When People Say Goodbye

phew, finally found sometime to blog. got so many pictures to upload, took about 10minutes. i can't be bothered if you will vomit or not HAHA !!!

i found this in my phone, i "don't know" how.

my palace =ppp

looks like the palace during qing dynasty haha.

very blur photo.

me with cute cute mei chan

act cool buay cool leh haha.

i still can't stop myself from laughing at this LOL !!!

ORIENTATION

then it's ......................................

me ....

me (trying hard not to laugh) ...

me(cannot tahan, so smile to relieve) ....

me !!!

me =.= ...

me .......

AND ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL !!!

started cam-whoring

sheryl chooooooo

my 1st mistake for putting up this photo.

i still can't figure out what this pic is all abt.

2nd mistake haha.

she angry and dao me liao LOL !!!

then she turns back again with her middle finger.

3rd mistake WAHAHAH !!!

hmmm??

trying multi shots for the next few photos ............

rather retarded huh ...

their pictures, not mine haha.

threesome LOL !!!

ok la, the rest you should know what haha.

life's been rather mundane for me. school and work, nothing else. of course there are upcoming events but not happy ones.

i just found out that me and edmund's 8chars might clash really heavily, we never fail to quarrel every single day we see each other. and worse of all, we are in the same class, same group. he, sheryl and i are always together in school cause we don't really mix around with other cliques. edmund is still trying to get his "xiao bai", while me and sheryl still looking for our prince haha. alot handsome guys, but far too handsome la, don't dare talk to them LOL !!!

assignments are coming up, projects are here alrdy. i dread child devt and functional english. but i don't wanna fail my exams =((( sighs !!!!

went out with jason on monday for a movie. i promised him to upload the song of the movie on my blog but i still have not find the time to search for it. i deleted my link from friendster, so i doubt he will find his way here haha.

after so long, the feeling of being with him is still the same. the look, the mischeivious and cheeky smile haha. i kept stealing glances at him in the cinema haha. this is the 1st time we watch movie together alone, and a touching movie somemore. he just refuses to admit that he cried LOL !!! well .... i don't know what to elaborate about this outing.

that date is coming i know, but can some people stop reminding me of it ?? i don't see the reason why should i be extra emotional on that date. and why can't i treat it like any other day ?? it's the same w/o him, be it 30th april or not.

though i still love him, but i get the fact that we ain't meant to be ok ??

*have never found a smile as precious, as difficult to let go as yours ....

there will come a day when i can stand up on my own. i just need time, so do me a favour by not reminding me of my past, thanks alot.

well ... can't think of anything else to blog. anyone got ideas tag me !!! haha. take care =ppp

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4/28/2007 12:44:00 AM

well ... i practically forgot everything that happened the past few days. am really leading a busy life now.

thurs was lame cause i only went to school for an hour. went back to bowen to collect cert with many many of the ex-bowenians :) so sad that soh wei xiang lost his phone to some bangalas.

friday was ok la. spent alot of time slacking in school, sleeping in the library thanks to elmo and kenrick. configuration of laptop was fucked up, and to add-on, edmund irritated the hell outta me.

went to botak jones for dinner at 9pm =.= some of my friends love it, some of my friends think it wasn't a big deal, but same as my other friends, i thought that it sucked !!! no offence to those who love it like hell. but i seriously didn't like it at all. though i had the xiao guo mian for dinner. but i ordered a side dish of spicy fries. i can tell you, i didn't even sallow more than half a fry. my friend had fish and chips, i tasted a lil, and it still sucked. almost vomitted. no that it's that terrible, but i vomit when i taste something i don't like at all, that i can't even accept it. after vomitting, it felt so much better.

saturday was working from 12pm-3pm. after that went shop shop with jing at bugis. content censored =p

sunday is a whole day of work !!! saw so many things i wanted to buy, but i only brought 10bucks with me, cause working place near ma. saw a very normal-looking hairclip selling at 15bucks =.= chamelon somemore, not branded shop that sells budget stuff at a high price. =p

really dunno what to type la. go slp !!! tml wake up at 6am =(((

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4/22/2007 11:27:00 PM

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4/18/2007 02:07:00 AM

blogging now with my good old computer :) abandoned it for so many days until it go beat up my laptop. just kidding la haha.

am duper happy today. finally some good luck :)))) able to sleep until afternoon time as i have no school today, mainly because my practicum location has not been assigned. teehee =))) woke up and went opp for lunch-cum-dinner. all the stalls were closed except for drinks stall and beehoon stall (which was closing soon). if i left my house 10mins later, i would have to starve already. why all rest on the same day !!! dots =.=

went for work, but i reached at 6pm instead of 6.30pm as stated in the schedule. almost banged my head on the wall but mei woo say nvm, extra 1/2 hr got pay =)))) heehee. today got very bad customers la, came in at 9.30pm when 9pm is last order. let them in still give trouble. i tiao them then they say sorry, for WTF. obviously sacarstic la, stupid xiao didi xiao mei mei, go home find mummy la.

then after i finished all the closing work, mei woo shouted "jolynn ar, LAI !!!". i thought she going to scold me liao, but she gave me a promotion !! =pppp wahahaha !!! happy girl, smiling to myself all the way home LOL !!! crazy.

bad thing is, i gotta wake up at 6am everyday, today sleep alot, tml die haha. but i enjoy schooling =))) since got promotion liao, maybe i forgo CCA ba. too bad choir, too bad violin =x but i will pursue my dreams on day, if time allows me to =p sleep time !!! goodnight guys !!! take care !!!

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4/18/2007 12:08:00 AM

i feel bad and rotten to have caused such ripples in someone's life and relationship. silly you, silly me. sorry girl ................

SIGHS -

i don't even know what i want know. i hate my fucking life.

will there be a day when you'll come running back to me ?? i miss you, jason .... 3oo4o6, a date to remember, a date to reminisce ...

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4/17/2007 12:53:00 AM

worked like some bull on sunday, but was still ok la.

tossed and turn throughout the night, couldn't sleep at all.maybe too excited about going back to school after so long haha. finally it's 6.30am, i "woke up" and dragged myself to the bathroom. bathed,dolled up abit and off i head to interchange.

was thinking of taking shuttle bus and flashing my NP student card for the 1st time, but once i saw the queue, my eyes almost popped out !!! the next bus is at 7.50am, it was only 7.25am can !!! gan jiong people. so i took 165 to change 74.

if i had just took 74, it wouldn't be so hard to find seats, and i'll probably be taking the same bus as sheryl.she still tell me her bus got alot yan dao =.= ma de, make me jealous only. was sitting beside the president of HMS, didn't realise until i turned to my right LOL !!! ok la,quite cute.

had no problems with classroom's location and stuff cause all i went before already. eng teacher rather fierce, but i don't understand why need functional english lor. talk to children and aunties leh, and very diff one leh. those small small mistakes, please la, i teaching in childcare not uni, even lecturers don't speak proper eng lor. KNS !!! she gave us a diagnostic test, say supposed to be easy, but i only got 1 out of 10 correct =.= i mean totally correct la. die la this module. every week need to print notes somemore. MA FAN !!!

sports and wellness de teacher damn guai lan LOL !!! but he teaching my sport leh,sianed. he expect us to reach there on the dot, but his time is faster than normal time by 10mins =.= die !!!! must be in attire somemore, siao ar !!!

the IT application teacher damn lor sor, she will teach you how to shut down computer one LOL !!! was dismissed damn early. then went to canteen 2 to eat. ice kachang there is only 50cents hhaha.

met up with elmo and guess what he said when i called ???? "you at downstairs wait, let me sleep awhile more." KNS !!! box him ar. lucky got sherlene pei wo haha.

later we wait for judas even worse la !!!!! slept and wake up he also haven't reach yet.reach liao go canteen 1 eat yong tau foo jiu zhao =.= then i went back to hougang la, should have reached there long ago de lor haha.go do manicure, 36bucks fly =((( then when blowing dry keep hitting dao things, lucky the polish can push back, if not heart pain. got one i use my glitter to salvage it LOL !!! i am that clumsy la.

reached home with the pineapple eh dunno what. i ate it in taiwan before, so happy to find it in singapore, in school somemore !!! =))) everyday go buy haha. nice lor !!! hmmmm ... after munching so much, i feel drowsy haha, exact behavior of pigs =x

sooooooo .... have too wish you guys goodnight alrdy, have to make up for ytd's loss of sleep hehe. night !!!

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4/16/2007 10:58:00 PM

orientation was over on the 13th !!! like finally la !!!

1st day was really lame as expected. the usual ice-breakers and stuff. barry (someone from another group) sabo-ed me during double-whacko, sheryl announced me as her brother's ex-gf =.= blah blah, so we decided to pon the next day. thus, only 2 people in our group turned up on the 12th. got a call from carmen, our other OGL that i don't know, in the morning.

all of us felt really guilty when we came back on the last day LOL !!! but last day was more fun, just that i wasn't really in the mood to join in. so me, sheryl and elix (our new friend) went upstairs to join our seniors. actually me and sheryl quite bad la haha, last day still late cause we go configure our laptops, but ended up getting programs we don't need at all =.=

but this few days went well because of one person, and that is elmo. he was there for me whenever i needed help in school. he even agreed to help sheryl configure her laptop though he didn't even know her. when i lost my way, call elmo, when i don't know what to do, call elmo, when i need company, CALL ELMO !!! LOL !!! thanks dude !!!!

struggled through orientation quite fine just to find out that saturday was more of hell of me. worked from 12pm - 3pm, expecting a full house today cause it's weekend, and what's more, soft shell crab at 10cents for those with coupons !!! but end up not even half house cause it's raining cats and dogs out there.

had my 3 hr break from 3pm-6pm. nono msged me, i went to mac to watch drama that elmo put in for me, walked in SASA, and my shopping begins .... saw a nice bag there, but on second thoughts, since when SASA sell bags ?? but it reads "free bag for spending 20 dollars and above for cyber colour products" and also "blusher at $5.90 instead of $19.90 for expenditure abv $20, only for colours #12 and #13"

i didn't read the #12 and #13 part la, so i choose #9. but there was 30% off so nvm, colour more impt ma. bought mascara, blusher and compact powder. things like concealer, facial cottton and lip pencil all i forgot haha. those that i need more la. after all the discount, the merchandise only sums up to $47.20 :) good good, normally my compact powder itself would have cost that price haha, but i decided to change the brand cause ZA SUCKS !!!! make all your big pores look even more obvious.

went back to work as i had nothing to do. just as i was thinking there'll not be much people, i saw full house !!! DAMNED !!! work like fuck today, never stopped. top chef and supervisor in bad mood, keep scolding me =(((( arrow shoot here shoot there, so i had to siam. i just hissed at "hana!!!! tsk .... and safely escaped more tongue-lashings haha. after the peak period, during closing then they treat me very good liao, cook give me eat haha.

got this table de customer damn what lor, all the customers leave very long liao, left them only, can see we closing tables liao, then waiting to close theirs, still can down there slowly eat =.= until we almost finish closing then they go. TMD !! we already late for everything cause of full house liao, want make us cannot go home ar !!!! KNS !!! but almost all the customers very selfish today la.

everyone order alot, and tell us try to be very fast, so i said ok to entertain them, hoping that that will save us alot trouble. but no !!! they just won't leave us alone, so i tell them everyone also want fast, how we cook so fast ?? not magic ma. everyone same response "cook mine first la" KNS !!! who you think you are, order things one by one, all the order chits very messy lo, who ask you, so ma fan. and all of them are very very dirty eaters, their tables are like horrendous !!!!!

i remember telling kian siong that i hate customers during weekends, he say is prejudice, but now i can prove him wrong already, they really sucks !!! weekdays, the customers are so much nicer.

there is this lady who is a regular, she always wants to choose her seats though there's only 2 people. however, today i managed to lead her to the smaller seater and she actually followed me. i didn't know until my supervisor told me it was a miracle. cause normally she would just walk in on her own and sit wherever she wants LOL !!!! maybe she don't want bully newbie la haha. i'm also a regular anyway, maybe she see me before haha. REGUALR-UNITED!!! LAME !!! HAHA !!

but sadly, today's kar wai's last day. he's such a nice guy lor, no one to teach me patiently anymore =(((( he gave me a chocolate, mmmmm ... so sweet. don't think too much, he's attached haha !!! i was just exaggerating la.

waited damn long for the dishwasher to finish washing and eating his rice. 4 people wait for one, until 11pm lor haha. he come out kanna suan. parted ways and went home. phew !!! so tired after work, and also typing sucha long post. work tomorrow again !!!! weekend's customers !!! FAINTS !!!!

GOING TO PENG SAN LIAO !!! GOODNIGHT !!!!

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4/14/2007 11:33:00 PM

now i know why you ain't free most of the time, i also know why you seldom reply me already. i really got to know how little i mean to you,i can't believe your heart and feelings changed so fast. i really did not judge you wrongly, thank god. so to those who think that i'm being unfair, just FUCK OFF !!! who means alot to me is none of your fucking business, dont step in my life and gimme loads of nonsense please.

am meeting sheryl for orientation tomorrow, hopefully they wanna mahjong on thus or fri ba, not confirmed yet. i wanna have a good laugh, playing 1-2cents haha. =))) but i dread orientations and camps, cause i'm eff-ing anti social when i'm with many people i don't know. hopefully tomorrow goes on alright.

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4/10/2007 08:42:00 PM

hmmmm what should i say here. having moody days again, every single lil thing affects me. when i can't find anyone to go out with, i know that people don't like me. YEAH that's very true la. when people who used to always be by my side shuns me, i know that i did something wrong, and that is to neglect them for boyfriends.

boyfriends are such a wrong thing to have LOL !!! another issue i thought about was why people go "gaga" over those models in very skimpy clothings on magazines like FHM, MAXIM and so on.

i have this really jovial friend who was reading this MAXIM magazine and told me that he would like to meet some of the models or maybe miss maxim one day. so i wondered why. yes, i cannot deny that they look totally gorgeous (maybe not for some) on the front page or photos, but not to that extent where you need to meet them in real life to live on.

who knows what type of person they are, they can be really nice people or just some eff-ing bitches, maybe some cheapskate whores. ok, too serious haha. they look really good on magazines but maybe not in real life. i personally know quite a few models, and i agree that some of them are really just as pretty w/o makeup or even when they just had a hungover. however, they are also some models whom you cannot recognize w/o their thick and heavy makeup. if they are in slacks and some ragged t-shirt, they will just look like any obasan.

ok of course you can give your eyes some entertainment by flipping through these magazines, but don't get too obsessed over them la. pretty girls are almost everywhere, many different types of pretty, some of the girls in pasar malam also can look prettier than some models without makeup. so what do you think ??

maybe if you really wanna meet them, do it on roadshows or photoshoots, not when they are slopplishly dressed, you might be surprised with what you see. well well well .... models are photogenic, not miss perfect, so no point drooling over them all day. LOL !!! of course it's better than looking at me la. =pppp

the only thing i'm happy about is that i got many many off days this week but on a second thought, i'm not happy at all. cause i can't find any company, so i gotta rot at home. had sushi with kian siong today, very happy =))) long time since i had dinner with him. played pool with him and wei lun, was terribly disappointed with myself la.

when i learnt that someone got stead, somehow i felt kinda jealous. for no reason la haha, emotional upset. it's like you see you good friend who used to spend quite sometime with you, now have no time for you, even when he's with you, he's on the phone with her. yeah that feeling, but it subsided in 2minutes LOL !!!

why am i getting upset so easily nowdays ?? hmmmm. pretty left alone also, cause i've been working and sleeping, nothing else. other times are with my family, kinda neglected my friends =((( but am really too tired. even if one day got 48 hours also no use, don't even have time for myself. my complexion is getting worse, i'm growing more horizontally, things are in a messed, and damned school is starting !!!!!

i'm too used to holidays perhaps. gotta work tomorrow, but i miss you =((( SIGHS- that day is coming ................................ without you by my side.

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4/10/2007 01:55:00 AM

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when people feel bored, they look like this.

when they feel happy, they smile like this.

when they are up to no good, they grin like this.

when they feel slightly bonkers, they stick their tongues out like this.

when they are totally certified as a member of the IMH, that's what they become.

ok as you guys can see, that's what working does to me. totally tire me out and give me some occupational hazardous behavior and habits, like "smiling to myself". working in my line, go anywhere in your uniform, SMILE !! =.=

what you all may have noticed is that, my face has grown fatter over the months (DUH!!), my dark eyes rings and poor complexion esp in the last pic. yeah, for those of you who have not seen me for sometime, that's how i look like now, haggard.

am working morning shift later on, but i'm not asleep yet. god bless me please, i'm working with a supervisor who just came back from her honeymoon. she's rumoured to be really mean and fussy plus strict. i've seen her before, when i was a customer, now i'm a staff there, DIE !!! but then .... come to think of it, since she can marry off, shouldn't be so bad la hor =x

my schedule for this weekend is kinda messed up.

tomorrow, work till 3pm. meeting anyone for any purpose ?? mahjong or whatever ? forget liao.

sunday work till 3pm, meeting up with LC and elmo. ok this is confirm correct.

monday neh .... no work, but who i meeting ar ?? someone please remind me if this concerns u.

tuesday work at night, so nothing on.

wednesday, stupid orientation, anything on afterwards ?? dunno ...

thursday, still hesitating whether to go for orientation this day. go 1st and last day or just this day leh ???

friday, dunno want to go orientation anot. hmmmm ...... am i meeting anyone ??

weekend no need say, working 2 whole days. DIE !!!!

i sound rather busy and messy, well, yes i am. i am lifeless now. somehow memory is failing me recently, it's time to get enough sleep. with that iPod issue, i dont get to sleep at night, alot of calling and advertising to do.

so any kind souls can help me spread around ?? or buy from us even if somewhere else sells it cheaper ?? can guarantee u a brand new product and effective warranty plus exchange of any defective goods within 30days upon receiving it. PLEASE !!! =(((

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4/07/2007 03:09:00 AM