just now during class i think it was yike who didn't bring bible. then jiayi went "aiyar i got extra lar" and pulled out an old psch one. haha funny man cos jiayi's known for bringing everything to class. ike was saying, "bu ying you jin you". lol. after class lixin lao shi gave us a 5 minute chinese remedial cos most of us are taking cl/hcl o's tmr. damn cool la. and sabrina kept sprouting chengyus. WOW! for once.

kayy out! (:


there she goes
10:41 PM



Everything is Beautiful -Ray Stevens

*children singing*
Jesus loves the little children
All the little children of the world
Red and yellow, black and white
They are precious in his sight
Jesus loves the little children of the world

Everything is beautiful
In its own way
Like a starry summer night
Or a snow covered winter's day
Everybody's beautiful
In their own way
Under God's heaven
The world's gonna find a way

There is none so blind
That is he who will not see
We must not close our minds
We must let our thought be free
For every hour that passes by
You know the world
Gets a little bit older
It's time to realize
That beauty lies
In the eyes of the beholder

Everything is beautiful
In its own way
Like a starry summer nights
Or a snow covered winter's day
Ah, sing it children
Everybody's beautiful
In their own way
Under God's heaven
The world's gonna find a way

We shouldn't care
About the length of his hair
Or the color of his skin
Don't worry about
what shows from without
but the love that lives within
We're gonna get it all together now
Everything gonna work out fine
Just take a little time
to look on the good side my friend
And straighten it out in your mind

Everything is beautiful
In its own way
Like a starry summer nights
Or a snow covered winter's day
Ah, sing it children
Everybody's beautiful
In their own way
Under God's heaven
The world's gonna find a way

*

i heard this on gold90fm on sunday in the car on the way to church as i was carefully observing the passing trees and beautifully toned sky. was heeding mrs teo's advice to observe more. ahhhh. i finally understood the shape of trees. the song, the trees, the skies... they really made my day! (:


there she goes
8:53 PM



Vincent

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colours on the snowy linen land

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds and violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colours changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artists' loving hand

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you

Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
The silver thorn of bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They're not listening still
Perhaps they never will...

i adore don mcLean's version of "vincent". i wonder what van gogh would say if he heard this song. will he go "oh i'm so touched! finally someone understands what i went through!"? or will he disagree with it? ("what? i wasn't saying anything to you for goodness sake!") or will he do nothing else but cry?

i guess we'll never know.

there are artists in this world who reproduce his paintings mindlessly. none of them experience his emotions. none of them see the world with his eyes. none of them have a mind like his. he painted what he saw, not with a clear mind, but with a hazy and swirled mind, which explains his unique and trademark style. i don't think he expected anyone to copy him. to paint like him is one thing, to think and see like him is another thing.

we may go "ooh van gogh is my favourite artist! i want to paint like him!". but maybe next time we can stop to think. van gogh had suffered so much to come to this stage. we don't own such a trampled soul like his. even before his death, he was still madly painting. they called him a lunatic then. but right now, he's our celebrity. he's someone no one else can be.

please don't try locking yourself up in an asylum and paint all day. you can never be the next vincent van gogh.


there she goes
7:59 PM



a funky monkey stole my water container cap! lol. if it had taken my palette instead, i'd have thrown paintbrushes at it. haha.

let's make the art block our hotspot after o's! and try out all the things we've never tried before. oh and do you know that the art room is a fantastic place to study? i won't deny that i'm reflexively drawn towards it. haha sw too!

on the other hand, i'm going to miss my class alot. i've known some great people that i'll never forget. and my classroom.. though dirty and rat-infested, but nevertheless heartwarming and special to me. i'll miss 2/1 too! i hope our painting will be repieced this sat and make our grad ceremony more meaningful.

goodbye. *waves*


there she goes
8:00 PM



i finished my coursework!
FINALLY. i submitted my 8 boards plus final and pasted that sticker!

i never thought this day would come.

let me tell you my exciting story on saturday. (warning: long post)

i was in school for practically the whole day. reached the mac lab at around 9 cos i overslept! we left school at 11pm on friday so i was really beat. i spray-glued all my prep onto the 8 boards and wrote a little by 12.30pm. i was supposed to meet sarah to go nj open house together. and i found out that ly and kc wanted to go too! mr lim allowed us to go but we had to return in an hour's time.

boy time was shorter than we thought it was. and it turned out that the side gate was closed! which gekked the three of us for nj was just a few cm away. so we decided to climb the gate like we'd always been doing at night. but this time it was in broad daylight. alot of people were staring, including some sec4s who were at the bus-stop. some people even clapped. weird. but we couldn't help it. we were really desperate for time. sarah realised how easy it was to break into the school.

i wanted to go vj and sa but NO TIME. turned out that the ip people had more time to go instead of us. they have all the time in the world now. but thanks yx for the jiayou! and to all ip aepers: play hard and all the best for your portfolio!! (:

back to nj. ly left with her classmate so i went in with kc and sarah. i had a good time despite the amount of time we had. tried out air rifle and archery. kc did rock-climbing! she was so pro. even more pro than the guy who climbed next to her. sarah dropped her phone into the drain! luckily it was easy to fish it out. poor girl.

there was this nj rock band playing in the arts block. we could hear it all the way from school. err. didn't really like it. no matter what anyone says, i still think and will always think that drummers should not play the drums and SING at the same time. it just... doesn't sound right. noise will be made instead of music.

then sarah went to meet her church friends. so kc and i went to the fields to play softball! had fun but felt quite bad cos we disrupted the nj softballers' lunchbreak to play with us. it was quite hard to bat when that machine thingy was used but we did manage to strike the balls a few times. yar and in the end we realised we were going to be late and rushed off. but this softballer who was playing with me previously ran and caught up with us to ask us to write our names in some form. though we knew we won't join nj softball but we wrote anyway.

so we climbed the gate again and ran all the way back to the mac lab. mr lim was going "10 minutes late!". yah lar but he wasn't pissed. at least we were better than our seniors who only returned at 6pm a year back.

had lunch with the rest and i saw mr teo!! with mrs teo and her son. found out that ly ran the long way back cos she didn't want to climb the gate alone. trackers..

after lunch shum and i sprawled on the floor to write in our 8 boards. i kept having mental block so i progressed very slowly. shum had to finish everything by 4.30pm cos if not, she'd be stuck in a causeway jam. but she did in the end. so happy for her. everyone was finishing one by one. so basically by evening, aepers and gapers left were sw, ly, kc, charm, joy, yolanda, sskii, zhang, fandi and me. i think mrs teo and mr lim were almost dying from anxiety. and it didn't help that joy kept asking mr lim about his girlfriend. haha.

i finished writing everything before dinner! after dinner i proceeded to print out labels and titles. my progress was parallel to liangyan's. i still remember we spent one whole hour the night before mounting our final in that stinky-and-polluted-with-cfc room, at the makeshift spray booth. she had to do 8 while i had to do 6. the aerosols made our heads swim and we went bananas. sort of went high. (on chloroflurocarbons, not drugs/alcohol). we saw an nj couple sliding down the nj slope at around 7pm. haha scandalous. mr lim even wanted to take photos. but they were gone by then.

anyway back to sat night. by 9plus, ly and i finished our prep and went to that room to mount our labels. we just helped each other out. i finished mine first cos i had lesser to do. but we pasted her last 2 labels together so it sort of felt that we finished together. it was a wonderful feeling! when we did we were screaming for joy (not joy who was next door btw) and hugging each other. we were simply delirious.

even after pasting the name-stickers and writing our particulars on every single prep board, we were not the last to finish. by the time we were done, zhang and fandi (the other 2 people who had to mount their final), joy, kc, and sw had yet to finish. they were almost done, except for sw who will be finishing by today, the last day.

so we cleaned up the mac lab and the art room while the rest were rushing to finish up. like what joy said previously, we'd never seen the mac lab so messy before. sw and i saw daqiang running all over joy's prep. eww. i swept the floor using a laupok broom. amusing. mrs teo made me stand on the huge rolls of paper in the bin to flatten them and my slipper got stuck in it. even more amusing. then mr lim announced happily, "10 more days to the giving out of drawing and painting paper!" arghh. i hope to do better for v&c since we'll have 4 free days to study for it.

ok this is really long. yup. i left the school with sw while the others stayed on to finish up and pack up. i could understand what she was going through. i really hope she can finish everything by 11.59pm TODAY. i think all of us, including the teachers, have been really supportive of her. my friend, jiayou!! when i stepped out of the school, i peered at my phone. the time was exactly 1200. haha. i left school at 12am on a sunday morning. exactly one day before the dateline. so cool.

oh wow. 2 whole weeks of intensive coursework chionging. my schedule everyday had been: go school early to study. lessons. eat during 1st recess. lessons. coursework during 2nd recess. lessons. coursework until 8-9pm. go home. dinner. shower. do homework and study until i fall asleep on my desk. wake up early to study. and back to the start of the cycle. a few friends had asked me why i had been dozing off in class recently. well, those were the reasons why.

sigh. even though it was really exhausting and it made the shell of my body wear and tear, but i'm starting to miss those days, those people who had accompanied me throughout. of course i'm happy i'd finished. but it's like... a hangover! mixed feelings. happy and sad. i'm getting depressed even though i know i must pull myself up and get myself ready for the upcoming bio prac. sighh.


there she goes
2:44 PM



my past entries. during the period when i threw away my template and was too lazy to find another one.

091005
thank you Lord. you've been so faithful. you've been so kind.
you've brought me through one of the best exams i'd ever had.
i'd never felt so calm and peaceful before.
and thanks for answering my prayers. i'm so glad sarah didn't get dengue.

i want to thank my family for suffering with me.
for giving me moral support.
for everything and anything.

thank you aepers.
we shout "jiayou" to one another.
we go crazy together.
we stress out together.
we go home late together.
without everyone i'd have died of a lonely madness.
and thanks teachers for doing so so much for all of us.

thanks julien tp sk and ike! (:
thanks for the bombardment of msges during ss.
although it's kinda 'hahaha', but i'm touched.
nothing beats concern from brothers and sisters in Christ.

monday's another long day...


051005
this is sheer madness i tell you
"wo kuai yao feng le!!!" -mrs teo
Lord, save us!

WE NEED TIME. AND SLEEP.


300905
things to do after oozy o's:
sleep
work (hopefully)
2/1 and 4/14 chalets (:
church camp!
buy a new classical guitar and playyy
documentary-mania!
watch all my lotr dvds (including the makings)
xing suo marathon in janet's house
huanzhugege marathon in rachsim's house
watch goblet of fire, chronicles of narnia, kingkong, blah
photo-taking around singapore!
read modern world history
play ZELDA and FF7 <333>attempt to sell my designs
sunday school class lunches (: (yeah i'm so ON)
meet up with primary school buddies like vic mich chi <333>220905
it's over. IT'S OVER.
exactly 2 months later, o's will be over too.
damn gek.
we end 4 days later than the rest.
we have d&p and AMATH on the same day.
screwed up timetable.

why can't you wake me up when november ends?


150905
i had a dream. again.
it was a gloomy night. but somehow it felt like daytime.
'wake me up when september ends' was playing in the background.
what was so memorable was that imprinted on the black sky was an explosion of colours.
like a rainbow aurora in the dark.
took my breath away.
so i was desperately trying to take a picture of it.
but for some reason i was pulled back by a force.
like moving clouds, the aurora was slowly blown away by the atmospheric winds.
blown out of my grasp.
desperate me tried lying down on the ground.
to take that one photo.
a full moon appeared. a bright blue one that changed colour.
then i woke up.
that eerie dream felt so real.


there she goes
2:36 PM