Assalamualaikum, Anis.
It has been 5 months till the moment you typed this.
I hope by this time, COVID-19 cases are going better. Lesser each day.
I hope by this time, you (Anis) are more wiser. Calmer being. And redha for everything that Allah swt has bestow upon you.
It's okay Anis.
Take your time. Its already written, and good timings for everything.
You can't rush things. You MUST not.
I hope you already find someone that loves you, and supports you and looking forward to be your husband - by this time.
If not, then, start looking around for another opportunities to soar high!
I mean, find scholarship.
Anis. 28/1/2021