I Wrote This For You
The Writer

Siti Nurul Ain.
A writer; a once upon a time dream.
A teacher; a searching love. A walking blank paper.
Thursday, May 8, 2014, 10:22:00 PM
haysticks

So much holding back that I don't know how to start off after sucha long while. It's actually quite uncomfortable to speak the truth, now that I'm so used to just sitting on fences. Which truly is a lost for myself, cos I just don't feel like myself. Hell, I don't even like myself.

I really need to get things sorted cos I'm floating around, and refusing to budge now that I'm comfortable at where I am. I don't feel the need to get challenged or just better myself. Most probably because I don't have the passion in this field? I don't know a lot, and I go around pretending I do. Idiot.




Monday, November 14, 2011, 8:19:00 PM
change?

Change is inevitable. Be it for the better or for the worse. What might be good for you, might not look it to any other person. Truth be told, there is never anything you do that will satisfy everybody. A very good, simple example would be iPhone. There is never 1 person who said that it is 100% perfect.

I spoke out the other day, and I was said to have change. For that day, yes I have. I was tired of being solely responsible for mistakes that wasn't mine. When you were supposed to share that responsibility with me, yet you were gone most of the time. And the time that you are in, you spent in on the computer. I understand you are new and you had to divide your time with 2 other classes, but please be clear of your priority.

I am never one to speak out. I am a nervous, awkward person. And a coward. I would silently rebel but never voice it out. However, I did that one time and you immediately gave me a cold shoulder. I guess in a way, it is my fault - I have always agree to disagree.




Wednesday, November 9, 2011, 8:08:00 PM
been a long while

What a long break! :o

What's up? Life. Not sure "up" in a good or bad though. Over this months, a lot has passed and a lot more is sure to come. There is always something up my mind, something that I mental note to post. In fact, there are times when I'm on the net with nothing to do, but blogging is being pushed back. I guess I get tired to reflect the day for the umpteenth time.

Some keep saying that this line is mine. I do not know on what base are they saying this. On how I interact with children? How much I love the children? Your social circle must all hate kids then, which I'm sure only a handful of them is. Yes, I do love kids, but I hate how I handle them myself. I have a short temper and sometimes, I wonder if I suffer from bipolar or split personality or something.

This post is getting a tad confusing with various topics all over. I shall stop here. Soon!




Friday, July 29, 2011, 12:17:00 AM
oh well


I don't know if I'm being vain or I'm blinded by my own delusion. I think I look ok. Not beautiful, but I'm not ugly. Right? Anyw, I keep reading and hearing people going on about how they don't want to look ok - they want to be pretty, BEAUTIFUL. Well, good to know that you don't think you're ugly. Seriously though, how about looking in the mirror, and appreciating how good you're looking today? How awesomely insane your hair is till it looks like a bird nest. How adorably amessing your eyes are that you're covering it with contact lens. How baby's bottom smooth your skin is that you're complimenting it with makeup.

Many things are easier said than done(for example, trying to keep to the challenge for myself: big fail =.= ), but if you try to follow through, you will be able to walk out of your home with a bigass smile on your ridiculous face.

And that's when you look beautiful.

PS Kudos if you got my lameass word play. c:


On to some WOOOOOT-worthy news: Super Junior will be making a comeback this August!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! C:
That's my favourite smile nowadays, fyi. *wriggle my eyebrow*

Hoping the comeback will be a big bang(no pun intended). And please SM, original songs PLEASE. Stop buying songs off for your artists. I'm pretty sure in your bigass company, there's a talented song writer somewhere(in the toilet maybe, or you could have shooed them off to other company).

Angels (and devils), I have an important mission for you. Find Ryeowook. In the picture. C:




Sunday, June 12, 2011, 10:09:00 AM
others cancer stick becomes my death


 Greetings from Genting Highlands! Yes, for once in always impossible moments, I'm higher than all you. Ok, so it's just an altitude difference, but just play along with me. Please.

Anydoinks, it's Sunday, 1027am, and we have yet to move out to Theme Park. Here I am, sitting down and shaking my legs as I think about work tmr at 830am and what time are we heading to Singapore.

So far, it's been fine, I guess. It gets awkward at times, but I can't deny I'm having fun. Imma social kermit; I tend to recoil to myself when I'm with strangers. Heck, I get awkward even with my pham. It gets on my nerve that I can't seem to break out of my shell.

Stayed in an apartment instead of hotel, and it's not at the highest peak of Genting Highlands, but it sure is still cold and awesome!

On a reflective moment, sometimes, it's best to enjoy moments and views from the ground rather than high up. We get to appreciate, enjoy and see things more. Of course, I don't mean that higher grounds view is of no value, but people tend to get awed at peak. What's wrong with having to look up to things and wonder and amaze yourself with the things you have now?