http://ckorinna.blogspot.com

Kind of. For now. :) Will be back.

Okay, so I was facebooking and then I remembered the group dedicated to LaSpina and I came across this, and it made my day:

“Jesse, you look like an ad for…I don’t know, dirty laundry or something. I was gonna say death, but that seemed a bit harsh.”

“I’m waiting for Jesse to look like something other than an unmade bed.”

(Jesse says: ‘Mango!’) “Papaya!”

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
http://www.facebook.com/topic.php?uid=2222899376&topic=2157

LaSpina is sooo funny, I'm going to miss him soo much! Ahhh, my dear psychology class!

If you don't water a plant, it will wither.
But if you water it too much, it will die anyway.
Sometimes, it is better to leave it alone,
and let the rain shower upon it.
Maybe that way, it'll grow more naturally
and more beautifully,
and flower gorgeously like it's supposed to.

本來這應該是寫在你blog的 可是偏偏就有了個什麼1000 characters limit的 （!@#$%^&）
so here it is:




nigel nigel nigel 真的很謝謝你來spring concert聽我演奏
也非常謝謝你個誇講
我會一直努力的！:D

本來剛才要寫comments的，結果發現自己沒按那個"more"button所以我也剛剛把整篇文張給讀完。讀到一半眼淚也不知不覺地掉了。:(

時間真的很快就這樣過了 想當時我們還是在白白（or 黑黑actually) 的雪地上找ipod (都是羅偉庭啦！）那是二月；當時還覺的二月離graduation還有一段時間。可現在，不到兩個禮拜就是該走的時後了

想當年 （actually 去年而以:P) 我還剛來cheshire. 記得你是我在cheshire認試的第２的台灣人吧 也可能是我在cheshire認試的第二個人 因為當時我跟著angela去dining hall 吃晚餐 剛開始時 有一點 "wow" 的感覺 怎麼這學校華人那麼多呀！ 哈哈

說真的我起初有點不想來cheshire的 可是現在i would not rather be at anywhere else but cheshire 因為是在cheshire認試了你 認試了大家 我們都玩了很開心 就像我們每星期都會在studentcenter吃 最今我們還一直餓肚子 因為都在等我的綱琴課 哈哈哈 對不起囉 兩位！XD btw, 這是傳統ok? 以後我回來cheshire時我們一定要這樣做 然後也遜便一下 假裝是在ktv 在student center裡狂唱歌 不官on duty 的人和其他在studentcenter裡不懂在幹麻的人們 hohohoho *貴婦的笑法！haha jkjk!* (拜托 跟本就沒貴婦笑法好不好 是你們自己亂編出來的 你這手幾50000~~的人 哈哈 you know what i'm talking about ;)）

and btw, 雖然很appreciative of the fact that you estimated me to be 一百五十五左右 老實說 其實 １５０也沒到 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 好啦幾然你那麼誇我 我就讓你笑笑吧
反正 你真的吃得比我多 而且還多很多 we are not the same, man! ahhahaha

雖然時間很短暫 雖然今年才開時和你buddy buddy!
雖然有點遺憾不早一點認試你 可是非常非常的感謝能夠遇到你 和你做朋友 和你一起玩 雖然有點遺憾不早一點認試你 可是things might not have worked out to be like this if i had known you earlier or something, so for that i'm grateful that i really get to know you better this year. :) although i think we'd still be great friends had i got to know you better since last year! :D yay! 反整 我們都是真心朋友remember?! :D:D:D 只要我腦子沒壞的一天 我都會一直一直永遠的記得你的 所以你也不要忘了我喔！:D

再次的很想謝謝你一直都對我很好 一直都很照顧我 和大家讓我在這學校裡找到了一個像親人很親的家人 如果有什麼我能幫的到的 我能做到的我都一定會去做 所以don't ever hesitate to ask :D 我去台灣也要多多靠你了喔！:D 如果有來到新加坡or印尼（not印渡ok) 記得打電話給我 我會做一個好tourguide and host 的！：Ｄ

反正 我的eloquence is not eloquent 反正 就是 我們真心朋友組在我心裡有個特別与屬與他自己的位子 永遠不擺動
你的文張深深地感動了我 以後在彈一首表達我感謝之心 和感動之心的歌給你聽 因為 我不會用語言來跟你說 so be patient and wait

hahahahaha *and here's the return of the 貴婦笑法*

剛剛在facebook上加了一些照片
去看吧： http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2003033&l=a2a1c&id=1083270196 :D
enjoy ! :D

SONG1
찬바람 불때 내게 와줄래
세상이 모질게 그댈 괴롭힐 때
신나게 놀자 웃자 한바탕
하 하 하 하 하 이 밤이 다 할 때까지

RAP1
일명 악바리 나 돈벌이에 충실했던
예능계의 별이요 까불대던 몽이요
빛 따라 흔들흔들 따라갔던 딴따라
초심을 잃지 말고 음악 하란 벌이다
관객들은 제페토 몽이는 피노키오
가끔은 대중을 속고 속이는 피노키오
거짓과 진실 그대들의 답이요
길고 짧은 건 눈 대중으로 대충 키 높이요
Ready get set go 대포로 발사
(해) 온몸을 날려 버리고
Ready get set go 대포로 발사
(해) 눈물을 날려 버리고
아무리 뻔뻔한 Situation
엇갈리더라도 Just have some fun
Show`s Just begun 4번째 앨범
몽이와 함께 서커스에 모두 Welcome

SONG1

찬바람 불때 내게 와줄래
세상이 모질게 그댈 괴롭힐 때
신나게 놀자 웃자 한바탕
하 하 하 하 하 이 밤이 다 할 때까지

RAP2
전국민 좌절금지 프로젝트 서커스
음악에 오직 그대만을 비춘 포커스
일등과 꼴찌 승자와 패자
칼이라도 뽑았으면 무라도 베자
눈물조차 아까워서 메마른 사람들
방 한 칸에 허덕여서 가난한 사람들
시련에 쓰린 상처 통곡한 사람들
전국민 좌절금지 프로젝트 서커스
Ready get set go 대포로 발사
(해) 온몸을 날려 버리고
Ready get set go 대포로 발사
(해) 눈물을 날려 버리고
어차피 인생은 시트콤 누가 뭐라건
자기 밥그릇은 정해져 있는 법
Show`s Just begun 4번째 앨범
몽이와 함께 서커스에 모두 Welcome

SONG1

찬바람 불때 내게 와줄래
세상이 모질게 그댈 괴롭힐 때
신나게 놀자 웃자 한바탕
하 하 하 하 하 이 밤이 다 할 때까지

SONG2
더 이상 울지 말아요
기가 막힌 세상 아픔은 잊어요
시간 맞춰 꼭 늦지 마세요
어서 모이세요 신나는 몽이 유랑단
야야야 신나는 몽이 유랑단 (한번더)

SONG1

찬바람 불때 내게 와줄래
세상이 모질게 그댈 괴롭힐 때
신나게 놀자 웃자 한바탕
하 하 하 하 하 이 밤이 다 할 때까지

This is the "theme" song of our bowling trip! :D

And I just realized, my "essay" doesn't have a conclusion.
Bad, bad, bad.
Tsk.

I once thought that I am strong, that no matter what happens, I know I will not break, I know I will not succumb to pressure, I know I will not go on the path of self destruction; that is why I never understood why people can get depression - I thought it was a matter of will - I had felt that people who are depressed are depressed because they are weak, as in that they succumb to pressure, that they themselves allowed that to happen, that they themselves, their will and determination is the cause of the problem. To stretch it a little further, I remember I still promised myself never to commit suicide ever, and I remain true to that statement.

But today, it is with a different mentality that I write this entry. No, I haven't changed my opinion that depression is a matter of will. But as much as it is a matter of will, it is also a matter of limits. Not that limits we do in Calculus class (because that's the first thing that came into my mind), but the limit of our tolerance on things, on issues, mentally and psychologically.

I've been feeling depressed this past few days, and honestly I don't even know what hit me.
What it was because of, I have no idea. I do not know if I truly do not know, or if this is my mind's act of repression (as we all learn in Psychology class), or if there really is nothing wrong and that I am merely thinking wayyyy too much (as my friends all like to point out), or that.. I don't know... These are the possibilities I thought of. There might have been a fourth option, but I forget..

It's not even that I am dangerous, because honestly, I am not. Like I said, I disallow myself to be dangerous and I am staying true to that belief. Come on, being socially responsible is the least I can do. Which brings me to a point (again), that, seriously though, what right do I have to say that "being socially responsible is the least I can do" when I don't think I ever did anything that is totally socially responsible - now I kind of sound like a hypocrite. Kind of, just kind of.

Like today, for no apparent reason in Physics class, I was way more edgy than usual. It was as if I am on a short fuse (however that expression about short fuse goes ... =.=). Yeah. Honestly, I was secretly happy when I got to explain the problem on the board (ahahhah, narcissistic egoistic me) but yeah, when after the explanation I came back to my seat, Weiting was like, 你生氣了嗎？ Um.. no, I'm not angry. But yeah, see what I mean? I apparently looked and sounded angry... heeeuuuuhhh..

Then again, at dinner, I was so easily irritated and I kind of "scolded" Kai, as usual, but just more "serious" than usual, just a tad bit more. Hahah. But 他真的很白目. Jonathan was saying how nowadays I'm in a bad mood. Aww, I actually totally appreciate that and was secretly happy that somebody noticed, that they know. I guess, it kind of gives me comfort knowing somebody cares. And well in this case, there were quite a bit of them, so thank you thank you thank you :D Ahh.

Okay, I started writing this post with the thought of attempting to write an essay-style kind of thing. Apparently that's not really working out. But I can so totally imagine this with a little revamp. Hahahaah. Oh well.

Anyway, the library is going to chase out people soon. So I gtg.
Urghs that reminds me, Wellesley doesn't have a 24-h library!!!!!! Arrrggggghhh!!! Wwwwwwhhhhyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!~ That reminds me, Rice's library is soo cool haahah. Anyway, my school's internet is gay. It keeps connecting and disconnecting and now MSN just keeps signing me on and off and on and off and it's irritating coz I have to go click that OK button thing everytime it signs me off due to some "error". Bleargh. And I've been doing this since study hall started, which was like 2 h ago. So yeah. I had quite abit of finger exercise. Bleragh. Urghs. Man, I can't even spell "bleargh" right. Belragh. See waht I mean? *what

Sighh.
Aiiiiihhh~

Ah, so many things to do.

So apparently omega-3 fatty acid is believed to enhance brain function such that countries whose people who eat fish rich in that acid tend to have a lower depression rate (Hibbeln, 1998) (the whole brain produces the serotonin thing and that norepinephrine thing? well hypothylamus or something like that; i forgot - whoops!) so yeah. That means I need to visit S&S soon to get my one pound of salmon fish. To cook. Kind of.
Hah.
I need to get happier. Or this is really becoming a problem. One that causes distress, which, to a certain degree, is making my life dysfunctional. This is deviant from my normal lifestyle. Which means. This is a problem. And a psychological one at that, maybe. Aha, that sounded sooo much like that "overdiagnosis" phenomenon thing. Kind of. You know, the one about almost every single thing sounded like an ailment. The one, "almost any kind of behavior within the compass of psychiatry" (Eysenck and others, 1983) , when commenting on the DSM-IV. Haha.

Just a little thought. Okay, back to studying Psych. Ah, when can I ever finish the book at this rate!! :(
Okay, I mean, :).
Yeah, that was lame.

Learning Psychology has taught me a lot about life. Or just about anything really. It gives me a label to things which I know already consciously or subconsciously. It is a lot of fun because I feel as though I am going through an organization of my mind's thoughts as I read about these psychological and social phenomena.

Today, as I am reading on the chapter of Social Psychology at the library, and mulling over my possible depression, or rather, my attempt in a suppression, or whatever, I came across this passage that gives examples of groupthink. Groupthink refers to a general consensus to an unrealistic idea. The objective focuses on why people do what they do and therefore why groupthink can occur. While there is (obviously) a bad side to this idea, there is another side to this story - how people can all come together to make good decisions and such (do they mean that those good decisions were also unrealistic ideas since that is part of the definition of groupthink?). But in any case, as usual, a thought hit me. Well, breeze by me, really. Well, kind of. One thing leads to another, and to another, sort of:

It is not so much having your opinions heard as to genuinely and sincerely consider every possible outcome.

Argue not for the sake of the glory of the individual but for the harmony and well-being of all.

It seems that nowadays I have very depressing thoughts and entries, but... I think... it's okay. I hope.

In any case, that reminds me of the Ghibli Studio guy (sorry, don't really remember who... I'm guessing its Hayao Miyazaki). Apparently he has a pretty depressed (I think they used another word in wikipedia but I don't quite remember what) view of the world, but he chooses to portray it with hope (in his movies and shows). I think that is very... hmm... silently courageous? I don't know which exact word to use but.. that is kind of what I mean. Because if it were me, I guess I'll just stay depressed all the time. I want to say that he's my role model. In a way. Because what I know may not be what you know. And perhaps he is just trying to protect the innocence of children but at the same time teach them and educate them about the pains of the earth and subconsciously affecting each and every one of them to effect some change in this world to help the earth, the people, the life. I don't know if I would have done the same thing as he did, but now I know I will.

Okay, in case you didn't realize, that was my stream of consciousness of the day - today, specifically; now. Haha.
Omg, I am using so many things that I learn in class here in this entry. Hahaha, what about the psychology thing, and the earth day thing (though I didn't go this year), and that stream of consciousness thing (HAHA, BELOVED!). Oh yeah, that reminds me, I need to read Beloved... Or I might not be able to pass my AP exam this time.. Whoops! :D

Okay, back to studying psychology.

Ah, prom.

When it is others, it is always so easy.
We see them, we read them - we know their rights and wrongs; we critique their flaws and praise their righteousness. Yet it is not always quite so simple when it is us ourselves. We see not our faults and we overlook that which deserves to be noticed, focusing on the artificial. We know not ourselves perhaps, yet introspection is not accurate. People say we are the mirror of others , others are the mirrors of us. What if, we never got round to seeing our own reflection in our mirror?'

just like that, in that single moment, all that i've worked hard for these past few weeks shattered right in front of my eyes, each piece falling, never meant to be a whole, shining, glittering, shimmering, as if laughing at me, mocking me of that which could and would never be.



Iro aseta ao ni nijimu
shiroi kumo tooi ano hi no iro

Kokoro no oku no dare nimo
kakushiteru itami

Bokuno subete kaketa
kotoba mou tooku

Nakusu hibi no nakade imamo
kimi wa boku wo atatameteru

Kimi no koe
Kimi no katachi terashita hikari
kanaunara

Boku no koe
Dokoka no kimi todoku youni
boku wa ikiteku

Hizashi ni yaketa reeru kara
hibiku oto tooku anohi no koe

Ano kumo no mukou imademo
yakusoku no basho aru

Itsukaraka kodoku boku wo
kakomi kishimu kokoro

Sugiru toki no nakade kitto
boku wa kimi wo nakushite iku

Kimi no kami
Sora to kumo tokashita sekai
himitsu ni michite

Kimi no koe
Yasashii yubi kaze ukeru hada
kokoro tsuyoku suru

Itsumademo
Kokoro furuwasu kimi no senaka
negai wa tada

Boku no uta
Dokokano kimi todokimasu you
boku wa ikiteku

Kimi no koe
Kimi no katachi terashita hikari
kanaunara

Ikiru basho
Chigau keredo yasashiku tsuyoku
boku wa ikitai

English Translation

The white clouds, running to faded blue, are the color of those days,

The pain in the depths of my heart, I am hiding it from everyone else,

The words I bet everything on
has passed at this distance of time,

You are warming me up even now
in the days we are losing.

Your voice,
The light which illuminated your figure,
if I could have a wish,

My voice,
To deliver it to you wherever you are,
that is how I want to be.

The sounds from rails burned by sunlight, is the voices from those distant days,

Even now beyond those clouds,
the promised place exists,

Before I realize it the loneliness has surrounded me, and my heart creaks,

With the steady passing of time,
surely I will lose you.

Your hair,
The world where sky and clouds melt together,
is a place filled with secrets,

Your voice,
gentle fingers, skin embraced by wind,
these give my heart strength,

For all time,
your back which causes my heart to tremble, My only one wish is,

My song,
I wish it will be delivered to you wherever you are,
that is how I want to be.

Your voice,
The light which illuminated your figure,
If I could have a wish,

The places where we live,
Though they are different,
gently, strongly,
that is what I strive to be.

怎麼會有人玩的那麼風啊！
哈哈哈

讓我感到longweekend重次再來 啊 好幸服喔

真希望天天能這樣過
天天開開心心的
天天和大家一起鬧一起玩
天天像箇白痴似的

哈哈
昨天本想打麻將哈哈
結過大家都被我煩著訂菜
哈哈 沒想到你們都不吃辣的喔
哈哈

nigel說的對
應該多拍照
因為都是我們美好的回意
反正羅偉庭也需要把msn照片換換吧



對了
昨天我們也一邊聽音樂
有很多歌
發現daniel都很喜歡聽亂七八遭的音樂
哈哈
我request了一些五月天的music
快樂ing 和 私奔到月求
可找不到快樂ing
哈哈可是我覺的是因為我昨天一直在著happy-ing instead
哈哈啊 難怪找不到
nigel 明明就說有
然後也應了彩虹
也唱了兩次

讓我想到我們longweekend 和 thanksgiving break
thanksgiving 那時還記得我一直唱彩虹
唱得大家都好煩喔哈哈哈
然後longweekend是因為大家都在ktv
然後不知道是誰點了五月天的很多歌
還記得daniel說
幹我們是要把五月天的整個傳機給唱完嗎
哈哈太好笑了
每當是五月天的大家都 CUT!
CUT CUT CUT!
可是下一首歌都也是五月天的
哈哈

昨天真的好好玩
雖然是在學校可是有一種不在護其他事的感覺
玩得很痛快
好像longweekend 和 thanksgiving和大家在一起的時後
好想念喔
現在又在聽周杰倫的彩虹
真是讓我又開心又傷心的
可是我認為
就算以後大家分散了
聽著這些歌 （五月天，陳小春，陪你看星形的歌．．．）
都是一種回意
都會有一種親契感
都會想起我們那時那刻的情景

真希望我永遠都不會望記我們現在這個樣子
如過我望了請你們幫我記住

嗚由～
我生日要到了喔！
哥哥姊姊你們要送我禮物嗎
ㄛㄏㄛㄏㄛㄏㄛㄏㄛ
:D:D:D

啊由
我好智障喔
哈哈哈

對了
我們昨天下午還去看basketball比賽
超好看的！！！
早知道就以前的比賽也都去
算了啦
可是昨天的真的很好看！！！
jv和varsity
起是jv比較...
怎麼說啊
因為是認試的人吧
所一就比較... GOOOOOO!的感覺hahaha
if you know what i mean -.- hahahah
可是varsity也是
oh yeah
昨天我們(actually more like me and jean)都一直笑其他隊
每次penalty shot 還可以miss
他們是在想什麼啊！！
哪像我們的王嚇啊！
對他來說根本就是nothing麻！
哈哈哈
我們昨天真是太賤了哈哈哈
可是我們賤得好爽勒
哈哈哈
daniel也是超力害的！！！
每當隊員把球給他們兩 我跟ㄓㄣ就會YES!!!
不然我們就會一直說 傳給王嚇啊
笨蛋笨蛋
你在想什麼啊
然後也有什麼 you can do it! 之纇的
哈哈哈

最好笑的是當bobby用疲骨撞別隊的一個男的時後
他整個人飛走了
我跟jean笑到半死
後來harrison說這種事情常發生 只是我們很少來看比賽所一都很少見
哈哈啊
可是十在太好笑了
根本就是精點麻！！

然後craig也是很好笑
一直說有的沒的
他在varsity game 的時後也有cheer
那什麼student section 的
超好笑
什麼 is that not the winning team (yes that is the winning team)
is that not the losing team (yes that is the losing team)
超酷的！！！
這才叫SPIRIT麻！！！:D:D:D

哈哈哈

然後我們看varsity match 的時後
王嚇說他的手痛
因為剛才比賽時紮到椅子
我就說去找trainer啊
kallas聽到以後就that's right, go look for the trainer
tha'ts what i assumed she said
去找trainer啊
他學我講話哈哈哈
他說都要加個啊
好像以前他coach baseball的時後
有個日本男的
back back back!!
他一直跟他說
可那男的不back
然後kallas 就叫另一個男的跟他說
那男的就說back 啊！
然後那男的就back了
我們整個就哈哈哈的
kallas 然後就一直對我們啊啊啊的
哈哈哈

oh yeah
對呀
王嚇也是
每當投球時都會啊的一聲哈哈哈
昨天真是太好笑了

真是太好玩了:D:D:D

오죠라고?
지금 2:29AM, 근데, 나 진짜진짜 힘들어도 피곤해.
아...
오떡하니...
college apps 있어. 숙재도 있어..
우우~ (;^;)

코리나! 공부해라!
힘내라! 파이팅!
아자!

응!!!

... 자고싶어 -.-

It's the kind of thing you take a great deep breath and let it all out and then get started on your work at hand. That's what I think of the task I've just put in place for myself. Chances of success I'm not sure; I dont' even want to calculate it - it'll be too tedious at this stage of the plan. Once I've actually thought of something, then maybe the clouds will clear up and part, and make way for the glorious sun. I hope it's a bull, not a bear. Bull and bear huh? Go bull!

P.S.: I feel ashamed that all I could think of before was how to advantage of the situation. While that is good, sometimes, we should do more "useful" stuffs too. And, well, nobody said I can't do both at the same time right? Anyway, like Misaki and Hikaru in Angelic Layer, they've proven to me that it is very possible and plausible and probable (sorry I can't decide which word to use) that weaknesses can be turned into strengths (especially if you know how to play your cards - make use of the situation/change the situation). SO HANG IN THERE CORINNA! (and to all those other people who are trying to effect change).

P.S.2.: Suddenly thought of the word "effect", which in turned led me to think of "affect". Ah, I need to figure out the difference between the two. SAT words. -.- Haha

Yeah!

I recently came across 趙治勲's Elementary Go Problems. I was so happy I could do the first problem. You see, I haven't actually played Go for a really long time, and for that I seriously felt ashamed for myself. It seems that procrastination is a great big weakness of mine for now, which I honestly and sincerely want to correct at some point. Hopefully soon. Ah, see? That's the procrastinator talking again. Summer is already ending, and I haven't finished my summer reading. And for that I feel very ashamed too. But somehow not as much as for not playing Go. I guess the reason is simple. Summer reading, is, well, summer reading. While they can enhance my reading skills, blabla, intellect, maturity, blabla, I realize that Go has always had this special place in my heart. While I cannot deny that it is because of (藤原の) 佐為, (進藤) ヒカル, as well as (塔矢) アキラ from ヒカルの碁 who actually lighted this flame of love for 囲碁, I... respect, not knowing what word best describes this relationship I have with Go (but I think "respect" is a really good word), Igo and its profoundness which comes from its "obscene" simplicity.

And so as I went online to check for Affordable Go boards, I cam across (easily) those US$300+ boards, oh and of course not forgetting those Go boards, the type with legs, that cost around US$1,700+. It is pretty amazing how much they cost. I'm not saying they should cost less because it's really good wood they use, and from them emanates an air of austerity and a profound-esque aura. But you see, a poor school girl like me who hasn't even started college, simply has no money to buy such expensive things. A Go board at that too; imagine me trying to convince my dad that we should spend US$300 on "a piece of wood with lines". And I don't even think these include the stones. Which are going to cost money too. So for now, I just need to settle with getting the really thin no-legs Go board. I mean, I don't mind no-legs, but hey, come on, thicker will be fine, right? And I like it bigger too, because if it's tiny, every time I place the stones on the board, I'm bound to hit the surrounding stones. Imagine atari. Oh man.

Ahh~! But I really want those Go boards (tables, actually), the type with legs... (as quoted from ヒカル from ヒカルの碁) Hahah.

あ〜！(here I was supposed to insert the exact quote ヒカル said to his grandfather about wanting the kind of Go boards with legs, but I can't seem to find it anywhere online! And my ヒカルの碁 is with Lijie, so I'll just update this place when I get to it :))

Till then, take care :D!

I suddenly feel like eating those chocolate-covered sunflower seeds.

Oh yeah, why is it that my music is not playing? Even before I revamped my blog, somehow one day my music just stopped playing. I thought it was because I neglected my blog too much and then there were too many "technical" changes, what with blogger and google, blabla. So I left it alone. Then now, after revamp, and changing blog skin, and rewriting a lot of stuffs, and changing songs, MY SONG IS STILL NOT PLAYING! Why!!! Does anybody know why?!!!

Agh, ok. I'm a self-confessed hopeless person. Reason? Meh, I'm obsessed with my own blog now that I've revamped it. I mean seriously, opening the blog every few hours just to see the picture and the layout? And now writing a blog entry at like, what, 4.50AM? Seriously!

I was just reading through some of my old posts (from being narcissistic about my "new" blog) and feelings of nostalgia rushed back to me. To borrow a phrase I've used earlier, it's the "rivers meeting the seas (or oceans)" syndrome. For the longest time (ok, maybe not that long, but anyway), I have been suffering from the withdrawal symptoms from quitting choir. Nanyang Choir, to be exact. Nanyang Choir is just, a league of its own. Perhaps people might argue that their choirs are so much better, with whomever and so-and-so *and rolls eye at Nanyang Choir*, but you see, everybody's existence in a choir makes a difference, and it is such differences that makes a choir that choir. Even then, having the same "platform", what each choir is to its (her) members is different. The experiences, the people you meet, the section you're in, the bonds you form, the things you choose to do and choose not to do. And Nanyang Choir has an irreplaceable place in my heart. Much as I miss it, I also know that it is time to move on and to not dwell in the past. After all, what good would that do? People come and go; those I know are mostly not in Nanyang Choir anymore. Qui Jun, Yuru, Soh Ee, JieHui (I wonder where she is now, anybody knows?); they're all in universities now. Cherie, Angeline, Ligeng, Vivian, Liyi; they're all pursuing their individual paths now, and starting college soon. Then we have Lilin, Melissa, Yubai, Miaoqin, Meisi, Suet; they are all finishing J2 and thinking about their options already. Next we have my batch. Ahh, to think we were all just Sec1s entering choir, being timid and scared of everybody and anybody in choir. Then Jacqueline and Jiamin. I think they're all going to handover soon too. Goodness, it seems that my batch had just handed over not long ago too! Everybody's everywhere now. I wonder if it is ever possible to gather together again and sing. Once again, as the group that I once know, as the Nanyang Choir as I know it.

I remember, I used to bug everybody at random times to sing Ants Summer (that's how this blog got its name, in case you haven't noticed that - Haha) and Gloria (less just because it has so many different parts). And I remember all those random little things. How someone once told me usually alternate batches are closer to each other. How Miss Lim scolded us when (after, actually) we had that Czech guy (I think) come over to give us a workshop. How our singing always will warrant a "Bronze or COP" right before SYF. How we sounded "kanasai" (Haha Miss Lim). How I sang "Ni Wa Wa" right before SYF 2005 when in the line-up outside of the hall we were going to perform/compete in; I remember I was standing next to Miaoqin and she told me to "shut up" (Haha Miaoqin). How Cherie gave me a tuning fork and really motivated me and taught me so much. Thank you Cherie. How JieHui conducted us with her hair "chopsticks" after a twirl during one of our own FOA rehearsals (I think it is actually the FOA day itself - the afternoon/night). How Miss Lim scolded us about our poor discipline and sound during FOA 2004 (I don't think it's 2003; I don't know, my memory is failing me - that is also kind of why I'm writing this). How Cherie and I would tease Cheryl. How Miaoqin and I always compare our heights. How there was this joke about Sop1 SLs getting shorter and shorter over time, with Qui Jun at the top, then Cherie, then Miaoqin, then me. How Maria and I "fought" over the butterfly necklace at Prague, only to find out that the stall has two of them (after I bought the first one over which we fought - Haha). How Maria and I are shopping buddies. How Maria and I share one room (I think; see what I mean? I'm starting not to remember things). How Angeline wrote "Meaty" (Haha!). How we ran around the hotel in the morning when we were at Prague. How Miss Lim thought we were weird because we sounded better in the cold of the outdoors. How Miss Lim had a scarf and we got her a hat (or was it the other way round?). How we got only a Silver in Prague. How I had to miss our 2004 concert because I just came back from London that same day (crap, I don't even remember the name of our concert). How Cherie was the "goat" in Odelayhee Odelayhee Odelayheehoo. How Tricia was the "girl in pale pink coat". How the "goat" is still in the library of M301. How we'd silently and subtlely fight with String Ensemble for practice space aka. M301 back when we had Saturday practices. How our practices used to be Fridays 330-530 and Saturday 1030-1300. How Maria and Sylvia would hide the shoes of whom were not properly placed (here I was tempted to use "stowed" - Haha, too much Airplane dramas) on the shoe racks outside the music rooms. How we'd all sing on the bus (and how I begged everybody to please sing Ants Summer and Gloria) on the way to Esplanade (I believe, though I don't remember why). How Rachel Ong told me that we're the only few people left who still know how to sing those songs (because We're sec3 then? But I don't think so, considering she went NJC in Sec3) - we learned those songs in Sec1!. How we'd have extra practices by the fish pond/pond/koi pond (I don't even remember what we used to call it) with Melissa teaching us "La Cucaracha" with the tape recorder playing the "original version" - that was back when they were "building"/renovating the science labs on the first floor and how the middle area used to be blank space with all those showcases of preserved stuffs (wait, maybe that's level2 or maybe both floors - I don't remember, I think that might have been when I was going into Sec3? I don't know!!!). How Miss Lim said something during my Sec1 audition that made me so happy (I only remembered this as I was reading through my old posts; I wouldn't have remembered it otherwise - really ironic, considering I myself wrote that I'd never forget what she told me forever). Chieh! Forever, it's only been 4 years, and here I am, confessing that I don't remember. What is this?

The Nanyang Choir I know is no more. And even though it's gone, I hope I will remember it in its entirety and keep all the memories choir has given me throughout those (I was very tempted to write "these") four wonderful years. I just hope as choir regenerates itself with each coming batch, choir will be just as special to them as it was to me. Choir has definitely affected me in a way I never thought it would. For that, I am very thankful. I was SC but I didn't do a good job, yet the choir still accepted me and helped me and taught me. I guess I wasn't quite ready to take on such a role. Yet, now, after more than a year, as I stand from another point and look at the past, I can't help but be very thankful for everything. Choir has helped me so much, has given me so much, I just hope my being in choir has somehow benefitted the choir and other people too. Other than that, I don't quite know how else I can contribute back at the moment. If I could, I would turn back time and do a better job. But I can't. Yet I don't know if I actually would do that even if I could. Because maybe then, I wouldn't appreciate choir as much? As they say, you appreciate things more when they're gone. I guess that is very true. So here, I'd just like to say "sorry" and "thank you!" :)

I'd also like to take this opportunity to thank all committee members as well as members of the choir for making choir choir. And good luck and jiayou to current members and future committee members as well as new incoming members every year. Choir is as only splendid and special as you and your fellow members make it to be. Choir is a community that is an individual but does not exist individually.

I miss choir.
Mariaaaaa~ *whines to Maria*

All right! よっしゃ！And so the story goes: I've changed my blog skin. How'd you guys like it? I thought it's pretty nice and sweet. I was going to give up on finding a likeable and suitable blog skin, then I stumbled upon this. Not going to say how this is love at first sight and all those "shiitake" (to borrow the word from Guy Kawasaki) -sidenote: haha, all right, I'm going to use the word "mushroom" from now on; hahaha! Shiitake mushroom! Banzai!- I just thought this skin is pretty reasonable; it's decent. Oh, all right, it's nice. And somehow I felt French-y, and thus all the traces of French you see around here. でもいいですね。Oh, and, I forgot to mention, Japanese.

So, it's the summer holidays. For those of you in Singapore, it's probably when all the hectic schedule starts pouring in like rivers meeting the seas (or oceans, for that matter). It's pretty nostalgic: all those cramming sessions during the end of June holidays, trying to finish all the holiday homework, trying to (pretend to) study for the Term 3 tests (ah! I remember those tests all lined up in Term 3 Week 7, except a few random ones in Week 4 and probably 6 or something like that). Oh well, for those of you experiencing all these hectic-ness, good luck and take care. I have nothing else to offer you except words of condolences (which I refuse to shower you with). Meh! Just kidding.

For those of you enjoying Summer holidays (like me, kind of), YAY! for us! Did you guys go to the beach? Haha, quintessential Summer experience. So far, I think it has rained about 3 days here since end June. So it's pretty much sunny out. Sometimes the breeze is really nice, yet sometimes it's pretty hot, like Singapore, though I doubt it's as scorching and blistering... Hahah. Oh but that day, I think it's Friday actually, yeah I'm pretty sure it's Friday, it was raining and it was so cold out! Like it was fall-winter season. I think it's the whole wind chill thing (we never got wind chill in Singapore -.- even the winds were hot -.-). But in general, いい天気だなぁ！Well, I have been working (yes, I got that Yale internship :D) since end of June officially, but I only really started work in mid-July because my lab person was away on meetings/holidays/whatever and thus the delay in the start. Which kind of enabled me to slack around (even more) in the frat house I am living in (yes, I live in a frat house FOR THE MOMENT) as well as explore the city of New Haven (no, I'm not with the EXPLO kids -it seems the town people don't really like them, well at least there's a Facebook group against them; wow.). But during my stay here at New Haven, I've made new friends and opened up a bit more, or a lot more, depending on how you view this whole perspective. But all's good. So I'm happy (and you should be too, don't ask me why).

It is only recently that I found a few gems in New Haven though. Having a Yale ID is so much fun; seriously, you get discounts from half the stores here (i.e. I went to JCrew and they had this discount off some of their items and I still got further discount - it was amazing; you could imagine how happy I was). Oh and even though the air conditioning isn't on and it's pretty hot in the practice rooms, Hendrie Hall is a pretty amazing place. I love the sense of community I get. While it was quite empty when I was there to play the piano and everything, but as I walk around the place and to go up to the third floor of practice rooms, I went by a few bulletin boards. And there were just so many postings on it: piano competition, glee club news, rental information, etc. It might not seem much, but I feel a sense of community and belonging, that people are willing to help one another out, that people are all friendly to one another, that people are not afraid to ask for help, that people are people, in essense.

Talking about Yale, I haven't even gone for the tour -.- albeit being here for about 2 months already. Oh well, I'll go on Tuesday or something (I hope) -my lab person is in Arizona so I don't have work till Wednesday! Yay!. I love my lab. Not because of the holidays and such, because I assure you, sometimes we work pretty long hours (not 9-5 though haha), although I'm pretty sure my professor will disagree with me on that point.

Oooh! And last month (actually about 2 weeks ago), I went to NYC! To watch CALLE 13 (and go see NYU)! And there, I saw Lindsay Lohan (at CALLE 13's concert, duh, not NYU - By the way sidenote: somebody actually asked where the Olsen twins live during the NYU tour; that was so funny. Oh but apparently MK left NYU or something like that, or both of them did; I don't quite remember; but it seems they are quite "low profile" at NYU, as in not many people actually know where they are at the moment. Haha! Oh and I don't know if it's MK or Ashley, but apparently one of them skipped French class! Haha!)! Hahaha. Not that that should actually make any difference, but... Haha. I have some pictures which I took with my phone (Oh yeah! I got a new phone while I was in Singapore!! - totally excited!!) but somehow after I have uploaded them to Shutterfly.com I can't seem to "right click, save picture to desktop". I mean, some of them are "retrievable" but others are just "un-retrievable"; sorry for the lack of vocabulary. But in any case, yeah. The ones that are "retriveable" aren't that good of a picture, and so I don't think I'll be uploading them here. Oh that reminds me! They were shooting Indiana Jones here, like right in front of the street where I am living. It was pretty amazing: they blocked the roads, changed the road signs, redecorated the street shops and clothed them in the 1960s style, old vintage cars that apparantly were from people's private collections (!!! Must have worth a ton!!!), actors and actresses all donned in the 1960s fashion (the make-up artists were brilliant - their make-up was so flawless: smooth and "glowing" brown (as opposed to being dull) and just simply amazing, it was as if they were fake!)! Seriously! (Haha, Grey's Anatomy) They changed Starbucks to a pub called 20 cents Draft if I don't remember wrongly. They even had these Guiness posters on the windows! It was amazing. Oh except that we the roadtakers have to wait a super long time just to cross the roads or walk the streets. It actually took me about 2 hours to get to my dinner which is just about 2-3 blocks away from where I live. I was so hungry.

Oh, by the way, I cut my hair. Now it looks like Rukia from Bleach/花ざかりの君たちへ's 芦屋瑞稀. Haha, it's pretty amazing.

As the new year approaches, I have decided that I should revamp my blog and give it a whole new look. Create a new style, give it a new facelift, don on an original fashion; or so I'd like to say, but unfortunately yours truly has not much idea of how to use html albeit taking lessons in my -ahem- younger years. I can handle basics, but that's about it; French couture for blogs? Nah, I need a designer.

And as you might have noticed too, I have decided (as the new year approaches) that I shall evolve and venture into more mature writings, aka. write in proper English, with proper Capitalisation (hah! pun!), punctuation and spelling. And not to forget grammar (haha, I'm so humorous).

But of course, there is always time for fun too :D like this, with emoticons.

In any case, this is just an entry to let people know that at least I'm not dead and am very much alive (and kicking!). I'll try to update as much as I can though I can't make any promises because I seriously need to start on my summer reading and college essays. It's a bother I have to concern myself with (eventually) and it seems that "eventually" is near.

As such, I shall start to look for new blogskins now.

Till then, take care !

she just checked her inbox
she got a mail
it says "2 days ago"
a few lines down
there was another
"05/31/07"

was that day so long ago
it wouldn't register
as a ".. days ago"?

she checked her calendar
it's the 4th today

when was it that he left?
wasn't it yesterday?
no it was the 2nd

when was it that she gave him the letter?
wasn't it jsut 2 days ago?
no she wrote it 06/01

then she finally realized
the concept so simple
the concept she has always been writing about:
time flies

and she just broke down and
cry

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she looked so happy
a smile so bright apparent
did she know then
that she'll be so sad today?

they had exchanged gifts
parting gifts
but gifts nonetheless
- a piece of him
a piece of her:
a letter and a cheesehead

he even had her flower from christmas
she knew he'd care
maybe, maybe not
but he made her so happy anyway

she loved him so
she held onto the cheesehead
but so tight she held it
she lost it

and now
he's gone
the cheesehead gone too
and she's sitting all alone
reminiscing about all those times
as she sees her picture with him
standing side by side
smiling ever so brightly

Labels: mm and rr

omg
i'm soooo proud. you have no idea.
well it's not my colelge acceptances, but they're my firneds and i'm jsut so happy and proud for them.
they make me sooo inspired and motivated, you have no idea how much i want to do all my hw and get stellar grades now.
its like, OMG.
like O M G. O M M G G.
yesh


oh ymy!!!!
congratulations to snow li to princeton!!
congratulations to ben bell to upenn!!
congratulations to halimah to amherst!!
congratulations to R.J. to pomona!!!
congratulations to jai to all your various colleges!! though i know you're still waiting for some more!!
congratulations to andrew wells to berk lee (though you're rejecting berk lee - muahahahaha)!!!
congratulations to the whoever who got into yale! ahahahaha
congratulations to sandy to u of virginia!!
congratulations to charmaine to u of southern california!!

OMG and the list goes on
the college acceptances are soooo good this year!!!!

anyway JISU! 우리 파이팅!
아랐어?
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

:D
have a great day everybody!!! :)
:D

corinna is feeling the blade in her heart; itunes freakin' deleted her whole library.

it seems a while since i've last updated.
it seems a while ago since i opened this account.
and suddenly i jsut feel like writing some stuff.

life has been good.
still is ahha. but it seems so fast.
first we were secc1s. then sec4s. and now everybody's in jc. and we're all looking into university options already. its tough. to narrow down searches. its so tiring. beacuse i do'tn actually knwo what i want to be. but recently, i have this wish to be a surgeon. maybe its coz of all the grey's anatomy i've been wathcing. ahhahaah but ohw ell. its nice. being a surgeon i mean.

haven't been doing alot of stuffs these days. i've learnt the ways of procrastination. once again. yes. but i need to get back on track soon. if i really want to go med school. ahha.

tlaking of med school, that reminds me of my internship application. i sooo do hope that i get that internship. it'll be sooo cool. its like your'e wokring with the real med ppl. and seeing how things work. wow. imagine me with a scalpel muahahhaha. well i've held one before. except that that was in biology class.. i guess i did dissect that pig heart. sitll. it's going to be oh so different. hahaha it excites me jsut to think about it. haha

and its soo cool especially its in yale. and in a city. like new haven. like a city city. ahahha honeslty, cheshire is nice. but new haven is mnuch nicer. ok well, cheshire is fine i guess. not nice like nice nice but its still nice you know. but it gets a little not fun sometimes. oh well.

ooh and in the summer, i'm giong to rent an apt! how cool is that? sooo cool right! ahhaha

oh and i decided not to apply for the venture grant already.. i acn't even if i want to anyway, ... the deadline's like tomorrow. actually today technically, since it's past midnight ahha. :D oh well i hope they let seniors apply :D thn i can apply next year.

i do do do do so hope i get my internship though :D
yay

hmm the people here are nice. well i mean they're normal. you have the bunch of nice ppl. and the bunch of not nice ppl. and the other bunch that is in between. most of my firneds are nice ppl. then again, they wouldn't be my frineds if they weren't ritgh ahah considering how the not nice ppl would just stick to their own "prearranged" group of "nice frineds" ahha. oh well

ooh yeah. i lvoe my ap music theory class people. well two of them anyway. wel there are only 5 of us. ahhaha and i'm one of them. so that leaves 4 people for me to like. and well i'd say the really nice ones are just the 2 of them. ahaha and they're really funny and corny.

like for halloween, we could wear costumes to school as part of the festivities, one wore this cheesehead. the other wore a big banana suit ahah it was hilarious.

then there's this genius in my math class. omg. he's a realy real genius. like his genius-ity is leaking out of him even though he wasn't being ego. oh and he's like one of the nation's top sabre fencer too. ahhaha its nice to watch him fence. its jsut a different level. then again , we're talking school here. so yeah. its always a different level when somebody's really good. ahah apparantly when he's angry when fencing, its amusing to watch, according to my firned. i was suppsoed to go watch the fencing match today but i overslept and missed it. and i missed him shouting at the director! ahhahah i bet it was so amusing. oh well.

then there is this super pro pianist. omg. she's fabulous. she's more of a concert pianist than anything. as in. her best music ability is playin the piano. and when i say playing, i mean like, those concert pianist, where the fingers run so effortlesslly like they're normal. you know. yeah. she's that amazing. but i think she's not very challenged in this school environment for her piano playing. becuase you can tell from the playing. i'm not sauying she's bad. just saying, there's something lacking, just a little, but next year sh'ell porbably be better, since sh'ell be going on to college, where she can really sutyd music in a more, well, music environment. currently, the music program in my school is not that great. actually its pretty bad. but we have some amazing players. like this girl

and in my ap music theory class, that 2 nice ppl? one plays the cello and the other guitar. they're both really cool ppl. the cello guy plays really nicely on the cello its really sweet. the guitar guy always randomly plays something on teh guitar it is amazing. and a few days ago we jsut had a winter concert. and that guitar guy did this cool improvisation thing on the electric guitar for his bad. it was so cool. ahha

then there's htis guy in my english class he's soo good with his english. like he's got this i'm-good-in-english aura around him. hahah kind of like hey-respect-me ahhaahha but no he's not cocky. most of the good ppl and smart ppl in my school are not cocky which is a really nice thing honestly.

and they always come with a really ncie sense of humor :D

ooh yeah my phsycis teacher is AMAZING omg. i actually understand physics and can occasionally do well. haahha my physics teacher is really amazing though. class is always funny. but somehow i always walk out of class learning something. and the best part is even though its physics class, i learn alot about oterh stuff too because my teahcer is like one of those "i know the world" guy. ahahhah and he does all this amazing inventing machines thing. and he loves the earht. as in. he wants to help humanity. you know. and that's really nice. and refreshing. becuase this world has enough of those selfish moneyminded guy who thinks ony for himself, or for humanity, but not for the earth. so there. yupp! totally respect my teahcer

my english teacher is sooo funny toohahahha but someitmes i feel so bad. coz i procrastinate so much for his class. the work adn everything. yet he's always so nice to us. kidn of makes me feel so bad. jisu would agree with me.

jisu is my really really good friend. i find that we're kidn of similar. we're both prcrastinators. we're both smart (thank you:D). we're both interested in medicine. we're both lame. we're both curious and interested in things. and most importantly, we're both short. well jisu will disagree on my last point. she loves the fact that she's taller than me, albeit my constant assertion that she's only that much taller, which makes it pretty negligible. but whatever. haah we share first, second, third, fourth, and seventh periods. see? we're so similar. and the other times when we're not sharing the same period, we're actaully sharing the same "calsses". like i have sixth physics but hers is eighth phsycis. the only difference in uor schedule is that she takes french and i spanish. and uh. she's french 3. i'm spanish UNO. ahhah as she likes to point out. oh and i take ap music theory. she doens't. but oh well. alll's cool. oh and we both teach in the middle school.well "teach". hhah we "Assist" ahhaha. kind of. now that i think about it, doesn't that sound so cool? teaching assistant. AHHAHAHAHAHHAH

ok ignore me. ahha

oh the best part about classes is that sometimes, ppl think you're doing something totally different from what you're actually really oding. for example. in us history class, i'm silent. coz i dont' read so ic an't "contribute" save fromt eh occasional bull-ing ahhaha (reference to english class's reading on cow-ing and bull-ing - ahahaha) anyway yeah. but my frined (who happens to live in my same dorm, but downstairs - i live on teh second floor) :D, she thought iw as totally paying attention. but not, i was merely staring into space and randomyl thinking or something. observing perhaps. ahhaha about the snow outide the window. or the pigeons that seemed to migrate for the winter. or the green grass. or wahtever. haha

oh well. :D

life is good :D

i want an ipod. i do.

oh man. i haven't been updating since aeons ago.
haha
i swear i did try.. really! but the posts are all int he draft status BECAUSE I HAVEN'T FINISHED THEM YET.
ahah
oh well.

ok so there.
i've just updated.
ok maybe not
but once i hit the "publish" button, i will have updated.
yeah i'm going to hit it.

there you go.






hahahaha.
such randomness nowadays.


urghhhs

i have been feeling happy these few days. well more accurately, since yesterday.
no. its not because of the holidays. believe me, its not.
its just that i've finally "reconciled" with my friend.
well not reconciled, becuase we did that some time ago arleady.
its just htat its only really being put to practice. as in.
you really cen feel that kind of warmth and friendliness coming back.
and its really nice.

i might have been too proud to admit this but yeah. i missed her.
and i'm really glad we're ok again.
she is one of my best friends just a few years ago. ok maybe not a few years.
okok, how about: shes one of my best friends for these few years. yeah that sounds more correct.. and because of some i dunno. i'll just term that as misunderstanding. and we kinda. stopped talking. i guess.
well all that's over. so who cares

i'm just glad that we're back together again.
and i hope we'll stay this way.

i guess being friends is all about giving chances.
becuase my other friend (another one. also a best friend of mine) well..
when i went a different way, she waited for me and take me along with her.
and i'm very very grateful for that.
really. honest.

and i think i've come to treasure my frinedships a lot.
becuase i don't wanna lose any of them for the sake of otehrs.
because then, it won't be a friendship.

am i making sense?
yeah i am.

haha oh wow.
that must have been one of my truest truest truest post in this entire blog.
haah

i hope all of you reading this will really treasure your friendships.
becuase really, they're not worth breaking.

they're worth treasuring

because they are your friends

yi an yi an yi an

YES its her recital today!
went out with sandra and clarissa for dinner today.
mos burger!!!!!

that woman. EATS A LOT. clarissa that is.
she just eats and eats and eats.
a burger.
a drink.
a packet of fries.
a packet of mussels.
and another packet of mussels.
then that frozen straberrieS. with the S.

oh and she ate some pancakes before that.
and after mos burger.
she bought more pancakes.

then while waiting for her royal highness to finish eating at mos burger, me and sandra are FREEZING... and that woman keep taunting us, saying about how she's got a jacket. *urghs. rolls eyes* and me and san totally wanted to leave her there while we go buy some food.. +) hehe.

ohthen we found this nice neat little colorful shop. opposite the pancake shop. actualyl about the pancake, they're like martabaks. haha. if i spelt correctly that is.

anyway about that shop right, its so cute!!! me and san love it :) its so bright and cheery and colorful. makes you really really happy!

then on the way to the vch! me and san were ganging up on clarr!!!!! that was REALYL REALLY fun. and san was sooooo funny. ahha

anyway at the concert. we noticed a few things.
1) yi an walks VERY Quickly
2) we see so many ppl!!

about point 1. YEAH! yi an walks SOOOOOOOO QUICKLY K. but ooh her gown is cute :)
point2. YEAH WE SAW SO MANY OF OUR FRIENDS! first saw rachel, rebecca, charmaine. thought i didn't see celine. then saw jonathan and angela. angela's pinkie as usual. and jonathan's black as usuall. ahahahah! ooh then i saw my school friends and seniors. but it wasn't until the end of concert that i saw my choir juniors -.- haha.

anyway! yeah it feels like a gathering!!! OH THEN WE SAW CHERRIE!! ahahha that NATIONAL GYMNAST. =) so pro!! rachel's like the president and student conductor of rg handbells. and charmaine's the student conductor of rg choir. and there's cherrie the singapore nation gymnast. arghh. then yi an there looking all pro (i esp love her encore piece and that debussy's estampes jardins sous la pluie - apparantly its an lrsm piece that rachel and clarr are playing. haha). gahh!- where does that put me . haha.

anyway yeah. then after the whole concert, was sitting down with san and cherrie (clarr left). actually more like sitting down with cherrie and jolene (sorry if i spelt it wrongly) and san's standing there. like SHOWING OFF HER HEIGHT. HAH! jk!! hahaha. anyway yeahh. apparantly sh'es taller than cherrie ahah and cherrie's 162 only. BUT SHE LOOKS SO MUCH TALLER!! ahahha. anyway yeahh. then its between me and joelene. the shorties. haha. well well well she's shorter than me. then again, she should be. sh'es sec 2... ahahha oh oh. sh'es cherrie's gym junior. AND OMG. SHE'S SO CUTE :)
haahha

oh yeah. before we went out and all, we actually gave this cute velvet flower to yi an hahaah :)

oh yeah. saw joshua there too. that little "punkster". the always act cool one. HAHAHAA. now everytime i see him i always rememebr that time when he threw smth which hit zara's violin or smth and caused the bridge to collapse. like 2 ITEMS BEFORE HER AND SAN'S ITEM K. and he didn't even apologise. but he did look scared. haha! oh well. yeah.

but today's really fun. got to see all those ppl. all those childhood friends :)
it's been loooong since we've seen one another.

oh yeah. and jonathan's got alot of my potential nychoirconcert-goers!!!

CASE ONE
me: heyy! must come for choir concert k!!
melissa: when?
me: 7 july!
melissa: isn't that like the same day as jonathan's concert?
me: yeahh!! come for mine x)
melissa: i can't... he asked me first. sorry

CASE TWO
me: heyy! must come for choir concert k!!
cherrie: oh when?
me: 7 july!!
cherrie: oohh. but i'm going for jonathan's concert. sorry!

and the list goes on...
argh. haha
well he is fast in asking ppl i guess. aiya aiya aiya!!
hahahaha
oh well. wish you have a great concert!
with yi an right! yeah!
sorry couldn't go. have my own concert too!!! hahaah
ok not my own

NYGH CHOIR CONCERT 2006
COSI BELLO
JULY 7, 2006, 7.30PM
NYGH SIEW MAY AUDITORIUM
TICKETS AT $12/- EACH!

WE WELCOME YOU :)

hello people.
i'm back.

it feels weird to be writing so much in a few days time. especially when i've just came out from hibernation. how many months was that? two? haha.

anyway. as i was saying (or not), i went hwachong choir concert earlier today! ok, before that i actaully WENT SHOPPING! yay! SHOPPING! yup.

went out with my mommie. then got this NICE SILVER STAR SHINING BAG :) i looooooovvvvvvvvveeeee it! x) then ate dinner at ding tai feng's. ate some dandanmian which is SO PEANUTY. but its pretty good. at least i quite like it. hee.

anyway, today's programme is... GO HWACHONG CHOIR CONCERT. its rather fun!! then saw all the seniors. arhhh reminiscence... haahha oh yeah. you know. having all your seniors all in one choir is really expensive. COZ YOU GOTTA GET THEM ALL FLOWERS. and each freakin' rose is like 2 bucks. and daisies are 4 bucks each. its like you pay mroe for the flowers than the ticket! but no ididn't get them rose. hahaha. or daisies for that matter. i bought a bouquet and took out the flower one by one!

i had two lilies. gave one to lilin. AND SHE REJECTED. like how can?!?! anyway duynno what happened to that lily. got another one, gave to miao qin. hahaha. AND JACQUELINE WAS LIKE: whoever gave this flower can go bash her up. so qian bian. HALLO?!? ME. ME DID. ME GAVE HER. jacqueline you idiot. -.- haha.

anyway. yes. then oh ya. the concert. they sang sigulempong!!! hhahaha. that's the song that we sang and screwed up too. for choir idol. last december. me mree sylvia and cheryl. hahahaha! it was so toot. but nevermind.. hcchoir did justice to it :)

oh then. BINNAMMA! (did i spell correctly? it looks wrong...) anyway its WHOO!~ NICE.

thenthenthen. the FINALE. its SO GRAND. ITS LIKE TWO CHOIRS COMBINED. and both are superb choirs. arhhh! love love love!! they sang shinjiru. OMG. its a NICE SONG. but i OMG-ed for a different reason. BECAUSE THAT IS ALSO OUR FINAL ITEM. with chiense high. or rather hwachong institution high school section. but you know. point being. THIS WILL FORESHADOW US. esp when they're better. and ppl will COMPARE. argh. why. pressure pressure. its pressurizing to sing sogns that other choirs have sung before coz then ppl will compare and we'll be so afriad we're worse than them and ppl might like don't like us. blabla. in any case, that doesn't matter now. because hci has already learnt the song. so yeah.

...

all in all. ITS A FUN CONCERT :)
yay

P.S.: REMEMBER TO GO FOR HC CHOIR CONCERTS! THEY'RE GOOD =)

p.s.2.: pay me my advertisement fees :) yeah!

yesterday got back my chinese midyears. well. its ok. at least i've improved. somehow i have this feeling that my chinese is improving but my english is deproving. must one thing improve at the expanse of another? i sure hope not. my english totally suck right now.

anyway, my english ca marks is so bad. i mean. its deproved.. and i have no idea why i got such a low mark for english. usually the gap between english and chinese marks is rather big. now its only a 5-mark gap. what does that say?...

then,... I FAILED MY MATH. well i saw that coming. really. but. my class average is like 59?!?!?! i mean. let's look at it this way. the ppl taking the exams and doing the work are the same. the only variable now, so to speak, is the teacher. last year was ingham. this year is see gek huey. yup. ingham left you see. and last year mid years, we got an average of 80+ i believe becuase the WHOLE CLASS GOT A DISTINCTION FOR MATH. even the lowest (me awww) is 72. and this year? i got 38. like hello. and its not that i dont' want to listen during math class. believe me, i've tried. i've tried, and i've realized that i don't understand and that i'm better off doing my own things and learning myself. while its partly my fault that i dont' listen and therefore got a 38, its not entirely my fault either. its not that i wish to push the blame. but look at it this way if you want, its not just me who dropped as in the marks. the whole calss did. and tell me honestly, which other calss has an average of 50+. at most its usaully 60+ right..? and last year's midyears my class has the highest average in the whole level. and now? ha-ha! i think we're the lowest in the level. omg. i hate her.

in any case, on a light note, i went out today!!!!! :) ahah. it was rather impromptu actually.
had math training today. then was actually about to go home when i decided that hey, perhaps i shuold go out and eat lunch. original plan: eat lunch. so i was going out with bingyu. to plaza sing. had mos burger. I LOVE THE MILK TEA. ALL OF YOU OUT THERE SHOULD GO AND TRY!! ITS SOOOOO UBERLICIOUS! (omg, did i just advertise for mos burger?! they should pay me advertisement fees! :)) anyway, yup. then we went to samuel and kevin. I LOVE SAMUEL AND KEVIN TOO. ahah. courtesy of charmaine. actaully i only know about S&K because charmaine wore this nice pink pants from S&K to ingham's wedding last year. ever since then, i've been on the lookout for S&K. surprisingly, the first S&K shop i found was during my china trip last year. i think it was the one in suzhou yup. coz that's where cheryl and the rest bought the china mua chees. yupyup. then when i'm back in singapore, i suddenly found an S&K shop in plaza sing!
i was so excited!!!

then i corinna-fied bingyu! ahhaa. we were trying all sorts of clothes at S&K. rather fun. haah i made bingyu realize that some things are nice and wearable. haah even if she doesn't think so INITIALLY. haha now she loves them too!!!! haah

then these 2 broke ppl went to eat "dinner". we pooled together 4 bucks and bought ourselves takoyaki. ahah its rather fun. as usual i got the prawn and she bought the octopus. then the guy was serving us. he's like making a pmasterpiece. slowly and artistically squeezin the bottles of mayonaise and sause... -.- so its like one line one line.... hahaha. oh well.

then anyway, when we were going home, bingyu went to the mrt. me too (underpass). then she said: be careful. don't die. ahaha. its actaulyl in reference to a story (nonfiction/fiction) yup. go ask her for more details. its a really nice story. though i dunno if she allow me to write it here. anyway yup. then i went to the bus stop. at first i saw this person. and i was like: who's this... someone i know? (it's backview. dno't ask why i even ask this question. i always do. when i see ppl my height. ahhaa)

then i moved in front of this person and then.. "Corinna!" i turned around and saw... SUET YI! aha! this SIMILAR-HEIGHT PERSON (yes you didn't read wrongly.) is SUET! ahaha. i bet if suet reads this, she'll totally kill me. ahahhaha. anway yup. then she was like: i'm so glad we're not taking same bus. whatever!!!~ ahah. anyway yup, soon her bus came. and i was left to wait my bus in lonely solitude... *sniff* just kidding! my bus came and yup. i went home essentially. haahhaha.

all in all today's a fun day. was finding out the songs hci choir was singing too. (yes i refuse to think it as a vocal ensemble even though the member said its vocal ensemble and not a choir... come on! must be enthusiastic and supportive in the calling of your choir a CHOIR! jajajajajahahaha) anyway yup. then "wade in the water" was actaully misinterpreted by yours truly as "wave in the water" and i was still thinking: what a creative and imaginative name! really. i meant that. not sarcastically really... ahah. its like. so punny. ahaha. then l'amour also misinterpreted as "al'amour" ... -.- what a country bumpkin i am. okay. that's yong ci bu dang. but never mind!

talkign about chinese... i love chiense now. well. at least i'm rather motivated hahah! i can't wait to write more such "nice" short narratives that sweet and short and nice for my portfolio! COME ON CORINNA YOU CAN DO IT! IT'S TIME TO SHINE!!!!!~~~

actually, it's high time i shine.
heh.
ahahhaahahha.

ok shall not degrade myself further!

anyway, shopping with bingyu is SO FUN! i look forward to going out with her again!

ONWARD PROJECT BINGYU CORINNA-STYLE!!!!!!!!!!!
WANSUI!~






oh and. happy birthday friend :)
that is, if you even read this. still. may your wishes come true and be happy :)
happy 18th birthday! :)
















---white chocolate

haku..

oh yeah! i promised i'd blog on this.
gracious, how can i forget about it?!

you know, last monday's chinese mid-years?
it was so totally PROPAGANDA k..

why don't i just show you the situation and you decide for yourself if it's propaganda...

context:
you see.. this certain xx school is having a certain xx event. and apparantly not many, well, at least this certain xx cohort, they're not exactly, let's jsut say, overly-enthusiastic, about this xx event. but this xx school has to promote this xx event right? coz they already planned it and executed the plan and start selling the tickets for this xx event.

so this is the question:
write a personal letter to a friend overseas to talk about the upcoming xx event and how you and your class participated in the process of getting things done for the xx event. include also your thoughts and feelings about this xx event.

SEE? i mean. like who'd write something like:
oh i hate this xx event. i think it's redundant. bla bla.

firstly,
that's just not an acceptable answer for propaganda.
secondly,
they'll just say we have unjustified claims. (but if we write something good about it, they'll probably say we have good points but need more elaboration. or smth like that. i dunno.)
and thirdly,
how about our marks? (look, i'm not making any stand here. i'm jsut ASKING a question.. << for sake of not getting persecuted or smth.) << is it persecuted or prosecuted...
nevermind.

POINT BEING.
it's like. we're FORCED to write something good. ok not forced. rather, it's more like. pressure. pressure to write good things about it.

of course, this exam script is done before the xx school know the xx cohort's response or smth perhaps? so people, hmm! remember not to make assumptions! ha ha *rolls eyes*

sometimes i wonder if i'm pro-xx-school.
ok. i'm not.

URGHS.

long ago, it used to have no name. okay it does. just that i can't remember.
it's, i believe, something along the line of "reflection".
oh there's one before that. that one is really no name.
i called it "improvisation", because it did come from there.
an exercise.
then it was "autumn clouds".
then, next it was called "once upon a time", mr yeo added "(in the land of freedom).
now, it is called "raindream".

and my next one shall be called "nostalgia".

there's alot of suggestions, such as "setsu nai omoi"; that was one of the episode name from naruto. i think it was one of those episodes that has haku in it. as in The Haku Episodes. or rather Zabuza and Haku actaully. but nevermind about that.

I LOVE HAKU!!!!! :):):)

there are other suggestions. but. i just can't remember all of them.

oh yes.
there's one called....
pilgrimage to the past.

and another called...
belladonna lilies.

both are from noir.

oh well... we'll know when the time comes.
when the time is ripe, we shall know.


seek not for the answer,
for it will come'th to you in time.

i can't wait to go hwachong.
then again, maybe i should go rjc.

the best is to go overseas.

hope.
i hope.

xxXxx

hope is a good thing...
... now is it?

okkkkkayyyyy.
i just finished chiense mid-years. did something about self-confidence. ahaha. hope i do fine. at least i feel fine after the exam. then paper 2 came.did as usual. but i was really proud of myself coz i was able to complete the paper in 2 hours! in time you know! like FOUR comprehensions! in CHINESE! you go girl! yeahh! then when i felt so proud and accomplished and everything nice, the teacher said, pens down. and so i did. and i did a final flip of the paper. GAHHHH! i left 2 blanks. AND THAT'S FOUR FREAKIN' MARKS. AND I ACTUALLY GOT ONE OF THE ANSWERS CORRECT. i have no idea why i even left it blank. i thought its like The New Corinna Exam Protocol to NEVER leave anything blank even if i don't know what the answer is.... ok point being. i thought i didn't leave anything blank so i was so CONFIDENT when i flipped through. only to realize i breached protocol. ok so byebye to 4 marks. can't blame anyone but mnyself. oh well.

then had a short choir meeting. hmm. concert. oh well. then talked to mdm yick.
AND GUESS WHAT SHE SAYS?!

we have to pull ppl out of choral ex. BECAUSE THE CHORAL EX ORGANISING THING PPL SAYS THERE'S NO SPACE. SO CAN ONLY HAVE 10. we're trying to get 15 in because they DID say 10-15 in the email they sent us. note that 10-15... so yup. but i dunno if we can get through so many people. in any case, this means: RETRENCHMENT. yes people, you saw the word. it's RETRENCHMENT.

apparantly they want us to get those MUSCIALLY INCLINED and able to SIGHT-SING INDEPENDENTLY. so basically, you must learn music or at least be able to sight-sing well somehow. like maybe is the note patterns. like art. aha! oh well. ok i'm not laughing at that ok! i'm just amused at myself. coz of....

i talked to this certain person today. am rather irritated that's why. kindly ignore me. hehe.

in any case, on a lighter note!

CONCERT WAS SO FUNNNNNNN!
i still don't feel like that's the last of it honestly. i mean. usually after concert, it'll be like taking int he surroundings, looking and saying goodbye to the dressing room and bla bla. BUT. yesterday just packed up and go.. so . quick. anyway, I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY WON'T LET US PERFORM IF WE'RE PAST 17. WHYYYYY?! then clarissa couldn't perform that day coz of that. but i thought SJOC they allow, since its LOCAL. oh well. its over anyway.

oh then saw YI AN. yes yi an. i'm advertising for you here. she asked me to go for HER RECITAL. then i told her her poster's in my school! HAHA. HER REACTION IS SO FUNNY.
anyway yes, back to advertising.

PAN YI AN
VICTORIA CONCERT HALL
$12 and $10 (sorry can't rmb which one is stall and which one is circle. but i know downstairs is $10, upstairs is $12) - correct me if i'm wrong. oops x)
MAY 27, 2006 SATURDAY
7.30PM << if i'm not wrong. shuold be, if not 7PM. but SHOULD BE 7.30PM.

yupp! go and support her k!
yi an is this pro little girl.
yuppp!
go watch go watch!

see ya there!


OH YEAH. i forgot to say this:
hi people! i'm back!

haahha!

yes i'm back.

yours truly is officially sixteen.
yours truly is officially SIXTEEN.
YOURS TRULY is officially SIXTEEN.
YOURS TRULY is OFFICIALLY SIXTEEN.
YOURS TRULY IS OFFICIALLY SIXTEEN.

i am sixteen. :)

written on: 10.49pm february 26 2006 :)
xD

PEOPLE SHORTLISTED FOR CHORAL EXCELLENCE 2006

SOPRANO 1

Camilia Koh 409
Jo Ong Zu Er 407
Zou Zhao 403
Jacqueline Chan 307
Lee Yingting 303
Miao Ran

Total Overall: 3/7 Sec 3s
3/7 Sec 4s

SOPRANO 2

Chang Wai Leng Cheryl 403
Zhang ShiShuang 407 (China)
Tiffany Tan 304
Lee Qi 304
Terri Chiong 304

Total Overall: 3/7 Sec3s
2/7 - 1 = 1/7 Sec4s

ALTO 1

Tan Yan An 404
Dong Yangzi (China)
Wee Jiamin 307
Yee Xing Yi
Wan Hui Wei (Malaysia)

Total Overall: 4/6 - 2 = 2/6 Sec3s
1/6 Sec4s

ALTO 2

Er Yi Chan 307
Louise Ng
Melissa Goh 307
Gu Yixiao

Total Overall: 4/5 Sec3s

Total: 3 + 3 + 3 + 1 + 3 + 4 = 17

NOTE:

1: the no. of people chosen from each section depends on teh no. of people in the section itself (no. of ppl chosen is proportional to the no. of ppl in the section) as a whole and as a level.

2. practices might be (and most probably be) during the June Holidays. so make sure you're free during that period of time; if not, kindly please tell me asap. tag at my blog here or sms me at 91739018 or email me at ckasiman@gmail.com yup. furthermore, if you can make it, please notify me of your confirmation as well. thanks.

3. please tell me which classes you are in. thanks.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, congratulations to all those who made it for Choral Excellence 2006!
Keep up the good work!

Gokurousama!

OK. so i'm supposed to choose who goes choral ex and who doesn't.
there's only a limited number of 17 places. so those who want can you please start proving to me why you should be guaranteed a place? worthy candidates shall be chosen. XD
but no bribery or any likes of that, thanks. ohoho. flattery doesn't get you anywhere. yup..
oh please take note that this chance is only given to those who took part in syf 2005. for the sec2s, well, you'll have to wait till 2 years later after you've gone for syf 2007 to have your chance. till then, sing well!!

but of course being able to sing has a most heavy weightage on whether you go or you don't. but we do take into account your attendance, whether you skipped choir for a reason or you're just plain lazy. so people, start to stop skipping choir. XP

the other thing is attitude. :) so stop attituding people :) be nice!!!

`PEACE-

i'll try to strike a balance between sops and altos. unless there's a section which somehow has a lot of "talents" then... of course there'll be a bit of imbalance here and there after all i'm choosing 17 of you.

lastly, to all those who will be chosen, congrats. to those who will not get chosen, i'm sorry but i do have a guideline to work with too. so yup. please understand and no hard feelings please people. that's the most irritating thing that can happen.

and to all, about xiamen, just forget it already i guess. it's that kind of thing where you go: sighhhhh. then move on. there's the choral ex to look forward to. although its not a competition it's really fun becuase you get to sing with the best in all the gold with honors choirs in singapore (i don't know if gold is included because the gold with honors thing is new). for the sec2s, well i guess you just have to wait. i mean you can't go for this choral ex. but 2 years down the road, you'll be going choral ex with the current sec1s. well we'll just see how it goes. but seriously choral ex is so fun. oh you get to sing under different conductors. i'm not sure if there are other conductors involved but i THINK mr kwei, miss lim and miss tham conducts the choral ex choirs i'm not too sure though. 2 years ago mr kwei did.
sigh nostalgic. I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO. BUT JUST BECAUSE I CAN'T MAKE IT FOR ONE PRACTICE, I WAS TAKEN OUT OF CHORAL EX. I WAS SO PEEVED. ESPECIALLY WHEN THE PERSON WHO REPLACED ME CAME TO SHOW ME THE CERT THAT SHE GOT FROM CHORAL EX THAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO GET AND KEPT TELLING ME: YAY I'VE GOT THE CERT. I TOTALLY FELT LIKE BISHING AND BASHING HER UP.

ARGH. just thinking about that makes me want to cry.

especially when that was when i'm in sec2. when i'm supposed to be one of the young-uns. i believe. sighhh
and it was such an honor becuase my batch was the syf batch the one affected by sars. and so alot of people get into choir only late july.. i remember pleading with quijun and yuru to let me join choir after chinese new year. well not really. as in. i missed the first audition; i was sick. then the next week was chinese new year. so there's no choir. then the next week after that i went for the audition and i got in. batch 2.

i so desperately wanted to go for syf. yes DESPERATELY. that was what all the pleading is about. becuase my batch is the sars affected batch everything was quite messy. one week quijun told me i can go syf. the next i was told i'm not. i was so crushed. then the next week i was told i'm going syf again. i became really desperate about going syf.

then i went for the audition, the one to post you to different sections. i didn't realize i was being such a brat and attitudal girl or whatever but at that time i was totally: if i don't get to join sop1 i'm not joining choir. hallo, as if i'm some big shot. ahaha. then the auditions began. like i've said, my batch is the one that has people joining up till late september, sars and all bla bla. so when i'm having this "auditions" the people from the first batch have already their own sections. there aren't many batch 2 people i think. most people in my batch joined after syf taht's like batch 4 i THINK i'm not too sure. but we do have batch 5 and all. i think zuozhao and yangge are batch 5. aha anyway. then yup. then during the auditions i was eager to show miss lim (then i didn't know who she is) i "should" go sop1. when she reach high b and stopped going higher i was like: oh no... can i get into sop1. after the audition, miss lim said somethign that i'll never forget. then i immediately love her AHHA. welll... ahah. it was then that i promise to do my best and sing and sing and sing. i realized that maybe even if i don't get into sop1 i'll join choir MAYBE i don't know. then i kept bugging quijun asking her if i can get into sop1. and she was like, can la! i think. ahah. can't really remember already. yeah. i can't remember if auditions were at m301 or m404 becuase i remember standing next to the m404 piano but i remember standing infront of quijun and next to miss lim in m301. anyway i do remember singing for both occasions. yeah quijun's the first senior i know in choir.

ya, anyway, i got into choir and i joinined choir. so i guess you now know the result of the auditions ;)

ahaha. i was such a brat!
maria still thinks i'm such a brat! AHAH
XD

i've been reading a lot of horoscopes nowadays.
i'm so obsessed about them!!!

i got bingyu to read my fortune, anything horoscope, everything!
i'm SO SPIRITUAL! HAHA. right.

in any case, a lot of my sources tell me something going on the 24th or 25th. such as, 25th'll be tough, tiring, or there'll be problems on the 25th. after 27th, everything'll be fine. or 25th'll have somethign special. in any case, everything has to do with 25th. alot of things.

... which is saying something..
BECAUSE 25TH IS MY BIRTHDAY!! *yes jot that down and get me a present. XD*

maybe my sweet sixteen might be nice and sweet and all things nice and sweet afterall :)
i'm going out with carin that day too!
whee~ thanks carin!

i was talking to my friend when he asked me to look out at the stars in the sky
i did. and i counted 4.
the night sky was a velvet dark. it was nice.

then my house blacked out.
for a while, i was quite bummed;
i was reading my magazines.

i walked over to the window and peered out
it never occured to me that singapore's night scene is actually quite pretty
sure, it's not as glamorous, exciting and bling as new york's night life,
and new york's night scene just gives a sense of quick uptodate happenings,
but, it's quite pretty nonetheless.
different leagues, but pretty still

i actually found it fascinating
the different intensities of light radiating from within different windows of different buildings and areas just make the whole scene interesting

i'm glad for the blackout or i'd never have realized this point

as i look up
i suddenly realized that the night sky is different from the one i'd seen earlier on
it seems somewhat lighter.
it's black but it's lighter.
towards the horizon
the color gradients to a lighter shade and hue
almost greyish

i spotted some stars and decided to count them again
i counted 7 this time.

i was talking to my friend when he asked me to look out at the stars in the sky
i did. and i counted 4.
the night sky was a velvet dark. it was nice.

then my house blacked out.
for a while, i was quite bummed;
i was reading my magazines.

i walked over to the window and peered out
it never occured to me that singapore's night scene is actually quite pretty
sure, it's not as glamorous, exciting and bling as new york's night life,
and new york's night scene just gives a sense of quick uptodate happenings,
but, it's quite pretty nonetheless.
different leagues, but pretty still

i actually found it fascinating
the different intensities of light radiating from within different windows of different buildings and areas just make the whole scene interesting

i'm glad for the blackout or i'd never have realized this point

as i look up
i suddenly realized that the night sky is different from the one i'd seen earlier on
it seems somewhat lighter.
it's black but it's lighter.
towards the horizon
the color gradients to a lighter shade and hue
almost greyish

i spotted some stars and decided to count them again
i counted 7 this time.

Heyy..
I know it's a little late now.. (I overslept)
But...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIJIE!!! :):):)
MAY YOUR SWEET SIXTEEN BE AS SWEET AND NICE
AND WISH YOU DO WELL IN EVERYTHING YOU DO
AND HOPE THAT YOU'LL REMAIN HAPPY AS ALWAYS
:)

HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT DAY YESTERDAY
ENJOY!!!
:)

FRIENDS FOREVER :)
:)

i'm so happy for you :) hmm :)

hmm
so many things happen in choir these days...
sometimes i wonder why..
is it our fault? sometimes i think so.
but.
still.
i dunno...

anyway xiamen's cancelled.
so i guess we'll only have 1 concert..
and its at the end of the year.
guess i'm not participating then...
and i don't even know if the other sec4s are takign part...
hope they do...
maria, sylvia, cheryl, i'm sure they all wanna experience nychoir for the last time before they go.

it's just so regrettable.
but what can we say
what can we do

this song from tsubasa chronicles seem so apt "you are my love"; i meant the anime version... no thte soundtrack one...
although i didn't mean the lyrics...
ok. its time to change my blog bg music.. :)

this song is called: "hear our prayer" from tsubasa chronicles, by clamp.

*clamp's my favorite!! :P)

XP

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY PEOPLE!
thanks to all those to made today so wonderful
thanks everybody for your letters and sweets and chocolates and gifts
thanks yifang for the radish
thanks yifang for the BEEEE :)

and happy be-earlied birthday lijie!!!

***

haha. sorry oops. i cuoldn't be bothered to post some more things that day.
haha. whee. the taste of freedom is addictive!!
finally! i've finished my apps. well somewhat anyway. left with parent statements....

THANKS FOR HELPING SOOO MUCH :)

anyway i was looking for that song the korean one from the movie 那小子真帅. yup. bingyu was teaching me how to sing it in school haha. now i don't even remember the tune! oh no. so any kind souls out there who know what it is pls tell me. thanks yay. :)

oh then i'm so crazy about this song suddenly: 不想长大 (can you believe the corinna actually likes something from S.H.E. ... well i must say this song is nice. ahha :))

为什麼就是找不到不谢的玫瑰花
为什麼遇见的王子都不够王子啊
我并不期盼他会有玻璃鞋和白马
我惊讶的是情话竟然会变成谎话
为什麼幸福的青鸟要飞的那麼高
为什麼苹果和拥抱都可能是毒药
我从没想过有了他还孤单的可怕
我突然想起从前陪我那个洋娃娃

我不想我不想不想长大
长大後世界就没有花
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远都笨又傻
我不想我不想不想长大
长大後我就会失去他
我深爱的他 深爱我的他
已经变得不像他

我不想我不想不想长大
长大後世界就没有花
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远都笨又傻
我不想我不想不想长大
长大後我就会失去他
我深爱的他 深爱我的他
怎麼会爱上别的他

为什麼水晶球里面看不出他在变
为什麼结局没欢笑而是泪流满面
我愿意在他回来前继续安静沉睡
但他已去到别座城堡吻另一双嘴
为什麼对流星许愿却从来没实现
为什麼英勇的骑士会比龙还危险
我当然知道这世界不会完美无瑕
我只求爱情能够不要那麼样复杂

让我们回去从前好不好
天真愚蠢快乐美好

我不想我不想不想长大
长大後世界就没有花
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远都笨又傻
我不想我不想不想长大
长大後我就会失去他
我深爱的他 深爱我的他
怎麼会爱上别的他

just finished cny celebration today.
the last ny cny celebration that i will ever participate in as a performer.
unless i become a teacher at ny.
not likely..

well i must say this year's the best among the three i've performed though i can't really remember what it was like in 2004... i don' think i took part in 2003 coz i joined after cny..
this year's really fun. even ms fu said so! yeah you rock ms fu! ahha

but a few thigns and there that i'm not that happy about but in general its ok :)
yay

sigh have to do so much! arghh!!
and stupid certain certain. refused to do certain certain thing.
sigh
oh well...

sigh.
i'll post again later...
can't concentrate on this for now..
watching tv.
:) hehe

Guardian
Class: ArchangelAlliance: Light
You are a caring soul and somewhat of a people
person. You are very concerned about others and
about the world around you. You like connecting
with people and always want to be of help. As a
guardian your role would be to watch over the
human souls on earth and help them when they
are in trouble.
Your Angelic Name: Raphael

Which Warrior Angel are You and Whose Side are You On? (With Anime Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

forsake or be forsaken.

and i choose to forsake.

hi miaoqin.
i'm very proud to tell you that i've changed my blogskin too :)
yay.

the realization that you've been duped is agonizing.
but the realization that the duper is your good friend is worse.

or so you thought he/she is your good friend.

but then again, maybe he/she didn't dupe you.
there might just be a far greater implication.

the former realization is after all just assumption.
an assumption. a lie. which other people tell you about. and you have reason to doubt the credibility of the informer. but what does she stand to gain by telling me this bit of information?
is it just plain sincere warning, or is it a means of trying to sow discord?

this assumption is like a house of cards. take out one critical one and the rest will tumble down in a domino effect.

substantiality over assumption; evidence over circumstance.

orientation rehearsal sucked. i'm too tired to say anything else.

i hope everything iwll turn out OK.

...................................

goodnite.

hmm..
so sad. mr ingham's leaving today...
sighh.
oh well.
and he didn't even take our class photo!!
ahah. i can't wait to see the newest installments of our class photoes!
hahah those are awesome!!!

anyway his blogg is: http://dzeisn.blogspot.com right?
ahahah. where's the more updated one??
ahha. what's his email again? i forgot..
hmm...

ahha. can tell his blog has got alot of spammers. i mean. just read the tagboard.. i jsut tagged. as blog. this is what i wrote: blog: update me. which is pretty much what me and cheryl wrote in sean's blog that time! haha.

ok. let's link mr ingham. oh wait.
jason.
yes. let's link jason.

ahahhahaa.
walk down orchard road and then wear hongzi.
then see these 2 people ya.
mr and mrs ingham.
and go like:
HI MR INGHAM!
ahhaah. bet he'd be embarrassed!!!

actually today. right after mornign assembly, me zouzhao and bingyu went to the canteen to see the banner they've done for mr ingham. then when the bell rings for first period i took the camera battery to class. to find no one but stephanie who just came back from band monday morning playing assembly session thingy. we were like: do you know where'ss the whole class? then i checked timetable, thinking we're in some lab. to realise it's CHINESE lesson. as if chinese lesson got go lab! then ask 3/2's chinese teacher if there's a chiense culture lecture today, since it actually was a chinese culture lecture period. then she said no. then we were like so puzzled! then stephanie was suggesting that they are at the library, researching on some xiao shuo. then i decided that um. going for chiense lesson is not productive. so i uhh. rushed back to the catneen to inform zouzhao and bingyu my latest discovery. then we were like: let's just finish this banner :) hahaha. and so we wanted to go back class. but decided that its so suspicious. i mean an empty classroom with only 4 girls in it? a little too conspicuous if you ask me. so we wanted to stay in the canteen. but ppl were giving us strange looks already. so we went to the art room. decided that if we get caught. we'll all die. and mr inghma'll be in trouble. coz we're his form class and well the banner's for him. and uhh. then bingyu got a good idea! we went to the DARK ROOM instead! =) whee and worked ont he banner for the rest of the chinese lesson. and i came up with a credible storyline of where we were. ahha. we're supposed to have gone to the toilet after comign back from the canteen. then realised the class is gone (gasp!) then deicded to go check the lecture theatres to find no one there (gasp here too)! then went to look in every comp lab.. not there! (gasp even more!) then decided to go check audi (here zouzhao says: like duh. chinese lesson in audi? xiao!) haha oh well. but by then it'd be like 1 period gone. like 8.15am. so unable to locate the class, we decided to go to the dark room to do our masterpiece! hahah whee!


thinking that they were in the library, when we went back to class just before bell rings. we're surprised (or at least i was) that they came from the direction of the canteen. i was like: HUH? i RUSHED immediately to bingyu to locate out other 2 accomplices. then when we can't find zouzhao we decided to go back to class and go: heyy! where did you all go??!!! couldn't find you. (here pause for answer) then say: NO WONDER! we went EVERYWHERE!!! and counldn't find you ppl!!! EVERYWHERE except (insert the name of the place they went which in this case is the chinese drama/society room - surprise surprise!!=))!!! HOW unfortunate! HAHAHAHAH. oh well

we got by fine anyway. laoshi wasn't there. thank GOODNESS.
=)

then it was maths lesson. ahha lucky we finished putting up the banner before we went to the toilet which was when we found out that the class came back. ahha! well.it looks great. but well nobody wanted a math lesson. i mean. pretty sad. i'm sure mr ingham had prepared for us a fabulous last lesson. but oh well. we all want to hear him talk ahah. like a friend i guess. and so he did. talk that is. ahha.

anyway we "bahh!"ed him when he came into the calssroom. we were screaming! and he was *blushing*. well he insisted that he was hot. rather the WEATHER was hot. erk hem. ahha. then later gave his speech and uhh let slip that he was shy (RIGHT..) and that he was actually *blushing*?? haha. who knows? =) contradictory eh?

:)
haha. today he gave us like our FIRST pccg lesson in ages. the first being the one he asked us to write our goals and such. AHHA. so its like the second now i guess. it was during math lesson. he's supposd to give a farewell speech. albiet impromptu. =) then he talked and went on and on and on ahah and finsih the 2 whole periods! WOW. haha. and you know . what he said. its like, he's covered everything in the pccg syllabus i guess. and uhh. with ENRICHMENT. and uh.. EXTRA information .ahah. it was a fun session i suppose. ahha. wash car. nice. ahha spoil market? ajahahhahaha. cool. whee+) WHEEE
WHEEEEEEEE
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

haah oh well.
reminisce
reminisce.
hm'
oh well. i still have to finisht eh flash tribute thing for him. which i can't coz i need PROFESSIONAL help and apparantly that PRO PERSONNEL is not online. so yes. all i can do right now is wait? i can't seem to get the animation to work correctly. the copy and paste function doesn't work well.... or at least i can't make it work the way i want it to..
hmmhmmhmm
sighh

so soon. so true.
mr ingham's leaving
jason's leaving.
actually he's already left.
i'm listening to this song rigth now.
http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/104553ht.htm
haha. pretty much suit the occation. haha
should i include this in the flash?? haha
i was thinking of using something from anime. th'atd be SO COOL
ahahaha
wheeeepeeee
wheee-oh!
ahha

lala. :)

sigh.. okay.
tingwei had adviced me to do a to-do list. here's it:

1) practice piano
2) finish piano programme notes
3) finish mr ingham's tribute (i hope he doesn't read my blog)
4) finish MATHS. goodness gracious....
5) teachers' day STUFFS. (hint*)
6) APPLICATION FORMS!!! (oh shit.. mr ingham's LEAVING) - whyyyyyy

okay. i feel more organised now. but it seems that i had so much... maybe i do. just that i didn't list it down yet. anyway.. sighh. the tribute is like. not even HALF done ya.. and its already like 22:42 and i have to go wash my hair ya... aw shucks. and i was having alot of fun marvelling and doing things.. sighh.
oh well..
anyway, to ppl out there with problems,
gambatte ne! zettai daijoubu dayo!
=)

*believe.

The Unwithering Flower;; Karenai Hana
-Full Metal Panic Ending Song (1st Season)
+taken from http://www.animelyrics.com/anime/fullmetalpanic/karenaihana.htm

A small flower is blooming inside my heart,
The unwithering flower you gave to me,
I was able to believe strongly enough in myself,
So I'm not afraid anymore...

I was happy meeting you,
And proud of our holding hands,
Even though we look up to different skies now,
See? I can walk on my own now...

I laugh more during sad times,
To hide the pain I feel inside,
But you hugged me gently without saying a thing
I felt as if it were like opening a door frozen in ice...

I was happy meeting you,
Even though I could only share my lonliness,
Even though we're separated now,
I still feel that we're somehow connected under this sky...

I didn't say thank you...
I couldn't even promise...
However, like on that day, if the wind blows
Then I know we will surely meet again...

whyyyyyy
whyyyy am i wasting youthful bliss instead of lazing around on a sunday afternoon like this????? i mean. look out the window. the sky is a perfect golden hue... whyyyyy am i doing my flash on such a nice nice oh-so-beautiful dayyyyy???!!!!

wait a minute. it's not sunday. nah-ah. no no no. its WEDNESDAY. a weekday wednesday. a tuesday yesterday and a thursday tomorrow. oh no, it's not golden sunday. it's freakin' WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!

boooohoooooo...... i still have chem sia to do.
you there. yes you. you who is reading this.
you good. i do work and slog my guts out. doing an experiment on flash. and you sit in front of your computer screen. happily surfing the net. happily chatting on msn. and doing whatever whatnots. and reading my blog.

... good for you...
*envious* yet *pouts*
peeweeee.....

peupeu..
peu.

Corinna Kasiman
Eighteen
Cheshire, Connecticut
Northampton, Massachusetts

les choses que je veux:
+?
les classes que je veux prendre:
+Music
+Neuroscience
+Japanese
+French
Smith
:: English
:: Calculus
:: Biology
:: French
:: Ballet
la musique que je veux jouer:
+Mozart Piano Sonata in A Minor
ceux pour qui je veux travailler:
+Ghibli Studio!
+piano? a concert pianist? perhaps? perhaps?
mes intérêts:
+Piano
+Music
+TV dramas
  (mainly Japanese and Korean ones)
+Surfing random websites
+identifying puns
  (and other literary wits)
+lenguajes (haha!)
+LINGUISTIKOS!
+singing
+囲碁
+storieesss:D
mon veut:
+Finish my play!
+make a Flash video out of my play/story and drawing the scenes and composing the music for them
je veux être comme:
+梅沢由香里 for her 囲碁 awesomeness
+新海元 from "Good Luck" for
  remembering himself in spite of
  everything
+Vitus from "Vitus" for being a brilliant
  genius
+カイ from "ピアノの森”

projets en cours
+Cell Division (Yale Med Ob/Gyn)
  06/07~08/07
+Project "Angelic Layer"
  on hold
+Play/Story
  05/08~current

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