Salam bahagia to all =) 3wks & a bit to go

8th day puasa, meaning dah seminggu umat Islam seluruh dunia berpuasa di bulan Ramaddhan yang mulia ni. Alhamdulillah. If to compare with tahun2 sebelumnye, aku kurang terasa kepenatan puasa... yet.. coz kerja night shifts for the past week. Starting arvo shifts again this coming week & half way thru back to nights again. Ok la jugak, coz at least bleh makan while kerja. Aku hafta admit that aku ni not as strong as I should be.. mebbie sebab kurang keimanan kot. Hmmm...

Anyways, its nice weather now, even tho hujan je memanjang. More of the sun & dah jarang2 switch on heater. Best.

Tonight ada 3 invitations for dinner:
1. Old mate, Dr. NY, her 25th birthday, but I've told her that I might not be coming.
2. Dr. MJ's birthday dinner, his 27th, dah janji nak dtg yg ni.
3. Buka puasa at Mr. I's place, cant go coz dah janji dgn Dr. MJ to go to his.
Thanks lots for the invitation, panjang umur nanti kita bleh jumpa lagi.

My buddy, Dr. D, is expecting anytime soon. Berkat baby lahir di bulan Ramadhan ni, hopefully semuanye dipermudahkan. Amin. Take care okay. Welcome baby & congratulations to both sides of family for arrival of the new gem.

Me sooooo tired yesterday. Tido sepanjang hari until afta buka puasa, then dinner dgn hubby, pas tu tido balik after 4hrs. Tadi terjaga around 2hrs before imsak & takleh tido dah. So now menunggu siang hari utk gi beli bday prezi for Dr. MJ. Will post up pics afta the dinner.

Ni la juadah berbuka puasa kat rumah KL last year.. ni pon kira sikit ni.. kalau tak lagi banyak ni.. aaiii bahagianyee nafsu..

Cheers.

Salam Ramadhan 1430hijrah

First day of puasa... terasa tenang je. Bulan puasa always gives me that kind of tranquility, no matter where I am, or what the season is. Memang memberi kedamaian to my ever rocky soul. Terasa bersyukur that I get to go thru Ramadhan this year again.. with my beloved hubby & others here.

Just before buka puasa tadi, on our very first day of Ramadhan, hubby & I went for our long due arvo walk. Its lovely. Lama dah tak jalan sama2. I remember dulu2 even in the winter we pegi jalan2. Its nice, disamping kasi badan panas & sihatkan badan, its good for our relationship. Plus, dpt menghayati keindahan alam semulajadi Chadstone ni =P Its nearly spring if u go by the calendar, but looking at the weather & the flowers its spring to me =) Yaaayyy!!

Last Tuesday I went for a walk by myself mengelilingi this small block sambil amik2 gambar. It was in the morning. Terasa segar je. It was cold, but not too cold, plus there was the sunlight with birds chirping & butterflies flying around. Also the sound of vehicles running from the freeway next door. Terasa aman je.. walaupon bising tapi terasa hidup, tak le sunyi sepi cam kat Traralgon/ Sale sana tu, even tho I kinda hafta admit that the suasana alam kat sana boleh la tahan.

Took some photos during my walk that morning as well...
Wooohoooo.. pagi yang indah

These are the photos that I took during our arvo walk just now...

A cross bridge yg aku lalu setiap hari utk ke tpt kerja.. fuh jauh betul tpt kerjaku

Pemandangan M1 from the bridge


Part of the walking track
No wonder both of us bengong sket.. too much radiation from these power lines =PAnother cross bridge yg menggayatkan

Awan yg comel =)

Salam Ramadhan to all. Semoga kita semua mendapat keberkatan & hidayah dariNya di bulan yang mulia ini, and always. Amiin.

Is Spring Already Here? YaY!!

It was busy ass in ED last night with a few ppl crashed, 1 needed intubation. Busy with many patients who were not supposed to be there but they were simply coz its free... We get lots & lots of people like this. They dont mind to wait, actually they loooove to wait no matter what. I remember 1 patient I saw on a few days ago who came coz they demanded their sugar level reviewed, simply coz they didnt want to go see GP coz if they did they had to pay out of pocket money. DOH!! Aku just ckp kat diorang yg their conditions were not lifethreatening & there's nuthing more that we as the EMERGENCY SERVICES could offer them there & then... and they needed to go see GP for reviewing. I knew that they were frustrated... but me myself was just boiling inside while I was talking.

Such a waste of taxpayers' money... if 1 GP visit would cost ~AU$40-80, 1 ED visit would cost a minimum of ~AU$600-800. Tu blom masuk investigations lagi. Kalau blood tests.. dah tambah lagi puluh2, kalau termasuk imaging or review from other medical specialties... lagi la sampai ratus. The final total of taxpayer money can be more than AU$1K for each of their visits. No wonder healthcare system kokak, tak kira di mana pon. Akan bertambah kokak if we keep on getting people cam gini. Double cursed for the healthcare professionals coz diorang bayar tax ...aaaaannnd kena layan diorang ni bila diorang dtg. Bleh....

Despite that, I dont think I would mind as much to see these people if to compare with having a pager. I notice that I still get palpitations when a pager goes off, even tho my job now not requiring a pager. Sakit jiwa woo with pager ni. Kesian org yg dipage/ on-call. Aku still takut2 nak call diorang takut my referal crap sgt sampai diorang annoyed. On the other hand, its the job that they applied for in the first place & they knew what they were in for. And when they are on call, its the support thats there if anyone needs it.. provided its a relevant one.

Oh ye, disebabkan kat ED ni we eat whenever we can, just like any other doc jobs (except probably GPs, radiologists, pathologists, surgeons, anaesthetists, intensivists) I always have mini foods in my bag. Ada sorang reg ni aku offered some of my chocs coz I didnt see him having a break at all. Bleh je dia kata nanti akan kena AMI or ada DM or obese bila aku dah tua nanti. Ches! Kebetulan aku plak jumpa patient yg ada multiple comorbidities. Pas tu aku dok makan oren & I did offer it to him as well... nak tau apa dia kata? Bleh je dia kata.. "u gonna get something if u eat that thing too much". Grrr... nak je aku baling cawan kat dia. Hahahahha.. dia gurau2 je tu. Mlm ni aku nak kacau dia lagi sampai aku tgk dia makan =D

Anyways, was really tired bila dah kol 630am and my brain kept on losing track of whatever I was doing. But then while I was talking to a patient, I noticed that the sun was starting to show up thru the ED window. Tiba2 terasa bahagia plak. I love the sun. Bahagiaaaanyeeee. On the way back on, even tho dah tahap ngantuk & cam blur je tgk kereta kat depan tu, aku rasa cam hmmmmm bestnye matahari dah kuar. Cam hallucination plak. Cuaca plak tak brapa sejuk kat luar tu. And when I was in bed, konon2 nak stay up a bit coz matahari ada kat luar tu, slowly & slowly mata tertutup.... so aku pon tido dgn bahagianyaaa... Spring is very very close by date but its physically here already... aaaaaahhh.. bahagia.

Working again tonight & tomorrow night. Hopefully the coming shifts are sebahagia my heart when I see the sun shining. =)

Tgh toye ni.. bleh.. but I can still smile =)

My body is still aching all over with a little bit of headache. Still belom recover from A.M. shift yesterday. Kebodohan timetable menyebabkan aku (and I'm sure other HMOs too) terpaksa jadi bengong. Ada ke patut semalam aku kerja shift pagi, then hari ni aku kerja shift malam plak. Punya bersungguh2 nak stay up so that I could sleep during the day today. Tapi tak berjaya. I went to bed around midnite & woke up at 12pm... with a big headache. Kalau nak berjaga sampai kerja malam which starts at 11pm & abis kol 8.30am, memang menempah maut la aku. Kalau kerja ward takpe. Ni kerja ED yg always constant & meletihkan.

I love ED. But aku menyampah dgn the timetable. BODOHS! I am happy enuf to do shift work, but all I ask is some consideration on their part, memandangkan nak cari org yg suka ED cam aku ni memang susah nowadays. Benci aku dgn org2 bangang ni.

Anyways, mcm biasa smlm kerja pagi aku sampai lambat 10minutes. Morning shift is not my forte but I prefer morning shifts in ED coz patient tak brapa ramai. Seperti biasa bosses aku akan pandang aku semacam coz aku lambat & mamai kat depan handover board. Sampai nak terlanggar one of them masa aku dok berlegar2 kat situ. And seperti biasa kerja aku masih lambat walaupon dah minggu ke-2 kerja kat ED ni.

Ada sorang consultant ni yg aku sedaya upaya nak mengelak from talking to him coz he is scary. I've seen him yelled at some IMG residents. He once yelled at me over the fon in my last rotation coz aku tanya dia some questions yg to him were irrelevant masa nak admit patient. Aku tanya dia other possible diagnoses dah ruled out ke since presentation patient tu collapse. Dia marah coz dah sah2 org tu collapse pasal PR bleeding. Duh! Aku still rasa that question was relevant to the patient.

Anyways, ntah cam mana semalam takleh mengelak lagi. Aku kat dlm bilik doctor tgh tulis notes. Dia pon sama. Org lain dah kuar gi buat kerja lain. Aku ingat nak lari je, tapi kang nampak obvious plak. So aku buat2 la cool. Dia bleh je start borak2 dgn aku. Aku yang takut2 tu pon terpaksa la layan. Dia ckp ramai consultant impressed dgn cara aku buat kerja & diorang especially impressed sebab aku nak jadi ED physician. Hohoho. Aku yg tengah mamai2 tu pon bleh terjaga jap. Uish, biar betul org tua ni. Aku pon layan la dia dgn merendah diri serendah2nye.. aku ckp aku ni slow, still dumb & still scared of lotsa stuff most of the times. Aku ckp aku rasa cam ni coz aku took sometime off last year, so now kiranye cam intern la jugak coz aku still tak tau byk.

Hehehhehee... nak tau apa dia ckp? To my surprise actually. Sampai tak tau apa nak react or say. Dia ckp aku bagus & ramai org impressed dgn aku. Hmm.. ada gak org ckp pasal aku ye. Pas tu dia bleh je ckp kat aku yg aku ni too harsh on myself. The level lower than me is intern, and dia kata aku takleh nak compare dgn diorang or dgn registrar coz aku resident. A 2nd yr resident, plus aku amik sometime off last year. So, aku allowed to be a little less than the registrars, as long as aku continue to learn from it. Terstunned aku sekejap. Tersipu2 kejap kat situ. Aku harap resident2 lain yg kuar masuk kat situ takde la cemburu dgn aku. (Nothing hurts me more than kalau a boss pilih kasih & hina kawan2 aku yg lain.. coz I'm not that great either.. I've been in that position before.. it hurts).

I think most people who are close to me know that I have problems with self-esteem since that bloody accident I had during my student year. Aku kalau boleh tak nak ingat2 lagi pasal tu. Because of that, I lost interest in everything in life. And now I'm slowly trying to recover back. Kinda regret that I didnt (.. or couldnt) fight back the depression, like everyone else, hence my life now. Aku still rasa kalau I was a little bit stronger, mesti aku tak sesewel ini now. Life could have been better. Hence, me being perasan or narcissistic (seperti kata hubby) is my way of coping mechanism to life dumps. I need to stand up, back on my feet, back on track. Other issues in life and on top of this racism thingy I face everyday especially masa internship kat country area.. that was the lowest point in my life la.

Nak kupas sket pasal my experience kat situ: being in the country during my internship, where ppl were racist (more than wat I've faced all thru out my life since I got here in Australia), lagi la aku kemurungan. Orang2 kat country area ni ada penyakit Islamophobia & being the only Muslimah yg pakai tudung kat situ, made my life even more miserable. Ramai Muslim women kat situ yg terpaksa bukak tudung coz of the way the community treat them. Salute them. And sejak aku dtg Au ni, I've tried to improve myself, tak kira dp segi language (walaupon kurang bagus still) or appearane or work. Ye la Aussies ni kalau kita tak ckp cam diorang or tak rupa cam diorang, diorang wont accept us. Aku try nak jadi normal & to be accepted, but alas, still sama... I'm still an outcast.. sama since I was little until now. All I want is for these people to see and accept that even tho Islam is a way of life to the Muslims, we are all earthlings... we are all the same. And.. dont forget that bukan org Islam je yg terrorists, org Christian, Buddist (cam kat North Korea tu), Hindu, Jewish pon raaaaamaaaaaiii lagi yg terrorists but it seems like the world is happy for them.

Back to wat happened yesterday. Yes, I was happy. Tersemangat sket nak buat kerja hari tu. Semoga hari2 akan datang aku akan jadi lagi bagus dp semalam. Aku harap Allaw swt continue to give me strength to face life & menetapkan semangat aku to continue training in ED. Hahahaha.. kang haru je bila boss2 ni tau later down the track aku jadi menda lain plak. Tapi tu in the future, kita hanya mampu merancang & berdoa, Allah swt yg menentukan. Ye tak?

Badan aku still sakit2 lagi ni, especially my back & my neck. I have a long standing back pain issue, especially since aku berhenti sports/ martial arts & accident bodo tu. Hopefully tak mati jap lagi coz I've overdosed myself with lotsa painkillers. Managed to take a 2 hour nap earlier as well.

Cheers.

Kusss Semangat!!

Went to hand in my timesheet kat spital tadi. Alang2 tu singgah la kat BH Centro since memang nak beli groceries, gi post office, bank, etc. And the last time I made a visit to BH Centro was around 2 yrs ago masa hidup merempat di tpt org, itu pon saja merayap buang masa & ended up buying bok choy.

Back to my trip today, susah gila nak cari parking. Last2 aku pi parking kat atas bumbung sana even tho nampak2 cam nak ujan. Parking sini $1 for first 3hrs, so I had to limit myself from staying here for too long. Anyways, nak turun gi ke mall tu pun punya la sempit. I mean, the stairs and the pathway. And the aisles in the shops. And the funny thing is, I was almost certain that I was in Beijing or Hong Kong. Heheheheehehe... sipi2 je whites around me & I was among the few giants walking around the mall.

I wasnt happy with the crowd I was in. Its not because I am racist ke apa. But I thot, hmmmm... macam manusia tak bertamadun je. Ludah sana sini, jerit sana sini among them. Takde conscience.. e.g. I was walking down an aisle kat satu chinese grocery ni, 3 ppl coming fr the opposite direction back to the front. Aku stopped kat tepi, as in dah takde tepi mana dah coz sempit nak mampos, but those 3 ppl just jalan main rempuh je & langgar aku sampai nak jatuh.. with no 'Sorry' at all. Takde adab langsung termasuk la si org tua ni. Aku punya la bengang, so aku pon merengus sampai 1 of them just looked at me & aku pon membalas dgn jelingan marah aku yg bisa tu. Hehehehhee. Well, kalau satu kedai jadi cam tu takpe lagi. Ni tak, almost every kedai I went to jadi cam ni. Oh, plus the way they spit all the time on the isle. Aaargghh! Jijiks la diorang ni.

Manyak lagi insiden bengong2 kat sini menunjukkan the crowd ni golongan2 yg kurang ajar sesama sendiri. Dari pemerhatian aku, diorang tak plak kurang ajar kat aku or other kaum yg kat situ. Bleh plak sopan dgn aku, aku ni tak la garang mana pon dgn org. Orang lain sopan, aku sopan la balik. Kalau kurang ajar, kena la balik kan. And I'm not racist at all, me myself come from a mix-marriage family so there's no reason at all for me to be racist. But diorang ni entah apa2 ntah. Same situation at work that I've observed all this while. Kalau diorang dpt doctor yg sama kaum dgn diorang, tak kira la Indian ke, Chinese ke, Vietnamese ke, they will be soooooo rude & demanding to the doctor. Tapi bila kaum lain nyer doctor attend to them, they are sooooo polite & nice. I suppose this happens everywhere we go in the world.

Ada satu insiden plak tu, sorang pakcik Cina ni, nampak kaya la. Dah kat counter dah scan most of his stuff, bleh je dia tukar fikiran tak nak noodle ke pasta ke apa ntah, main campak je kat atas counter ckp dia tak nak. Kesian the cashier. When it came to my turn, I was just sooooo tired to smile to him back, well, I wanted to coz kesian dilayan cam tahi oleh pakcik bengong tadi tu. But pasal that was the last shop & I was already exhausted like hell, kesian dia tak dpt senyuman manis aku. Aku senyum la jugak, senyum letih. Hehehehhe.. ados. Tu baru je beberapa jam shopping kat situ, baru groceries/ post office je tu. Gila la sakit dada & sesak nafas aku. Dah la serba serbi sempit. Aduhaii..

Takde la semuanye tak best kat BH Centro tu. Choices of stuff ada yg lagi best dp Chadstone, hahahah, tak kisah la tu, considering most of things mana2 now semuanya made in China. I dont really care myself. So mebbie its better to get it from the place itself, ey? Hahahhahaha.. Gurau. Murah jugak mostly. And the service that I got at the post office was waaaaaaaayyyy better than that kat Chaddy. Semua pekerja dia Aussies, but very professional. Senang citer, puas hati la. Tak mcm kat Chaddy, white racist sgt! Kat Priceline dia pon, baik gila cashier dia. They look like lega je dpt customer selain dp org2 Cina ni. Hahahhahaha. Entahlah, mostly coz mebbie they dont really speak good English, which makes communication is hard between English speaking ppl & the NESBs (Non-English Speaking Background). All in all, most services bagus except a few kat kedai2 asian groceries yg memang bangang. Tu takleh nak kata apa la kan.

Out of frustration & exhaustion from BH Centro shopping trip, I swayed to Chaddy. Masa jalan2 menenangkan fikiran along the shops terasa cam senang je nak bernafas. I went to Myer & bought myself another boardgame: Quelf. Hopefully bleh la main soon wit anyone.

Things I Learn About... My Perfume =)

I grew up with lotsa perfumes around me. Dulu2 curi2 beli yg murah2 kat supermarket/ Avon tu je, coz my mum ada 'allergy' kat perfume. Dia kata dia pening dgn bau2 yg kuat2 ni. I've seen some of her perfumes, which are soft, light & fresh. Tapi dulu masa awal remaja ada la jugak dia belikan aku sebagai hadiah a set of perfume miniatures yg comel & I only wore them bila ada majlis yg best2. Those perfumes: Elizabeth Arden Sunflower, Elizabeth Arden Red Door, Chloe' & lagi 2 tak ingat.

Then, sampai sini, my hubby-then-bf bought me my very first full sized designer/ luxury perfume: Sui Dreams by Anna Sui. Its the little handbag filled with this reaaally nice & sweet blue liquid that cought my nose masa jalan2 wit him at Daimaru or Myer (cant really remember where exactly coz its probably zaman 2001 or 2002 dulu). =) Love. This one here is not the original bottle, ni dah botol kebrapa dah ni. I dont really use it anymore, coz my sense of smell dah evolved over time.Since then, my perfume collection started to beranak pinak, with my main contributors being my mum & hubby. Mum always buys me stuff, and I'm kinda excited & sooo touched when these perfumes come from her considering she's not into perfume that much. But she has her favourites: Ralph Lauren Ralph, Salvatore Ferragamo Dream and the magical Lancome Miracle.

Ada some group of perfumes that I use for work, coz they r not overpowering & bau pon biasa2 je. Kebanyakannye aku beli sendiri now dah kerja, ada from mum, ada from hubby. Ada among these yg aku terbeli coz couldnt defy my obsession & compulsion to shop, like the Versace. Some are lux brands, some are simple & cheap. Sesuai la buat gi kerja coz kalau dah pakai perfume cam mandi sure cepat habis punye, pas tu sure kena beli all the time. Hehehheeh. Anyways, here they are:

Cool Water Woman Games & Cool Water Woman (dah bosan dgn ni)
both from Davidoff.

Last year I had Echo Woman (gift from mum) from Davidoff
dah abis lama dah.JLo Live Lux (dah abis dah), Elizabeth Arden Green Tea, Avon Pur Blanca

Elizabeth Arden Mediterranean Breeze (gift from hubby), Versace Signature Women

These are my special collections. I only wear them for special events. These are always dear to my heart.

Missoni Acqua for Women (gift from hubby)
Clinique Simply (gift from mum)

My Salvatore Ferragamo Incanto Collection ikut urutan bila kuar, I haf 4 out of 6:
(Incanto yg original aku takde coz tak perasan kewujudannye)
Incanto Dream, Incanto Charms

Incanto Shine, Incanto Heaven
(..and the latest Incanto Bliss that I didnt buy when I was in M'sia coz bau dia aku tak berkenan)

Latest addition to the family:
Clinique Happy for Women, Carolina Herrera 212 On Ice for Women
(hubby pon ada the Homme version of these two.. sedap sangat!!)

I also have some of my many miniatures here in Melbourne. Some I have them in Malaysia, e.g. my Salvatore Ferragamo Incanto collection (that includes the original Incanto & the other 3: Dream, Charms, Shine). These I usually take to work/ bubuh dlm handbag/ travelling/ etc suka2. Ada byk lagi, some dah kasi org, some dah guna sampai habis.

Elizabeth Arden Sunflower, Avon- Far Away, Tomorrow, Woman of the Earth & Always. Christian Dior Addict 2, Clinique Happy for Women, Carolina Herrera 212 for Women, Anna Sui Sui Dreams, Versace Signature.
Avon- Soui Rouge & Ches Moi' . Clinique Simply.

There... banyak gila perfume aku ada. Most of them bau lebih kurang sama. I think Dr. D pon tau taste aku yg lebih kurang sama. Hahaha.. kena start to venture on different types, tapi balik2 akan go back to the same type of perfume, hence all these. Aku nak try kurangkan the number of perfume I have. But its kinda hard. Considering that ada perfume yg aku akan pakai utk kerja only, or yg utk special occasion only. I think I hafta slowly merge the groups together.

As I was growing up til now, I've learned lots about perfume. Apply them on the pulse points so that bau dia lagi strong & tahan. Dont apply on ur ketiak, nanti lagi busuk & rosak bau dia. Jangan rub ur wrists lepas apply perfume, nanti bau dia distorted. Kena abiskan jugak perfume, coz kalau biar lama sgt bau dia rosak. Perfumes pon macam personality & moods, therefore depending on the event, its fun to match the mood. Macam2 lagi nasihat yg bleh dpt kat mags & the internet. As time passes on, more & more perfumes coming out. Its a matter of time... aand money je to reach them. =)

Things I Learn About... Skincare & Beauty =)

This is my list yg berkaitan dgn skin care & beauty yg aku kumpul2 from pelbagai sources. All from my OCD on skincare & beauty. Aku ni takde la expert mana pon, just that all these facts sound true & applicable. Still budak baru belajar dlm this area. Hehehehe.. I should be a beauty consultant, instead of a medical consultant, hey.

1. Best tips for excellent skin sampai ke tua: hydration, sun protection, enuf rest/ sleep, balanced diet, regular exercise AND a clear mind & soul.
   Setuju. Masa sakit hari tu minum bergelen2 air coz tak lalu makan. Then noticed that my skin was sooo supple. And of course jadi buruk kalau mood ku tak baik.

2. Alwiz clean ur face from makeups before u go to bed.
   Aku slalu malas yg ni kalau letih gila balik kerja. Naughty. Keesokan harinye berbintat la muka gebuku ini.

3. A good facial cleanser will not only remove make ups (thus, no need of make up removers), but also will save u $ from getting a toner.
   I agree tapi aku still gatal nak guna toner & make up remover. Saja seronok & ngada2 nak tambah steps in my regime. Tapi kalau travelling I only use my cleanser je.

4. Skin will only need 1 type of skin moisturiser, regardless whether its the eye area, neck, ears, chest, feet. They are all skin anyways. They are differentiated by their squamous, columnar or mucosal characteristics, thus may need specific skincare.
   Agree. Aku dah slowly reducing some steps in my skincare. Tapi kadang2 cant help in using extra seperti cream mata coz dpt samples. Plus aku risau dgn dark circles ni.

5. The best day cream is an SPF lotion/ cream, & that should include ur eye areas.
   Sangat setuju. I'm now moving towards 1 moisturiser for day care... once I stop using the extra steps from the samples.

6. The best night cream is something that's thicker/ heavier in the consistency than ur day cream.
   Nak cari night cream yg bagus ni yg susah ni.

7. You can actually do ur own facial at home once a week, fortnightly, monthly & so on depending on ur need. After all, u r the one who knows how ur skin is like.
   Sejak aku gi facial sebelum kenduri kawin hari tu, tu la first & last time aku gi. No way aku nak kasi org touch my face again. Aku now buat sendiri je 1x fortnightly or sebulan sekali ikut kerajinan. Lagi best & nampak resultnye.

8. An SPF lotion is a good primer plus the extra coverage.. protection from the sun.
   I've tried this multiple times masa kuar malam. My make up appeared better & smoother & longer lasting.

9. The best way to apply a liquid/ mousse foundation is by using ur own finger. Unless u r wearing make ups for photo/ film shooting. The tools absorbe moisture from ur foundation, therefore ur make up looks thick & artificial... and dry.
   I agree wit this one as well. Tried brushes, pads, sponges.. semua kurang memuaskan. I like it to look natural, not caky. Plus senang nak reach areas yg sengal2 cam corner of eyes/ nose, etc.

10. Less is best. Daily foundation is applied to enhance ur skin texture, not to make it look & feel like a painted wall- thick & caky. Again, unless its for a photo/ film shooting.
    I agree. But I've also noticed that semenjak my skin dah menampakkan ketuaannye especially around the eyes, I tend to use more of my foundation PLUS the concealer. Ni sumer pasal kerja la ni.
    

11. Foundation is applied first, than a concealer depending on the need.
    Some people do it the other way round. As for me, it doesnt work if I only pakai concealer, then pakai foundation kalau perlu. I have large pores. Foundation, or at least tinted moisturiser, is a must.

12. Facial powder is used to set a barier between ur foundation & the outside world, so that ur make up wont melt once u step out.
    This is especially kat M'sia coz peluh2. Bila pakai powder, kurang peluh & kurang cair make up aku. But here in Aus, I still wear powder afta foundation coz it helps my colour regime to stay in place better.

13. Always moisturize & SPF ur lips.
    I just realized that yg ni pon penting. Lucky my lipgloss, Lip Ice, ada SPF. Kalau nak harap facial SPF.. pahit la.

14. Serum is good, only if u need it. To enhance ur current moisturiser without actually replacing it with a new one.
    I kinda agree coz aku malas nak tambah steps in my skincare regime. Tapi byk samples, so aku guna je la. Takde la nampak beza sgt my face, mebbie coz its not time yet to wear serum.

15. When wearing ur make ups, alwiz think about who you want to impress. On top of the appropriateness of the event and of course to impress urself/ make u feel good, think.. is it the boys or the girls that u want to impress this time.
    Yang ni susah sket nak praktis. Aku slalu bantai je kaler apa2 yg ada suka2 evn tho sometimes hubby kata... 'MasyaAllah.. huduhnye' ehhehehehe.. I've read some poles from the guys & girls: Guys like a clean like u put some effort on ur looks but also a natural look as in to enhance ur look, not to look like a clown. Girls like more colourful & fun look... coz beauty is their world anyways.

16. I believe in Botox =p
    Yes.

17. A fair skin is not always the best. Its always about a healthy skin than its colour.
    Agree. Masa muda remaja dulu, aku kinda terpengaruh dgn iklan putih2 tu e.g. 'fair lovely'. Maklum la lelaki2 ni suka gadis2 yg putih2 je. As I grow wiser, I kno that some of the ingredients can be harmful to ur skin in the long run. Its better to use the whitening, as in yg regulating melanocyte activities so that sama rata in responding to sunlight, than bleaching products. But now I kinda dont really care much about skin colour already.. as long as my skin is smooth & healthy.

18. The best pimple/acne buster is always the combined oral contraceptive pill that contains some oestrogen and cyproterone, a type of progesterone, that has antiandrogenic effects. Of course u take the appropriate mild steps first before resolving to this. And unfortunately guys CANNOT take those pills. The next best step is using stuff containing salicylic acid, as in aspirin. Ni kata2 dp dermatologist here in Melbourne I've met all through out my career.
    Tried & tested. Agree.

19. There's no long-lasting lipsticks/ lipgloss that can go thru food, coffee breaks, talks from the minute u put it on before work until u get back home in the evening, at least to date yet. Unfortunately u actually hafta retouch it.
    Kinda agree. Product yg kena sapu 1 more layer tu kinda drying & caky. So tak bagus sgt. Mebbie the next best thing is the lip tint, still drying but at least bleh bubuh lip gloss/ moisturiser afta that.

20. Self-tanners are disgusting. They stick on cloths, bed sheet & ur partner's shoulder, as well as they stain the bathroom floor. Bronzers are only good for contouring & eyeshadows.
    Truly. Now ada product yg encourage melanin production. Tak tau la yg tu bagus ke tak. It does give u the natural tan glow though.Thank Allah I'm already naturally tan.

21. Lipsticks/ lipgloss are versatile. They can also be used for cheek & eye colour. Save u space & money.
    Pernah try ni masa travelling dulu. I was kinda surprised with the effect. Cantik.

22. Bare skin is not always the best. =) At least try to look like u r alive, rather than like those bodies in the morgue.
    Hahaha.. aku pernah kuar without any make ups to work, mebbie sapu powder coz tak nak kasi peluh2. Seriously I saw a glimpse of my face on the mirror nampak cam mayat. Orang ingat aku sakit ke apa. Plus poles tadi tu revealed that guys suka tgk pompuan yg kemas & at least jaga sket looks tu. Aku pon pernah tanya some guys frens, they say the same thing.

23. Picit jerawat is okay, but make sure u clean properly ur fingers AND the area of skin where u gatal2 picit jerawat tadi. Bila dah kering... sapu la SPF so that tak obvious sgt the scarring.
    Yang ni kinda questionable aku rasa. Reason why aku tak nak picit is takut kasi scar & spread the germs. The reason why aku picit is, other than gatal2 nak picit, sebab aku notice that kalau biar je jerawat batu tu it gives a burning effect on the base.. last last kasi scar jugak. Logically, all the germs terperangkap kat dlm tu need drainage so that diorang tak further makan the healthy skin underneath. Jadi aku clean it, sapu toner yg ada salicylic, then sapu SPF.. and I notice now dah kurang scarring.

24. Salicylic acid is the best physical peeling/ acne treatment/ anti-aging, other than SPF.
    Agree.. according to all these dermatologists.

25. When u pluck ur eyebrows, do it based on the back bone. And make sure u step back after each few strands so that u dont overdo it.
    I have once tercabut bulu kening sampai botak sebelah, this is during first time cabut2 kening masa zaman uni dulu. I remember jugak masa kecik2 darjah satu I was kinda curious kenapa human being ada kening, so I shaved my left kening sampai takde & bila half way thru my right kening my parents found me in the bathroom. Considering brother ada accident dgn shaver dulu, of course diorang freaked out. Cannot imagine how buruks I went to school afta that.. Now aku berhati2 la sket kot.

26. U can mix & match any colours of the eyes & lips, as long as u know its logical & these colours are not actually tenggelam coz of ur skin colour. And... overdone make ups never works, unless its for a party or u r performing in a circus art.
    Setuju. Jangan nampak cam clown sudah la kan. Aku slalu nampak cam clown bila nak mix & match ni. Remember the point number brapa atas tadi tu, nak impress sapa & what event & mood it is for? Tapi kalau suka2 seronok jugak mix&match.. forget about all the rules.

27. No matter how much u want to look good at a wedding, dont overdo the bride. Remember, its her event, not urs.
    I strongly agree with this one.. teringat masa my own wedding, ada these cursed ppl yg I so didnt want to be there, but somehow ppl attention went to them... because of their outfit & make ups. How offputting & menyakitkan hati =( Sad to say.. its those lembu2. I would never do that to any weddings/ receptions/ majlis2 yg not meraikan 'ME'.

1,2,3,4,5,6...7,8,9 and what next =)

YES!!! Finally its weekends! I didnt realize how much I've lost track of time working in ED. Gila la. Full on, then bila balik rumah penat nak mampos sampai tak lalu nak buat apa2 even my favourite TV shows. Then penat nak mampos either terus nak tido or tak bleh tido langsung. And hasilnye, aku setiap hari lambat gi kerja, sampai smlm my boss ckp "... just letting u kno that we start at 8, not 8.30!! Hehhehehhe.. tu aku la tu, suka gi kerja lambat or to me its on time =P Tapi kat ED its not appreciated to come to work late coz kesian la kat org yg kita nak take over tu.

Anyways, interesting work in ED at BHH sini. My last metropolitan ED experience was getting stiched at MMC ED. But that doesnt count as its not considered 'working'. Then before that was as a student at DH, which was superb. And my interest in Emergency Medicine surprisingly started there. ED in LRH was so-so, cant really compare with metropolitan hospitals coz its a rural hospital, but its probably better than CGHS even tho not much resources in place.

So, macam2 orang I'm working with in ED sini coz we hafta liaise with the other teams, whether to admit/ home. And I definitely hafta brush up my ilmu2 kedoktoran ni. That includes ECG, pharmacology, definitely the anatomy part (especially bones.. think ortho), physiology of the lungs (erk...) and other stuff. But these are the critical things in any specialty of medicine I suppose. Seb baik la aku ni blaja kat aussie, therefore I've learned how people here bullshit here & there even tho diorang tak tau.. kiranye cam byk ckp jugak la. Hehehheeh.. seb baik jugak my bosses ingat aku reti apa yg aku ckp (well, mostly aku tau la jugak apa yg aku ckp), while what I do is menyamar pandai, ehehhehehe, macam org2 Aussie ni.

Its interesting how at 12:34:56 on this day of 07/08/09, here in Melbourne I was busy running around ED sorting out patients (mostly pretending to be busy), while the rest of the world were creating their own history. Baby's born, a surprise party elsewhere, successful sales, people at work, orang gi solat Jumaat, lunch wit family. And also on the other hand, people dying, world hunger, tanah runtuh, accidents, etc.

I have a few days off until next week before starting on nights again. Takut la jugak nak start nights. Bukan apa, aku takut nak wake the on-call people for referrals. Kerja siang senang, call je & diorang may komplen tapi the resources are there. Other than that, aku okay. Big bosses takde, cuma senior registrar, which is cool, bleh main2 sket. Heheheheheh.

And for these days off, aku nak study sket2, sambil gi jalan2 & spend some time with hubby. Rindu hubby. Ada bday invitation on Sunday. Book-keeping stuff, e.g. tax return, bills, etc. And berelaksasi.

ED here I come

I am still tired from the paeds night shifts, it does feel like I didnt get enuf 24 hour rest like wat the HR expected each one of us to have before coming back to work to day shift. I asked for Saturday to be an off day but they didnt let me, for the above reason. Damn.

I thought I would be excited to go back to work, especially in ED. The truth is, even tho I am looking forward to it, I am kinda nervous. I'm worried if I'm not sharp enuf or not on par. I didnt get to revise my stuff prior to this new rotation, and certainly didnt get enuf rest before starting. I just hope that I'm allowed to see only kids in ED, with some simple things like suturing. My heart is already shattered from the interview, now is my chance to show them that I'm worth it. (Seperti kata iklan Loreal.. ehhehehe).

Looking at my whole timetable, I work mostly arvo shifts or night shifts, with only a few morning shifts. Sedih jugak tgk timetable tu. Simply coz I'm not in the mood to work, mebbie coz I'm tired. But thinking about this coming Ramadhan, mebbie ada hikmahNYA aku dpt shifts cam tu. At least senang sket kerja arvo/ nights kalau nak puasa. Cuma kurang la ibadat di siang hari coz asik tido je. Bleh. Tak tau la cam mana kerja kat ED ni time puasa2 ni. Hopefully, kurang la patients hendaknye ke ED tu, nikmat di bulan puasa. Amiin. Hopefully jugak Allah swt kasi aku all the strength & patience to face bulan Ramadhan nanti. Amiin.

Anyway, starting soon, I better get ready to eat & stuff. C ya soon.

Here is a cartoon re: emergency medicine triage system as a courtesy of www.cartoonstock.com

Last paeds night shift

Last night was crazy. Penat gila bila balik rumah. Didnt do anything much, except for trying to get some rest & playing my favourite game on FB- 'restaurant city'. Hehehe.. hubby gi beli groceries & went to see some of his frens.

Usually on weekends kalau aku tak kerja, we do stuff together at home or kuar or go visit some friends. This weekends nampaknye cam nuthing going on. Mlm kuar dinner dgn Dr. MJ makan kat this Japanese take away shop. Takde la sedap sgt, coz aku dok minum air byk2 sampai bloated. Mebbie coz I had coffee before kuar tadi, tu la pasal kot tak lalu nak mkn sgt. Well, at least ada la jugak food nak makan, & ada la jugak member ajak kuar weekends cam gini.

And I am most definitely excited that I get to spend time with beloved hubby on weekends, memandangkan kerja aku ni shift work & slalu skejap je masa dpt tgk muka dia kalau terpaksa kerja weekends. (Hubby, wait for me on 'restaurant city' yeah!.. Muahs!... oh kita kena go skating nanti bila2 kay)

Well, this is my last paeds nights cover. I'm not going to say how I actually feel. I cant really say that this is going to be my last night shift, coz looking at the future I'm sure that there's going to be more of the night shifts. At this point, regardless of anything, just like any other rotations, I'm just glad that its nearly over & I'm going to start a new rotation. Simply coz I like the idea of learning new things in the new rotation. I have enjoyed my paeds rotation much, especially because of my superb colleagues. I'm just hoping that tonight is a nice good closure for my paeds term. InsyaAllah.

Gotta go admit a Gastro patient now. See youse soon.

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Back. Had a code blue tadi. VT for ~1minute, spontaneous revertion to sinus rhythm. Terasa nak baca sket2 utk ED. But my brain is kinda slow at the moment, with everything is dark & quiet. Anyways, I include some cartoon strips as the courtesy of http://www.cartoonstock.com/

this is part of a paediatrician's job

on the other hand.. kids now are growing too fast too quickly...