how i wish i can play the saxophone feature in fantasy variations again.


there she goes
11:33 PM



read minqi's blog.
for some reason i feel much lighter and more optimistic
despite all these unhappiness going on.

guess i have to thank God in whatever i do.
gotta be strong and move on.
and draw strength and joy from the Lord.
cliche it may be: smile and the world may smile back at you. (:

i'm giving thanks to the Lord for...

1) bringing me through today's horrendous paper. IT'S OVERRR.

2) miss chan's swensens treat today after our paper! so sweet.

3) POON!! who have been supporting me during this period of time and easing my depression and loneliness. and of course, tahaning my constant bouts of emo-ness.

4) dear elissa! for her encouragement, jiayous and prayers. and providing a listening ear whenever i need her. (:

5) CHOP! whom i haven't been seeing for days but never fails to ask why i wasn't in school and to tell me to press on and take care of my health.

maybe life isn't so bad after all.
i just gotta live with optimism. think about all the good things in life. (:


there she goes
10:52 PM



sajc dance society: eat, sleep, dance, repeat.
polymerase chain reaction (PCR): denature, anneal, elongate, repeat.

o.O

the 30th SC has set up a board outside the cafe that says,
13 DAYS TO PRELIMS.

wah thanks.
doesn't apply to me though.
4 days to my first paper.
on saturday somemore.
sianjipua.

sometimes i really don't feel like going school.
it seems that studying at home is more productive.
unlike school days when there are short breaks in between lessons (which are pretty useless anyway),
there's momentum studying at home.
and you go school just for those few lessons, by the time you reach home, you'll be exhausted.

today i came to school just to attend two lessons! RAWR.
thank God they were useful and productive.
oh and i got to discuss art with jiahui.
we learnt alot from each other!
my head hurt and got very dizzy after that though.

my health is deteriorating!!
haven't had some proper sleep for a few days alr.
it's like i'm tired but yet i can't fall asleep.
i kept flitting in between the conscious and the subconscious.
very irritating.
and i kept having nightmares and weird dreams.
must be too stressed alr. =(((((


there she goes
10:42 PM



people say, a picture speaks a 1000 words.
since i don't really have many pictures, maybe i shall write a 1000 words?
HAHA KIDDING.
this is not an art essay.

band dinner 2007 aka bandit's next top model was WOAH.
all the effort the j1s have put in was tremendous!
everything was so posh and glam!!
maybe except for the games. AHEM.
damn sad la.
my cam memory card died on me.
and it was my last band activity! =((
so if you, dear reader of my blog, have any band dinner photos (individual/group/section/ALs/batch),
send to me okay? thanks! (:
this year's band dinner memories seem hollow without photos.
unlike last year's. hmmm.

anyway it's wanyu's wedding tmr.
CONGRATS WANYU!
it's cool to see a church friend getting married.
haha scoop's busy week.
first ndp then his sister's wedding.

oh i almost forgot.
auntie sharon gave birth last sunday!
CONGRATS AUNTIE SHARON AND UNCLE SEBASTIAN!
uncle sebastian was like proudly showing us the baby's video last week.
can't wait to see little samantha grow up. (:
may God shower blessings and love upon the happy lee (happily) family!

poon came over just now.
we played chess! mwahaha so fun.
i love chinese chess!
even though it was so mentally draining.
thanks for playing scissors paper stone with me when i got so sian! (:


there she goes
11:10 PM



just ate some chocolate ice-cream poon gave.
YUMMY.
it brings me through the stressful days.

ah yes, i am stressed. everybody's stressed.
and tired. and mentally drained.
my head weighs 10kg and my eyebags can reach my chin soon.
i'm starting to feel like a walking corpse as days pass.
yinjia told me A's is the period of time when we study the most.
she is so right.
sigh sigh sigh.

plus the moodswings and depression and angst and frustration and everything.
i hate it all.

enough of headache-inducing issues.
we watched a video on esplanade yesterday.
it's in our art syllabus can you believe it?
SO COOL RIGHT!
the video was so informative, i learnt alot!
it made me love the place much much more.
yeah, the esplanade, my favourite place.
i fell in love with that area since sec2.
it's really great that the arts are flourishing in singapore.
though small, i'm just so glad i'm part of it.

past interviews with the late mr president ong teng cheong were shown in the video.
yeah he was a fervent supporter of the arts then.
before his death and the construction of the esplanade, that is.
for some reason, i felt so poignant, so nostalgic.
almost wanted to cry.

i think i'm going crazy.
band dinner tmr. hope it's fun!


there she goes
8:31 PM