as a brand new year approaches i shall end with a post on dreams.

yesterday night i dreamt of weird things again. i dreamt that it was after service and i was at the 1st level stairs with a whole crowd of people. pastor see was there shaking hands. strangely enough, i was wearing the high priest robes, the ones jia en wore for our group during camp. ike appeared out of nowhere and pulled me to the walls. he then whispered to me, "dot, go tell tp to organise class lunch." i did as he told and went to look for tp at level 1 where many youths were doing tabernacle stuff. i spotted tp and repeated ike's words to him. -end of dream-

like huh? not that the dream's weird but the fact that we did have a class lunch before thanksgiving and that i haven't been thinking about such class issues since i'd read tp's card made the dream really odd. thinking about them is one thing, but dreaming?

perhaps i read too much into my dreams. but i've to admit i do dream strange things, many regarding disasters and deaths.

i dreamt that hurricane katrina hit singapore on the day of my amath and d&p o's. i was held up by the hurricane so when i reached the school for amath i realised i missed my d&p paper! (note that i dreamt that the night before those 2 papers)

i dreamt that a tsunami was about to strike singapore and i was desperately trying to tell my mum to run to bishan cos that's central and we might be safe.

i dreamt that a comet was about to crash us, as it did in deep impact.

i dreamt that 6L was massacred in my house and i found the bones of lenard in my drawer.

i dreamt that my mum died and i woke up in tears.

i even dreamt of the end of the world once. it was as dark as night but as clear as light was a line of people in a queue, awaiting judgement. i was in the queue and i saw Jesus!

of course. there were the funny ones.. the dream of seeing classmates brushing teeth during an english timed trial.. the dream of studying chinese for english.

not forgetting other people's dreams. linying once dreamt that she fell in love with mrs tieh's son. last year she dreamt that cao cao was chasing after her, but huang gai arrived in a taxi to save her. and oddly enough, sarah also dreamt that she got chased by cao cao! whenever i tried picturing the scenario, i couldn't stop laughing.

do you know i once dreamt of the same person 3 nights in a row?

dreams are part and parcel of everyone's lives. i believe everyone has their fair share of dreams, scary, wacky or simply crazy. people tell me to chase my dreams. but nah, i wouldn't want to chase those.

in year 2006, i'm gonna keep a dream diary.


there she goes
6:15 PM



hey dorothy,
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anyway, hope to keep in touch even during jc... who knows? we might meet in uni again!
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lots of luv,
janet

i didn't think of that. thanks janet! your words brought me hope. as what tp would say, you're God-send. i was feeling damn depressed before that cos everyone's like going to separate. but janet's letter definitely lifted my spirits. and as what she wrote, who knows, we might meet in nus or something. sarah was hoping i could get my driving license so i can drive her to nus next time. ha we shall see.

i wonder few years down the road,
will sarah still giggle hysterically when talking on the phone?
will janet still be chasing 7pm and 9pm serial dramas every weekday?
will faith still go HAHAHAHAHA when she laughs?
will we still go for early morning pratas?
will we still have endless topics to talk about?
will everyone still be the way they are now?
WILL YANTING GET A BOYFRIEND?

i wonder..


there she goes
10:25 PM



i'm crashing njc and hci next year. nobody stops me. if you can't stop 'em, JOIN 'EM!


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3:19 PM



no one's getting married!! don't worry stella, if i'm ever going to get married, you'll be one of the first to know okay? unless i'm eloping

i really miss nanyang. went back just now to help out with the sec1 aep tryouts. the 4/14 classroom.. the quadrangle.. the canteen.. the artrooms. they all hold so many precious memories of times spent in there. siqi and i took the last walk through the school. tryouts was damn fun (for the sec4 helpers). i kinda saw myself in those kids. were we really like that 4 years ago? i guess i didn't realise then that i'd make such fantastic friends in that class. anyway it was great to see mrs teo and mr lim again!

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the aep tryouts was so much tougher than ours! firstly, they had to draw goose feathers and the hand holding them. poor us had to fumble with mr lim's newly bought pillow and subconsciously littering the floor with feathers. secondly, they had to draw their favourite corner of their primary school from memory. thirdly, they had to make a sculpture using straws (along with other materials like scotch-tape, blah). so 3D art is covered as well. damn cool. the 3 of us were bored. but we had free lunch, thanks to mr lim! and mr tang was envious of our coke. he thinks going to sa is good change for me. okay maybe.
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6:14 PM



snowcity was fun fun fun!! never knew it'd be so fun. the last time i went was in psch and it was so boring. i think it's the people that you go with that makes it enjoyable. this time i went with a few aepers and 4/10 ppl. we went for the slide thing like 3 times, screaming our heads off. then we had snowfights!! great fun! shum always kena hit by me. yingxu and i climbed into the igloo! snowcity's very small. but going with so many ppl has its benefits.

yeah. then some of us went to some country club to bowl. ohh. on our way there, kc siqi and i saw something really gross. there was this lizard in the middle of the road that got ran over by passing vehicles and its bloody guts came out!!! as in really bloody. this group of guys in front of us were like waiting for more cars to squash it. tsk childish. but ahhhh gross. i'm a lousy bio student.

anyway i really pray that wanyi and rachlee's appeals are successful. rachsim's friend from sas said that OGs are according to birthdays. so if rachlee gets in, i may be in the same OG as her! and yanting, hc's uniform's not bad lar. muddy but funky!

btw background music is from spirited away. i love that anime to bits!! i can never get tired of watching it. which reminds me.. esme! where can i buy the howl's moving castle vcd!?! i've been waiting and waiting for it. haha.


there she goes
10:18 PM



dot's happy! she spent quality time with her mummy today! whoopee! *grins*

haha i'm still a kid at heart. eudora and i were talking about the different rates of people maturing. i guess i'm still quite kiddy at times. go ask my grandma lar. i mean we all have a child in us right? you gotta unleash it sometimes!!

anyway i'm glad i can finally settle down now. this holiday doesn't feel like one at all. 3 weeks left! i don't think i'm working already. but it's okay. the guitar can always wait. i need to spend some time alone. and with certain friends. most importantly, i need to spend more time with God.

you know, simple things can make me really joyful. like..

1. thunderstorm outside. me sitting in an air-con room, wearing my windbreaker, drinking hot coffee while reading a thriller. (a box of mint chocolate beside me will make me even happier)

2. playing metal slug with rachlee on the playstation, screaming at each other. (maybe that explains why both of us have violent tendencies)

3. early morning prata with sarah and rachlee. (an advantage of having friends who live so close to you..)

4. completing a piece of artwork (: i remember how happy i was that time when i started developing pretty pinhole photos. ooh and after completing our sculpture. and coursework!! too many.. (does the sculpture below look familiar? haha)

5. singing my favourite songs without going out of tune. (do you know that you can actually sing better lying down than standing up? go and try!)

6. a heart-to-heart talk with a friend. it matters to me more than fame, power or wealth. (and i'm thinking stedor *smiles*)

7. the sky. if i ever get into nj, i'd enjoy 2 years of lovely sky!!

many many.. okay. maybe some are not so simple afterall. like completing an artwork, which requires all my blood sweat tears, or singing the song in tune, considering the fact that the windows are in danger of cracking.


ok this may be random, but this is one photo that took my breath away. i finally understand what it means by "never judge a book by its cover". in this case, it's "never judge an iceberg by its tip".


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7:42 PM




uhh the tear gates finally burst open today. watched kal ho naa ho on vcd just now and boy i just kept crying and crying. for the entire movie. i really love bollywood! there's something in its movies that draws me to them. probably.. the dance, the colours, the music, the plot. watched lagaan at faith's house yesterday before gradnight. ahhh. and we didn't finish it! :(


speaking of gradnight.. woahh it was madness! every direction i looked, i'd find hordes of people dressed oh-so-exotically. i just couldn't help but stare. even janet!! see left. and joy! so pretty! and there was a bellydance performance, organised by who else but stelly. the emcee was funny. food was yummy, esp the dessert. and the 2/1ers! man i love these people with all my heart.

and then it was disco time, the highlight of the night! the lighting rocked. esp the strong white light that switched on and off to give everything a slow motion effect. woahh we were super high and we danced with no restraints. at first people like shuang were holding back, but after a while everyone just went crazy. the smelly mist! the blaring music! we danced so much until our feet hurt cos we were dancing on our heels! haha i still have a video of kx sarah and sinyu dancing. madness i tell you!

we were zonked out. but there was still some energy left to take a walk down orchard road at midnight. i was quite disappointed that orchard's night decoration wasn't as glam as i thought it'd be, except for the m&m's. but.. gradnight was fantastic! it was definitely a night to remember.


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8:17 PM



the eye. light rays from an object are refracted through the cornea and the aqueous humour unto the lens, which are further refracted through the vitreous humour and finally forms an inverted image on the fovea. our cerebrum interprets the nervous impulses produced by the photoreceptors of the retina and the correct image forms in our brain.

if eyes are like a camera, i want to take photos of beautiful memories and they'll be imprinted in my mind forever. but sadly, our eyes don't work that way. unlike photographs, what we see now may not be what we perceive in the future. humans age and memories fade. images get more blurry and they are slowly pushed into a dark corner of our brain. and there they lay, forgotten and unused.

with eyes and a mind like ours, we tend to turn to a wondrous man-made machine: the camera. what we take will be what we perceive as a photo doesn't lie or diminish. (well, unless it's photoshop-ed) almost everyone has a camera to be used at all times. all we have to do is to swiftly take it out of the pouch and "kachaa!!", and there we'll have an observable memory. the images are there forever.

but why do i love my eyes and my brain more than a complicated invention? (even though i totally adore photography)

why does God give us these organs? so that we have feelings and thoughts about what we see with our eyes. God does not only give us an ability to look, but also to see. once i saw a loving couple lying down on a bench at the esplanade, talking and totally in their own world. i captured the image with my eyes and i sensed the love and affection. i took a snapshot with my camera (bad me), and on the contrary, when i reviewed it, i felt nothing at all! it's not until quite recently when realisation hit me and sometimes i feel really sad to see people mindlessly taking photos with their camera without seeing and savouring the special moments. i mean, even i do that at times, sub-consciously.

memories do fade. but what are memories without emotion?


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9:02 PM



oh crap. there's kal ho naa ho at arts central tmr night and i can't watch it! if there's one bollywood movie i love, it's gotta be it. the movie that never fails to bring tears to my eyes. hmmm. but it's okay. they'll be showing one every sunday 9pm. favourite stars include shah rukh khan, preity zinta, and many many more names that i can't spell. GO WATCH!


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10:43 PM