*surprise visit

In my earlier post I was kinda emo-ing...
and as I finished typing that entry...
I got a surprise visit from dear...
who came to cheer me up...

Indeed i was touched and definitely surprised...
Really appreciate the gestures...
And kinda talked about what was upsetting me...
Dear was so worried and was kinda expecting the worst...
But well its just me emo-ing and assured dear...
That its just a phase...

Went to sent dear to workplace after that...
And while watching dear, i was bingeing this...



emo must binge on fries lo... lol

*emo

shouldn't have even utter a single word...

was kinda emo-ing today....
not sure why though...
maybe coz of all the "bad" stuffs thats been happening lately...
and dear kinda sensed it and insist to know y...
so now kinda regret saying it...

coz i know dear is prolly more stressful...
juggling family issues and now me, to worry...
sigh... me and my big mouth -.-

*pads

was at the polyclinic for re-dressing of wound...

Nurse: Your wound have healed, no need to come next week onwards...
Me: Oh ok :)

Nurse: You still need to soak in salt water and (muffles) wear pads
Me: Ah? still need to wear pads or not...

Nurse: Yeah still need... why? not comfortable ah?
Me: Err no la, quite used to it...

Nurse: *luffs*
Me: *embarrassed*

*cook wor

Me: No food at home :( wanna cook also got nothing....
R: wah! U need to drive lor later to buy dinner

Me: I chapalang cook
R: Hehe! U dun wanna drive out?
Me: lazy...

R: Makan apa? (eat what?)
Me: oyster sauce noodle lol... put black sweet sauce...

R: Wah! That one not called chapalang leh
Me: No meh?

R: Got involved oyster sauce le
Me: Only oyster sauce de ma

R: I dunnoe how to use tat sauce to cook...
Me: U can cook?!!!

R: Can!!! Maggi only...
Me : -.-""""""

r+az

one of my many favourite moments :)

*a saturday affair

Me: Dear, I tot of fetching u and send u to work 2night
R: Huh??? Why lei dear?
Me: No reasons...

So there I was fetching dear, had our dinner together...
Had a long deep conversation (which i enjoyed the most)...
and then send dear off to work...
while i was sitting and watching dear work...
I kinda text dear...

Me: Dear, ur butt very jack leh
R: My butt jack?!! Really meh?!!

Me: yeah like a duck
dear check butt at the counter

almost burst out luffing...

the following morning, fetch dear from work...
and had breakfast together...
honestly, I wish we could do that everyday...

on the other note we bumped into dear's ex there...
super awkward can!!!

*vanity

sometimes dear can be so vain hahaha

R: Dear wanna see my brown contact lens? Tell me suits me or not can?
Me: Ok

R: How?
Me: Dear u chio liao, wear anything also chio mah

R: Iyer. Lol.
Me: Dear y the sexy pose?

R: Hehe!! Where got sexy?! Sexy meh...? Its just a mere smile lo
Me: Summore lie on the bed lo.... Confirm whoever see melt one...

R: Confirm someone melting...
Me -.-"

Dunnoe y my dear say I'm cute at times, not all the time meh? wahahahha

*confession

hehehe i can't help but to smile when i say this on dear's post...

❒ Single ❒ Taken ✔ I'm In Love

Me: hehe dear not taken meh
R: true but I would rather say I'm in love compared to taken coz there r others out there who are taken but didn't love their partners. True?

Me: LOL true. Either way thank you dear
R: Hehe! Why thank you?

Me: Never felt so happy before...
R: Hehe!! Me too dear... I'm happy to be with u :)

ytd heart to heart talk was special to me...
i've learnt more about you...
and I hope you've learnt more about me...

and when i told you that sometimes I felt...
I should do something that your ex would...
like sending dinner or having surprises...
u told me to be myself, coz im special that way...
and you wouldn't want me to change...
and I did tell you that it's just not me...
the non mushy person...

and yeah i really luff my heart out when u tried playfully singing this...


but really i feel u shld do a cover for this...
somehow it suits ur voice...

anyway u still haven't got a clue what's special to me yet :)

*giggles

Me: Dear u so gigglish today...
R: Got meh? (giggles)...

Me: Hannoh u noe like the girls from primary school....
abit only giggle, abit only giggle...
then then they use their hands to cover the mouth..
dunnoe what they talk also...

R: Hah? Ya lo (continue giggles)...

Me: Dear y u still giggle huh?
R: Dunnoe (giggles)

Me: -.-"

Hee hearing your voice early in the morning...
makes me miss you more :)

things i have learnt today...

You never really move on when you never really accept reality...

It's hard been a friend to both the couple especially when they break up...

I'm not good at consoling a person...

I have my dear dear who is always willing to give a listening ear...





who is better ah?

*a day well spent

thanks dear for helping me send the CD to my client...
while I had to attend meetings....

thanks dear for understanding that I had to rush work...
tho we plan for movie and dinner...

thanks dear for bringing me to West Coast Park...
and showed me the place where u tried tackling me tru phonecall...
walking up and down that route...

i wouldn't ask anything more...
than just to spend the day with you..
coz u put me much to ease...
tho I get easily worried with stuff...

*set fire

You find the true meaning of love...
When u begin to accept each other's flaws...
My feelings for u have gone stronger day by day :)

*one last cry

like whoahh!!! whoahhhhh~~~

*say hello

Me: Dear what time you working tomorrow?
R: erm from 3-11pm ba... y?

Me: Tot wanna drop by and say hello after my meeting...
R: Hmm think better not ah coz i won't be free also, doing payroll 2mrw...

Me: oh ok then...
R: U miss me isit? Miss say miss la... action say wanna drop by and say hello....

Me: -.-

*the fainting spell and the hospital case

i guess by now most people knew i was hospitalised for a day...
thanks all for the care and concern...
and those who wanted to visit me...
but was declined hahaha coz i was really keen...
of getting myself discharged as fast as possible...

here's what happen...

i havent been eating regularly since came back from malacca...
as I was having diarrhea and piles (which apparently was mistaken as)...

at the same time i avoided taking food to avoid the trouble of passing motion...

so that thursday nite, there were alot of ppl visiting my home for raya...
so i locked myself in the room...
coz i wasn't feeling well...
and i was busy whatsapp-ing my dear...
he telling me i should eat properly (irony)...

past midnite, the visitors went home...
and i decided to make hot tea for my upset tummy...
(which my parents mistaken for making coffee)...
so as i was reaching for the sugar container at the top cabinet...
when i started seeing stars and my limbs just gave way...
me falling head first on the chair...
and the back of my head on the cabinet...
no one was in the kitchen at that time...

mum was doing her prayers...
sis was sleeping...
dad in room...
dad rushed to the kitchen thinking something drop...
and saw me lying on the floor...
the first thing he asked me
"did you do something wrong?"

i was puzzled by the question...
and was seeing so many stars already...
so i tried standing up using the cabinet as support...
and i just fell down again...
and my dad was like saying...
"if you did something wrong, just say"...

seriously, I was confused and I told him...
"do what wrong?"...
and I hadn't had energy to quarrel...
mum came and mum was screaming...
that time I tot i was bleeding...
and maybe that's why mum screamed...
sis came out from room...
and they tried pulling me to the living room...

I couldn't stand nor move...
and was trembling non stop...
mum was asking me to say my prayers...
and dad keeps asking me if i did anything wrong...
and asked me to think of god...
seriously, i didn't know what dad was rambling...
but mum managed to say...
"no, he hadn't eat since yesterday"...
"he ate only two pieces of bread the entire day only"...
"he was trying to get some food from kitchen"...
and dad went quiet after that...
mum told me then after...
that my lips and around my eyes were very black...

dad asked sis to get the ambulance...
i told my parents not to but dad keep insisting...
the ambulance came...
i felt so weird in my daze state...
the SCDF personnel asked me so many questions...
to which I couldn't reply coz I myself couldn't recall most of it...
especially in that state...
so I was carried to the ambulance then...
and was taken to Changi General Hospital (CGH)

i was pushed into the A&E...
and was wheel chaired bound...
they took so long to access me...
and then i was pushed to the consultation room...
the waiting time was even longer...
that my sis got very annoyed...
demanded that I was seen immediately...
and she said why do we call an ambulance...
if its not an emergency...
and it was already 2 hours since we reached the hospital...

i was immediately taken into the consultation room...
was assessed by the doctor...

(personally I don't quite understand what he said...

coz maybe he's from India....

and didn't like him coz he had a pungent smell and was rough checking my butt)...
I was told I would need a minor ops...
for an infection near my anus area...
(apparently its not piles as I tot i was)...
and also need to be admitted for the night...
blood test was also taken...

i was pushed into another holding room for another hour...
and was on drip straight away....
a doctor from the surgical unit came...
and assessed my situation again...
and told me about the need for ops...
so by the time i was admitted to a ward...
it was almost 5 hours since then...

i managed to text dear and wendy about my situation then...
there in the ward, a junior surgeon came...
told me that my infection had burst...
and there was a lot of discharge coming out...
and he couldn't express (clean) all of them out...
so needed the senior surgeon to advise...
but definitely needed a minor ops...
he told me to sign some documents to do surgery...
and then left just like that...

so i waited till i fell asleep...
i woke up around 7ish and asked the nurse...
when would the senior surgeon comes in...
and was told in awhile should be here...
Wendy sms-ed and insist to know which ward I'm in...
I ignored and told her nt to cancel my meetings...
and I would be fine and admitted out soon...
I was hoping she won't come and visit me....

and around 8am a group of docs came...
stand around me...
and the senior surgeon came...
told me i would need a minor ops..
and will slot me in any available free slots...
which was either in the morning or early afternoon...
and as fast as they came, they also disappeared...
i was stunned lo, never even say what should I be expecting...

I was woken up by nurse at 9am...
asked me to change into this dress like thingy...
i saw eh got shirt no pants?
and a disposable underwear...
i went to grab the other pants...
and the nurse told me no need...
just wear this... hahaha sua gu mah...
so i went to the toilet...
wore the dress...
(and i really tot the dress would be so short...
and my *toots* would be showing off)...
but well it was long enuff....

came back to my bed...
and i asked the nurse when is the surgery...
she asked if im hungry coz i couldn't take food...
since I came in...
said no, i wanted the surgery to be done fast...
and she told me we are preparing to go for surgery...

i was placed in this high surgery bed...
and was pushed to the surgery room...

(which by the way was like a maze)...
was put into the holding room...
and was asked questions to make sure I'm fit for surgery...
the person told me I will be put to sleep during surgery...
so they put me on drip...
and there I tot was the one to make me fall asleep..
so I waited and was worried how come almost 30 mins....
i was still wide awake and then they told me ok we going in...

in the surgery room...
there were 10 ppl in there...
most of them fixing wires on me...
and stuff like that...
(really scary lo)...
the surgeon then told me the complications...
if anything didn't go as plan...
and that I would be put to sleep during surgery...
(which then I realised oh damn now then put to sleep)

and reassured me not be nervous...
so was asked to breathe through this mask...
and before I realised, i blacked out...

woke up in the surgery room...
asked if I'm ok, sign document...
and was pushed to my ward in a jiffy...
i asked for my mobile, contacted my sis...
and she told me she will be there by 1pm...
I had little food frm the lunch set...
coz the food taste yucky...
and sis mentioned she will bring food for me...

sis reached with all the stuff i needed...
my charger, fresh clothes and my specs...
ate the bread she bought and chit chat with her...
recalling the last night incident...
and how the CGH was slow in processing a lot of things...
seriously, I had never seen my sis so worried for me till that day...
and mum didn't sleep the whole night waiting for me in hospital...

dear called me, asking how am I and whose with me...
even wanted to visit me but I knew couldn't coz of work...
and I reassured dear that I'm fine...
i told my sis that if wendy were to ask for the ward no.
not to give her and sis told me oh gave liao...
i was like aiyaa, i wouldn't want ppl to worry for me...
and sis told me wendy couldn't take emergency leave...
and she will come after work...

i called the nurse and asked when i can leave...
and the nurse told me the day after...
and I said i want to be discharged ASAP...
so she told me the surgeon will come and assess..
and if OK i could be discharged...

the surgeon came at 4pm...
and he went "you want to go home huh?"...
and i gave him a firm yes...
he gave an assuring smile...
and told me he needs to check my wound...
and if its ok, i could leave...
so upon checking, he gave a nod...
saying i should be able to leave...

so i told sis to tell mum that when she reach hospital...
we could leave...
and I asked the nurse if I could leave liao...
but the nurse wasn't aware and they needed to check...
mum came with food...
and I managed to get a decent meal after 2 days...
and then my uncle and family from KL came...
to my surprise coz I wasn't expecting guest...
but I told them I'm leaving soon...

the nurse confirmed and made me sign the documents...
and told me to get medicine from level one...
only thing i need to change the dressing of the wound...
for the next 1 week or two everyday...
and make sure I have constant rest...

thanks all who took concern of me...
and i was indeed touch by all the gestures...
those who wanted to drop by and pay me a visit...
to those who called and asked if im fine...

i guess i knew im stubborn...
and hadn't taken care of my health...
and been quite a workaholic...
so yeah I'll try to balance this...
and I hope I'm more aware after this...

thanks guy for the LOVE :)

*there was never right to begin with

sigh... alot of things happen within a short span of time...
me constantly falling ill...
and now I couldn't even sit or lie in bed properly...
had food poisoning and now a piles....

had a big argument with mum and dad whilst in Malacca...
had made arrangements with them...
that we need to leave there by 2pm...
so that I could have ample rest...
to brave 3 more working days...
but it seems they purposely prolong the time to 5pm...
till I blew up and told them that its so inconsiderate of them...

then mum showed her unhappiness...
when the stuff she wants to bring home...
couldn't fit into my boot...
and she insist that I put it in...
she claimed that I didn't consider her feelings...
tell me why you need 3 bags of rambutans?

what more dad said...
"next time, can't take holiday, don't come"...

and I told them time and again...
if they wanna spend more time there....
they could always consider a coach...
and guess what was said...
"you purposely wants us to take the coach"...

sometimes, i just wish they could understand more...
me having to run this agency of mine...
means I barely have time for rest what more holiday...
and my body feeling under the weather recently...
and still have to brave 4 hours drive back and forth...

im really sad...
coz it seems that I have never been a filial son in their eyes...
right now, I need to recover fast...
a BIG sigh...