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Friday, April 20, 2007
Geek's birthday:)
HAPPY 19TH BEEEEDAY!!
us (me and baby) being lousy planners of birthday surprises, we got really stressed and almost turned into bitchy nervewrecks. but we managed to pull it off in the end!:) arent you proud of us, geek?

+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:58 AM
Saturday, March 31, 2007
moving
you know when you have too much junk when....
case 1
sis: -opens a box- chinese new year decorations.
me: -stands by and expects my dad to be astonished we even keep such junk-
dad: AGAIN?!
you mean we've already packed a box of cny decor to cart over?!
case 2
me: oooooo cute shoes. whose are these?
sis: not mine. ive moved all of mine home.
me: well it's not mine or mummy's either! ive never seen it before! and what abt these. -picks up men shoes- yours daddy?
dad: nope.
me: but theyre not zhong han's either. where do these things come from!?
case 3 (shoes part 1)
me: -throws all shoes into giant, industrial sized bags- WHAT are we doing with so many shoes?!
sis: we should put it into a box.
me: no more boxes.
sis: WHAT? no boxes?! noooo how can we have no more boxes?!
by the way my dad brought back close to a hundred carton boxes.
case 4 (shoes part 2)
me: ugh. i can't lift the plastic bag. it's too heavy. come help me! you can take the top i'll handle the base!
-both of us lift it up, bag tears at the base-
both: AHHHHH!
sis: this is all your fault!!
me: what are we doing with so many shoes?!
case 5 (shoes part 3)
-found carton box to put shoes-
-brother and i lift plastic bag-
me: there are too many of them! they wont fit into the box!
sis: eh zhong han lift up the bag a bit more fit the bottom of the bag in first.
me: -sees a heel being dragged into the box due to the weight of the other shoes- AHHH one of the shoes! the heel looks like its going to break!
sis: -rushes over- oh my.... did it break?
me: oh my gut i hope its not my heels.
sis: it's silver! wah heng ah. luckily ive brought home all my shoes.
me: pls dont let it be mine pls dont let it be mine...
case 6
-3 kids finish packing basement store. movers come back from moving first load of stuff which completely filled a LORRY to new house-
movers: -stand around and gawk-
random mover: ummm miss, are we supposed to move those too?
sis: yes.
me: -imagines them cursing under their breath since they were shuffling arnd (i presume) in annoyance-
random mover: so. are there any more... surprises?
case 7
me: OH WOW! national day bags from 1996!
sis: throw them away! oh look. -lifts up bag- clean and green week 1994.
case 8
sis: hmmm this pot looks nice. shall i bring it home?
me: YES PLEASE. there wont be space in the new house! we'll live on the streets after all these are brought in.
sis: but victor hates clutter. i'll get scolded. what if mummy wants it?
me: it wont be missed. just bring it home. we'll take it from you when we move again. let me get you a national day bag to carry it! :D
case 9
mum: your stuffed toys
me: but ive packed a huge carton and sent them to the warehouse already!
case 10
movers: -silently rejoicing- ok we're done with this level! upstairs no more right?
joy: what no more? you never see ah. -laughs-
random mover: huh.......
stay tuned for more on moving!
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 1:58 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
i'm[geek] 'blogging', even tho the bloody exams are coming, in response to ur post. haha, tt sounds exactly like u twit. jeez! where did u go 4 holiday?
i muz tell u abt my traumatizing experience with a cockroach. i hate cockroaches, detest them, am terrified of them. i was at home one nite by myself, i looked up, and there was this monstrous cockroach, twitching its long feelers about, in the middle of the corridor, and it was inching towards my room. omg, i just about died rite there.. so i sat there in agonized indecison over wad to do. then, watching the cockroach inch 4ward, i sprang into action. tt's where my nightmare steadily got worse. there were 2 cans of insecticide, an empty bottle with a working cap, and a full bottle with a broken cap. in panic, i raced out to see the progress of the cockroach, and the evil thing had disappeared. @&^**(&(*##@# so i panicked some more,a nd finally tot of changing the caps, where i proceeded to take a long stick to poke everything in my path, 2 see if the cockroach was hiding there. then i inched towards the doorway of my rm, and noticed the evil cunning cockroach tt had disguised itself cleverly on the brown doorframe abt 5 cm away frm me. my yell cld be heard frm the nxt block. and of cuz, the damned cockroach cld fly so it did so, and it stupidly landed on its back. so i grabbed my chance and wasted abt half a can of baygon on it, finally truimphing after a bloody terrifying battle. the entire process took me half an hr.
i really need a life rite now..
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:05 PM
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
spur of a moment entry
sometimes i get sick of making new friends all the time. and then getting close to those new friends and then suddenly drifting oh so far apart. then i'll feel this huge invisible hole between us, something so small, yet too deep to fill/patch. and i just know that things will never be the same again. that i will never be able to share my thoughts and feelings and experiences to the person the same way again.
and sometimes i dont think they realise how much i want the once close relationship to last and thrive through the ages, through the oh so cliched "good times and bad times." how much i want to continue being close to the person. but one gets sick of trying, and failing, to talk to the person, again and again.
i think thats why i treasure christie and chengleng's friendships so much (though i admit i dont really show it). Its so heartening to know that its possible to have a steady and consistent relationship with people in school.(yes! actual HUMANS!) something i had thought was impossible all through last year and the beginning of this year. theres something abt the ppl in rj that just make them come and go. they are but mere acquaintances. yes i may be close to them for a certain period of time but its like a phase. it'll blow over.
the security and warmth from friends experienced in secondary school no longer exists it seems. people just come and go in your life. acquaintances drifting in and out of your life according to cue. just like callefares in your life (how do you spell that!?) after all, all life's a stage, or so they say.
i know i will move on, just like the people who keep moving out of my life. but its just sad that the only solid friendships i gain out of jc are with christie and cheng leng only. and maybe a very few others from my class. not that im complaining of course.
i just miss stnicks. i miss having real friends ALL AROUND me.
sometimes, one gets sick of having to make new friends all the time.
i guess im blogging again.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 12:40 AM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
probability
the probability of me getting a probability question right is 81/400
who ever gets answers like these?!?
bahh. there is a high probability of me giving up on math forever.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 8:11 AM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
humans tend to have a kind of obscene curiosity. when there's an accident, people flock to see the dead body so as to look ill and tell others that they saw first hand an accident. if they're lucky, they might even catch sight of the bereaved family. its like looking for drama, something raw? maybe. they get unsatisfied if they dont see the drama.
if u tell some one there's a suicide, they'll look around and ask 'where?'
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 9:09 PM
Friday, March 17, 2006
CTs
i hate feeling stupid
i hate having made to feel stupid
i hate being inadequate
i hate not being able to organise my time well
i hate being the bottom of the cohort/class ALL THE TIME
i hate not being able to do well
i hate failing
i hate not handing up homework when everyone else seems capable of doing so
i hate not being able to do math when just 2 years ago i enjoyed it
i hate not being able to do a single question after 2 hours
i hate not being able to pass chem no matter how hard i try
i hate not having time to mug everything
i hate not understanding chem
i hate not having the motivation to mug bio even though currently its one of my more enjoyable subjects
i hate not being able to excel in what i do
i hate it that everyone around me is just so much better
i hate it that everyone around me is just so much smarter
i hate not having anyone to rant to and having to resort to a blog
i hate having to rant in a blog because i cant bear to disturb my friends (since they ARE mugging to success)
i hate not being able to do things everyone else seems capable of doing (mostly math/chem/bio questions)
and these are the things being in my school makes you feel
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 11:22 PM
Saturday, February 18, 2006
and I'M reviving the blog now. this is what boredom does to you.
we were meant to live for so much more. Have we lost ourselves? somewhere we live inside.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 4:30 PM
Saturday, January 28, 2006
this thing is STAGNANT!
the last msg posted was two months ago. and surprise surprise! i'm the one who's reviving our blog now. anw its CNY eve and i'm terriblyy bored to tears. trying to avoid the kitchen cos its like a warzone in there. live crabs crawling ard. its rather sad to see them alive and kicking and knowing tt in an hr or so they are going to be on the dining table. but of cuz. tt isnt gg to stop me from eating any lesser.
the week's been havocly fun. went out with baby and geek on tuesday to town. a place we visit together like once half a year?! baby was all like 'i'm a pai kia now!!!' all because we hanged ard orchard till like 10pm on a wkday. haha geek, i tink we need to educate her more on this area. we watched memoirs of a geisha and i was reallyy sceptical at first cos it got 2.5 stars from the critics. but then again 'kungfu' undeservingly received 5 stars so wth. anw throughout much of the show we were just gawking at the little girl (she's so horrifying prettyy!!) and making stoopid comments 'bout the stuff they say so even if the plot sucked i wouldnt have noticed. but i had a nice time anw cos its been soooo long since i've watched a movie with baby and geek. dun ask me the last movie we watched together. your heart will break into a million pieces.
shopped for an hour or so at Taka in a futile attempt to use up my 150 shopping vouchers. it was such a torture!! in the first place i already do not like shopping too much. (ask my frens. i'm always looking for seats in every shop) then the clothes there are either 1) nice but expensive or 2) cheap but hideous-and-u-wont-to-be-caught-dead-wearing-them. in the end i just bought a maroon top. but thx anw peeps. felt sooo bad for wasting your time so i shall make it up with a treat the next time:)
friday. stuck in the canteen half a day trying to get some nice, decent chinese words written on the calligraphy paper. then a whole crowd of ppl came and all my strokes turned into big,fat,ugly black worms. what an embarassment. there was like this group of j1 ones that stood infront of me staring at my work and when i looked up the boy gave me a thumbs-up sign. haha i guess he was trying to be nice but it startled me quite a bit. and gautam, u really impressed me. he took the competition so seriously and wrote each word with fierce concentration. so much so that andreas said,"gautam's words look like phoebe's!" haha okayy i was kinda offended but good work anw gautam!
okayy my mum's nagging at me to go help out with the battle-against-the-crabbies. signing out.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 3:45 PM
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
i dont know what to feel right now.
im sort of numb. empty. i think im just having an overload of emotions and ive just decided (unconsciously) to shut off and not feel anything.
fear, anxiety, sadness, happiness, excitement, stress, hope. thats too much for one sleep deprived night.
dont you just wish that sometimes you can do so much more? and no im not refering to my results. ahh i feel much better after typing it all out. chem re-promos are coming. ive done... barely 15 pages of notes. cant remember the things ive studied during promos. needless to say im going to fail and let mr lee down again.
my commitments are piling up. expectedly. except i didnt expect them to come all in one blow. hmmm. anyway. end october/beginning november was great! starting with my birthday which was spent having rehearsals in school. heh. but the geek came down and celebrated with me late at nigh (at like 10pm) haha. and evryone else! like council! the "surprise" party and presents. and my wonderful class with yii wen's yummy chocolate muffins!! yes i did grow fat. haha.
threesome was wonderful with all my friends and even claire huilin karmun genevieve and phoebe! wang ling was there too! its great to see them all again. i dont think they realise how much it meant to me, to see them all together again. :) of course there were teachers there too! council and lit teachers. ms ong is still teasing me abt my role >.<
so maybe everything will work out fine, re-promos and all. i really need to prioritise, or my life will end up a mess. again.
maybe everything will work out fine.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 11:27 PM
Monday, October 31, 2005
happy birthday baby! u can count now!
shoddy. shaky. guilt. end. soon. death.
insanity's coming.
more. more. more.
(proudly adapted from agamemnon)
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:07 PM
Thursday, October 27, 2005
happy 17 birthday
and right before the 27th of october ends, i feel im obligated to at least blog a short post.
sweet sixteen is over and on comes sexy seventeen (albeit i dont feel any sexier) and although my whole day was spent in school (till 10+pm! latest rehearsal we've had for threesome) i am appreciative of the wonderful ppl who've kept me going. :D
in no order of merit: Claire, Melinda, Bryan, cedric, dexter, kwan rui, baldwin, kar mun, ee ling, talia, clara, tina, bryan, shu yan, meixian, sue-faye, genevieve(geek), swee ling, shi yun, yan han, kay hwee, yu ying, yii wen, nina and charles, junli, phoebe, darling 25ths, ben, yams, victor, joceyln (happy birthday to you too!), samuel, ming juan, christie (even though she didnt know it was my bdae but i know she went shopping for my present!haha), kang ya, han long, nat, ching hui, ( i just realised tt im mentioning ppl already under the category of 25ths so i shall stop >.<) ANYWAY etc etc. i hope i didnt miss out anyone! thank you for remembering and in ur little way [just a little greeting is enough to make me happy (((:] uve made my day. OH YES and all my cousins and my family who celebrated my bdae last saturday. i thank the Lord for all of you ((:
and yes i should be appreciative. i am blessed indeed. this bdae may not have been the most special or memorable one... heck i may not have gotten tons of presents and i may have spent all day at meetings and lecture and rehearsals instead of out with my friends partying but well i am a year older and im glad to have had ppl with me to celebrate my... -ahem- maturation.
sexy 17! wow. im feeling so old...and as ee ling says, i must "remember to embrace the sagging boobs".
seventeen so foreign and frightening. oh well. bring it on seventeen! let's see what you've got :D
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 11:50 PM
Thursday, October 13, 2005
stars
if i could reach up and hold a star for everytime u make me smile, i would have an evening sky full of stars in the palm of my hand.
and then reality intrudes.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 9:15 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
and so it begins
and so it begins. the geek IS right. council promised to charge full speed ahead starting this week and boy they werent kidding. haha. ive been holed up in room A78 conducting orientation interviews and having a de-briefing. hardly saw anyone after 1130 today judging by how i only left the room for half an hour (lunch break) and left school at 850pm. (after orientation de-brief) im not used to going home so late anymore. haha. came as a bit of a shock. its been such a draining day. im really disturbed by interview de-briefs. but i guess it is necessary to discuss and know practically every interviwee in the day. >.<
and becos of the long hours taken up by ogl interview, i never finished attending PW briefing or the CCAL workshop and i missed open house briefing and the teaching of open house dance! oh dear so much to catch up on. not to mention the fact tt batch unite, grad night and commZd have been tossed carelessly to the side for the time being... [I'll come back in full force after the ogls have been settled! i promise!] there doesnt seem to be any time left for eom. which is reallly worrying. haha. im back to the reach home at nine plus finish eating and bathing at 10 and start council work till past midnight routine. haha. albeit its not too bad yet. i just hope i dont miss too much of class outing tomolo! whoot! my first official class outing!!!!
chocolate is good for ur health. (((: yay! hurray for the almond chocolates from my buddee! :D thank you! yipee!
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:21 PM
baby and geek!!
oh god oh god, i din realise how FREE i am now after promos until i unconsciously came to our blog which i last visited like.....3 months ago??! And suddenly i so regretted not keeping myself updated on my frens' lives by visiting the blog more often! Especially YOU baby!! i see u around school sooo often and u hardly ever tell me me anything...(sniffles)....so promise me that next time i would be one of the first to know that yar getting cranked up or that ur PW grpmates are bullying you k (they dun happen to know abt this blog rite??), and i wld try my mighty best to cheer yer up. Hmmm, will a free cup of ice lemon tea do? :P
Oh and yesss, OGL interviews.....heheh, baby, are u by any chance one of da interviewers? Cos sum of my frens are trying out and i know at least one of them who reallyyy wants to get in....so you know wad to do eh. In any case i've got nooo idea why would anyone want to torture themselves by being a OGL...seriouslyyy....by economic theory, the opportunity costs are high and the returns are, welll, near zero. unless yar a nutcase who lurves to hang around school till midnight...yeahh, OGL wannabes, u heard tt.
NOW that exams are over there's absolutelyy no excuse why we cant go out together, right baby?! u wld definitely need a break from all that hellish council work...geek and i will kidnap you from school if u refuse to come out!! Anyway yar bdae's coming (hah, see, i'm not as gong as sum ppl who called me to wish me happy bdae on the wrong day!!) and so we can have a double celebration!! OR a triple one if we get promoted. yeahh, make that a triple one.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 9:19 PM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
post promos!
haha yes wat are u saying geek?
whoot its post promos! ive forgotten how life before promos was like. a bit overwhelmed by the sudden onslaught of work messages in my inbox especially since it has been relatively peaceful and empty for abt a month now... haha but still im having fun! what with the lit-ies outing and the ORA dinner (great fun! if only i have the stamina to type more!) and the slacking around not re-doing my eom (i will regret this later.) life's been good. ogl interviews start tomorrow! how exciting! hope it goes well :D and i shall be a good interviewer! hahah. feel my wrath!
anyway yes mel we'll pull through! hopefully. :)) love ya girl take care!
lots of outings are still due! and geek have u forgotten that phoebe is expecting a much better birthday present after promos??? haha. i doubt many outings will materialise now tt council functions are going full speed ahead. grad night, orientation, open house, farewell! and the rp production! what an exciting term ahead... if i survive through promos that is...
i hope i dont miss too much of class party on tuesday! :D
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 11:19 PM
and so it begins...
oh what am i saying.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:24 PM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
its so sad to go into the exam hall and take a paper that you know you have absolutely no hope in doing even relatively well in.
and by that i mean say a C? just a C will do...
expectations expectations. i cant fulfill them cant you see? even if i do want to and dream to.
im sorry im going to let so many people down.
it seems like all my dreams have washed down the drain.
remember the times we dreamt of this little thing called s papers?
i wasnt made for mugging all day. secondary school's last minute chiong-ing(and passing) seems so much more appealing now. gone were the days when studying only 3 hours the day before a test may suffice.
its so sad to go into the exam hall and take a paper that you know you have absolutely no hope in doing even relatively well in.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 11:41 AM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
promos
promos have been a tragedy.
from gp to pc. especially pc. gosh it was so bad. i wanted to apologise to mr ng everytime he walked by my table. except of course when he stole my ez link card.
gp was so.... i dont know its just such a tricky paper... required a lot more thought than usual. and yet even after thinking it through ure not sure that wat u wrote is entirely correct.. i did the paper VERY haltingly. TOO haltingly. my aq died. barely started on it. SIGH. and pc.... PC. i dont know wat happened... a lot of brain-deadness and stoning involved. and zoning out for periods of time. i was utterly defeated at the end of it. wanted to rip up my paper and hand in a blank sheet. depressing. and discouraging. nxt week looks set to be worse.
i wish i studied more/harder during term time.
)))))))))))))))))))))))):
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 4:51 PM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
sick
im pathetic.
i was so ill yesterday, i was only conscious for 3 hours. well ok technically 8 but the other 5 hours was spent puking my guts out. and the remaining three was spent trying very hard to stomach a small bowl of porridge for each meal. and today, despite feeling weak and giddy, i insisted tt my mom send me to school to mug since promos start.... TOMORROW. gasp.
im pathetic. i've barely recovered from my onsluaght of throat infection/flu/cough(havent even finished my antibiotics) and now im down AGAIN with some severe food poisoning thats left me all weak and nauseous. JUST before promos too, of all times to get ill. SIGH. and everyone keeps telling me rest properly before mugging again but honestly would YOU? if u had as little knowledge in my brain as i have?
sigh. i dont want promos to come. im not ready. im really not. and ive lost so much precious time falling ill. dont let gp come...
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 9:06 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
update
hello! yes due to pressures from eeling i SHALL update. this is of course another excuse not to do my individual eom. i mean come on updating others on my personal life has got to me more important then some silly a level subject tt affects my university admission right?
SO the reason i havent been updating is because. well. theres really not much happening in my life. i mean its interesting and all but i dont blog unless im brimming with emotions (in this case boredom) and tts qt rare cos ive been sick. yes again. SIGH.
sis: oh u have to eat medicine again? why?
me: same old same old. throat infection and stuff
sis: again?!? -incredulous-
me : well its the only thing i get when im sick!
and then another incident happened tonight (too lazy to elaborate) and i ended up shouting "jie jie! come down! zhong han's flirting with your HUSBAND!" haha. its got to do with a computer. oh yes and last tuesday i went to the black eyed peas concert! YES i do have a life every once in a while. oh yes and we went for a buffet dinner today and i felt like i was wrestling with the food when i was trying to pick them up. very very un-glam indeed. im just not good at picking food and placing them gracefully on my plate. so sue me. my food always tumbles onto the plate, or performs some spectacular somersault, or sorts of slides on. i think i need to go for more buffets to practice. BUT of cos then again i wld get even fatter than i already am. and already my dad and brother wont stop complaining abt my huge arms and how fat and flabby im getting. and how soft i am o.O and how i dont exercise. and my bro never fails to enlighten me abt my newly acquired hippo thighs and shapeless body. yes im hopelessly flawed. so sue me. sheesh. i dont really need such a great ego boosting now you noe. i'll lose weight after promos all right??? bahh.
and of course studying is screwed as usual. is there anything new?? sheesh. even my friends are trying to stres me out so tt i'll be pushed to at least study enough to PASS promos. this entry is so incoherent. its like random events and thoughts cramped into a paragraph. just like my lit essays. which im doing so vey badly for. and i really dont know wat to do except get upset abt it. sigh.
so anyway projected promos grades:
BIO- O
CHEM- E
MATH- F (havent started)
LIT- D (or maybe not after receiving those lit essays...sigh)
if i work harder in math i shld be able to push it up to an O and not be retained! and of course i'll only get O for bio if i roughly finish all the chapters (ive only done abt 3-4?) sigh. im really more resigned then depressed...
hey mel! good luck for promos k? all the best! and you too kang ya! love ya loads!
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 10:54 PM
Friday, September 09, 2005
oh the stress is getting to me :)
COME ON EVERYBOREDDDYYYY!!! let's sing to that friendly little pink goo in our skulls!
I like to move it, move it!
I like to move it, move it!
I like to move it, move it!
Ya like to Move it!!!
-shakes butt enthusiastically-
maybe it just needs a little break before shifting to gear 2... maybe its stalling! i need new engines!! let's go SHOPPING!! i hope it stops stalling soon. i mean... it is FRIDAY. and i DO have 3 essays (i know ure reading this DEAREST LIT TEACHERS. ull get BAD karma i tell you. the measure for measure essay is... traumatising.) + PW to complete by monday! HAHAHAHAHHA. oh yes and let's not forget ive got to get down to HARD CORE MUGGING. cant sacriface sleep no more. -shakes head- mugging requires a fresh and alert mind. -nods earnestly-
right. its just too painful to read any more measure for measure essays. TOO PAINFUL. maybe i shld continue tomolo! MAYBE tomolo will be a better day!
POSITIVITY! THAT'S THE WAY FOR YOU(points) AND ME(points)!
(cue wink and bright sunny over-exaggerated smile)
I LOVE ESSAYS! DONT YOU?!?
I LOVE MUGGING, DONT YOU?!?!
I'VE GOT TWO DAYS LEFT BEFORE SCHOOL REOPENS TO GET A GOING! DON'T YOU? (of cos not. its just me -forced grin- :)
im going mad.
i like to move it move it! you like to move it move it! we like to move it move it! let's all just move it move it...
tomorrow.
+ [ moo ] r e m e m b e r again + 11:27 PM