//love isn't all flowery

Since my last post,
things had worked out,
and I hope this time round,
its clearer...


i do understand that people do have expectations...
but at the same time, 
I knew I could not offer more,
I've been so caught up with lots of things...
(yeah some might find it an excuse)...
but if you are filling in my shoes...
you probably would understand...


i used to put life as a priority,
but now i couldn't...
as work is equal to that...
without work, I couldn't earn a living...
not like people who work for others...


now, i even have lesser time for myself...
coz my time is split to work and love...
even my family been complaining...
and I tried squeezing friend time in between...
its never been easy, at times overwhelming....
and that's when i need my someone...
to understand where I'm coming from...


to me, if i ain't making someone happy,
or the person is silently in pain,
i rather not let the person be with me...
coz love is not meant to be felt that way...


i'm really praying hard at the end of the day...
i won't get hurt again

// my curse

its been the third time...
that i cried to sleep...
and this time i woke with tears too...


it seems like im hurting you...
and I knew I ain't good enough for you...
I don't know what more I could give...
coz I have already given my all...


maybe that's my curse....

*milestones

been pretty much caught up with work...

since the last business trip...

preparing to shift to the new office...

at the same time handling the accounts...

that I'm still engaged in...

these few days had been emotional to me...

i was sad that I'm leaving my old office premises...

maybe because it reminds me so much...

how I started the agency sitting there alone in office...

days and nights trying to prove to myself...

that I could accomplish the dreams I had...

now, its overwhelming knowing how far I had accomplished...

and shifting to the new office marks a milestone...

in a career im passionate about...

so yesterday my guys helped in the shifting process...

even painted the office....

and I do feel bad, coz it seems like they are really working hard...

I hope somehow I had treated them well...

I treated the guys to seafood in JB...

and on the way back I was overwhelmed...

when they told me how glad and happy they were...

to be part of the agency....

im really blessed that things are much better now for me...

career wise as well as my own personal life...

and I couldn't be more thankful to those who had given me...

so much love and support all these years...

I really do hope things would be even better in these coming years...