Though ...... , but .......
Ya i understand how you feel.

Okay back to the point!
school is getting more and more fun, than i expect!
Of course, it could only happen with my dearest classmates!
Ya but today's schedule was like 10am - 12pm,
1 hour break and then 1pm - 8pm, go home.
?!?!?! haha
actually its not very tiring also la!
okay, i better go sleep now!
Tml's lesson starting at 9am!!!
Ha!

Nights peeps!(:

You chose this path for our relationship.
Okay i respect your decision, and i'll let you go.

Okay..
Come back to posting!
Went for movie '17 again' just now.
Was awesome and funny, however, unrealistic.
Its impossible for someone to experience such thing.
Haha, people go watch it!
And you will realise how important ppl around you are.
And don't regret when its too late.

k bye

Why guys are always like that?
When they are wooing someone, they will say...
"I really love you so much, I promise i will love you forever"
"can you be my girlfriend?"

They can make you love them so much even more than they love you.
And then you leave when you really love them.

I hate this kind of feeling.
My fucking mother is everyday bugging me about the fucking issue that i don't wish to bring up.
She is always asking "why you two broke up?" "what happened"
I scold her and ask her away she will like " i want to know what happened"
Then she will start guessing.
Please la. I really cannot stand it alr..
I tried my best not to think bout it, and you are trying your best to make me say about it.
Ya life's fucked up.

Anw, school is tiring today as i didnt had enough sleep last night.
however i still went for the dance party in school from 7pm to 11pm at night.
The timing is quite short la.
Though its quite fun but they didnt serve alcohol.
Ha, the who drive us out to buy some to make ourselves feels a little more high.
After that it was like 'Wow'!
Love it man.
Non stop dancing! But its kinda stuffy inside because too many ppl queezing together infront.
Ha. okay bye gtg.

Ya maybe i am just so fucking ugly, fat, and irritating to you.
That makes you leaves me.
Fine.

Its over.

Though i still can't let go, but i have no choice...
He say its impossible.....
I don't know how long do i need to heal the injuries in my heart.
Even if it heals, there will still be scar.

He is the first man i ever really love.
I believe this is true love...
Its like, even if i've got everything of him...
I still feels i haven got enough of him.

Its my fault to cause this relationship to end up this way.
sorry.
I still love you so much.

The 10months and 10days being together with you is the happiest period in my life.
I will never forget the sweet moments we had together and the memories you left behind.
I will also never forget you, my best boyfriend ever.
I love you, my best friend jerome.

our nine monthsary. we took this at the romantic singapore river side. rmb dearest?



















We took this during mid autum rmb?we looks so loving.cant everything return to normal?



















rmb? we went to study at parkway parade's library..
you wearing the shirt i bought for you. I know its not very nice , but you still wore it.
















this day we went to katong. You accompany me to go alter my bottom.

when we just got together a few days.. we are at mac studying. rmbb? i still love you so much...can you hug me again like you used to do?

Today i saw you at tampines.
Thinking that you saw me too but you said you didnt.
Seeing you talking to a girl presenting a wide smile on your face,
it seems so stranger to me.
Maybe i am really not good enough for you.
Maybe you doesnt love me anymore.
Maybe you are really not happy with me.
I cried again and again and again...
I dont know whats wrong with me.
I just love you so much.

Someone once told me, it is fate that brings people together.
And it isnt easy to find someone you really love and who loves you too.
You have to go through alot alot of obstacles to test your relationship.
I haven and never give up, had you gave up alr?
I really can't bring myself to let you go...
I just love you so much than i love myself.

Please don't give up on me.
Can you give me another chance to love you and care for you?

we went to celebrate our 2nd month. We ate swensen chocolate fondue at marina sq, rmb? Then we watch firework as it is national day. that is the first time i watch live firework with my bf.
















we went to study at airport during O level period, rmb?


















we went to eat at yuki yaki on our 1st monthsary. you insisted to treat me eat yukiyaki, rmb dear?

we went to downtown eat and play. This is after we play at night rmb the blinking lights? we took our picture there. dear i miss you...

I am still believing that you will tell me you love me and come back to me.
Am i wrong?
I don't want to give up on you, on our relationship.
I can't..
I don't know how to..

I still love you so much jerome.

this is the day we went to zoo. didnt we had fun?

the day you went japan. i missed you so much. And you emailed me when you are there, rmb? you said its very nice there, you missed me very much and you wish i were there with you.

when we are still in school, we always sit together. i miss sitting beside you for hours.

He once told me he likes me so much and wants me to be his girlfriend.
He once told me he will love me forever.
He once told me no matter what he will never leave me.
He once told me i will be his first and last.
He once told me he wants to be with me forever.
He once told me he wants to marry me.
He once told me i am special.
He once told me i filled his heart with joy.
He once told me he is only happy with me in his life.
He once told me he can't live without me.
He once told me he only likes me.

Now he doesnt wants me anymore.
He left me.
He left my life.
He left my life leaving those sweet memories.
He left my life giving me so many stabs on my heart.
He left, forever.

He told me i make him stress.
He told me he is not happy with me.
He told me he will not likes me anymore.
He told me he can't be with me.
He told me we are not suitable.
He told me he won't be with me anymore, now and forever.
He told me he wants to be friend with me.

But these are not my wants...
I can't take it, i really can't..
I cannot live without you in my life.
I cannot live without you with me.
I cannot live without your love.
I cannot live without your company.
I cannot live without your voice.
I cannot live without your hands.
I cannot live without your support.
I really cannot live without you, really really can't.

My heart is so painful that even 10panadols can't ease it.
Nothing can ease the pain except you.
Everywhere, anytime i see memories of me and you.
The memorable places we went together...
and we had funs, don't you remember?
Those memorable things we did together..
and we were happy, don't you remember?
The amount of time we spent together may not be very long...
but it isnt short either.
I really dont know the amount of time i need to heal from this pain.
It isnt easy for me to say let go and i can let go.
I really miss you.

Don't you still love me, jerome?

In the past few months, alot of things happened. I don't know why, I just can't let you go. Many times you told me that we shouldnt be together,but i really believe there is nothing we cannot solve together.

At this point of time, many people may be worrying bout how their school life will be. How are they gonna face the tough times with projects in the future. Or what will they being doing after 3three years of poly course. But i just don't know why, my worries are not all these. I am worrying about not being able to meet you so often in the future. Worrying bout drifting apart with you. Worrying bout losing you. Everything is around you, as if my world revolves around you.

I really really regret so much about the past. I really hope that i can turn back the clock to when we just got together. We wasted so much of our precious time together quarreling and breaking up. But when i browse through those photos we took together the past 10months, i really feel so happy. We had gone through so much together, which makes it even harder to leave you or to be seperated from you. You know, words really cant explain how much you mean to me.

I was always wasting so much time complaining bout how bad you are and so on. I am really sorry. Deep inside my heart, i always knew that you are very good to me. I know the change in you and your attitude towards me is partly my fault. You were once so good to me and care for me so much, yet i didnt appreciate you at that time. You gave in to me so much and i didnt understand it back then. Now i know you changed. Though i know you still love me, still care for me, still will give in to me, but you will never express it out.

I dont know why i stressed you out at times, but i didnt mean it. I really hope that you can feel easy and happy together with me. Now that i sense that things are different. I really have no idea what to do next to keep you with me. But what i can only do is to treat you better and love you as much as i can.

In the past, whenever i ask you " will you marry me?" you will always reply "yes". But now when i ask you, you will reply " dont know". I saved msg in my phone sent by you saying that "I want to marry you. i will love you forever". And " No matter what, i will always love you de" whenever i see these msg, i feel so happy. But i know things are different now. I dont know what will happen tml. I fear you will leave me anytime.

Chuaweiqi loves Jeromesern forever!
10months and 9days, 313days