what has how OTHERS act got to do with me?
LET ME TELL YOU, i never first approached anyone to ask or talked to anyone about the so called broken relationship between you and i.
They (you should know who) came to me to talk. &im not trying ot say that they are wrong to do that. they were simply trying to salvage a situation that they THOUGHT was salvage-able.
But it's clear that their efforts are going down the drain.
pushing you to me?
if you're NOT KEEN at all about salvaging this whole thing.
YOU SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN THE GOD DAMN "I DON'T WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH CHARMAINE LIM KAI LE ANYMORE" out of your mouth when they asked you some questions or whatever.
INSTEAD of THE oh-so-familar > "I DON'T KNOW."
It simply tells them that they just had to try again.

but nvm, you don't have to get it out of YOUR MOUTH since you've already gotten it out from YOUR FINGERS.

someone's telling me to get my facts right huh. ooooh get-my-facts-right! well too bad pearlyna because you didn't personally tell me any facts therefore i wrote what i got so tooooo bad.

alright take it that's it's not a fact. IT'S NOT A FACT. it's an assumption, MY ASSUMPTION fine? Because that's all i know and that's what i typed.

And finally, it's YOUR fugging blog, if YOU want do whatever you want to the pics that have MY face in it SINCE YOU ARE TOTALLY DISGUSTED WITH IT.

I wouldn't want you to puke out anything unworthy of being seen my dear.
By the way, don't worry maybe i will crop out your face or do something to it when im free huh classmate.

you know, piles of homework.

By the way, just to tell you, since you are/was/were in the same group for acc.
I will pass up the tea next monday. -if i can acty.

My deardear pearlyna koh:
there's NO bad guy.
im just stating facts (that I KNOW.
HOW WOULD I FUCKING KNOW ANYTHING IF YOU ARE UNWILLING TO TELL ME?
WHO THE HELL IN THIS WORLD WILL WILLINGLY ACCEPT THE FACT THAT HIS/HER FRIEND HATES YOU FOR REASONS UNKNOWN TO HIM/HERSELF?
it's like, it FEELS like getting a punch from someone without any reason.) like WHY all these happened and i DID not say im NOT in the wrong.

YES I was wrong to do all the pangseh-ing I was wrong to walk fast and leave you all behind im sorry about that okay. About the walking fast thingy it's a HABIT. I've been walking fast here and there that I didn't notice it alright!!

IM NOT TRYING TO ACHIEVE ANYTHING. (up to you to believe)
Who EVER said you belong to me? NOT ME.
WHO EVER SAID YOU CAN'T HAVE YOUR OWN CHOICE OF FRIENDS? I DID NOT

AND yeah blogs are to the whole world BUT does the whole world know me?
NO!
and okay you hate me you hate me you hate me you hate me.
but i don't and i shall not. (that was just extra information)

Im sorry BUT I won't remove the pics even though it makes you sick because it's a free world.


take care.
and there is a main reason why i tried so hard to reconcile.
because at first I didn't know what was going through your mind.
I naively thought that it was a tiff or something that triggered off.
But i guess it was wrong.

And you think i had just proved to you that you have made a right choice, i congratulate you and wish you ALL THE BEST.
&i have NOTHING to say.

If you're thinking right now, that i can just sprout out any "im sorry", "sorry pearlyna", "so sorry" anytime anywhere just when i like it. Then you are so wrong because whatever sorry im god damn saying right now, I REALLY MEAN/MEANT IT.
It's really really up to you, you and you again to believe it.
Because I can't FORCE you to.

I think you won't even read this.
Because you won't be visiting my blog

Pearlyna Koh.
My friend for (let's just take it as) 1 year and 5 months.
Left me recently.
Reason: Because I don't listen to her and when she tries to tell me something she feels that I won't listen so she didn't tell me.
Angry with me that I was walking too fast in China.

I only know of these reasons. If there are more, I don't know about them.
I'm still sorry, though you don't care.
But you didn't even tell me.
Like you didn't even tell me to listen.
okay, it's a fact that I'm obsessed with guitar.
I was too over guitar that I neglected you.

&I know I always always pang seh you guys.
Like the WWW trip.


Conclusion
I was the wall that pearlyna couldn't push though she tried.
And finally she got tired of pushing.
She found a door.
Now she's my wall.
I tried pushing but she just wouldn't budge.

I was the one in the wrong at first -i know that.
I mean not at first there's no at first or now.

Im not sure when you started disliking me.
The earliest I guess is the week before Youth day.
Or maybe! It's after the Shanghai trip.

I'm still sorry seriously.
I know i have been leng3-ing you ever since the Shanghai trip.
I don't know why, I guess I was being jealous or something and I'm not afraid to say it here.
But I'm seriously baffled by how fast you can just throw aside our friendship and go for another one.

For your information, that day when I asked if corinne and you wanna go toilet or not, I wasn't going to do anything.
It was plainly a QUESTION.


Since you hate me so much, i bet you hate donuts now.






Got this from lixuan's blog. [ ]

[ And, i recalled something Charmaine had said," Sometimes its better to let go and move on than to cling on tightly but hopelessly. I think it really do makes sense. ]

I think it makes sense too.
I think i should apply it to myself as well :D
I thank lixuan for reminding me.


-i hope at least in SEC ONE, i have done the following.

A friend is someone we turn to
When our spirits need a lift,
A friend is someone we treasure
For our friendship is a gift,
A friend is someone who fills our lives
With beauty, joy, and grace
And makes the world we live in
A better and happier place.

Goodbye pearlyna.

OMG, functions sec twos need to being our full blazier attire to school tomorrow for some photo shoot for some book/broshure or something.
zzzzz

sounds cool to me.
hahaha :D

Jinni's blog is SO FULL of investiture pics.
I wanna kop but LAZY. =/ go see go see.

:D
ONE MARK!
ANGLICAN HIGH WON DUNMAN SEC BY ONE MARK
BOTH GIRL'S AND GUYS TEAM FINALS CHAMPIONS!

WHOOHOOOO!
it's was SO exciting today!
it was like don't know how many SECONDS left and it was 63 against 64!
LUCKILY dunman sec didn't get in if not it will be draw.

we were totally sheng4 zhong1 -ing all the way.
we tried to do the ah dynamite thing but too long HAH.

We were cheering and cheering crazyyyyyyy




YAY! AHS CHAMPS!


GIRLS -getting their trophies.




A clearer pic.



GUYS -getting their trophies.

I saw alot of familiar faces actually.
yannting, elouis, shuhadah, gerald, zhong han, these two guys that i forgot their names.
but all of them from my priamry school. and i used to play basketball with them.
seeing them brought back memories and those days that i didn't care about anything.
and life was so easy.

Gracia posed just in time.

haha.


Chowy, deep in her reading. HARRY POTTER


turnturnturnturn.



YES! i opened it!!

:D
oh yar thinking of english reminds me of the sex debate we had yesterday.
it was so cool.
our class was splitted into two main groups, the opposition and the preposition.
I was in the preposition.
haha corinne was using all those chim words as usual.
hahah

$10 condoms!

GOODBYE TO YOU

Of all the things I believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said...

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold onto

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes
And you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Oh, woah

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold onto


Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold onto
The one thing that I tried to hold onto

Oh Woah
And when the stars fall I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
krishiel vergara (permalink)
Posted 8 days ago.
Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star ouch...its hurts....


goodbye my dear sec fours.
I will miss you all.
I REALLY WILL.

You all have been great.
Despite the conflicts the occurred, it was really fun.
The sec four batch has really been a fantastic and fun batch.
And very GOOD ACTORS -in terms of NIGHT GAMES
very good ghosts. haha

I will miss the times.
jiayou. :D

YESTERDAY -24 July 2007
SCHOOL COUNCIL INVESTITURE.

Investiture was as expected -unglam.
It was a noisy entrance when we walked in.
The claps were drowned by cheering. which was acceptable.
But the laughter throughout the whole event was intolerable.
and the CHAIRS!! my dear chairs we took so long to arranged them orderly and the moment the students sat down, it's crooked.
They think the chairs appeared there magically izzit?
or do they not treat us like humans?

Don't they know there are visitors around?
Don't they know that the investiture is very important to us councillors?
All they think is probably -OH IT'S JUST SOME BORING EVENT.
AT LEAST YOU ARE SITTING DOWN. WE ARE THE ONES STANDING UP FOR THE WHOLE DARN THING!

AND THEY LAUGHED AT THE HANDOVER PART.
is it very funny?
It's supposed to be a more sad part. and yet the laughters were hanging in the air.
The atmosphere is not right.

okay nvm. i don't know why im ranting on so long but anyway it over already.
:)




YEP, WE STILL DID IT IN THE END.
WE CARRIED ALL 400+ CHAIRS BACK TO THE TOWER HALL.

Im really really glad there were a couple of other people there to help us.
FOr example,
Kelyn
Audrey
Yu Jun
Javier
some sec one councillors.
Xingkai(bleh)
etc

But we took quite a while to put all those chairs back. Wew kinda formed a chain or sth and passed the chairs on.

Functions sec twos took out our court shoes and walked around barefooted.
haha and my our feet were so dirty.

I got bruises on my arm and my shoulder hurts. -.-

Jinni that idiot laogong. both of us were washing our legs under the sink where the tap is.
I washed first and I was saying "waaa, so shuang3" Then she said,"later got hand come out and grab your leg." wlao!

i made her off the tap for me. x)

Then we had phototaking in the main school hall.
*you might want to visit jinni's blog for a ittle more detailed post about tuesday.

TESSA IS IN SCHOOL TODAY.
haha i didn't see her though.
Couldn't. Wrong place wrong time. hahaha anyway it's still good to know we are in the same country. xD
Don't you think her summer hols came so quickly?
She went there in the end of May and two months later which is now, july and it's holidays already.

Had English Enrichment after school. Actually it' smore of DRAMA.
We got Mr Jerry who is an actor.
haah if you happened to watch the recent Incredible Tales, he acted as the horrible guy who abused his maid. hah

We had fun in his class, we swam, walked in myd, fly kites, hopped like a kangaroo, fished etc.
And we were in groupd of four and acted a scene it's called Tableau. Where we act and then will freeze at one point of time.
haha i acted as a beggar. because of time constraint, we didn't manage to complete what we had to do today -which is to create a story based on all the scenes each group acted out.

It's a pity Mr Jerry won't be able to teach us next lesson because he's off somewhere in singapore for a shoot.

yay my mum cooked bak kuh teh for dinner.
IM SO HUNGRY.

TANZHUTING! ARE YOU SERIOUS?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

EH EH FUNCTIONS LET'S MIA TOGETHER LA, LEAVE THE TWO SAI GANG HEROES TO MOVE ALL 400+ CHAIRS BACK TO TOWER HALL.

WHAT WHAT WHAT.
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
TELL ME WE DON'T NEED TO.

i shall cross my fingers and TOES
because they work their magic.

OHMYGOD.
IDON'TWANTTOCARRYTHOSEDARNCHAIRSBACK.
*POUTS*

Investiture rehearsal after school.
They switched the walk-in music.

400 chairs from the tower hall to the main school hall.
Functions took such a long time to finish that job.
And we were all DEAD tired.
BIG THANK YOU TO THOSE IN R&E THAT HELPED US AND PERHAPS OTHERS.
oh yar! AND THANK YOU TO THE COUPLE OF ST JOHNS WHO HELPED A LITTLE HERE AND THERE.
Im telling you, st john's are strong. Maybe from all the training of carrying people here and there. (CHOWY IS PATHETIC)

My uniform is super dusty, YOU better just hope that you're not sitting at the back part of the hall. because that's where all the dusty chairs from the tower hall are placed. it may look clean. but it's because we simply swept all the dust and LIZARD shit off. x) im not bluffing you.

i got all these bruises on my arms and thighs after carrying all those darn chairs.
PLEASE TELL ME WE ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO PUT THEM BACK AFTER INVESTITURE TOMORROW.

Jiayun, joseph, darren, Jinni and lihui came back!
But rehearsal is already over luh.

Left school at 7plus.
Jinni is my laogong.
And Mr Ma is the new guy wheet wheet jinni~

It was very dark and the sec fours were still practising their dance IF im not wrong.




Functions rocks! :D

i better quickly do my history summary, prepare for tomorrow then can go ZZZ! loves!

YOU MADE MY DAY!
I JUST WENT NUTS!



AND MY HEART IS STILL SOARING.

YESYESYES!!!
HAHAHAHA only one person will know why in the world am i so happy!
hahahaha YESSSSS!!!

okay. time to do hw.
haha i changed my blogskin to this luh.
coz im so sick of the picking and choosing all the blogskins from www.blogskins.com.

OH YES!!! I CAN'T WAIT.
:D:D:D:D




YIPPEE!!

Im don't think there's a need to worry anymore.
say yay! people. :D:D:D

okay anyway. It was a superrr tiring day yesterday (saturday)
You know why why why?
because functions was busy moving 1600 chairs for investiture on tuesday.
and (i agree with jinni) the best thing is WE DON'T EVEN GET TO SIT ON THEM. YOU DO.
so you better not sit until soooooo messy.
because im going to kill you if you do.
you sit and move the chair i will shoot rubberbands at your head.

we didn't have enough chairs. so poor people at the sec one block will have to bring their beloved chairs down after school.

blahs now what all that im typing is like a edited version of jinni's.

I saw joseph and darren carrying chairs over and i wanted to call them chair carriers but i ended up saying care charrier. LOL

we went up to the gallery and the view down from up there is really WOWW!
it's nice! like some ndp formation thingy haah.

whooo!

We all went into pa box and played last year's walk in song "endless summer"
to be frank, i think it's a much much nicer song than thise year's be it a techno song.

hahaha anyway...
CHEER UP ZHUTING. IT'S GOING TO BE ALRIGHT.

okay guys.. im soooo lazy to type all whatever. so besides alvina's and chowy's scandal.. you can go check out the other ppl's blog HAHA.

SCANDALOUS!






Behaving like hamsters.



Gonna skip sports enrichment AGAIN tomorrow coz ther's investiture rehearsal.
DARN. waste money.


FRIDAY.
I saw this while using the computers in the school library.


GET IT?
and i was SO retarded!
I played music and Mrs Ganesan?? heard and she said "who's playing music?"
(i was using the phone at the moment) and i turned and i said SORRY! it's me.
and then i realised I WAS USING THE PHONE WHEN IT'S NOT ALLOWED IN THE LIBRARY.
hahahaha and i quickly turned back.
It was hilarious! and before that, She mistakened Jovyne to be from her class. haha and then when she realised jovyne's not, then she commented that no wonder jovyne's face was so foreign. HAHAHAH LOL.


OHOHOH did i say that the racial harmony "concert" was oh so fab?
hahaah 1C dance rocks.
jeremy and bird rock
haha lol i like the way they shake. SEXAY!
and just as all had expected -they came in first.

WHAT'S THEIR PROBLEM?!
Although this thing got nothing to do with me but i feel so ANGRY.

whatever.
today no hw.
got gutiar today and i managed to remember the new song.
SAMBAL sth? =/
Mrs Koh talked to us after guitar. It was cool.
tomorrow got council.


blahblahblah
i wonder when will it be.

TOday after school was cool.
Gang"fight" and 2L YEAH RIGHT. Three sec ones from bss. and they talked.
okay, anyway think it's solved.

Had investiture rehearsal later on, was tiring. First we had to carry chairs, then we had to walk in and stuff and finally go on stage.

Ended around 6plus or sth? then we had a heart to heart talk with zt and th.
functions sec twos; OPEN YOUR HEART. x)

oh yeah, i heard that the two dog were mating today or sth.
anyway the SPCA brought them away.
so sad right.




okay im off to sleep.

goodnight world








hahahah i hate people like them.
-digresser.

I really,






Miss our first trip to Glen's house.



Shipei and I




Lixuan and I



Lixuan and I again


Miss out first outing/bbq


At pasir ris park.



Zhenyi and I


Miss how we screamed and did the kallang wave



We were totally insane


Miss the time we spent together taking retarded pics.



Yuan Suan and I


Totally miss this.



Fresh councillors we were. look at our ties! (HAHA)




Yunxuan and pearlyna



Yunxuan and Xiying




SNAPSHOT



Wangwenxian and us; this was during Teacher's day if I'm not wrong.




Look at this! it's so history! as in we don't look like us already! (but i look the same actually)




This is it, last day of 1K'06.









Had a new year - 2F



Bread kum Nainais


- with the loss of certain people.