my trip

Heyhey. Today is the second week that i have been staying at norway. Am currently at Bergen-Eidslandet now but i miss the time at Namsos more!! I miss Victor and family. I miss all the activities that we had done and all the Malaysian friends. I had given my 'virgin', first time cooking a proper meal to Namsos. The Valderaune family said they wana try some Malaysian food and want us to cook something. So we went to grab some ingredients at the Asian Food Store and ready. My housemate-Ai yin and i had make some fried wan tan, abc sup, sweet and sour chicken, and fried egg with fried onions. We had spend 5hours to prepare 4 dishes. Wink wink. The meal was delicious for us and made me feel like at home but i think it might be bit 'weird' for the Norwegians. I also hurt my back bone on the first time skiing. Shit man, its painful and i had difficulties in doing everything! But what i feel warm the most is, we bbq sausages with wooden sticks and drink some hot drink in the snow :)
It's raining+snowing outside now and i was like huhhhhh faster ran out and take some pictures, but too bad the snow were too tiny and it melted so fast together with the rain drops so cant see any snow in the pictures. I felt regret on the first day i reached Eidslandet of why i didn't learn some of their language before i come here. I had communication problem with the parents on the first and second day before i come here. I had only talk not more than 10sentences on the first and second day and some 'body language'. Thank god the daughters were home at night and they can speak English!!! People are now busy for Christmas. Busy shopping for Christmas presents, Christmas decoration, Christmas cooking etc. While the western people are busy with their shopping, Su Ann the Asian too is busy shopping for some winter coats and boot and some local snacks to bring back to Malaysia. LOL!
Everything here is totally diffrent from Malaysia. They drink soda everyday instead of plain water. They take sour cream instead of chili or tomato sauce. The youth start to drink and smoke and get drunk in the early age. Most of all, they are open-minded and take things easy. I see both the positive and negative sides of it.
Christmas is coming and all of us hope to have a white Christmas. I have a wish, but i will not tell here :)
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAVE THE BLASTED ONE
ps: i miss my family
XOXO

its me again

-cute cute puppy in car-

-fish feeding at 万佛殿-

-adorable accessories in car-

-picture with siblings and cousin. another cousin@suyi was left out-
2 more days to go .everything is almost done. souvenirs, flight ticket, contacting with host family, clothes, passport. everyday sneek into my inbox to check out the email from some vip,

and finally by this morning i got something that i've been WANTED for so long. yes its you! mr victor, i will see you and the family real soon.what aunty said is so right: 2 weeks before departure will just feel so cant wait to leave, 1 week before departure will start feeling worry, "think 3 think 4" like will the family treat me good? will i sick in the cold freezy weather? will i have enough money to spend especially when i see something nice and special victor. will i be able to communicate well with the people? will i get lost? will i bla and bla? and, 2days before departure, i feel regret. why i want to be so mafan of going so far far place, sit for the 18hours flight, think of what present to buy, bla and bla. yes, forgive me of thinking too much rubbish. (p/s: this will be my first time of visiting europe country lo) <船到桥头自然直>. whatever, i promise i will do the best during my stay at your place and enjoy myself to the maxxxxxxxxxxx.

i have a great sem break this year unlike the past few school holiday. i learnt many things and did many activities. attended the pro-m camp at ipoh for 3days 2nights. a very memorable and frest camp for me because its my first time went to outstation camp with friends. i miss the fruity jelly ice at night time, miss the korean movie watching session after lunch (few people fall asleep included me during that time because of the too comfortable environment), miss the sharing session (people laughing about me like i was promoting pro-m), miss the sleeping time (how many girls were sleeping together in a room???), miss the energizer time (paiseh la holding friends with wet wet hand), miss the so called Angel and Demon pressure game at late night, miss the dessert time at home (curi-curi eaten extra jellySS, chocolateSS and sweetSS) and the most important--> i miss the 'lecturing' time by seniors. went to daddy's factory and be mommy's clumsy assistant when she did accounting, saw how dad and the staff work hard, and also followed daddy and mommy to the bird nest house. i feel heart ache to see dad sweating all the time when he is working. from there only i totally realised how hard and difficult is our daily spending come from, but who cares, i will still shopping and swipe swipe swipe like nobody business! guang zhou and bali wait for me next year, please don't make me disappointed. watched uncountable korean dramas and don't know have spent how much rental fees for the dvds. what to do i wanted to watch drama but lazy to download or lazy to ask it from friends. i don't like korea or korean but i don't know why am still so addicted of watching koream drama! eat sleep eat sleep watch tv talk with family is a must in the daily list. my relationship with family member is so much better and good. get closer and lovelier. well that's why i said really obtained many new thingy. ( p/s: am here to say, i love my mom very very much and i can't imagine the day without her) whatelse? that's the latest things that i remember. enclose some picture of the latest me too :) XOXO 

peanuts

when i get close to you, i might get hurt; when i get away from you, i might get lonely! i don't like to face problems head on. i think the best way to solve problems is to avoid them. no problem is so big or so complicated that it can't be run away from!

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= heart my cute cute cousins and sister. picture taken when i went back to hometown last week. wine drinking session for the adults at downstairs and photo taking session for the children at upstairs =

hmm lately seems like everybody also very busy with their revision and none of my friends in my friend list updated their blog. like am the only 1 who are still so beria-ria to blog here. oppps, am i hardworking on the wrong side? was sad this morning. the exam is easy but i cant remember what i have read, so fcuk up la!! 2 more exams to go then the first semester will really end soon. look back the days and figure out what have i did and what have i learnt in this first semester. sometimes i feel that am alone. friends are around me but am like getting far and far from them. is it my fault that i do not join them much or i think too much? ^_~ some of my friends around me have started to move out as we can't stay in the hostel during semester break. feel reluctant to see them leave although we still will see each others by next year. i will miss you friends. wondering why am so easily emotional in these weeks. *frust+sobby* may be its because the stress of exams and some fcuking evil devils. argggh, how can i so easily defeated by devilssss?? ~amitabha, am standing on God's side so get lost from my way devils~ chatted with him this morning and thats make me feel better :') lately have been facebook-ing alot. after wake up then fb, after fb then eat, after eat then sleep again, after sleep then fb and after fb then FINALLY only start revision. what to do, really damn fcuking lazy to study. sighh. weekend coming soon and will go out gathering with 1 old friend.. outing again??! ~wake up susu, you still have examsssssss and you need to study!!!!!!!~ oOkay, gotta go study now..
p/s: what are you doing over there? i miss you heaps. do you miss me??
XOXO

sleepless night

its 3.40am and i just finished watching a korean drama disc 1. i started to be an 'owl' after leaving hometown especially when am in university! just went back to hometown again few days ago to visit a sick relative. pray that he will be back to normal soon. today reached hostel at a quite early time, around 1. i mean earlier than usual day. lunchi with cousins at subway and it was my first time trying it. we tried various choices of sandwiches, not bad! health food and will go for it again next time. cousin told us that subway its a very convenient and health fast food at uk and you can simply get it everywhere but its bit hard to get in local :) being alone in room aint that good feel and the loneliness increase my missing-ness towards my loves 1. as a result, my tears shed when i talked with mom thru mobile phone. haha. anyway i don't have a good sleep yesterday night. i had a nightmare! a scary nightmare of a fcuking bitch bully me together with her bitchy mother!! i should pray more so that god will bless my life and fcuk those bitches hell off far far away from me!!! TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY. . . holaaaaa
Peace XOXO

不睡觉

EVERYTHING'S CHANGED..
EVERYTHING'S CHANGED..
三更半夜，我不是读书，更不是在睡觉! 我的心情，早就已经是假期心情啦。 好希望，考试快快过完吧。时间也就快一点过到12月然后慢慢停留着吧。 趁着姨姨载我会来学校，今天搬了很多房间的东西回去。姨丈问我是来上学，还是来时装秀！咋到，只不过是拿两袋衣服和一袋鞋子回去，就讲多多。我看你女儿以后分分钟还利害过我啦!逛了逛 Winter Traveller, 才买了3样东西就签了近300百。理不了那么多，谁叫爸妈没来？！？！好久没和朋友去逛街了，虽然是有了从外地买来的[心水包包]和[心水听机]，但就好像缺乏了些亲自去购买的感觉。心情不好，想血拚！想到快发疯！
p/s:这次血拼是想和*你*一起去，就赏个脸陪我嘛，最多我请客？

不知道为何进了大学后遇到了很多“鬼魔”。
“自私鬼魔”为首，接着有“自大鬼魔”，“残忍鬼魔”，“双面鬼魔”，“虚伪鬼魔”，等等。当一个人真的纯心对你好，也没做出对你不利的事情；而你在另头,却在他背后做出一些伤害他的事情，你，身为一个读书人，不会觉得心虚吗？

la la

♥♥不要说我花心， 因为要忘掉这份感情最快、最好的办法,
就是接受新的恋情 ♥♥

unforgetable indonesia trip

delicious yummmmmmmmmy lunch

wrrommm... ~wroommmm.. ~the journey begin

the aftermath

yo.. we are the gang *4 in love*

fun horse riding. at first i don't feel like wana ride but since i see everybody were riding it so i **just do it **

cute sister sayang the horse with sunshining smile :>

michelle was jumping high on air like astro boy

half-active volcano. smell of sulfur everywhere.

along the volcano. the 1 wearing white cap keep on saying: "i look great in this picture, so upload, upload this picture!"

yea here come us again. we look pretty and youthful right?!

beautiful potraits everywhere around the restaurant

hulala ^

unknown statue

hehe :p

the picture~ 2 of us were perfect BUT michelle spoilt the picture!!! say "tak nak" to smile :/

enjoying the meal. am the photographer so you can't see me. weeeee :)

live band. they sang many romantic songs. *sweet*

we were posing cute silly faces after the awesome dinner. aunty sam- vivian- su chin- michelle- su ann

all of us gather outside Restaurant The Peak @ Bandung. its cold. everybody was superly full and satisfied tho had to sit 1 hour bus to reach to the top.

huh?

cousin's dog @ tracy.

WTH... what am i doing now?? from yesterday 9pm slept until today 12+pm. i was alone at home before i fall sleep and alone again after i woke up. peoples were off to work and school and while me? am suppose to do my revision! not sleep, not eat, not tv, not facebook, not blog, not hair treatment, not body scrub. feel helpless for my study :(

its like a 2days vacation more than a study time at klang. after aunty came back from working, mich and i were ready. then we head to vivian's school to fetch her and we off to pasar malam :) had a super great time chit-chatting about ghost stories, funny jokes etc.

cute cute puppy was ready for ' beauty fashion show'. he got the second prize last year but sadly this year 榜上无名

那个时候，女孩和男孩正处在恋爱的季节。每次打电话，两个人总要缠缠绵绵许久。末
了，总是女孩在一句极为不舍的“再见”中先收了线，男孩再慢慢感受空气中剩余的温馨，还有那份难舍难分的淡淡情愁……

后来，两人分了手。女孩很快就有了新男友，帅气，豪爽。女孩感到很满足，也很得意。后来，她渐渐感到，他们之间好像缺些什么，这份不安一直让她有种淡淡的失落。

　　是什么呢？她不明白。只是两人通话结束时，女孩总感觉自己的“再见”才说了一半，那边“叭”的一声挂线。每当那时，她总感到刺耳的声音在空气中凝结成冰，划过自己的耳膜。她仿佛感到，新男友像一只断线的风筝，自己那无力的手总也牵不稳那根无望的线。

　　终于有一天，女孩和他大吵了一架。男友很不耐烦的转身走了。女孩没有哭，似有一种解脱的感觉。

　　一天， 女孩又想起最初的男孩，心中涌起一份感动：那位听完她“再见“的傻男孩。这种感动让她慢慢拿起电话。男孩的声音依旧质朴，波澜不惊。女孩竟无语凝噎，慌忙中说了“再见”……

　　这回女孩没有收线，一股莫名的情绪让她静静聆听电话那端的沉寂。

　　不知过了多久，男孩的声音传了过来，你为什么不挂电话？

　　女孩的嗓音涩涩的，为什么要我先挂呢？

　　习惯了。男孩平静的说，我喜欢你先挂电话，这样我才放心。可是后挂线的人总是有
遗憾和失落的。女孩的声音有些颤抖。


　　所以我宁愿把这份失落留给自己，只要你开心就好。


　　女孩终于抑制不住哭了，滚烫的泪水浸湿了脑海中有关爱的记忆。她终于明白，没有耐心听完她最后一句话的人，不是她一生的守望者。原来爱情有时候就这么简单，一个守候，便能说明一切。

loving this moment

its me camwhoring!!! * muka yang berisi* but am happy with it. he ha ho hi hu %$^$!@!+)

am chilling in my room. listening Boney M's songs and texting with friend, at the other hand also playing fb, downloading the latest itune and checking some information about pod pod touchhhhhhhh ^_^ its been quite a while i can't be relax like this. all the assignments were settle, except for the Pengucapan Awam-tugasan 2. too bad :/ going back home this week again. not home sick, really have some stuff to do~ lalalalallla. should have a nice nap now or revision? nap? revision? nap? revision? nap? revision? nap? revision? nap? ok, will nap first then only revision. =fair= good night everybody. sleep tight and sweet dreams @_@
p/s: after the so called 1 2 hours 'nap' then will go for activities and no more revision.
nyeek nyeeek opss. . .

是你吗？

突然，感到有点心疼!
刚刚才发现
原来和我最亲近，最亲爱的人
都和大部份人一样
是自私，不替我着想的
逃避
好残忍！

。。。

最近。。
烦。第一学期接近尾声，每个人都各别忙着各自功课，呈交，呈现。
我虽然也和其他同学朋友一样，功课多得一箩箩，还没做，
可是我竟然还有时间去想其他的无谓事！
我说："我始终还是很难放弃他， 他令我感到痛苦。不是他不在乎我， 而是我把他看得太重。”
他说：“灵魂最深处，有些缺陷是补不回的。只有让时间将他埋没至最深处。”
说是容易，可是半年都快过去了，怎么还会将呢？
我说：“为什么我要做凡人？”
他说：“凡人好，是福报，这样你可以经历人世间的各种事情，更可以帮助其他人。 terresa修女有一次梦见自己踏入天堂，不过上帝却叫他回去人间，因为天堂没有需要他帮助的人。”
我想飞。
飞到一个无人识我的地方。
飞到一个我可遇到白马王子的地方。
还好年尾快到了，我真的可以飞。可是那只是短暂的飞~
♥王子，快来救我啊♥

over caring?

why?
why the good things i did nobody will see or mention or remember?
but when i accidently did a small mistake, you will remember about it all the time..
i always loyal and be your only faithful follower, i didn't betray you..
i only wana chil with friends once in a while, at late night nor day time..
like that also have to get permission from you?
i can stay at home or hang out with friends..
but i know you are alone, so i choosed to go to the fucking old folks dinner with you..
over caring is positive or negative?
any problem if a guy daily texting me or ask me to have meal together?
is that a sign shown that he is interested with me?
come on wtf mind is that!!
i know you are good but sometimes you really need to stand on my side to think for me..
i don't want to have the disappointed feelings on you..
don't make me hate you darling..

CourseNight2008

Chong chee wai aka daisy. New member of the malay group.

Aw yong chin hoe. Singer of the night.

This is ju nee, known as wong ju.

Course king of the day. Funny and silly. We will be taking the same major- Broadcasting.

Course queen of the day. A very sporting gymnastic player from Majlis Sukan Negara.

Seniors and juniors of Bachelor Communication UPM 2008.

routine

Class for Tamadun Islam dan Tamadun Asia
TITAS class is bored and cold. 4 of us (qing tong, wong ju, lee hsien and me) were wearing nicely in malay attire and ready for presentation,who knows the lecturer suddenly burst out.. "this week i will teach and the presentation we will do it next week".. wow, i was like. ok ok fine, next week baju kurung again -_'- for the whole 2 hours class, we were sitting behind dealing with our own stuff= chit-chatting, re-filing my document files, viewing friend's photos, gossiping, etc :) time flies and class dismiss. i felt hungry, so kawanku and i head to the newly open marry brown to eat and continue gossip. ops, ngiaaaakkk ngiaaaaaaaaaak!
p/s: not i 'black hearted' but the marry brown services really isn't that good, wonder when will it bankrap. . .


Assignments
Yesterday night i was trying my best to complete my Bahasa Melayu assignment without anyone's help and am happy with that, and think like hmm yes finally this is my first time can complete without anyone's help. (i know everyone complete assignment by ourselves is not a big deal but for me, stubborn type, i feel proud la. let me proud a while k) the next morning when lecturer checking time, OMG, what my friend did correctly is what i didn't do in my work. sigh, i feel frust and sad :( next, is the Media, Teknologi dan Masyarakat group assignment. this is better as my group members are responsible and had sent me all their parts. i only need to do some touch up and my own part, which is the masalah of ASTRO. sad to say that, my job is stil incomplete but am blogging here :) then, Pengucapan awam group assignment, power point slide show is done and 90% don't need me to go out present, as the other of my group member are glamour enough. so i think i will just sit by a side to do "clicking". Oral Interaction (English) group assignment and pass up SDL (exercise work sheets), also in this week. WHAT A BUSY WEEK!!!

Extra Reward
parents just finished their vacation at japan, hokaiddo. and ehem ehem ehem, being the cutest, the prettiest, the cleverest, the manja-nest, and so on -est at home, i got the most shopping stuff from them = my favourite perfume ( estee lauder travel exclusive), kose masks and lotions (originally from japan but not those selling locally), yummmy sweets and chocs (MELON!!!!), gucci bag (share share with bro la :/ ). next, mr. frankie is going to come back from us. and this time, should say being the hmmm? may be good girl :p i got a paul frank shirt, lesportsac bag, and an ipod touch? but is not all free. i will pay for some of it :) actually wanted to ask him to get me some other stuff. mom said to me, think of norway, then say NO to costly goodies. too bad :/
p/s: oppps like too showing off. don't jealous ^___^



Hometown
raya holiday go back kuantan for jaga umah, jaga adek and help out at the "9 emperor".
after raya holiday that week, will go back kuantan again for tooth treatment.
after raya holiday that week and that week (haha, what english is this?), will go back kuantan AGAIN, for my gong gong pass away first anniversary.
i will try my best to go back as often as i can on this semester coz i know i will be very busy on next year. not to say i homesick sangat, but if kuantan-kl distance also don't go back home, sounds like wasting. haha! :) i want my mom and dad and my cute puppy. *precious*

Pictures
be patient. coming soon...

谢谢伤害我的人，因为他磨炼了我的心志，

谢谢欺骗我的人，因为他增进了我的见识，

谢谢遗弃我的人，因为他让我懂得自立，

谢谢斥责我的人，因为他助长了我的定慧，

谢谢绊倒我的人，因为他让我知道了我自己的能力,

谢谢对我有偏见的人，因为你们，我更要证明我不是你们所看到的我！

alone?

I sigh to myself Thinking of those good times Looking though the shelf Seeing us in the past making up those fun crimes I feel the tears spill down my face It's as if I am numb with great distaste My mind running on this crazy race The broken heart of mine just left unlaced I whisper your name in the night Simply sighing here and seeing her eyes filled with such fright

love

p/s: picture only for display, not the “他”
暗恋的滋味还蛮不错嘛！
他，
高高的，瘦瘦的+肥肥的=健康类，架着一副和我不一样款的眼镜， 有时看去好像很帅，有时看去好像很性感，有时看去又很阳光似的，有时看去又很man， 有时看去好像很beng，有时看去好像很有安全感，有时，啊！我是变态吗？
他，
都是一个好好人。经常会发现走在人群中最后的我。
他，
都很善于帮助人。经常都会辅助迷失在人群中的我。
他，
都很精通所有乐器。虽然我还没真正的亲眼亲耳见证过。
他，
都很有读书材料。虽然成绩不是好到满天飞的那一种。
他，
都还算是有运动细包。经常都会定时作运动壮身体。
他，
都还算有心，还是没心呢？有时就理我，有时却又不睬我。
他，
有时可以让我心跳加速，也可以让我心脏停止跳动。
他，
有时让我热，有时让我冷，有时让我软，有时让我硬。
总之，对我而言，
他，
就让我觉得暗恋好爽 *___*

you

我不喜欢狐狸 狐狸是一种很可怕和另人讨厌的动物！ 有时，我为自己感到骄傲，因为我长大了，耶！ 哈哈，很可笑吧。 在人生中，没跌过倒就不知道痛，也不会学习爬起来， 没失去过，也不懂得怎样去争取，不懂得怎样去珍惜。 我慢慢的学会了不要去干涉别人， 这样我会更解脱，自在。 我也知道，爱我所做的一切，不要做我所爱的一切。 师父说：”禅坐是一种心地功夫， 除了腿子要软， 性情也要软，心地更要柔软。 一个心地柔软的人，凡是容易感动。 别人有恩于他，固然感恩， 别人伤害了她，她也能慈悲包容，不能怨恨。 所以，心底柔软的人， 就像海绵容易吸水，自然不会枯谢。 最后，我也知道 ~爱一个人并不一定要拥有他， 只要他幸福，自己也会感到快乐~

the past

THANK YOU for giving me the sweetest first love,
THE warmest hugs and kisses,
THE most romantic surprises and gifts,
THE rose that given each week, and slowly month by month (tho just display in the washroom),
THE love letters and the love notes that given once in a while,
THE childish yet joyful picnics and outings with local food and drink,
THE useful advices and supports,
THE enjoyable trip,
THE presence when i need someone,
THE precious lessons and experiences that thought me to grow,
and the so many THE and THE,
i will not forget in my entire life ^_^

life in university

1 2 3
time flies.. i've been studying in University Putra Malaysia (UPM), Serdang, for about 3months already.. thank god for giving me this good luck and the chance to step in university (fyi, i was quite notorious for skipping classes and school and seldom study for the exam).. but proud to say that, i made it! yea, i made it, being the first child in my family to enter local university :) tho is only local university but not everybody can get it.. wink! life in uni aint that easy like what i thought before this, but i have no regrets of going for it.. in the front 2months of schooling everybody were pretty free and chilling around the kiosk or the kolej's hall every night or everyday. chit chatting, watch ASTRO, play ping pong, practise for this and that. but after that 2months assignments and presentations come 1 by 1. opss its not 1 by 1, suppose to be 2 by 2 and 3 by 3 :s there is a new word loaded in my dictionary, 'stress'. stress can be positive and negative. so should i congrat to myself for now only start having stress? the difficult of assignments and the selfishness of 'some' peoples make me feel stress. i love to sleep. but lately i have very insufficient of sleep due to activities and assignments! arghhhhhhhhhhh..