oh my. i just saw this email about abortion and i'm seriously dumbfounded. it shows true, solid evidence of the cruelty of Man (or rather, Woman) and upon seeing those shocking images, this huge wave of sadness just drowned me. you gotta see this for yourself the extent of this brutal treatment, but be prepared.
makes me wonder why, WHY would anyone even bear to do that? how would you feel if a life is crushed in your hands? especially a life that is void of the ability to cry in pain, shout for help? the silent cry, they call it. how would you feel if your arms, legs, head, guts were being ripped off from you? i already feel giddy thinking about it.
"this is a precious 4.5 month old baby girl burned by the saline solution used to abort her. there are 4000 babies aborted each day in america. abortion is legal through the ninth month of pregnancy. we have been led to believe that having an abortion is removing a mass of tissue. LOOK AT THIS LITTLE GIRL, she is more than a mass of tissue! she is a perfectly formed human being!"
oh gosh. i want to cry already. abortion is a stupid bloody massacre!! =(
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9:40 PM
Saturday, October 28
the more i think about it, the more i think he's a jerk. i rarely call anyone a jerk but i really feel like slapping him la. he has NO RIGHT to call anyone disgusting because he's one disgusting evil piece of nincompoop himself. what an idiot. my insides are writhing with anger thinking about this.
hey friend. i'll be with you all the way!
this reminds me of what stella told me that time, about a bunch of her seniors, who are all guys, making a very very very hurting remark on another friend of ours. i was damn furious too.
GRRRR.
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9:44 PM
Friday, October 27
coldsore go away come again another day i mean, DON'T come again another day. thankyouverymuch.
yuck. it's not getting better. *frowns* at first i had it on both sides on my mouth, then it was on the left side. and now the right side's causing some stinging pain. my orthodontist says it's caused by viral infection and precipitated by stress. coldsores should be red-carded and sent off from the face of this earth!
gotta be tough from now onwards. and you know, stop being a mashed potato. as what esther says, "we're strong women." yeah man. we can do it. bi sheng.
ooh i just heard some indian music coming out from my dad's room. sounds like shah rukh khan singing in kal ho naa ho? haha nvm. bollywood rocks! (:
dang. couldn't make it for cycling at east coast today. sorry to pangseh. but ayes! we must go conquer the bukit timah hill one day okay. and iceskating. and kbox!!
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You Are An ISFP
The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.
huh sure not? i don't believe you. *sticks tongue out* and what's an ISFP?
You Are Impressionism
You think the world is quite beautiful, especially if you look at it in new and interesting ways. You tend to focus on color and movement in art. For you, seeing the big picture is much more important than recording every little detail. You can find inspiration anywhere... especially from nature.
haha. i thought so too. i still have my Claude Monet nametag.
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10:16 PM
Sunday, October 22
awwwwwww. *melts into goo*
there she goes
3:27 PM
soooooo cute!! (:
there she goes
3:27 PM
Saturday, October 21
the rotating fountain thing at SAM is seriously hypnotic. and so is that beautiful glowing outer space neurotransmitter sculpture at the national museum.
super cool la. got to create our own paintings at SAM which were pasted on this huge wall. OUR BRAINCHILDREN. they were kinda.. abstract? glosz told us to be creative what. hahaha. but wah not bad sia. first time having our artworks displayed in SAM. i'm so honoured! haha.
I LOVE THE BIENNALE. =) aye yi siong why you don't like? =(
ooh. went to nyjc, nj and hc on thurs to view their courseworks. i thought hc's courseworks were the best but not everyone thought so. some preferred the realistic approach of ny's. others preferred the more daring and experimental approach of nj's. but i thought hc's were quite well-balanced between both styles. didn't like the noses though.
was frantically looking around for meisan and karen in nj but SO SAD LA, didn't see them at all. i was SO disappointed. =( i miss them so much!! and man i miss ny (as in nygh, not nyjc) so much too. my dear alma mater. i could see from nj that the aesthetics dept and art block lights were off. no more coursework pia-ing what. SIGH. memories.
eunice and i got lost in hc! at night somemore. so freaky. but thank God we bumped into a group of hc guys who pointed us the way out. yeah. saw some flickering light and got freaked out. and i think she almost died walking with me cos i was being super corny. *munches on a corn*
oh man for a moment i forgot how to spell cockroach. wait. is that even the correct spelling? or is it cokcroach? or cocroach? or croakcouch? *gasp* i dunno! can someone please enlighten me?
maybe it's true when people say that ignorance is bliss.
oh yeah. rhapsody sounds like raspberry. no wonder my stomach was growling during sectionals yesterday. i thought of raspberry ice cream. *drools*
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HAHAHA. this is one super lame convo between chop and me.
[12:07:00] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: jiayou!
[12:07:06] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: but must jia oxygen too
[12:07:18] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: if not will have incomplete combustion
[12:08:13] do u think i can blow the haze away? says: lol...then co2 then pollution
[12:08:17] do u think i can blow the haze away? says: add to the haze
[12:08:26] do u think i can blow the haze away? says: then ozone hole bigger..
[12:08:39] do u think i can blow the haze away? says: oh no! chicken little is needed to save the world!
[12:09:51] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: haha cannot la.
[12:10:00] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: kfc looking for chicken.
[12:10:09] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: so chicken little is in danger!
[12:10:20] do u think i can blow the haze away? says: oh man..how coould kfc!!
[12:10:23] do u think i can blow the haze away? says: argh!!
[12:10:38] do u think i can blow the haze away? says: must ask the vroakcrouch to go kfc
[12:10:47] do u think i can blow the haze away? says: then food poisonin
[12:10:51] do u think i can blow the haze away? says: then close down
[12:10:54] do u think i can blow the haze away? says: yeah man
[12:11:36] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: haha yeah man!
[12:12:24] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: so xiaoqiang will save chicken little
[12:12:36] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: and chicken little will save the world!
[12:12:45] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: save here save there
[12:12:50] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: yeah so shuang!
[12:13:02] if you want to see the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. says: reminds me of i not stupid HAHA.
hahaha. so apparently chop doesn't know how to spell cockraoch as well. hehh.
there she goes
11:54 PM
Tuesday, October 17
part 1 - feng
there she goes
11:08 PM
part 2 - cai hong tian tang
there she goes
11:05 PM
Sunday, October 15
longing n. a strong persistant yearning or desire.
If some longing goes unmet, don't be astonished. We call that Life. - Anna Freud
i have this deep longing to do the "longing" project the H2 art people had done for their promos. i already have an idea of what i want to do, which is actually somewhat like grace's, except that it's going to be an entirely different installation. and that my research drawings and concept development will be missing. i kinda got my inspiration from one of those yf theme talks earlier this year. disclaimer: the longing i'm doing actually CAN be fulfilled! hehh. ask grace! (:
you know when i saw those tears welling up in her eyes after her presentation, i could really feel this immense sense of familarity. people have said, suffer for your art. i kinda got reminded of that fateful day when i broke down in front of helen last year. art is very much alive, especially when what you're doing is something so close to your heart, something so important to you, just like that "longing" project.
oh well.
anyway, THE HAZE IS BACK. in other words, MY HEADACHES ARE BACK. alamak.
oh yeah. i finally dropped by vivocity today! was crapping to huiyan that harbourfront centre's business will be positively affected. cos many people will go harbourfront mrt, and when they see the huge crowds making their way to vivocity they will be so sian and decide to go harbourfront instead. HAHA.
but vivocity's uber cool la. we went 3rd floor first and there wasn't alot of stuff there so i actually thought people were only making a mountain out of a molehill. and boy was i wrong! we went to 2nd floor after that and it was HUGE. and very very crowded. which means that it's not really a place for me. you know, once a one-hour-shopper, always a one-hour-shopper. tp should know what i mean eh.
and so after approximately one hour, dot has reached her quota so she decided to SIAM. we were saying that there will be tons of other opportunities for us to explore that place. i think by the time we die, we would have known vivocity by heart already. hahaha.
infernal affairs later. TONY LEUNG!! (:
there she goes
8:07 PM
Saturday, October 14
open house is finally over. must really thank God for bringing me through this tiring week, or rather this month thus far. it's finally time for some eyebag removal treatment. location: on my bed. hahaha.
i'm so tired. i slept for 3 hours just now but i could still feel Mr Lethargy having a party in my bones. had cramps last night and now my thighs and quadriceps are aching real badly. PAIN. Mr Lethargy isn't making it any better too. aiyah i just feel like nua-ing in my seat.
dixieland is so nice! (: reminds me of happy band marching medley can. o.O perth memories. eh and i can't believe i got taupoked today la. by the band girls. so amusing hahaha. okay i shall blame them for my aching legs!
ooh the art class is going to nyjc and hc for an excursion next week. sounds stupid but yeah, we're gonna see COURSEWORK. actually i'm excited more so because can go hc see friends. YAY.
and and and, i can't wait for next tuesday. they're p-ing econs while i'm p-ing art! sounds wrong. hahaha. can't wait can't wait! it's been a long time.
there she goes
11:44 PM
Tuesday, October 10
STRESS.
feel like yanking my hair out. messy powerpoints irritate me. have like 50 odd slides to edit and i realise one horrifying mistake - many of the artworks have no dates, or worse, NO TITLES. which form the basis of an artwork. ahhhhh. like that how to be an efficient curatorial team.
and it's only H1 for goodness sake! how how how.
Lord i pray that You'll watch over us and bring us through this period of difficulty. LORD PLEASE GRANT ME PEACE. Amen.
there she goes
10:56 PM
Monday, October 9
hmmm. was rather down initially but...... thanks to two people, i'm suddenly muchmuch much muchmuch happier.
THANK YOU MY DEAREST CHOP. i'm seriously very very touched. no amount of words can express how grateful i am to have you as a friend. thanks for all the support and encouragement you've been giving me. i love you very much! (:
THANK YOU RACHEL SIM. i was really surprised you know. thanks for the pretty rainbow! i almost cried when i saw that. yeah. mummy will be happier i promise.
anyway, to all s14ers: BEL MISSES YOU ALL. she wants a class outing soon! (:
three words to describe the biennale - depressing, angsty and scary. don't ever go alone unless you're as brave as people like mark and jingwen. you'll just freak out. i freaked out so many times. what is art what is art what is art what is art WHAT IS ART?
dorothy lim. you have definitely lost your sweetness. chop, help me. =(
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9:26 PM
Saturday, October 7
VIVOCITY SOUNDS EXCITING.
haha the way tp described vivocity really made me wanna go check it out man! i think i'll confirm get lost. especially if i go with stella. haha. lost + lost = doubly lost. oh man. i want to check out the seaview thing! so cool. vivocity's like the next town already. can't wait for all the shops to be opened!
woah harbourfront today was SUPER CROWDED. thought most people would be at vivocity but guess i was wrong then. there were policemen at the mrt somemore. i was carrying my big bulky instrument then they stared at me!! huh did i really look like a terrorist? haha. didn't get a chance to drop by vivocity just now though.
cooooooooooooooooool. selene and jia en want to come sa next year! i was actually quite surprised cos i thought they would prefer ac since their secondary schools were so near ac. and selene wants to join band! =)))) cool la. if she joins confirm next year creative director will be her already. haha. the drawing that she did on her flute was totally... imba. oh well. guess i'll pray for them. i mean, not only for them to get into sa, but also to pray that God will lead them to make the right choices.
hmmm. cabbed home with yiheng just now so i was spared from lugging my heavy instrument home. must really thank God for that. and thanks yiheng for the ride! i was really laden with fatigue and hunger. anyway my brother's si dang is having a gathering in my house now. they were having pizzas pepsis dino cakes and pomelos for dinner. so jealous! haha. nvm i have my mooncakes!
my brother so poor thing!! =((( i feel so xin tong for him. OUCH.
there she goes
9:13 PM
Friday, October 6
stoned ALOT today. but hmmm. that's what i do best isn't it? stoning is my forte. i'm seriously turning into a stone statue. please put me into a museum when i do. and poon don't break your promise ah. must bring lots of people to visit me.
to elissa: i'm so sorry for not saying much today. actually there's alot to be said. but maybe it's not the problem of the atmosphere, i think it's just me. maybe dot is really a person who keeps things to herself. how silly. but THANKS SO MUCH anyway. if i get promoted we shall work hard together yeah? love. (:
the haze is so, well, HAZY. almost died-ed today. ahhhh.
there she goes
11:07 PM
Thursday, October 5
it's over.
like FINALLY huh. hmmm. but why does there seem to be a lack of joy from within? the pessimistic dot has locked up the optimistic dot somewhere so that she's nowhere to be found. will someone free her please?
time for work and time for play. hmmm but i realised must leave some time for crying also. haha.
hur hur. i finally end my papers earlier than the majority of the school population. FOR ONCE. i still remember last time the aepers always end at least one day later than most of our school people because of our drawing and painting paper. o'levels was the ultimate. our last paper (v&c) was FOUR days later than everyone else's. and we even had amath after our 3hr d&p paper lah! which i totally didn't study for cos i was pia-ing those research drawings.
oh my word! no wonder i felt a sense of deja vu today. math and art again!! *shivers* sian lah. must switch to right brain within such a short time. not that i even used my left brain in the first place for math today but...
okay maybe i did use my brains. cos i could feel my brains getting saturated after both papers. "alkanes are saturated, alkenes are not!" oh no! i just sprouted vulgarities.
but i still had enough energy left after the art paper to go do our art project. STRESS. (can you believe it? 3hours of paper only contribute to 60% of our promo grade. AND IT'S ONLY H1!) did some pastel drawings. so fun! but so lousy cos i could only work on one colour. i want to learn the eleenkhoo method!
OH AND THE ART ROOM COMPS ARE SO FREAKING COOL. it's like double-screened lah! it's super useful for research cos you can view two internet windows at the same time. all you have to do is to pull one window to the other screen and TADA! so that was the cool high-tech comp mr lim was talking about last time. super imba.
AND WE'RE GOING FOR THE SINGAPORE BIENNALE NEXT WEEK. bian-na-lehhh. so exciting. fieldtrip! yayy. can't wait to go to my favourite area in singapore again! (:
eh after talking so much crap and lobster, i feel slightly happier. great.
there she goes
10:05 PM
Tuesday, October 3
i hate trench warfare.
i hate wars, even though i like to read up on them. caught a little of this show my dad and grandma were watching just now about the japanese invasion of china before ww2. WAH SO GROSS. wars suck. why must there be so much hatred among people?
sigh.
tidbit for the day: vertical lines represent vitality while horizontal lines represent tranquility.
sorry no link but damn true!
there she goes
10:56 PM
Sunday, October 1
a song that brought tears to my eyes.
He can turn the tides and calm the angry sea He alone decides who writes a symphony He lights every star that makes our darkness bright He keeps watch all through each long and lonely night
He still finds the time to hear a child's first prayer Saint or sinner call and always find Him there And though it makes Him sad to see the way we live He'll always say, "I forgive".
He can grant a wish or make a dream come true. He can paint the clouds and turn the grey to blue. He alone knows where to find the rainbow's end. He alone can see what lies beyond the bend.
He can touch a tree and turn the leaves to gold He knows every lie that you and I have told Though it makes him sad to see the way we live He'll always say, "I forgive".
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HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY! (: read more fairytales! fairytales are addictive. serious. even though you'll feel kinda sad reading them as you'll feel old and detached from the children's world. a result of GROWING UP.
4 more days to end of promos!
disease: viral infection name of infectious agent: PROMOVIRUS (PRV) type of virus: envelope virus found abundantly on: surface of paper material (especially paper with chunks of information) method of infection: entering through the nose when a victim falls asleep head-down unto his/her notes. signs and symptoms: irregular heartbeat, extreme fatigue, eyebags, talking to oneself, reading one's notes everywhere one goes, excessive worrying, constantly saying "i'm gonna get retained", skipping useless lectures. treatment:"But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not be faint." (Isaiah 40:31)
