When People Say Goodbye

Been an emotional night for me. Both with Jason and nono. To Jason, thanks for all that you’ve taught me, I’ve realized it now, how willful was i. i know we will not be together already because it is very clear that your feelings have fade totally and all that you did to me was just a joke. since i have voiced out my part of the feelings, and you have agreed to stop the extreme, i guess it's more or less the end for us ?? though i don't wish to, but i'll do anything to make you happy.

GOD, please help me forget everything. make me okay once again. please ...

As for jarrel, don’t torture yourself, I’ll still be here.

Benny leh, I know u may sound harsh but I know it’s for my own good. Thanks for reminding me, I’ll try my best.

Many others may be thinking of killing me. They may hate me, scold me whatever. But who really knows what’s going on before they even shoot the bullets at me ?? so is it the one who initiates the breakup is the alleged ? when you think of his feelings and scold me, have u ever thought how I felt ?? why I broke up, what am I thinking. So everyone thinks that I broke up with him for no reason, I’m just toying.

NONO and SQ both are my ex. I know it’s a very short time I broke up with sq before I went with NONO, but there’s seriously no need to link the situations up. Many thought that I stead with nono because I broke up with sq and needed someone to depend on. HEAR THIS, I shall say it for the first and last time. both the rltsps are not interlinked, I did not get 2gther with either of them because of another.

So if all of you think that I’m feeling very good aft toying with them, please go bang the wall and die. I say that I’m currently missing someone but that doesn’t mean I’m getting into a new rltsp. And this guy I mentioned was my past. Though we are still friends, but we both made it clear that there’s nothing more than friends between us. And I believe I don’t deserve to have him nor anyone. And at the same time, he have no feelings for me. I will try to forget if I can, so stop those silly ideas of yours.

Spread rumours all u want. U may cause everyone to hate me, but I believe only my true friends will know really what type of person am i. But just beware, what goes around comes around.

As for my attitude, I’m trying to change. If u can’t wait, I never stopped u from leaving. It’s rather distasteful to have to voice this out on my birthday, sorry guys making this blog an unpleasant one to read.

ok now for the happenings. it's a rather boring day though. had chinese paper DAMN, of all days, it has to be on my birthday. after exams me and er jie went to the bookshop outside school to photocopy the book of notes as school bookshop's photocopy machine can't make it. while waiting, we had our lunch at coffeeshop. i was msging all the way while she was looking out for her darling. i gave her a chance to eat faster than me but she failed to =x

went to hougang point and saw wee nee, dee mei and wan rong. they gave me a very very makeshift birthday present, shal upload some pictures taken if i remember =x my blog is very wordy i know lols. under the influence of dee mei and wan rong, i went to buy kindersurprise to play. i bought 2 ok, lols. wanted to play with jason later on but justein was there too. he last minute tell me =( paiseh to play this type of things in front of ppl i not so close with so i gave the game a miss.

went to jason's house to meet up with them first. that stupid idiot bullied me la. was trying to be nice on my birthday, so he took advantage of it $#$#&*^%#@$ he strangled me, tickled me, pinched me and almost broke my neck. ABUSE !!!! HELP !!!! lols. after much dragging, jason finally went to bath. at that time, i already felt like sleeping, i love his bed, so comfy. then they successfully dragged me outta bed about 7pm. headed to kovan for thai express. ordered sooooo much food in the end they too full so they went out to smoke so that the food can digest. that stupid fat lady thought they wanna escape payment lols. she very unskilled la. sent the wrong food to our table twice can !!!! where got ppl blur until like that de, nv apologise somemore.

got my complimentary gift, a bottle of red wine. kind of budget one but still ok la. sat at void deck to chit chat. jason's 2nd hand smoke can choke me to death wahahaha. we sent justien to take cab around 9plus. jason dont wanna go home that early so he sent me home. fun with him but always kanna bully haha. no la, with my super rough character, i also bullied him quite a bit =p on the way walking home was kind of funny but i won't say what. i made an oath, if i do, i'll die in the hands of a ***** LOL !!!! just kidding.

simple yet happy day =) GONE

jolynn thinks.

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10/30/2006 10:22:00 PM

ok people, after u read all this, you may curse me for all u want. but kindly do it on the 31st instead.

i've let many people down, regardless whether they love me or not.

jarrel, i know u are very hurt and upset. i don't deserve your love, move on and forget about me. i'm sorry to spoil your 1st love, you may hate me for all u want. i'll never blame u.

jason, i never deserved your love as i've never learn to treasure you. i will not hinder you anymore. months ago u told me to move on, till now i still refuse to because i can never bring myself to love any other except you. however, since it's your choice, i'll keep my feelings for you buried deep in my heart and never take them out again. unless a miracle happens ...... which is the day when u want me back in your life. it's impossible right ?? so take care.

jolynn sucks, she's the biggest bitch ever. curse her, on the 31st

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10/29/2006 11:44:00 PM

i am damn fucking du lan now !!!! not because of mahjong but because of that bastard.

how many more regrets does he wanna leave in my life. i am already so miserable with him around, that's not enough ??? how much more does he want. i have already been very nice not to get back at him and yet he has to do this.

nvm, we'll just wait and see. looking forward to the day when i find him lying motionless on the floor with all his sense organs bleeding.

jolynn says "damn it."

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10/29/2006 12:21:00 AM

normal day for me. did not go study with di liang as his father brought him to his office. so woke up, cook noodles, watch tv and surf net until 3pm. slept till 4pm.

darling called to wake me up then chatted until 4.20pm. bathed and headed for tuition. bumped in to erjie and erjie fu when i got down the bus. keep kanna suan by him, aiya he always like that de lols. went to 7-11 buy chocolates, i cut their queue as i went to take sth else. SR suan me again but er jie protect me by saying that she "chop" the place for me haha. so touched.

got extra lesson on wed, how kind of mr seah =) aft tuition we went to mac but it was too packed as part of it is under renovation. went to the other side de mac, but still not opened yet, so we settled for KFC. i took very long to eat then started doing a-math. wanted to study language but still prefer doing math haha.

baby came around 9plus. got a few headache questions which all of us couldn't figure out. greedy pig went to eat cause he was tempted by ppl around him haha. so cute la. tmr baby only bringing 5bucks for mahjong, hope he wins this time :)

studied until 10plus then erjie's parents fetch us home. hubby had to go home along cause i dont want him to send me home as his bus fare very expensive. so i went home with er jie lor.

that's all for today. goodnight people.

jolynn mugs at last

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10/27/2006 11:38:00 PM

kind of satisfied with myself today. woke up at 10plus and chat on msn for awhile. bathed and headed to bao bei's school. met them at the bridge as leong chun was smoking. had western food at south canteen, the rice is nice =)

took a walk at block S where the labs are located. seems like they are my tour guides, quite interesting actually. i thought NYP was a boring place but now i feel that it is quite ok ba. leong chun got some kisses from my slipper haha.

studied at library. seems like darling and me always have disputes over humanities answer structure. well, diff teachers expect their students to follow a diff study method so we just leave each other on our own. but he got a2 for humanities, that i salute him =p see i got praise u one ok haha. BUT THEN HOR *whoops, he studies history which compliments the content and structure for SS, so he should be scoring that well haha. finding excuses to forgive myself la haha.

went to yishun with leong chun first as he had earlier dismissal then hubby. darling finished his assignments at 3plus but his stupid facilitator refuses to let him off. so me and leong chun went for initial d. been ages since i touched that. skills still as lousy but nvm. there's this guy standing behind with his friends.

friend: for a girl, her front of the map quite fast already.
him: so what front only ma, only that map, others she no use one la.

i was thinking, he must be quite fast that's why he comments on me like that ... perhaps i should have a challenge with him ...

later on, i terminated my game and went to the other machine intending to race with him and i saw that his standard sucks and not abit of basics was there. so i exclaimed loudly " front of the map already so slow, behind even worse, i think others he can go bang wall la .." and walked off with leong chun. what an arrogant bastard la haha. leong chun is one of the gods of initial D and he dares make that type of crude remarks to his friend. maybe he too noob to even recognise leong chun lols.

met darling at golden village, leong chun keep smoking can !!! damn it. bought tickets then went to LJS to slack. hubby got tempted by the aroma, what a pig haha. so he ate and i stole some of his fries haha. had a sudden craving for it. i did not visit the ATM so i was quite broke after paying for my ticket. darling so sweet and kind, he know that i wanted the fries so he bought another packet for me =) he knows how greedy am i haha. never can resist food.

kept lending jacket to bibi in cinema as he was cold. we ended up sharing the jacket. i keep rejecting his idea of sharing the jacket cause i scared me this fat pig will take up all the jacket and leave not enough for him. he so skinny la, how can leave him in the cold haha.

"deathnote" is an amazing production, seriously nice. those out there who haven't catch it, do give it a try, you will not regret. i am looking forward to "deathnote 2" in december.

went home after that, hubby accompanied me. argued about bus fares haha. knocked my head on the ceiling of the bus, ouch !!!! maybe i too tall =x haha. walked home, i miss hubby >.<

may be meeting friend to study tomorrow. if they cannot make it then i will study alone, more productive haha.

jolynn yawns

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10/26/2006 11:00:00 PM

today was real bored la. woke up at 12plus, ate cheese and drank chrysanthemum tea. watched VCDs. received a call from wee nee, saying that she's coming over to my house to pass me some stuff. i don't know what time she was coming so i took my time lor.

she reached when i was bathing halfway, sorry i was late. supposed to bring this poor girl to the doctor but ended up having her tagging along with me, searching high and low for a suitable and matching tee as my shirt was fugly. i could not stand that shirt sticking to my body for another second haha.

ate at food court, food i ordered was yucky. stomach ain't satisfied, but after drinking bandung, i felt damn bloated la. wee nee bought curry puff and we went up to play SSR. becoming more lousy. walked around the shops, ate water rise. then we sent wee nee to interchange as she was going to look for deemei. headed back for dessert, i eat alot i know.

played initial d and my skills suck la. went down to NTUC, bought food and many more. and the same thing happened again. argh, forget it. tio 4-D also not so accurate. i feel like venting but i'll do it somewhere else ba.

bumped into mummy on the way back. followed her all the way back to spectacle hut to collect her specs then went home. i hate going home la, cause of that man. f*** him.

jolynn feels i*s**u*e with you

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10/25/2006 09:30:00 PM

DAMNED FATHER, i hate him la %%^%^^%*&#$#$@@!##@$ graduation is once in a lifetime and he doesn't allow me to go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to him, as long as i go out after midnight i will get drunk and spiked, and next month tell him i'm pregnant is it !!!!!!!!!!!! f*** off la, you bloody control freak. please go bang the wall and die, none of you words make sense.

woke up still feeling damn du lan. not going to school until exams which is on my damned birthday.don't feel like bothering about anything. perhaps i should just fail exams this year, then graduated again next year. by then i'm pretty sure i can go, cause i'll kill him somewhere next year.

for 16years, i've been missing out on soooo much fun that a teenager has, all because of him i'll regret my whole life, and he still feels that he's right ?? don't wanna change his mindset. he says that he catches me staying overnight with anyone, that person gets it. come one la, what era already. and still dare to tell me that it applies even aft i'm 21 years of age. when i'm 21, i don't even need to fuck care u la bastard. say that i never even talk to you about graduation night, now i tell u about it, it's you who use this type of perspective to view it. you and your low-class thinking. and get your mind clear, i'm going to a prom, NOT A DISCO NIGHT. how am i going to talk to you when you are always containing that type of thoughts. when you dont want to put in effort to understand and compromise. you think the world evolves around you ?? you think things have to be the way you want it ?? if not for my age, i would have trample on you and kill you. you are the worse person i ever knew, murderers are better than you, a long-time torture and misery. never even fufil your responsibilities as a father and husband still dare to control us, showing your authority is it. but sorry, you don't have it. and mum is an adult, what right do you have to control her, think you very big ar. had never ever spend quality time with me, ask me go home so early for what, watch tv ar. you yourself not at home ask me go home for what. for the sake of your face la, want everybody to be at your command but too bad, u ain't worth the respect.

had nv contributed to the family, only brought more trouble. if you think living with us is so painful then leave la, nobody stopping you. we'll be much better off w/o you pretending that you have depression in front of us. even if you have, serve you right. who ask u to have stupid thinking.you are some stupid fool who believes whatever those idiots tell you outside. pray u get cursed and run over by a truck when u go out.

you have spoiled my life, my childhood. for the past 16years, i never lead a normal happy life that other fathers give to their child, isn't that enough?? and you still think that you have DONE A GREAT JOB. how shameless, still have the cheek to claim your credits. 1 month $500 to the family for all household usage, go eat shit. you can't even survive with $1000, let alone mention the household. selfish bastard. why bring so lil money home and expect mum to do everything for you, go to your mistress la, why can't she wash your clothes, mop your floor, satisfy your SPERMLESS DICK. freaking bastard. you are filthy rich but you just refuse to give money, please go out and fuck more woman, die with AIDS, it would be a celebration to the world.

threatening me that you haven't explode to your limits. and say that you'll do anything when you go bonkers. think yourself. where does my genes come from. what you are capable of, i am too. just that i don't go around threatening ppl like that, those who loves doing that, are the cowards. will never dare to explode, even when they do, it's just an act to scare off ppl, but i must say that, i've seen it for soooo many umpteenth times that i'm sick of it. always say that the biggest temper not there yet, WOW so scary. please la, no one is scared of you. if you don't want to see the knife cutting your hand again, you better fuck off from my life asap. you dont have to give any monetary compensations, as long as you disappear, it's good enough for me and mum.

once more i say, F*** YOU BASTARD, I HATE YOU FOR AS LONG I LIVE !!!!!!!!!!!

jolynn bites and kills

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10/25/2006 01:32:00 PM

this morning a pig woke up and thought to herself "should i skip school today ?? don't feel like going leh..." after some serious contemplating and predicaments, she finally hits her head and say "damn it la, today hari raya, i want go school also never open ar .." *falls back and snore away.

needless to say, that girl is none other than me, jolynn chew ben dan haha.

met darling at timezone around 2plus, saw jun long and jonathan there. after that was quite bad la. i was really scared but you just asked me to go ahead. i waited until bth so i just stormed off ignoring you, sorry >.<

when i'm scared who would be the one to protect me and curb my fear. does image takes importance over the risk ?? nvm, shall not depend on anyone to protect me, i should be protecting myself by abstaining from danger. but yet again, i failed. how useless can i be as a human, can't even defend myself. suan le, what done cannot be undone. perhaps wasting that few bucks ain't worth it afterall. wait for the good news ba.

*that fear hounding and thwarting in my mind, leaving me to only listen to the pounding of my heart beats.

darling sent me home after that. wanted to study on bus but couldn't. just kept crapping and crapping, whining about the rise and fall of venice. damn, o levels is less than a week away, and i HAVEN'T STARTED STUDYING !!!!!!!!!!!! note that i'm not revising, i'm still studying, no content no anything. but i don't feel the anxiety, wierd huh.

jolynn wants to cry :'(
*helpless one

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10/24/2006 10:39:00 PM

skipped school today, jing also. sorry er jie, u still have your lao gong right lols. woke up at 7plus, go also late what.

slept back, and wake up again at 11plus. zhuang4 wei3 ni2 called me and asked if i wanna meet up to collect my worksheets. i agreed but in the went to meet hubby as her phone was off thus not being able to contact her. shall collect it on wednesday instead.

met hubby at his house. we intended to catch "deathnote" on our own as leong chun ain't free today. but end up we lazy to go as the next show interval is at 6pm. so maybe wednesday or thurs we watch with leong chun.

mixed feelings about those moments. happy but i kind of ruined it. told darling some things when on my way home. sorry dear >.<

talking to him now while catching america's next top model. cya.

jolynn sobs

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10/23/2006 10:30:00 PM

this pot is for yesterday but again, due to internet connection, i couldn't post it.

Tiring day. Woke up around 10 plus in the morning, but cannot meet my baby =( dad was at home and mum did not allow me to go out.

Had some conflicts btw me and mum, forget it, 16 years with her always like that one. No courtesy and consideration one. she’s the best in the world, she sacrifices the most, everyone should hail to her, think of her feelings. But when she is facing others, she seems the nicest person, always thinking for others, never complaining. How fake. But anyway, this is not the point. I just don’t know why she have to do this to herself. Perhaps next time if she wears my shoe and spoil it, she should have some integrity to own up, not wait till I find out. Then she says:” your shoe old already so I take and wear lor, but the shoe lousy, wear awhile spoil already.” I was like WTH, I only wore it for once and she say it’s old, just admit that her leg is fat la. Cannot fit in still die die must use my things. Never ask somemore, just kept mum about it. She isn’t the mum I used to know.

Ate breakfast then my mum wanted me to follow her to airport. Another lame outing with relatives. I guess the purpose of my presence there is to look after that baby. Hyperactive and stubborn, had a hard time chasing him, got a few beatings from him too. His mum got worse la, he sticks to his mum so closely that she could not even have her dinner in peace, poor thing. If my child is like that, I will regret getting married.

Did nothing the whole day long, waste my time. should have just gone to darling’s house. I dislike my aunt too but that one special case, don’t say la.

Now I can’t meet my baby till Tuesday, thanks to that great and noble woman. Jason called just now but I was in the car sleeping, returned his call but he hung up on me =.=

Off to sleep la, wanna end this very bad day.

Jolynn frowns

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10/23/2006 12:13:00 PM

tata ~~ i'm back from my uncle's house :)

last night after tuition, baby came to find me about 9pm. studied at mac, so er jie and namira separated the tables from us, wth !!! haha. joke joke study study. both of them left at 10pm while i continued until about 10.30pm then darling fetched me home :)

baby woke me up at 11am today. being a pig, i was reluctant of course but i miss my darling too much x)) bathed and headed to his house.

on the way i asked if he wants me to ta pao lunch for him but he don't want so i also no mood to eat already. he say if i hungry then i can eat the leftovers from lunch later if there's still any left. so i said nvm, if not he sure eat lesser so that i can eat. i want my pig to be fat fat one. then i bought m&m and that was my lunch.

when i reached, i knocked his window but nobody opened the gate. no one was at the living room either. so i called and sms him but still cannot. so poor me, squat outside wait then don't know why, his mum came to open the door haha. so my cute lil pig was bathing la haha.

played icy tower as recommended by namira, quite addictive, my highest score is only 24xx, dear played half an hr only, his score is 2480 and his max combo is like 35 ?? wth. slacked around in his house then went over to jason's place.

his dog keep wanting me to carry her, clinging to my leg. HER NAILS ARE SHARP !!!! so i got some scratches. started mahjong badly, was losing alot. then after that i do all those bian tai the stunts then keep winning. 4 tai 5 tai blah blah blah. mostly darling hit gimme one =p thanks haha. our mahjong fund.

play halfway, girl girl went missing, so everybody rushed out of the house to look for her. nobody brought their phones haha. jason's mum told me to find downstairs can already, she afraid of heights so won't climb upstairs. after some searching, i went up with his mum. guess what, we found her sitting quietly at their neighbour's doorstep waiting for her "boyfriend". the doorstep was blocked by the wall so we could not see her.

rushed downstairs to call all of them up but i cannot find them. at first is find dog, then find human haha. darling came up after 15mins, but we waited for jason and jasmine for almost an hour. they sian half cause they walk very far yet the dog was just next door lols. jasmine cried :( she must have loved the dog alot.

continued our mahjong session until 8plus. at the end i lose abit cause i was already winning 30+ bucks, not very nice ma. luckily bao bei won some. jasmine today bad luck, lost $25.80 almost all to me i think so. i'm probably the only winner there ba. won about $26 so i gave hubby $6 to recoup his capital. we two must go home at least with our capital, never losing. but he use the money to buy mac haha. what a pig, nvm as long as he eats :)

i waited for the 9mins train instead of 2mins cause hubby complained that he was bored so i kept him company a lil while more. saw dharma, he was going to boat quay.

on the way to jurong, hubby smsed me, he said he want to make me happy everyday and see me smile =p so sweet haha. he always nagging me to study but when i study we always end up playing, don't know why haha.

mum asked me to buy fruits to pray for tomorrow. went to NTUC, all the fruits not nice. so no choice, picked a few ok ones. the fruits very heavy can !!!!!!!!!!!!!! carry until some nerves sangneh. my uncle twisted it back of course.

cabbed home, cooked noodles to eat as i was starving. the bee tai ma was my only diet for the day. sleeping soon, cya guys.

jolynn yawns

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10/22/2006 12:55:00 AM

ok i admit, i ponned school today. when i woke up at 6 this morning, i didn't laze in bed or what, i went to the toilet but came out in a second. i sat on the sofa in mum's room and mumbled "mummy, i don't feel like going to school leh." so she told me to stay at home if i wanna skip school. :) having tuition at 5pm, after tuition then go wander about.

bowen's timetable seriously suck like hell la. people are having study breaks already, and they still want us to go back to school. even if we go back, teachers do not come in our classes to teach, they are analysing results of our juniors. so "o" levels not important enough for them to put away some time for us ?? then what's the purpose of going back, when not even revision papers are given out. DAMNED.

ate the cake my mum bought from breadtalk, "chantilly" was superb. it is a fruit cake, look quite normal, but btw the cream they put bits and pieces of fresh fruits and the sponge cake is very well made. i prefer fruit cakes that are of that combination and colour i guess. that's what my mum finally noticed after 16yrs of living with me. mango cheese cake will be nice too. i'm thinking of getting a cake and simply celebrate my birthday this yr, anyone wanna come ?? =p

went to hougang mall for lunch. i can really eat alot. the cake isn't very small but later on, i bought yong tau foo and fish porridge to share with my mum. i ate most of it as mum wasn't hungry. then went down for dessert, dried beancurd water with barley and gingko nuts plus mango with pomelo and sago. alot huh? that's not all can.

went down to NTUC and bought the trolley of stuff. eggs, cheese, ham, yakult :) , cuttlefish, broccoli, ginger, oil, mushroom, many more la. and now, i've already finished the ham. later gonna cook broccoli for dinner before i leave for tuition. WHAT A PIG.

borrowed books from the library and went home. not meeting my baobei today again :( i miss him soooooooo much. when he learnt that i was having serious relapses and ain't feeling well, he said that he wanted to pon and look after him. as much as i wanted him by my side, i of course rejected. all his lessons today are too impt, not some crappy lectures. i guess it'll be ok as relapses only last for 3-4hours i think. gonna meet him tmr =p

jolynn eats and eats and eats

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10/20/2006 03:02:00 PM

Bad bad day. Had “o” level science practical today. Kept my phone in my locker instead of surrendering it =x

Physics paper was a total mess, I’m referring to the questions set. The range given and the range they require us to experiment was not equal and the t2/s2 so confusing la. Not facilitated unlike past year’s papers. I got 12.1m/s2 for acc of free fall, so out already la. One mark gone.

Chemistry was actually ok but the last question screwed my day up. Here it goes:

How can you obtain zinc sulphate in its crystalline form when given zinc oxide.

The answer should be something like “ add in sulphuric acid and heat mixture. Leave solution to cool and evaporate on an evaporating dish. Dry and clean the crystals when the solution is evaporated leaving only the residue there.”

My answer was “ using iron sulphate, mix it with zinc oxide. Filter the precipitate formed with a funnel and filter paper. dry the crystals on an evaporating dish.”

WHAT has it gotta do with displacement reaction !!!!!! I didn’t know how to answer it so I used theory. W/o realizing that sulphate can replace oxide as only nitrates can dissolve all metals ions. I did not study so I totally forgot about sulphuric acid. Er jie still showed me the notes she had and told me how wrong am I, so cruel la.

Stayed in the hall for sooooooooooooo long as we were in the first shift. Still had to wait till other schools shifts to finish which is about 1.30pm. and danapal was all the while in the hall. So I hid behind namira and slept. Later on went over to si jie’s side to talk rubbish and gossips haha.

I ate a lot today, seriously too much.

Two sausage bread in the morning.

When in quarantine I ate pocky, cuttlefish, hello panda, sweets, chocolates and strawberry milk.

After exams, I had chicken rice, and fishball noodle. Double what I usually eat.

Went home and ate the whole packet of rice.

I don’t know why I just feel hungry all the time though my tummy never shrinks. Normally when I’m hungry I’ll lose about an inch. But today it just kept adding on but yet I’m still hungry. Stress syndromes ??

Stayed back in school, wee nee took sooo long to walk home to retrieve her phone. Went for choir. My voice seriously sucks now. Crack here and there, note range has decreased, support very lousy but still long-breathed la haha. While walking outta school, the ones who had more training sang together. We sec4s , some sec3s, chu ping and another jolin sang together. The chord we striked was kind of pleasant so I think the juniors just can’t get the right mechanism and commitment to feel for the music. Their techniques not mastered properly. Hopefully they’ll do well for their competitions and performances to come. I envy them as they have so much more exposure to professional refined arts than what we had in the past. They have overseas workshop by famous people, watching a hundred concerts, clinicians and many more other tip-top people to coach them. My wish is for them to live up to the name and strive for a gold in nexy yr’s SYF. Good luck guys, I miss choir truckloads.

Am very tired now. Shall retire the day early. Sleeping at 8.30pm sounds nice haha. Take care guys, ciao.

Jolynn frowns.
*wasted practical marks

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10/19/2006 08:31:00 PM

thanks to baby's umpteenth reminder, i finally got the thing that "practical's tmr" in my head. so i'm here to remind everyone though it's kinda late. he has been nagging at me for a million times so that i'll rmb my calculator as i left it out during prelims.

many posts today. mainly thanks to some idiot who passed silly comments on racheal's tagboard that helped me developed a passion for tagging which i didn't have in the past. so i cannot understand the accusation she's making. using anon2, 3 and 4 trying to pose as diff people and the time span btw each post of the diff people is like less than 2hrs?? so probably she posted it at diff times of her net surfing period. trying to compose arguementative essays on tagboards with many loopholes an idiot can identify. attempting to anger me by telling me that many hate me for blog hopping and tagging in their blogs. i admit that i blog hop alot but i don't tag many. at most 3 out of 10 and i tag about their post. so retardedly, she called it "spamming". like whatever haha.tell me to get my facts right, but she was the one who stirred up a commotion first and the one to make noise first. since she has talked so much, i would rather she revealed her own name. perhaps i think she said sth that she thinks may shame her but it's too late. that's why she masking herself till now.

"many hates u, u know" quoted from her. erjie's teaching can come into use now. "speak for yourself not others" haha. but i think an idiot wouldn't understand too much of that.

well enough of whining. treat this as an exposure to brain-deformed retards and attention-deprived idiots.

goodnight guys, thanks for wasting your effort reading about idiots =p

jolynn hits the hay

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10/18/2006 11:25:00 PM

should not have gone to school today. when i woke up, i kept telling myself i had to go to school. it still feels like holiday somehow.

there were 2 periods of chinese, 5 periods of eng, 4 periods of math. all the subj teachers were in school but none of them came in can. what a waste of our time. today's attendance was like half only? for the whole day, we only crapped, slept and played. i did a-math for an hour. relative velocity got us quite stuck but there were no teachers to teach us. quite unproductive day. i self-dismissed myself before the bell rang then went home to bath.

went NYP to look for him. the students there seem to be able to distinguish btw poly and secondary students, despite me wearing home clothes of about the same style. many who walked pass me stared, but darling told me there was nothing wrong and i probably look younger than the majority. but alot of people used to tell me i look old. boooo

reached yishun. actually we intended to watch movie but both of us had no mood to so we ate at LJS. slacked in northpoint or rather, timezone. played beat mania and initial d. my skills still suck like hell, i doubt i can be qualified for UGC. tried DDR too. the controller to sucky la, scammed our money, and the lighting seriously do not suit people with agstimatism.

accidentally slapped desmond, sorry. went to lan shop with MK and friend. dear disturbed an indian boy, not racist joke though. fell asleep while watching them play dota. thank goodness baby doesnt play lan. MK played until tu lan don't know why, luckily no fights nor arguements were triggered.

about 6plus, we went to 925 to EAT again. but i ordered rojak only cause i was still quite full. stole ming kang's food haha. ri ming came, he reprimanded me for stealing his food too.who sits at the same table as me very unlucky, you can never pay for value haha.

wei xiong passed by, and i taunt him with *** ** again haha. then talked alot of crap, wei xiong's friend very nice to argue with haha. talk to him can improve debate. they drank beer with salt and claimed that it'll be more cooling. but i thought guys shouldn't be taking cooling stuff??? later low sperm count haha. then they bragged about secondary school stuff. so i tried a mouthful of salted beer haha. taste quite nice leh, won't feel bloated like when you usually drink. darling tried very lil cause he cannot adapt to alcohol.

after that walked back to his house there de bus stop. but he sent me home in the end though i didn't allow. i think it's because of my whining about how much i loathe taking a bus home when i'm lazy. reason being, i always have those smelly guys and bangalas sitting beside me, and that i will fall asleep and no one will wake me up. in addition, it takes quite long and i'm impatient. so no choice, hubby insisted that he will send me home. waste bus fare :( my attempt to escape failed la. forget it.

crapped alot about injuries like fracture blah blah blah. crapped until reached stadium there. walk home still crapping. played swing awhile and made darling giddy haha. so he sent me up and went off. i took so long to reply his msg just now. sorry. please go get some food for your growling stomach ok? please never lose anymore weight, you are already skin and bones.

will be meeting my baby much less often already as exams are around the corner. tmr i'll be staying back in school, fri there's tuition though darling has half day off from school, sorry. whole of next week will be dedicated to education. whole of next week not meeting until the 31st. awwwwwwww.... so sad. but i have to combat this battle, and aft this, it'll be so much easier. finding a job in either boutiques, childcares, popular(inspired by SR) or maybe doing business(no confidence, not likely that type of person). jason gonna bring me to his company for a lookabout after exams, hopefully i'll gain some interest then.

25th and 26th,er jie has chalet. 22nd there will be a prom which i most likely won't go. organised by the E2 clique, thanks but have to refuse due to overwhelming post exams activities haha. 16th and 17th dec another chalet by team moron. which one shall i stay overnight?? i think dec's chalet i won't be going as no one asked also haha. dont auto turn up better, maybe go down play play awhile nia. er jie chalet i still comtemplating haha. she poor thing, have to sleep on her own lols.

jolynn dreams of a holiday

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10/18/2006 10:41:00 PM

should not have gone to school today. when i woke up, i kept telling myself i had to go to school. it still feels like holiday somehow.

there were 2 periods of chinese, 5 periods of eng, 4 periods of math. all the subj teachers were in school but none of them came in can. what a waste of our time. today's attendance was like half only? for the whole day, we only crapped, slept and played. i did a-math for an hour. relative velocity got us quite stuck but there were no teachers to teach us. quite unproductive day.

i self-dismissed myself before the bell rang then went home to bath. went NYP to look for him. the students there seem to be able to distinguish btw poly and secondary students, despite me wearing home clothes of about the same style. many who walked pass me stared, but darling told me there was nothing wrong and i probably look younger than the majority. but alot of people used to tell me i look old. boooo

reached yishun. actually we intended to watch movie but both of us had no mood to so we ate at LJS. slacked in northpoint or rather, timezone. played beat mania and initial d. my skills still suck like hell, i doubt i can be qualified for UGC. tried DDR too. the controller to sucky la, scammed our money, and the lighting seriously do not suit people with agstimatism.

accidentally slapped desmond, sorry. went to lan shop with MK and friend. dear disturbed an indian boy, not racist joke though. fell asleep while watching them play dota. thank goodness baby doesnt play lan. MK played until tu lan don't know why, luckily no fights nor arguements were triggered.

about 6plus, we went to 925 to EAT again. but i ordered rojak only cause i was still quite full. stole ming kang's food haha. ri ming came, he reprimanded me for stealing his food too.who sits at the same table as me very unlucky, you can never pay for value haha.

wei xiong passed by, and i taunt him with *** ** again haha. then talked alot of crap, wei xiong's friend very nice to argue with haha. talk to him can improve debate. they drank beer with salt and claimed that it'll be more cooling. but i thought guys shouldn't be taking cooling stuff??? later low sperm count haha. then they bragged about secondary school stuff. so i tried a mouthful of salted beer haha. taste quite nice leh, won't feel bloated like when you usually drink. darling tried very lil cause he cannot adapt to alcohol.

after that walked back to his house there de bus stop. but he sent me home in the end though i didn't allow. i think it's because of my whining about how much i loathe taking a bus home when i'm lazy. reason being, i always have those smelly guys and bangalas sitting beside me, and that i will fall asleep and no one will wake me up. in addition, it takes quite long and i'm impatient. so no choice, hubby insisted that he will send me home. waste bus fare :( my attempt to escape failed la. forget it.

crapped alot about injuries like fracture blah blah blah. crapped until reached stadium there. walk home still crapping. played swing awhile and made darling giddy haha. so he sent me up and went off.

i took so long to reply his msg just now. sorry. please go get some food for your growling stomach ok? please never lose anymore weight, you are already skin and bones.

will be meeting my baby much less often already as exams are around the corner. tmr i'll be staying back in school, fri there's tuition though darling has half day off from school, sorry. whole of next week will be dedicated to education. whole of next week not meeting until the 31st. awwwwwwww.... so sad. but i have to combat this battle, and aft this, it'll be so much easier. finding a job in either boutiques, childcares, popular(inspired by SR) or maybe doing business(no confidence, not likely that type of person).

jason gonna bring me to his company for a lookabout after exams, hopefully i'll gain some interest then.

25th and 26th,er jie has chalet. 22nd there will be a prom which i most likely won't go. organised by the E2 clique, thanks but have to refuse due to overwhelming post exams activities haha. 16th and 17th dec another chalet by team moron. which one shall i stay overnight?? i think dec's chalet i won't be going as no one asked also haha. dont auto turn up better, maybe go down play play awhile nia. er jie chalet i still comtemplating haha. she poor thing, have to sleep on her own lols.

jolynn dreams of a holiday

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10/18/2006 09:58:00 PM

Once tagged by this entry, the assignment is to write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself.
Then, pick six of your friends and tag them; no tag backs.

1. approaching my 16th year of life *hint =p
2. enjoys cultural and refined arts mostly about voices.
3. want to own a kindergarten of my own.
4. 3 kids and a happy life with my husband.
5. hopes to get into ECH for poly.
6. ok la, i love jarrel =p too mushy?? haha.

people to do this:
-JARREL =p
-gwen
-prunella
-guo jing
-sQ lols.
-lance !!! *sorry you again haha

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10/18/2006 09:34:00 PM

once again, happy first month to me and my darling. half an hour more jiu official already =)

sneaked outta the house at 6plus. wanted to buy chocs for baby before i head to his house but all the shops were close. bought breakfast for myself as darling didn't want to eat. reached at abt 7plus.

ate and sleep. at first baby kept disturbing me, so i said "grrrrrrrrrr..." then don't know why he stopped already lols. two of us slept like logs on the floor haha. i wanted to sleep on the floor first cause let his mum see us hugging together sleep like very what ma. later on hubby joined me on the floor too, i don't know why.

being very tired, i slept until almost 10 but by that time, darling already bath and got ready. he had such a hard time waking me up la haha. walked to alex's house then i buy chocs on the way =p

his ah ma went out in the morning, so we za ri ming's phone ask him to come over. we played 3 people mahjong first. when he reached, we briefly taught him more about mahjong then started the game. he play until like wanna sleep like that lols. after that alex's grandmother took over when she came back. won 13 bucks today. could have won more but alex and ri ming "ke" all my big wins. BOOOO~~~~

alex's grandmother and him always smoke while playing. then i had a relapse. but his grandmother's 2nd hand smoke kept blowing at me. i'm like inhaling it for 3 hours, now still got that feeling in my lungs. :(

finished the game at 6pm then darling sent me to the bus stop to go back meet my mum. he left the chocs at alex's house. :( meet my mum, ate ichiban sushi, then went to spectacle hut to make her specs. wanted to buy bag but mum nag and nag, so i gave it a miss. rather buy myself rather than next time let her use it to trample me over some stupid issues.

went home, bath, now sleeping soon. haze is really bad, people try to consume more products that are good for lungs and maybe sniffing products that may help clear passage ways. i'm already filling a lil choky, so take care guys. drink more water.

jolynn smiles
*love love

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10/17/2006 09:31:00 PM

my 3rd fav photo, all-time fav too. cute reactions haha.

2nd fav photo, i look younger and baby looks horsey LOL !!!

darling so engrossed, breaking a singapore record =p

happy moments, real happy.

baby looking "si wen"

my 1st fav photo =)

THE BEST MEMORIES

blogger doesn't allow me to upload anymore =( don't know why. but i guess these are enough to show my happiness with my baby. =) i love you. 17o9o6

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10/17/2006 12:13:00 AM

happy 1st month to me and my darling !!!!! WEEEEE~~~

time flies so fast, i wouldn't say we've been through thick and thin but it's still alot. many more challenges coming up, school, work, exams, etc. though u may not be the affectionate kind of guys but u care with your heart. u may not make times the most special but u create a significance in everyday that no one could. u may not be romantic but u are able to make me head over heels with you. i love you jarrel, my one and only baby =) happy 1st month to us ("v")

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10/17/2006 12:09:00 AM

today's a relatively normal day. a little more boring and less happening.

woke up at 6am and dozed off again as usual. no school today as it's marking day. awaken by darling's msg at 9plus. but dad was still at home so i slept again. finally woke up around 2plus. took a quick lunch and rushed to darling's school as his lecture was starting soon.

did less than 3 questions of a-math. the function question that i didn't know how to do, even the top a-math student there also don't know haha. the lecturer there was ok but hubby kept complaining haha. fussy lil boy. slept halfway through. talked about VPL and things.

after school actually intended to go out with his classmates but in the end went back to yishun. met ri ming and jonathan then went to 925 for dinner and 928 for dessert. while eating my dinner, it rained halfway so i moved to the shelter and eat standing up haha. who ask me eat so slow.

went to darling's house with ri ming after that. ri ming so lame, play maple haha. then me and hubby playing cat raping games =p i won ok lols. ri ming bth us, he left around 8pm. me and darling continued fighting haha. finally went home around 9plus. my silly boy keep blushing haha. i told u i will win :) guys out there, don't think too much la wahahahha.

meet my mum at interchange about 10plus then walked home. bath clean clean, sit here and blog while my pig's already asleep haha. what a pig.

tmr's mahjong and that stupid ah pui don't wanna play cause he no money. last min then say. must be initial d play too much right. nvm, so we going to alex's house and play with his ah ma haha. so wierd can, playing with someone half a century older haha. hope to have fun tmr, don't win nvm, just don't lose too much haha.

jolynn smiles at the sweetest times

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10/16/2006 11:03:00 PM

sian, today and tomorrow is marking day. but hubby's school start already, so bored la. i woke up at 6plus intending to accompany him the whole day in school. but i drifted off again >.<>

no idea what to do there. but i just wanna see him =p revise social studies ba. anyone wanna acc me ??

jolynn yawns

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10/16/2006 12:26:00 PM

second post for the day. actually is first cause it has passed midnight.

obviously i'm bored. baby's starting school tomorrow. boooo =( lesser time with him. i spammed most of my friends in msn, but everybody said they won't be buying me a present except sQ. am i like some nobody, haha, almost all of them say that they lazy to save up for my present. 1 tissue paper also will die ar.

thanks at least he made it a teeny wheeny bit better haha. jason say he meet me after school, probably to play pool or slack haha. at least got ppl accompany me =) in every thunderstorm, there's always a reason to smile =)

haven't started studying for exams, maybe i have but very little. rejected erjie's offer to study at her house tmr, sorry. i'm making efforts to accompany him more. unless i bore him then don't say la haha.

going down to nyp tmr. sQ and leong chun, look for me when u are bored, i can attend your lectures with u if u want haha.

*left alone? the insignificant one

jolynn boooossss

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10/16/2006 12:41:00 AM

back from a short mahjong session =) went out kinda late today because dad was still at home, damned. went to interchange for lunch.

met baby at yishun and went to jason's house. played mahjong with his wife, sis-in-law, mum and aunt. quite interesting. losing alot at first then we won back all. so next time probably me and darling will be playing mahjong on the same table =p

jasmine's sister very shiok sia. she asked money from her dad. normally our parents will give abt 20bucks or less. she got $50, then she say not enough, took $100 !!!! wow. haha

on the way home, we talked abt coming up with a mahjong fund haha. the money we win will be kept then use for our meals. great idea, but means that i will have to sacrifice my shopping and special purchases lols. but nvm la, it's ok =) baby sent me home. reached er jie's house downstairs, baby carried me this fat pig until stadium there wahahaha. must be tiring for him as he was panting. he said that it was training, but with such a weight, i think he can die lols.

everywhere de shop close, can't buy drinks as i had no shillings to buy from vending machine. in the lift, it was kinda sweet of him. though it may sound normal but the coincidence and uncertainty were really beautiful. that moment of sweetness swept me off my feet so much that i forgot my phone =x

now darling msged me to say that he had missed a 854 bus. the uncle didn't even wait for a few more steps. bloody hell, never die before lols.

jolynn go beat up the uncle. =p

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10/15/2006 09:52:00 PM

"ang ang ang" =x wee nee you didn't see this right haha. i almost forgot, friday at cold storage i saw miss suan haha. scary seh, everywhere also see her, northpoint, hougang mall, town, everywhere !!!! she haunts me man.

wahahaha, today baobei waked me up around 9plus. then i faster bath jiu go his house le, scared he hungry haha. i dashed outta the house my mum thought what sia haha. she was bathing and i didn't even say "bye" sorry haha.

reached darling's house but he still wanna sleep haha. so i just went ahead to prepare food. then he joined me cause he didn't wanna miss out fun =p he's my kitchen assistant haha, pass me the ingredients i need. laughing at my amatuerity (spell wrong?) so i digged out the fish's stomach let him see lols. then play alot haha.

when the food was cooking, baby kept saying it smelt very nice haha. but when it came to eating, he said ok nia lols. bath already then eat. the food cold le ba lols. his sister only eat the fish and soup. no wonder so skinny wahahaha.

later on his friend msned him so i imposed as my darling and ka jiao him haha. then he got quite confused. his friends asked us to go parklane so he agreed. at first i was protesting cause i was wearing shorts, too ugly to go town area what. in the end i wore the shirt hubby bought at giordano the other day and just went down. weather was really warm man.

sat his friend's car. not enough seats so i sat on baby's leg. i too "tall" already keep banging the roof. then stupid jason, keep doing rough turns, later i become stupid fail my exams then u know haha. slacked at "the coffee connoiseur", yak yak yak. then went to snookerium play pool. my skill sucks !!! but enough to win wei xiong x)))

played initial d also. then went to eat fried wanton mee. so awful la the food. and the hygiene there is terrible, the uncle's attitude also abit off. what a small world, wei xiong's xin ai de ren is my baobei (a girl la) wahaha. then ka jiao him lor.

after that me and darling went off. took train to jurong. thanks for accompanying me again =) with you, time passes so fast haha. asked my uncle some things and trained home.

off to watch tv, bye guys =p

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10/14/2006 11:56:00 PM

"kochi kochi" =p jolynn's here again. today's school was a waste of time. maths totally did nothing can. got extra recess. ate rice, crackers and soya bean milk. alot huh.

during physics, i slept all the way. as class attedance was bad, there were alot of empty seats. so i pang seh er jie move to behind to sleep through the lesson. sorry >.<>

then recess again. i ate chicken rice and green tea. so fat la, eat sooooo much can. within 2 hours lor. brought er jie's green tea up too late, dui bu qi again =(

went home and did some facial cleansing. yesterday just bought the stuff. been some time since i did some maintainence to my face, realise my complexion is getting worse by the day.

read "journey" by low khay hua. then went out to yishun of course to meet darling. wei jie, yong hui, jonathan, ri ming, desmond and many many people were there but i'm not sure abt their names. played initial d, usui left wet improved but tuban remains.

usui --> 2,50,xxx
tuban --> 2,41,0xx near to my best timing which is a 2,40,xxx

went to 925 eat later on. ate early today cause was hungry again =.= really pig la. went back timezone. nb, played with desmond and the scar so big can. ri ming they all go find don't know who de so me and darling walk walk in cold storage. ri ming and other guys actually wanted to go dar dar's house on tues as i was cooking lunch then play mahjong. but we changed it to tomorrow because mahjong and cooking 2gether too rush liao.

walked back to his house to put down things. then see what need to buy de. strolled to khatib ntuc and bought alot things haha. the aunties were like laughing cause we look like newly-weds lols. then i taught hubby abit about marketing for food haha. so that next time when we are married, i don't need to do it =p hehe.

forgot to take the sweets from him, blur me lols. now talking in msn. cya guys.

jolynn had a happy day.

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10/13/2006 10:16:00 PM

today's school was really really boring. didn't pay attention for chemistry, asking lil bit of ques when i don't know almost everything. ate alot for recess, not surprising. maths was okok lor. no lessons, nowdays is like consulting period. did a few a-math question and my "stuff".

MIRACLE

i didn't sleep for social studies at all and i actually took down alot of notes wahahaha. *claps

after school i went to take $$$ then bought bubble tea. went back to school ate noodles and chicken wings, PIG !!! stayed back in school till 7plus to do social studies. but didn't so much. 2 SBQ and 1 SEQ question only. very slack but better than ytd =)

after that went home to bath and went out with mum for dinner. and i have to tell everyone:

never dine at cafe cartel at hougang mall

reason being, the grilled chicken i ordered was only 60% cooked ok. i gave feedback to the manager but i told them that i didn't want a replacement cause i'm full already. so she said she will give me 10% discount off the bill. when she showed it to the kitchen crew, their feedback was "it is almost cooked and edible already. no blood oozing out."

i really feel like effing them upside down la. it is very obvious that the meat is still pink, if it's almost cooked, it should be a mixture of white and pink. and half the cutlet isn't cooked, the other half that was thinner is ok. i think they didn't defroze the meat long enough. i shoot them off by telling them: since when uncooked frozen meat will have blood?? totally nonsense can, frozen stuff no blood one even if it's raw la. i cook ok, trying to make me buy their story. ask them to eat it themselves la. i even have difficulty cutting the meat la.

when we were paying the bill, they only gave us a discount off that damned dish instead of the bill as promised. only $1.50, take and throw their face la. service is like so bad can. i didn't even eat the chicken can. me and my mum decided never to step into cartel again unless it's at other outlets but most probably there'll be no more cafe cartel for us. should have heed baby's advice not to eat there in the 1st place.

the fish and chips was actually quite nice, but the chicken spoiled it all. went to watsons to buy my facial products later on. 60 plus bucks just fly like that. but it's not my money la =x

talking to darling now. miss him soooo much. don't get to see him for 2 days leh. hao xiang ni.

jolynn vomits, curses and swears !!!

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10/12/2006 10:05:00 PM

am very happy today. though school was kind of boring. skipped chinese lessons, slept in class. nobody woke me up for recess, damn it. eng test was diff, even "daryl" says so, so if i fail, i won't get too demoralised =p maths was ok, andrew yeo seems to be in a good mood today. chatted alot.

stayed back in school to acc wee nee. i actually intended to go home 1st but i don't wanna pangseh her alone. "studied", maybe only she did. miss huang joined us later. sec2s were damn noisy. though i wasn't exactly revising but it was real irritating la. "daryl" arrived then we headed to hougang mall.baby joined us after that. erjie couldn't make it as she had tuition with her bro. next time perhaps.

crap the whole lot. or was it only me and "daryl" attempting to rebutt each other. had dinner at HANS, and ice cream at gelare. very very filling dinner. they went home, so me and darling walked home.

we played at the playground. swing and swing until we were so dizzy. so we sat on the floor like idiots as nobody normal person would sit on the ground in front of the swing instead of the swing itself. then sat at the other corner of the playground and crapped alot alot. talked about secondary school times blah blah blah. until 10pm then i went up. took a very long time to wash up and bath. feeling so clean and nice. i don't like school because you get the very sweaty and annoying odour.

every moment spent with you is like a dream come true. the magical kisses planted on my cheeks sends the blood of joy down my spine. i love you as everyday passes and will not stop even when time ends. jarrel choo yu wen, you are mine =p

jolynn laughs

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10/11/2006 10:30:00 PM

Woooooooooooooohoooooooooooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!! today was such a good day haha. Physics was real boring, but PE of course nice =) did do some exercise though I’m lazy. Recess ate chicken rice with guo jing, yum yum. Eng very very slacked, talk talk talk only. Actually wanted to pon for F&N but kanna caught =x so talk a lot of crap with sumayah.

After dismiss I msged baby. So went over to his house to play mahjong. He was losing badly, so I helped la. Managed to win 90cents back only. So he lost $11.50 lols. Then restart game, won about $13.20 but count wrong then I only got back $10.50 haha. Nvm la, lil bit nia. Po4 qian2 xiao1 zai1, my mum teach one =p could have won more but towards the later part of the game, I no mood play already if not can win 20plus de. But where got ppl lucky throughout game de. Aiya, don’t be greedy la.

Darling sent me home, walked stadium again. Went to sports complex to eat lil things cause he was very hungry. Scared he cannot take it. Saw ghim hian and chong guang ( forgot his name=x ). I sudden back att ghim hian lols. He still owes me blue black wahahaha. Then went home lor. He sent me up to my house then I press a lot of storey de button then he and to wait very long for lift to come =x paiseh.

Now going to bath then sleep le, still on the phone with him though. Haha cya guys.

Jolynn smiles.

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10/10/2006 10:12:00 PM

happy birthday to lynnette chua !!!!

this post is dedicated to me er jie because her birthday is just half an hour away. she's a great friend, sister, confidant, etc. now that she's older than me, i'm all the more happier =p *whoops.

anyway just to wish her a great birthday. have fun tmr x))))

xiao mei wishes her er jie shi shi soon li, shen ti jian kang =)

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10/09/2006 11:39:00 PM

WEEEEE~~~ the happy girl is here to blog again haha. dear makes me so happy, though we do not exactly do lovey-doveys but we still feel comfortable with each other and enjoy the company. i feel at ease with him, and it's the mild sweetness that makes it all a bliss. perhaps this is called love?? not those sudden urging type but those that builds slowly and steadily =) aiya, in other words, i'm happy and in love ("v") wahahaha.

should have ponned school today but nvm.

firstly, i didn't know that so many people plus the teacher never come.
secondly, i'm a good girl.
thirdly, i'm the best student a teacher can ever find =x

haha, i'm thick-skinned i know. i started skipping chinese lessons since 2weeks ago. because i re-take just to try my luck. i'm ok with an a2 but it will of course be better if i have an a1 haha. so can slack slack abit since the teacher don't teach at all. i find that i'm focusing alot on maths instead. must catch up on all other subjects esp eng. don't intend to include f&n for my R2.

5periods of geog and miss suan is absent. maybe good news to some people but not me. it's nearing "o" levels, so i thought having lessons for the last few times to salvage our situation wouldn't do us harm isn't it? but nvm, spent the whole 5periods doing maths. she gave humanities paper, but behind is the ans scheme. need i say more about what we did? haha.

maths was a total crap. hafiz was late for half an hr. andrew yeo called and threatened to report to discipline if he doesn't come up by 3 mins. so he ran like mad, we all laughed haha. then whole maths periods he aimed kenneth, chia yee, guo jing, hafiz, ryan and me haha. went through alot of paper1. then andrew yeo was losing his voice, so we took a long long break. this time i slacked too haha. but somehow when we are having breaks, andrew yeo seem to regain his voice cause he was suaning me all the way =.= but why suddenly mention my ex, so insensitive la. but it's ok, i guess we both quite fine alrdy.

after school rush to meet hubby. in the end when i boarded 55, hubby just woke up, PIG !!!! wahahaha. bumped into leslie on the bus, with his godsis. it just happened that we are all going to the same place, watching the same movie at the same time =p they were having motion sickness cause they took the bus to eunos and back again LOL. but for me, i love taking bus and travelling except for MRT. looking at scenery, playing with your friends. it feels better than in MRT where everything's so restricted and solemn.

before movie, we still had time to catch a meal. so me and baby went to LJS and rushed through our combo 1. the movie is seriously nice !!!! rob-b-hood. you guys should really catch it. though i know jackie chan's movie sometimes abit bo liao, hit here and there only. but i swear this is different. shan't elaborate much, in case i spoil the mood of those who thinking of catching this movie. it's great =)

after that, me and baby parted our ways with leslie and his godsis. we went to "jalan jalan". baby bought 2 t-shirts. actually is i pick them out then baby choose the ones that he liked. we can look at many many shirts and fit here and there, then decide on only one haha.

went to food junction for ice kachang. food there is real expensive. some worse than town area prices. shouldn't be this case for a neighbourhood. but nvm, we weren't eating.

after that bought the giordano shirt then baby sent me to the interchange while he went back to MRT to head home. i went to hougang mall hoping to get a present for my uncle but in the end i saw esmond and wei lie, so we went up to play lor. been some time since i step into hougang mall zone-x. getting quieter nowdays, less happening but still as warm la. got a 2,40,xxx for tuban. could have got a 2,39,xxx but the roller coaster part always spoil it. it's ok, i'll do it one fine day. went home around 9plus. there was this warehouse sale outside hougang mall. took a look, actually intended to buy one of the sandals or mini heels or whatever. those not exactly sandals or slippers la. girls usually wear them and look not too shaggy that type. but after thorough comtemplating, i gave it a miss. with darling's influence, i don't splurge that much, and think many many times before i buy. thanks hubby =p

now reached home, connection giving probs again. off to watch american's next top model =) cya guys, long post..

jolynn laughs

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10/09/2006 10:23:00 PM

wakakakaka. today is a VERY GOOD DAY for me i guess. started off with praying at balestier temple with mum. prayed for studies, health happiness, safety blah blah blah and of course for me and hubby to tian chang di jiu =) bought a "candle" to kind of enlighten your "road". then i saw another quite big one, in the model of a lotus. very nice craftsmanship and colouring, so i wanted to buy it to light too. cause i thought if i buy a nicer one, guan yin ma will notice it better =x haha. thought it will cost around 4-5bucks but it's actually $1.50 only. next time shall buy that instead, it's really very nice and elegant looking.

later on, me and mum headed to toa payoh entertainment centre for swensen. no more teriyaki chicken pasta =( or was it chicken chop pasta? aiyah, both also don't have. BOOOOO~~~ we odered alot, very very full can.

1. salmon and mushroom pasta *not yummy at all, not worth it
2. fish baked rice *woootss very delicious. heavenly. BEST.
3. fried mushroom *it's shitake, i like it alot =)
4. topless 5 ice cream *orange sherbet and almond pistacho was wierd, the rest are ok lor.
5. complimentary ice cream mooncake * i don't like it la, esp the skin. yucks make me feel so sick of it.

went to zone-x to find darling. played initial d but record still slow la. challenged with eugene and jia hui. lost one match cause it was shomaru =( now i'm keeping baby's car. not sure if mine's with him, but nvm la haha. i also never use evo 4 de.

felt kinda bored so we decided to go somewhere else to shop. decided to go tiong bahru cause 2 yrs ago, it was very interesting there. but now, hais sadded haha. i'm gonna get the mini mp3 radio at MORE THAN WORDS. it's cheap but i didn't bring enough cash today. baby fitted the pink shirt. i felt he look rather nice in pink haha. but it was too small and too thin la the material. wait baby zhao geng how =x tiong bahru arcade seriously sucks, scam our $1 haha. wanna buy the vibrator and mini vacuum cleaner. excuse me, not the sex toy vibrator, it's for massage lols. we saw the penguin compact water dispenser. may consider getting it when i move house =p

darling's such a pig la. actually we wanted to go mac get water, but he end up getting tempted by others and bought a nugget meal haha. we saw an uncle never wear underwear, his *toot* sagging there. eeks. another uncle with tattoos in words at both arms featuring DBS BANK and POSB. about those NRIC and acc number haha. so he said, next time rob him just look at his arm for pin code. then i said:" no la, those people owe him money..." lols.

went to chinatown. walked alot of places. OG, chinatown point etc etc. nothing interesting. last time i went to chinatown still got things to shop but now i can't seem to recall the place lols. walked to clarke quay. but halfway mummy called. at that time already reach lau pa sat. so we turned and went to raffles place. sat there, it was very warm la. saw many sua ku tourists haha. they were like " wa those buildings so tall, why no have people huh?" dots, raffles place is office area leh, and today is SUNDAY. maybe they should walked to city hall instead haha. sang alot of songs. play play play haha. walk alot, very tired.

8plus hubby and i went to mrt. i changed train at dhoby ghaut while hubby headed back home to khatib from there. when i was at the escalator to NEL, i looked up and saw atrium, so i HAIS again. then i slapped myself, so that i won't be so silly as to look back again.

reached home, bathed and here i am =) shall go blog hopping now, except for his i guess. i told him i will disappear from his world as much as i can. as long as he's happy. until he sad, need people to talk then i will talk haha. now i only bother about hubby and close friends like er jie, they all plus leong chun and others also. those whom i know will be right by my side during my darkest times. thanks guys.

PHEW. long post. good day ma haha. back to msn. baby's waiting.

jolynn sighs, so tired but satisfied lols.

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10/08/2006 10:02:00 PM

kekeke. though today's saturday but no atrium =p no memories, no unhappiness YEAH !!! haha. leong chun also never go. he go his friend's house play mahjong. i go my darling's house play =p

darling woke me up at 9plus but i only moved my big ass out of my bed at around 10plus. reach there straight away mahjong. lols. today very bad, i keep losing. sorry dear =( win some lose alot. keep letting people win 4-5 tai, heartache lols. dunno what i doing today also. lost about $10.40, alot right. darling paid it all =( he refuse to let me pay. nvm, next time if got lose i pay ok?

after they left, baby cleared his room alone, i think he quite unhappy ba.but he just don't want to vent it on me. so he don't let me help him mop floor all this. he treat me so good lah, yet i gave him nothing but hurt in return. sorry >.<>

then baby didn't want to go back to sleep. cause i told him i was going to the toilet, but i sta outside the sofa and cry AGAIN. so he hugged me, and said that he don't want me to cry and scared that i will run away from him. sooo sweet can. his hug just make me melt in his arms. in that instant, all worries are gone. i feel so safe in his arms.

after that we play and tickle as usual. he bully me can !!!!! today i never retaliate, then he won. elbowed his lips accidentally, dui bu qi. i knocked my head very hard on the wall and baby's cheekbones hit very hard on mine. ouch.

play until forget the time haha. about 10plus then we reach bus stop. baby sent me home. then walked from erjie's house there again haha. today we two talked alot. just like last time, the warmth came back =) met my mum then went home le.

on the way home on the bus, baby msged to tell me that he's hungry, so i told him i was eating >.<>

meeting darling tomorrow again YEAH !!!! haha. cya guys.

jolynn yawns

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10/07/2006 11:58:00 PM