I have said all that I have said but I realised why I'm in such a dilemma.
I can only say that, "yes, we can be friends again. But not like before."
Do you get it? I mean I don't want you to get the wrong idea you know.

I'm grateful :D

An extract from Ms Meghna's blog, a post on 20th March 2007.

it's just a ride
Life, it’s ever so strange
It’s so full of change
Think that you’ve worked it out
then BANG
Right out of the blue
Something happens to you
To throw you off course
and then you

Breakdown
Yeah you breakdown
Well don’t you breakdown
Listen to me
Because

It’s just a ride, it’s just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It’ll take you round and round
Sometimes you’re up
sometimes you’re down
It’s just a ride, it’s just a ride
don’t be scared
don’t hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don’t forget it’s just a ride

Truth, we don’t wanna hear
It’s too much to take
Don’t like to feel out of control
So we make our plans
Ten times a day
And when they don’t go
our way we

Breakdown
Yeah we breakdown
Well don’t you breakdown
Listen to me
Because

It’s just a ride, it’s just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It’ll take you round and round
Sometimes you’re up
sometimes you’re down
It’s just a ride, it’s just a ride
don’t be scared
don’t hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don’t forget it’s just a ride

Slowly, oh so very slowly
except that
there’s no getting off
So live it, just gotta go with it
coz this ride’s, never gonna stop

Breakdown
Don’t you breakdown
No need to breakdown
No need at all
Because

It’s just a ride, it’s just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It’ll take you all around
Sometimes you’re up
sometimes you’re down
It’s just a ride, it’s just a ride
don’t be scared now
dry your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don’t forget enjoy the ride

-Jem

I admit a swoop of joy swept through me and I let out an unknowing smile when I read you message.
But I don't know what to say.
Though I wanna tell you that I didn't blame you for anything.


=/

Im superman


That's it.
Im going to come clean with you all and myself
I just can't break off.
To be frank, I can't don't think about my once-upon-a-time relationship between pearlyna and I.
I am a fool.
Im imagining myself standing in front of a wall in a dead end.
I slam myself on the wall time and time again, desperately trying to get through it.
because it's too high, I can't reach for the top.
But of course it's obviously equally impossible to go through it.
It's in a way of how I'm feeling now.
Im finding a way to get out of this thing
I could have walked out nonchalent through the way I came in, because it's a dead end not a box where four walls surround me. No, it's a dead end where an opening exists.
But I can't see it. I have blinded myself from it, imaginary curtains flow over it to prevent my seeing it.
How are you doing?
What are you doing?
What are you going to eat?
Are you going anywhere after school?
Want to walk down the slope together today?
All this questions I so wanna ask, to say, but there's no way I can now.
Sometimes I feel like I just wanna stand up walk over to you and TALKTALKTALK
But of course reality dawns on me everytime like everytime when I dreamt of us patching up

It's a blanket torn and never sewn back, unable to provide the warmth to keep the cold away.

The above is purely for expressing what's cramming up in me, no other thoughts, no other intentions.

in a silly red sheet..
You know what?
smile people, because this is life and life is a gift by itself

BACKTOTHEOLDRECORDS..

SUPERMAN!!!!


I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
the better part of me.

I'm more than a bird,
I'm more than a plane,
I'm more than some pretty face
beside a train
and it's not easy
to be me.

I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd
but don't be naive.
Even heroes have
the right to bleed.
I may be disturbed
from what you can see
even heroes have
the right to dream.

And It's not easy, to be me.

Up up and away,
away from me
well, it's allright.
You can all sleep sound tonight,
I'm not crazy or anything.

I can't stand to fly,
I'm not that naive,
men weren't meant to ride
with clouds between their knees.

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet,
digging for kryptonite on this one-way street.
Only a man, in a funny red sheet
looking for special things inside of me,
inside of me. Inside of me, inside of me... inside of me.

I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
I'm only a man looking for her dream.
I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
and it's not easy (ooo-ooo-ooo)
It's not easy... to be me.
:D:D

Mid Autumn Festival wasn't celebrated at all.
I went to Tampines Mall Popular to get something and coincidentally saw weiwei around Tampines MRT.
Then I rushed home, it was 4.25pm
HA, I went to watch ratatouille with my sister at 5pm at Century square.
It's a damn good show! I love it sooooo much! I think the fooood looks so appetising and and and the storyline was great! hahahaha it's SO real! :D:D

I saw alicia after the show haha coz i went to the toilet and when i came out i coincidentally saw alicia and her folks eating in Billy Bombers. haha funny..

My sister and Ipondered on what to eat for dinner and decided on the organic restaurant at century square basement. I had mushroom soup for appetiser ($3.60) haha it's really deeelicious, ate Grilled beef tenderloin spaghetti.. it's nice, the beef was relaly tender, i was really full when i finished my food and it cost only $14.90.

My dad later came to join us but he ate foodcourt -beef noodles which he regretted because he was unsatisfied with it. LOL

haha okay that's all.. exams is just week after next! GEE o.O

THANKS JIAYE! I APPRECIATE THAT TAG!
"okay la i think you sing better than shakira"
hahahaha lol

Anyway let's talk about Friday.
Got back three tests and i fared pretty well! YAY!
Finally finished doing my elit 3rd draft and my D&T clock.
Then went for guitar prac.. claimed my money and at 3.15 I went off for PA just when Mr Shi and Mrs Koh came. -.-

Mid Autumn festival celebration was damn cool. I think this is the most enjoyable concert this year!
We had intersting programmes, the audience are pretty cooperative and backstage was lively.
The outsiders performance was damn cool, their zha2 zi4 was so pro! and when they fight, i think they didn't rehearse or something because it's always the guy in green that tells the red soldiers what to do.
like somersault, fly backwards, turn in circles etc. and it was damn funny, i love his facial expressions!

okay anyway the concert was a success other than some crop ups where the performancers apparently switched off their own mike when it's already on... GRR!
Congratulations to Max and company from 1E to win the singing competition.
They were good and so was the beatbox.

After the concert, I managed to save my fried rice! all thanks to the ultimate koppers duo! Chowyen and Sheryl Yeo! there were three packets of fried rice who no one claimed and they ate two.. luckily I came down to the concourse just in time to save the last packet of fried rice which is MINE! I PAID FOR IT! $2!! FOR SOME FRIED RICE!! lol!
Quite nice, only that it was like NO ingredients.

Joined xiying, jiaye, shuqingm corinne, jovyne, jolin, junni behind our 2F china board.
OH YAR! 2F won second prize for the china board thingy! YAY! so we got a bag of goodies!
And jiaye and shuqing bought Donut factory donuts! they only queued up for like TEN minutes!!
haha ate a few bites yumm! then kopped one ferero rocher from the goodies..
After that accompany them to tower hall to "look for ghosts" apparently, there weren't any because there were too many people.
There were alot of st John's people walking around with fire extinguishers!
-in case we burn down the school or something! coz we had lanterns.. the one with lited candles.

Mine wasn't bright.... I had a hard time having it lighted.
Special thanks to geraldine and xiangyi's friends who helped me again and again to light up my candle THANKYOU!
But oh well, I didn't get to enjoy the lantern walk around the parade square because I was waiting an waiting for the face painting. Finally it was my turn!!
hahahah i think i look cool.
I wanted to have my face three quarters painted but the guy asked if I was okay with half painted and I agreed.

I think i looked cool.


this is the guy who painted my face.


And James' mother took a picture wiuth us as well!


because she was there looking at him paint my face and they had a conversation yup, didn't know that she was james' mum till the guy finished painting my face.
Spent some time taking the photos and sending it over from his phone to mine and mine to his.. i even got his handphone number! for what i don't know haha but ijust felt like having it..

This is him when he was acting as....... i-forgot-what.

James mum wanted me to send the pics to her by email:D

HAHAHAH don't you think i look like half of my face is smiling but half is not?!


SATURDAY!
Went to my granny's house to deliver yue bing then listen to my parents and my grandma and uncle talk for 1 hour.. i fell asleep in the process, not caring about my appearance.
Then went to bugis and i bought a new sling abg and new watch. NICE! okay i gtg bye!

Shakira -illegal

Who would have thought
That you could hurt me
The way you've done it?
So deliberate, so determined
And since you have been gone
I bite my nails for days and hours
And question my own questions on and on
So tell me now, tell me now
Why you're so far away
When I'm still so close
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heartI tried so hard to be attentive
Do all you wanted
Always supportive, always patient
What did I do wrong?
I'm wondering for days and hours
It's here, it isn't here where you belong
Anyhow, anyhow
I wish you both all the best
I hope you get along
But you don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart
Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

sigh, it's a nice song i think.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY GERMAINE LOKLOK!
we will go out for movies when we reach 50 and i will still pour popcorn over you, hear xinlin laugh over silly stuff and let the young people stare. & you "formidables" can say your three words :D

There IS science test today.
Im glad I did studied for it! PHEW! but still, i already confirm got one question wrong.
GRR!

Elit... Mrs Rod was being a fuss. she kept talking about the downloading of essays from the internet. oh and she mentioned some really cool programme where if i type EXAMPLE: tom Robinson was killed by.... then the programme will sweep and scan through all the sources on the internet and if this particular sentece or stanza is copied from the internet, it will be verified.
I got back my elit book, she marked the wrong poem ("chowyen") and pasted a note inside my book to say that she don't mark 2nd draft without first draft.
So i gave her the book back with my first draft inside and she marked the correct poem on "campus superstar" but didn't mark the 2nd draft #*&@#&%^@!?#!

Math "test" today on probability. It's like an easy topic but I can' t grasp it. GROWL!

Then it was art.. i got 75 for my mask. haah surprisingly though. It was pretty screwed up when I was colouring it last week but I managed to salvage it. =D at least an A1

Chinese, had ting xie and I am disappointed in my memory span.

Left for Drama day rehearsal after school.
It was boring and tiring and my heart, brain and ears are going to burst from the FEEDBACK and the SUDDEN BLAST from the speaker when I was testing headworn no. 10.
Ended the whole damn thing at 6plus. had debrief. tomorrow leaving for assembly one period earlier, xingkai and I total incharge, jeremy and lixuan floor manager, tzzy backstage manager, melody and renee shotgun incharge. cool.
Li xuan and i chionged home.

I went to tampines mall to shop around. I went to Chocolate World to buy chocolate of course.
AND THE STUPID GIRL DIDN'T EVEN LOOKED AT ME like im transparent.
I did my math, from 7.09pm - 7.25pm, I have been standing there like a fool looking at her attending enthusiastically to other customers when i only wanted to buy THREE MARSHMELLOW DLITE.
the other people are simply crowding over the chocolates and asking oh, this one got liquor ah? this one how much? okay i want this one as well. of course, the cash register went dingdingding as well.
Im not walking away in a huff because of............
I just thought that I can wait a little while longer, it wouldn't be a prob.
SHE FINALLY NOTICED ME! -when all the customers are gone.
I said," can i have three marshmellow dlite?"
and she replied so politely yeah sure (whatever, ignoring me because im a STUDENT GROWL)
Met my dad, bought food home, went fairprice to get some more stuff then went home.
=/


STARE WHAT STARE!? :D

FRIDAY 14/9/07
Changed seating arrangement.
Not much changes to the goodie good people like ME. haha no la..
just that all of us are sitting in single files instead of the twos we used to.
Jiaye and glen are still beside me.
Jiaye is in front of shuqing who is in front of kevin who is sitting beside xiying who is beside joelle who is beside qian yu who is beside wenqi who is behind shipei who is beside nicholas who is beside bingyi who is behind chowyen who is somewhere behind gracia.
done! oh and now jac is infront of me who is beside corinne who is in front of jiaye and beside pearlyna who is behind clara and in front of jeremie.
:D


Had the China thing after school.

Had great fun, greeted dr boon and whichever teacher that came by to see our board.
cheered, laughed and took pictures. cool.
I transferred the video that i took in the silk factory to sheryl's laptop..
Luo4 laoshi's and kaikai's photo sure did attract some attention haha too bad i forgot to take picture again!! >.<
I stayed for a while, going around to see other classes boards with gracia before I left for guitar prac.
Surprisingly, Mr Shi was there. I thought he won't because of junior prac. But there wasn't junior prac that day, and Mr Shi needs to leave at 3.30 so.. we get to be released early as well! yay!

Went through the songs that we have been practising.
-Lambada
-Sambal Eltude
-Mezza Luna
-Lovers Theme
-Spring Message

I went blank at spring message, half blank at Lovers Theme and fumbled with Mezza Luna.
PRACTISE!!

Mrs Koh gave me another song to play.
it's called Estrellita
she said she was going to try me out haha sounds like a business deal.
Anyway i've got chance, i just gotta make good use of it. =/
I can get all the notes right but the tune is rather weird. I will just practise bah.

I walked down the slope alone and noticed that the field has some really light yet bright green (it looks kinda luminous and FAKE) patches and some old dark, dull patches.
Was just wondering if it was because of the wooden planks that were placed there a few days ago for some particular reason.. thought that it was a very logical answer.
Then, an old woman probably in her late 50s walking in the opposite direction walked up to me and asked, "Xiao mei, do you know why the grass is white?"
My mind spaced out for a second or so... but the word "white" blinked in my mind.
I almost spluttered, shrugged and blurted out "don't know" before taking a few steps forward to indicate im going to move on.
The old lady gave a smile and replied,"Very weird eh? the grass is white.."
I almost said it too fast, "HAH, erm ya, ya." too fast. fast enough to sound like I was simply trying to brush her away.

I thought later on that I should have told her what I assumed had caused the really light yet bright green (it looks kinda luminous and FAKE) patches.. well, i won't be seeing her anymore.

SATURDAY 15/9/07
I went for a run with my dad at Sunplaza park at 7pm.
Ran for 4rounds in 17.46minutes. SLOW!
Came back home and ate like a pig. DEFEAT THE PURPOSE OF RUNNING grr.

This morning, slept like a log and woke up at 12.30pm.
Practised guitar while waiting for my parents to return home.
My parents bought breakfast/lunch, ate half of the rice and went into the study room to revise science.
Then went out to the living room to watch TV at 4.15pm.
stayed there with my science book lying uselessly in front of me until pizza delivery knocked at my door.
Canadian Pizza; Haiwaiian and Mexican flavour pizza with one box of potato wedges and one roll of garlic bread. YUM! ate like THREE slices, totally full.

Continued with my science till I end chapter 7, help my mum fold clothes and played with my sister's uniform and dad's HUGE clothes. (i wore them and walk around in the house lol)
then went to get my Elit poem and English.
Sat in front of the TV and watched the life saver thingy show on channel U.
After it end at 9pm I on the com and printed out the notes for chinese chapters.

There's Chinese ting xie tomorrow.

bye, im off to watch te4 xie3.
love you guys.

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY GLEN CHUA!
cheery up! :D

A mysterious seating plan.
I must really say that all this suspicions about one another is so dumb
Sun lao shi is the root of all this rubbish.
Why must she keep talking about this mysterious tong2 xue2.
This and that.
And now a mysterious classroom seating plan!
Which made a whole bunch of people go hopping mad.
Because the seating arrangement is ridiculous!
-Chowyen with bingyi
-Claire with Glen
-Delphine with Kevin
-Shipei with Nicholas
-Naomi with Jeremie
-Shermaine with James
What's this mysterious classmate doing?
Sabotaging?
Promoting relationships?
We can't really think of WHO is behind all these.
WHO ARE YOU?

gosh, maybe it's daniel! x) -sorry.
maybe it's sunlaoshi herself and she wants to cover up. my god how could i say that!
Maybe we will know sooner or later.
let's just wait and see.

Trigo math test tomorrow.
=/

There's still cca tomorrow.
Choir so hiong also don't have already..
haha sometimes things are just so... WEIRD!

okay whatever.
mysterious classmate please reveal youself!!

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY WEIXIANG!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUU!

haha im in the computer lab right now, supposed to be typing reflection of the video or movie that we watched.
- Just follow law
- Mother Theresa
- Woman with no arms (video)

Im doing on Just follow law and the woman with no arms.

Now we are also watching the movie Mother Theresa.
It's a show that's making me so anxious every now and then.

First it's constant banginging on the gate then later it's gun shots blahblah scary luh, and many people dying.
so sad! the poor children and all.
Mother Theresa is so loving and caring.

Gracia went to Mr Yeow's blog and xiying went to Mr Ben tan's blog HAHAHAHA!
Mr Yeow is so sweet!
And Mr ben was thin when he was 16 hah!

hha okay.
back to work.

Im glad weiwei liked her present. -though it's late. haha :)
Most of my classmates playing the same game.
hahaha funny sight!

oh yeah, this morning, just wanted to stick the "shang4 hai3 dong1 fang1 man4 ha1 dun4" back on our decoration board for the china immersion thing. but end up staying there for one hour.
Had a few secone classes who came by to vote liao.
hahahahah had a great time with 1C'07.
One bonded lot and most of them pretty spontaneous.. had a fun time talking jokes and rubbish.
AND I TOTALLY FORGOT THAT THE SEC FOURS WERE HAVING EXAMS! we yell DAMN loud! JEEZ after they left then i remembered. OOPS.
haha but it was really fun and i hope gracia, corinne, nicholas, sheryl and I managed to physco their WHOLE class into voting for 2F board AHAHAHA!

oh yar just to mention,corinne grabbed the curtain from our class and used it as tablecloth!
haah damn cool. quite okay la... tomorrow shall go take picture of it.
Gracia's umbrella was scotchtaped on the board.
the scrapbookssssss were all placed nicely on the table.
and jolyn's scrapbook was PURPOSELY turned to the page where luo4 lao shi and kaikai's picture was. HAHAHAHA which also manage to catch 1C's attention.

They mentioned that luo lao shi told them about kaikai before! I wonder what she said.. go ask jeremy maaaaaaa next time i see him. xD

Must pass up D&T 1min reflection video by tonight.
I ate my lunch and went to work on it..
I spent like 2 long hours recording and recording and recording....
I kept fumbling with the words la!! GRRR!
and finally I managed to record one that is totally almost perfect. and i settled for that.
guesswhat?
I was hungry again! haha so my mum warmed up the spaghetti that I also ate just now and I ate spaghetti again. haha and guess what? im hungry now AGAIN!
my god im ballooning.

:D:D im loved.

It's health week this week so we got yummy crunchy sweet apples to eat today!
YUM!

Poor sec fours start their prelims today.

HEY!
it's 2mins to 12!
GUESS WHO IM GOING TO SEND A MESSAGE TO?
WEIWEI ! ! ! ! ! !

Because it's weiwei's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEIWEI
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU (old woman!)

:D lol I could have slept earlier.. but just for this :D

Good luck for exams.

Tomorrow, school reopens.
YAWN -i hope i can wake up in time.

Goodluck to all sec fours, first day of school after holidays and they are going to sit for their prelims.

You are not here anymore, because I don't see you.

Im a good girl today.
I went downstairs to buy newspaper and eggs home.
Then i watered the plants.
:)

Yay! later mummy and daddy are going to bring me out for lunchie and a snipsnip!
*beams*

I wonder til when will I be like this, simply glowing at the thought of just going out with my parents.
whenwhenwhen. idon'tknow. idon'tfeellikeknowinganyway.

Right.
Elit.
2nd Draft and the five significant scenes. bleh.

No more homework.
:D
After blogging I'm going to finish up my Homework and that's all for my holidays!

One more day left till we're back to school and four weeks later it's EOYS.
SOMEBODY SAVE ME PLEASE.
I DON'T WANT TO BE RETAINED OR ANYTHING.
=(

seeya people.
Im going to look for a song to change, it's getting boring.
Im already waking up.. x)

My dad is mad.
He went to run in the park at 10pm, and he just came back. lol

Im feeling mooooooody.

My day started like any other.
Slept late, so woke up late as well.
Woke up at 11.30pm
Had cornflakes for breakfast..
Then later at 2.30 had a few char siew buns, cheese sotong balls and 1 lemon fillet.
Just had dinner at 8.30pm at the coffeeshop downstairs.
Went back home and watched teevee, bathed and here am i.
I have a few hw left. im glad.

but my mum just made me so frustrated and Im moody.

oh yar, i gave jiaye her famous amos on tuesday, during English Enrichment.
haha when I went to get it for her, i smsed her to ask what cookie type she wants and she replied. OMG. NO NUT.
At first I didn't see any with NO NUT. but then I finally did and I bought 100gram of NO NUT cookie and 1 NO NUT brownie haha, spastic.
She was elated. :D

alright, Im gling to check my mail then play a few online games then Im off to continue with my homework.

so long!

Are we supposed to write an emotional poem???
Long but short poem.. wow that's an IRONY description! xD

English Enrichment was great yesterday. (8am-10.30am)
I was fumbling with me FOUR lines of speech. LOL
It was pretty cool actually.
And I think I will miss Jerry. He's such a fun guy. I should have take a pic with him huh!
Im searching now... for a pic of him on the net. I hope I can find it!
Our dear jerry teacher...

We did our drama.. Had one script run through, one dry run, one full dress rehearsal and finally the real thing.
Once again, Our title of the drama was Teenage Mutant Ninja Tutus.

I think Jiaye and shermaine's memory is really good, because they have the most lines and they managed to remember everything on the very same day! -beacause they didn't know we need to memorise the script.

Our drama class has only two groups.
-Eugeny, qianyu, minghui, faris, jeremie, joelle and seehui
-sheryl, shuqing, xiying, jiaye, gracia, huifeng, elizabeth, jacqueline, shermaine and me.

Our group like got alot of people hor, that's because gracia, xiying an shuqing didn't turn up so if you exclude them, we will be of the same amount of people.

oh but yesterday, jeremie and minghui didn't come.
and for our side xiying and gracia came but shuqing didn't.

and because they weren't included into our script and the other group needed to two policemen, so gracia and xiying helped them to be their policemen.
haha i think gracia was funny.

After both groups had their turn of rehearsals and then the final one was over, finally, we were all asked to fill in a feedback form and we bade goodbye to jerry.
UNCLE jerry or AH GONG jerry :D

He's really nice :)

Went to Pasir Ris mac with claire, shermaine and naomi then claire and I went to Naomi's house.
I need to do the science project, claire just tagged along yup.

halfway through researching, we sort of procrastinated because claire was watching happy tree friends. It was plain sadistic.
claire was laughing all throughout!

Then we managed to find all the information already but haven't pasted it on our vanguard.. coz naomi is lazy. =D

and claire is really a cactus, she didn't bring her water bottle to school and she can't even finish drinking a small cup of plain water.
-When I almost finish drinking my water bottle(400ml) and I drank two cups of plain water at naomi's house! *shakes head*

Left at around 5.05pm.
I took MRT back, claire took bus...

That's all.

I am not supposed to be sitting in front of the com..
Im supposed to be with Functions, playing with the sea water, riding bicycles and flicking sand on one another... but my mum don't allow me to.

Im so bored at home and I feel so guilty for pangsehing them.
WHYYYYYYYYYYYY ISSSSSSSSSSS THISSSSSSSSSSSS HAPPENINGGGGGGGGGGGG TOOOOOOOOOOOO MEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<

These are what I did at home after I wake up:
eat cornflakes+milk
watched the show 'Martha'
let my mum put yogurt+oatmeal mask on my face
ate a oven-cooked chicken drumstick for lunch
ate half an avocado and that's all.

ciao! :(

WOAHHH IM AWAKE IM AWAKE!!
YAWN, What's with all the shouting mannnnnn
September is not yet over...

Aw, I wanna sleep through everything.. EXAMS... blahblahblah....

Oh I got something to say..
Several weeks ago, I ate dragonfruit and when I cleared my bowels, my shit was decorated with all the seeds!! hahaha you guys can go eat dragonfruit and check your shit out! xD
Gosh I sound so uncouth!

i woke up at 8 today.
Apparently I was jolted awake by my sister's and fater's conversation.
They were talking so loudly in the room.
I was bound on doing some work before I go out in the afternoon so I forbade myself from returning to sleep.
Did my First day at school questions and poem...
Electricity supply was cut off at 9.45am.
Because the workers were removing and installingnew flourescent tubes.
GAHH, all the drilling and knocking drove me nuts.
It woke my mum and sister up as well.
We can't watch TV, neither can we listen to the radio.
My mum can't use the electric kettle neither can she do her washing.
I couldn't on the computer!! >.<
oh and the home phone are not in use as well.

I drank milk and ate a yogurt bar and kopped some of my sister's breakfast -mushroom and sausage + bread.
It was really warm and stuffy because the window on the other side of the house where the corridors are were all closed as it was really dusty and NOISY!

I took out my paper fans and was immediately snatched away by my mum and sister.
We ended up lazing on our beds, fanning ourselves slowly and we drifted into dreamland.......

I woke up at 1.30 and my mum greeted me with maggie noodles she cooked.
I ate while I did some finishing touches to my poem and then it was already 2.30 so I went to bathe.

The weather gave a bad turn, rain was splashing from the sky.
The water heater can't be used so I had to bathe under cold water.
BRR... changed my clothes and it was 3pm.
I waited for 38 and it came around 10 mins?
another 15mins or so...
anyway when I alighted from the bus it was 3.37pm.

okay anyway Im sorry I didn't turn up for the sectwo council dinner today, I hope you all had fun!

Went out with xinlin and germaine.
Went eastpoint and slowpoke xinlin took so long to come.
Then we went to Kobayashi to eat.
no, xinlin ate..
germaine and I watched her eat. xD
Then we went Popular..
Xinlin got some voucher so she was trying to find stuff to buy.
She bought classical cd songs to aid her in her studies.
&she bought alot of paper (which she wasted alot of time on because she is trying to not let the weight of all the paper overshot 100gram.)
&she bought pen
&she helped me buy vanguard.
Then xinlin treated me to Mr Bean ice cream and germaine to her cheese pancake..
Mine ice cream melted and melted.
and it dripped on my bag
and I killed trees, the table was scattered with all my tissue paper.

We were talking merrily when THIS MAN cam to interrupt our conversation BECAUSE he was smoking. GEE, we went off immediately. and that was the end of our day at simei, xinlin and I went to Tampines mall and germaine went home.
xinlin and i shopped around and looked at fish.
At around 7plus, we went home.

Tuesday: English Enrichment, sci project
Wednesday: Functions outing

just like that.. :D

There's English enrichment tomorrow..
And we are going to act!!

I have only a few lines to say, the most are Raefala (jiaye) and Cabbageman (shermaine)
These are my lines
Leonala: *brushes hair* AND I'm Leonala Tutu!
ALL:
Together, we are the Invincible Tennage Mutant Ninja Tutus!
Fighting crime is what we do best
Just sit back and we'll do the rest
Fighting off baddies with our umbrellas
Filling our tummies with Nutella
We're the Tutues, waaaahaaa!
Leonala: Nah it's gonna be fine, we're gonna win this fight like we ALWAYS do.
Leonala: C'mon, we're the invincible Tutus! Nothing can stop us! haaaa! It's Tutu time!
Leonala: It's okay, for now, we just rock once again.


hahaha lol

oh anyway I did my elit poem!
I wanted to write about chowyen but im still working on that, meanwhile, I had already written another one.
& my inspiration came from the recent campus Superstar programme which I coincidentally saw the repeat and gave the idea a thought.

We were supposed to write a page long poem but I ended up writing so much more!

Campus superstar
They are not like us
They are superstars
Lucky are they to be on TV
Where their spirits
so jaunty
Competition made us dizzy,
made them busy.
On stage they dazzle
It was always a hassle
to wear the right clothes,
to hit the right notes
They sing and swing
Prance and dance
The audience cheer
& amp; their fears disappear
A moment like such
never lasts
It ends
when so does the song
So hard they try
but still they cry
The audience vote their favourite in
talented or not, they're selected
the rest, neglected
Out they go
But they don't hold
grudges
against the judges
In those left
the best won the rest
Finally,
after these months
a winner there is
NO BIG DEAL
The lime light fades
the party bades
goodbye, years later
on the same stage
Not a soul knows
who once dazzled
like a star
with a voice as great
whose smile ain't fake
Then fourteen, now forty
Their crazy fans
now estranged
They are not superstars
They are just like us

Ain't it longgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg?
I think it's a bit dislocated near the end.. but, i will just do with it i guess :D

8am tomorrow, back to school. RARH!

Thankyou germaine!



It made me laugh.

Wake me up when september ends



It's the second day of the SEPTEMBER holidays.
I was thinking that I don't want this holiday to end so soon =T
(i hate imeem, it's getting horrible)

OH! I didn't realise that that molestor was actually SHORT.
When Mrs Gan said 1.6m i just took it as though the man was quite TALL.
Gahh, don't know what I was thinking HAHA.

My maths failed tabitha... haha just kidding..

I haven't been talking much about guitar I realised.
Because... there's really nothing much to talk about actually.
We are just practising the songs that we are going to play during the outdoor performance at TAMPINES REGIONAL LIBRARY -.-
&I think we got another performance that we are going to join with Choir.

Aiya, Im not too sure myself..
But basically i think we are simply going to play these songs.
- Mezza Luna
- Lover's Theme
- Sambal Etude
- Lambada

ERM that's all? is it? =X

I had a nice chat with Gordon on msn yesterday. Like Cornelius, I agree with what he said -i hope this friendship prolongs.
And he sent me pictures taken at Little India. haha.

I've got lots of homework to do and I don't know where to start.
I only know that I must finish my lit FAST. because I didn't do alot of it.
DARN.

Tuesdays with Morrie is giving me the inspiration (of?) don't know.
There are so man nice and meaningful wrods and phrases in the book that I want to remember it all. But I can't so Im thinking of writing it all down BUT Im already 2/3 through the book.

-once you learn how to die, you learn how to live.
:)

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY TAY XIYING!

germaineee, where are you? =/

Im reading Tuesdays with Morrie. Thanks Glen for lending me.

I've been jolted awake.
Im living my life with no purpose.
Im living my life for others and not for myself.
I work hard because I know it's mine future and not because I want to.
Isn't it meaningless?

Im wilting like a rose.
A rose is beautiful, with it's vibrant colours.
It's different colours holds a different significance each deep with expressions.
When I was 5, I begged my dad to buy a red rose for my mum because it was Mother's Day.
Reluctantly, he bought it for $30.
The rose wilted after two days despite all the watering.

Im just like the rose.
When the time comes I will be gone and nothing can make me live once again.

because there is no meaning
there is no purpose
there is no goal
in my life.