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there are so many things i want to say that i have no idea what to say. you know what i'm saying.

life hasn't exactly been a bed of roses this semester.
academic-wise, that is.
the level of motivation i have for school has dropped drastically, as compared to semester 1.
and i have no idea why! (okay maybe i do, but still)
strangely, many friends i've talked to also seem to share the same sentiments.

(OOH YAY I JUST CAUGHT A LYCAN MOUSE OKAY FISHBALL BACK TO TOPIC)

i know i ought not to complain,
but sometimes i wish we have better professors!

let's see.
our foundation drawing professor DOESN'T teach us at all.

yuhui: 老师, 可以教我们怎么画？
prof: 你们不已经会画了吗？这种东西是要靠感觉来画出来的。

most of the time, if he isn't persuading us to go for his performance art, he will be making use of us to be part of his work.

like this:






















my drawing's the one on orange paper,
and it's actually one of my better pastel drawings.
before i knew it, my work was whisked away from my hands.
and it now belongs to him.
PLEASE RETURN ME MY DRAWING. ): ): ):

and then there's our 4D professor,
who coincidentally is the acting chair of adm.
the lessons are so bad that i can safely say that almost every single 4D lesson is a waste of time.
those that i have been to anyway.
sorry if i sound mean, but that's the sad truth.

and then there's our com204 tutor..
i don't even want to continue.

of course, i cannot entirely blame them for my lack of motivation.
i guess i've been too distracted.
and the source of my distraction, i think only two people know. (:
i'm in desperate need of inspiration.
that means i should go out more, travel around more, read more, listen more, observe more.
year2, i promise i will do better!

however, other than those academic aspects,
life's been pretty good.
specific highlights were the hainan island mission trip and playing for saints hallelujah ix. (:
oh, not forgetting 门徒!

the past few months have been fulfilling for me.
i remember sometimes wishing that life can be just about reading/listening to God's Word, and spending time with Him.
after feeling empowered by His Word on sundays, most of the time i don't look forward to the week ahead.
it's almost as though i fear breaking the relationship with Him once i enter the usual routine of life. (and sometimes that really happens sigh)
but i guess that's not a very good feeling.
because i'm sure God wants us to feel His presence in our daily lives, no matter which day it is.
how do we maintain a real & living relationship with Him when life's all nice and smooth, and void of any trials for us to overcome?

ohwell.
don't think i'll be updating this blog that often anymore.
quite sick of the archives that are piling up like nobody's business.
in fact, i'm kinda tempted to create a brand new blog.
solely for inspirational purposes.
i guess that'll accompany me in my walk with adm.

i wonder what i should name it. hmmm.


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从海南回国后，肚子痛得不得了。
有几次甚至还泻肚子。
吃饭后那一阵阵的痛，真辛苦啊！
已痛了一个星期了，不知是否该去看医生？


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When God Ran
"..Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise when God ran .."

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启仁: 我的policy就是拍到被赶走为止。


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greeting the new year with a horrible fever & swollen lymph node.

something really cool happened at 2am just now.
i woke up to take my medication & was groping around in the dark when this bug just flew right at me.
the heat radiating from my body seemed to have attracted it.
but when i switched on the light, it disappeared.

the way insects are so sensitive to heat in the dark just struck me.
that instinct for survival in this world.
God's wonderful creation indeed.

have a blessed 2009. (:


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圣诞节的真缔就是主进入你心

have a blessed Christmas. (:


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esther once said,
"sometimes i wished God would come down & tell me what to do."

i can so empathise with that statement right now.

i'm stumped.
i don't know what i should do now.
what is right in Your eyes.
because both ways seem so right; but yet so wrong.

i've been escaping from the root of the issue all this time.
it's causing me to sin.
perhaps it's time for me to meet it face-on.

but how?


every breath that i take,
every moment i'm awake,
Lord have Your way in me.

would You please show me the way?


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2:39 PM



banner design's hanging my laptop upside down, rightside left & inside out.
i really hate it when that happens.

*

had a class gathering at amy & raymond laoshi's house on sunday after service.

we finally had a taste of sab's driving.
sk said my sense of direction's better than the GPS!
haha.
but i can't multi-task.
so i was rather amazed by how sab can drive/listen to me give directions/chat with us.
if it was me,
i would just, well, drive.
am i a girl or not!

had a whole load of informal sharing/crapping in laoshi's house.
ike was telling us the amusing story behind his name.
those attached were sharing about their relationship stories. (:
was quite surprised when minghao bravely shared with us about his "failed" relationship.
but it's really great,
cos it shows how comfortable he's getting to feel around us.

and the amount of food present was.. yum. heh.
dorcas & i kinda finished half of amylaoshi's box of dark chocolate balls.
all the while i was taking in those soothing hymns & christmas carols being played.
what homey & christmassy atmosphere.

dorcas, zy & i proceeded to SAM to check out the japan media arts fest after that.
damn fun.
i had the song 拥戴我主为王 stuck in my head, so i kept humming it.
soon enough, the both of them started singing along with me. lol.
loved all that wii-ing once again!
dorcas was super funny during her boxing match!
at the end tired alr so she anyhow box.

great food, great music, great company, great God.
what more can i ask for?
i still remember how i used to worry about how not-close our class used to be years back.
but the situation has changed so much over the years.
and i really want to give thanks to the Lord for that.
of course, i'm also thankful that both teachers arranged this gathering, so that our class was able to establish better rapport for next year's 门徒!

looking forward to the following 9 months of spiritual growth alongside my brothers and sisters. (:


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logo design courtesy of elena.

off to camp.
say hello to natural hair-drying & spiritual refreshening.


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sometimes i'll still look back and smile.


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