The Word Only I Know Of.

Braveless. (If you had read my previous post)

So, gripped in shock.
I asked around about the existence of 'Braveless'.
Nope, still doesn't exist.

Only my mum said it exists. It must be her.
She planted that word in my brain.

If it's of any consolation, I found a poem with the-word-only-I-know-of.

Braveless. It looks so normal to me.

Braveless.

After a day of interview, waiting around and getting filmed by a weird uncle.
I returned home.

I was pacing up and down in my house.
Restless, with no mood to do anything in particular.

And this word popped up in my head: Braveless.
It seemed to me that this word was legit. Like I had a faint inkling of using it in my composition as a kid or having come acrossed it in my lifetime.

But I was wrong.
I just made a quick Google search and realised that is no such word.
Flabbergasted, I flipped through the pages of the dictionary and to my utter horror -there was no such word.

How. How can this be?

Wasn't there ever a time when you used , "He was braveless as he ran into the fire."
Am I living in delusion?

Somebody pinch me now.
If it doesn't exist... Why did that word even pop up in my head?