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Salam 2023. It's January again. The past 12 months was a reminder for me to take care of health more seriously. Well of course i'm ok with aging gracefully orang kata but you feel weeker than usual is not something you should take lightly. Awal tahun lepas I had booster injection, resulted to tak sihat yang berpanjangan, almost 3 weeks. Then had Covid twice. One in Mar, another one during Ramadhan. Then somewhere in June i injured my knee. Quite bad jugak ended up i had surgery in September.    Even so, i do remember some sweet memories. I had covid during Ramadhan, i dapat khatam Quran before birthday mak. Then before raya, bos kasi duit raya online transfer haha. I was surprised and asked him why banyak sangat but boss said he wanted to make amends sebab dia silap bagi rating masa appraisal which affected my bonus. Walaupun segan dan rasa bersalah jugak tapi rezeki jangan ditolak gais.. Syukur untuk semuanya!  Awal tahun lepas plan nak claim voucher AirAsia sebelum expired. S

 23 - 26 August 2022. To be honest, i hate this gown. But here i am, waiting for my turn. Doc removed my damage medial plica and shaved the affected bone. Sebab it's only scope procedure so minimal incision. Ada 2 cuts - one for scope one for the tool. The procedure might be simple according to Doc but after effect dia not as simple as i thought. I can't walk  for a while - as expected. But i did not expect on non weight bearing for 2 weeks. I assume like 3,4 days je 😭... I  had a mental breakdown on my 1st day at home. But Alhamdulillah things get better the day after. Hopefully lepas ni dah boleh jalan macam biasa, tak sakit berdiri, duduk or even masa baring.  I bear so much pain for almost 2 months before i decided, ok lah lets do the surgery. I had physio 2 times every week and i had 1 cortisone injection but did not work on me.  Today, after 2 weeks dah bole touch toes tapi masih on crutches. I had 1 physio session kelmarin. Macam atlet training, entah berapa sets berapa

 Assalammualaikum. It's been a while since my last post- same old same old kan. Nothing much to update just to let u guys know, alhamdulillah... masih lagi bernafas, masih diberi kesihatan dan kekuatan seadanya. Thank you Allah. Sama macam orang lain, almost 3 months WFH. So many things happened during that short time but i must say mostly positive dan benefical to me and myself lah. Not a big deal pun, just benda biasa macam dah lost weight, dah reti baca Hangul, as simple as that but am proud of myself. At least ada sikit development masa lockdown kali ni compare to last year.  I miss a lot of thing. A lottt.. Rindu nak travel, rindu macam macam lagi. Tak apalah.. one fine day, things will be better. InsyaAllah. Jangan berhenti berdoa. Please take care of yourself. Stay safe everyone.

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim. I guest it's about time to update. It's been ages since my last post. I feel like doing nothing. But when i look back at my life, owh bole lah update blog ni. Huhu. Well life not always at its best.  At one point, i felt lost. I don't really know what to do with my life. A relationship ended. A loved one passed away. But the heartache, the tears, the sleepless night all makes me stronger, braver and wiser. At least i feel like a better person now. While coping with grief and loss, I remember a verse in Al-Quran. Allah mentions that with every difficulty there is relief. Sabar. And Syukur. That verse makes me the person i am today. Thank you Allah the most merciful. All praises and thanks to be to Allah. In between kerja and adapting to change, Allah murahkan rezeki, gerakkan hati dan permudahkan jalan untuk lihat dunia. These are the places i went for the past two years. Btw, I posted Europe trip on my last post so let's continue jelah.

Nov 2018, London - France - Netherlands - Belgium - France - London. Sort of last mins plan yang betul betul tak sangka. Walaupun flight penuh & terpaksa naik next flight sorang-sorang to Heathrow, sampai sana Allah mudahkan semuanya. Alhamdulillah. Catat satu lagi pengalaman dalam hidup :)

Tears fall at the end of a long day Where am I going? I thought I was in enough pain But I guess there’s still a lot left As if I’m alone in this big world No one tries to look into my heart No one When I close my eyes I see myself and I tell myself Not to get tired To take a break for a moment That the thick darkness That doesn’t seem like it would leave Will leave once I let myself go Like a foreigner among laughing people I’m the only one who seems like everything is lost Was I just running forward mindlessly? My dreams have gotten too far away now Will this long sadness ever stop? Will warm sunlight ever shine down on me? Becoming myself And seeing stars that will forever shine I’m dreaming these kinds of sleepless dreams But the foolish me Only realized That I’ll never be myself Only after I opened my eyes Becoming myself And seeing stars that will forever shine I’m dreaming these kinds of sleeple