I am going to be mean. Don't read.

Polygamy.

 

To me

 

is

Bullshit.

 

How on earth can it be just for everyone involved!???

 

OhMyGawd, is this the 21st century?

 

Why waste money, energy, and time talking about equality when there can be none!?

 

and

 

SERIOUSLY...

 

MALAYSIA CAN'T AND WILL NEVER BE AN ISLAMIC STATE!

 

IT IS UNCONSTITUTIONAL!

 

GO STUDY "PENGAJIAN AM" PREASSEEEE!

 

 

 



26 days till 2013

Reflection Time!

 

Sort of like a timeline. What I did etc etc.

 

So,

 

This is my life in 2012!

 

January (Didn't end 2011 nor begin 2012 with a boom)

• I declared 2011 as one the worst year in my life. Horrible workload. Terrible hours in the lab. Was hospitalized. and what not!
• Embraced the New Year with a "Convex" mug in my hand! Walking around campus ground with fellow classmates till midnight after having a super filling "room"-made  steamboat dinner organised by them ::teehee::

February~love is in the air~

 

spent Valentine's with a boy.

striked out the resolution I made with Beanie.

dated Mr CP

 

 

HAHA

 

 

move on... to

 

March!

 

April

meet the parents

lots of interrogation (I was home for a week, only heh)

 

May

• wrapped up my final year project. finished thesis Hurrah!
• studied for my final Final Examination

JUNE

 

final Final Exam took place

Prepared for thesis presentation

 

farewell party BBP style

missed you guys!

 

 

 

July(busy July)

 

Nailed presentation

So Long, Farewell USM

 

Here comes post- grad trip no. ONE!

 

TWO

 

 

(this was in August)

 

 

AUGUST

 

started working.

 

happy Eid at Hani's Teratak Murni =)

 

September

.

.

.

November

.

.

trip to Bukit Cahaya. caught in the rain. funniest moment. LOVED IT!

 

December,

 

will you surprise me?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I am thankful

December is here.

 

I was. Yes, I was going to say "Gosh, the year just flew by!"

 

blabber about it.

 

but

 

I guess I should (for once, at least) stop blabbering/ranting/rambling about my life Haha!

 

Anyways, another favourite article from Papa Soo. Read it! and Don't forever be busy. Life's too short!

 



 

 

 



Deservedness

The state or quality of being deserved. [web definition]

I will never be able to understand how life was in the 80s as described by Papa Soo.
Or ever shall I know the satisfaction of earning a "four-figure" salary.

But I do know one thing. The value of deservedness.

Meritocracy. People rise and fall based on how hard they work. No pulling strings. No brown nosing. No apple polishing. Just plain hardwork.

Trust and respect.

To be trusted and respected, first and foremost, don't lie. unless with valid reasons.

it's never enough even if I scored As since young
it's never enough even if I'm the only one who managed to complete my music studies
it's never enough even if I'm the only one who got into a public institution for my tertiary studies
it's never enough even if I paid for my own education
it's never enough even if have a career of my own
it's never going to be enough even if I have never screwed up big time in these 23 years
it's never enough even if I am always there a phone call away
it's never going to be enough
and I am sick of this stupid Asian culture.

if I am lucky enough to have my own children I swear my life I would never raise them in such culture.

The new Julie/Julia Project!

I am proud to announce my latest project!

(I need a project badly cos I don't want to shop every weekend with my sister. She can be crazy when it comes to shopping)

 

Julie/Julia 2.0!

 

I have not figured out what kind of dishes I would want to try this time. Something new. More Asian cuisines, I hope!

 

Coming soon!

 

2013!

 

that is if we could survive the apocalypse! HAHA!

Hello!

Bonjour mon amis!

Haven't been blogging(ranting?) for a while. Have been  reading a lot lately. *coughs* not serious materials though. HAHA.

Been diligently reading racy books for the past few days (er, a week?) Fifty shades trilogy by E.L. James. HAHA.

Thank you Mr Wong for your very interesting column. Well I'm kind of a curious on the kind of book that had left this papa in cold sweat. His daughter proudly announced that she purchased Fifty Shades of Grey(first book) and that made him er nervous

So I had to know how racy/erotic this book can be!

Sometimes a parent can be a little too protective(?) I guess.

I've got to see it for myself! HAHA!

In short. Umm. It is erotic. Very.

Lame plot. Very Cinderella. In an erotic way. HAHA.

Rich guy fall for a not-so-rich-girl-next-door.

Rich guy has a dark sexual secret. Girl-next-door kinda changed him.

Blah blah blah.

Then they lived happily ever after.

So in my opinion, it is a racy book. I'd only recommend this to MATURE readers ONLY. Take it as a fun reading. No harm done.

But it's definitely not for kiddies. Go read Harry Potter or something! No pun intended.

Now I'm going to try reading all the books I bought last year. 10 of them. Gosh, why the hell I bought this many! HAHA!

the power of Aunt Flo

I HATE TO WAIT!

WAITING IRRITATES ME TO THE CORE!

reading Marley and Me.

 

oh I do miss her. She slept just as much as Marley did.

 

i hate activities that would only take two hours or so but requires 100000000000000+++++ hours of planning 1000000000000000000000+++ phone calls and texts. or even more.
I hate planning.
Why can't we just be spontaneous?

not dying per se. kid me not.

i'm dying for something challenging

i'm dying for an adventure

hiking/ mountain climbing

caving

wall climbing perhaps? I'd love to do that. Been years since I did that. Gotta dust out those triceps and biceps of mine. Err, let me check if they are still there. Probably 30%-ish?

Oh and probably swimming till my muscles hurt.

sigh

anyways, I've been spending my weekends and free time doing nothing, playing piano, COOK (includes baking too), playing with my dogs, cook/boil(?) telephone porridge(direct translation- if y'all know what i mean TEEHEE he'd knows for sure HAHA)

and

doing nothing

owh and housework

So, day by day I'm getting more boring than ever.

May I add?

Bowling! Haven't bowl since F6. Would love to do that!

Owh and snooker! HAHA I don't pool actually. It was fun pool-ing in Penang. HAHA. remember tans??? =P

I know, i know that's not even an adventure but I wanna do something fun! that doesn't have to do with cooking eating running cleaning washing, well, anything that I do every day or in the weekends!

I'm ranting. Yes.

I'm so afraid that dream would come true. I hope that someone could tell me it's not. I wish it wouldn't. Please tell me it's not. Please don't let it come true.

need-no-naming post?

insomnia is probably nothing new to you guys.
but it is to me.
to me, a health freak, sleep is of the utmost importance. yes, i'm not ashamed to admit. i am a health freak. and a pusher for people to lead a healthy lifestyle and a pusher of many things. sorry, it's annoying and irritating and.. i don't know. Please fill in for me will ya?
lately waking up in the middle of the night, not once, many times is such a norm. so as tonight. um. midnight? it's 2 am. i think.
what i do when i can't sleep?
think
um
ponder on stuffs
kacau someone when he's home
kacau Blossom 'cos she snores all the time
think of what the future might be
think of times in penang
think of silly thing i did
think of silly things i cried upon
think of silly things i said and done
oh and read. thank god for my smartphone. am i still not smart enough for it. haha.
i can read surf browse all i want anytime (when i'm home or have free wifi access ::teehee::)
so, to sleep better
it seemed meditation works like magic! yet to try. will definitely try. soon. (need to find my meditation board!)
they say running works too. i run almost everyday. i still can't sleep!
hmm
spent whole night thinking again.
what can i say to make things right.
what can i say to not disappoint you or anyone.
what can i do?
i wish i could say everything i had in my heart and mind.
but words and me. we are not good buddies. either it come out wrong and end up a disaster. or nothing comes out.
either way heart still is heavy.
John Mayer say what you need to say?
p.s. i'm glad Lady found peace. no more sufferings.
i thought i should stop pushing around. i am wrong.

What can you do
When your good isn't good enough And all that you touch tumbles down 
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow 
But how many times will it take
Oh how many times will it take
For me to get it right
So I throw up my fist throw a punch in the air 
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah I'll send out a wish
yeah I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care

                            glee, get it right

the actual goodbye of all goodbyes

the day she came into our lives

we were in Singapore the week Dad brought her home. I remember feeling so excited during the train ride home! we were all super excited! our neighbour, Ong(he loves dog- too bad his wife hated

em!), and Uncle Bert purposely (dad's childhood friend) came to visit haha!

 

we had several canaries, a few hamsters, a squirrel haha! but nothing beats her!

 

the best memory

my sisters and I carpooled, from home to school then to nanny's place, since kindergarten. So, we gotta wake up early and catch those rides before dawn. And Lady would always be awake to accompany us til our carpool Aunty arrive to pick us.

When I used to go school alone in the morning, I always talk to her cos she's like my buddy and sister.

 

sadly

because we were all still young, schooling and all. spending most of our time in nanny's place. Mom and Dad had to work. She spent her childhood alone at home. hmmm....

 

on the bright side

she had a boyfriend! haha Mr Brownie. and 10 kids! (too bad, 8 died. 2 survived) oh wait, and a niece(Blossom) and nephew(Mike)! haha!

 

and she lived till 16! Bravo, mama! I love calling her marmalade. heh. cos she looks a bit orangy =P

 

 

p.s. Goodbye my loyal sister/buddy. We love, love you so very much. Thank you for making my childhood a memorable one.

 

 

 



why no relationship posts and statuses on FB

Here's why...



Reason No. 5!

I am not secretive.
I just know what to put out for public viewing and what not.

I'm just using my Whatsapp and telco services to the fullest. I paid for it, didnt I!?

A dreamer?

I've read and heard so much this week on living the dream, John Lennon's you may say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one, the promise.....
What if,
What if,
You received something, in the end it was taken away from you. Worst, it was all made up or a lie, a gimic. Sorry I'm a cynic.
Everything sounds so nice when people want you to believe.
When you do, as time passes, you'll notice the cracks in the foundation you once believed in.
Pessimist much? Oh hell yeah!

Anyways, Michelle rocked the house!

he is one hell of a lucky guy to be married to her

10 best childhood memories

1) waking before dawn to watch land before time, and imitating the characters' voices, with my sisters.

2) 1-month holiday in Aussie!

3) first official piano lesson.

4) shopping for my very first and last tamaguchi.

5) my very own birthday parties. Because I'll have a new dress to wear every birthday as pressie. Haha!

6) owned our first dog. lady!

7) annual trip to port Dickson with mom's family.

8) school camping trips.

9) walking to school(primary) with friends every Saturday morning to play badminton.

10) Becoming a bridesmaid. 3 times! Haha.

When frequent becomes infrequent

That's when ..
the thinking cap is needed;
Rationality in place;
Emotions aside;
And then breath
be numb
Wipe everything of the face
And think.
Think.
Think.
And accept the fact that EVERYTHING (literally) changes with time
no exceptions
well practically this IS the beginning
no use crying over spilled milk, go with the flow, ignorance a bliss? They're still bullshit u know?

Tips to be famous
Be absurd
Be ugly
Be scandalous
Be rude
Be disgusting
Be shameless
Be offensive (in your words/gestures)
Be ridiculous
It's proven. Trust me. Go google. People who are newsworthy did that. And they are famous now!
But then again, it will not last a lifetime.

Just saying for the sake of saying it

Yeah I'm used to it

Love Actually - Christmas Cards for Juliet

and the top comment is
"Did officer Rick just say he'd love her until she was a zombie?!"

spoiled the romance!

when nothing can go beyond the word absurd and waiting for the when i need not anticipate happiness for it will come naturally

she passed the night before I was about to leave for my trip. or so we thought.i was ready to let her go. i did not cry much. and i didn't want to cry. because putting her to sleep was the only way to keep her from suffering. or so we thought.
and then i got the news from mom that dr yap couldn't do it. and discharged her. i was in kinabalu park when i got the news. two days later.
i was in rage. i was mad. i felt cheated.
i kept myself happy although i was not. call me fake, i don't mind.
filled myself with happy thoughts and excitement.
tried so hard to not breakdown and ruin the trip.
kept myself busy with new friends i found so i won't have time to be sad.
lied to myself that i was okay.
in the end i found out i didn't have to force myself to do all those.
isn't that all absurd?

thank you dearests for your kind words. and sorry i didn't came out with the truth sooner.
i just didn't know what to say.
and i didn't know if that's a good news.
she's so frail and weak. i don't want her to be this way any longer.
call me cruel. but to me, it is more cruel to let her be in this state.

Finally I found someone who agrees with me that people can have bad hand-eye-coordination! See! I'm not alone!

into neon colors for too long
had to go back to pastels
where I belong
I won't go into deep and bright colors anymore

Watch "Kenny Loggins - For The First Time" on YouTube

Jason Mraz - The Woman I Love (Official Puppet Version) #MrazingTheVideo

my company for today.

my ears are aching

i wanna watch a theatre or musical or concert or ... anything that is entertaining and artsy!

a delayed post

being ill and away from home reminds me of my stay in Adventist. all alone. all by myself.

scared

angry

vulnerable

weak

in pain

brings back memories I am not proud of. Funny that I was mad for going through this again. funnier when I had tell myself to get better because I had no IV drips no hospitals no nurses nothing. only drugs to make me better. and I got better.

raising hope

Sometimes you have keep telling yourself that it is ok. Cos if you're lucky it would eventually be ok.

I am none of the above but I am still a Malaysian

:: source THESTAR::

confession

I miss Penang.

I really do.

Sigh

I missed out on so many good shows and art exhibitions! damnit!

and all those memories
sigh

=(

why i am not a girly girl: reason 2

because I love

THIS

THIS

and THIS

post-grad trip 1: singapore

yes, i’m a jobless fresh grad.

still goyang-ing legs at home

with nothing else better to do let me bore you with details of my (not-so) recent trip to Singapore

DON’T YOU WORRY I WILL NOT DO THAT HAHA

let the pictures do the talking okay?

Harry Potter Exhibition, ArtScience Museum

would love to bring home a Olympus 2000 which cost a fortune so no thank you

but he got me Bertie Bott's Every Flavour Beans (which I have yet to try it out)

p.s. please remind me to open it when you are back next month okay? :p

not to be missed Universal Studios Singapore



and his fav Madagascar rides and characters :p

someone actually sang to ME!

NO

to this hot chick .... hmmm

:p

didn't get to catch 2 awesome rides tho
hmmm...
::hint:: I am, I am complaining :P HHAHAHHAHAH

oh well,

enough pictures for today

the rest is history...

<3

i'm a sampah masyarakat

my dream home (as of 2012)

Ken Rimba (click here!)

my dream car

Jeep Wrangler Sahara

::teehee::



people said this is life, i said this is bullshit. stop chasing nonsense and start living.

"The death of conversation, I fear, is only the prelude to the death of human civilisation."- Papa Soo

don't you think so?

why i am not a girly girl: reason 1

i don't know how to tie a plait!

yes

honest to god

i can't tie one for myself

my hands are kinda cacat

i always seek help if i want to wear a plait

although I realllyyyy LURVE plaits and braids

HAHA

I'd really love to wear one of these hairstyles next year! cos i think it suits my lovely dress ::wink::

aren't they simple

cute

sophisticated

edgy

sweet

and gorgeous!?

i'm an emotional monster.
because i'm short. people say. but i digress.

shopping list
stop-crying potion
headache pill
stop-being-so-emotional potion

the black room

a white baby grand

 in a dark room

just me, alone

striking all the right keys



woah can it be sadder than this? damn

wake up lonely with you by my side

one more night it doesn't feel

there are movies playing in your eyes

you dream of our fortunes

but you're wrong

i don't belong to you

 

the moon is the only friend i have outside

one more drink and i'll be healed

i told you the words and then knew it was a lie

i wish i could offer an appeal

you're wrong

i don't belong to you

 

what i'd give for that first night when you were mine

tried with all that i have to keep you alive

i wasn't taught this way

with a thousand things to say

i was born with a broken heart

what i'd give for that first night when you were mine

thought you were mine

 

so i'll put this cigarette to bed

pull some sheets from off your side

i put my arm around you safe in the night

still dreaming of fortune

but you're wrong

i don't belong

Belong, Cary Brothers

10 things i’d say to my sixteen-year-old-self

1- Follow your instincts because they are darn right.

2- despite getting bullied and bossed around by her, your big sis loves you very much(she’ll learn to appreciate your presence especially when you’re away *winks*)

3- need not bug dad to bring you to Penang. You will be travelling up and about north of Malaysia. *hint* you’ll end up studying there lol

4- it’s okay to like chemistry because you need it in life. because chemistry IS life. despite having people around telling you otherwise.

5- it’s okay to skip school =P

6- it’s okay to ignore the boys.(that is not being cocky. trust me.) you’ll meet a keeper soon lol.


7- listen to mom and dad but do what you think is right.

8- people will still stare. ignore them. walk tall. sit straight. and glare.

9- you will still be categorise as cute, even when you are in your 20s. sigh. just live with it. lol.

10- you are still daddy’s little gal. i think you can live with it. haha.

my new found love...

tweeter

no LIKE buttons. (YES!)

no ODD friends whom I can't UNFRIEND.

i CAN post gazillion times a day and WHO CARES!







p.s. missing you already

didn't know it then

it'd be like this
how it felt
sigh

exam period now
i'm home
excited?
yes!
social butterfly? still not back yet
sorry

nerd-mode?
still off
but i'm trying my best to study and keep everything in my head

sigh

well i'm getting bored of myself
help me!

nah

he's (one of) the  best
original singer/songwriter/musician

took me months to be able to download it so please take a listen okayyy =P

i'd only choose the good notes

the very moment i heard the news i thought of dad

i didn't know why

but i have not stopped thinking of him since yesterday morning

called mom yesterday night after the wake

i wished i'm home

she's a strong person. stronger than me. stronger than anyone of us could have imagined.

this chapter may not end as smoothly as she might have wanted or hoped for but after today (and the funeral on sunday) i wish our prayers and blessings will be heard to help her and her family to move on.

i'd picked all the good notes to play. henceforth, it'll accompany me as the day comes to an end.

no big celebrations required.

Bises

death.
i do not know what to be afraid of, what i should fear of. but i know one thing. my biggest fear is the fear of losing my loved ones. by just having the slightest thought gives me goosebumps. i may or may not be afraid when death comes knocking on my door but having to lose someone, to me, would be far worse than me having to face death.
if i have to face death one day i couldn't wish more than to be able to celebrate every last bit of my life.

::From Mike::

Grams and daddy Paul brought me to Dr Yap for a one-to-one grooming session. I iz sketzzz......

BEFORE

AFTER

I have never been so naked in my life!

Look at my body hair!

Gone! all gone!

T_T

the saddest part,

Blossom didn't wanna play with me after I got this haircut!

She ignored me for a freaking week! I'm so bored =(

Junior hyeung and Mama Lady couldn't recognise me either

T_T

I wouldn't blame Mama cos she's old. Oopssss... but I still adore her ::teehee::

::emo-ing::

I shall rot on the couch. I shall not do anything until KaiMa comes home! Grams said she'll be coming home in June to see me! Yippie!

GASP!
the allenders are pregnant! hahah!

congrats to the lil couple!

beautiful acoustics

light mahogany

steel strings

rough, blistered fingers

deep voice yet soulful

the emotions

pure

simplistic

minimal expression

that's what captures one's heart

but ears first, that's for sure

awesome is a four letter word in this context

JASON MRAZ PLEASE COME TO M’SIA TO PROMOTE YOUR LOVE IS A FOUR LETTER WORD ALBUM! PLEASEE??? I WILL FORK OUT EVERY PENNY I HAVE TO ATTEND! I PROMISE! i meant every penny cos i’m going broke soon XP haha

::caption mode:: OF MICKY, PYC AND YC

*screams silently* *MSNpanda*

IKNOWRIGHT!

*cough*self-control*cough* HAHA

presenting you
THE PRINCE AND HIS ENTOURAGE


CAN YOU GUYS PLEASE STOP BEING SO CUTE!? HAHAHAHAHAHA *MSNPANDA*

:: drumrolls ::

p.s.  

isn’t he the cutest thing or what *MSNpanda*

i went for a kill. no?

Killed FOUR birds with ONE stone?!

HAHA

was home last weekend for RUSSELL PETERS

and

MOTHERS’ DAY celebration

and

my parents’ anniversary celebration

and

my.

Must say,

Russell Peters was awesome! *standing ovation* *clapsclaps*

our tickets! the moment we got the tickets in hand *hallelujah*! HAHAHA

look at the massive crowd!


after show shots!

family dinner was great. had a good time catching up with my family heeee
had a great time disturbing Mom! HAHA! she’s been ignoring me for the past couple of weeks. She has been very busy with her activities. so she said. LOL.

was super exhausted the next day. and with no interesting movies to watch.

of yoyo ice and stalking houses in Taman I-don’t-remember we ended up in Tanjung Harapan!

peace. quiet. calm. serene. for two!

this is what we need. HAHA.
*credits to google* HAHA


and how can I forget the FIRST theatre (i watched) of the semester! HAHA

Tans darling’s production!

Tans and Amy (her actress= awesome) and we got her flowers too!