I think in anyone's moment of weakness, they might do something stupid or something they regret. BUT WHY WHY do i have so many of these!!

Sigh..next week is the pre-reg forum and I have to start thinking of my pre-reg year already.I think its a bit too early for us to be thinking of pre reg and all when we haven even started our summer placements. The only good thing is that if I am successful in my applications this year, I dont have to worry about getting a spot in UK next year. BUT this means I have to polish my CV( which is like crap now), write a cover letter , and start doing applications soon. But lately I have been more lazy than ever, and have been procrastinating a whole lot more than i ever have. TRUTH is I do have a lot of spare time but I am just plain lazy. I am so bored here in the UK.I promise myself next sem, I will join more societies, meet more ppl and go to gym ( need to lose weight :( )
I really want to get into industry pharmacy but it is very very competitive. I dont think i am suited for community or pharmacy. Oh well, hopefully everything will be alright..

Idiot

I just felt that there are many things left unexplained.
Its still bugging me, but I cant seem to find anymore questions I need to ask.
The truth is out and I feel like an idiot more than ever.
I haven been blogging in a while but lately there are so many feelings I need to put down in words but i am too afraid to put in on my blog, (which i am sure no one reads anyway and hence i deleted the post everytime i type one.)
There are so many things I want to know but yet I refuse to hear. I wanted you to say something more at that point, to convince me that I am wrong . But you didn't although i prompt you so many times. And probably if you did say something then, it probably wasnt something I wanted to hear. Maybe it was better that way. Since now everything really has come to an end.

In the UK

It has been almost 2 weeks since i have reached the UK that i have been longing to go to. And well..it wasnt as fun as i thought it would be. Maybe it is because i stay off campus and there is just so much cleaning to do bcos i have obviously dirty previous tenants so the house is just s complete utter mess.
BUt the house is getting better and I am slowly settling down, although the horribly cold weather isnt helping!!

I miss malaysia so much and i am only here for 2 weeks. I only wish that my initial homesickness would go away faster.

I haven been taking any pictures or exploring anyway either!! SOunds so sad!!! I had my first class 2 days ago and it was beyond scary. It was such a hard core first lecture and after 4 months of rotting, it felt like i have never done this course before!!

And i have been shopping!!! only its not for fun things but for ridiculously sad things like groceries and household items which takes forever because we always lack somethings!!! OMG the selection of chocolates and cookies here are to DIE for!!
No wonder ppl get fatter here!!!YUMMY!!


I shall try to take more pics and post some of it here soon!! :)


Cheers.:P

Currently reading Harry Potter

I do not think I;ll be leaving on the 10 July after all. more bad news more bad news. I really do hope next year I can get to work at BOOTS. sigh, why why of all ppl, it has to happen to me??
I know I said to myself a dozen times I am okay with this already and I can stay longer in malaysia and well I can do placement here as well. But i cant help but having pangs of jealously occasionally that I am not there working with BOOTS. Maybe because I have been expecting it all along although I was not exactly looking forward to it but now that its gone, it really hits me that I do wanna have work experience in the UK like everyone else.
The only happy things is yes i indeed have longer time in malaysia to spend with evryone else. Which is really good i guess. SOmetimes, i feel that maybe I am strong and I can deal with missing ppl, but in fact I maybe much weaker than I think I am.

Right now, I am just at home lazing like a pig. I need a life.
Desperately. GOTTA find sth to do soon before i rot and die........ :(

Phuket Trip

I just came back From Phuket. This trip was suppose to be kinda a trip to a place with a lot of sun and beach with family before i go to the cold cold and damp UK in JULY. turns out i am not going UK in July anyway...sigh...why must things go worng..no placement for me now...oh well i was hysterical, sad and angry but now I am over it. As my dad say, you gotta earn your opportunities, in life not everything goes your way. Life is not a bed of roses but how i wish it was :P

So I shall update with some of the pics in Phuket!





Ming hann trying hard not to get wet.



There is this weird out of place prehistoric mini town. Packed with Dinoburgers, Dinogolf and Dinotour in the Dinoland.



Played Minigolf with Minghann, mum and dad











ok needless to say i have many silly pictures of me!! Whee Go kart if fun!!











The hotel I stayed was called Karona resort and Spa! Well it was okay only, altho i think the room was fantastic..deluxe connecting bedroom :) and very spacious too. But not enuff facilities tho.




Tuk Tuk. Taxis in Phuket!! they are called tuk tuk and they come in all colours!!


Me and my mum at a Phuket View POint.

Exams are over!! well ...it was over a week ago but i was just too lazy...been catching up with sleep and tv series mostly(btw i am a mega HUGE HEROES FAN! those who dont watch heroes...ure missing the best things in life..wahahhaha)..AND SO SAD...i hardly went out the past week...well i have been but not with friends and i miss that!

Had a heart-breaking farewell with the lecturers last tues just right after the exam...it was really rush for me, yin and eilyn especially since we and a few others (lynn and pui san! )decided to put up a slideshow plus video for our beloved lecturers and coursemates..thank god i;ll still seee my coursemates in sept or else i would just burst into tears the other day!
so its all set! leaving on the 10th JULY nite...heading to london first. well why so early? cos i got placement for 2 months and really...i am the last to fly off d! will miss msia food to bits..since i am such a pig..i tink anyone would agree on that matter

Been having a tad bit emotional problems lately..but i think i;ll be able to cope..all should be good..i hope :)
ps:Note to self:whatever it is I need to learn to cope with change and stay strong!!

I went to Sam;s blog and I saw what she did when she was bored...hence i decided to take a few as well!! wwas suppose to study..but everyone needs a break once in a while rite???

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISFP)

Your personality type is caring, peaceful, artistic, and calm. Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 8% of all women and 6% of all men You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are 36% Bitchy

You're a pretty sweet person, and you're definitely not prone to bitchy outbursts. Sometimes, though, you can't help thinking mean thoughts about people. But at least you don't act on them!

How Bitchy Are You?

You Are Cheesecake

Rich, sweet, and simply perfect. You're not boring - you're just the best!

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

Awww...i was hoping i;ll be chocolate cake...

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people. You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together. Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly. People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

DOnt I wish!!

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Score: 60%

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence is Average You have a pretty good awareness of who you are, but you occasionally surprise yourself. There's a lot about your own psychology that you can figure out. Consider starting a journal or writing poetry. There's a much deeper side of yourself that you will discover.

How Does Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Rate?

A journal?? I am too lazy for that...

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

MC

TO My dear MC Friends!!

You guys are great. Always will be the friends I’ll treasure in life. ALWAYS.

I miss all the gatherings we had at tat wei;s house.

I miss the times where I used to eat all the time in class and labeled by Pn.Jamaliah (Jammy) as one of the class hamsters.

I miss the time where we had the sleepover party at anna;s house (16^th bday)

I miss walking into 1M,2M,3M,4M and 5M classrooms and seeing my classmates.

I miss Rachel’s loudspeaker voice screaming and making noise in class.

I miss xin always writing stuff on the board esp the countdown thing we had before spm.

I miss hiding ctf’s pencilbox.

I miss calling may ling and complaining to her about almost everything.

I miss talking to wan and mayling 24/7.

I kinda miss the time where I always search sek teng;s bag for food. (Sorry)

I miss hanging out with sam,sinthi, anna, pui li and sometimes wan in Mrs Bala room.

I miss the times where everyone was nice to everyone and where everything wasn as complicated.

I miss the times in MC. I really do.