the*beginning

22nd marks the day...
of another milestone...
and been declared wif p/h/insp...
officer titled dorn on the shoulder...

its been a challeging 2 wks...
overexpecting a lot of tings...
waking due early and come back very late...
the existence and the company...
of squad 2, instructors and atc mates...
will not be forgotten...
as they taught me a lot...
in every ways that a CI would ...
and might tink negatively towards...
a HO...

maturity is the key word...
hard skills is an advantage...
soft skills manages people...
commitment iis hard...
will see as times goes by...
till now cherishing the moments...

ps: see my HOBTC grad ceremony pics
at my msn space

aLLergy:sp0iLs_the_Day

I really enjoyed the HOBTC course...
seriously...
altho'initially wasnt keen on going...
den came the atc...

it was seriously slack...
but being wif my group mates...
crack jokes and stuff...
kinda of a bliss lar...
built the raft and den the jetty jump...

during the dinner...
I noticed my rashes came out again...
tot maybe after the shower it will subside...
instead it got worse...
to a point the whole body got red...
so I reported to medic...
and Andre was there as the medic...
applied Dettol...
it helps a bit but later came out more...

it was really intolerable...
and cant sleep the whole nite at the medic post...
so they gave a call for me to go out...
see a doctor and see how it goes...
and yeah i got 2 days mc...

my group mates were kind of sad...
so am I sia...
really looking forward for ATF...
campfire especially...
haiz...
hope i dun get out of course....

*spicyFOOD-a*SIN

Im fond of spicy food...
its like equivalent to no spicy food...
no AZMAN...

haiz...
i tot my tooth is in pain...
due to it being loose and need to be pulled out...
i was practically complaining yesterdae...
at work till the aunties have to nag at me...
haha for nt wanting to eat painkiller...
in the end i did...
it help...
but the major pain was eating...
i can only chew on the right side...
cause the tooth ache like hell on the left...

went home and realise it was becoz...
of ulcer touching my gum and tooth...
and on the nerve of the mouth...
the pain was like ur tooth being pulled out...
and its never ending...
haiz... got to bear with it...

anyway my allergy tingy havent recover...
im getting so many syndromes lately...
kind of worried too...
now down with flu...
im a sick dude...
[ lets all go awww! poor ting! ]
lol...

::workload

I kinda of hate my job...
really..
ppl have been telling me...
go and get another job...
im trying lar...

anyway i dropped...
a customer 2kg wedding cake...
it felt like shit lor...
first its summone wedding cake...
i messed up wif...
and next I have to pay for it...
its a day pay leh...
damn sian...

yeah any of u gt lobang...
plz buzz me...
i need weekend jobs...

perhaps::triple*mishaps

a small gathering was arranged...
to celebrate wei ling's bdae...
and we settled at swensen's vivo city...

it was indeed enjoyable...
and den...
mishap No.ONE...
the back rest of the sofa...
gt a chillie stain on it...
and it transfered to...
the back of my T-shirt...
and i tot its WC fault at first...
but yeah apologies it wasnt him...
and ended wif a thank you...
lol...

we couldnt have the cake in the restaurant...
so we settled at coffee bean instead...
and the staff was kind enuff...
to let us have it there...

came mishap No.TWO...
she juz have to cut...
my portion of the cake...
bigger than the rest...
and I was enforced to finish it...
and I was told not to make her feel bad...
by nt finishing it...
so yeah felt like puking after eating it...
all... haiz...

den came mishap No.Three...
the ultimate one...
as we were about to leave...
a bunch of gals came rushing towards...
our seat while wei ling was getting...
some serviets for me...
it was obvious a hen party tingy...
and she need to take pics wif 4 of us GUYS...
so I made an excuse to go to the gents...
but I was pulled back to my seat by the BRIDE...
and she clinged on me while taking the photo...
and best...
weiling told them I asked..
to have my pics emailed to me...
wic i DIDNT but she voiced it out...

and yeah since wen triple mishaps happens?
only to the person...
who was said to be pyschologically freaked out...
didnt have a big appetite...
and mobbed by gals...
wat a day...

*classBBQ

bbq was indeed a day...
we all cld juz chill...
and i really enjoy it...
will be uploading pics soon on msn pics...

anyway i manage to tok to dat someone...
at last...
the stares and all did came to a conversation...
but its pure enquiry...
no flingings...
shld have seen that someone name...
didnt really notice it...
i went home frm work earlier den dat someone...
and the nod and smile...
haiz... wish it cld be the start to sumting...
cant wait for another work day...

judgement*dae

indeed it was...
either it was dooms day or ur saved...
its very like project runway...
the adrenalin rush was beyond words...

"Good evidence and visual engagement...
Support ideas into an enhanced enquiry...
Competent level of technical skills...
Design is sensitive to the overall aim...
and meets the required task"...

a sigh of relief...
i gt a 2nd upper for GD and seminar presentation...
so overall wld be a 2nd upper...
in class there is 3 who gt first class...
kudos to these ppl...
im trying to put in more effort...
in my work in 2nd semester...
hopefully im able to reach my dreams...

anyway happie bday fanie...

D&AD

went to college for D&AD talk...
indeed inspiring...
and wanting to see hw far...
i could really expand...
my creativity in design...

yeah the lecturers brought them...
to see my assessment display...
and i managed to tok to one of them...
kind of nerve wrecking tho'...
he like in a rush and kind of not bothered...
i go tru the motion of how i came to my theory...
abt control and pixelation...
and he said my series of posters were good...
and yeah i told him abt me coming...
frm an IT line to design...
and he popped the qn...
will i stay in the creative industry?...
my reply was indeed yes...
dats a passion i always had...

it made me realised actually...
dat passion has brought me to wer i am...
and im really glad...
coz if not i'll end up as a software programmer...
i hope one day i'll be a good and inspiring designer...

judgement day is 2mrw...
wish me lots of luck...

confused*beb

been working a lot lately...
last sat send s home again...
i guess it will be a routine...
and yeah...
aunties will keep disturbing...

havent been seeing that person...
for 2 days straight...
haiz...
its getting ridiculous...
i noe it will never be possible...
bt y such a strong feeling...
and the glances...
thank god dat person wasnt arnd...
at least i can concentrate on work...

anyway pre-results will be out soon...
i juz hope i did up...
to the expectations...
till den... i need sleep...

siGn of reLief? u wish...

haiz...
part of me was relieved...
that setup is over...
but more worries seems to linger...

first...
during setup...
my animation refuse to play wif the sound...
attached to it...
due to diff platform...
from pc to G5...

so many tings seems not right...
my setup looks very simple...
compared to others...
haiz im worried ah...
never i felt like shit...
for my assessments....

anyway i gt distracted at work again...
dat person is playing eyes wif me...
everytime im at werk...
its so obvious dat person is catching glances...
i too have dat feeling...
bt can juz glances help...
both of us dun dare to make the first move...
and the feeling is getting stronger...
haiz...
issit another wave of crush?...
damn it man...

haiz... wish all of this is over...
i need a break...

the jibbery vibes

a day more before final assessment...
feeling the nerve wrecking a lil'bit...
2mrw will be paint session day...
cum preparing the lightings...
dumping all my stuff there...

wed will be setup day...
hope all turns up well tho'...
full exhibition mode...
i hope i rawk up to expectation...
*pray hard for me ya...

letsC-if-diz-w0rks

todae...
im forced to send s home...
kind of willing to actually...
bt kind of nt showing it...

auntie kept disturbing me...
send her home...
anyway she broke up...
wif her ex...
so her ex kind of still...
waiting her at our workplace...
sound like my story?... haha
she's freaked out...
so she called her parents...

apparently they cant fetch her...
so i decided to send her home...
her father was waiting for her...
at the void deck...
haha.. i panicked...
and of coz he so called asked me...
my bckgrnd and work...
and whether im skooling...
like kena interrogated...
and he invited me to their house...
i declined... wth 11+pm...
and he asked me sure?
wat was i suppose to say?...
of coz NO lar...

anyway the crush is der lar...
bt is she the rite one?...
she is 16 btw...
let fate takes it toll...

i oso realise...
a lot of eyes were on me...
its juz i didnt notice...
and apparently i noticed today...
hmmm... strange... y huh?
will see....

back-in*sG

im back...
well i did went to malacca...
with a heart tinted wif grief...
well...
i shall not dwell on that...

anyway i did try to enjoy my trip there...
wif my cuzzins and all...
the lemangs, the bazaar raye and all...
an escape frm skool werk...

with the fake smile and all...
this raye is meaningless to me...
like i always believe...
its a blessing in disguise...
and im still waiting to be blessed...

*griefed

im seriously crashed...
i juz dun understand...
y im treated so insignificantly...

dad juz drop a bombshell...
u are not suppose to bring ur lappy...
i got tonnes of work to complete...
and i juz knew i couldnt finish on time...
and his reply was simple...
u will spoil ur lappy...
and my relatives will tink im freaking rich...

and i gave my stand...
wic he juz retort back...
den dun go...
stay at home and do ur work...

FINE...
i will stay at home...
15k is noting to him?!
if i fail... den the blame goes to who?
this year hari raya means noting to me...
im all alone in sg...

*bless

critic review was over...
i tot i was dead...
bt yeah did fine i guess...
"good start... need to go indepth...
do the unexpected"...
dats the comment i got...

den came the results for journal...
i was expecting mere pass...
but...
i got high second class grade...
[ jumps up for joy ]...
didnt really expect that...

anyway i bought a new shoe...
NIKE 6.0 grey edition...
cool seh...
haha... thanks for the company...
altho'the after shoe shopping...
wasnt really enjoyable to me...
but the chats were great...
i tink ppl tink we are mad...
anyway...
nw to slack a bit...
before going back to Malaysia...

away 21-24 Nov...

low*self~Esteem

here I am...
at the most inappropriate time...
facing my lowest morale...
ever...
I never felt ever like this...

ppl are starting...
to backstab me in work...
for dunnoe wat agenda...
2 days in a row...

den workcheck is coming near...
and im no where near...
to 70% completion...

i almost declare of giving up..
seriously giving up on werkcheck...
thanks for coming at the rite time...
u noe who u r...
if nt for ur motivation...
i'll be drowning now...
thanks...
[back to werk]

morn'blues

here I am ....
early in the morning...
updating my blog...
after breakfast...
to prepare for fasting later...

my toothache has a mind of its own...
it only hurts...
wen i drink cold drinks...
or any cold stuff...
y deprived me for such luxury...
i luv cold stuff...

my side still hurts...
and gt huge blueback...
wic refuse to go away...

haiz...
in pain all over...
2mrw still need to work...
how to work in pain...
imagine talking wif a toothache...
and holding my side due to pain...
haha... cartoon lor....

k*aus

chaos...
yeah...
dats hw i describe my day today...

today was submittive feedback...
i went there like zombie...
due to lack of sleep...
coz work the prev day...
but overall...
my work was a OK...
no worries on dat tho'...
"impressive" was the key word...
i hope it means gd tho'...
i tot my works were sucky...
and incomplete...
esp my visual directory...

wat pisses me off...
was to see a niche of my idea...
superimpose on someone's work...
hey! it takes a hell of a time...
to think of this idea...
and u easily apply it on ur work...
wth...

den went for design seminar...
and yeah my lecturer...
literally fell on me...
almost...
she screamed..
i was like woooahhhh...
thank god she didnt...
in the midst of the chaos...
i hit the edge of the railing...
on my side...
and its blue black now...

the seminar was damn long...
and draggy...
and ppl juz cant understand...
wen i reject calls...
mean im busy...
and they juz dun understand...
and its reallyx10 irritating...
the whole ting ended like 6.15pm...
left me with a splitting headache...
had to break fast outside...
at macers wif hidz and zuli...

and i realise i gt this...
throbbing toothache...
wic was mild in the morning...
bt aching like hell now...
its been awhile since i gt toothache...
like wen i was in primary skool...
and i drank cold drinks...
wic severe it...
gd me...

sum it up...
im left wif bruises+headache+toothache...
and nw im feverish...
wat a combo...
...

strong*vibes

have u ever experience...
a strong vibe...
dat a person u dun noe...
wld juz be the "one" for u?
juz by looking at that person...

wah this feeling juz wont go...
could dat be the special one...
seems like love sick hor...
haha...

anyway im slacking now...
haha...
work is nt getting in to me...
cnfrm die comes to workcheck...
wake up azman!!!...
haha... time to werk....

present-presentation

yes at last...
seminar presentation is over...
[ jumps up for joy ]...

its seriously nerve wrecking...
esp when u are scheduled last...
everyone was practically dead tired...
and wantig the day to end...
for me...
the anxiety escalate every moment...
a person ends his/her presentation...
i did manage to deliver my presentation...
and it was smooth sailing...
thank god it did...
i only had 4 practises...

i*SLIM-i dun be-live

I did had an MSN chat wif Kak Nini...
and as usual...
she has to comment on my looks...
and weight...
yeah she said i look like...
I lost a lot of weight...
and asked wat had skool and work...
done to me...

haha...
truthfully...
i felt i didnt lost weight leh...
eating more at night even...
but irregular meals ah...
she said dun get eating disorders...
haha...

anyway yeah i did lost weight ah...
managed to loose like 5kg...
within 3 months...
haha...
im sure girls envy the weight lost....
but seriously...
i didnt even exercise ah...
too caught up wif work i guess...

anway...
work is getting more hectic...
i guess need more time to do work...
haiz....

~relinquish

i juz chuck my work aside...
been too busy wif work...
and decided yeah to slack abit...
feeling guilty now...
haha...

anyway...
i did some surfing on the web...
looking at my friendster list...
my msn photos and all...
kind of miss my past...
the activities i used to do...
i miss those moments...
the carefree me...
so called tho my schedule were packed...
its a fullfillment...
and now i felt somehow empty...

i dun regret my decisions and all...
missing np and stuff...
juz reliving those days...
the speech day, my company, freelancing...
all those...

wat i seek now is fullfillment in studies...
and after dat a good career...
one step into adulthood...
haha damn it im 23...

*shopping4iDeas

yeah interesting is it?
dats wat my class did for our lesson...
it was held at citylink...
and we were given a list...
guide to shops...
and be inspired...

and truly I was...
wif the help of my group members...
we scout places and helped each other...
along the way...
and wat more to end wif la kopi...
at TCC...
plus pool and makan session...
wif the rest of the class...

truly blessed...
check out more photos at my space...


cool group chilling

who say makan session is nt fun?!

disappointment*reveals

haiz...
i dunnoe...
kind of disappointed i guess...
the hard work...
plus sleepless night...
to prepare for workcheck...
didnt pay off for me...

i gt a lower 2nd class grade...
compared to last workcheck...
i got higher 2nd class grade...
didnt really noe wer i went wrong...

my review was...
on the right track...
den wats wrong?...

guess putting in much effort...
didnt pay off sumtimes...
haiz...haiz...haiz...

peng:more:food

yeah at last...
i did not need to care for my project...
tho' i did tink abt it tru-out the nite...
bt indeed it was a fun class bbq...

my life indeed was a turning point...
for the better i guess...
after all this year...
of heart-pain and turmoil...
now there's a person to share...
my probs and happy moments...

anyway the class bbw was a blast man...
the fun part were the games...
uno, heart attack...
bt the worst was...
truth or dare...

i kena 2 truth and 2 dares...
my dares were to act like a monkey...
and the other was to dance erotically...
haha... u wldnt want to see dat...
my truths?
yeah we shall nt dwell on dat...

work check is coming again..
yeah back to sleepless nites...
AGAIN....

more pics of bbq at
http://armanique.spaces.live.com/

wake_up-CALL

yeah i cant stop whinning...
been busy... lack of sleep..
cranky and stuff...
yeah workcheck is over...

my grades...
haiz...
a second class pass...
due to my storybard...
other than dat i did practically well...
compared to some frens...
now im back to more experimentation...
coz...
workcheck is coming in 2 weeks time...
and seminar presentation...
im damn freaking out...
no time...

yeah my display... haiz

when.planes.juz.dun.fly

PC Crashed...
Revived...
Thumbdrive lost...
Unable to retrieved...
Such a chaos...

Now doing all my work on lappy...
The only reliable solution...
My outcome to my ongoing project...
Subject of pixelation...
Will be an animation/video...
Entitled...
The Quest for the forgotten Singapore Girl...
Haha... kinky?
Nah...

Havnt tink of the storyboard yet...
Kind of stuck also...
Yeah if you all got ideas...
Do pour in...
Anyway dont forget to fill up...
my online survey yeah...
http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.asp?u=182882529260

Till then lakopi at airport...

*busyBumbleBee

wah busy busy busy...
work + study...
no time to rest...
yet i will always find time for her...

i knew i told you all...
dat i will not commit to any relationship yet...
but yeah she somehow captured my heart...
haha... love sick... erm...
shall not dwell on that...
will be meeting her soon...

pixelated*MIND

wah* its a mind boggling week...
sorry for the no updates these days...
my mind is totally spent out...
juz thinking of my honours topic...

from the topic of emotion...
can become about maternity...
den comes to "tudung" society...
i was wth wif me man...
i tink my lecturer like saying...
u better make up your mind...
yeah so i've settled down with pixelation...
at last..

so my honours topic "Visual Stimultation Tru Pixelation"...
Kinda cool rite...
Yeah hope this works man...
[ me in mantra state ]
back to sleep... i need sleep

insiGnificant*souL

its amazing really...
once a person left...
u see his name flying here and there...
in everyone's blog...
maybe still in some ppl's heart...

im touched... really...
that an insignificant soul like me...
could touch ppl's heart in many ways...
im here to stay not to worry...
im juz a buzz away...

some things are meant to be historical...
and nvr be revisited...
but some might be...
it might juz be...

[cant wait for my next meet up]

convo*06::pics

i noe...
a long time...
been busy...
yeah take a look at http://armanique.spaces.live.com

thanks for the company yeah today...
im hoping to see more of u...

convo*06

4th August '06...
a date to remember...
a diploma earned...
a really tough 1 year...

DIPLOMA IN COMMUNICATION DESIGN...
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
i made it... its really like a rollercoaster...
from knowing nothing about packaging...
knowing printwork even as easy as folding....
i managed to cope the tough 1 year...
going up the dais to receive my scroll...
was a real accomplishment...

thanks mom and dad for believing in me all this year...
thanks dad tho' we have to leave early...
it meant so much to me by being there...
and stayed on while i knew u were sick and groggy...
thanks a lot for the support...
in letting me continue my honors degree programme...
its tough for me financially and for my parents...
i wont disappoint u guys...
i'll promise to get at least 2nd class honors...

for my classmates...
thanks for teaching me a lot of stuff...
and get me accustommed to the college...
w/o u all i would have drowned...
sorry to leave early and didnt get to take a class photo...
to ade, ray, ck a great memories all the class bbq and stuff...
and the nonsensical crapz u all poke at me...
to shin yee, edward and the rest...
best career ahead...
for me... back to writing thesis and research...
i better not screw this up...
haha...

{i will upload the photos once i got my dad camera}

controlled*emo

Im fine...
Seriously... fine...
Ppl have been asking...
Bout my nick on msn...

haha nothing to be worried lar deng...
dats my freaking theme...
for my thesis this semester...
on the theme control and security...
so yeah decided on the "control emotions"...
what drives it and investigating on the external factors...
wic evokes the emo...
haha... sound so me...
i guess...

anyway its an interesting topic...
wish me luck!!!

Mishaps:Perhaps

heart-broken again...

M's sista came down ard 7pm...
ask wer she is...
I told her she knock off work long time liaow...
Den she like suspicious...
After dat found from M's sista...
M wif her BOYFRIEND...
yeah she's attached...
me heart broke into million of pieces...
no time to pick them up even...

Anyway things have been cleared up...
I juz hope dat person understand my situation...
Rite then and now...
Things change for a reason...

brandNEW:hp

at last i got myself a new hp...
i managed to revive my samsung hp...
and quickly traded it in...
with ericsson k750i before it died on me again....
haha i managed to trade it worth $120 dollars...
and yeah + $15 bucks discount...
cool yeah...

thanks for the help...
to the friends who aid me in my hp hunt.

mishap::perhaps::watever shit

haiz:haiz:haiz:

my hp gave up on me...
yeah... seriously...
first its keeps shutting itself off...
then i decided to take the battery off...
put it back...
then it totally refuses to on...

before dat i lost 20 bucks...
dunnoe wic bugger go take frm wallet..
and denied frm taking it...

den in college...
everyone gt this spastic smile...
all too stressed up by the briefing...
held by my lecturer...
on wat to expect and the project for this semester...
its practically research all the way....
and boy am I worried....
I do want 1st class honours and it will take a lot from me...
but the assurance is there as long as Im committed...
and yeah as usual need to comment sumting on me...
"so next time tink why u buy adidas" she said...
and there i was with a red adidas beg on the table...
thanks hor...

went back wif all this wories and yeah...
caught myself a splitting headache...
haiz:haiz:haiz:

resolve:rework

aha im down by 5 kilo...
weight-ed myself...
probably due to work...
inconsistent meals...
and the flu...

yup bt im nt complaining...
im happy dat i managed to "slim" down...
haha...

anyway gt my skewl schedule...
and its damn packed...
to everyday a skooling day...
compared to 3 days from last semester...
at least its worth my 10k at least...
ooops... my dads' i meant... sorrie dad...
yeah nw priorities will be skewl and work...
no more np..
no more slacking [ wic i rarely do ]...
no more wat-so-ever commitments...
yeah maybe even bgr for a year...
to achieve my bachelor honors...
kudos azman...

yeah dats my resolution for this year...
a bit too late tho'...
bt heck wats...
proirities are priorities...

ahoy`captain

altho' was expecting an earlier show...
it was not disappointing at all...
while gals drool at Johnny Depp...
Well for me...
His acting was superb!!!...
Witty and yeah liked his line...

Really enjoyed the 4 hours...
Waiting time...
till the movie...
while following someone...
marketing at Shop&Save and den NTUC...
And the chatting session at beans...

Yeah shld spend more time lepaking...
A blisss.....

bi*polar

No it does not mean...
Working at 2 Polar outlets...
at one time..
No... No... Haha...

Kind of watched Oprah Winfrey show...
And the topic was on bipolar...
which means depression...
And its kind of surreal...
to see...
actual Hollywood stars...
Having once experienced this...
and still on medication...

Leads to low self esteem...
violence and anger...
suicidal...
thank god im not like dat...
im weird haha...
so out of the category...
maybe more to the hougang chalet side...
haha... ok dats it...

matchmaking services

ppl juz dun quit i guess...
trying their best...
to matchmake me...
haiz... give it a rest ppl...

my parents are...
so did the aunties in my workplace...
"Azman u and M suitable"...
" go lar date her out"...
and best of all...
she said it loud dat M can even hear it...
yeah she is pretty...
and i gt a tiny weeny interest in her..
bt damn pai seh seh....
y need to say it out loud...

anyway my parents came over...
to my workplace and saw the gal...
as usual my dad ask...
"hmm the gal quite pretty"...
Damn part II ...

des|gned to dest|ned

nini told me...
i lost a lot of weight...
and my complexion getting better..

I was wat the hell man...
down wif terrible flu...
nt been eating regularly...
less sleep...
frantically tired...

and yeah dats the comment i gt...
guess shld stick to this routine...
i gues...
haha...
i miss running...


my so called designer look...

anyway the website i did was up...
www.ditto-studios.com
more improvement to come tho...

its a bird | a plane | a flop

such a disappointment...
so cliche...
juz like a season premiere...

it was far cry from smallville...
or even X-Men the movie...
maybe he shld change to a singing career...
haha...
seriously ppl dun watch...
stay home and watch soccer...

silence-means*not-absence

yeah been quiet these days...
havnt gt the time to update...

was down wif bad flu for 3 days...
no sleep yeah seriously no sleep...
been completing this freelance job of mine...

www.ditto-studios.com

anyway skewl will soon start...
cant wait for the challenge...

*dreams

a decision was made...
and actions were taken...
once a dream...
had been juz a dream...

a decision...
i might have regret...
but must be made...
frenship still prevails...

i wish u all the best my bro...
to fulfill ur dreams...
and once mine too...

sunBurnt

im back from the ATC Camp...
Yeah the gruesome sun...
and the sleepless nites...
due to tormented rains...

the cycling during the topo...
made me shacked out totally...
and the lack of sleep...
adds the unbearable...

overall i did enjoy the moments...
especially the campfire...
most probably the last ATC...
and the last NPCC event...
Dat i will attend...

traits of confusion

i dun understand...
y a simple answer...
can create a confusion...
and worse a war...

y need a chime explanation...
wen a simple ok or a no...
is enuff to justify the qn...

i guess im juz a simple guy...
bt ppl expects me to be difficult...
i dun need explanation...
for every action or questions...
coz i understand...
truly i do...

lets move on...
i forgive and forget...

black:VS:white

the aunties at my workplace....
are giving names to me...
and a co-worker...

they are calling him...
xiao hei [ little black boi ]...
and me...
xiao pei [ little white boi ]...
reason coz he's...]
darker in complexion [ indian ]...
and me coz im fairer than him...

like dat oso can...

a :new image

yeah gt mc frm work today...
so got bored and came out with...
my very own skin....
tadaaaa...
not so exciting....
haha...

influ~ENZE

down wif a flu syndrome...
plus piss off wif lots of stuff...
wat a combo...

someone told me...
i need a time off...
to sort and give myself a break...

i guess so...
i hardly have time to rest...
and ever so busy...
my schedule is damn packed...
bt wat to do...
i need money...

mixed-feelings

haha...
today im like hyper dunnoe y oso...
i was toking to a fren at famous amos...
toking in malay...
while serving customer...
and i said the price...
in malay to the customer...

her face was priceless i tell u...
haha den i broke into fits...
of laughter...
infront of the customer...
she too laughed...
and my fren laughed too...
haiz... giler ah me...

anyway remembered the gal i told ya...
the one smiled at me...
wen she went towards the toilet...
as i walked out...
she surprised me...
she said in malay...
going home oredi?...
i tot she is a foreigner...
her sweet smile has sumhow affected me...
again.... i wonder...
will it heal for another...
hmmm...

anyway my mum told me...
her tumour is getting bigger...
and the doctor is nothing...
im quite worried...
worried she's hiding things from me...
i prayed hard...
noting will happen to her...

*~solitude

i got a new office space...
thanks bro for the trust...

lots of plan came out...
to revive my dying ambition...
an entrepreneur...

almost evryting is dying...
everyting...
and my only companionship...
is tiredness...

i guess time will heal evryting yeah...
and it always does...

hick:hick:hick:

hick... gt a new hair cut...
hick... gt salary come in ...
hick... im in ecstacy...
hick...

super:2-lan

as expected...
the bbq was a failure...
coz everyone...
yes i mean everyone...
naturally...
wld expect me to make it happen...

im nt giving in anymore...
no more...
call me ask me diz and dat...
wen i dun plan and didnt buy the food...

someone dragged me to ntuc....
after my long working hours...
to buy food for bbq...
i tu-LAN... seriously mad...
den came someone...
w/o any "hi" or "how r u?"...
juz add the fuel to the flame...
thanks ah all...

draineD

yeah its me again...
feeling the worst of me AGAIN...
yeah again...

work at POLAR::NP:school:freelance work:company:voluntary work
dats hw freaking busy I am...
and ppl say let go...
how I wish it was easy said than done...
rite nw I juz felt dat Im not appreciated...
and it hurts...
seriously...

ur juz plain kind Azman...
wake up ur idea...
its killing u...

yet I failed to hear...
symphatetic?
plz dun coz im juz freaking tired...
wif the crap...

t0rmented:apart

stabbed::skinned...
watever it is...
since wen life is full of happiness...
not for me...
its a dream ah...

ppl wld juz find the tiniest...
weakness in u...
den make it an issue...
a wold-wide epidemic...

yeah yeah my fault lar...
coz too nice to ppl...
bt isnt being nice is gd?
nw im confused...
gd = evil or equals to fights?!

s0me issues is meant to be ignored...

so nw... juz "buat bodoh"...

f:c:u:k-up

juz plain tired ...
hated work currently ...
seems design works are in coming ...
and everyting falls into place ...

yet time is always a factor ...
need to juggle ...
yet complain ...
yet kept doing ...
yeah dats me ...
complain yet still do ...

need time for myself ... really ...
to look back at life ...
and do self reflection ...
coz i seriously tink im loosing a grip ...
of the me i know ...
yet the reason is hidden ...
between midst of confusion ...
wth im so the dramatic ...
haha ...

me:missionIMPOSSIBLE

yeah went to watch MI:3 todae...
Wif kak Nini and B2...
haha code names we gave each other...

Anyway the movie struck me...
They seldom do actually...
Its the part wer Tom Cruise and diz gal...
whom he proposed later...
Well..
The gal was asking...
"Why wouldnt you tell me?"...
"Is it something I should knoe?"...
Well it struck me...
Ppl say dat im complicated and stuff...
I cld be cold and sumtimes warm to sumone and such...

Its seems complicated I guess...
I like to bottled up...
Sooner or later when its surpressed...
It will burst...
Haha i dunnoe wat im mumbling..
Zzzz.. ] doze off to lala land [
Nah X-men dream...

k.p.o aunties

Haha work is fun lar seriously...
Stress free...

Aunty at my work place ask...

U hw old?
Study ah?
Full time - Part time?
Gt Girlfriend or nt?
How many siblings?

23 ah aunty...
Studying lar...
Part time ah coz skool vacation...
No lar... come find for me lar...
Younger sis only...

So handsome no girlfriend?
Handsome was flattering...
But the girlfriend tingy heart pain ah...

No ah aunty i come here to find chio bu...

Ah boy u naughty ah...
I called my daughter find for u one...
Haha... okok aunty...

Btw wen i was going out from the toilet...
A malay gal was heading towards the toilet...
She smiled...
I melted...
And smile back...
Shld have taken her no. ah...
Aunty said aiyaaa. too late lar...
Nvr mind find another one...

Haha...
Dats y work is FUN!!!

KawaLan Kehorma+an

Yes Speech Day was over...
Kind of screw it up...
Forgot one command...
But yeah juz live with it...

Had a family photo and all...
It was a blast...
Seriously...
Will miss this day...
Haha...

But best of all...
Was the b'dae bash...
The water being thron at me...
Cold water mind u...
I was super duper drench...
From head to toe...

Anyway here's the Speech Day photos
http://spaces.msn.com/armanique/PersonalSpace.aspx?_c11_PhotoAlbum_spaHandler=TWljcm9zb2Z0LlNwYWNlcy5XZWIuUGFydHMuUGhvdG9BbGJ1bS5GdWxsTW9kZUNvbnRyb2xsZXI%24&_c11_PhotoAlbum_spaFolderID=cns!AEA35D497E6141E5!151&_c=PhotoAlbum&_c02_owner=1

The family I'll never forget... fuyoo nice rite!!!

Good Kakis w/o wc and a few more ppl

Despaired-aGain

At last assessment is over...
But it didnt kill my despair...

Results are not out yet...
But from the assessment comments...
I didnt tink I did well...

Well the comments go...
No evidence of visual research...
Repetition of artwork...
Could have done better...
Overall mediocre...

My blood was boiling..
So much hard work...
Then the best part...
someone said...
"disappointd in ur work"...
"u wld have done better"...

And yeah she told me...
Dat my work is OK...

Maybe Im just paranoid...

Anyway kind of heart pain...
Saw someone being drove off by someone...
My fren said ...
"U jealous huh"...
"No lar"...
haha...
Actually I am...
Hmmm...

Break Even

the break was much needed...
and it did release the tension I was having...

The serene beauty of a simple kampung life...
The authentic "ikan bakar" -[grilled fish]...
By the beach...
The "pasar malam" which is so cheap and way too cool...
Good food...
Ah... wish cld stay there forever...

I cldnt believe I actually eat this petai...
Erm wic is steamed and eat wif coconut...
Its kinda like a snack...
I actually expect it to be bitter...
But yeah its Ok yet tasteful...
Wldnt want to try more tho'

I really miss my kampung..
Beckons me to re-visit again...
I will...

[speechless]

wah...
[speechless]

too tired ah...
been a long time since i took up...
the parade commander position...
my voice is officially rockers...
haha...

my legs are numb...
im like totally spent out...
comes fancy drill was killer...
too tired...
gotta run to take up position lor...

wah...
[speechless again]

kena::cheated

promised my parents...
wanna blanja dem makan ah...
once my freelance pay came in...

my mum suggested buffet ah...
at Han River Restaurant...
coz she say worth it ...
each person only $13++...

it was a blast ah...
my parents dunnoe hw to ..
barbeque and use the steamboat...
haha... funny ah...

bt the best part comes the bill...
its like $100 bucks lor...
wah there is 10% service charge...
5% GST...
the service charge is like close to 10 buck...
GST 4 bucks...
Then plus the tom yam paste 3 bucks...
Plus the drink is 8 bucks...

Definitely my first...
and my last...

cursed

nothings getting any better...
its a curse perhaps...
felt shitty...

projects due...
stupid holiday wif parents...
frens..
np..
yeah almost everyting...

i noe sum frens are there for me...
thanks for hearing me out...
yet i cant really find...
the source of all this...

yeah tink the cycle will repeat again...
y must it all happen..
hadnt i had enuff already?

turmoil

haiz...
damn tulan these days...
wif np i mean...
so many conflicts...
so many tings to settle...

i noe.. i noe...
i seldom complain regarding this...
bt getting tired...
of fighting the rights...

tho' looking forward to the big day...
bt its really...
tiring out...
no motivation at all to go np...
juz makes u angry only...
haiz...
will see ah..
wen times rite...
ill leave...

quizzed::

Haha..
Here I was sitting...
Wif my laptop...
Infront of the TV...
Wif my parents...

Den Dad all of a sudden...
pop a question...
"So hw's the tudung gal?"...
"The one in the pic"...
It triggers my laughter...
since wen he noes...
and since wen a tudung gal...
Haha...

This is nt the first time he asked...
about my relationship...
Nt ready ah...
So many turmoil...
Guess it will come huh...

Then he continued...
"bring her home ah"...
"can get to noe her"...
I tink i noe who he meant...
She's nt ready I guess...
I will... but nt soon..

tangled::strings

its finally out...
untangled the mess i made...
bringing hope...
truly in guilt...

yeah bt decisions have to be made...
and im learning every steps i made...

now time for a comeback...
the old me...
the new refreshing me ...

i heard Melbourne is waiting...
Hmm... a journey out...

Career in Education

Yup..Yup...
Me gonna be teacher...
Haha...
Relief teacher to be exact...

Juz receive a letter...
from MOE...
"You are appointed as...
a relief teacher...
... at schools/junior colleges/centralised institutions"...

Gosh...
me a teacher?...
haha...
cool...

Quai:Quai

Someone ping me on msn yesterdae...
Can u dun act quai quai can or nt?...
I was dead shocked...
Did I offend anyone again?...

Luckily it was becoz of this pic...



Phew...
Hahha...

anyway check this out...
http://spaces.msn.com/armanique/photos/?_c02_owner=1
a new way to post my pics...

strings::attached

27th March marks the day...
[my shortest post ever]

singapore.idol.on.the.loose

yeah the hype and everyting..
but isnt it too much..
even in the bus..

was on my way hm in the bus..
after my printing spree..
and the bugger behind me..
started humming..
and den went into a singing tone...
then comes the high pitch..
and it was a he...
low,mono tone...
but the killer was the high pitch...
all tru the journey frm sim lim...
to tampines...

he shld be in sg idol ...
serious...
the rejected section...
major freak...

nothingness::complicated

ppl claim im too complicated...
am i?...
well i dun really care...
sumtimes i got to put my priorities straight...
for the better of all and me...
coz i seldom think of me first...

yeah sort of find this pics in my com...
so juz dig in ya...


recently spastic smile...


my college friends... the weird bunch.. haha


CI nite photo in the range...


Yet another CI nite photo


the before cake session...it lands onto the face later

finale.camp

at last...
the camp was over!!!
[ jumps up for joy ]

haha... had a real blast...
the hike was super duper fun...
15 km hike... fuyooo...
but the real fun was the murderer game...
serious...
i was victim no. 3...

okok let me fill ya in...
a murderer will send a secret suicide note...
to a victim...
stating his death sentence, venue and time...

so mine was during the nite debriefing...
i was to fake a fits...
so during the debrief...
my body shoke and fell from the bench...
my officer tot i really gt fits...
he panicked...
haha.... kinda funny tho'
my cadets really got scared...
haha... i shld win an oscar for that...

but wat touches me...
was my cadets negative comments on me...
sir...
ur weird.temperemental.fussy.naggy.too serious...
me weird... plz u havnt seen any yet... haha...
fussy.. yeah someone SAID i was perfectionist lor... win.. win...
naggy... yeah kinda of... need to make a point sometimes...
but it works... so yeah why not... haha..
but wat i cant figure out is act cute by my PORKIE...
me act cute... plz explain... haha...
im nt cute lar juz exceptional handsome...haha...

Then it came the second day...
had a blast during unit games day...
we bake cake... serious...
but on cadets face haha..
flour wif water smeared on the face...

really a blast...
now is over...
at last...
all the hard work paid out...
gd job guys...

[wow my longest post?]

scary.again?!

its been awhile since i blog...
yeah busy is never an excuse...
well im still busy seh...
lol...

anyway shld tell u of my basket friend...
all time bro...
like blood and this time really involve blood...

we were on our way for our recce...
and bro said ...
"eh basket... y this ting feel sharp ah?"
"feel ah..."
and w/o warning rub his bag against my arm...

wen i look at his leg gt blood...
den i panicked lor...
saw my arms still ok...
den he looked into his bag...
guess wat?
a deboning knife...
he's a chef u see...
damn and it was sharp...

along the hike...
wen i looked at my arm...
there was blood and a nice long scar...
thanks ah bro...
basket...
this post dedicate to you...
haha...

tangled.in.a.mess

been down lately...
really down...

wif work...
family problems...
wif my np stuffs...
and someone drop a bombshell...

all i did was smile...
dats wat i do best...
bt deep inside...
tons of shrapnels...
tearing me slowly...

coz seriously...
i can handle much probs...
kind of sick of it...

nw im waiting...
for happy moments...
juz waiting...
and will keep waiting...

Haaaaachummmmmmmmm!!!!

Yeah the sneezing..
Yeah the sore throat...
Yeah the running nose...

Im dead sick..
Sick0...
Plain jack flu...

Tink its becoz of porkie..
My fav pet pig...
Haha... wif an apple on its mouth...
Damn cute sia...
[ in a state of hallucination ]

choc.mania!!!

been absurd this dayz...
wif choc...
so much choc in my life...

been doing this proj...
on Chocolate Fudge Sundae...
[ a band mind u ... sundae is fattening..]

found my crave for miL0 din0...
erm... yum... bring the memories of my childhood...
haha... i jux love the powdery taste...

erm and of course my vanhoutten choc...
been popping dat like non-stop...

haha... tink i better stop...
although been skipping meals a lot lately..
forget to eat... kind of lame rite...
but yeah me always forget tings...

den now crave starts in...
wait fat again...
oh who cares... anyway happy v-day to those who celebrate...
me? im celebrating wif my proj due 2mrw. damn!

m0oD.sw|nG

Had been busy with a lot of stuff...
Yeah an excuse u must say...
But it is...

Sumtimes you think you cant handle...
But u still go on...
I gotta work extra hard this time...
But still gt time to take photo tho' haha....

br0Chure.ch0c.fuDge.sUnDae

yesh.yesh...
the brochure is done...
more to come...

p0st.m0d.ch0c.fuDge.sUnDae

Its been a while...
I have not update my bloggie...
So here I am...
With the latest work...
For my college...



Im working on...
Launching of a experimental rock band...
Chocolate Fudge Sundae...
Its the band name nt the licking ice-cream...

My approach...
Post-Mod...
With the theory of "Conflicts"...
Erm need some ideas for brochure tho'...
Sumting diff...
Any ideas?
Give a buzz will ya?

Do.Done.Did

What would u do?...
If a person starts blabbering...
Tho' its mind bloggering...
And sparks your creativity...
But juz wouldnt stop...

What would u do?...
If you cravings reached its peak?...
What would u do?...
If you are stressed wif your workload...
What would u do?...
If your parents kp asking u to start generating your own income...
What would u do?...
Im asking u yeah u...

Seems the answer is easy yet diff to handle..
To me.. hell with things..
Go wif the flow...

Absurd.Giler.Watever

Hmm...
went back to esss for sec 1 orientation and coc...
As usual took pictures...
But this time hC did the job...
Thanks bro...
Nice pic anyway...


I juz like this pic man...


The after session...


Me and my ex-oC... a tribute and an honour...


working hard... hahaha...


me and my lover..muakz...i lap u...

Gonna miss lots of things...
esp the new change...

Hope for the better tho'...

Workaholic... go. go.. go...

Been a while not updating my blog liaow...
Been too tired with lots of stuff...
And skool starts!!!
SO many things to do...
Came out with my hol' work...
Dig in while i snooze off...
Wake me up wen uv done...
(Seriously dun sms me...)









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Reminiscing

Yeah dats me ...
Been a long time ...
I update my blog ...
2 days in a row ...
Tawn the nite ...
But it was fun ...

Soon college starts ...
Hope business will start too ...
Excited and nervous ...
All choking at a time ...
Hmm ...
Juz enjoying the moment I guess ...