there are so many things i want to say that i have no idea what to say. you know what i'm saying.

life hasn't exactly been a bed of roses this semester.
academic-wise, that is.
the level of motivation i have for school has dropped drastically, as compared to semester 1.
and i have no idea why! (okay maybe i do, but still)
strangely, many friends i've talked to also seem to share the same sentiments.

(OOH YAY I JUST CAUGHT A LYCAN MOUSE OKAY FISHBALL BACK TO TOPIC)

i know i ought not to complain,
but sometimes i wish we have better professors!

let's see.
our foundation drawing professor DOESN'T teach us at all.

yuhui: 老师, 可以教我们怎么画？
prof: 你们不已经会画了吗？这种东西是要靠感觉来画出来的。

most of the time, if he isn't persuading us to go for his performance art, he will be making use of us to be part of his work.

like this:






















my drawing's the one on orange paper,
and it's actually one of my better pastel drawings.
before i knew it, my work was whisked away from my hands.
and it now belongs to him.
PLEASE RETURN ME MY DRAWING. ): ): ):

and then there's our 4D professor,
who coincidentally is the acting chair of adm.
the lessons are so bad that i can safely say that almost every single 4D lesson is a waste of time.
those that i have been to anyway.
sorry if i sound mean, but that's the sad truth.

and then there's our com204 tutor..
i don't even want to continue.

of course, i cannot entirely blame them for my lack of motivation.
i guess i've been too distracted.
and the source of my distraction, i think only two people know. (:
i'm in desperate need of inspiration.
that means i should go out more, travel around more, read more, listen more, observe more.
year2, i promise i will do better!

however, other than those academic aspects,
life's been pretty good.
specific highlights were the hainan island mission trip and playing for saints hallelujah ix. (:
oh, not forgetting 门徒!

the past few months have been fulfilling for me.
i remember sometimes wishing that life can be just about reading/listening to God's Word, and spending time with Him.
after feeling empowered by His Word on sundays, most of the time i don't look forward to the week ahead.
it's almost as though i fear breaking the relationship with Him once i enter the usual routine of life. (and sometimes that really happens sigh)
but i guess that's not a very good feeling.
because i'm sure God wants us to feel His presence in our daily lives, no matter which day it is.
how do we maintain a real & living relationship with Him when life's all nice and smooth, and void of any trials for us to overcome?

ohwell.
don't think i'll be updating this blog that often anymore.
quite sick of the archives that are piling up like nobody's business.
in fact, i'm kinda tempted to create a brand new blog.
solely for inspirational purposes.
i guess that'll accompany me in my walk with adm.

i wonder what i should name it. hmmm.


there she goes
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