Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Retriving my blog becuase kinda feel like keep a journal. haha. Oh wells. Im moving on to my so call new life in 15 days! That is when everything will start to change and life starts to either gets better or worst depending on how things go. But all in all, I'm glad I took up the challenge and try it. Whether its a good thing or a bad thing we shall see. When it starts, I need to give up alot alot of things. But owells. Life....

Actually I feel quite lucky. Because among people among me, at least I found something to do and something related to what I want to do. what more can I ask for. Will stay in this industry for a period of time I guess. Training much. Needs motivations to keep me going though. but all in all. JIAYOU ANNE! been staying at home this past few days doing stuff and thinking through alot of things. Many things ran through my mind and I kinda make through what I wanted already. Life's gonna be good. I know it will. CIAOS

Written @10:18 AM

Monday, December 20, 2010

ITS CHRISTMAS!!

finally decided to come and keep this abandoned blog alive after so long. its xmas!! the favourite season of all times! What are the plans you guys come up with? I've decided to head down to meleka with a bunch of friends exploring the different places that we can go. Time to reward ourself for the end of year so that we will have a good starts! resolution coming up!! In the next post =)

Written @3:21 AM

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Smiles. Laughter. Joy was what we shared in times of difficult. Now that you're gone. Everything seems different. is it meant to be this way? or is it just me that is the problem that everything seems to break. I miss you and you and you and you and you. How many you have I lost? Maybe its just me.

Been wondering alot of things. The older people gets the more fake they have to be, simply because, the more real u are, people might not be real to you. So whats the purpose. I lost so many friends to realise I have many. but everything is too late. i only want peace now. maybe its the lights, maybe its the mood, maybe its everything that happens beside me that makes me feel I need you. but whatever it is. I need to step it out.

Seems to be waiting for a never ending thing. haishs. ciaoo. no mood.

Written @5:53 AM

Friday, September 03, 2010

When nothing goes right, all we have to do is to go left. but what if there isnt left?

Sitting in the same old place of grid. the uncle came and empty the bin. sounds of people typing on the keyboard. useless conversations going around. emails, phone rangs, emails, phone rangs and again and again!. Lunch! someone shouted. same old place same old food same old routine. I seriously wonder. when will i get tired of this life.

"Do it do it" I reminded myself endless time of the things that I need to complete within the time frame that I can't even named I have. what more to say having time to have a break. enjoy myself and think through everything. I'm too tired. really too tired. suddenly, i recalled something that i realli hope will happeen again.

"low low low low slow slow slow slow"
"junwei high le! 140 le!!"
"shan hu HAI! tooth fairy turn!!"
"below the overhead bridge sure got U turn de!!"
"reaches a place, SCREAM!!!!!"

that is what came to my mind when all the works are piled and i dunno what to do. It is provven. I neeeeddd a getaway. to a place whereby my phone wont ring., my homework wont look at me, and im stress free. KHAKIKs. travell plssssssssss.

- I need a getaway. to heaven -

Written @7:31 AM

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

greetings netizens!

alot of times in life, i always wonder whether i am leading the right life. whether this is the path im going. recently a thought came to me. that this is life. we learn, we make mistake, we fell and we learn again. we have to fall countlessly. i dunno why. there are alot of times in my life that i always wonder. why why why why why why. but i guess ultimately. there is no explainations to anything and i learnt that. we just need to be happy everyday. things will reach its conclusion one day.

i've move on to another phase in life. im back in grid for 2nd intern and taking up a new part tin=me instead of stucking myself in dolphin lagoon. and only after i left i realise that the world is very big. i straighten out alot recently. thinking abt the past. and this particular person. of why will things comes to an end. time will heal the pain but not the scar that is left. the older we get. we realise there are more scars in our life.

also, someone mentioned that the only SHIP that wont sink is friendship. btu in my opinion. friendship is the boat that is easiest to sink. because it contains too mani people. people just wont understand what they are doing. also. to the person that i've waited. i learnt alot. its right that the feelings wont fade, i will just have to move it to someone else. but im proud because its fading. im leading a good life now. food, peace, money. isnt that wad we have been requesting all alot. i duno what is this blog post for. but im back to blogging =D

Written @9:39 PM

Sunday, July 04, 2010

maybe age is catching up with me. maybe im just getting tired of the place that i stayed for the past 2 year plus. maybe its because of the bad memories that makes me wanting to leave and the good memories arent strong enough to make me stay. and many many many reasons. i think i need a new job. and i am looking for one. whether where it is. thats a secret for now :)

birthday is exactly 3 days from now. and i still not looking very forward to that day. i used to be looking forward to this very day thinking that this is MY day and i should enjoy it to the fullest. but i realise. i didnt even make any plans to celebrate it this year. HAHAH. so much for looking forward to it. maybe will just hide one corner. but anyway. i guess a thing that doesnt change during ur birthday is the gifts that you wanted. okays i always wanted a couple of things. not only during my birthday but getting it once i got my pay. HAHAA! here goes.

- Secret Mission To Succeed :)
- Dslr Additional Flashlite. (investment hmm.)
- Holga!
- Sticky Landyard and Sticky Cap!
- Dresses
- New job
- A day to enjoy myself freely
- Better grades in School
- Phase pampering on my hair =)
- Water bottle
- a new phone!
- itouch / just a simple mp3 =)

Just wanna to enjoy a day. surprises? okay i love surprises. HAHAH. who doesnt... trust me. surprise is the world most ultimate best gifts everr. haha. owells. im done here. veryveryvery happy because my design today was being praised.. like there is this moment that i depress because i feel that i am totally not talented in designing. but today my faci actually say" i dun think that you need to worry about that" OMG. u know how much it really meant to me?! like HUGEEEE. hahaha, bt it just proves to me. all i need is to really work harder and hard works pays. HAHA. tilll then. toodles.

Written @9:47 PM

Monday, June 28, 2010

Because friends and drinks comes together

farewell mr woosa~ really had great moments knowing you and enjoying th KL trip with you. time for you to enlist and welcome botak life. haha. 2 years gonna be short and when you're done.. we gonna plan a further getaway trip kays! hahah. anyway. just before he left to enlist, we decided to have a farewell for him. planned everything on time but the usual us. we're late. sorry to ahma and apple for waiting for so long! our usual pattern ah. haha. ended the bus terminated at bugis area. wtf! we walked around from places to places just to decide what we wanna eat and ended up over at MOF at suntec. enjoyed and walked to timbre after that. so wanting to drive there. good thing - we dun need to spend so much time walking. bad thing - the person driving can't drink. lols.. then what's the fun of going there. haha. anyway. timbre is great.. damn great. had fun chilled there and enjoyed ALL the drinks and the duck pizza. roam-ed around and everyone didnt wanted the night to end. but owells. all the best to junwei! looking forward to our melaka food trip =)

ever felt so useless when you don't know how comfort someone close to you but he is feeling so sad that you feel his sadness too? a first friend that I know since the day i started working. a friend that after all this years proves that friendship conquers all and that friends doesnt needs to have everyday conversation, he proves to me that friends doesn't needs to keep in contact every single day. he proves to me that at the end of the day. i have him and he have me. thats all it matters. who says platonic relationship dont works. to my forever friend. life is hard and i totally know how u feel when both of ur loved ones left u in 3 days. wait for 5 years and i believe we will all be ready to attend ur wedding! and i'm sorry for ur lost. i know u might not see this but stay strong. i will always be here spiderguy. loves =)

suddenly a thought strikes me today when someone u know quarrelled with me a lot of years ago and now added me on facebook. this little button over there. "add as friend" or "delete" changes people life completely. just by clicking that button doesnt makes the people disappear from your life. by deleting that person doesnt make memories lost. I plainly hate it when people delete each other from facebook. does that makes any different? all it is was that u didnt want that person to know abt ur life isnt it. but after all this thing. it doesnt erase anything. i realli realli realli detest those that delete me off from fb and that is why i NEVER ever delete ppl from facebook no matter how harsh things happened. why bother picking up a thing that u deemed as rubbish and throw it to the floor, and u realise. o0ps. i threw the wrong thing. and u wanted to pick it up again and thinking.. oh i threw away the wrong thing. fucking hate this kind of thinking. and i hate it when ppl say. hey u changed. wtf, who are u to judge whether i've changed or not. dun determine other people life as if you know them SOOO well. freak it. just a freaking random talk. but being so soft hearted... i will still talk to u haha, im retarded. blog soon =)

Written @7:33 AM