{there's no one at home, im all alone}

MY LAST DAY IN SINGAPORE!
Woke up at 7am and reached guitar room at 8am.
Sec ones had their test on "Night of the Deserted Castle", "Donna Donna" and "Munchen Polka"
13 were chosen by Mr Shi to join us seniors! So now they are learning "Pasco"!
OMG, Pasco is "hard". Mind the inverted commas!
Well, it's not exactly hard, but I just can't remember what I'm playing and what Mr Shi is teaching.
Thus poor Naomi had to repeat and repeat and repeat and repeat for me because i can't get it AND I STILL CAN'T GET IT. So much for mastering my piece by today! =(

I have brought my guitar home, hopefully I can remember some snippets of the song without having to look at the score. IMSOLAZY! i don't want to look at the score! =/

Went to the Industrial Park(?) with elizabethpeh, yannis, wanting and waiping to settle the guitar tee stuff. (I think it's one or two stops away from the fire station.)
But it's STILL not settled because the aunty that Wanting talked to wasn't theer and the young lady was sure of everything. So she's either going to call Yannis or me, but Im going TAIWAN tomorrow till next Saturday! So I'm counting on Yannis and Clarakoh!








Waited for Bus 10. Haha, for every bus that came, Yannis will lie to us that it's number 10 without even looking at the number. We felled for it for the first time but not for the rest. Number 8 came first, then 9. So I was saying that number 8,9 then the third one would be 10!
And when the third bus came, Yannis lied again. BUT IT WAS REALLY NUMBER 10!
whoohooo!

Took all the way to Tampines Interchange. Waiping wanted to eat Pastamania so we agreed.
Yannis said that it's the farewell dinner before i go to Taiwan. Haha she made it sound like Im migrating! Anyway, since it's mine last day, i decided to eat my creamy chicken and FINISH IT!
Because I never ever finished it before. My stomach will feel sick whenever I eat till half.
But i finished it today! So did Wanting and Yannis. Waiping was the only one that ate baked rice.
However, I think it's due to the cream sauce today. It's kinda diluted not so much of the creamy choppy sauce that they use to serve.

Talked and somehow rather dragged studies, Olevels, exams and social studies into the conversation. I think it was when we talked about migration then Wanting mentioned Tessachin then it led to university, olevels, exams and finally social studies.
I heard that when the sec fours were in Sec three, they learnt what we are learning right now in Sec three, but when they are not in Sec four, the teachers are telling them that it's not the right way to go about with social studies. So now they are confused!

We were seriously feeling extremely full so we decided to leave Pastamania and take a walk. Went to Popular to get some stuff, then we went to Artbox which had the NICEST notebooks ever! (i think it's imported from Japan)
I have the mind to go get a few, but they are super expensive! :(
Nevermind, I can go get the thick thick one, it would be more worth it!! :D

We were all so tired, so while Yannis and Waiping lingered around to wait for their mum. Wanting and I left first. Wanting took MRT and I took on my legs home! The route seems very very long today! I was so tired.... bathed and since my folks aren't at home, so Im using the computer! :D for one whole week i won't be using! soooooo weird! haha, im like a computer addict! WHICH IS A BAD BAD BAD THING!

P.S. I can't promise that I will buy anything back for everyone! Because shopping time is limited and i must need the money. I apologise here first, don't blame me! ESPECIALLY SOO YUNXUAN! :D

haha i must sleep early tonight! If I didn't remember wrongly, my flight is at 8am. So must reach around 6am. So that means must wake up like 5am!
Aiya, cannot watch late night shows already! sad. but honestly I can't really believe that im going to Taiwan TOMORROW! It's been so long since I went overseas -if you don't count the China trip.
Im too used to staying at home or going to school during the school holidays that now going overseas seems very foreign to me! I will be missing;
Saturday: exco meeting
Monday: guitar prac
Tuesday: guides farewell pa duty
Wednesday: 3c first bbq outing
Friday: guitar

cool.


To whoever who still reads this:
Miss me! :)

P.S. xingkai, you better do a goooood job for pa! :D and celebrate lixuan's birthday (3rd june) when im not in singapore can? pleeeeeease! i beg you!



i.lost.my.legs.today.

Woke up early for sec four oral duty.
Was screwed up first thing -and the most important thing- when i came to school.
the classroom doors were NOT open. omg, and the uncle hassan claims he opened it. or whoever who claims that uncle hassan opened it.

okay, then i urgent sms the people for second shift to report at 9.15am instead of 10.15am. because i realised that the before break, the students must REPORT at 9.15am, not end at 9.15am. And some councillors had to leave. So, im really gald for those who saw my message and rushed like crazy, like mad, like witch on a broomstick and they manage to make it here on time.
I owe you guys ice cream! :D

OH! I REALLY OWE JEREMY TAY ICE CREAM!
it's all a misunderstanding, but he's so cute to not tell me that he's jeremy tay instead of zhiyuan from R&E. because jeremy tay's chinese name is zhiyuan and there's a zhiyuan in R&E so all along i though the zhiyuan im smsing is the zhiyuan from R&E. But it's actually zhiyuan cum jeremy tay who was from welfare.
was because he stepped down already.

but he's so cute la!
&i had no choice but to ask him to go home, because he's not a councillor, he can't possibly do the council duty. oh! but he's just soooo cute! omg, he somemore wear tie and council uni and was waiting patiently outside GO.
When chelsea smsed me in my mind i was like thinking JEREMY? which JEREMY is that?
coz council sec twos got Jeremy Tay, Jeremy Or and Jeremy Ma.
but i was so stunned!
yar anyway.... so things kinda got better later in the day.

and we had refreshments!
whooohooooo! got alot of food. and it's like so weird coz the refreshment booth was in the main school hall where oral was going on at the same time. and we were there eating while people were having oral.
SO unofficial. heh.

After duty ate somemore of the refreshments!
ate in the council room with jas, yuping, yunxuan, clarice, marilyn and amelia.
stupid yunxuan keep harping on the taiwan trip. keep saying she very sad and don't want me to go too coz she's not going overseas.
hahahaha! will have chance de la yunxuan! :D cheer up!

After duty walked down with yunxuan, clairce, marilyn, yuping and amelia.
jasmine went for guides, serene dono go where. chelsea had something on. huiwen too.
first shift people left longggg ago already.

I went to meet my mum and sister at tampines mall but they weren't there when i reached so i napped at macs. i saw louisa
They came, ate lunch (saw louisa again) did some shopping and bought shoes, clothes, BRA that's all i think.....
saw jinni!!!!! hahaha :) your hair's really okay, SERIOUSLY. and hope the shoes will cheer you up!

oh, my sis and mum were at Isetan buying shoes and i was TERRIBLY SLEEPY! so i sat at the seats available and napped there again! hahahahahaha!

then waited for my dad to come.... blahs blahs. went to eat dinner.
then did more shopping, then proceeded home.
supposed to go to the tailor to collect our jeans (my sister and i too short la, must always alter our jeans.. so sad)

i just "packed" my luggage!
i simply dumped all my clothes that i wanna wear onto my bed. haha and i shall wait for my mum to go through them and help me put nice nice into my luggage! :D

okay, i have a tummyache now. dono what did i eat wrong!

Guitar prac tomorrow, gotta pia and learn my piece by hard because im going to miss2-3 pracs while im in taiwan!! and mr shi wants to finish teaching by tomorrow. oh god, i b etter memorise and learn BY HARD so i won't forget anything when i come back. yuppy yupyup. bless me!

i.really.lost.my.legs.today.
they.are.so.tired.that.they.feel.numb.
i.can't.feel.it.
gah.
=/

(font size bigger so that you people won't strain your eyes!)
Tomorrow is sec four english oral duty!
and Friday would be guitar! -which i will pon self prac and go do guitar teeeeeee!
i love mrs koh. she suggested it :D

anyway, woke up super late today. and had a splitting headache, must be sleeping tooooo much!
woke up at 1pm.

my sister lied to me, she said she will go play basketball with me in the evening and now im still stuck at home doing nothing. Thus im here blogging and talking to people i haven't talked to in ages.
-germaine loklok
-neighbour chuahouseleaf
-cherie bomb

and HAHAHAHAHAHA i finished reading marshmallows for breakfast.
hah sorry la jinni, i know you must be thinking that i copy you. haha but coz i read first chapter from someone before (i forgot who) so i wanted to finish it.
hahahahahhaa!

and i had cravings for marshmallows.
and then i thought of BBQ.

SPEAKING OF BARBECUE!
IM GOING TO MISS THE FIRST 3C OUTING!
MAMAMEEEEYA!
NEXT WEDNESDAY!
I WILL BE IN TAIWAN! BOOOHOOOO!
and it's like ALOT of people will be going la!
im so sad.
soooooo sad.
sooooooooooo sad.

:D but im in a good mood today.
in a very very gooooooooood mood.
:D i love you charmaine :)

thanks xingkai and tzy for subbing lixuan and i for guides farewell.

i continued blog hopping and updating my links just now and WOAH, many many people have subjected to locking up their blogs. im kinda zzz by it, i don't know why.

oh,
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO AUDREY POON! -26 May
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO SERENE ONG! -27 May

:D

alex IS real.

i didn't go running today.
i slept in till 12noon.
im trying to do geog homework now but i can't focus.
my mind is spinning, i need to get up and do something active.
play ball, cycle, run, swim, scream, dance, CAMPS.

my mum says im fat, everyone says im fat, i think that im fat.
and im fat.

it's a damn hot day.
heard that some actor from harry potter died when he was protecting his younger brother from a drunkard stabber.
got stabbed four times and he died.

life's cruel.

my back still hurts, and im pissed off by it.
i can't do much when my body hurts, i can't stretch properly, i can't sit properly without hurting.

my taiwan trip is nearing.
guides farewell is postponed to 3rd june, in a sense it's a break for me i suppose, but htink i should be going to school on Thursday.
and friday's cca. so doesn't make a difference.

i know i shouldn't reveal too much.
but when people says that i don't trust them, it's not that i don't.
I do trust them. Actually, a part of me still hold a sceptical feeling.
But this applies to everyone that i know, even my family members.
=T i don't want to bother too much.

i miss my pongy-pompom. and that person who took it didn't even use it! dammit.
mylifesucks

{back to homework}

I just went blog hopping and my heart started to bleed.
i know it's such a niche phrase and it sounds really WTH, but i just felt like everythings draining outta of me as though i was once a water filled basin and then someone just plucked out my plug and RFHTHHHHH! the water drains out and ends with a gurgling sound. *drip* *drip* *drip*

yep. honestly, i can't wait to go to taiwan.
my eight days there.
31st may to 7th june.
people, don't miss me :D haha i know no one will. I don't hold much. Not more than a 6x10^23 molecule of whatever.

There was sec one council interview today and i enjoyed TORMENTING the candidates.
haha, just kidding. we didn't do much besides posing easy and politically answerable questions.
It was when cailaoshi took over when the difficulty level shot up!

Then we has exco lunch and the bill's on the teachers!
mrs lim oi leng, mr kevin tan, cai lao shi and ms lee yilian all went.
all exco members went except yujun who has decided to balance well and devote her time to chinese orchestra.

Ate at pizza hut tampines mall. haha it was a tight squeeze cos we had 15 people and it was HARD to fit us all into an area where we could sit together. so ended up teachers and us were separated. jasmine made it from guides.
got a chocolate cake to celebrate serene's birthday.
sang the birthday song LOUDLY so that everyone could hear it. HAHAHAHA
and im so sad that the teachers said im FATTTTTT!
especially that ms lee and cailaoshi. BIG FAT SOB FROM fat ME!
okay nvm, anyway...... kelyn went for movie with her class so yunxuan, jasmine and i went to my house bball court to play.
haha talked alot and shared alot.
I NEED EXERCISE!

okay but i was in a good mood today :D
maybe i shall go for a run with my sis tomorrow?
i htink exercising really makes me happy!
:D
taurus people are stubbborn headed

Went to Sungei Buloh for a field trip today.
there were SO many people there, besides our school there were also priamry school i think.
yishun and some others.

Kinda cool. I didn't get any mozzie bites.
and i got to eat grace's biscuits.
like finally the "future" manager got to eat the biscuits!
but i only ate one, shermaine the greeeeedy pig ate like thousands of it!

got this from chowy's blog.

1) corinne
2) javier
3) yunxuan
4) kelyn
5) jasmine
6) lixuan
7) jinni
8) joseph
9) chowy
10) tzy
11) grace
12) shermaine
13) evangelin
14) priscilla
15) junni
16) cow
17) xitheng
18) seehui
19) cornelius
20) eugene loh

A) How did I meet 14?
3C

B) What would I do if I never met 1? (corinne)
I will have spent less time telling her to WEAR HER SPECS!

C)What if 9 and 20 dated? (chowy and eugene loh)
OMG, it's kinda weird combi..

D) How about 6 and 17? (lixuan and xitheng)
i think they dated before xD

E) Describe 3. (yunxuan)
cute, irritating, sensitive, funny, cheerful, think too much, has a big head and narrow shoulders (jk) a voice shrill enough sometimes you wanna strangle her for yelling into your ear.

F) Is 8 attractive? (joseph)
He looks like a teddy bear.

G)Describe 7 (jinni)
crazy, totally in love with "alex", horrible laughter, cute.

H) Do you know any of 12's family members? (shermaine)
know as in know KNOW? i onyl know that besides her parents, she has a primary six sister whose name is....... cheryl? i can't remember the name xD

I) What would you do if 18 confessed that he/she likes you? (seehui)
i will laugh, because i need the money to let her go shopping.

J) What language does 15 speak? (junni)
perrrrrrfect english.

K) Who is 9 going out with? (chowy)
she's going out with me!

L) How old is 16? (cow)
erm, twenty plus? late twenties?

M) When is the last time you spoke to 13? (evangelin)
this afternoon during the sungei buloh trip.

N) What is 2's favourite band/singer? (javier)
no idea, i only know he's retarded enough to sing, "seasons are changing and winter is coming~"

O) Would you ever date 4? (kelyn)
ooooh, she's kinda cool, not too bad. :D

P) Would you ever date 1? (corinne)
NO THANKS! :/ i don't want to be with someone who pats her hair everyday!

Q) Is 19 single? (cornelius)
yup.

R) What is 10's last name? (tzy)
harn!

S) Would you date 11? (grace)
she's a WEIRDO, but she promised me one million dollars and a position in her bakery :) and so i would.

T) What is 3's school? (yunxuan)
ahs.

U) Where does 16 live? (cow)
near school?

V)What is 5's favourite thing? (jas)
******?

W) Have you seen 2 naked? (javier)
EEW nopenopenope. and better not! @.@

i hate my life.
i want to kill myself.
thanks.

HEEHEEHEE! THE MOST PROUD RESULT OF ALL!

Elect elit!!!!!!
41/50!!!

but it's just too bad that i failed my ss if not i would be able to get an A.
stupid shermaine, got 65 for the total of combined humanities.

im a professional paper thrower, i threw my elit paper up to the ceiling and it hit
the fan and apparently causing the fan to slow down. and my paper was covered with thick black dust!

jamus and wenjie broke guanxiang's badminton racket. Heard that it cost alot. the head totally broke into TWO! wow, but guan xiang was like nevermind, anyway it's going to break already. cool. oh yar, black dust flew down, like dust flakes

BREAKING NEWS!

MR NEO SAYS THAT HE IS MARRIED WITH A THREE YEAR OLD DAUGHTER CALLED NEO MO KIN.
WHAT A NAME, I SERIOUSLY DO NOT BELIEVE HIM!
EVEN IF IT'S TRUE, I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THE FACT!
but i don't think it's true. he sound so fake. with that weird smile and everything, he's not even wearing a ring!!! and he claims that it doesn't matter if he wears a ring or not, or if he really IS married or not.

RUBBISH! of course it does matter, if he's married and he doesn't wear a ring, WHY? SO UNLOYAL, WHY HIDE FROM PEOPLE THAT YOU'RE MARRIED?!

if he is NOT married and now he is claiming to the classes that he teach that he IS married, then he is lying! MASS LYING! and he is a teacher with no moral values. HOW CAN HE LIE?!

but im just going to wait till he installs Quicktime then he can show us the three videos of his DAUGHTER, NEO MO KIN!

if he really has a daughter, it's such a weird name given!
@.@


AGM today after school.
okay, so the posts are finally finalised and made known to sec twos...

President: Serene
Vice President: Yujun
Secretery: Cornelius
Treasurer: Ada
Resource Manger: Wenjie
Vice resource manager: Amelia (sec2)
Discipline comm head: Ronald Leung
Discipline vice comm head: Hailong (sec2)
Welfare comm head: Jasmine
Vice welfare comm head: Yunxuan
Functions comm head: yours sincerely
Functions vice comm head: Darren
R&E comm head: Zhouyang
R&E vice comm head: Kelyn

*jinni has a special post, she's in charge of ties, badges and tie pins.
it's an important job okay! :) congrats!

Things are really starting to crash into the schedules.
jasmine is like going bonkers already! haha her guides and council JUST KEEP CLASHING INTO EACH OTHER!
yujun is dying with so many things unsettled and serene has fallen sick, with medication to stop her terrible nosebleed.

everyone are so busy with their ccas.
and almost everyone in exco besides the sec twos have a post in their ccas.

yunxuan = english drama stage manager
jasmine = guides acl
serene = table tennis captain
wenjie = ncc part alpha platoon sergeant
darren = ncc training head
me = guitar vice pres
cornelius = chior pres
ada = choir wardrobe manager

investiture on 9 july, no pracs yet, no music yet, investiture dance not confirmed, not yet choreographed, no plan for chair formation yet, EVERYTHING NOT YET!
then there's still two ptc coming up, sec four eng oral coming up, exco meeting.

and my taiwan trip that's taking up the WHOLE WEEK!
my functions outing plan is gone.
my council batch outing plan is gone
my class bbq is gone
byebyebye!

whoooo, came back at 11.30pm.

As planned, i did my English then my back freaking hurts so i laid on my bed and rest then i fell asleep.
woke up at 6pm when yunxuan called me, she wanna ask me out to eat dinner.
called and ask permission from my mum, she said ok so i went out.
met them at macs.
kelyn came, coz everybody very budget so we went foodcourt. then javier arrived.
stupid qinhui don't wanna come out coz he wanna sleep, jinni also don't want.
dumb kelyn keep saying she's fat. yunxuan another one keep saying she has small shoulders and a big head!
after food court went to starbucks and slack.
then left for tampines mart, coz kelyn needs to go home.
she's supposed to go home, bathe then come down again but her mum asked us to go up instead.
so joseph, yunxuan and i went up to her house.
it was 10.45pm already, watched a bit of tv, talked abit then at 11pm we all left.

joseph don't want that dumb hamster he got from the machine so he passed to yunxuan then she passed to me. lol

because we were all talking about fat fat fat today, so tomorrow yunxuan and i going to run in the morning then after that go suntan.

whoots can't wait.
okay before mum scolds, goodnight!

:)
wasn't so bad. my mum popped the question in the morning.
and well, probably they're numbed too coz there wasn't much of a reaction.
just a sigh then the nags started.
both my sis and mum just bombarded me with arrows.

i told them about tuition at katong and they were like, "WHAT SO FAR LEH KATONG! IT'S LIKE ONE HOUR FROM TAMPINES!! DON'T WANT LA, SO FAR"

lol, but i have to say that the good thing is that it has a very flexible timing.
like anyday also can go, not like standard tuitions where there's like a fixed day...

and i just remembered, that i have council tomorrow. supposed to start my first tuition tomorrow! shiiiiiiiiiiit. so how now brown cow?

oh i might be going to taiwan on 1st june.
not very confirmed yet but still, quite confirmed that im going.
haha the rendang trip was cancelled because after my period is my sis' then my mum's then back to mine again. so it sums up that the whole damn holiday is taken up by periods and there's snorkelling so we can possibly snorkel with our period (the sharks probably will come after us like after 20 secs in the water -IF there're sharks) @.@ so taiwan was chosen. :D not too bad a choice.
hope there won't be earthquakes though. But if you don't see me on 16th june you will know why -.-
*touch wood*


im going to start a new embarkment on my life.
less play, more books.
study.
study.
study.
& no more four lettered F**L words.

actually come to think of it, my results aren't that bad, at least i only fail one subject.
but, im going to be busy soon with all my commitments.
though kinda glad that on the pa side it will be less of a burden but still, another burden will be flung onto my shoulders.

our june holidays is shortened by a week and im kinda saddened by it. heh.
just wanna have more time to catch up with some friends and homework and play or something.
but gahhhhh, so now have to cram everything into three short weeks.
the school aims to squeeze the olevel syllabus before 2009 term 1 week 1.

workhard, playhard.
im off to do english hol homework (which is super duper difficult), before the other homework starts to pile up!
i have a busy hol ahead, with council , pa, school, holiday, homework, guitar, pracs, investiture pracs, camps blahblahblah.

my goal this year and next year is to put a balance on functions and guitar.
Plus lots and lots and lots and lots of focus on my studies.
less play, less distractions = L1R5 bagus!
L1R5 aim: 12

(pre)/June holiday schedule:
20th may: council annual general meeting
21st may: sec one sc interview
24th may: start of hol
29th may: sec four eng oral duty
30th may: sec one sc induction camp
1st june to 7th june: taiwan trip
16th june: back to school
17th-19th june: daily council training.

in between there's still investiture pracs, functions outing, council batch outing, guitar pracs, meetings, school homework.

okay, at the thought of it and im going bonkers.

redemption in desperation.

16th may

OKAY.
it's 1.32am now.
im super tired.
im out the whole day.
i reached home at 11.15pm
im dead beat.
but here i am, i managed to squeeze time out to give you the latest update.
i don't know who "you" refers to, because i doubt anyone still reads all these.

more papers today and more disappointments.
though im already numbed but still, i feel pathetic. really. THREE LONG YEARS.
shuthellup.

ms khoo has been really nice about the encouragement given.
thanks to her, i feel that im given a chance to redeem myself.
though not literally, but mentally yes.

after school, the whole area outside staffroom was crowded with students students and more students.
Again, guilt overwhelmed me as i thought silently to myself, "when am i going to be standing out here waiting enthusiastically for my wanted teacher to get more marks. marks. marks. marks."
Now, I don't even need to. I don't even have to. Because it just won't help the slightest bit. and what for go begging for marks. when the teacher gives you stupid reasons for not giving you full marks for a question.
like tham lai yin, "I don't give full marks"
what crap is that! she can't even tell me what did i miss out in my answers!
anyway, forget it.

good news people!
guitar handover today and................
yannis is president!
lalala!

went out for guitar late lunch.
managed to get seats at tampines mall pastamania. 40 people altogether. Phew! we're lucky to get last minute reservations.

after lunch those who are going for vj concert lingered on in tampines mall while the rest who wants to go, go.
walked around for so long and finally taking a short rest at century square foodcourt.
then it was time to meet mavis at tanah merah bus stop.
the bus came shortly and i stood the whole journey.
alighted at the wrong bus stop and had to walk like the distance of two frgging long separated bus stops.
settled in the auditorium and the concert started soon.
saw kuan ren.
not too bad, i especially liked the ng ling kai's singing cum guitar part. she's good.
*think you can go to youtube to check her out.

the concert was terribly long though.
and there was this video at the end which was more suited for vj students because probably, an internal joke within the school. apparently i didn't find it funny.
and it dragged on for so long! first there was longggg singing then ENCORE! then live long singing.. the same song. claire was falling asleep.

oh i forgot ot mention that there was this little girl that was present in the audience and, i don't blame her because she doesn't sound normal but she's making alot of noise and i think that her parents could have done better in controlling her. she was really much of a distraction.

ended at 10.15pm.
and wowwwww the bus stops were flooded with vj people.
managed to squeezed up the 31 bus.
alighted at tampines interchange and walked home.

there was alot of walking today and im suffering from terrible back aches and due to yesterday's pe lesson, my arms hurt and everything.

now, i just don't feel like moving. after this blog post im going to wash up and go straight to bed.
i will show my results tomorrow.
i cross my fingers that my folks won't be harsh on me.
pretty pretty pleaseeeee!

i have...
muscle aches on my arms and legs
my feet ache from all the walking
my back ache
my neck ache from the long concert

saw xinyi, lihui, viviang, hari, shiya, kuan ren today.

REDEMPTION CHARMAINE,
redemption.

life sucks.
im blogging in school because i don't htink i will have a chance at home now.
after getting back so many results today, im on the brink of tearing my brains apart and throwing it into the blender.
brain juice anyone?
i bet no one wants it because my brain is ROTTEN, you know rotten?
it can't think well
it can't access well
it is a useless brain

17/36 people in our class failed emath.
this is stupid. i can't do without emath. i can't. this is so stupid im ready to murder cow.
and im so going to spill my blended brains onto my emath books, whatever math books.
im SO freaking desperate to do well for my emath.

COMEON!

okay.. 15th may 08- wednesday
SUPPOSED TO GO TO SCHOOL
INTENDED TO GO TO SCHOOL
BUT DIDN'T
i would like to put the blame to my dad though it's my fault too.
but he just has this horrible habit of whacking down the alarm the moment it rings.
so it will be like
"RINGGG!" *whack*
*silence*
so only he heard it and no one else did! and then he goes back to sleep and ticktockticktock, it was 7.10am when he RUSHED into my room and YELLED, "CHARMAINE! WAKE UP! 7.10 ALREADY!! WAKE UPPPPPP!"
my eyelids FLUNG open, i JUMPED outta bed and I did everything at top speed.
when i was ready to go out, it was 7.15am.
my dad ans i started stoning in the living room.
dad: so how? take taxi?
me: *silence*
dad: what time will you be counted late?
me: 7.25
dad: what time will your assembly end?
me: *silence* HOW I KNOW? everyday different timing whattttt.
mum: aiya all your fault la, don't know how to get up by yourself!
dad: or we take taxi then we just drive in to school?
me: there's that barrier thingy there now okay..
dad: aiya take mc la, then i also can take MC.
mum and i: *silence*
mum: you ah....
dad: okay! set! lets go eat breakfast!
mum: aiyo, okay la LETS GO EAT BREAKFAST.
me: lollll

(im in the library and there's a bunch of lower sec boys crowding near me)

so i changed outta my school uni and we went to macs for breakfast.
then we returned and i went to see the doctor for an mc. anyway i was having an inconsistent cough.
slept and slept. till 1.35pm.

got ready to go out. supposed to meet kelyn then go to school and give jasmine her present.
P.S. kelyn supposed to go out to buy jasmine's present in the late morning.

i went out with my parents coz they wanna check out some travel stuff.
COULDN'T contact kelyn at all, and a thought crept into my head.
SHE MUST BE STILL SLEEPING!

when clarakoh called me to say that school's over, i was like okay, it's impossible to go there now and celebrate jinni's birthday.
and anyway i also have to do guitar stuff with clarakoh.
so i asked calra to come over to tampine small then.
and i called jinni.
asked her to called kelyn.
that stupid kelyn REALLY is still sleeping la!
i was like super duper uber shocked when i heard that.
okay anyway i ate with clarakoh then we did guitar stuff then i went to pop by my parents at the century square foodcourt.
then kelyn and joseph came already.
met up withthem and we went shopping!

bought a HUGE winnie the pooh from kiddy palace.
haha, joseph took a brown bear down at first then when he tried to put that bear back, he threw it up, then it dropped down, when he bent down to pick it up, the pooh bear from the shelve dropped onto his head!!! heeheehee! kelyn laughed like crazy!
so we decided to buy pooh instead!

joseph and i paid.

went to bluez and we bought a belt thingy for jas. we asked the staff to put "JAS" on it.
kelyn paid for that.

bought a pink cap for her from bluez as well and i paid for that.
then met up with yunxuan and we wanted to buy more stuff but decided not to when yunxuan started talking about jinni.
so we planned to go to jinni's house to cheer her up!
haha!

JINNI WAS TERRIBLY SHOCKED IM TELLING YOU!
and so was her mum, she thought we were selling ice cream!

haha then we went to her com, talk abit then i left first :)
the end!!

15th may 08 -thursday
yunxuan put pooh on jasmine's chair!
haha then they bluffed her that pooh was given by some admirer.
haha im so in love with pooh im telling you!!!! :D :D :D it's like sooooo cute! :D
second recess i had to get the redcross donation box and sit at concourse.
though im not obliged to get anyone to donate, but i had to right! there was so little money inside!
so i got people to pay.
haha :)
darren: $10
anita: some coins. dono how much
teng hui: $2
wanting and inggrid: $2
anita's friend: $20!!!!
yunxuan: some coins dono how much.

i think there's more, im not sure...
but it was around 37 or 38 dollars i guess.

16th may 08 -friday
TODAY.

it's a bad bad bad bad bad bad bad day. results aren't good.
anyway, im glad there's encouragement from Ms Khoo, she really believes in me alot i guess.
(i hear alot of noise in the library and i wonder WHY THERE'S SO MANY PEOPLE)
im here now because there's handover later.
im super hungry and im glad there's buffet later.
going to vj concert later too.
hhaa~
howhowhowhowhowhowhowhowhow
shermaine is super retarded and i feel like strangling you, you know.
you passed EVERYTHING. and those droplets of yours keep FLOWING. you better drink lots and lots of WATER to replenish the amount of water LOST and please return me like a thousand TISSUES!!!! xD

i waiting for time to pass. or maybe i should give up my computer to those poor kiddos that need the com to do some project.

im desperate and im willing right now to put in utmost effort to DO WELL.
DESPERATE!
D-E-S-P-E-R-A-T-E
DESPERATE!!!!
:(

(blogger is freaking SICK, this is the third time i INTEND to type about 14th may and today.)

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING SO RIGHT NOW, BECAUSE IM NOT IN A VERY GOOD MOOD FOR FALLING ASLEEP IN THE EVENING WHEN I DIDN'T WANT TO AND THEN GETTING RUDELY WAKENED UP BY MY DAD AND SIS WHO BARGED INTO THE ROOM AND STARTED TALKING LOUDLY ABOUT ME SLEEPING SO EARLY.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I REALLY WANNA BREAK ALL MY BACKBONES AND FIX THEM BACK TOGETHER AGAIN AND I SWEAR I DON'T CARE IF I CAN SWEAR OR NOT, I SWEAR THAT I WILL NOT CRACK ANY PART OF MY BODY ANYMORE!!!!!!!

NO KNUCKLES!
NO TOES!
NO ELBOWS!
NO JAWS!
NO NECK!
NO BACK! DEFINITELY NO MORE AT THE BACK!

anyone knows where i can get an X-ray?
i think i hurt my back.
anything i do, even if im not doing anything, it hurts.
i tried to help carry the coffee table and move it alittle, me on one end and my mum on the other and i couldn't move it! because my back hurts i can't even have the strength to lift it up and move it!

this sucks.
TOTALLY DUDESSSSSS!
you know why i think that i really sprained it or hurt it? by leaning on my back on the chair right now, and if i bend my head down, IMTELLING YOU THE PAIN SEARS UP MY RIGHT BUTT AND BACK!

:(

13th May

FINALLY it's the end of the myes!

today was the last two papers -hcl and emath
emath was first and it totally demoralised me. okay, im soooooo going to f**l. and im dreading it, im soooooooo dreading it. im going to be condemned in remedial FOREVER! freeeeak!

HCL was next. it was pretty much okay, but there's one tian xie han zi that i got wrong and im such a stupid ass to get that question wrong. i just hope hope hope that they MIGHT accept the answer BUT there's not a high possibilty.

that stupid shopping mall question, the answer is xuan1 xiao1, I put man1 han1.

But i HOPE i can get a good mark for hcl because........ i really want to.

After school, went to put my emath and hcl stuff in my locker, then i went to the library with clarakoh.

The librarian was sooooooo hostile! I really wonder if th is is her first job you know. It's like being confined in thie library and having to come back during some of the holidays as well, no wonder she always has such a bad temper.

*im about to write my name down*

librarian: give me your link card

me: huh?

librarian: give me your link card, your link card

me: oh.. oh, it's outside.

*went to get card*

*pass it to her*

*librarian passes me a number 5 card*

*takes it and gave a questioning look*

librarian: it's your computer number

me: oh.. *hesitates for a while* can i have number 9?

librarian: why.

me: *stunned* oh.. erm.. coz.. i just like that computer... -.-

*librarian didn't say anything and passes me card number 9*

*i exchanged cards and started to walk away*

librarian: record your name, still need to record! record your name.

me: oh. oops.

lol, and for the whole thing she was speaking in that monotonous voice.

clara and i were doing some sorting of pictures for guitar handover stuff.

Her thumbdrive couldn't work on the com so we got the pictures from my thumbdrive and pictures from claralee and guitar blog :)

After sorting, we place the wanted folders into a general folder and we labelled it, "DEVELOP THIS"

Then we labelled the other unwanted folder, "DO NOT DEVELOP THIS"

went to tampines mall, brought my thumbdrive to go send the photos for developing first before going for late lunch.

and the person STILL asked which one to develop..............

..........................

guys, remember the folder labellings...

went to KFC to eat.

and i forgot to pay for my food.

the cashier was like, "the total will be ... hello? miss, the total will be ... hello!"

and i actually heard her you know, it's only i was like just kept walking away.. lol. super funny and clara kept laughing at me! haha lol something wrong with me.

after lunch then we went home.

when i got home not long, jinni called me and told me to meet at 6 at downtown east.

wow, i was so tired. it was already 4plus.

after i bathed and sat on the sofa for a while, it was already 5pm!

i dragged myself throught the dressing up then i left house at 5.15pm and walked slowly to the busstop.

the bus took really long to come.

i reached ehub at EXACTLY 6pm!

whoo, and no one was there yet.

joseph reached already, but he was somewhere else so he came over. then kelyn came. jasmine, yunxuan, jinni, wenjie and finally javier.

jasmine yunxuan and jinni were suuuuuuuuuper late!

luckily joseph, kelyn and i found a place at some milktea shop and sat there while waiting for them.

haha joseph spilled naicha on his pants! it was exactly at .........

he was super embarrassed haha but managed to faint the stain.

because they reached at 7.15pm.

by then we had already moved our butts and were outside the cinema.

we were deciding on the buying of tickets and calling of people, confirming who's watching and who's not..

when wenjie SUDDENLY RAN UP AND THRUSTED YUNXUAN WITH A STALK OF SUNFLOWER.

and yunxuan took it over so briskly, it seems as though it was planned out and they have rehearsed for like millions of times.

and then yunxuan started laughing MADLY. there was this guy wearing a black jacket and he laughed at her.

anyway it was really sweet of wenjie to buy yunxuan a sunflower. though it's A sunflower but it's not cheap.

okay, so we bought the 7.35pm tickets and it was already time to go in anyway so we went in.

after 10mins, javier called me and said he's here already. (he chionged from simei; samuel's house, qinhui supposed to come too but he watched vegas before.)

joseph went out and got him in.

we watched WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS haha its a good show! i thought it was a real lame show before watching but it's really good! :)

after the show something happened. haha and im so sorry, i think i ruined the happy and cheery mood and i kinda made a big hoohah about it.

SORRY DUDES!

javier gave yunxuan a hamster! with a cage and everything. besides food because yunxuan has hamster food at home.

anyway we went to downtown east like you know.. THAT side, i don't know what's it called. it's beside ehub ahaha lol. bought food then we went to the field. sat in a circle and then started eating. i didn't buy anything coz i wasn't hungry. talked about council stuff and chatted blahblah.

suddenly qinhui popped out. hha with a CAKE! yay! i was just feeling hungry.

it was a nice cake, but the candles melted so quickly that alot alot alot of the curly white chocolate flakes that layered the top of the cake had to be taken off. =(

the two birthday girls, yunxuan and jasmine took the cake first then it went by birthday order from the oldest which is wenjie, javier, jinni, me, joseph, kelyn, qinhui?

the remaining cake was thrown away.

haha, we had no idea how fast time flew!!!

It was already 11.25 when we cleared up our litter and left the field. By the time we walked to the MRT it was 11.40.
wanted to take bus but kelyn, javier, jinni's bus no more service already, and yunxuan doesn't even have a bus to go home.

so we decided to take taxi in threes.

since wenjie went home, and qinhui can walk home. haha qinhui led us to the place where there was ALOT of taxis. yunxuan, jinni and joseph shared a taxi while javier, kelyn and i shared one. kelyn alighted first then me lastly javier.

the taxi driver very cute, and what he said made me feel glad that i get to go to school :)

went home, opened the door myself, IMMEDIATELY said sorry to my mum for coming back home soooooo late coz she was waiting for me to come home.

i reached home at 12.10am.

slept at 1am.

quickly bathed dried my hair then SLEPT!

(i shall blog on today; 14may tomorrow :D)

unfortunately for the last two papers that mark the end of the 2008 secondary three mid year exam.
i have lost hope and is on the brink of giving up again.
If only math was easy for me to master, i would have chionged through revision and have my nice beauty sleep before all the hoohah celebration tomorrow.
but.. i just can't stick my ass onto my chair and FOCUS.

damn you, i don't want to f**l

SURFING THE NET is boring IM GOING TO abandon my unHEALTHY LIFESTYLE.

only hear the good stuff.

:D

i have been talking about my life.
but isn't that what one should talk about when they blog?
i don't know, but im kinda sick of it. and i think others must be sick of it too.
everyday i talk about how the lessons are terribly boring.
everyday i talk about how i was late for PA and had to run like mad.
everyday i talk about how irritating our teachers are.
everyday i talk about how depress and sad i am.
everyday i talk about things that many others talk about.

OH SHUT UP CHAR!

CAN'T YOU JUST STOP COMPLAINING
&LEARN TO REALLY LOVE LIFE LIKE HOW IT IS?

LIKE HOW YOU DO HAVE FRIENDS
-and you're not alone (stop saying you're alone with no friends idiot!)
LIKE HOW YOU CAN EAT ALL THE GOOD FOOD
-because you're healthy.
LIKE HOW YOU CAN RUN AND WALK NORMALLY
-because you're not disabled.
LIKE HOW YOU CAN GET ANGRY AND YELL AT YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS
-because you have your dad, mum and sister to be there to hear you yell and tolerate your nonsense.
LIKE HOW YOU CAN LAUGH AT STUPID THINGS
-because you still find life interesting.
LIKE HOW YOU CAN SMILE TO YOURSELF
-because you have the muscles to bring the corners of your mouth upwards
LIKE HOW YOU HAVE HOMEWORK TO DO
-when others can't even go to school.
LIKE HOW I CAN GET FRUSTRATED AT TIMES
-because i know that im normal, like everyone else...

im not perfect.
and that's a great thing because...
i don't want to be that way :D
i want to be as nonsense i can be, talk rubbish, fail, have troubles, fall down, graze my knee, get angry, lose friends, feel like dying, can't eat well, be depressed, hate someone, give up on myself, learn, understand, tolerate, grow up, get old, die.

isn't that life? going through the ups and downs throughout your living age and just... rant and love it just the way it is.

IM SHALL BE HAPPY FROM NOW ON AND ANYONE WHO CATCHES ME FROWNING OR GETTING IRRITATED OR ANGRY PLEASE THREATEN TO SLAP ME.

i will wake up. :)

OH, BUT SHIT YOU CHARMAINE, STOP AIMING FOR A PASS WHEN OTHERS ARE FOREVER FOREVER FOREVER AIMING FOR AN A1.
im desperate -to prove myself.

AHAHAHAHAHHA! :D
IT'S THE BIOLOGY AND ELIT PAPER TODAY!
BIOLOGY WAS OKAYYYYY! :D I HOPE I GET GOOD MARKS.
AND ELIT WAS URGHHHH HAHAHAHAHA BECAUSE MY HAND FELT LIKE IT WAS CRAMPING UP IN ANY MOMENT. =/

A couple of questions for Biology came out from the ten year series, im glad i did the book :)
i hope hope hope hope that i can get a good mark, though there were some questions that i weren't sure of...

biology was surprisingly relaxing.
i finished my mcqs in 25 mins when the given time duration was 1hr.
oh shit i hope im not too confident of my answers lol.
i had time to check if i shade everything i needed to on my oms, check if my answers are correct and check if my answers tally.

for paper two, i finished pretty early too and still had time to check through my answers like thrice or something and think about the questions i weren't sure of.

For elit, i did the one on Li Wen, just htought it could be more well expressed but apparently when i started doing, i was stuck at my vocabulary, all i could think of was AWKWARD and TENSION. dotssssssss i hope hope hope again that i can get a good mark -to pull my ss up.
If i screw both, im going to throw away all my screwdrivers! grr..

ONE MORE DAY TO GO!!!!!! :D
emath and higher chinese! Im happy that the exams will be over soon :D

My holidays will be SO packed that I can't go for a holiday with my family. THough i really wanna go with them but...... :(

THREE COUNCIL CAMPS
COUNCIL BATCH OUTING
FUNCTIONS OUTING
CLASS BBQ?
SUN TANNING WITH LIXUAN
VJ GUITAR CONCERT
GUITAR PRACTICES?
BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION FOR YUNXUAN
LESSONS ON THE LAST WEEK

ahahahahha i don't know why but i just can't wait for the holidays to start and i can get all busy again with my activities!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D

it's a friday today but not many people are online.
guess the exam mood must be still powered on, either that or people are just sleeping their souls away.

i slept just now too!
but it was a difficult time for me.
at 3plus, i TRIED to sleep, have a DEEP and SWEET and NICE sleep but i just couldn't sleep!
my heart was telling my mind to tell my body to switch off.
but somehow my brain just kept clicking.
click click click...
and i was feeling sooooo hot, and smses kept coming in, and my mum kept popping her head at the door and started saying stupid things.

i woke up several times and at one point of time when everything sounded so quiet around me, i heard soft clicking.
and i know. MY MUM IS READING MY MESSAGES AGAIN!
i wanted to kick up a fuss and take my phone away, but i suddenly felt that afterall im her duaghter and the phone is bought with my parents hard earned money.
so i let her do what she want, see what she want and say what she want.
i went back to sleep.
when i finally woke up, it was 7pm. woah.

let her do what she want, see what she want and say what she want.
be a good girl and listen.
anyway i owe my life to her
and she owe her unhappiness and stress to me lol
anyway she's not very young, i must cherish right?
i don't want to regret when she's really not around and all i can do is think back, regret on my actions, cry to sleep and hope to dream of my parents.

i realise, the more i tolerate and keep everything to myself, the more easy i can get affected by my own emotions and at any point of time i might breakdown.

shucks.
comparing really pulls one down.

THE CHEMISTRY IS OVER! between? xD

Endured for two hours, and it's finally over. Hahahahaha! But i made alot alot alot alot alot alot of careless mistakes!

183.89 atoms.
i go and put 183.9(2 d.p)
I MUST BE OUTTA MY MIND. and i left blanks. SHEESH!
Im done with chemistry and i shall not think too much.

I slept at 2am yesterday. Because i was slacking at first then i ran out of time.
=/


after chem, went up to class and waited for veryyyy long for Mrs Lai
(THE STUPID CLOCK FELL AGAIN! IT'S LIKE THE FIFTH TIME OR SOMETHING, AND AND AND, IT'S BROKEN AND IT'S ALWAYS ME WHO GO ASK MR TEO FOR ANOTHER ONE, AND HE WILL GO, "WHY ALWAYS BREAK? MUST BE YOUR CLASS BREAK ONE, YOU ALL BREAK YOU ALL MUST PAY NEXT TIME!")
and then she haven't finish marking our elit tests.

So corinne, peiyun and zhuyun waited for her for SO LONG! to mark our papers.
Meanwhile, peiyun, corinne and i went ot eat at the canteen
(and we accidentally overheard the teacher's conversation and HAHA.. they talk some pretty amusing stuff as well.
and mrs nc koh is so geography mr tan meng tong and her was talking about the weather i think and she was rambling about the geog stuff, northern hemisphere blahblahblah~
oh then it started raining.. and
office staff says to mr tong: you washed your car last night?
*don't know what mr tong said*
office staff: i thought you say that everytime you wash your car the night before t han it will rain the next day??
*laughs*
office staff: eh, like that good leh, next time you wash your car at night then you don't rinse the soap off, wait for the rain on the next day to help you wash off, save water!

.. then don't know what already)

You want to know how long Mrs sally lai took?
After we just got back our papers, the history people end their exams already!
lolol. but she has her reasons, she mark very detailed and give lots of feedbacks. so in a way, it's worth the wait :)
but im like forever at that standard 17/25.
The first test was 17 and this time around still 17.
I wanna get like 19, 20 or something better than 17.
but im contented, with my 17. :)

TOMORROW.

HMM.. HECTIC, HECTIC..

Biology and English literature.
Biology is first.
English Literature duration = 1 HOUR AND 40 MINS
Biology duration = 2 HOURS AND 45 MINS

AND YOU KNOW WHAT?
IF WE START THE PAPER AT 8AM, WHEN WE END IT WILL BE 10.45AM WHICH IS THE START OF THE ENGLISH LITERATURE PAPER!

so i will be rotting my ass off in the main school hall for 4 HOURS AND 25 MINS!!!

English literature proved to be of more depth than what i think.
oh and i think mrs sally lai explains better to a small group than to a whole class. i like her better in a small group, her voice is more soothing and she seems more gentle with her words.

Mrs liang also explains better to a small group.

bye, i shall go drown myself in biology now before the computer saps me of my yang energy! lols!

HEYHEYHEYHEY!
:D
TWOOOOO MOREEEE DAYSSSSS TOOOOO GOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
:D
PALAPAPA!

Tuesday, 6th may

ENGLISH COMPRE WAS CONFUSING! hahahaha because i couldn't absorb the content of the passage. But the summary was kinda okay.. the range was ONLY from paragraph 2-4! I was kinda surprised because usually the range will be from like line 15 to 48 or something like that. haah~
But overall i think it's quite okay. But i know im not going to do well for English because i will fail my compo.

After that was social studies. I DIDN'T FINISH MY PAPER!
I left whole of 1c undone and only wrote a point for 1d. SOB! but im glad that when i was stuck at 1c i jumped to the SEQ first, because i managed to finish both SEQ which consisted of 25 marks! the two SBQ i didn't finish was only 13 marks in total.
heh, although it's still alot but.. it's a 50% bargain! xD

But my hopes of getting a low L1R5 is getting LOWER.
because if i screw up my ss, my elit won't be able to pull it up by alot.
and i won't get an A1 for english, which means i will have to depend on my HCL, which im not very confident of getting an A1.

SHUCKS.


the geog paper today was kinda easier than i thought it would be, at least i could answer most of the questions but i think i lost 8+ marks already! All thanks to the stupid case study questions! grrrr...
i did question 2 and 3!
which are respectively vegetation and rivers.
The longest answer i wrote was for question 2b) i think. it was like 3/4 page long! OMG, i hope the teacher won't minus mark for me being toooooo detailed and longwinded! *cross fingers*

HAHAHHAHAHA! i got three more exam days left to the POST MIDYEARS!!! :D
tomorrow, friday and next tuesday! :D:D:D

我。。。　　　　　　　　　　　　

快要被拆穿了。



如果你们知道了，请别怪我。
我只能说我自尊心太强.
对不起。
反正纸包不住火，便让它顺着日子隐瞒下去。

JUST FOR LAUGHS
TO TAKE THE MYE STRESS AWAY :)

it's okay if you don't get it, i didn't get it at first.

how about this one?

hilarious! the poor but lucky guy.

This one's funnier! :D

anyway these images are real old i guess, i took them off louisa's blog. HEH! :D

good luck everyone!

THE MIDYEARS STARTS TOMORROW!
i can't wait for......

THE POST MIDYEARS!
im reaching.. im reaching..

:D

Today is 4th of May
HAPPY BIRTHDAY UTKARSH MITAL! -he won't even read this.

*remember him cornelius? :D


Last friday, 2nd may, after making my ic, i went to bugis to eat.
Went to that hong2 guo1 (red pot) shop to eat.
okay la, but the prices are kinda steep and ya, maybe you would like to reconsider.

My dad went for a haircut at QBhouse and i was roaming about with my mum when the yogurt shop staff said,"may i help you? do you want to buy some yogurt? students wearing uniform are charge only $2 a cup."

haha nt too bad leh! the yogurt is nice and i was given quite alot of it somemore!

at the mrt station, i saw this.

grace!! check this out!



oh and on tuesday (29/4/08) after school, grace became a councillor!



and she's happy about it! :D



on 24/4/08, our last pe lesson with Mr Jimmy Choo.
and our last game of floorball.

evan's happy


Mr choo's tired.


*sticks out tongue* UNFIT! x)



and other retarded and random photos :)
all taken on 23/4/08

niu ge, mingguan and ho ming!



shermaine country bumpkin; pondering about collecting amath hw



the tussle between xiying and guan xiang


jingying! the 6 pointer!



qijing! the blur girl!



kaihong consulting leon on the rubiks cube!



timothy -dead!



zhenyan! -in her music world




and finally,


YES I KNOW THAT!
:D

i feel rather accomplished, because i finished ALL my chemistry chapters yesterday!
slept at one, but ALL NINE!!
though im still confused at the stupid MOLE chapter.
but anyway, im done with chemistry!!

GEOGRAPHY TODAY! :D

I'm not afraid of anything
I just need to know if I can breath
I don't need much of anything
But suddenly, suddenly

I am small and the world is big
All around me is fast moving
Surrounded by so many things
But suddenly, suddenly

[Chorus]
How does it feel, to be different from me?
Are we the same?
How does it feel, to be different from me?
Are we the same?
How does it feel?

I'm young, and I am free
But I get tired, and I get weak
I get lost, and I can't sleep
But suddenly, suddenly

[Chorus]



[Bridge]
Would you come, my head
Would you cry with me;

Ahh, ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah
Ahh, ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah

I am small and the world is big
But I'm not afraid of anything;

[Chorus x2]

[Ending (background)]
How does it feel [x2]
Different from me, different...
(ahh, ahh, ahh-ah;
ahh-ah,
ahh-ah,
ahh, ahh, ahh-ah;
ahh-ah,
ahh-ah)

:)

lets rant and love!

My rants:
There ARE reasons why i ALWAYS get irritated at my dad -im not that unreasonable that i do that for nothing!

1) He sucks his rice from his spoon and into his mouth
2) He CLANKS LOUDLY his spoon against his teeth when eating.
3) He bites his finger
4) He speaks to us in hokkien and expects us to understand him when we don't and then he say we are stupid.
5) He used to not even know my chinese name.
6) He digs his toe!
7) He don't wash his hair with shampoo everyday
8) He don't wash his face with cleanser
9) He ALWAYS say that we have low IQ!
10)He BURPS! -I HATE BURPS!
11)He don't comb his hair
12)He wears boxers which is ABSOLUTELY disgusting! (im never gg to let my husband wear boxers if front of my kids!)
13)He don't bathe before he nap after work
14)He don't wash the dishes
15)He don't use BOTH hands when eating, meaning only his right hand will be controlling the spoon/fork/chopsticks and his left arm will be slumped off the table resting on his lap.
16)He coughs and sneezes and hacks LOUDLY without covering
17)He don't even want to move his ass to get the phone or the door when his like one and a half metres away from it.
18)He reads the newspaper and throws it all over under and on the coffeetable
19)He can catch a fly in the house with a tissue paper, and then wraps it and throw it out of the window (though not all the time)
20)i am ashame to say that he is one of those that sometimes let his letterbox leaflets flyyyyyy onto the floor in the lift. INTENTIONALLY
(i can say much more but i decided not to)
Number 21 shall be the last, and the worst
21)He don't even know how old am i.

On labour day,
Daddy: HEYYY, CONGRATULATIONS, IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY TODAY!
Me: yeah.
Daddy: GROW UP ALREADY HOR
Me: *forced smile*
Daddy: EH HOW OLD ARE YOU AR?
Me: *Drops smile and goes back to reading my social studies*
Me: You don't even know how old am i la... wlaooo!
Daddy: *mutters to himself* sec three already... *does some calculation* Oh, you're fifteen already!
Me:yeah yeah, can you go out of the room? you're distracting me....

there you go.
what a dad!

And today, he made a nuisance of himself at the image booth where i was taking my picture for my IC and he said im stupid AGAIN.


and yes, i went to make my ic just now after school. My parents wanted to tag along since my dad's on leave.
Took the passport size photo TWICE. first time the stupid lady said that my fringe was touching my eyebrows so my mum pushed my fringe up and the picture taken looked horrible but the guy had already printed it out.
later i was ranting aout it and my mum allowed me to retake.

ten dollars for 8 photos. TSK!
and the lady was like,
ni yao wo bang ni pai ke yi, ke shi deng yi xia ta men bu jie shou wo bu guan.
(translate: if you want to take, can, but if the authorities don't accept it then i don't care.)
what attitude! HEY, it's my card, my face, my choice and im the one who is going to live my 15 years with it till im 30(!!), NOT YOU. i didn't like the first picture so i can choose to retake what, as though im eating into your pay or something!
GROWLS! and i DID like the second picture!
HMPH!

anyway, i have some good news to share.
and MORE rants.
My sister received TWO invitations!
One each from NUS and NTU! with terrific courses and bursaries provided!

More rants? YES!

And so, i once again fall into a well and i can't swim up.
Comparison can drown someone mind you!

Its the battle between my sister and i.
The results pro and the results poor.

Primary school
And here comes the STREAMING

She was promoted to the BEST class from primary four.
So she was in 5.12 and 6.12 (they had 13 classes then, but 12 was said to be the best)

I was promoted to the SECOND BEST class from primary two.
So I was in 5.7 and 6.7 (i had only 8 classes then and 8 was said to be the BEST)

She was in EM1 and takes higher chinese, so OF COURSE, I JUST HAD TO BE THE SAME.
And so, I got in to EM1 and I took higher chinese.

I forgot to mention that she was someone that has a stable position in the top ten, actually top 5.
And well, i mian qiang somehow manages to squeeze into the top ten.

And the very important part of primary six arrives.
PSLE!!
She scored a 256 with a breeze, and got in to Anglican High.
I was freaking out when i received my results and I got 246, thankfully i managed to scrape in to Anglican High when their cut off point then was 245.

we were ten points apart!

I forgot to mention that she didn't even study for her math paper, she came home, was dead beat and just slept the whole day till the next morning. and she got an A* i think.

Oh well, so she was a special stream person and i was an express stream.

She was shuffled into the 1A class in sec one.
and I, was in 1K. (during my sister's time 1K was the naughty class.)
And since don't know when, the A class for lower sec was always the BEST of the BEST!

SEC TWO STREAMING!
She score superb and got into TRIPLE SCIENCE, into the FOREVER BAGUS 3J CLASS.
I, scored terribly and got into DOUBLE SCIENCE and into 3C class which for a few years already, was the other notorious class besides the F class.

Her other accomplishments that i haven't yet been through.

O levels!
Simply propped up her book and sat in front of the television.
Amazingly, she got an 8 for Os and after minusing got 4.

Of course, with good results she got into a good school.
VICTORIA JUNIOR COLLEGE!
good good good all the way

now, A LEVELS!
She score good as well, As and more As.
so she has a choice between
NATIONAL UNIVERSITY OF SINGAPORE
&
NANYANG TECHNOLOGY UNIVERSITY

AND THERE'S STILL HER CCA.
in Anglican High, GIRL GUIDES
- ASSISTANT COMPANY LEADER (do alot of saigang but still gained respect and love from juniors)

In Victoria JC, AIR RIFLE CLUB
She's some HEAD LEADER or PRESIDENT. (not very busy but still goes for competitions and win medals.)

oh ya, in Ahs she always go for some science or math competition and then she wins back trophies and medals.

and here i am struggling with my math.


say wow.
notice how smooth her student journey is?

Though there ARE certain aspects of her life that wasn't that smooth but she still beats me to it.

like piano,
she was at grade 6 when she stopped.
and i was still hovering at grade 3 and i just gave up.
just like that.

At least, i won medals in primary school for sports day.
She didn't. that's the only thing i guess.
and the stuff that im proud of are all during primary school and kindergarten!
like first in class, second in class, fourth in class, sixth in class, fifth in class, tenth in class, eighth in class blahblah
and in kindergarten, got 100 for english exam.
in primary school, usually the first or second in my class for chinese. then i kinda had competitors.. but my mark was still around the A* standard.

*notice how inconsistent i am.
and my primary school wasn't of a high well-known standard like gongshang or red swastika. it's just a ordinary neighbourhood school -tampines north primary.
and i can't prove myself.

enough of rants.
im off to study.
to continue my trend of scraping in and squeezing in but alas, still manage to follow up with my sister's footprints before the waves washes them away.
so before the waves start leaping back up shore or the first few drops of rain starts plummeting down, i better step up!

all the best char :D

*my mum must be dizzy with happiness, she asked me if i had bathed (i locked the door) and i said i haven't.
then she asked me what am i doing and i said i was blogging and GUESS WHAT SHE SAID?

she said, "okay good. do you want to drink water? better drink more water k!"
and she went off O.o amazing how happiness can haywire one's mind.
it's either that way or she just heard me wrongly.
but blogging doesn't really seem to rhyme with studying does it???

lol.

chowyen, remember the four words! love you lots! :)

:D I wonder what's everyone doing on this loveely morning of labour day :D

Haha I had a nightmare yesterday 5 minutes after i fell asleep and i forced myself awake. Wanted to continue talking to my sis before i automatically sleep again but she was already sleeping so i tried to keep myself awake.. and then...
i fell asleep.

Woke up at 8.20am! wow, it's like once in a blue moon that i do that.
My folks are still sleeping.
Im like so guai, im going to finish studying my ss then go out then come back and study chemistry.

Im seriously running out of time, im taking this exam so laxly that im worried that im not worried. GEE, come on charmaine.

okayokayokay i promise that after this blog post and maybe another later after going out i will STOP blogging till exams have TOTALLY ended.

you better keep that promise.

well, happy labour day everyone!! :D
Im officially fifteen! loves!

THANKYOU FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES!

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hahaha :)
you made my day enjoyable

thanks yujun for your three assorted hello panda!


(4th may)P.S. i have already finished the strawberry and the vanilla flavoured ones!!

thanks corinne and xiying for your PINK rose!

Thanks daddy mummy and ah ma for the kaaaching! $$
and thanks for the great lunch at ehub -NEWYORK! NEWYORK!

*i have learnt not to eat half chicken and carbonara cream pasta.
i can't finish!

new york new york!'s pork ribs ARE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!
order it on your visit!!
:D