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Wednesday, November 16, 2011 , 2:47 PM

Today is the saddest day .



I know you since sec1-2 ? 7,8 yrs of friendship. I really very disappointed in you. You can lie to anyone except me. I believed all the things u told me but end up? lies after lies. One lie cover another. When are u going to stop and turn over a new leaf?all of us were worried bout you. all of us are feeling as bad as you. When are u going to wake up, my dear friend?




I bring you into this business is to see u excel but not sink into deep shit. I felt helpless cos theres really nth i can help . I'm already having alot of problems. WHY are u facing these now when im in deep shit too? hais then who is going to help me? hais.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011 , 3:40 PM

I'm really very disappointed. All along i thought theres improvement or slightly improvement after so much trying. For the past one week, Im really happy and much happier. Though we still on the trying process.


My happiest day on 11/11/2011 . I was working that day. I really thought thats how i gonna end my day by working. I received his sms and im really delighted. I even screen shot the notification . On the same day, i did close case. Thats even more happier than ever. After appt, i went back home to change and meet him. He came over to fetch me and we headed Kovan for porridge. Never did i expect that both of us thought of the same place to go after dinner.


I liked this feeling but how long can this feeling last?


We went to barrage and we strolled the bridge that leads to no where. He held my left hand while i cuddled his arm and shoulder. The feeling just came back like nobody business. And then , i questioned myself. How long can i keep this feeling ? You even brought along DSLR camera. That was quite sometime back we actually took photos using DSLR. Though we only managed to capture few shots. But it was great enough.


After barrage, we went to our favourite Place to slack. That was the only day that kept me company and i really got no concern at all. seriously, you really brighten my day . How i wish i can freeze time and memories. But well, welcome back to reality. Thanked you for the gift, i appreciate what you had done for me.


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The basketball day.

The One and only time that i last played with him was at 288 . it was ages ago. I sugguested basketball game on a rainy saturday. Its time to really sweat. But all because im a weakling, i fall and injured myself. He was caring that day. But i wasnt feeling good. I'm afraid once i fall deep again, i might not wan to get up. Life sucks big time, seriously. You helped me clean my shoes, advising me how to take care of the wound, had lovely time at study room.

Concern a person by action is enough. I suggested another try out. Cos i'm afraid we'll sink into our comfort zone and will never back as one. That suggestion was right or wrong?


I should not have kpo and did that action .

FM!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011 , 3:38 PM

Heart Pain .

Really .


, 3:09 PM

Dear space,


Had been neglected for quite some time. its time to bring u back to life.

had not been feeling happy since the start of october. its jst not my month? or never will it be. striving for many years? and wad do i gain ? nothing but all the hurtful things i received from you. wtf did i ever do wrong? wtf is the school or environment is doing? just one month and everything goes haywire. I Fucking hate this feeling.


Life is never fair.

Im really very tired.

What should i do?

God knows.

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