It's really good.

It's now or never!
Right here, right now!
Can I have this dance?
Just wanna be with you~

Really love the songs.

this love

Crap. Emo. Haha.

lol

Wednesday was choir, went back with shaun and junyao to take a look at the choir. Managed to talk to miss lim and really had a fun chat with her, I guess the juniors really need to bulk up, they lack the structure to which they are aiming for things. All the best to them.

I really, really wish that I can get away with A's as soon as possible, for these few weeks are really boring and stupid to me.. Studying what you've been reading through for the past 2 years is really sianz. And I'm kinda scared for econs since I haven't touched any paper on econs. Haha.

anyone?

Did dunman prelim compre this morning and it was like, omg. I really hope to pass my GP, but apparently it's really a quintessential human delusion huh? Haha..

And I finished Chem syllabus, not really finished because I didn't touch organic chem but I don't really care at the moment anyway. I need to do my physics and econs..

I really, really want to watch high school musical 3, but I can't seem to find anyone who's actually watched high school musical 2, let alone interested. I don't want to force anyone or what, I really just want to enjoy watching it with someone who's as interested as me. I want to be able to sing the songs with someone, anyone, I just want to watch and enjoy it with anyone, anyone. But I can't find anyone.

bad week

This week has really been bad for me. I have almost never touched any books, and I don't really know what I've been doing. Sigh. I seriously, seriously need to start doing work. So many things to do.

We had boarding school year end dinner on thursday, and it was kinda fun. Everyone dressed up haha. Dance night after dinner, and I was really high together with the malaysian scholars. Too bad most of the guys were too afraid to dance haha. And prom king and queen were sijin and yijing respectively! Congrats to them.

I found I'm Yours (From the Casa Nova sessions) and it's like really, really nice. The lead guitar does all the improvisations madly. If only I have that level of guitar skills. Haha.

High School Musical 3 opens in theatres on Friday! I really want to watch it. The songs really suck big time when I first listened but well after I listened to Right Here, Right Now yesterday after my emotions settled it was kind of nice I guess. Maybe I need to watch the full movie for the effect. Yups.

Current Music: 对手 - Tank&郑伟康 (highly recommended!)

半生熟

半生熟 - 品冠&戴佩妮

你总是腼腆用幽默语言
填满我心里的小缺陷
灌溉满座花园让我住里面
对你我怎么可能心不在焉

你总是淘气用微笑双眼
照亮我生活每个阴天
编织整片屋檐让我躲里面
对你我没有抱怨

我为你泡的咖啡额外加了甜
赶走夜的晕眩
我为你准备一整年的喜悦
一步一个脚印让幸福实现

我喜欢你却又偏偏喜欢我
零时差的拥有
点燃温柔 让孤单解冻
小心翼翼享受你害羞逗留

我喜欢追你却偏偏喜欢躲
无条件的邂逅
爱到现在 刚好半生熟
投递着微妙的感动

...

I guess it just hits me, huh. I can't really believe that I didn't update on grad nite and open house.

I don't know also.

华语酷

我破例了，已经好久好久没有在部落格上写东西了。

过去的几天对我来说真的是有点难应付。可能是在生命上遇到了一些挫折吧。我只希望能够把这伤痕补好，不要再去多想它了。毕竟这条路上是没有选择的。

今天去找了我的英语老师，我的英语真的需要许多苦功，哈哈。

今天看到我们合唱团的指挥了！看到她真开心。这两年来我在合唱团真的是留下 了许多酸甜苦辣，也留下了许多美好的回忆。我一定会回去合唱团训练探望我的学弟学妹们。

用华语能够表达的东西，真的是非笔墨所能形容的。

我的华语真的是退步了。

我该放弃了吧。

Thank you cherie and jean for buying sweets for me.

i <3 choir

<3 choir to the max.

Every lesson now seems so boring to me that I can't really absorb much. Had econs revision lecture (mock exam next monday! -.-) and GP lesson on the compre on freedom.. LIBERTY! EQUALITY! FRATERNITY! Haha.. Then it was really, really boring because I was stoning in school from 12 until 3. Was with shaun and junyao, we went to AVT to play the clavinova, went to LT3 to 'play' drums when I realised I forgot to bring my pseudo-drumsticks (papermate pen ftw!) and went to the com room to randomly use the internet.

Then we had a cappella practice, and then it's prom performance audition! I think we did rather badly? It was kinda horribly out of tune but I guess we enjoyed ourselves. Like junyao CRACKING and going out of tune haha. After that I stayed back to watch some of the performances, there's harapan performing magic, breakdancing from MAD, and some guitar + singing. Jiayou to tack kian and terrance too. :)

Went to choir to watch the J1s sing. I never knew that White Christmas is such a nice song. When I first listened to the Real Group's rendition I felt that it was a normal song but I can really feel the warmth of the song from the choir juniors :) Seems that this song requires a larger group to sing. Haha. It's really, really nice. And mamma mia is also nice too! Really lookin' forward to their performance on friday. I really miss singing with the choir, I miss entering the AVT early to randomly play the clavinova, I miss seeing Miss Lim (loves to her!), I miss standing and putting my files on the ground, I miss making music, I miss getting scolded, I miss sectionals, I miss practically everything. I really want to go for carolling..

And I still need to find a place to stay after prom night, and find a job.. Sigh.

i want to sleep

Today is a long and tiring day..

This morning I went for Physics revision lecture (when I don't need to), and I was smsing when I got caught by the lecturer.. Apparently he called me for quite long and I didn't realise and was happily smsing away until Xianzhe called me and like everyone in the LT was looking at me -.- Must be stupid junyao bring bad luck to me in his sms. Haha.

Then the acappella group gathered again to practice for tomorrow's audition! I really miss the days where we practiced weekly for the concert.. I always thought that I do not enjoy acappella music as much as I do for other genres but when everyone sang I can feel the magic :) Really love the choir and the aca people. And we can just hit Stand By Me off even after like, say, 4 months of not touching the songs? Haha.. And Shaun's joining us to sing. :) Now the only thing to 头痛 is on the song choice for prom performance..

Today I sweated so much because I went to Sim Lim Square myself to take back my laptop! I'm using it happily now XD but I guess I'll have to take care of it more to prevent the motherboard from screwing up again -.- and then I went to find the indecisive Di Jie and Xianzhe hahaha shan't say much here. Hmm.. I came back to school and met Tack Kian and we went to hall to do our usual piano-singing haha then we got caught by the staff -.- Lucky is a nice song!

I'm lagging behind in studies.. I only read through chem revision questions, did some math (that's tby far the most worked subject), 'saw' the econs questions and physics? What is that? Haha.. To think that next week is Econs mock A level I'm like totally not prepared.

I hope my laptop won't screw up again, really!

I really miss the days where we have choir until super super late but it's all worth it because of the choir love :)

idiot.

Today..

Went to school realising that I do not need to attend flag raising
Mugged with Adriel, Xianzhe and Junyao in A201
Went for Econs lecture and Physics paper review
Met up with acapella guys to finally decide that we're gonna sing stand by me for audition (well..)
Received a call and knew that my com has been repaired :)
Stoned in school playing the 4-string guitar (power chords ftw!)
Went to gym with Shaun and Hewlett
Came back and rotted until now

Basically, my life is in a mess.

This is so screwed. What if I do not have time to get out and buy tomorrow?

pics

Wahaha I got the pictures. But they are super unglam.

If I had this pair of specs.. Haha!

Ultra big 46' screen XD compare it to my 15.4' laptop on the side.

The other pictures shows too many unglam side of me to be posted hahaha..

family

Hmm so Friday was another random day with boring physics and chem lessons.. And then I was extremely random because I went out with Adriel to buy stuff. And in the end I didn't buy anything from J8. (But hey I managed to lompang a cab trip XD) At least Adriel's got company he intended to buy alone! Haha..

Parents are coming later! I can feel the family love. Haha.

--edit at 7pm--

Went out with parents and apparently I ate 3 packets of bee hoon without knowing it's 3 o.0 Anyway we went to Sim Lim Square to repair my computer.. The technician said that the motherboard is 'burnt' and he can either repair for $210 or change the entire motherboard for $380. Nowadays repairing computers are so expensive.. I was suggesting to my dad that instead of changing the motherboard we can buy the 1st generation Eee PC for $398, around the same price! Haha.

After that we went to NUS to look for my brother, and we ate at the canteen there.. The McDonald's in NUS is like subsdizied I envy them so much -.- One Big Mac meal only costs $4.90 as opposed to $6.75 in regular McDonald's restaurants. (Why are there so many prices in this post?) So I ate the big mac meal and tried the wasabi fries it's really nice! :) Recommend others to try it out.

Hmm we went to IMM afterwards to shop.. Nothing much there except that my dad was crazy over this toyota car that he wants to buy. Haha.

Haha I just realised my life is going to be consisting of guitar and guitar and guitar, because I'm like gonna guitar again..

P/S: I changed specs! Not purple anymore.. Haha probably I lost my uniqueness. Haha.

There are times where I can read anything on the web, be it someone's blog, a random information on google, or anything else probably on wikipedia, and I'll start thinking a lot about how it relates to me, and how my life is probably worse than others in a certain sense. Maybe sometimes I just care too much or anything, but sometimes it really gets to me and I'll really crumble. That's my weak side, I guess.

can't live without you

Err.. I mean my computer haha I'm trying to get used to days without the com! That's why I'm in the com room now. Haha. Using meebo to chat and doing other random stuff. But I shall not use for long and I shall devote all my computer time right now to guitar!

But I'll have trouble learning new songs because I used to find chord progressions on the net. And I don't even have the mp3 to listen to for the correct key. Damn!

my laptop has exploded

I'm extremely disappointed in Acer laptops. I was using my laptop just now and suddenly it just turned itself off. And my power adaptor's light was blinking. When I unplugged the power adaptor from the computer it showed that it's working. Neither did the battery work.

The worst thing is, my warranty expired on 27/8.

This means, I need to waste money on repairing my laptop.

I'm like, so pissed. Acer laptops are cheap, but probably that is compromised by lower quality products. Even if I repair my laptop, it will probably be spoiled again. Sigh.

I'm not gonna buy gaming notebooks anymore. Asus Eee PC, anyone? Haha..

小酒窝

Had a good talk with Di Jie today, it's one of the few times where I actually sit down and 'reflect' haha. I need to sort everything out..

Nothing much to blog about these few days..

edit: on a side note, today marks the end of the beautiful month because October 1st is not a monday. Yeah, I know, I'm just being random...

results out

Ok that's it, got back Chem paper 1 and 2 and my chem overall got 76.9.. I'm happy with the A I got but my paper 2 was not as good as I expected. Indeed it's challenging, and I lost marks because I didn't study and memorize all the keywords correctly.. Gotta bulk up.

Physics I got 70.8, everytime I always scrape an A haha I'm kind of lucky I guess? I know I made LOTS of careless mistakes. There are 3 questions in which the formula I applied has a square in it (x^2) and I didn't square it in the calculation. 3 questions! That made me lose about 6 marks. Stupid me. But well I guess I need to be more careful when I'm doing the real A level itself. I'm quite scared for physics because I did last year's A level paper and I felt that it was really hard. There were some questions which I really didn't know how to do on my first attempt.

Hope I'll do fine in the A levels I guess. And there's still GP to worry about.

What should I get?

I had beehoon and kuay teow this morning, seriously Singapore's food cannot be compared to our local food man.

And I'm back in Singapore again.. Really wish I can stay at home for longer but well I have lessons. Haha.. I need to start getting more serious with myself..

home sweet home <3

I'm back in Malaysia with my parents! :)

Haha I love home. This time I took bus with my brother to customs checkpoint and my dad fetched me from there. Yesterday night we went to Carrefour to shop for super lots of food (which we're gonna use as dinner today XD) and I went to buy a new pair of specs. Gosh, my myopia keeps increasing and now my left eye is in a serious condition with 775 myopia and 250 闪光. Hate this.. I need to start taking care of my own eyes from now on. And we went to a western restaurant to have our dinner it's quite nice! I had red wine chicken chop.

Then we went back home and OMG the 46 inch LCD TV is super big! Haha I connected my computer and it's displaying the computer screen at full high definition (1920x1080) and we watched the HD star wars super clear man. XD And my dad has all sorts of tools ready: I'm using a wireless keyboard and wireless mouse now :D Haha suddenly my house became like very high tech. We used our old Hi-Fi system as the audio, it's rather nice but can't compare it to home theatre system of course. I'm really happy at the LCD tv yay haha I'm super high.

So this morning we woke up and we went to eat roti prata for breakfast! The roti I ate in Singapore really can't compare with malaysia's one man. Then we went to shop at BP Mall and I bought some really crazy clothes hahaha I'll wear them when I go back to singapore :)

Long long update. Will post pictures of myself when my brother email me the pics!

chem3 + econs

I got 62/80 for chem paper 3.. Though it's an A I thought that I could have done better. It's an easy paper the least, but I had too many careless mistakes. But it's okay..

Econs.. So the marks on ISP was real, I got 61.7, B. Really happy with my essay marks (19 16 18!!) but my case study flunked. Luckily it only constitutes 40%.. Must work hard for it though. I always can't get what the questions in the case study are asking for.. Ouch. At least my hard work is reflected in the essay :)

Had a nice long talk with Mr Loy today and it was fun haha we talked about lots of things, mostly studies though. Mr Loy took computing when he was in JC! And he didn't get A for it haha he said he don't really remember why he took it haha. Actually I wanted to take computing too.. But I decided to go with the norm. I'm not really regretting my choice anyway, I think physics is rather interesting. Haha. But studying in general sucks still.

Going home tomorrow! I'll miss the class kbox outing sigh why must the timings clash! Hate this..

math

First of all,

CONGRATS ADRIEL! Haha he's finally earned his A in math! To think that he scored U for block test 2. Must work hard ok! And be consistent!

Ok.. So today we got back math.. I got 87 for paper 1 and 78 for paper 2.. It's quite shocking because I thought my paper 2 would do better than my paper 1. I've got too many careless mistakes in the statistics portion, there was this hypothesis question where I actually misread the number on the question -.- And then I just lost half of the marks like that. But well I'm happy that I got an A.

And it was leaked that Econs marks were on ISP.. So I checked and I got 61.7, a B. It was within expectations and I'm happy that my hard work (a whole week on econs!) did not go to waste. And I'm like, 92% percentile. However it's not confirmed that the marks are real.. So I'll wait till tomorrow to see my results.

So I went to sim lim square just now to look for a mouse.. And then I realised that all the gaming mouses are like, super expensive. (It's better to buy a super good mouse than to buy a cheap but not durable mouse, right?) Thus I decided not to buy hahaha -.- Since my mouse is still working, though it has aged and is ready to explode anytime into waste junk haha.

Listening to S.H.E's newest album 我的电台 right now. The intro is kinda funny, but the first song (track 2 我爱烦恼) is rather weird. I'll keep listening..

batman returns!

This morning at 2.30am, while I was asleep for about an hour, my roommate opened the door and a bat flew into my room and rested on my table beside my glasses. Like, wow. Then my roommate was like super scared and he tried to wake me up.

Him: "Eh xianyou there's something beside your specs" (he didn't know what it is)
Me: ".. C sharp minor" (lol I dream about guitar when I sleep)
Him: "Eh xianyou seriously there's something beside your specs"

So I woke up and my mind was a mess and I just casually took my specs and wore it and WOAH! There's really something black on my table. Then I was like super scared also hahaha at first I thought it was a mouse then a frog then I finally reached the conclusion that it's a bat. What the hell, there are bats in the hostel! And so we didn't know how to 'disturb' it and we called the office at that hour -.- And then I saw the bat fly out of my room and I was like oh my god and I just ran out of the room hahahaha I'm super timid. Then the officer came and in the end did nothing -.-

Anything. Gosh I hate bats from now on. At least it did something funny: it shitted on my GP prelim essay. LOL hahaha. My GP essay is like crap anyway.

Today is quite a wasted day I guess? Played some dota.. And downloaded some new songs, gonna listen to SHE's newest album later. Though the first impression mark is gone I listened to 宇宙小姐 a week ago (pre-release) and it was like ........................... hahaha. At least I did some math just now! But I can't get the answer for some questions. Hell, I hate studying.

This blog post appears to be very random. I think so too. Hmm. Haha.

To all J1s jiayou for promos!!

updates

Let's see.. I am proud to introduce my newfound love: Taylor Swift! She's a country singer who's got amazing voice, is pretty, and can compose songs! Basically everything you would dream of in a perfect girl. XD Haha I'm just crazy in love with her because all her songs are so nice! Her Love Story is an amazing song, go youtube it and you'll feel the love :)

Hmm I remember I was kinda happy on Sunday night but I forgot why -.- But of course Taylor Swift is my new motivation to study HAHA there's no link. Ohh I have been watching 放羊的星星 these few days and finally finished it today, it's a really nice show :) The male lead actor is like super sweet. If only I can be like him.. Haha! Taiwanese dramas always make me dream all about love hahaha I probably shouldn't be so affected.. But still I'm just like that. Haha.

And I got back my GP essay today. I got 23/50, just scraped an E. Let me recall the examiner's remarks (I think it's Wilks):

"You need to write considerably less and think a great deal more."
"Excruciatingly belaboured descriptions with virtually no beating on the question."

The underlined words were underlined by him! Haha I don't really have any comments I knew I wrote badly because I didn't identify the key words of the question correctly. I just hope I learn from my mistakes and move on.. I'm really worried about GP but well what can I do.. Just practice more I guess.

Damn I still can't switch chords on the guitar nicely. Must practice more! Haha..

Current music: Love Story - Taylor Swift

"Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes" 

desktop

I like my desktop right now. Let's capture it before my wallpaper changes again haha

BORING DAY :)

Okay today is a boring day. It's just extremely dry for me. I woke up and started staring into the computer, after which I went for lunch and then I broke my promise by playing dota -.- Gosh. And I came back to my room to stare into the computer again. And I still am staring into the computer. I wonder how much my myopia has intensified. Hate this life yo. I need some excitement in life.

lucky i'm in love with my best friend
lucky to have been where i have been
lucky to be coming home again

I'm listening to Lucky again! It's really a very nice song. If only I'm that lucky.. Haha! Just joking :D

random again

"That's when I love you
when nothing babe, nothing you do would change my mind"
                                                                          - Asyln, "That's When I Love You"

'see U there'

Hmm haha today we went to the students' forum and some people voiced out their thoughts which I thought was really insightful, such as Kristine's views on the 'quality of education' and Sua Yu's opinion on elitism (I don't know who he's pointing to hahaha) but I think that these people are really just zhai haha. And I dislike the whole auditorium making noise, seriously, can't you all just shut up for some moments.

And after that it was GP takeback! Yay I'm like super happy because I got a U, 17.5/50. It's like, really bad. Even our class' highest scorer Qiuyu only got 24/50, everyone in the class failed (get <25). It's that bad. Gahh why am I getting such bad results! To be honest I didn't expect to do very well for GP but I certainly didn't expect a U.. The most idiotic thing is that everyone flunked summary. wth, 1/8 for summary is gosh. But I can't deny the difficulty of the summary because it's just hard. I desperately need help in summarising skills.

But today was fun because me junyao jiamin yichan and melissa was singing lots and lots of songs at our class bench :D Junyao's really proficient at guitar and we sang nice songs. It was fun mixing I'm Yours, Collide, Superman and Here Without You together hahaha music is really part of my life. It's like I was feeling really down after taking back my GP paper and singing just made me smile :) like I've never done and enjoyed like I've always been not doing so. And guitar is awesome!

Junyao don't emo ok! XD

edit: information error

edit 2:
Hmm I wished that I had a camera, or a phone camera but I'm not planning to buy a new phone.. I realised there are many random things that I really want to photograph but I think once I got the camera I'll get bored of it someday later. That's me with 三分钟热度. Haha.. So I shouldn't get a camera.

choir love :)

Hmm today marks the first post-prelim day! So I woke up and started listening to the bunch of 天上智喜 songs that I've downloaded yesterday XD I personally enjoyed especially the a cappella songs (can't help falling in love dancing queen faith!) and some other songs.. I need to get involved with more genres of music haha..

Oh and Soler is really a good group, the twin brothers have really nice voices and they got the looks too!! And they compose their own music! My my one day me and my brother can form a group like them too. LOL

Today went for choir outing @ botanical gardens! It was super fun, though the weather is super hot I walked to botanical gardens with all the sweat -.- But haha we had lots of food.. Chicken and fish nuggets, sandwiches and chips! Hmm.. We talked a lot and sang a lot, and haha we were finding sticks there to substitute as magic wands from harry potter hahaha it was fun! Lots of crazy stuff.. And junyao actually managed to remember every single line from the usain bolt video! Hahaha.. I love my choir :) :)

And back in boarding school.. Dammit why do I have sweaty palms! It makes typing so inconvenient and I cannot play guitar properly!!! =.=

Why am I watching taiwanese love dramas? It makes me emo so much about stuff..

family love <3

Hmm Physics MCQ was.. okay. I made some careless mistakes (as with how I did for ALL my physics papers -.-), but I don't really care because it's the last paper.. And prelims is finally over. I didn't really feel anything special, in fact life has maybe become more boring for me because all the time that I used to study (not much anyway) are now free. I guess I shall devote more of my time in GUITAR :D

After that went with Xian Zhe and Jianyi to cine to eat burger king because we had absolutely nothing else to do -.- Dear junyao pangseh us (haha joking!) and so we are all lonely and sad. Haha. I must say sorry to xz and jianyi for not being able to accompany them longer..

Met up with parents.. And it was loving and loving and loving haha we did lots of stuff, including eating fries shoppin' at fairprice buying 0.0% alcohol beer getting stuck in the carpark lol! And omg my brother cut his hair!! Super short now. Being with my family really rocks, they're the nicest people around. Haha.

So! Off to guitar!

Chemistry

Chemistry.. It was kinda okay, but paper 2 was challenging. Luckily I read up a lot of other stuff on myself.. And I'm super glad that I did last year's prelim to get a taste of its difficulty. It scared me out yesterday night haha.. But it's over! So I'm left with Physics (read: feeeeeeeeesiks) paper 1, MCQ is the hardest paper IMO in physics. A za a za fighting! :D

Math

Maths paper 2 was surprisingly okay. Besides the AP/GP question (which I spent a freaking 1.25 hours on it and still don't know how to do the last part of the question), the paper was kinda manageable, as can be observed from the time I spent on that idiotic AP/GP question :D Meaning that I finished the paper very early. Statistics is too no-brainer when it comes to using the graphing calculator.. Haha.

Tomorrow's Chemistry.. Supposedly my best subject, but I heard that it's gonna be quite hard, as quoted from Mr Sam Lee, "I gave you 80 marks in paper 3, I'm taking back 100 marks in paper 1 and 2, so overall you still fail haha!" -.- I guess I'll work hard tonight but knowing me I won't study much haha that's me. You can't force me to study when I don't want to nothing will go into my head anyway.

Prelims are ending in 2 days.. I guess I'll still be as no life as ever after prelims end, and I'll be even more no life because the time I spent on studying during the past few weeks is going to become free time and I won't know what to do sigh. Off to guitar!

Humans and robots living together
in harmony and equality.
That was my ultimate wish.
                                                                            - Dr. Thomas Light

Before maths

"This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm,
A broken man who's finally realised..."
                                                       - Bubble Wrap, McFly

I'm sick

Today is a very unproductive day.. Spent the whole morning guitaring haha then in the afternoon I don't know what I was doing also, I only know that I caught a cold and now I'm super sick T_T Hmm downloaded 天上智喜's songs to listen, I think some of 'em are quite nice, haven't finish listening though.

Gosh I need my nose to stop sneezing! It's irritating me so much.

'Cos you've had a bad day

Today IS a bad day. Much as I don't want to admit it, it is.

So the day started with me waking up at 8am, nothing much happened, then I was sweating for no reason (I hate sweating! even though it's like the norm for me) whatever. Then I was about to go to school when I took out my school pants from the laundry packet when I realised that it's got a BIG hole. Must be the laundry's problem. What can I do? Sigh.. That sucks. Then there was the big rain, I love rain, but I don't know why I continued to sweat like nobody's business.

And I'm sad to say that I completely screwed up Physics Paper 2, it was so badly done that I don't want to describe it.

So I was unable to control my emoness and I just showed it to everyone else.. Maybe it's me who's too ill-considerate, I guess I need to stop having these kind of sadness because it's not gonna do me any good. Spent some time emoing at the class bench and playing guitar.. And then went to eat and Dr Ang was sooo nice she treated me junyao and xianzhe to milk after we said that we screwed up physics! :) I think Dr Ang is such a wonderful person :D It really cheered me up a lot, and I really want to say a big THANK YOU to Dr Ang! You made my day :)

Hmm.. So I guess it can't be helped I've got to try to study for next week's papers to make sure that I don't screw up again.

Today is a beautiful day because all the bad things do not compensate for Dr Ang's extraordinary goodness :)

But I can't help the fact that Physics has removed every inch of my highness off myself and I'm having the detestable feeling again.. Sigh.. I hope I can recover from this in a few days..

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It's amazing on how one's emotions can change so quickly.. To think that I was so high and content with what I'm doing a few days ago, and tonight I was just wasting my time doing i-don't-know-what. And yeah, I know I'll start talking about all the things I've always been talking about when I was emo, but well that's just me.. Now I need some catalyst to lower the activation energy for me to go back to myself XD

That's when I love you

So today was physics.. I thought it was easy, turned out I made a LOT of careless mistakes. But well, at least it wasn't the oh-my-god-I'll-confirm-fail type, so I'm not sad :) I'm gonna show Junyao that my guitar can improve! Haha.

That's when I love you, when nothing you do could change my mind

Nice song! I love it.

Beautiful day

Math was kinda okay, I made lots of little careless mistakes here and there but well I guess I should be able to get > 65, so no complains from me.. Though I aimed higher deep inside my crazy mind.. Haha.. Hmm so after math went back to boarding school. Knowing me I won't study for chem but actually I did! I was reading the materials from http://www.chemguide.co.uk/ and it's actually quite interesting. Plus, it also contains some extra information so I get to enjoy reading. XD

Learnt a LOT of guitar from Hoe Wei! Yay thanks lots to him who taught me some chords, strumming styles and a lil' bit of improvisations. And adding the '7' chords really make them sound nicer :) I have set a target for myself! I'm gonna be able to play a song with smooth chord changes by the end of September. Must work really hard for it man. Guitar is just so awesome.

Chem.. Nothing much to say I'm not in the position to comment, yeah, some careless mistakes again and DISPLAYED FORMULA wth la I didn't draw full structural :( But it's okay lo, I just need to prepare for the subsequent papers PHYSICS oh my god it will kill me for sure. I'm super scared for physics.. 'Cos I didn't study much for it haha..

After reading the beautiful day story I have been in the highest of my moods these few days (even though this morning someone screwed me up) and I hope that doesn't change :D Today is a beautiful day. Even if I cannot see it, I do appreciate it and I thank everyone who made, or at least tried to make today a beautiful day.

:)

Oh and I need to mention that this month, September 2008, is a beautiful month. It's because 1/9 is Monday, 2/9 is Tuesday and so on. See it matches! So it's nice. Haha.

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said : "I am blind, please help".

There were only a few coins in the hat. A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them in the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognised his footsteps and asked, "Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?" The man said,

"I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way." What he had written was

"Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it"

Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing? Of course. Both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

Be thankful for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently and positively. Invite the people towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets. When Life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face the past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Dont believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

today is a beautiful day, maybe it's just that i couldn't see it. :) 

And I realise I haven't talked about how disastrous econs is today. Oh I just did.

Slept at 2.40am this morning and now I accidentally woke up then my body cannot take it ah.. Super painful.. And the whole mind is blank and I feel stupid -.-

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I found a reason to live.

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Went for MAF just now.. I guess it's not as good as last year's. It was more high last year (plus it didn't rain haha) and I still remember Harapan going around showing us cool magic. This year.. The performances were mediocre I guess. And last year the choir people went to the Terraces to stone talk and sing lots of songs :) So this year in comparison may sound a bit worse.. But today I was quite high with my classmates! Though attendance was poor we sang the hc songs and danced the mass dance and it was fun :D So yeah I'm kinda tired but happy today because after all it's a lovely day.

Not forgetting that it's 1 day to prelims, I think I better start reading up on Econs. Hmm.. I aim to get a C..

Define emo.. I don't know. Haha.

3 days to prelims. DIE. Life has been uninteresting due to the need to MUG and MUG and MUG and MUG.. Though I can't really concentrate, that's why I'm blogging here. But then there isn't much to blog.. I'm just scared that I can't get good grades, as I slacked through most of the holidays...

I don't know what to do now because I have totally no motivation to mug. I know I'm feeling guilty of not doing anything right now but I just can't bring myself to memorize that whole chunk of damn econs information. And I don't feel like playing games either.. I don't know what I want currently. It's a moment of no life for me.. Maybe I wish to sing but I don't have the urge too. Hmm.. Let me try to find something interesting to do.

Oh I'm hungry. -.-

Watched Wall-E today and I must say it's one of the best movies I've watched (excluding musicals like RENT! XD).. I think the idea itself is kinda original, coupled with amazing 3D animation. And robotic love is just <33333 Hmm shouldn't spoil too much, but I really strongly recommend everyone to watch the movie. :)

Rent is amazing. It brings so many real life problems inside, and through the use of music, it expresses them all astoundingly. The songs are also really nice, I really love the idea of how they combine totally different songs into one harmony. :) It's just beautiful. The characters' inner struggles, the power of love and friendship. Rent has inspired me to look at life through a different viewpoint.

"Forget regret, or life is yours to miss"
"I should tell you I should tell you"
"Would you light my candle"
"Will I lose my dignity?"

"Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes"

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Another equally amazing thing is Jason's WCG Upload 3 :) because it brings back so much memories of Graz..<3

Hey, the Sound Baster USB X-Fi isn't that bad at all. I can actually hear differences in the audio quality in music.. So yay :) And it adds nice feels to gaming, Devil May Cry 4 was fun with it. I haven't try on other games like Crysis/Call of Duty 4 though.. No time ah.. Study for prelims..

Hmm this is a long break, or long _study_ break.. I'll try my best to catch up on whatever I've forgotten in Economics..

Spent quality time with my family today :) and we went to bro's hostel to look for him. He's got his personal fridge haha the fridge in my cluster sucks. Anyway.. I bought Creative Sound Blaster X-Fi Go! It's a USB sound enhancer system with the Crystalizer and CMSS technology.. I'm still trying to figure out how it works, the crystalizer thing seemed to help a bit since I can hear the percussive sounds more crisply :) but I can't hide my disappointment in the surround sound thingy, maybe my speaker is not good enough. If I have time I'll try it with Devil May Cry 4.. :D

But I'm feeling really bored now. >.<

GP was.. fine. I did something like "The idea that science can create a perfect world is a dangerous delusion. Discuss." And apparently Miss Ouyang said it's one of the harder questions. So probably that means fail. For compre, I don't really have any hopes on it, so probably fail.

That's it.

I lost my music.

Is it just me who's too paranoid about GP? Everyone else seems to be so relaxed about it, my roommate's going out for dinner, and my other friends just gave the 'anything' attitude. Sigh, I don't even know whether I've prepared enough, or whether I am preparing for GP the right way. God bless me that I get easy questions, especially on technology :) so that I can write my essay with ease.

Let me try to recall some stuff that I've read..
"We live in a world where time and space are colonized and reshaped, where the boundaries and frontiers of reality and artificiality are engineered and recontextualised."
"We should be circumspect in dismissing entirely the *notion*"

... Haiz.

Oh on a side note I learnt some stuff these few days! Got Junyao to teach me the basic guitar chords XD F chord sucks. And got tacky to teach me some basic stuff about piano chords.. I hope I have the time to prac prac and prac after prelims! XD

I need to keep myself ready in this ever-changing life of mine, being able to face different challenges. Although I still might get affected sometimes, I can't keep running in circles all the time, because in the end I still go back to the starting point. Now, I need to focus on prelims. Everything else comes later.. Though they are still of importance to me.

Really bad sleep man. Don't know why also.

I lost my motivation to mug, and to blog too..

Probably too dependent on people. Sigh..

Today was a fine and happy day because I get to enjoy the nice breeze at 5pm as usual, haha. Second last day of school.. Mrs Tan still scolds us, Chemistry lecture was.. like that lo. Ate with Xian Zhe and Junyao, sigh I think I understand what Xian Zhe feels? Haha.. Glad to see Di Jie feeling so much better in econs lecture. Physics tutorial Mdm Chen bought food for us! Touched XD we had our last Physics lessons doing the H1 MCQ, omg it's really quite hard.

So I was doing my P&C and one shot I almost finished the chapter and in the end I can't solve the last question -.- In the end I gave up -.- and went to read GP bulletin, and Rui Yan's essay on globalisation really kindled my interest in doing globalisation questions wahaha I might just try it if it comes out in the actual A levels.

I miss singing with the choir.. Haven't been really making music in a while ;-x

It feels really good to be with my family, even though today I didn't spend a lot of time with my family it made me realise how important they are to me. I can't believe I nearly cried when I was telling my mum about my thoughts.. Really, my dad, mum and aunt are the ones that I can really turn to when I need someone to listen.

I love my family. :)

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Again I forgot that tomorrow would be the second last official day of school. I.. don't want to not go to school.

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I still remember how I couldn't sleep yesterday night because I was thinking a lot, and the feeling's coming back again; I want to be able to sleep peacefully, not thinking too much about anything. Yet it just keeps coming back and haunting me. When will I ever not think so much? But maybe it is the thinking that defines me, that makes me who I am.

Probably another dark and lonely night.

The weekend's wasted, I totally didn't mug much, played some Devil May Cry, and that's all. I hope I will have enough time to finish the syllabus, I have been procrastinating too much..

There's really nothing much to blog about as there are no major activities.. Although I do hope there is :)

Went to watch the Red Knight, and it's kinda nice I guess? The musical was super crappy but funny at the same time, we all had a good laugh XD the bands were not bad and the 自弹自唱 people were okay. Too bad Shilbe's mike was too soft.. >.< I like Don't Ignore This Notice because all-girl bands are cool :D

Don't emo!! :D

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Was reading Wilfred's blog, and I realise that he's actually one insightful guy. I do admire him for his straightforwardness, and he's cool. Only bad thing is that he has shorter fringe. HAHA

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I realise that I have been lagging behind in everyday happenings, such as, don't laugh, but I didn't know who Michael Phelps was. Maybe I'm just the type of guy who don't associate myself with sports, but I needa know all these to get into the olympics fun, ya know. Haha.

I admire you for your courage. If I could be like you..

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语

So yesterday was national day. Went to school in the morning to do the class video montage draft with jon and jacob and it was rather fun considering all the effects we're gonna add. :) Hope jacob can finish it soon.

Went to NUS to find my bro and wait for my parents. My bro's guitar improved a lot! Haha he can 自弹自唱 some songs already. Then our parents came and we had lunch, asam fish! It's been so long since I last tasted one of 'em. Stoned at my bro's hostel with my parents for quite some time then we had dinner, then went to Queensway to get a new shoe for my brother. The first time he bought a Converse shoe.. I think the design is nice but it costs a bulky $130.. And the fridge which we wanted to buy @ Mustafa only costs $160. Then my parents was like "maybe you can put your milk in the shoe" haha!

Ok junyao wants me to mention that I sms him a lot of times yesterday talking about erm banging his head onto the wall or eating rocks founds on roads.

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

I really like Crush. At least David Archuleta tries something new. Haha.

Okay fine. I was trying to make up some very very emo lyrics because I was so bored and emo but I can't do it. And I feel so much better after squeezing out all my thoughts. XD

Hmm I wasn't really in the mood of blogging these few days I think, but quite a lot of exciting things happened..

First it was DJ's bdae! Some of the choir people went to his house to celebrate his birthday. Then it was like super gang ga because everyone didn't want to sit down on the dining table to have dinner :x but anyway in the end we just did. Then we sang songs and just stoned around talking until I couldn't get back to hostel in time hahahah but it was all worth it because it's dijie's birthday! :) Haha his sibilings are really fun and nice. Must go to his house next time XD

Today's National Day celebration and the programmes kinda sucked -.- until choir comes up and gets the whole hall's spirit to extreme heights yay our j1 batch rocks. Wonder how they did it but as the songs progressed more and more people joined in the singing session and by the end of the song session almost everyone was singing and jumping and playing train just like us :D Brings me back to the memories of us singing and running around during last year's National Day celebration and yeah that was fun. I love my juniors.

Then we had class outing @ sentosa, jon came us with this crazy idea of filming the MV for "Low" (step up 2 soundtrack)for the class montage. So we did a lot of crazy stuff such as the bunch of us guys giving this seducing look and we had weeyong do his cool rapping, along with some scenes of us playing around. It was kinda fun but tired at the same time.. I left my shoe there -.- luckily my class helped me to take the shoe else my favorite shoe is gone haha

4 day break, 1 day gone.. I don't know what I'm gonna do in the next few days, it's a BREAK for goodness sake don't mug too much.

Our mood is like the business cycle. There's upswings and downswings, tagging along the economic booms and 'emotional recessions'.. Then during which there will be an increase in cyclical unemployment but wait! Doesn't tally with mood because there's actually an increase in 'emotional employment' since you become more emo.. Haha

I wonder what I need in my life. I have always felt that my life is one which I am kinda happy with, I love music and I enjoy singing, I have friends who care about me and I have a happy family. So what else am I trying to reach for? There's seriously no reason for me to be depressed.. I'm so lost in my life, I don't know what makes me really happy anymore.

And I was very emo, so I walked to the dining hall for dinner and I realised that I can feel the wind stronger when my hand is parallel to the wind direction instead of being perpendicular. That was rather lame, but it made me realise that I'm not trying enough to make myself happy.

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

David Archuleta's latest single.

Alumni concert was incredible. There's really no way to describe it in words, for it is clearer sung than told. The repertoire was fantastic, with a wide range of songs of different genres, each one speaking out from each alumni member's heart. For me, I especially liked Amor De Mi Alma, I was really mesmerized by the feel of the song, I really can't describe it in words. However easy for a song is 不了情, the emotion and the feeling that each member of the Hwa Chong Voices has put in really touched me.

Today was a boring day because I had 5.5 hours straight of lessons -.- 2.5 hours of chemistry really puts me to death. And I had a running nose today.

I hate making decisions. Every time I do, I know one side will definitely get hurt. However, as much as I want to escape from it, it still haunts me day and night. Maybe what I need to do is just to follow what my heart desires..

I need some help in EQ. I suck at reacting to situations that I am not prepared for, resulting in causing another's dismay.

I'm.. surprised at the way we handle things, we can't even settle a meeting time and dinner location with ease.

My life is in a mess right now because of my inability to sort things out and to place things in order of importance and priority.

Sometimes maybe it's just me, I suspect about too many things and they get into my head and my brain feels like it's exploding. But at the end of the day, I have to believe in myself. I have to trust that what I am doing is the right thing.

Argh! I can't find my GP A Level questions.

Today was a fine day, I was randomly reminded by our dear principal to start studying hard for the upcoming prelims. Damn, it's 27 days to prelims! I need to start mugging back the J1 topics, which I've all forgotten -.-

Seeing the juniors sing the NDP songs really brings me back to the memories of myself enjoying the National Day celebration with the choir. Even though I'm not a Singaporean, it's this type of spirit that bonds the choir together and make my heart go on. I wish that I could sing together with the juniors; it's the music that makes my heart go dizzy and stuff, because it's simply so beautiful.

I hope that I will not go back to the past few days of emo-ism, hmm I recalled that yesterday I was kinda depressed on my way back to hostel so I was singing Angels and then when I passed through a classroom block some idiot just shouted "Shut up la!" walao that was so encouraging. Thanks man. T_T But at least I'm kinda fine now? Thanks to people who encouraged me I hope I haven't been a disturbance to anyone.

My eyes feel a bit tired. What if I suddenly lost my eyesight one day? I really can't imagine the amount of mental strength and endurance that one without sight has to go through, we just take the ability to see for granted and abuse our eyes, that's why I've got my shortsightedness -.-

EDIT: I've found my A Level questions but that's not the point

I don't even know what's with me, I could be squeezing my drink packet and squirting drinks onto foolscap paper.

Today's just the same, our Economics tutor seems to be totally disappointed in our class and giving up hope.. She just gives us that "I hate you" face and then the class was like super quiet and I hate the feeling, it just feels like I don't even have room to breathe. I hate that I hate that.

After school I was just stoning around, talked to Boon Wei a bit and yeah maybe that's all, I wonder if I made the right decision by not going to Ang Mo Kio library.. Yeah, I'm always so afraid of causing trouble to every other person I don't want to be anywhere, I just want to have some rest, and maybe talk to the wall about things that I haven't been able to speak up to anyone else. That will look stupid, isn't it? Haha..

I've been having weird dreams, I dreamt of myself going back to the chocolate shop in Vienna and then I bought so much chocolates that I missed the reporting time and I just woke up.

Memories..

Life these few days have been quite sucky bored for me, I actually encountered several problems with the way I am handling my life, and I "told jason I would flame everyone on the blog", but after a while I was thinking: does it matter? It's over and the job's settled, I should just keep all the 'gases' to myself and no one is to be blamed.

Today marks the end of the choir J2s in their one and a half years of choral singing, and I have to say that it was so short. I was telling Di Jie how I wish I would have tried to conduct the choir when Miss Lim was auditioning for student conductors last year, I have always dreamed of making music with other people. It's really only after you lose whatever you have then you realise the importance of it. Music connects with me so much, I really feel that it is the only way of expressing my feelings. How I wished that I was in the comm, whether music or admin, so long as I can contribute my best to the choir.

There are so many things that I've typed that I've just deleted because I really don't know how to express it in proper English, thanks to my poor command of the language and my inability to understand myself fully. I am feeling quite down now and I don't know why this happens, maybe it's because choir has ended, or maybe because something wrong happened today, or because there hasn't been excitement in the past few days. I hope I have become the person that I want to be, one that brings joy to everyone and one that provides help in need, and not the other way round.

I think I still do not fully understand myself.

On a side note, I got a high score of 9424 for Snake Xenzia on my phone. It's quite amazing though I didn't manage to break the 10000 mark.

Damn I need Chinese input to say what I want to say.

Today was a long day man. In the morning we had GP compre which was actually quite nice to do, the topic was on banning drugs in sports competition and the passages was quite engaging. Thus at least GP wasn't as dry as it normally was. Then we had Maths, I realised that my self-revision on Hypothesis Testing was not very effective as I still do not know a lot of stuff. Gotta catch up on my work man, there's still 3 more subjects -.-

Kbox today with Di Jie, Yi Chan and Melissa. K Student package IMO is worth buying, for $14.50 (which includes all your Karaoke-on-Demand charges and tidbits charges) you get 5 hours of singing (2-7) and you get a LOT of tidbits (which we didn't finish haha). So I really had fun with the people, I am falling in love with the song 害怕 by JJ Lin, it's really nice. We were quite high, and Junyao joined us for a while and we sang One Night in 北京 haha it was hilarious. Junyao actually has good falsetto but it's damn freaking loud -.- I think I can do it quite well too :)

Anyway the session was quite fun, we were jumping around on high songs like 第一天, 恋爱ing and Julia. Though as usual I lost my voice at the end :X but well it was all worth it. I hope my falsetto sounded nice, it was quite okay through the mike but I think maybe the speaker suits my weird falsetto sound, haha.

I've been thinking a bit just now and I think that there is a need to stop my idealistic image of relationships, it's been getting in my way in my life too many times, and I need to stop falling in like with people so easily. There are just so many other things in life that I can cherish and enjoy, like MUSIC :) But anyway, yeah, I might just go back to normal after a few days but at least I wanted to drop this love thingy right at this moment, and I hope I will be able to overcome it.

I'm quite high now XD

Dear Artix,

I wish that you could wake up from your daydreams. I am not referring to the fact that you are still slacking after your competition trip to Austria, but I am talking about the thing that you have been thinking about even before the competition trip itself. It is such a fool of you to actually think that "yes, I am the one and I will fight for it" when you are not actually doing anything. I am sure that right now you must be hating yourself like crazy but I want to tell you that there is no point in doing that. Stop being so fantasy-like and stop having illusions of happily ever afters, because that will not happen.

Please start thinking about what you have been doing these few weeks. Please start behaving like a real young man and be more mature. Your childish actions and talks have made you so despicable in school that you know it yourself. Please at least find someone that you can talk to to maybe voice out your so-called troubles or you might just explode. Please wake up and continue on with your life - or whatever they call it. Let me remind you that everyone's life is unique and you can make it special too.

With love,
Artix

And I'm finally back! World Choir Games is over, now I'm back to real life -.-

So.. The trip was fun! The culture there is really different, and I really enjoyed life there. We travel to different places via the public transport (train) system, and the buildings there are really cool. And we make music :) I think we really sang well, especially for Bubuy Bulan and Pamugun (used to be our worst songs!), and the judges were really happy with our mixed choir songs yay. Though we really had some emo times there, and some of us didn't really follow rules well, I think it was all worth it the moment we sang on stage.

The food there was quite nice, except that it's a bit too expensive, taking into account of the currency conversion (1 EUR = RM 5+!!). I wish that I had bought more chocolates -.-

Oh ya there's the results, we got 2 golds and one of 'em was category winner!! Really happy that we did well for the competition, it was so exciting and happy listening to ".. incredible score of a total of 93.5.." yay rioHC rocks. We were the 3rd highest scoring in the whole World Choir Games and 1st in the 2nd half of the competition. :) we make music.

And I thank you, who have been making music with me all these while. :) I'm sorry.

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Checked my BT2 results, and I am happy to say that I got E for GP. Okay not really but well I got 4 As. It was really unexpected, as I got exactly 70 for both Physics and Economics. Especially for econs, I didn't mention some important points in one of my essays. But of course I'm happy that I got the result.

Now comes the difficult part: am I able to maintain the standard? It is not that nice to get 4 As when everyone starts looking at you at a different light, thinking that you are the 'mugger' or 'model student' or sorts. Plus I have the stress and 'responsibility' to maintain the grades, which I think I might not be able to, considering that I missed a whole week of lessons. Sigh. I really don't know what to do, I can't bring myself to study. But well I will slack for this week, still in the rioHC mood XD

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Anyway, the competition trip starts tomorrow night. I hope I am ready, I was telling Melissa that I have mixed feelings about the trip, though I am somewhat excited about Austria (it's a European country after all), I "don't want to go there and get some silvers" maybe it's just me thinking too much but that's really what I feel. I believe in the choir though :) we have been producing good music these few days, and yes, on the stage we don't reserve anything we perform and we outshine all the others. It's just this 10 crucial days, I know we can make it. Go rioHC.

Today's choir was quite different from normal, because of MIRRORS XD so we went to SALT centre and then to the dance studio, and the whole choir was facing ourselves in front of the mirror. I think it's a good way to train up our facial expressions and feelings, although sometimes I guess some of us focus too much on that such that we lost our actual technicalities of the song? Plus the echo is really bad. Haha.

I love staggering. It makes the mood of the song set in real fast, and I really enjoy staggering especially on songs like Pamugun, where you can really feel the 'forest effect' haha.

"Music will never dump you." I guess this is really true, we all live with music and we can create wonders with it.

I heart music

我累了。

It's been so damn tiring these few days, I really want to just slacken down and lie on the bed and think about random stuff when I really don't have time. I rushed finished Adriel's testimonial and found pictures for choir songs yesterday night, and I need to do my GP compre later. Seems like I really won't have time to get my 8 hours of nice sleep, eh? And I still haven't start packing. I don't know whether I will be able to finish everything by Saturday but well who cares. Haha.

Today's choir was still okay, Miss Lim flew to Graz already, so our Alumni seniors (led by Felyna and Enting) took over to teach us. Then big problem discovered: our pulse is really not stable. I think that it is because we have been focusing too much on the details and feeling of the song that the technicalities of the song starts to vanish from ourselves. That's not a reason, I think it is just that Miss Lim does not have time to care about our technical parts, she assumed us to be able to do it without fail. I just hope that we will be able to get everything nice by Friday. We make music~ <3

I can't remember who was the one who said it, but this person just commented that everything is passing by so quickly, in 2 weeks we will come back from Austria, and choir will be over for the J2s. Hearing that I actually felt quite blank, what will happen when there's normally choir practice times? I know that I will miss choir a lot, it has really became part of my life. I really won't know how I will feel after Choir Games is over, I really don't want to think about it now.

without music
my life's empty
without music
my life isn't complete
it's only now then I realise

music's so important to me