I dont even know who you are now

A friend keeps reminding me that everything we have is borrowed and that god will one day take it all away.

Today.

Today feels like that time I got punished and locked up in the storeroom.

Today feels like the time I climbed out the window porch to catch the fireworks at BKK.

Today feels like the time i hit my head on the door, and stitches were needed.

I'll be at my mom's grave when I'm back from Bali.

Rindu.

Bergelebeh

Im at the lowest point in my life right now.

I dont even have strength to pick myself up.

How heavy heart? How?

Tiger pumps so pumped up!

Today, im an official Sloth! I cant believe i did nothing the whole day. NOTHING! except waiting for whatsapp replies.

Apeeeer ni syaaaa? Asaaaal dah jadi gini!

My wallpaper too! :)

Broken potrait

I dunno what is happening to this family.

I thought i was the only one going all crazy just thinking about it. After bkk, i have not been meeting my sister.

Its 6am in the morning, i just got home and when i saw my sister getting ready for work, i realised i missed her so much. And I am worried for her.

She has a soft heart and we all know if she does not like something.

She was practically going around the room, telling me about the father and the lady.

My sia was as the same person when she found out mom had cancer. 

All berterabuh, angsty, and coming up with conclusions thats out of this world.

I asked god to give my sister strength going through all this.

And i asked god to protect what my late mom rightfully build.

Al-fatehah to mom.

Insyaallah, we'll make it through this.

Rare

I asked Hendry to choose the food coz HE is the one eating and im just gonna steal a few bites.

Tapi MATI MATIAN tak tahu apa nak makan and keep asking me!

So fed up-ed. I ordered the most expensive off the menu. Lamb. And make it RARE PLEASE. 

amik kau.

Time

What a fruitful weekend! One of those weekends that feels like

i've conqured everything. And all this because i woke up damn early in the morning to exercise. Such a huge difference it made.

Cant believe i cleaned up my room,

Organised and re-set up my music area,

Made my portfolio,

Recorded and digitally save music from phone to mac

Wrote 3 songs,

Re-organised my Mac and harddrives

Cut my bed in half ( yes, literally sawing my bed coz i felt there was no more space in room. So now i have a dwarf sized bed),

Sewed my diy bean pod,

Sewed covers for mixers and speakers,

Sewed my duvet,

Settling my online shopping

Went to the dentist for filling,

And on top of that, the usual hanging out with bf, jamming AND catching the Sundown festival.

Woaaah... Didnt know i had it in me. I should wake up at 5.30 and exercise every

weekend! And also, surf the internet only when you need to. The holy mother of distraction and procrastination is born there.

Takbir raya

I will forever remember what Fat said, on the day my mom passed away,

"Habislah sya, aku rasa every year, kau ngan aku, melalak nangis bila dengar takbir raya"

Lol.. 

Raya in 3 days, get ready! My tears are gonna flow like the longkang beside my block when its raining.